{"id":12862,"date":"2015-06-24T12:09:28","date_gmt":"2015-06-24T07:09:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12862"},"modified":"2015-06-24T13:02:36","modified_gmt":"2015-06-24T08:02:36","slug":"gunel-nazim-debuthec-bilmir%c9%99m-hardan-baslayim-n%c9%99-yazi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=12862","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fcnel Nazim (Deb\u00fct)He\u00e7 bilmir\u0259m hardan ba\u015flay\u0131m n\u0259 yaz\u0131."},"content":{"rendered":"

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G\u00fcnel Nazim 1995-ci il 14 iyulda Salyan rayonunda anadan olmu\u015fdur.2000-ci ild\u0259 Humanitar f\u0259nnl\u0259r t\u0259may\u00fcll\u00fc m\u0259kt\u0259b liseyinde t\u0259dris\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f 2012 – ci ild\u0259 eyni liseyin m\u0259zunu olmu\u015fdur. Hal- haz\u0131rda Bak\u0131 Asiya Universitetinin tarix fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 t\u0259hsilini davam etdirir.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259fizad\u0259 ail\u0259sin\u0259 pay\u0131z g\u0259lmi\u015f bir yarpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n tam 1il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi 03.09.2013-c\u00fc il idi.H\u0259r k\u0259s sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259\u00a0 olan \u201cfacebook\u201dda \u201c Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft \u015e\u0259fi s\u0259ni unutmuruq v\u0259 ya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lirik” dey\u0259 payla\u015f\u0131mlar edirdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t ki,Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft \u015e\u0259finin yaxin dostlar\u0131ndan\u00a0 olan Tamilla Qulami ile Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.He\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m,he\u00e7 zaman \u00fcnsiyy\u0259td\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m biri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ney\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131da bilmirdim\u2026H\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fc evd\u0259n \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259dim \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 yalniz onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc, beynimd\u0259 is\u0259 cavabs\u0131z qalan suallar\u0131m dola\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.Ax\u0131 Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft \u015e\u0259fini m\u0259n niy\u0259 \u00f6nc\u0259d\u0259n tan\u0131mad\u0131m?Tan\u0131sayd\u0131m g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259n\u0259 pis t\u0259sir ed\u0259rmiydi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc ya dahada \u015fidd\u0259tli \u0259zablar \u00e7ek\u0259rdi \u00fcr\u0259yim? D\u00fcnyada h\u0259r g\u00fcn minl\u0259rl\u0259 insan \u00f6l\u00fcr niy\u0259 onlar\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcrm\u0259zk\u0259n,Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft m\u0259ni tamam \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n asl\u0131 hala \u00e7evirdi. ..\u018fg\u0259r ya\u015fayd\u0131 ona tan\u0131yard\u0131m?
\nYen\u0259d\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131mda min suallar yarand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcn bir kitab yazd\u0131g\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndim.Ax\u0131 m\u0259n kitablar\u0131 v\u0259 yeni yaz\u0131cilari hemin an bilirdim mutleq o kitabi bir yerd\u0259n \u0259ld\u0259 edib oxuyard\u0131m niy\u0259 Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ftden x\u0259b\u0259rim olmayib?Qism\u0259t deyil\u0259n \u015fey budur? Dem\u0259k olar ki, h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u015feirl\u0259rini oxuyuram. H\u0259r \u015feiri bir \u00fcmidsizlik,bir ac\u0131,bir \u00f6l\u00fcm dad\u0131r sanki.G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6nc\u0259d\u0259n mi bilirdi? Ya onsuzluqdan m\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259ri bel\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr?M\u0259nc\u0259 o g\u00f6y\u0259 ucalacagini coxdan anlayirdi ve bu seirleri biz oxuculara isaredir. Nece hereqlof, mixi yazini oxuyan cox az insan varsa Sefinide anlayan da beledir. \u015e\u0259finin b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259nir\u0259m o ya\u015fasayd\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox zirv\u0259l\u0259ri f\u0259th ed\u0259rdi buna \u0259min\u0259m.Amma Zerd\u00fc\u015ft \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259nalar k\u0259sb ets\u0259d\u0259 hekay\u0259l\u0259ri q\u0259d\u0259r m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m deyil \u015feirl\u0259ri m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n ya\u015fasayd\u0131 bu s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc bils\u0259ydi n\u0259 dey\u0259rdi?\u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 inciy\u0259rdi?Yoxsa n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131rd\u0131?<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015feiri v\u0259 ad\u0131 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259\u00a0 onun qara m\u0259zar da\u015f\u0131 , bir ovuc qara torpa\u011f\u0131 canlan\u0131r g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda.Ax\u0131 niye g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi par\u0131ldamas\u0131na ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 an o bizd\u0259n \u0259b\u0259diyy\u0259t\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ayr\u0131ld\u0131?yox do\u011frusu \u0259d\u0259biyyata q\u0259d\u0259r cox gec gec dogan edebiyyata q\u0259d\u0259r… Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft \u015e\u0259finin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bildiyim g\u00fcn \u00f6z \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259ldi bir g\u00fcn m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6l\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm qocan\u0131 deyild\u0259 tam cavan\u0131 \u201ch\u0259l\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yin qar\u015f\u0131dad\u0131 \u201cdediyimiz insan\u0131 ala bilir. H\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n-d\u00fcnyadan qopurub Tanriya s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 bilir.B\u0259s m\u0259n \u00f6ls\u0259ydim m\u0259nim bu yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 eyni Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft\u0259 etdiyim kimi m\u0259st eden,tan\u0131td\u0131ran olar m\u0131 ?Kim g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259rdim g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259?<\/p>\n

