{"id":11316,"date":"2015-03-20T12:31:47","date_gmt":"2015-03-20T08:31:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11316"},"modified":"2015-03-20T12:31:47","modified_gmt":"2015-03-20T08:31:47","slug":"tural-sahab-olumun-yeddi-r%c9%99ngi-kos%c9%99-yazisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11316","title":{"rendered":"Tural SAHAB.”\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn yeddi r\u0259ngi” (K\u00f6\u015f\u0259 yaz\u0131s\u0131)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u018fd\u0259biyyat iki \u015fey \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qurulmu\u015fdu- sevgi v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm. Sevgini az da olsa anlad\u0131q, anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131q b\u0259s \u00f6l\u00fcm. \u00d6l\u00fcm n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, insan n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr? Tanr\u0131 \u00f6z \u0259s\u0259rini n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259hv edir. Dinl\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn son olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yeni bir ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Buna inan\u0131rd\u0131, inanmaq ist\u0259yirdi g\u0259nc ba\u011fban. Ax\u0131 o, ba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259r\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259n, onlar yeti\u015fdikd\u0259n sonra k\u0259sirdi, k\u0259sm\u0259lidir. Yeni tomurcuqlar g\u00fcl olsun dey\u0259. Bir g\u00fcl\u00fcn a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131b, sonra solmas\u0131, \u0259n n\u0259hay\u0259tind\u0259 torpa\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdimi insan \u00f6mr\u00fc. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 beynind\u0259 cavabs\u0131z suallar vard\u0131 ki, bu suallara cavab tapmaqdan acizdi, bir bil\u0259n\u0259- a\u011fsaqqala ehtiyac duyurdu. El\u0259 h\u0259yat da sevgi v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qurulmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u0131. \u018fd\u0259biyyat ya\u015faya bilm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00fcsyan\u0131 deyildimi. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olan, sevdiyin\u0259 qovu\u015fan niy\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259r yazs\u0131n ki? Ancaq \u00f6l\u00fcm el\u0259 bir \u015feydi ki, sevdiyin\u0259 qovu\u015fsa da, qovu\u015fmasa da, z\u0259ngin v\u0259ya kas\u0131b ya\u015fasa da sonunda h\u0259r k\u0259si g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn olmas\u0131 \u0259slind\u0259 bir yerl\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259dal\u0259tin olmas\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259lili idi. Ya\u015fas\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131rd\u0131..<\/p>\n

Birinci r\u0259ng: Ba\u011fban yeti\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259ri k\u0259sir. Bu \u0259trafdan baxanlara q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6rs\u0259n\u0259 bil\u0259r, ancaq bil\u0259nl\u0259r bilir ki, g\u00fcl\u00fcn k\u0259silm\u0259si bitginin ya\u015famas\u0131, yenid\u0259n tumurcuqlamas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259rtdi. Ba\u011fban olan Allah \u00f6z yeti\u015f\u0259n g\u00fcll\u0259rini- insanlar\u0131 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ilk r\u0259ngini el\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rinin aras\u0131nda anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ancaq q\u0259lbinin t\u0259tmin olmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha art\u0131\u011f\u0131na ehtiyac duyurdu- ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yollara d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259- g\u0259zib, dola\u015fma\u011f g\u0259r\u0259k duydu. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6l\u00fcm adl\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti anlama\u011fa h\u0259sr ed\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7ox qorxurdu deyil\u0259nl\u0259rin yalan olmas\u0131ndan, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn son- yox olma\u011f\u0131ndan. \u00dcr\u0259yindki f\u0259ryad\u0131 dindirm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131, dindirm\u0259k. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumub d\u00f6nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir xeyli f\u0131rland\u0131qdan sonra dayand\u0131 v\u0259 o t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 do\u011fru getm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Onu n\u0259l\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi, \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 g\u0259lirdi. Gec\u0259- g\u00fcnd\u00fcz dayanmadan yol getdi. Gecl\u0259ri \u00e7ay k\u0259narlar\u0131nda qurba\u011falar\u0131n n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sini dinl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259rs\u0259 buludlarla yar\u0131\u015fa- yar\u0131\u015fa gedirdi. H\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259 bir g\u00f6z\u0259llik g\u00f6r\u00fcr, duyurdu. Qurba\u011falar\u0131n s\u0259sini \u0259vv\u0259ll\u0259r he\u00e7 sevm\u0259zdi. Bu qurultu onu \u00e7ox narahat edirdi gec\u0259l\u0259ri ba\u011f\u0131nda yatma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fark\u0259n. Ancaq indi o qurultuda bel\u0259 ilahi bir hikm\u0259t g\u00f6r\u00fcr, o s\u0259si l\u0259zz\u0259tl\u0259 dinl\u0259yirdi. \u00d6z- \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Y\u0259qin ki, qurba\u011falar da bizim s\u0259simizi sevmir, bu c\u00fcr d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Ancaq g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n onlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n d\u0259 bir d\u0259li \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b insan s\u0259sini sev\u0259 bil\u0259rdimi. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini ba\u015fqalar\u0131 e\u015fits\u0259ydi y\u0259qin onu d\u0259li adland\u0131rard\u0131. Gec\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcz nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l bir ah\u0259ngl\u0259 bir- biril\u0259rini \u0259v\u0259z edirdi ilahi. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015f yenid\u0259n batmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn do\u011fur, gec\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi qar\u015f\u0131lamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. Bu yol\u00e7uluqda h\u0259r gec\u0259nin, h\u0259r g\u00fcn\u00fcn bir- birind\u0259n f\u0259rql\u0259ndiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

