{"id":13287,"date":"2015-07-14T16:00:43","date_gmt":"2015-07-14T11:00:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=13287"},"modified":"2015-07-15T10:21:06","modified_gmt":"2015-07-15T05:21:06","slug":"s%c9%99faq%c9%99t-cavansirli-olum%c9%99-ged%c9%99n-umidl%c9%99r-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=13287","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259faq\u0259t CAVAN\u015e\u0130RL\u0130.”\u00d6l\u00fcm\u0259 ged\u0259n \u00fcmidl\u0259r” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"sefaqet-cavansirli\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Tez-tez yorulma\u011f\u0131m\u0131, hals\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bir ayda on kilo \u00e7\u0259ki itirm\u0259yimi altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259r verdiyi qocal\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti kimi q\u0259bul edirdim. O g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, o\u011flum tibb universitetini yenic\u0259 bitirmi\u015f xan\u0131m q\u0131z dostunu biz\u0259 qonaq g\u0259tir\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n…
\nAyg\u00fcn adl\u0131 xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n dediyin\u0259 inansaq, onu qar\u015f\u0131layan m\u0259n qocan\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc el\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda diqq\u0259tind\u0259n yay\u0131nmay\u0131b. Hiss edirdim, s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 tez-tez m\u0259n\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Arada o\u011flum Raufla bax\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar, sevgi bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 deyildi bu… S\u0259n dem\u0259, m\u0259nim haqq\u0131mda s\u0259ssizc\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015flar.\u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di, xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n g\u0259li\u015finin s\u0259b\u0259bini anlad\u0131m. Evd\u0259kil\u0259r h\u0259kiml\u0259r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 laqeyid, inams\u0131z, bir az da t\u0259rs oldu\u011fumu bildikl\u0259rind\u0259n, m\u0259ni h\u0259kimin yan\u0131na aparmaqdan \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 h\u0259kim olacaq bu q\u0131z\u0131 aya\u011f\u0131macan g\u0259tirmi\u015fdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Qonaql\u0131q yax\u015f\u0131 ke\u00e7di. Ged\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n Ayg\u00fcn xan\u0131m t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259 ke\u00e7diyi M\u0259rk\u0259zi x\u0259st\u0259xanada m\u00fcayin\u0259d\u0259n ke\u00e7m\u0259yim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011fz\u0131mdan s\u00f6z ald\u0131: – Sizin haqqq\u0131n\u0131zda Eld\u0259niz m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. G\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m, g\u0259l\u0259rsiz. \u00dcmid edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni p\u0259rt el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiz.<\/p>\n

T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndim ki, bu q\u0131z\u0131 niy\u0259 p\u0259rt el\u0259m\u0259liy\u0259m; – P\u0259rt s\u0259ni ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n olsun, q\u0131z. P\u0259rt niy\u0259 olursan onu ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.<\/p>\n

Ayg\u00fcn xan\u0131m ba\u015f\u0131yla o\u011fluma i\u015far\u0259 el\u0259di: – Siz g\u0259lin, m\u0259n siz\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259m. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ksiz?
\nQ\u0131za lap minn\u0259t el\u0259dim: – Daha s\u0259ns\u0259n, g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m.- q\u0131z da, evd\u0259kil\u0259r d\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Daha a\u011fz\u0131mdan s\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Getm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur idim. Qoca ya\u015f\u0131mda yalan dan\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259n\u0259 yara\u015fmazd\u0131. O\u011flum q\u0131z dostunu \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n bir \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra o\u011flumla x\u0259st\u0259xanaya getm\u0259li olduq. Xan\u0131m q\u0131z bizi yax\u015f\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131. Qandan, t\u00fcp\u00fcrc\u0259kd\u0259n analizi d\u0259 o g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Birlikd\u0259 ba\u015f h\u0259kim Eld\u0259niz b\u0259yin ota\u011f\u0131na getdik, tan\u0131\u015f olduq. Yar\u0131m saatdan \u00e7ox oturma\u011fa h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259m \u00e7atmad\u0131. Ba\u015f h\u0259kim h\u0259r s\u00f6hb\u0259t ba\u015f\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 xat\u0131rlad\u0131rd\u0131; ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 n\u0259z\u0259r\u0259 al\u0131n, ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131z\u0131n t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li vaxtlar\u0131d\u0131r, \u0130stirah\u0259t\u0259 gedin, dinc\u0259lin v\u0259 s… O q\u0259d\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, az qala ya\u015f\u0131mdan da, qocal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan da iyr\u0259nirdim…
\nSonunda analizl\u0259rin cavab\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yimizi s\u00f6yl\u0259di.
\nAx\u015fam o\u011flum yola \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131yd\u0131, rayonlar\u0131n birin\u0259 komandirovkaya ged\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u201cHaz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u0259liyik\u201d b\u0259han\u0259siyl\u0259 h\u0259kiml\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131q, ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. O\u011flum dil\u0259 g\u0259ldi:
\n–\tYaz\u0131q bunun \u0259linin alt\u0131ndak\u0131 i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rin hal\u0131na. Dayanm\u0131r r\u0259hm\u0259tliyin o\u011flu. El\u0259 bil, dilini matora qo\u015fublar.
\nBir-iki add\u0131m o\u011flumdan tez gedirdim: – Yaz\u0131q Ayg\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z. H\u0259kiml\u0259r onsuzda \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rlar.
\nO\u011flum astaca g\u00fcld\u00fc: – S\u0259n ki, indi h\u0259kim g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n. Harda h\u0259ms\u00f6hb\u0259t olmusan?<\/p>\n

