{"id":12267,"date":"2015-05-22T17:01:33","date_gmt":"2015-05-22T12:01:33","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12267"},"modified":"2015-05-22T17:01:33","modified_gmt":"2015-05-22T12:01:33","slug":"fidan-abbasova-bu-m%c9%99nim-h%c9%99yat-hekay%c9%99mdir","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12267","title":{"rendered":"Fidan ABBASOVA.&#8221;Bu m\u0259nim h\u0259yat hekay\u0259mdir&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/s43.radikal.ru\/i099\/1505\/02\/d4ae561a5db5.jpg\" alt=\"\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Bu m\u0259nim h\u0259yat hekay\u0259mdir&#8230; b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131b davam etdirdiyim yada eksik qoydugum c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rkl\u0259 dolu&#8230;&#8230;.hekay\u0259m&#8230;.<br \/>\nKimliyini tanimaq senin haqq\u0131nda bilgi almaq qeder asan deyil \u00e7\u00fcnki her insanin kimliyi onun haqq\u0131nda bilmediklerinden yaranan tek heqiqetdir.<br \/>\nM\u0259n yaln\u0131z bir t\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcm haqq\u0131nda bunu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259mki \u0259sla yalan\u0131 sevmir\u0259m amma yalan m\u0259ni sevdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131mda h\u0259rk\u0259si eyni c\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 bu d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bilm\u0259zdimki bu q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flayaca\u011fam .Do\u011fulark\u0259n, y\u0131x\u0131lark\u0259n, \u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rk\u0259n, bez\u0259rk\u0259n, itir\u0259rk\u0259n v\u0259 bird\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fc dey\u0259 bil\u0259rk\u0259n. Ama insan olaraq bunlar h\u0259r k\u0259sin h\u0259yat\u0131nda vard\u0131r.M\u0259n \u0259sla kims\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nmir\u0259m \u00e7\u00fcnki g\u00fcv\u0259n v\u0259 inam yaln\u0131z allaha qar\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 birisin\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259k yara\u015far m\u0259nin al\u0259mimd\u0259.\u018fg\u0259r bitmi\u015f birisi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc bildirir\u0259ms\u0259 bu sad\u0259c\u0259 ona qar\u015f\u0131 ac\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131mdand\u0131r. \u0130nsan \u00e7ox g\u00fccl\u00fc birisi kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcns\u0259 bel\u0259 daxil\u0259n \u00e7ox k\u00f6vr\u0259k v\u0259 z\u0259ifdir \u00e7\u00fcnki hissl\u0259rin\u0259 tez yenik d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Kim deyirs\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n q\u00fcrurlu bu h\u0259yatda ikinci birisi yoxdur yan\u0131l\u0131r \u00e7\u00fcnki h\u0259r k\u0259sin q\u00fcruru var ama h\u0259r k\u0259s onu bir yerd\u0259 dayand\u0131r\u0131r sevdiyinin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fcd\u0259. Bu sevgi ilk \u00f6nc\u0259 tanr\u0131ya , sonra ataya, anaya sonra is\u0259 yar\u0131m qalm\u0131\u015f bir \u00fcr\u0259k par\u00e7as\u0131nad\u0131r. \u0130nanm\u0131r\u0131q g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 ama bir g\u00fcn m\u00fctl\u0259q g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdir kiminin sonu , kiminin is\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 hardan h\u0259yata ba\u015flay\u0131bsa orda bit\u0259c\u0259kdir.<br \/>\nDeyirl\u0259r insanlar torpaqdan yarand\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn torpa\u011fada g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fcr, \u00e7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat v\u0259 axir\u0259t aras\u0131nda bir yol ke\u00e7ir oda torpaq alt\u0131ndan.B\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc kim\u0259s\u0259 tan\u0131d\u0131rmaq isd\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259ni yet\u0259rinc\u0259 tan\u0131m\u0131rlar \u00e7\u00fcnki insan\u0131 yaln\u0131z \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 onun \u00f6z\u00fc tan\u0131y\u0131r.M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt kim\u0259s\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259yi sevmir\u0259m bilirsiz niy\u0259 \u00e7\u00fcnki b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim birisi olsa bel\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259m\u0259lidir dey\u0259.<br \/>\nD\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rimi payla\u015fma\u011f\u0131 sevir\u0259m, amma onu yaln\u0131\u015f yozanlarla deyil do\u011fru anlay\u0131b deyer ver\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259.<br \/>\n\u018fn sonda bir t\u0259k bildiyim v\u0259 \u0259min oldu\u011fum bir t\u0259k olan bir h\u0259qiq\u0259timd\u0259 var m\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgimi ilahid\u0259n ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fam v\u0259 onda da bitir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki h\u0259r k\u00f6n\u00fcl\u00fcn sevgisi onun d\u0259rgah\u0131ndan ba\u015flar.<br \/>\nUnutma xosbext insanlar bu dunyada herseyin gozeline sahib olanlar deyil sahib olduqlarini itirmeyecek qeder cox sevenlerdir.<br \/>\nBir zamanlar h\u0259r \u015fey f\u0259rqli v\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l idi g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 indi h\u0259r \u015fey d\u0259y\u0259rini itirib , b\u0259lk\u0259md\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m ya da m\u0259ni d\u0259yi\u015fdir\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259 olub h\u0259yat\u0131mda. El\u0259 bilmi\u015f\u0259m ki sevmi\u015f\u0259m ama zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 yalanlar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fckc\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 sevm\u0259diyimi anlayaraq \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m onu sevm\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil h\u0259r \u015feyin f\u0259rqli gedi\u015fat\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259diyim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. \u0130ndi hans\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259 bir t\u0259sirli s\u00f6z\u0259 rast g\u0259ls\u0259m t\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259n\u0259 bilmir\u0259m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc h\u0259r \u015fey adil\u0259\u015fib. Kimil\u0259ri \u00f6n\u0259mli olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rk\u0259n \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6n\u0259ms\u0259nm\u0259dikl\u0259rini nalamaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r v\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fin inanmas\u0131na v\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 onlar\u0131n sevm\u0259dikl\u0259rind\u0259n t\u0259rk etdikl\u0259rini d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar.<br \/>\nM\u0259n ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 sev\u0259rk\u0259n s\u0259n d\u00f6n\u00fcb m\u0259ni sev\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n amma bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n bir vaxt uzaq qa\u00e7maq isd\u0259diyin v\u0259 bir vaxt arxanda s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn k\u0259s indi s\u0259nin pe\u015fman olaca\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 g\u00f6z \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u011flayaca\u011f\u0131n birisi kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rs\u0259 o zaman pe\u015fman olma\u011f\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ac\u0131 verdiyini hiss ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bu m\u0259nim h\u0259yat hekay\u0259mdir&#8230; b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131b davam etdirdiyim yada eksik qoydugum c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rkl\u0259 dolu&#8230;&#8230;.hekay\u0259m&#8230;. Kimliyini tanimaq senin haqq\u0131nda bilgi almaq qeder asan deyil \u00e7\u00fcnki her insanin kimliyi onun haqq\u0131nda bilmediklerinden yaranan tek heqiqetdir. M\u0259n yaln\u0131z bir t\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcm haqq\u0131nda bunu dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259mki \u0259sla yalan\u0131 sevmir\u0259m amma yalan m\u0259ni sevdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131mda h\u0259rk\u0259si eyni c\u00fcr g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. 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