{"id":11435,"date":"2015-04-01T17:59:43","date_gmt":"2015-04-01T13:59:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11435"},"modified":"2015-04-03T13:20:00","modified_gmt":"2015-04-03T09:20:00","slug":"s%c9%99han%c9%99-musfiq-n%c9%99-yazim-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11435","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259han\u0259 M\u00dc\u015eF\u0130Q.”N\u0259 yaz\u0131m?!” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda d\u0259ft\u0259r, \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, nec\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi. H\u0259r zaman s\u0259sli – k\u00fcyl\u00fc, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 yerind\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259y\u0259n nadinc u\u015faq indi bacard\u0131qca h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lac\u0131 olsayd\u0131 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 he\u00e7 kim onu g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259 yerin dibin\u0259 d\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131 olard\u0131. K\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0259lbi h\u00fcrkm\u00fc\u015f bir qu\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yi kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131, sanki k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc yar\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa can at\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 iki damla ya\u015f gil\u0259l\u0259nib azadl\u0131\u011fa \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. Birc\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131rpma\u011f\u0131na b\u0259ndmi\u015f kimi b\u0259yaz v\u0259r\u0259qin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 bozumtul l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259r \u0259m\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259ldi. \u00d6z\u00fc \u00f6z etdiyind\u0259n utan\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi sol \u0259lini h\u0259min l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131, \u00fcrk\u0259k – \u00fcrk\u0259k \u0259trafa boyland\u0131. Ondan ba\u015fqa sinifd\u0259ki b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u015faqlar ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b dayanmadan n\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131. Birc\u0259 o idi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 a\u011f v\u0259r\u0259q\u0259 baxan.
\nYax\u015f\u0131 ki p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin yan\u0131nda oturmu\u015fdu. Arada bir p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n boylan\u0131b idman d\u0259rsi ke\u00e7\u0259n ba\u015fqa sinif u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131 seyr edirdi. Fikri is\u0259 n\u0259 d\u0259rsd\u0259 idi, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 oynayan u\u015faqlarda. X\u0259yallar\u0131 \u00e7ox uzaqlarda idi, \u00e7ox uzaqlarda…
\n– Nadir…
\nM\u00fc\u0259llimin z\u0259hmli s\u0259si onu bu x\u0259yallardan ay\u0131rd\u0131. Onu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b M\u00fc\u0259llimin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxma\u011fa utand\u0131. S\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xartmadan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259rin\u0259 \u0259ydi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u00fc\u0259llim d\u0259 yaz\u0131 yazan u\u015faqlara mane olmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc davam etdirm\u0259di. Ancaq n\u0259 olsun ki, yen\u0259 d\u0259 yazma\u011fa he\u00e7 n\u0259 tapm\u0131rd\u0131. Onsuz da in\u015fa yaz\u0131 yaza bilmirdi, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ondan – bundan k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu d\u0259f\u0259ki m\u00f6vzu is\u0259 onun k\u00f6vr\u0259k u\u015faq q\u0259lbini getdikc\u0259 daha da \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir az da bel\u0259c\u0259 ke\u00e7di. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 d\u0259rsin tez bitm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Allaha dua edirdi. He\u00e7 n\u0259 yazmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 “yaz\u0131” dan iki alaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilirdi, ancaq bu, onu he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u00fcrd\u00fc bel\u0259…
\n– Nadir, s\u0259n niy\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yazm\u0131rsan?
\nYen\u0259 d\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim onun yazmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb ac\u0131qlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 ondan cavab da t\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 ondan cavab da t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi.
\n– Yaz\u0131ram, m\u00fc\u0259llim.
\nBu d\u0259f\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim sinif\u0259 m\u00fcraci\u0259t etdi:
\n– Z\u0259ng\u0259 on d\u0259qiq\u0259 qal\u0131b, yekunla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131n art\u0131q.
