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Yolda\u015f\u0131mla aram\u0131zdak\u0131 soyuqlu\u011fu q\u0131z\u0131m son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 hiss etmi\u015fdi. \u018fslind\u0259, soyuqlu\u011fun s\u0259b\u0259bini ikimiz d\u0259 bilmirdik, s\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz bir-birimiz\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lmirdi. Ali t\u0259hsilli, ya\u015f\u0131 q\u0131rx\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015f, h\u0259yat g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f insanlard\u0131q. On be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z olmasayd\u0131, ail\u0259 x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, savad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n iki k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc bir-birinin ard\u0131nca qo\u015fub dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atmazd\u0131.
\nNi\u015fanl\u0131 olanda atam m\u0259n\u0259 bir ki\u015finin ail\u0259d\u0259 rolunun n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t oldu\u011funu uzun-uzad\u0131, ata-o\u011ful kimi yox, iki ki\u015fi kimi izah etmi\u015fdi. Ruhun \u015fad olsun, ata! S\u0259nd\u0259n tez-tez e\u015fitdiyim c\u00fcml\u0259ni h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 unuda bilmir\u0259m. \u201c \u0130nsan m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259suliyy\u0259tini da\u015f\u0131ma\u011fa haz\u0131rd\u0131rsa, sevginin t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259sin\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259 ola bilm\u0259z\u201d
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n anas\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 bug\u00fcn sevginin q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar\u0131ndan s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. \u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 d\u0259rk el\u0259dik; n\u0259 o qad\u0131n kimi, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n ki\u015fi kimi xo\u015fb\u0259xt ola bilm\u0259dik. Sava\u015f h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atan yersiz q\u0131sqancl\u0131qlar sonralar bir-birimizd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fma\u011f\u0131m\u0131za s\u0259b\u0259b oldu.<\/p>\n

B\u0259xtimiz g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z oxuma\u011fa meyilli, t\u0259rbiy\u0259li q\u0131z idi. Valideyinl\u0259ri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n verilm\u0259y\u0259n t\u0259rbiy\u0259d\u0259n korluq \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n ya\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131 az deyildi. Biz is\u0259, m\u00fchafiz\u0259kar valideyinl\u0259rik. Nuray\u0131m\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcm aparard\u0131m, \u00e7atd\u0131ra bilm\u0259diyim g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 anas\u0131yla ev\u0259 qay\u0131dard\u0131.
\nAta olaraq ba\u015fqa bir xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim; q\u0131z\u0131mla sabah eyni g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc qeyd ed\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nS\u00f6zl\u0259rl\u0259 ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yim bu sevinci m\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn arvad\u0131ma \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu minn\u0259tdar olmaya bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\n\u201cVicdan \u0259dal\u0259tin t\u0259r\u0259zisidir\u201d- deyirl\u0259r. \u018flimi vicdan\u0131ma qoyuram, ilk etiraf\u0131m\u0131 edir\u0259m; \u0130lk bir gec\u0259lik x\u0259yan\u0259timd\u0259n sonra ev\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131m. Yata\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz yatan yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n yan\u0131nda uzananda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc al\u00e7aq adam kimi hiss etmi\u015fdim. Ad\u0259tkar deyildim, bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck, h\u0259yat\u0131yla maraqlanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m, sad\u0259c\u0259, ki\u015fini f\u0259rqli t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n \u0259yl\u0259ndirm\u0259yi bacaran qad\u0131nlar\u0131m\u0131n say\u0131 artm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nK\u0259nardan ikinci qad\u0131nla uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259tlik m\u00fcnasib\u0259t qurmaq \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7irdi, \u00e7\u0259kinirdim. Ki\u015fi kimi raz\u0131 ola bilm\u0259zdim, sevs\u0259m bel\u0259, ail\u0259m da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n, \u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tlisi, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 itirim.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m. Be\u015f d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi, anas\u0131yla qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Yeyin qa\u00e7\u0131\u015flarla m\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259ldi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, \u00f6n t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi: – \u0130ndi ged\u0259 bil\u0259rik.<\/p>\n

Yolda ikimizd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131q. Q\u0131z\u0131m radionu qo\u015fdu. Radionun xodunu azaltd\u0131m ki, dostlar\u0131m\u0131n sabahk\u0131 ad g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bu gec\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259ri s\u00fcrprizi a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar olmasa da, i\u015f ad\u0131yla q\u0131z\u0131ma izah edim, anas\u0131na \u00e7atd\u0131rs\u0131n: – Ax\u015fam ola bilsin rayona \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131m.
