{"id":12236,"date":"2015-05-19T18:11:52","date_gmt":"2015-05-19T13:11:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12236"},"modified":"2015-05-19T18:13:29","modified_gmt":"2015-05-19T13:13:29","slug":"qapilari-taybatay-acin-qapiya-%c9%99l%c9%99m-g%c9%99lir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12236","title":{"rendered":"“Qap\u0131lar\u0131 taybatay a\u00e7\u0131n… Qap\u0131ya \u0259l\u0259m g\u0259lir!”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

U\u015faql\u0131qdan ham\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Ail\u0259mizd\u0259 d\u00f6rd u\u015faq vard\u0131. Ancaq, m\u0259ni k\u0259ndimizd\u0259 he\u00e7 kim tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131ya g\u0259l\u0259n qonaqlar m\u0259nim d\u0259 qonaq oldu\u011fumu san\u0131rd\u0131lar. O q\u0259d\u0259r qaraqabaq u\u015faq idim ki, bir d\u0259f\u0259 qon\u015fu qad\u0131nlardan biri demi\u015fdi:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131n bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na bax, el\u0259 bil adam\u0131 par\u00e7alayacaq. Allah, s\u0259n saxla!
\nO q\u0259d\u0259r ciddi v\u0259 qorxulu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131n olmas\u0131n\u0131 bilmirdim o g\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259n… V\u0259 o s\u00f6z\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 art\u0131q 9-cu sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdum. Amma, h\u0259l\u0259 k\u0259ndd\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00fczd\u0259n tan\u0131yan yaln\u0131z m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rim v\u0259 sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131m idi. Ad\u0131m is\u0259… Ad\u0131m\u0131 tez-tez e\u015fidirdim:
\n-\u015e\u0259fa yen\u0259 olimpiadada yer tutub!-bunu g\u00fcnorta saat 12-d\u0259 quzular\u0131n\u0131 ev\u0259 aparan Xanbaba day\u0131 demi\u015fdi. M\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259p\u0259rimiz\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259nib onun \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259ldiyini sanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, amma tez d\u0259 yad\u0131ma salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, ax\u0131, m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131r…
\n-\u015e\u0259fan\u0131n \u015feirini g\u00f6rd\u00fcnm\u00fc, q\u0259zetd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b!- m\u0259nd\u0259n iki sinif a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 oxuyan o\u011flan demi\u015fdi. Yen\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. M\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131… <\/p>\n

V\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlarla yana\u015f\u0131 yuxular\u0131m\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa qorxard\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc dan\u0131\u015fanda n\u0259s\u0259 olurdu. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 yuxuda g\u00f6rd\u00fcm ki, bizim \u0259ldam\u0131n\u0131n tavan\u0131 il\u0259 divar\u0131n aras\u0131ndan bir \u0259l uzan\u0131r i\u00e7\u0259riy\u0259… M\u0259n d\u0259 qorxuram… Diksinib ay\u0131ld\u0131m. Amma, susdum… Bu yuxunu da gizl\u0259dim. Az ke\u00e7m\u0259di, o \u0259l yen\u0259 yuxudan oyatd\u0131 m\u0259ni. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131m n\u0259n\u0259min \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259. Yuxumu dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259n\u0259m salavat \u00e7evirdi, anam\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131:
\n-Qap\u0131ya \u0259l\u0259m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Q\u0131z\u0131n yuxusuna g\u0259libs\u0259, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Haz\u0131rl\u0131ql\u0131 olun.
\nOxudu\u011fum kitab h\u0259l\u0259 yad\u0131mdad\u0131: C\u0259m\u015fid \u018fmirovun \u201cQara Volqa\u201ds\u0131… Qara paltarl\u0131, qara papaql\u0131, a\u011f saqqall\u0131, a\u011f sa\u00e7l\u0131, nurani bir qoca qap\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. \u018flind\u0259 uzun a\u011faca ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015f \u0259l\u0259m…
\n-Ay ev yiy\u0259si, \u0259l\u0259m\u0259 n\u0259ziriniz var, onu \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131n… Ay ev yiy\u0259si…
\nAnam, n\u0259n\u0259m \u0259l-aya\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Baba bir udum \u00e7ay da i\u00e7m\u0259di.
\n-M\u0259ni bura \u0259l\u0259m g\u0259tirdi, n\u0259ziri verin, gedim. \u018fl\u0259min yolu uzundu-dedi.