–\tD\u00fcz deyirs\u0259n, o vaxt h\u0259kim yoxuydu, ha!… \u2013 Zarafatyana verdiyim cavab o\u011flumun xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

H\u0259ft\u0259nin ilk g\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla s\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u0259ldim. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r ruhumun dinc\u0259lm\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn X\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 bal\u0131q ovuna ged\u0259rdim. \u0130ndi yad\u0131r\u011fam\u0131\u015fam. Sabahdan k\u00f6hn\u0259 v\u0259rdi\u015fim\u0259 davam ed\u0259c\u0259m.
\nH\u0259kimin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcm. Qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259kimin yan\u0131nda uzun, s\u0131x kiprikl\u0259ri aras\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yanaqlar\u0131ndan sil\u0259n q\u0131z m\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirdi ki, a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259yim. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, bu m\u0259n\u0259 bir az q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi. H\u0259kim m\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259ln\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, q\u0131zla \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz olan oturacaqda yer g\u00f6st\u0259rdi. M\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 ed\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259kim q\u0131za m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rini verirdi: – \u00dcmidsiz olub m\u00fcalic\u0259ni yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q saxlamaq d\u00fczg\u00fcn deyil. Valideyinl\u0259rinizd\u0259n x\u0259st\u0259liyinizi gizl\u0259tm\u0259kl\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u00fcz.
\n\u0130nc\u0259, r\u0259ngsiz dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xanlar\u0131 g\u00fccl\u0259 e\u015fidirdim: – Valideyinl\u0259rim onsuzda \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. \u0130ndid\u0259n onlar\u0131 pis etm\u0259yin n\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131 var?<\/p>\n

H\u0259kim yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015firdi: – M\u0259nas\u0131 odur ki, yan\u0131n\u0131zda olacaqlar. Nahaq \u00fcmidsiz dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131z. \u00d6l\u00fcm aya\u011f\u0131nda olan x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259rim olub ki, bir balaca i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 da \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00fcmid bilibl\u0259r. Ya\u015flar\u0131da ki, s\u0259ks\u0259ni ke\u00e7ib.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131: – Biz\u0259 aldad\u0131c\u0131 \u00fcmidl\u0259r laz\u0131m deyil. M\u0259ni aldatmay\u0131n.R\u0259fiq\u0259m d\u0259 bu x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fc. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nacan getmi\u015fdi. <\/p>\n