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 gizl\u0259tdi: – Aaa, n\u0259 vaxt qay\u0131dacaqsan?
\nG\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dim: – Narahat olma, ad g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259 g\u00fcnortayacan evd\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n

– Sinif yolda\u015flar\u0131m da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r. Anam dan\u0131\u015f\u0131bd\u0131.
\n– Tort almay\u0131n, \u00f6z\u00fcm alacam.
\n– \u015eokoladl\u0131 olsun
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131
\n– S\u0259nin dostlar\u0131n da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k?
\n– M\u0259n qocalm\u0131\u015fam. Ad g\u00fcn\u00fc u\u015faqlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m m\u0259sum g\u00f6zl\u0259rini m\u0259n\u0259 dikdi. Zarafat\u0131m\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259mi\u015fdi: – Yax\u015f\u0131, s\u0259ns\u0259n daha. \u015eamlar\u0131 bir yerd\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u0259rik. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n olur?<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m \u0259dayla cavab verdi: – Buda atam. On be\u015f tamam olur, on alt\u0131ya ke\u00e7ir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 \u015fad ed\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yim a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. \u0130nsan \u015f\u0259hv\u0259t hissl\u0259rin\u0259 alud\u0259 olmasa, \u0259slind\u0259, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edil\u0259si anlar \u00e7oxdur.
\nMa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259kt\u0259bin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda saxlad\u0131m. H\u0259r g\u00fcn dedikl\u0259rimi bu g\u00fcn d\u0259 t\u0259krarlama\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 borc bildim: – D\u0259rs qurtaranda anana z\u0259ng et. Anan\u201c qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndayam\u201d dem\u0259mi\u015f binadan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rsan. E\u015fitdin?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m ufuldad\u0131. Onu bu q\u0259d\u0259r qoruma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n arada onu bezdirdiyinin f\u0259rqind\u0259ydim. U\u015faq olmasayd\u0131 izah ed\u0259rdim: – bir g\u00fcn \u0259r\u0259 gets\u0259n d\u0259, boyu boyuna \u00e7atan u\u015faqlar\u0131n olsa bel\u0259, m\u0259nim q\u0131z\u0131msan. Atalar is\u0259, q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 qoruyan m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rdir.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti d\u0259 var; tez-tez yanaqlar\u0131mdan tutar, dartar, sonra \u00f6p\u0259rdi. \u201cYumru yanaq, toppu\u015f atam\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259rdi. B\u0259z\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131m g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259l\u0259rimin yan\u0131nda yanaqlar\u0131mdan dartacaq?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m m\u0259kt\u0259bin binas\u0131na gir\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259dikd\u0259n sonra i\u015f\u0259 yox, birba\u015fa dostumun Novxan\u0131da yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n ikim\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li ba\u011f evin\u0259 g\u0259ldim. \u00d6z\u00fcm \u00f6z i\u015fimin m\u00fcdiri oldu\u011fum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ist\u0259diyim vaxtda ged\u0259 bil\u0259rdim. Soyuq aprel ay\u0131nda ba\u011f evind\u0259 dinc\u0259lm\u0259k a\u011flabatan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t deyildi. D\u00f6rd dost bir g\u00fcnl\u00fck ki\u015fi m\u0259clisini bug\u00fcn\u0259 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q. Ev sahibi R\u00fcf\u0259t bir g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, laz\u0131m olan haz\u0131rl\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Darvazaya \u00e7atanda dostumuz Eminin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. G\u0259ldiyimi bildirm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259dil\u0259 siqnal verdim, ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di, R\u00fcf\u0259t darvaza qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n bir tay\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131: – Ax\u0131r ki! Q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131z g\u0259ldi. Dostlar\u0131m\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan yad qad\u0131n s\u0259sl\u0259ri d\u0259 e\u015fitdim. R\u00fcf\u0259tl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dim. Haql\u0131 idim, Eminin yan\u0131nda iki qad\u0131n vard\u0131. T\u0259\u0259ccbl\u0259nm\u0259dim, Ki\u015fi m\u0259clisinin \u0259n maraql\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rind\u0259n birid\u0259 qad\u0131nlard\u0131.