\nN\u0259zirini al\u0131b getdi… V\u0259 m\u0259n kitab\u0131m\u0131 yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoyub k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b onun arxas\u0131nca baxd\u0131m…
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\nQazaxda \u00fcz\u00fcm… \u0130st\u0259dim birin \u00fcz\u00fcm…
\n2008-ci ild\u0259 Qaza\u011fa ilk s\u0259f\u0259rim idi. Q\u0131raq K\u0259s\u0259m\u0259n k\u0259ndind\u0259 \u0130srafil a\u011fan\u0131n evinin divarlar\u0131na baxma\u011fa gedirdik. \u00dcz\u00fc K\u00fcr\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f dayand\u0131q. Sa\u011f t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259ki q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131lar\u0131 mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdi. M\u0259zarl\u0131\u011fa yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca \u00fcr\u0259yim xoflan\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259rim dolurdu… V\u0259 h\u0259r q\u0259brin ayaq ucunda balaca, \u00fcz\u00fc K\u00fcr\u0259 yuvalar vard\u0131… Q\u0259birl\u0259rin aras\u0131nda bir az h\u0259rl\u0259nib yolun soluna ke\u00e7dik. Ucsuz-bucaqs\u0131z kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcm t\u0259n\u0259kl\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131m… Yarpaqlar\u0131n aras\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcml\u0259rd\u0259n birini \u00fczm\u0259k ist\u0259dim. T\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7atma\u011fa bir ne\u00e7\u0259 add\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f k\u0259nd t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n bir ki\u015finin \u0259ll\u0259rini yell\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra-q\u0131\u015fq\u0131ra g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcm:
\n-Ay\u0259\u0259\u0259… Ay q\u0131z\u0131m… Ay u\u015faqq… D\u0259ym\u0259! T\u0259n\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259! D\u0259ym\u0259\u0259\u0259!!
\n\u0130ncinmi\u015fdi \u00fcr\u0259yim… Bir salx\u0131m \u00fcz\u00fcm n\u0259ydi ki, q\u0131y\u0131lm\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259? Kirimi\u015fc\u0259 geri qay\u0131d\u0131b yolun a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 en\u0259n hiss\u0259sin\u0259 do\u011fru y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015fdim. Ki\u015fi biz\u0259 \u00e7atanda \u0259ll\u0259rini dizl\u0259rin\u0259 dayay\u0131b t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259s halda dedi:
\n-\u0130ncimiyin, ay u\u015faq. Biz bu vaxt \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 \u0259l vurmuruq. Saat 12 olanda, g\u00fcn q\u0131zanda ilanlar K\u00fcr\u0259 t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr, d\u00fcz saat d\u00f6rd\u0259c\u0259n, g\u00fcn \u0259yil\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n suda olurlar. Biz d\u0259 can\u0131m\u0131za c\u0259fa bas\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc y\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131q o g\u00fcn\u00fcn duran vaxt\u0131nda. Bu d\u0259yq\u0259 o t\u0259n\u0259kd\u0259 h\u0259r yarpa\u011f\u0131n altda bir ilan q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131b yat\u0131r, \u0259l uzatsan \u00e7alar, pe\u015fman\u00e7al\u0131q olar…
\nKi\u015finin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 el\u0259 par\u0131lt\u0131 vard\u0131 ki… Can\u0131ma \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… O g\u00f6z\u0259l yay s\u0259h\u0259rind\u0259 K\u00fcr\u00fcn sahilind\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm… Di\u015fl\u0259rim di\u015fl\u0259rim\u0259 d\u0259ymi\u015fdi… Yaln\u0131z indi yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, u\u015faql\u0131qda n\u0259n\u0259m biz\u0259 ilan\u0131n yuvas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi:
\n-\u0130lan yuvas\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc suya t\u0259r\u0259f e\u015fir…
\nD\u00f6n\u00fcb q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131lar\u0131na v\u0259 onlar\u0131n ayaq ucundak\u0131 yuvalara baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m…
\nKi\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc dik\u0259ldib yolun K\u00fcr\u0259 en\u0259n hiss\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, \u0259lini ir\u0259li uzatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131:
\n-Q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015flar burdan t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr \u00e7aya… \u0130zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax, a q\u0131z\u0131m, el\u0259 bilm\u0259 qazaxl\u0131lar bir gil\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc q\u0131ym\u0131r sana!
