{"id":11471,"date":"2015-04-03T15:10:56","date_gmt":"2015-04-03T11:10:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11471"},"modified":"2015-04-03T15:12:17","modified_gmt":"2015-04-03T11:12:17","slug":"harika-ufuk-gunaydin-kose-yazisi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=11471","title":{"rendered":"Harika UFUK.”G\u00fcnayd\u0131n!” (K\u00f6\u015fe yaz\u0131s\u0131)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temsilcisi<\/p>\n

Pek \u00e7ok ki\u015finin bildi\u011fi gibi iki k\u0131z annesiyim. “\u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131m, iki g\u00f6z\u00fcm” derim her zaman… Kitaplar\u0131mda da onlarla alakal\u0131 \u015fiirler, yaz\u0131lar bulunur. “G\u00fcz \u0130kindisi” adl\u0131 serbest \u015fiirlerimden olu\u015fan kitab\u0131m iki k\u0131z\u0131ma arma\u011fan\u0131md\u0131r. \u0130\u00e7ine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda Bu kitab\u0131m\u0131 hayat\u0131ma anlam katan sevgili k\u0131zlar\u0131m Sena ve Seda’ya ithaf ediyorum.” c\u00fcmlesiyle kar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z. \u00d6z ge\u00e7mi\u015fimde ise \u00f6zel hayat\u0131mdan s\u00f6z etmememe ra\u011fmen “Sena ve Seda adlar\u0131nda iki k\u0131z annesidir.” ibaresi mutlaka yer al\u0131r. D\u00fcn Sena’ya yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m \u015fiirimi payla\u015ft\u0131m, \u00e7ok be\u011fenilen, g\u00fczel yorumlar alan “Ebedi G\u00fcne\u015fim” hece tarz\u0131nda idi. Bu \u015fiirim 4 Mevsim K\u00fclt\u00fcr Sanat Edebiyat ve Haber Dergisinin Temmuz-A\u011fustos- Eyl\u00fcl say\u0131s\u0131nda yay\u0131nland\u0131. Bas\u0131ma haz\u0131rlanan “Bir Kalp B\u0131rakt\u0131m Sana” kitab\u0131mdaki \u015fiirlerden biriydi.<\/p>\n

Bug\u00fcn de 4 Nisan 2009’da evlenen k\u0131z\u0131m i\u00e7in onun k\u0131na gecesinde 6 y\u0131l \u00f6nce tam da bug\u00fcn yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir \u015fiirimi sizlerle payla\u015faca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ku\u015flar da zaman\u0131 gelince yuvadaki yavru ku\u015flar\u0131n u\u00e7mas\u0131n\u0131 isterler. \u0130lk yavrunun u\u00e7mas\u0131 anne ku\u015fu \u00fczer mi bilmiyorum ama bana \u00e7ok zor gelmi\u015fti. Yuvam\u0131zdan ilk u\u00e7an k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n evlili\u011fi i\u00e7in hem seviniyordum, hem de ondan ayr\u0131lma fikri i\u00e7imi \u00e7ok ac\u0131t\u0131yordu.K\u0131z\u0131m \u00e7ok hassas, \u00e7ok merhametli, ailesine ba\u011fl\u0131 biridir. O da sevdi\u011fi adamla evlenece\u011fi i\u00e7in \u00e7ok mutluydu ama 22 y\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 evinden, annesinden, ablas\u0131ndan ayr\u0131laca\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in \u00e7ok \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyordu<\/p>\n

\u00c7eyizleri g\u00fcnler \u00f6ncesinden yeni evine yerle\u015ftirilmi\u015fti. Her \u015fey g\u00f6nl\u00fcnce olmu\u015ftu.K\u0131z evi- o\u011flan evi diye bir kavram yoktu. Ben ilk kez k\u0131z gelin edecektim, onlar da ilk kez o\u011fullar\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcr\u00fcvvetini g\u00f6receklerdi. Herkes elinden geldi\u011fince yuvaya har\u00e7 koymu\u015ftu. Seda’ya ait hemen hemen b\u00fct\u00fcn e\u015fyalar yeni evindeki yerleri alm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. \u00c7ok keyifli ge\u00e7en k\u0131na gecesinde dostlar, akrabalar, k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131 doyas\u0131ya e\u011flenmi\u015flerdi. Geleneklerimiz de unutulmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. K\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u0131na giysileri, i\u00e7inde mumlar yanan s\u00fcsl\u00fc k\u0131na tepsisi, \u00e7erezler, k\u0131na yakarken gelinin avucuna konulacak alt\u0131nlara varana kadar haz\u0131rl\u0131kl\u0131yd\u0131k. Kay\u0131n validesi k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n avucuna yar\u0131m alt\u0131n koydu, k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ipek ba\u011flarla ba\u011flad\u0131.K\u0131na t\u00fcrk\u00fcleri de yan\u0131k yan\u0131k s\u00f6yleniyordu. H\u00fcz\u00fcn yava\u015f yava\u015f \u00e7\u00f6kmeye ba\u015flad\u0131ysa da k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n arkada\u015flar\u0131yla kuzenleri; benim can dostlar\u0131m Emine, Handan, Ne\u015fen ve k\u0131z karde\u015fim Yasemin ortam\u0131 ne\u015felendirdiler.<\/p>\n

K\u0131na bitip de davetliler gitmeye ba\u015flay\u0131nca yaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z iyice belirginle\u015fmi\u015fti. \u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131m ve ben ba\u015f ba\u015fa kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k. Sena b\u00f6ylesi durumlarda duygusall\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 da\u011f\u0131t\u0131r hep… Yine \u00f6yle yapt\u0131, bizi g\u00fcld\u00fcrd\u00fc ama biliyordum ki \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcm\u00fcz de a\u011flamamak i\u00e7in kendimizi zor tutuyorduk.<\/p>\n

