{"id":13464,"date":"2015-07-23T19:00:49","date_gmt":"2015-07-23T14:00:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=13464"},"modified":"2015-07-23T19:55:56","modified_gmt":"2015-07-23T14:55:56","slug":"s%c9%99hriyy%c9%99-q%c9%99z%c9%99nf%c9%99rqizi-s%c9%99rc%c9%99-sevgisi-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=13464","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259hriyy\u0259 Q\u018fZ\u018fNF\u018fRQIZI.”S\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 sevgisi” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Burdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxanda h\u0259r \u015fey nec\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 o g\u00fcn\u00fc xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. O g\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 b\u0259rk k\u00fcl\u0259k vard\u0131. Onlar\u0131n binas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qollu-budaql\u0131 bir a\u011fac vard\u0131. M\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun budaqlar\u0131nda oturard\u0131m. Dostlar\u0131mla ham\u0131m\u0131z s\u0131rayla bir buda\u011fa d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rdik. Balaca meh \u0259s\u0259n kimi ham\u0131s\u0131 u\u00e7ard\u0131, bir m\u0259n yox. Yell\u0259nc\u0259k kimi o budaqda yell\u0259n\u0259rdim. A\u011fac\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 buludlara d\u0259y\u0259rdi. Indi, dey\u0259s\u0259n,a\u011fac\u0131 k\u0259sibl\u0259r. Yoxsa burdan h\u0259r \u015fey f\u0259rqli g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr? Bizim qonub oturdu\u011fumuz m\u0259kanlar f\u0259rqli idi. Binalar\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131, paltar ipl\u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fc. M\u0259n hans\u0131 qu\u015f idim? Unutdum. H\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n, s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 idim. H\u0259, d\u0259qiq s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 idim. \u0130ndi daha b\u00f6y\u00fck g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Ax\u0131 deyirl\u0259r burda h\u0259r k\u0259s ba\u015fqa cildd\u0259 olur. G\u0259l ged\u0259k oturaq o a\u011f pamb\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n nec\u0259 yum\u015faqd\u0131r? Orda bel\u0259 yumu\u015faq yerl\u0259r tapm\u0131rd\u0131q biz. Onunla tan\u0131\u015f olana kimi bilirs\u0259n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r yer d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdim? B\u00f6y\u00fck qu\u015flar oturdu\u011fumuz yerl\u0259ri d\u0259 \u0259limizd\u0259n al\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259l\u0259 yem\u0259yimizi demir\u0259m. Eh, s\u0259n hardan bil\u0259s\u0259n? S\u0259n evd\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259nmis\u0259n, qulluq g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n. Biz n\u0259 z\u00fclml\u0259r \u00e7\u0259kirdik. Bilirs\u0259n, yax\u015f\u0131 insanlar da var. Onun kimi. Ancaq biz\u0259 da\u015f atanlar da \u00e7ox olub. Biz b\u00fct\u00fcn qu\u015flardan sadiqik, he\u00e7 yer\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fcr\u00fck. Qarda-boranda da yerimizi d\u0259yi\u015fmirik. Niy\u0259 bizi sevmirl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn bir qaranqu\u015fun insan t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rd\u00fck. Bilirs\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259b n\u0259 idi? Bu qaranqu\u015f o adamlar\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131nda yuva qurmu\u015fdu. Uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t idi orda ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130nsanlar aras\u0131nda bel\u0259 bir deyim var-” \u018fg\u0259r qaranqu\u015f hans\u0131sa qap\u0131da yuva qurarsa, o ev\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xtlik g\u0259tir\u0259r. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 olmu\u015fdu. Evin ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi. O\u011flu da qaranqu\u015fun yuvas\u0131n\u0131 da\u011f\u0131td\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259n bilirs\u0259n biz qu\u015flara yuva qurmaq nec\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tindi? S\u0259n bilm\u0259zs\u0259n, he\u00e7 vaxt yuva d\u0259rdi \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mis\u0259n ax\u0131.
\nBax o g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259nim \u015e\u0259hram. H\u0259, m\u0259nim \u015e\u0259hram. Onunla bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 olub tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z? G\u0259l dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259, dinl\u0259. Nec\u0259 olsa da, burda vaxt\u0131m\u0131z \u00e7oxdu.