H\u0259kim d\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131: – Daha n\u0259 deyim. Z\u0259man\u0259 g\u0259ncisiz, s\u00f6z e\u015fitmirsiz. \u00dcmid h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 var.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z: – Ehtiyac\u0131m yoxdur daha. Sa\u011f olun.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. T\u0259xmin\u0259n ya\u015f\u0131 iyirmi ikiy\u0259c\u0259n olan q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259zlikd\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259si q\u0259tiyy\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259sir etm\u0259di. Bizim vaxt\u0131m\u0131zda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck i\u00e7\u0259ri daxil olanda, tan\u0131d\u0131q-tan\u0131mad\u0131q, harda oldu, aya\u011fa qalx\u0131rd\u0131q.
\nH\u0259kim q\u0131zdak\u0131 b\u0259d x\u0259st\u0259liyi dey\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck-ki\u00e7ik s\u00f6hb\u0259tini beynimd\u0259 \u00e7ox saf-\u00e7\u00fcr\u00fck el\u0259dim. G\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131n yaxas\u0131ndan m\u0259n ya\u015fda olan qocalar\u0131n da qorxdu\u011fu b\u0259d x\u0259st\u0259lik yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nQ\u0131z\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259liyi \u00f6z d\u0259rdimi unutdurmu\u015fdu. M\u00fcharib\u0259,qan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f adam\u0131yd\u0131m. D\u00f6y\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn q\u0131z\u011f\u0131n yerind\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259sini tap\u015f\u0131ran yolda\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n bir \u0259lind\u0259 avtomat, bir \u0259liyl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q g\u00f6zl\u0259rini ba\u011flayan adam\u0131 altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda hans\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259lik qorxuda bil\u0259rdi?
\nH\u0259kim x\u0259st\u0259liyimi dey\u0259nd\u0259, s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tim\u0259 inansaz da olar, inanmasaz da, q\u0259tiyy\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259 he\u00e7 bir d\u0259yi\u015fiklik olmad\u0131. T\u0259krar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q olmas\u0131n, m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 qanlardan yaranan g\u00f6lm\u0259\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131 batan adamam.
\nD\u00fczd\u00fcr, altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f da h\u0259yat \u00f6mr\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox ya\u015f say\u0131lmaz. N\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259, ortada bir h\u0259qiq\u0259t var. Tez evl\u0259nmi\u015f\u0259m, ki\u00e7ik o\u011flumdan ba\u015fqa b\u00fct\u00fcn u\u015faqlar\u0131m\u0131 yerb\u0259yer el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m, \u00e7ox g\u00fcman, dostu kimi t\u0259qdim etdiyi h\u0259kim q\u0131zla evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k, n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rim var. B\u00fct\u00fcn arzular\u0131na \u00e7atan adam \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn daha bundan sonra can sa\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 ola, ya olmaya, onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqi yoxdur. O q\u0131z is\u0259…<\/p>\n

H\u0259kimd\u0259n analizl\u0259rimin cavablar\u0131 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f v\u0259r\u0259qi g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm, sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m. Dayanaca\u011fa kimi g\u0259ldim. Avtobusumu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm b\u0259yaq h\u0259kimin yan\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm q\u0131za sata\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir n\u00f6qt\u0259y\u0259 zill\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131ran xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z hissl\u0259r m\u0259ni bo\u011furdu. Hissl\u0259rimin ard\u0131nca getdim, yava\u015f-yava\u015f q\u0131za yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131m. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259rd\u0259n xilas ed\u0259n hissim burda da m\u0259ni yan\u0131ltmad\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n qolundan tutmasayd\u0131m, qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n avtobusun alt\u0131na \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc atacaqd\u0131. Eld\u0259niz h\u0259kim \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 haql\u0131yd\u0131. Bu q\u0131z \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259ri sim kimi dartacaq adam\u0131yd\u0131: – N\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ay q\u0131z? Camaat\u0131 niy\u0259 zibil\u0259 sal\u0131rsan?
\nQ\u0131z qolunu \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131: – S\u0259n kims\u0259n? \u018flini \u00e7\u0259k.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr,q\u0131z s\u0259sini y\u00fcks\u0259ltm\u0259di, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131b \u0259trafdak\u0131lara m\u0259ni biab\u0131r el\u0259m\u0259di. Q\u0131z\u0131n qolunu buraxmad\u0131m, ikimiz d\u0259 dayanacaqdan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131q: – Yek\u0259 q\u0131zsan, bu n\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tdir edirs\u0259n? X\u0259st\u0259likdir d\u0259, g\u00f6r, m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr\u0259m?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131n qolunu buraxd\u0131m, diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131: – Siz h\u0259kimin yan\u0131ndak\u0131 ki\u015fi deyilsiz?
\n–\tH\u0259, babayam. Eyni d\u0259rdin adamlar\u0131y\u0131q. S\u0259n\u0259 baxanda \u00f6lm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z \u0259traf\u0131na baxd\u0131: – \u0130mkan verdiz, ax\u0131!…
\nQ\u0131za t\u0259klif el\u0259dim ki, parkda bir yerd\u0259 oturaq. Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131, oturduq: – S\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verm\u0259k fikrim yoxdur. Onsuzda xeyri olmayacaq. \u00d6z bildiyini ed\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yerd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdi, sa\u011f aya\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 ayaqqab\u0131n\u0131n burnunu yer\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u00fcrd\u00fc: – Onsuzda \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.
\nBilm\u0259dim n\u0259 cavab verim: – M\u0259n d\u0259.
\nQ\u0131z t\u0259\u0259c\u00fcbl\u0259ndi: – Sizd\u0259 d\u0259 o x\u0259st\u0259likd\u0259n var?<\/p>\n