Zerd\u00fc\u015ft sanki bir k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259k idi.Qondu\u011fu h\u0259r \u00fcr\u0259yi g\u00f6z\u0259ll\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n yaln\u0131z \u00f6mr\u00fc iki g\u00fcn\u2026H\u0259min iki g\u00fcn m\u00fcdd\u0259tind\u0259 is\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 yetm\u0259y\u0259n, indi is\u0259 k\u0259p\u0259n\u0259yini g\u00f6zel\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k solan \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259dir\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc.G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n s\u0259hv mi edir\u0259m?He\u00e7 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m ,\u0259laq\u0259m bel\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131n\u0131,yazar olmas\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 bir insan\u0131 bu qeder sevm\u0259kd\u0259,bel\u0259 \u00fcmidl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259 he\u00e7 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini bil\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259md\u0259\u2026Bu m\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131\u011fm\u0131d\u0131r?Yoxsa zamanla ke\u00e7\u0259n sad\u0259 hiss mi?He\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259 bel\u0259y\u0259m Yox bu insani hissdir bir insana peresti\u015fdir ya b\u0259lk\u0259 yaz\u0131lar\u0131nda a\u015fiqliq g\u00f6rm\u0259y? \u015e\u0259fi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011flay\u0131ram,\u015feirl\u0259rini oxuyuram,r\u0259sml\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131ram \u00fcreyimd\u0259 minl\u0259rl\u0259 s\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259r yaran\u0131r ona aid.Amma \u0259lim\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m ald\u0131g\u0131m an artiq saatlar ke\u00e7diyini m\u0259nims\u0259 \u201cZ\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ftd\u0259n\u201d basqa s\u00f6z yazmad\u0131g\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.H\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n tamam\u0259n f\u0259rqliy\u0259m?Beli \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 d\u0259rin yaraya s\u0259b\u0259b olan Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft daha do\u011frusu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc\u2026Onsuzluq\u2026<\/p>\n

G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc tez mi qovu\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi tanr\u0131s\u0131na?S\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 aldanaq m\u0131? Yoxsa ger\u00e7\u0259kliyini dadaq m\u0131?M\u0259n indi s\u0259nd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck yard\u0131mlar alacaqd\u0131m yaz\u0131lar\u0131ma b\u00f6y\u00fck k\u00f6m\u0259klik ed\u0259c\u0259kdin b\u0259lk\u0259d\u0259 ya\u015fasaydi yen\u0259 tan\u0131mayacaqd\u0131m amma m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn \u201c az amma b\u00f6y\u00fck yaz\u0131lar\u0131n m\u00fc\u0259llifidir\u201d\u2026Bu g\u00fcn \u0259g\u0259r m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc tan\u0131td\u0131rmasam,bu c\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 yerim olmazsa \u0259min\u0259m ki,bu yaz\u0131mda tan\u0131nmaz,bu yaz\u0131mla Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc tan\u0131yan o bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 insanda\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0259n g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi g\u00f6rm\u0259mis\u0259n
\ns\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fcb onu.
\nG\u00f6y\u00fc q\u00fcvv\u0259 bilm\u0259mis\u0259n
\ns\u0259ni sev\u0259n bilib onu.
\nS\u0259n he\u00e7 zaman g\u00fclm\u0259mis\u0259n
\nh\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259r var.
\nS\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n sevgi n\u0259di
\n\u015fah belini b\u00fck\u0259nl\u0259r var.
\nS\u0259n he\u00e7 z\u00fclm \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mis\u0259n
\ng\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 ya\u015f g\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r var
\nS\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcm n\u0259di
\ns\u0259nsizlikd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r var.<\/p>\n

Eyni il\u0259 \u00f6z \u015feirind\u0259 dediyin kimi ” Z\u0259rd\u00fc\u015ft ,h\u0259sr\u0259tini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259r var,s\u0259nsizlikd\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r var” \u2026H\u0259sr\u0259tin \u00f6l\u00fcm kimi g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rind\u0259 var\u2026.<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259 bir s\u0131z\u0131nt\u0131 var,bir \u00fcmid var el\u0259 bilir\u0259m he\u00e7 vaxt m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmasa bel\u0259 o, d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259n onu \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259, kitab\u0131nda, dostlar\u0131nda deyil onu onda \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259m\u2026Onu onda susacam\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

G\u00fcnel Nazim 1995-ci il 14 iyulda Salyan rayonunda anadan olmu\u015fdur.2000-ci ild\u0259 Humanitar f\u0259nnl\u0259r t\u0259may\u00fcll\u00fc m\u0259kt\u0259b liseyinde t\u0259dris\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f 2012 – ci ild\u0259 eyni liseyin m\u0259zunu olmu\u015fdur. Hal- haz\u0131rda Bak\u0131 Asiya Universitetinin tarix fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 t\u0259hsilini davam etdirir. \u015e\u0259fizad\u0259 ail\u0259sin\u0259 pay\u0131z g\u0259lmi\u015f bir yarpa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n tam 1il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi 03.09.2013-c\u00fc il idi.H\u0259r k\u0259s sosial \u015f\u0259b\u0259k\u0259\u00a0 olan […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":984,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-12862","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12862","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/984"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=12862"}],"version-history":[{"count":4,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12862\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":12869,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/12862\/revisions\/12869"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=12862"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=12862"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=12862"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}