\nBir g\u00fcn yem tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m yem\u0259y\u0259. B\u00f6y\u00fck qu\u015flar \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 \u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131d\u0131lar. M\u0259ni vurub yemi \u0259limd\u0259n ald\u0131lar. El\u0259 baxma \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259. Ax\u0131 onlar m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck idil\u0259r. M\u0259n onda h\u0259l\u0259 lap da k\u00f6rp\u0259 idim. Onsuz da k\u00f6vr\u0259k olan qanadlar\u0131m\u0131n birini \u0259zdil\u0259r. Yemi yeyib, u\u00e7ub getdil\u0259r. U\u00e7maq ist\u0259dim, bacarmad\u0131m. Torpa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00e7apalay\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130nild\u0259yirdim. H\u0259min an x\u0259yallar\u0131m m\u0259ni \u00f6lm\u0259y\u0259 qoymad\u0131. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yuva qurmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u00f6r-\u00e7\u00f6p y\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131m. El\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l yuvam olacaqd\u0131 ki. \u0130\u00e7ini d\u0259 yunla d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. M\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 bala da qoyacaqd\u0131m. X\u0259yallar\u0131mda bala qoymu\u015fdum, balalar\u0131m yumurtadan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar bel\u0259. M\u0259ni x\u0259yallardan v\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131dan isti, yumu\u015faq \u0259ll\u0259r oyatd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131ma tumar \u00e7\u0259kdi. M\u0259ni \u0259zizl\u0259di, \u00f6pd\u00fc. M\u0259n ilk d\u0259f\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t hiss etdim. Bu n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l hisdir. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259rar\u0259t verdi, istilik, i\u00e7im\u0259 bir t\u0259rav\u0259t verdi. Qanad\u0131m\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 unutdurdu bel\u0259 m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m\u0131m. Bilirs\u0259n nec\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l idi? Ancaq o g\u00f6zl\u0259r m\u0259ni i\u00e7ind\u0259 bat\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 bir insan\u0131 sevdim. M\u0259ni g\u0259tirdi evin\u0259. Onun \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 olan istilik evind\u0259 yox idi. Buz kimi idi divarlar\u0131. Qaranl\u0131q, z\u00fclm\u0259t dolu. M\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi h\u0259rar\u0259tl\u0259ndir\u0259n o sevgi, b\u0259lli ki, onun evind\u0259 yox idi. M\u0259n\u0259 su verdi. Hardansa tax\u0131l, s\u00fcnb\u00fcl d\u0259n\u0259si g\u0259tirdi m\u0259n\u0259. Ba\u015f\u0131ma s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k onu m\u0259n\u0259 yedirtdi. Sonradan anlad\u0131m ki, insanlar evl\u0259rind\u0259 s\u00fcnb\u00fcl saxlay\u0131rlar ki, evl\u0259ri ruzi-b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tli olsun. Ancaq o, b\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tini m\u0259n\u0259 yedirtdi. Onu ilk toxunu\u015fdan sevmi\u015fdim. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r qay\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yaln\u0131z o istirab dolu h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015fayan m\u0259sum \u015e\u0259hra g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. M\u0259ni bura g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 kimi evind\u0259 saxlad\u0131. Yedirtdi, i\u00e7irtdi, qay\u011f\u0131ma qald\u0131. Ancaq m\u0259n onu qoruya bilm\u0259dim. M\u0259niml\u0259 insanla dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r kimi d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015firdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc m\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259dirdi. Deyirdi ki, m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 idman d\u0259rsind\u0259 ham\u0131dan b\u0259rk qa\u00e7\u0131rd\u0131. Ar\u0131q, balaca da oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u00fc\u0259llimi ona s\u0259r\u00e7\u0259 deyirmi\u015f. M\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259lv\u0259tc\u0259 \u00f6z gecikmi\u015f m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Saatlarca onu dinl\u0259yirdim. Onu anlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilirdi. Dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n ya\u015flar \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 bir da\u011f \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Onunla m\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirdim. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sil\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r aciz idim. T\u0259s\u0259lli ver\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ar\u0259siz idim. H\u0259r h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fc il\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda m\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fck bir yara vururdu. Ax\u0131 onun kimi qad\u0131n niy\u0259 bel\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259km\u0259liydi?
\nQanad\u0131m sa\u011falm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u00e7urdum, g\u0259zirdim, yen\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131m \u015e\u0259hram\u0131n yan\u0131na. H\u0259r onu q\u0259mgin g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259rar verirdim ki, geri d\u00f6nm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fczr\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di ged\u0259c\u0259m. Onu o evd\u0259 onunla t\u0259k qoyub ged\u0259 d\u0259 bilmirdim. H\u0259r gun yeni b\u0259han\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 edil\u0259n dava – dala\u015f. Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b m\u0259n oldum. O “Aslan” m\u0259ni ovcunda tutdu v\u0259 \u015e\u0259hrama \u0259zab verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni bo\u011fdu. Onun h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131ql\u0131 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fidirdim. Getdikc\u0259 s\u0259s uzaqla\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi burda a\u00e7d\u0131m. O g\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 burdayam. Bura \u00e7ox f\u0259rqlidir. Daha rahatd\u0131r. Yem axtarm\u0131r\u0131q, yuva qurmuruq, he\u00e7 u\u00e7muruq da. El\u0259 bu pamb\u0131qlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc ke\u00e7iririk. Birc\u0259 \u015e\u0259hram yoxdu yan\u0131mda. Burda olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevinir\u0259m. Dem\u0259li, ya\u015fay\u0131r. Yoxsa… Yoxsa insanlar bura g\u0259lmirl\u0259r???<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Burdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 baxanda h\u0259r \u015fey nec\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bu g\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259 o g\u00fcn\u00fc xat\u0131rlad\u0131r. O g\u00fcn d\u0259 bel\u0259 b\u0259rk k\u00fcl\u0259k vard\u0131. Onlar\u0131n binas\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qollu-budaql\u0131 bir a\u011fac vard\u0131. M\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun budaqlar\u0131nda oturard\u0131m. Dostlar\u0131mla ham\u0131m\u0131z s\u0131rayla bir buda\u011fa d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259rdik. Balaca meh \u0259s\u0259n kimi ham\u0131s\u0131 u\u00e7ard\u0131, bir m\u0259n yox. Yell\u0259nc\u0259k kimi o budaqda yell\u0259n\u0259rdim. A\u011fac\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13464","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13464","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13464"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13464\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13469,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13464\/revisions\/13469"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13464"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13464"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13464"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}