–\tN\u0259di? D\u00fcnyan\u0131 tutub getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m ki!…\u018fvv\u0259l-ax\u0131r m\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6lm\u0259liy\u0259m, ya yox? <\/p>\n

Q\u0131z \u00fcmidsiz cavab verdi: – M\u0259nim he\u00e7 iyirmi bir ya\u015f\u0131m tamam olmay\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131. G\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatayd\u0131m, azda olsa h\u0259yat e\u015fqini oyadayd\u0131m, birt\u0259h\u0259r m\u00fcalic\u0259 alma\u011fa raz\u0131 salayd\u0131m: – Bal\u0131q tutmaqla aran nec\u0259dir?<\/p>\n

Maraqla \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131. T\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr edirdim n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. \u201c Bu ki\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131 xarabd\u0131r. M\u0259n h\u0259 hayda, bu n\u0259 hayda\u201d
\nS\u00f6hb\u0259t \u0259sas\u0131nda valideyinl\u0259rinin Rusiyada ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259misigil\u0259 qonaq g\u0259ldiyini \u00f6yr\u0259ndim. Sonra m\u0259n suallar verirdim, o cavablay\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 sol\u011fun r\u0259ng alm\u0131\u015f, daha \u00e7ox \u00f6l\u00fc r\u0259ngin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n yanaqlar\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yol a\u00e7d\u0131. Onu birt\u0259h\u0259r sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdim.
\n\u00c7\u0259tin idi!… Sa\u011falmas\u0131 m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 olan, ad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259nd\u0259 ikrah yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259liyin s\u0259ni g\u00fcn\u00fc-g\u00fcnd\u0259n z\u0259ifl\u0259tdiyind\u0259n z\u00f6vq ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, can\u0131na,qan\u0131na q\u0259d\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259sini g\u00f6rm\u0259k, \u00e7ar\u0259siz qalmaq, sad\u0259c\u0259, ifad\u0259 ed\u0259bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimiz \u0259zab idi. \u018fzab!…
\nDo\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259liyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz qoymas\u0131 da b\u00f6y\u00fck \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 sahib olmaq dem\u0259k idi.<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n\u0131n Samir\u0259 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259n, q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 d\u0259rd yolda\u015f\u0131m olan q\u0131zc\u0131\u011fazla bir h\u0259ft\u0259 X\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 bal\u0131q ovuna \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131q. Tutdu\u011fum bal\u0131qlar t\u0259rp\u0259ndiyind\u0259n Samir\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259r onlar\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 qorxurdu. H\u0259ft\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 g\u00fcn\u00fc is\u0259, tamam ba\u015fqa c\u00fcr h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdi. Vedr\u0259nin i\u00e7ind\u0259 sussuz \u00e7abalayan bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 bal\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 bir-bir g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb d\u0259niz\u0259 tullad\u0131. T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nm\u0259dim, s\u0259b\u0259bini soru\u015fma\u011fa da \u00fcr\u0259k etm\u0259dim. Suallarla dolu bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ma g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di: – Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr m\u0259ni bura bal\u0131q tutmaq b\u0259han\u0259siyl\u0259 g\u0259tirmisiz ki, m\u00fcalic\u0259 olunma\u011fa raz\u0131 salas\u0131z. Guya bilmir\u0259m?<\/p>\n