\nEv\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fqa qad\u0131n da g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Ayd\u0131n idi, bu gec\u0259 d\u00f6rd ki\u015fi \u00fc\u00e7 qad\u0131n \u0259yl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k, s\u0259h\u0259ri diri g\u00f6zl\u0259 a\u00e7acaqd\u0131q. Anlad\u0131m ki, R\u00fcf\u0259t bir h\u0259ft\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l \u201c Ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc unudulmaz ed\u0259c\u0259yik\u201d dey\u0259nd\u0259 n\u0259yi n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutubmu\u015f.
\nQad\u0131nlarla tan\u0131\u015f olduqdan sonra ilk araq bad\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. R\u00fcf\u0259t, Emin, C\u0259bray\u0131l, m\u0259n bad\u0259l\u0259ri toqqu\u015fdurduq, birn\u0259f\u0259s\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0259kdik. S\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n nem\u0259tl\u0259rin aras\u0131ndan h\u0259r\u0259miz g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fcz tur\u015funu yedik, oturduq. Qad\u0131nlar h\u0259r\u0259si dostlar\u0131mla yana\u015f\u0131 oturmu\u015fdular.Dostlar\u0131ma ba\u015fqa , xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z bax\u0131\u015flarla baxmal\u0131 oldum. Dey\u0259s\u0259n, ham\u0131s\u0131 o m\u0259nan\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r; – M\u0259n\u0259 qad\u0131n yoxdu?
\nG\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f s\u0259dalar\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131. R\u00fcf\u0259t qolumdan tutdu, m\u0259ni pill\u0259kanlara t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7\u0259kdi; – g\u0259l ey, g\u0259l. He\u00e7 \u00fcr\u0259yim d\u0259 raz\u0131 deyil, t\u0259k qalasan. \u00c7\u0131x, sa\u011fdan ikinci qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015farsan. Tox qar\u0131na kef olmur.<\/p>\n

Utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, q\u0131z\u0131m demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u201cyumru\u201d yanaqlar\u0131m h\u0259r utananda q\u0131zarard\u0131. S\u00f6z dem\u0259k m\u0259nas\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131, a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r pill\u0259kanlar\u0131 qalxd\u0131m. R\u00fcf\u0259t is\u0259, arxamca m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r verirdi: – Televizoru yand\u0131rarsan. Qon\u015fulardan ay\u0131bd\u0131r.
\nQon\u015fular\u0131n bu vaxt olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdim. Qad\u0131nlar g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. \u0130kinci qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fanda k\u00f6yn\u0259yimin iki d\u00fcym\u0259sini a\u00e7d\u0131m. Qap\u0131n\u0131 iki d\u0259f\u0259 d\u00f6yd\u00fcm, s\u0259s g\u0259lm\u0259di. T\u0259krar d\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015fanda qap\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. A\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131…v\u0259 m\u0259n m\u0259yus oldum. Qar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 qad\u0131n boyu h\u00fcnd\u00fcr, beli inc\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmasan qad\u0131n b\u0259d\u0259ni kimi formala\u015fm\u0131\u015f q\u0259d-qam\u0259tl\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r doymazsan… Lakin… \u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m, qad\u0131n yox, u\u015faq idi. U\u015faq m\u0259ni g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri d\u0259v\u0259t etdi; – Qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dayanmay\u0131n, buyurun.
\nDilim-doda\u011f\u0131m qurumu\u015fdu, ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131m, ota\u011fa ke\u00e7dim, i\u00e7imd\u0259 R\u00fcf\u0259t\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 q\u0259z\u0259b yarand\u0131; – Ay \u0259claf, g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259din bu u\u015faqd\u0131, ya …ya qad\u0131n?
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirmi\u015fdim, k\u00f6yn\u0259yimin d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini ba\u011flad\u0131m, \u00e7arpay\u0131da oturdum. O da dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131, yan\u0131mda, bir az m\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131n \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. \u018fl uzatd\u0131, k\u00f6yn\u0259yimin d\u00fcym\u0259l\u0259rini a\u00e7maq ist\u0259yirdi, q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m. Yax\u015f\u0131 fikir verm\u0259dim, dey\u0259s\u0259n, qorxutdum onu. Otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq, R\u00fcf\u0259ti \u0259zi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdim.