K\u0131nada s\u00f6ylenen bir t\u00fcrk\u00fc vard\u0131r.
\n“K\u0131nay\u0131 getir ana
\n,Parma\u011f\u0131n bat\u0131r ana,
\nBu gece misafirim,
\nKoynunda yat\u0131r ana.”<\/p>\n

K\u0131z\u0131m Seda, evdeki bu son gecesinde benimle yatmak istedi. \u00c7ok farkl\u0131 duygular i\u00e7indeydi. Ana-k\u0131z gecenin karanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sohbete ba\u015flad\u0131k. “\u015eimdiye kadar benim dedi\u011fim her \u015fey benim de\u011filmi\u015f gibi geliyor anne… Siz \u00e7ekmeceleri bo\u015falt\u0131p i\u00e7inde bana ait olanlar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131k\u00e7a gard\u0131robum, \u00e7ekmecelerim bo\u015fald\u0131k\u00e7a sanki ben bunlara hi\u00e7 sahip olmam\u0131\u015f\u0131m gibi hissediyorum.” dedi. Bunun \u00fczerine a\u011flamaya ba\u015flad\u0131m, bu \u015fiiri yazarak eline verdim. \u00c7ok duyguland\u0131\u011f\u0131m zamanlarda konu\u015famam. A\u011flar\u0131m. \u015eu an bu sat\u0131rlar\u0131 yazarken a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m gibi…<\/p>\n

Bir o\u011flum olsayd\u0131 ancak bu kadar sevebilirdim. Sevgili damad\u0131m beni hi\u00e7 k\u0131rmad\u0131. Sayg\u0131s\u0131yla sevgisiyle g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn bebe\u011fi oldu. \u015eu anda k\u0131z\u0131m yedi ayl\u0131k hamile, ikiz bebek bekliyor. Can, baba; Seda da anne olacak k\u0131smetse may\u0131sta… \u0130lk torun derken ilk torunlar olacak. Biri k\u0131z ad\u0131 Arya, di\u011feri erkek ad\u0131 Uygar \u015fimdilik bu isimleri uygun g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fler. Do\u011fana kadar fikirler ve isimler de\u011fi\u015febilir ama evlat sevgisi asla de\u011fi\u015fmez, hi\u00e7bir \u015feyle de de\u011fi\u015filmez. Dilerim ki k\u0131z\u0131m sa\u011f salim bebeklerini kuca\u011f\u0131na als\u0131n, \u00f6mr\u00fcnce kocas\u0131 ve \u00e7ocuklar\u0131yla mutlu ya\u015fas\u0131n. Allah onlara da evlatlar\u0131n\u0131n m\u00fcr\u00fcvvetlerini g\u00f6stersin. Sevgilerimle…
\nheart duy\u011fusu<\/span><\/i>
\nSevgili k\u0131z\u0131m Seda\u2019ya\u2026
\nheart duy\u011fusu<\/span><\/i>
\nBO\u015eALAN YER<\/p>\n

Diyorsun ki:
\n“Benden bo\u015falan yeri
\nSiz doldurduk\u00e7a
\nY\u0131llard\u0131r bana ait olanlar
\nBenim de\u011filmi\u015f gibi geliyor.”<\/p>\n

Bize ait ne var ki d\u00fcnyada?
\nH\u0131rslar\u0131m\u0131z, \u00e7ekememezli\u011fimiz
\n\u00d6d\u00fcn\u00e7 verilenler i\u00e7inse
\n\u0130nan ki can par\u00e7am,
\nBo\u015funad\u0131r \u00e7o\u011fu sava\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z\u2026<\/p>\n

Senindi bir zamanlar,
\nSaltanat\u0131n vard\u0131 buralarda,
\nDamgan\u0131 vurmu\u015ftun
\nGezdi\u011fin her yana\u2026<\/p>\n

Sonra devir d\u00f6nd\u00fc,
\nYenilerine sahip \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131k\u00e7a
\nEskiler mi uzakla\u015ft\u0131 senden
\nYoksa sen miydin uzakla\u015fan?<\/p>\n

Senindi att\u0131\u011f\u0131n her ad\u0131m,
\nBast\u0131\u011f\u0131n toprak\u2026
\nU\u00e7 \u015fimdi y\u00fckseklerde gezin,
\nG\u00fcn ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e \u00e7o\u011falarak!<\/p>\n

Adana.3 Nisan 2009<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

  Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temsilcisi Pek \u00e7ok ki\u015finin bildi\u011fi gibi iki k\u0131z annesiyim. “\u0130ki k\u0131z\u0131m, iki g\u00f6z\u00fcm” derim her zaman… Kitaplar\u0131mda da onlarla alakal\u0131 \u015fiirler, yaz\u0131lar bulunur. “G\u00fcz \u0130kindisi” adl\u0131 serbest \u015fiirlerimden olu\u015fan kitab\u0131m iki k\u0131z\u0131ma arma\u011fan\u0131md\u0131r. \u0130\u00e7ine bakt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131zda Bu kitab\u0131m\u0131 hayat\u0131ma anlam katan sevgili k\u0131zlar\u0131m Sena ve Seda’ya ithaf ediyorum.” c\u00fcmlesiyle […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-11471","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-turkiy-dbiyyati"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11471","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=11471"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11471\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":11478,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/11471\/revisions\/11478"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=11471"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=11471"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=11471"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}