Haql\u0131 idi…Bal\u0131q tutmaqdan \u00e7ox onu dil\u0259 tuturdum. Samir\u0259 davam edirdi: – Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n ki, bal\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 d\u0259niz\u0259 atmal\u0131 oldum. Fikirl\u0259\u015fdim ki, \u0259g\u0259r \u00f6l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259ms\u0259, g\u0259r\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131 n\u0259 is\u0259 edim. \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 savab qazanmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yox. Daha gecdi.
\nSamir\u0259ni m\u00f6hk\u0259m \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutdu: – Birc\u0259 \u00f6sk\u00fcrm\u0259k olmayayd\u0131. Sin\u0259mi g\u00f6yn\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259s\u0259n, \u0259lvida vaxt\u0131yd\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 hiss etdikl\u0259rim xo\u015fuma g\u0259lmirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yim yan\u0131rd\u0131, onu yen\u0259 dil\u0259 tutdum: – \u0130rad\u0259li olmal\u0131san. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 aparmamaqla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259sd aras\u0131nda he\u00e7 bir f\u0259rq yoxdur. T\u0259rslik el\u0259m\u0259.
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259yirdi, n\u0259 deyirdims\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. Faydas\u0131 yoxuydu. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259n\u0259 qalib g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ona m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 cavan itirdiyim \u0259sg\u0259r yolda\u015flar\u0131mdan b\u0259hs edirdim. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmad\u0131, ona g\u0259nc ya\u015fda \u00f6lm\u0259yin xeyrind\u0259n d\u0259 say\u0131qlay\u0131rd\u0131m. G\u0259nc ya\u015fda ruhun b\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131rsa, art\u0131q d\u00f6vran\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f qoca ki\u015fid\u0259n hardasa \u015fansl\u0131san. Ki\u00e7ik s\u0259hvl\u0259rd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvl\u0259r\u0259 add\u0131m atm\u0131rsan. Yaradan\u0131n s\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaq \u015fans\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. T\u0259bii, g\u0259nc ya\u015fda b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00fcnahlara qol qoymam\u0131sansa!…
\nQ\u0131sas\u0131, boyumuza q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259n k\u0259f\u0259n\u0259 b\u00fck\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k torpa\u011f\u0131n qoynuna verilm\u0259yin \u00f6l\u00fcm olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 izah edirdim. Dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca m\u0259yusluqdan v\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n yoruldu\u011fumu hiss etdim, susdum.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 baxd\u0131,g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di: – Bal\u0131qlara g\u00f6r\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n incim\u0259diz?<\/p>\n

D\u0259li g\u00fclm\u0259k tutdu m\u0259ni: – C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m\u0259 olsun, bal\u0131qlar. El\u0259 onlar da s\u0259nin tay\u0131nd\u0131. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259lirl\u0259r.
\nDedikl\u0259rimi sakit qar\u015f\u0131lad\u0131: – \u018fsas odur, bir g\u00fcn art\u0131q ya\u015fayacaqlar. Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 olsa, m\u0259n\u0259 dua\u00e7\u0131 olacaqlar. B\u0259lk\u0259, \u00e7ox ya\u015fad\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 c\u00fcml\u0259d\u0259n zarafat etdiyi ayd\u0131n\u0131yd\u0131. Q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f, damarlar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc \u0259limd\u0259n tutdu: – Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 narahat olmay\u0131n. Onsuzda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yik.<\/p>\n

Susma\u011fa m\u0259cbur oldum.Dan\u0131\u015fsayd\u0131m u\u015faq kimi a\u011flayacaqd\u0131m…
\nO g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra Samir\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259dim. \u00dc\u00e7 ay ke\u00e7di. D\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fc qaba\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131m, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7ox danlay\u0131rd\u0131m, \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 eyni suallar\u0131 verirdim: – F\u0259rsiz qoca, niy\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcnvan\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259b\u0259r almad\u0131n? Niy\u0259 n\u00f6mr\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259din? Hardad\u0131r? \u00d6l\u00fcbm\u00fc,sa\u011fd\u0131rm\u0131? Sa\u011fd\u0131rsa, bal\u0131q tutdu\u011fum sahil\u0259 niy\u0259 g\u0259lmir? Biz g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259yikmi?<\/p>\n

V\u0259 Samir\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259sd\u0259n dem\u0259mi\u015fdim: – O z\u0259hrimar m\u0259nim d\u0259 can\u0131mdad\u0131r!…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Tez-tez yorulma\u011f\u0131m\u0131, hals\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, bir ayda on kilo \u00e7\u0259ki itirm\u0259yimi altm\u0131\u015f \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259r verdiyi qocal\u0131q \u0259lam\u0259ti kimi q\u0259bul edirdim. O g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ki, o\u011flum tibb universitetini yenic\u0259 bitirmi\u015f xan\u0131m q\u0131z dostunu biz\u0259 qonaq g\u0259tir\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n… Ayg\u00fcn adl\u0131 xan\u0131m q\u0131z\u0131n dediyin\u0259 inansaq, onu qar\u015f\u0131layan m\u0259n qocan\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc el\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda diqq\u0259tind\u0259n yay\u0131nmay\u0131b. Hiss edirdim, s\u00fcfr\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 tez-tez […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13287","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13287","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13287"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13287\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13318,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13287\/revisions\/13318"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13287"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13287"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13287"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}