\nTorpaq yolun \u00fcz\u00fca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 mill\u0259n\u0259n yerind\u0259 ilanlar\u0131n izl\u0259ri ayd\u0131nca g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc… H\u0259tta, aradabir k\u00f6hn\u0259 qab\u0131qlar\u0131 da vard\u0131… O izl\u0259r\u0259 ayaq qoyma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259tim \u00e7atmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131… Yolun \u00e7\u0259m\u0259nlik hiss\u0259si il\u0259 \u0130srafil a\u011fan\u0131n evin\u0259 getmi\u015fdik… Yanm\u0131\u015f, qaralm\u0131\u015f divarlara baxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q… \u018flimi o divarlara s\u00fcrtm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm… \u018fll\u0259rimin qaras\u0131na g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin ya\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259, damla-damla a\u011farm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ovuclar\u0131m…
\n***
\n\u201cM\u0259n na\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z yatammeram…\u201d
\nQazaxda gec\u0259l\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m o ilk v\u0259 son gec\u0259d\u0259n b\u0259ri… Onda Qarah\u0259s\u0259nlid\u0259 Xal\u0131qverdi m\u00fc\u0259llimgild\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Gec\u0259ni yatmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. N\u0259n\u0259min dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 hekay\u0259ti d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, Xal\u0131qverdi m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 nec\u0259 qohum oldu\u011fumuzu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm…
\nN\u0259n\u0259m Haj\u0131mu\u011fan q\u0131z\u0131 idi. Haj\u0131mu\u011fan G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 g\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcn o biri sahilind\u0259 imi\u015f. Sonradan b\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 ke\u00e7ib Haj\u0131mu\u011fanl\u0131lar. Bu hadis\u0259 ne\u00e7\u0259nci ill\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259sad\u00fcf edir, bilmir\u0259m, amma onlar\u0131 da yerind\u0259n-yurdundan ed\u0259n erm\u0259nil\u0259r olub. N\u0259n\u0259min dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 hekay\u0259t is\u0259 ondan da ir\u0259liy\u0259 dayan\u0131r.
\n… Haj\u0131mu\u011fanda iki n\u0259sil aras\u0131nda qan d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n\u00e7iliyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Qanl\u0131 n\u0259sild\u0259n biri k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc tutub Araz\u0131 ke\u00e7m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar verir. Bu n\u0259slin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131 k\u0259ndin say\u0131l\u0131b-se\u00e7il\u0259n n\u0259slind\u0259 g\u0259lin olur. T\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 ana olan bu g\u0259linin q\u0131z\u0131na Nar\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 verirl\u0259r. G\u0259linin \u0259ri zaha g\u0259lini k\u0259ndd\u0259 qoyub \u00f6z\u00fc s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcn ba\u015f\u0131nda da\u011fa qalx\u0131r. G\u0259lin\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r \u00e7at\u0131r ki, n\u0259slin-k\u00f6k\u00fcn, atan-qarda\u015f\u0131n Araz\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc atas\u0131n\u0131n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn\u0259, anas\u0131n\u0131n arabas\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131r. \u018fl \u00e7\u0259kmir ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 sizinl\u0259 gedir\u0259m… G\u0259linin \u0259rinin arxas\u0131nca k\u0259ndin d\u0259li-dolu bir o\u011flu at \u00e7ap\u0131r, haray sal\u0131r da\u011flara:
\n-G\u0259lin Nar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259 qo\u015fuldu, hey…
\n\u201c-Nar\u0131n!\u201d-dey\u0259 bir s\u0259s qopur g\u0259nc atan\u0131n sin\u0259sind\u0259n… \u0130lx\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l at\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7ib k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcn dal\u0131nca d\u0259hl\u0259yir. K\u00f6\u00e7 Araz\u0131 ke\u00e7hake\u00e7d\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131r. K\u00f6\u00e7\u0259 hay d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. G\u0259lin atas\u0131na yalvar\u0131r ki, onu geri g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259sin, n\u0259sli-k\u00f6k\u00fc olmadan ya\u015faya bilm\u0259z bu tayda… G\u0259linin atas\u0131 q\u0131l\u0131nc\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131y\u0131r\u0131b ir\u0259li at\u0131l\u0131r:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 verm\u0259r\u0259m!