\u0130kinci r\u0259ng: H\u0259r gec\u0259, h\u0259r g\u00fcn bir- birind\u0259n f\u0259rqlidis\u0259, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin yenid\u0259n do\u011fa bilm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259nin \u00f6lm\u0259si laz\u0131md\u0131sa, dem\u0259li \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259 h\u0259yat var. \u00d6l\u00fcm yoxlu\u011fa deyil, varl\u0131\u011fa- h\u0259yat\u0131n davam etm\u0259sin\u0259 xidm\u0259t edir.<\/p>\n

Iki r\u0259ngi il\u0259 r\u0259ngl\u0259nmi\u015fdi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn. Daha indid\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss edirdi. Kim bilir b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259ti d\u0259rk ed\u0259nd\u0259n sonra nec\u0259 olacaqd\u0131, n\u0259l\u0259ri hiss edib, n\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259kdi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rc\u0259, gec\u0259l\u0259rc\u0259 \u00e7ay k\u0259nar\u0131nda qal\u0131b su s\u0259sini, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin do\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131 qurba\u011falar\u0131n d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etdi. Ayr\u0131lmaq ist\u0259mirdi bu d\u00fcnyadan. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sahibsiz qoyub harasa gets\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259rinin sonu nec\u0259 olar, onlara kim qulluq ed\u0259r. \u0130ndi bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259llikl\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u00fcll\u0259ri a\u011fl\u0131na bel\u0259 g\u0259lmirdi. Da\u011flarda, \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nl\u0259r minl\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fcl n\u00f6v\u00fc vard\u0131. Kimdi bunlar\u0131 qoruyan, qulluq ed\u0259n. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r qulluq ets\u0259 d\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt bu q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz, g\u00f6z\u0259l olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. O, el\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259ti kirl\u0259d\u0259nin, yox ed\u0259nin insan oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t i\u00e7ind\u0259. S\u0259n dem\u0259 insan b\u00fct\u00fcn heyvanlardan daha v\u0259h\u015fi bir varl\u0131qd\u0131. Sevdikl\u0259rinin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 qidalanan insan. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qorxma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bir az da buralarda qalsa a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n qorxub, yenid\u0259n yollara d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. G\u00fcnl\u0259rc\u0259 yol getdi, gec\u0259l\u0259rc\u0259 dinl\u0259di ana t\u0259bi\u0259ti. \u018fn \u00e7ox s\u0259rin bulaqlardan i\u00e7diyi suyu sevdi, \u0259n d\u0259rin duyqular\u0131 gec\u0259l\u0259ri ulduzlar\u0131 seyr ed\u0259rk\u0259n ya\u015fad\u0131. Oxudu\u011fu kitablar deyirdi: \u2013 ulduzlar s\u00f6nd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra uzun ill\u0259r i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7ma\u011fa davam edir. \u0130ndi bizim g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz b\u0259zi ulduzlar min ill\u0259r \u00f6nc\u0259 s\u00f6nm\u00fc\u015f ola bil\u0259r. \u0130nsan da ulduzlar kimi olmal\u0131 deyilmi? \u00d6ld\u00fckd\u0259n min ill\u0259r sonra bel\u0259 i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7ma\u011fa davam etm\u0259lidir. \u0130nsan\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 is\u0259 ancaq \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259ri ola bil\u0259r. Ulduzlar\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r sevdi ki, daha gec\u0259l\u0259ri yol al\u0131b, g\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri dinc\u0259lir, t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr edirdi. G\u00fcnd\u00fcz insan h\u0259r \u015feyi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cburdur, bu da insan\u0131 yorur, ancaq gec\u0259l\u0259r yaln\u0131z g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n, dinc\u0259lir varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n. Gec\u0259nin r\u0259ngi il\u0259 r\u0259ngl\u0259ndi \u00f6mr\u00fc. B\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc gec\u0259nin qaranl\u0131\u011f\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259dirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc r\u0259ng: \u018fg\u0259r gec\u0259 yoxluq deyils\u0259, sad\u0259c\u0259 b\u0259zi h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rt\u00fcrs\u0259, o zaman \u00f6l\u00fcm niy\u0259 yoxluq olsun ki?! \u00d6l\u00fcm h\u0259yat\u0131n, ya\u015fam\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin batmas\u0131d\u0131r. Nec\u0259 ki, gec\u0259d\u0259n sonra g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f do\u011fur, \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonra yeni bir dirili\u015f m\u00fctl\u0259q olacaqd\u0131r. H\u0259r gec\u0259nin sabah\u0131, h\u0259r q\u0131\u015f\u0131n bahar\u0131, h\u0259r g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcl\u0259 \u00e7evril\u0259c\u0259yi g\u00fcn m\u00fctl\u0259q g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n