\nM\u0259nim h\u0259yat\u0131mdak\u0131 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n \u0259ks\u0259riyy\u0259ti m\u0259niml\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131d olublar. \u018fn ki\u00e7iyinin ya\u015f\u0131 otuzdan a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olmazd\u0131. Qald\u0131 ki, q\u0131z\u0131m ya\u015f\u0131nda ola; – Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var? \u2013 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n on s\u0259kkizd\u0259n art\u0131q olmayaca\u011f\u0131na \u0259min idim.
\n\u00dcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131, sual\u0131m\u0131 t\u0259krar verm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur oldum: – E\u015fitmirs\u0259n? Ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131n var?
\n– On yeddi.
\nEl\u0259 bil ba\u015f\u0131ma qaynar su t\u00f6kd\u00fcl\u0259r. D\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda \u0259sir edildiyi q\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131nan qu\u015f kimiydim. Haval\u0131 adamlardan se\u00e7ilmirdim. Ota\u011f\u0131n o t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259, bu t\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 gedirdim. Televizora g\u00f6z\u00fcm sata\u015fd\u0131: – Yand\u0131r televizoru.
\nS\u0259ssizc\u0259 dediyimi el\u0259di. R\u00fcf\u0259ti yax\u015f\u0131 tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fs\u0259ydim, bu q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259nlik olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 des\u0259m d\u0259, zaman\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ki\u015fi kimi z\u0259if damar\u0131ma basacaqd\u0131. Ki\u015fi kimi o c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259zdim.
\nOn d\u0259qiq\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra , \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bilm\u0259dim niy\u0259, \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259, onun yan\u0131nda oturdum. \u018flind\u0259n tutdum: – Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, bu ya\u015fda oldu\u011funu bils\u0259ydim, bura q\u0259d\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259zdim.
\nQ\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di: – Narahat olmay\u0131n, bu m\u0259nim i\u015fimdir..
\nQ\u0131za ac\u0131qland\u0131m, s\u0259simi qald\u0131rd\u0131m; – S\u0259nin i\u015fin indi oxumaqd\u0131r, fahi\u015f\u0259lik deyil. Han\u0131 s\u0259nin b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcn?
\n– M\u0259n yetim\u0259m. Ki\u00e7ik bac\u0131m var.
\n\u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131qlanma\u011f\u0131ma pe\u015fman oldum.
\n– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, \u0259s\u0259biy\u0259m. Adama dey\u0259rl\u0259r, ki\u015fis\u0259n, g\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7at\u0131rsa apar, t\u0259m\u0259nnas\u0131z bax. Q\u0131namaq asand\u0131.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131mdan iki ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Yox… Yen\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131m ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131: – N\u0259 vaxtdan m\u0259\u015f\u011fulsan?
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131, utanmadan: – Bir ildir \u2013 dedi.
\n– Bac\u0131n\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 var?
\n– S\u0259kkiz.
\n– N\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu\u011funu bilmir, m\u0259lum m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259dir.
\n– B\u00fct\u00fcn gec\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faca\u011f\u0131q?
\nU\u015faqd\u0131 ki, u\u015faq…El\u0259 bilirdi ona toxunacam.
\n\u201cHe\u00e7 kim \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 q\u0259br\u0259 sirr aparm\u0131r\u201d \u2013 dey\u0259rdi atam. Aparsayd\u0131, a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f tarixi sirrl\u0259ri oxuya-oxuya b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259zdik. Q\u0131z\u0131m da bir g\u00fcn \u00f6yr\u0259ns\u0259 ki, u\u015faqla yatm\u0131\u015fam, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259r. Qar\u015f\u0131mda dayan\u0131b m\u0259nd\u0259n dig\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259r kimi h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n bu u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n fahi\u015f\u0259 olmas\u0131 m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m olmaya bil\u0259r. Yatsayd\u0131m \u00e7iyinl\u0259rim\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r bir y\u00fck\u00fcn qoyuldu\u011funu \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu hiss ed\u0259c\u0259kdim.