\nG\u0259nc ata da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 dik\u0259ldir:
\n-Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 verm\u0259r\u0259m!-\u018flini at\u0131b arabadanca g\u0259linin quca\u011f\u0131ndan Nar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, at\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 geri d\u00f6nd\u0259rir… Deyil\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, Nar\u0131n\u0131n atas\u0131 \u00f6l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n dey\u0259rmi\u015f:
\n-G\u0259linin haray\u0131 qulaqlar\u0131mdan getmir…
\nN\u0259n\u0259min anas\u0131 idi k\u00f6rp\u0259yk\u0259n ana quca\u011f\u0131ndan ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f Nar\u0131n… Xal\u0131qverdi m\u00fc\u0259llim is\u0259 onun qarda\u015f\u0131 idi… V\u0259 m\u0259n Qazax gec\u0259sinin mistikas\u0131nda ill\u0259rin o tay\u0131na u\u00e7urdum… B\u00fct\u00fcn bu hekay\u0259ti g\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcm… Ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131m… S\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131yla ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b aynadan e\u015fiy\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m… H\u0259l\u0259 onda bilmirdim ki, \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ill\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259k, bir g\u00fcn Qazaxl\u0131 R\u00fcst\u0259min \u015feirini e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m: \u201cM\u0259n na\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z yatammeram…\u201d M\u0259ns\u0259… M\u0259ns\u0259, o mistik na\u011f\u0131lla yatmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… \u00d6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m o na\u011f\u0131l\u0131…
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\n\u201cM\u0259n Ruh g\u0259misiy\u0259m…\u201d
\nH\u0259r il, mart\u0131n 21-d\u0259 Qazaxda \u201cS\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011fun-poeziya bayram\u0131\u201d ke\u00e7irilir. 2014-c\u00fc ild\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 getdim. Qo\u015fdum n\u0259f\u0259simi Qaza\u011f\u0131n d\u0259rvi\u015f havas\u0131na, qo\u015fuldum Qaza\u011f\u0131n \u0259hli-\u00fcrfanlar\u0131na… \u00dczd\u0259n tan\u0131m\u0131rd\u0131m dey\u0259 yava\u015fca G\u00fclnar S\u0259man\u0131n qoluna toxunmu\u015fdum:
\n-Barat V\u00fcsal hans\u0131d\u0131r?
\n\u018fliyl\u0259 ir\u0259lini g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi… A\u011fsa\u00e7l\u0131 bir d\u0259rvi\u015f g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm el\u0259 bil… Bo\u011faz\u0131mda q\u0259h\u0259r y\u0131\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131… Ona yax\u0131nla\u015fmaq, salam verm\u0259k o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0259tin g\u0259lmi\u015fdi ki, m\u0259n\u0259… Yax\u0131nla\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… Karvan \u018fd\u0259biyyat muzeyind\u0259n yola ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259m\u0259d Vur\u011funun poeziya evind\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259miz bir \u015feir oxumu\u015fduq. O q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 v\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa haz\u0131r idim ki, hans\u0131 \u015feiri oxudu\u011fumu \u00f6z\u00fcm d\u0259 unutmu\u015fam… H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram… Ordan \u00fcz tutmu\u015fduq Osman Sar\u0131v\u0259llinin v\u0259 Eldar N\u0259sibli Sibirelin m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 ziyar\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259… Orda da titr\u0259mi\u015fdim… G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi yumub \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc Q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u00fcy\u0259 tutmu\u015fdum… K\u00fcl\u0259k sa\u00e7\u0131m\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131qca a\u011flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259 vermi\u015fdim, hara apar\u0131r apars\u0131n… Qay\u0131d\u0131b bir d\u0259 Molla V\u0259li Vidadinin m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 ziyar\u0259t etmi\u015fdik… Burda a\u011flama\u011f\u0131 da bacarmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… O q\u0259d\u0259r aciz idim ki, Qazax torpa\u011f\u0131nda… Torpa\u011f\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda aciz idim, havan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ruhum b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi h\u0259rl\u0259yib Barat m\u00fc\u0259llimi axtarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… Bir k\u0259narda durub g\u0259ncl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan birc\u0259 misra as\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131: \u201cM\u0259n Ruh g\u0259misiy\u0259m, minin, di ged\u0259k!\u201d
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\nY\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evir!