Bir az daha r\u0259ngl\u0259nmi\u015fdi sonsuzlu\u011fun r\u0259ngi il\u0259. Yola davam el\u0259di. Daha bahar\u0131n n\u0259f\u0259si donur, q\u0131\u015f soyuq q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00fcll\u0259rin ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259llad kimi dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131\u015fda yola davam el\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcm\u00fck\u00fcn deyildi. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 k\u0259ndl\u0259rd\u0259n birind\u0259 yaza q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq tapmaq \u00fcmidi il\u0259 yolunu k\u0259ndin yan\u0131ndan sald\u0131. \u00c7ox axtard\u0131qdan sonra ona qoca bir qar\u0131n\u0131n evini g\u00f6st\u0259rdil\u0259r. T\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131na ya\u015fayan bu qad\u0131na bir yard\u0131mc\u0131 laz\u0131md\u0131 ki, bu soyuq q\u0131\u015f\u0131 sa\u011f olaraq ba\u015fa vura bilsin. H\u0259m qalacaq yer tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131na, h\u0259m d\u0259 bir insana ( \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n olan bir insana) yard\u0131m ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259, g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc bo\u015funa ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7ox sevindirdi. G\u0259lib qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Titr\u0259k \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 a\u011faca s\u00f6yk\u0259nmi\u015f, h\u0259ddind\u0259n art\u0131q ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b, onu i\u00e7\u0259riy\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra art\u0131q tan\u0131\u015f olub, qar\u0131 n\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 yard\u0131m\u0131c\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130lahi, nec\u0259 sevinirdi ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n. Atas\u0131 uzaq s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n bir u\u015faq, ya da ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan sonra tam \u00fcmidini k\u0259smi\u015fk\u0259n sevdiyin\u0259 qovu\u015fan a\u015fiq kimi sevincliydi. G\u00fcnl\u0259rini qar\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259k, bo\u015f vaxtlar\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 onunla d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259r\u0259k ke\u00e7irirdi. N\u0259l\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, n\u0259l\u0259r\u2026 oxudu\u011fu b\u00fct\u00fcn kitablardan utand\u0131. \u0130ndiy\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r niy\u0259 insanlar\u0131 oxumaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 kitablara \u00fcz tutub, axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259ti aciz v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. Kitablar hans\u0131sa yazar\u0131n t\u0259x\u0259yy\u00fcl\u00fc, insanlarsa Tanr\u0131n\u0131n \u0259s\u0259ri idi. Ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015fdan, ne\u00e7\u0259 bahardan sonra bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u015feyl\u0259r bilirdi, ancaq n\u0259y\u0259 yaras\u0131n ki, ind\u0259n bel\u0259 bu bildikl\u0259ri. U\u015faqlar\u0131 at\u0131b getmi\u015f, \u00f6m\u00fcr- g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131 is\u0259 \u00e7oxdan r\u0259hm\u0259t\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Bu ya\u015f\u0131nda insanlardan he\u00e7 n\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259yi, onlara g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259m\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u018fzab ver\u0259n bir \u015feydi bu, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fark\u0259n anlay\u0131rsan ki, insanlara g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259k, inanmaq olmaz. \u018fn \u00e7ox sevdikl\u0259ri qanatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 q\u0259lbini, \u0259n \u00e7ox d\u0259y\u0259r verdikl\u0259ri a\u011flatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onu. Qar\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n\u0131n i\u015fg\u0259nc\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ndi ona sad\u0259 insan yox, bir ana n\u0259z\u0259ri il\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. D\u0259rk edirdi ki, bu qar\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015famas\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n daha yax\u015f\u0131 deyildi. Ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131- oradak\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259ri xat\u0131rlad\u0131. Yeti\u015fib, saralan g\u00fcll\u0259ri nec\u0259 k\u0259sdiyini ke\u00e7irdi g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259n. Tanr\u0131n\u0131n bu g\u00fcl\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7ox yax\u0131nda qoparaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlay\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcnl\u0259r r\u00fczgar\u0131n kirpikl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7di. A\u011facalar ilk \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rini a\u00e7ma\u011fa ba\u015flayanda, ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n sonuncu \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yini d\u0259 t\u00f6kd\u00fc- bu yuxudan ay\u0131l\u0131b, bu d\u00fcnyadan k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fc. Sad\u0259 bir q\u0259bir qaz\u0131b d\u0259fn etdi, sirda\u015f\u0131n\u0131. \u00c7ox \u015fey \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi ya\u015fl\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259sind\u0259n, \u00e7ox \u015fey\u2026 O, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc soru\u015fdu. Qad\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131 anlatd\u0131. O, h\u0259yat\u0131 ist\u0259di, qad\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. \u018fslind\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n nec\u0259 v\u0259hd\u0259t t\u0259\u015fkil etdiyini \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