\n– S\u0259ninl\u0259 ancaq dan\u0131\u015fa bil\u0259r\u0259m.
\nHaql\u0131 olaraq susurdu. Onunla s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 ayd\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa m\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259s yoxuydu. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131m, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131m. \u0130sti deyildi, \u0259s\u0259bin b\u0259d\u0259nim\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi h\u0259rar\u0259t m\u0259ni bo\u011furdu. Q\u0131z \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fc, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00e7\u0131lpaq qollar\u0131n\u0131 ovu\u015fdururdu. He\u00e7n\u0259 dem\u0259dim, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259nin bir g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011flay\u0131b, dig\u0259r g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc biraz aral\u0131 saxlad\u0131m. M\u0259n\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, \u00e7iynim\u0259 toxundu: – Yax\u015f\u0131 adams\u0131z.
\n– \u0130nsan da dem\u0259k olard\u0131. Ne\u00e7\u0259nci sinif\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oxumusan?
\n– Anam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 doqquzuncu sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdum.
\n– Qohum-\u0259qraban yoxdur?
\nCavab verm\u0259di. Susmaqda haql\u0131 idi. Ki\u015fil\u0259r qad\u0131nlar\u0131n dan\u0131\u015fmas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pul \u00f6d\u0259mirdil\u0259r.
\n– Ke\u00e7irdiyim ad g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u0259 bax!
\n– Bug\u00fcn sizin ad g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fczd\u00fc?
\n– Sabahd\u0131
\n– Bilmirdim.
\n– Hardan bil\u0259c\u0259kdin?
\n– Sabah m\u0259nim d\u0259 ad g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u00dcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi, g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7ind\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 par\u0131lt\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130ndi u\u015fa\u011fa daha \u00e7ox b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131mla eyni g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fdu. M\u0259n\u0259 \u201cn\u0259 axmaq adamd\u0131r\u201d dey\u0259c\u0259ksiniz, ist\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 onun yerin\u0259 qoydum. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, qar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131md\u0131r. Dodaqlar\u0131m\u0131 g\u0259mird\u0259c\u0259k \u0259s\u0259b g\u0259ldi can\u0131ma. H\u0259l\u0259 uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t idi, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 bu q\u0131z\u0131n yerin\u0259 qoymaq ist\u0259mirdim, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rim is\u0259, ki\u015fi l\u0259yaq\u0259timi \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259yirdi.
\n– Sabah q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n da ad g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyimiz v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259k p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri a\u00e7d\u0131, ikimiz d\u0259 qorxduq, q\u0131z q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259t olmad\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131m.
\n– Qorxma q\u0131z\u0131m, qorxma. Qorxma q\u0131z\u0131m!
\nSonra ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fcm. Birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259ni q\u0131z\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 yozan dostlar\u0131m\u0131n, yan\u0131ndak\u0131 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259, s\u00fckut \u00f6z h\u00f6km\u00fcyl\u0259 ikimiz\u0259 hakimlik etmi\u015fdi. Q\u0131z s\u0259ssizc\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nO g\u00fcn yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7ox nifr\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259yim ikinci varl\u0131q yox idi. Bir ki\u015fi kimi uzun m\u00fcdd\u0259t he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131na da laz\u0131m olmad\u0131m…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yolda\u015f\u0131mla aram\u0131zdak\u0131 soyuqlu\u011fu q\u0131z\u0131m son g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 hiss etmi\u015fdi. \u018fslind\u0259, soyuqlu\u011fun s\u0259b\u0259bini ikimiz d\u0259 bilmirdik, s\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz bir-birimiz\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259lmirdi. Ali t\u0259hsilli, ya\u015f\u0131 q\u0131rx\u0131 ke\u00e7mi\u015f, h\u0259yat g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f insanlard\u0131q. On be\u015f ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z olmasayd\u0131, ail\u0259 x\u0259trin\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, savad\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n iki k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc bir-birinin ard\u0131nca qo\u015fub dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atmazd\u0131. Ni\u015fanl\u0131 olanda atam m\u0259n\u0259 bir ki\u015finin ail\u0259d\u0259 rolunun n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":984,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-13556","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13556","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/984"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=13556"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13556\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":13715,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/13556\/revisions\/13715"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=13556"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=13556"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=13556"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}