\nBu an u\u015faq ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc yazd\u0131 in\u015fas\u0131n\u0131. Kims\u0259d\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrtm\u0259d\u0259n, kims\u0259d\u0259n yard\u0131m ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z s\u00f6zl\u0259rini, \u00f6z hissl\u0259rini yazd\u0131…
\n…Ax\u015fam b\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rini bitirib s\u0259h\u0259r \u015fagirdl\u0259rin\u0259 yazd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 in\u015fan\u0131 yoxlamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaz\u0131 masas\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7di. \u0130btidai sinif m\u00fc\u0259llimi idi R\u0259him\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259. \u0130yirmi il\u0259 yax\u0131n idi m\u00fc\u0259llimlik edirdi. \u015eagirdl\u0259rin\u0259 daim ana qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Lap k\u00f6rp\u0259 ya\u015flar\u0131ndan u\u015faqlar ana quca\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b onun qollar\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u0130ndiki sinfini d\u0259 iki il idi ki q\u0259bul etmi\u015fdi. \u015eagirdl\u0259rinin \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259kkiz ya\u015f\u0131 var idi. \u018fks\u0259riyy\u0259ti yeddi ya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqlar idi. Aralar\u0131nda \u00e7al\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 da var idi, nadinci d\u0259, t\u0259nb\u0259li d\u0259. Ancaq b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fagirdl\u0259rini bir ana m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti il\u0259 sevirdi…
\nAram – aram d\u0259ft\u0259rl\u0259ri a\u00e7ma\u011fa, yaz\u0131lar\u0131 oxuma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259r yaz\u0131n\u0131 oxuyandan sonra m\u00fcxt\u0259lif hissl\u0259r ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faqlar\u0131n s\u0259mimi s\u00f6zl\u0259ri \u00fcr\u0259yini k\u00f6vr\u0259ltmi\u015fdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t, n\u00f6vb\u0259 Nadir Cabbarl\u0131n\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131. Nadir d\u0259 sinifin d\u0259c\u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n biri, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 birincisi idi. D\u0259rs oxumaqla da he\u00e7 aras\u0131 yox idi. Ancaq saf, mehriban, bir az da k\u00f6vr\u0259k u\u015faq idi. Dig\u0259rl\u0259ri kimi onu da \u00e7ox sevirdi R\u0259him\u0259 m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259. Bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 d\u0259ft\u0259ri a\u00e7d\u0131. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u015fagirdinin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q, s\u0259liq\u0259siz x\u0259tti il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131. Amma yaz\u0131l\u0131 s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259rin sonuncusunda h\u0259m h\u0259rfl\u0259r bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259m d\u0259 m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, oxumaq \u00e7\u0259tinl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. El\u0259 bil yaz\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 su da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onsuz da in\u015fa \u00e7ox deyildi, c\u0259mi bir ne\u00e7\u0259 c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi, buna \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llimi u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n bu s\u0259liq\u0259sizliyi daha da \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131:
\n– Bu u\u015faq lap h\u0259ddini a\u015f\u0131b art\u0131q, indi buna iki yazmay\u0131b n\u0259 edim m\u0259n?
\nBir anl\u0131q \u0259s\u0259bini bo\u011fub yaz\u0131lan c\u00fcm
\n– Bu u\u015faq lap h\u0259ddini a\u015f\u0131b art\u0131q, indi buna iki yazmay\u0131b n\u0259 edim m\u0259n?
\nBir anl\u0131q \u0259s\u0259bini bo\u011fub yaz\u0131lan c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, oxuma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n“M\u00fc\u0259llim biz\u0259 ana haqq\u0131nda in\u015fa yazma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b. Bayaqdan fikirl\u0259\u015fir\u0259m, ancaq yazma\u011fa he\u00e7 n\u0259 tapm\u0131ram. Ax\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259diyim adam haqq\u0131nda n\u0259 yaza bil\u0259r\u0259m ki? Anam m\u0259n do\u011fulark\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcb. M\u0259nim “ana” dey\u0259rk\u0259n anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m t\u0259k \u015fey q\u0259biristanl\u0131qda bizi g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n soyuq m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131d\u0131”.
\n\u015eagirdin g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 islanm\u0131\u015f yaz\u0131s\u0131na daha iki damla ya\u015f da qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda d\u0259ft\u0259r, \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. N\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131, nec\u0259 yazaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdi. H\u0259r zaman s\u0259sli – k\u00fcyl\u00fc, bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 yerind\u0259 dayana bilm\u0259y\u0259n nadinc u\u015faq indi bacard\u0131qca h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n gizl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259lac\u0131 olsayd\u0131 bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 he\u00e7 kim onu g\u00f6rm\u0259sin dey\u0259 yerin dibin\u0259 d\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259 raz\u0131 olard\u0131. K\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0259lbi h\u00fcrkm\u00fc\u015f bir qu\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yi kimi \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131rd\u0131, sanki k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u00fc […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11435","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11435","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11435"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11435\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11436,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11435\/revisions\/11436"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11435"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11435"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11435"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}