D\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc r\u0259ng: M\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n bir zamandan sonra insan\u0131n ya\u015famas\u0131 deyil, \u00f6lm\u0259si g\u00f6z\u0259ldi, r\u0259hm\u0259tdi. Ya\u015fanan bir g\u00fcn nec\u0259 bitirs\u0259, qopar\u0131lan bir g\u00fcl nec\u0259 quruyursa, h\u0259r arzunun- \u00fcmidin nec\u0259 bir sonu olursa, ya\u015fanan bir \u00f6mr\u00fcn d\u0259 sonu olmal\u0131d\u0131r. Tanr\u0131 qocal\u0131b \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f b\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rinin daha art\u0131q \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259l\u0259rini ist\u0259m\u0259diyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, onlar\u0131 yan\u0131na al\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 yollara d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan qa\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. He\u00e7 n\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n g\u00fcnl\u0259rc\u0259 yeridi. K\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r \u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131 doyunca, sonra g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di- n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259diyini \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n\u2026 M\u0259zarl\u0131qlardan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259, orada yatanlara saatlarca dua el\u0259di, ads\u0131z- sans\u0131z m\u0259zarlara salam verib, hal- \u0259hval tutdu. Ayaqlar\u0131na toxunsun dey\u0259 t\u0259bi\u0259tin ruhu ayaqyal\u0131n yeridi, yeridi v\u0259 \u0259n n\u0259hay\u0259tind\u0259 bir \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131. Burada bir n\u0259f\u0259rin var- g\u0259l el\u0259diyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Adam qumlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib, bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox uzaqlara yola salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun yan\u0131na g\u0259ldiyini duymad\u0131 bel\u0259. Bir xeyli s\u0259ssizc\u0259 dayand\u0131lar, sonra saatlar ke\u00e7di, sonra g\u00fcnl\u0259r. Adam sad\u0259c\u0259 z\u0259ruri ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr, sonra yenid\u0259n s\u00fckuta q\u0259rq olurdu. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsa da adam\u0131n dan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb, daha onu incitm\u0259di, ancaq oradan uzaqla\u015fmad\u0131 da. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259n bir s\u0259s bu adam\u0131n ona dan\u0131\u015facaq bir hekay\u0259sinin oldu\u011funu deyirdi. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259brl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259di, bahar\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi g\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 Aradan h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259r, sonra aylar ke\u00e7di. \u0130ndi onun da sa\u00e7\u0131- saqqal\u0131 uzanm\u0131\u015f, d\u0259rsinin r\u0259ngi g\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131nda yan\u0131b, m\u00f6hk\u0259ml\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Bir g\u00fcn yabanc\u0131 adam s\u00f6z\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131: \u2013 indi vaxt\u0131d\u0131, indi s\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn be\u015finci r\u0259ngini v\u0259 \u00f6z hekay\u0259mi anladacam.<\/p>\n