\nHac\u0131 Mahmud \u018ff\u0259ndinin m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 da ilk d\u0259f\u0259 2008-ci ild\u0259 ziyar\u0259t etmi\u015fdim. Ondan sonra yen\u0259 yuxular\u0131mda o yeri ziyar\u0259t edirdim. Balaca alaqap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri girirdim, t\u00fcrb\u0259nin qap\u0131s\u0131nda is\u0259 dayan\u0131b n\u00f6vb\u0259mi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdim ki, girim ziyar\u0259t eyl\u0259yim… Yen\u0259 getdim… Bu q\u0131\u015f… \u201cQ\u0131\u015fda \u0130nc\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259si g\u00f6z\u0259l olmur\u201d-demi\u015fdi m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u0130nc\u0259li balas\u0131… Yalan deyirmi\u015f… Aslanb\u0259ylid\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcz\u0259 vuran seyr\u0259k qar d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 mistik bir g\u00fcc\u00fcn bizi qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011f\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259yazl\u0131\u011f\u0131 idi… Hac\u0131 Mahmud \u018ff\u0259ndinin evi, m\u00fcsafirxanas\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259ki niyy\u0259t a\u011faclar\u0131, m\u0259scidin h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259n, t\u0259p\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259nd\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lan m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259… El\u0259 bil uzaqlardan bir d\u0259rvi\u015f haray\u0131 g\u0259lirdi qulaqlar\u0131ma: \u201cHayd\u0131, qalx\u0131n, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn, ruhunuzun, n\u0259fsinizin y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirin!\u201d \u018ff\u0259ndimizin evind\u0259n m\u0259scid\u0259 olan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 metrlik yolda dizl\u0259rim ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc… \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc toxdad\u0131b yer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6km\u0259mi\u015fdim… \u0130r\u0259lil\u0259mi\u015fdim…
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, Seyid Nigarinin Amasyadak\u0131 t\u00fcrb\u0259sini Hac\u0131 Mahmud \u018ff\u0259ndi tikdirib. \u00d6z m\u00fc\u0259lliminin haqq\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 halal tutub…
\n\u0130nc\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259sind\u0259 inc\u0259l\u0259n hissl\u0259riml\u0259 \u00f6z ustad\u0131m\u0131- S\u0259dnik Pa\u015fa Pirsultanl\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m…. Ba\u015f-ba\u015fa ver\u0259r\u0259k a\u011flaya bil\u0259rdik, ustad-\u015f\u0259yird ikimiz d\u0259… El\u0259 a\u011flayard\u0131m ki… Dolmu\u015fdum, amma a\u011flaya bilmirdim… N\u0259f\u0259simi i\u00e7im\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib havan\u0131 dinl\u0259yirdim… \u201cHayd\u0131, qalx\u0131n, \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn, ruhunuzun, n\u0259fsinizin y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirin!\u201d
\nY\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… Bacarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m…
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\nS\u00f6z… S\u00f6z e\u015fidin!
\nQazax s\u0259f\u0259rind\u0259 yol yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131z R\u00fcf\u0259t Axundlu idi… V\u0259 yolboyu ruh \u0259tri g\u0259l\u0259n \u015feirl\u0259rini dinl\u0259yirdik… \u201cSol \u00e7iynind\u0259n m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259ri, Y\u0131xasan, rahat olasan!\u201d… Damc\u0131-damc\u0131 ya\u011fan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fda t\u0259k\u0259mseyr\u0259k qar d\u0259n\u0259l\u0259ri u\u00e7u\u015furdu, amma, buna qar dem\u0259k olmazd\u0131… Damc\u0131-damc\u0131 bo\u011faz\u0131ma y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan q\u0259h\u0259rin sell\u0259nm\u0259sini ist\u0259yirdim… Damc\u0131l\u0131ya gedirdim… \u0130ki sev\u0259nin ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na a\u011flayan bu qayalarla birg\u0259 a\u011flaya bil\u0259c\u0259kdim, \u0259min idim… Bu \u0259minlikl\u0259 aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131 ma\u015f\u0131ndan yer\u0259 qoyan kimi \u0259ll\u0259rim \u0259smi\u015fdi… Qar b\u0259rkimi\u015fdi… El\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l ya\u011f\u0131rd\u0131 ki… \u00c7iynimiz\u0259 ya\u011fan qara bax\u0131b R\u00fcf\u0259tin \u015feirini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcm, amma, sa\u011f\u0131-qolu qatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m… Damc\u0131l\u0131da damc\u0131layan \u201cqayan\u0131n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131\u201dna barmaqlar\u0131m\u0131n ucu il\u0259 toxunmu\u015fdum… Yen\u0259 titim-titim titr\u0259mi\u015fdim… G\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259n sell\u0259n\u0259n q\u0259h\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 Avey da\u011f\u0131 da k\u0259s\u0259mm\u0259zdi daha… Dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131 kilidl\u0259mi\u015fdim, amma, ruhum can\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131… Sonuncu h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7imd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdim… Ruhum acm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ruhum… S\u00f6z axtar\u0131rd\u0131m, s\u00f6z! \u0130ndi d\u0259 Taleh Mansurun \u015feiri yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc: \u201cRuhun bad\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6z s\u00fcz!\u201d
\nYa da \u015eahin\u0259 K\u00f6n\u00fcl demi\u015f, \u015feir oxuyun, ay camaat, \u015feir!
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