Be\u015finci r\u0259ng: B\u0259zi \u015feyl\u0259r var ki, onun m\u00fckafat v\u0259 c\u0259zas\u0131 bu d\u00fcnya \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm v\u0259 ondan sonra g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k olan hesab g\u00fcn\u00fc m\u00fctl\u0259qdir. Bir d\u0259 bu h\u0259yatda he\u00e7 kims\u0259 u\u011frunda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 ya\u015fayacaq q\u0259d\u0259r qiym\u0259tli deyil. \u0130nsan \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015famal\u0131- \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox sevirdim, h\u0259r k\u0259s kimi. Bilirs\u0259nmi indi sevir\u0259m dey\u0259nd\u0259, \u00e7ox sevirdim dey\u0259nd\u0259 insanlar g\u00fcl\u00fcr, adama d\u0259li kimi bax\u0131rlar. O q\u0259d\u0259r ucuzla\u015f\u0131b ki, sevgi, sevgili\u2026. N\u0259is\u0259 hekay\u0259mi anlat\u0131m v\u0259 s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x get, buras\u0131 s\u0259nin yerin deyil\u2026<\/p>\n

\u201c Bir g\u00fcn g\u0259lib, ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 sevdiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di v\u0259 getdi\u201d \u2013 heyak\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259rdi. Gerisini \u00f6z\u00fcn anla, \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn. H\u0259r \u015feyimi verdiyim bir insan bunu dedi v\u0259 getdi . \u0130ndi dey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n ki, burada n\u0259 var s\u0259ni sevm\u0259yib v\u0259 gedib. Ancaq el\u0259 olmad\u0131, ged\u0259rk\u0259n m\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131, \u00fcmid v\u0259 x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131 o\u011furlad\u0131. \u018fg\u0259r \u0259ynind\u0259ki paltar\u0131 o\u011furlayan adam o\u011fru adlan\u0131rsa v\u0259 bunun bir c\u0259zas\u0131 varsada, \u00fcmidl\u0259rini o\u011furlayan niy\u0259 o\u011fru olmas\u0131n v\u0259 niy\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131n?! Bax bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm var, bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcm laz\u0131ml\u0131d\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki ikinci dediyim o\u011frular\u0131n yarq\u0131land\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259, yaln\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonras\u0131nda var\u2026. bu birinci m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259<\/p>\n

S\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevdiyini deyir. \u00dcmidin, arzun- h\u0259r \u015feyin olur. Sonra ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 sevdiyini deyir v\u0259 onlar\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259n al\u0131b gedir. Bir d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn Allah des\u0259 ki, bu h\u0259yat\u0131- bu \u0259li, ruhu, \u00fcr\u0259yi m\u0259n s\u0259ni sev\u0259rk\u0259n vermi\u015fdim. Daha s\u0259ni sevmir\u0259m v\u0259 verdikl\u0259rimi al\u0131b, gedir\u0259m. Olarm\u0131 bel\u0259 bir \u015fey?!- t\u0259bii ki, yox. ..Bu da ikinci m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259. \u0130ndi get v\u0259 ya\u015fa. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat iki hiss\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259tdir- \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n sonra. H\u0259r ikisinin haqq\u0131n\u0131 ver.<\/p>\n

Alt\u0131nc\u0131 r\u0259ngi, ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n h\u0259r anda g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Bu r\u0259ngi kims\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 anlata bilm\u0259z. H\u0259r bit\u0259n gec\u0259nin sonras\u0131nda, h\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259n bahar\u0131n \u00f6gey n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 bir az daha r\u0259ng\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn alt\u0131nc\u0131 r\u0259ngi il\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Yeddinci r\u0259ngi , is\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm g\u0259ldiyi zaman g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Bu r\u0259ngi, yaln\u0131z \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r bilir\u2026<\/p>\n

Ya\u015fa- evl\u0259n, u\u015faqlar\u0131n olsun. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ya\u015fa, ancaq r\u0259ngl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdiyin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc he\u00e7 unutmayaraq\u2026.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u018fd\u0259biyyat iki \u015fey \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qurulmu\u015fdu- sevgi v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm. Sevgini az da olsa anlad\u0131q, anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131q b\u0259s \u00f6l\u00fcm. \u00d6l\u00fcm n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, insan n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcr? Tanr\u0131 \u00f6z \u0259s\u0259rini n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259hv edir. Dinl\u0259r \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn son olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, yeni bir ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Buna inan\u0131rd\u0131, inanmaq ist\u0259yirdi g\u0259nc ba\u011fban. Ax\u0131 o, ba\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 g\u00fcll\u0259r\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nd\u0259n, onlar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11316","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11316","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11316"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11316\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11317,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11316\/revisions\/11317"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11316"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11316"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11316"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}