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\"qaragoz\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Sevinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri
\n(roman)
\nIII hiss\u0259<\/p>\n

Fidan\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259si<\/p>\n

Arifl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin toyundan iki il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 olmurdu. G\u0259nc ail\u0259 narahat olma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u00fcalic\u0259 olmaq m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 getdi\u0259r. H\u0259kimin verdiyi cavabdan sonra ikisinin d\u0259 sevincl\u0259rinin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu olmad\u0131. \u0130kisi d\u0259 sa\u011flam idi, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdi. Y\u0259ni \u00fcmidsiz olmaq, bir-biril\u0259rinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, dal-dal\u0131qda d\u0259rdd\u0259n siqaret siqaret ard\u0131nca \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin, gizlic\u0259 a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131z oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131lar.\u00dcmidl\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131lar. \u0130ki aydan sonra \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k bulanmas\u0131, hals\u0131zl\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc biruz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. U\u015fa\u011fa qalma\u011f\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ndi. Anas\u0131 Ftmayla tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259kim L\u0259taf\u0259tin yan\u0131na g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Hamil\u0259liyin ikinci h\u0259ft\u0259sind\u0259 oldu\u011funu \u00f6yr\u0259ndil\u0259r. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin sevinci yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131. Fatma yolda q\u0131z\u0131na m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r verirdi.: Tez-tez ma\u015f\u0131na minm\u0259, \u00e7ox i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u0259, a\u011f\u0131r i\u015fl\u0259ri m\u0259n\u0259 saxla g\u0259lib \u00f6z\u00fcm g\u00f6r\u0259r\u0259m v\u0259.s.
\nHamil\u0259 qad\u0131nlar\u0131n ke\u00e7irdiyi hissl\u0259ri ya\u015famayan qad\u0131nlar b\u0259tnind\u0259 u\u015faq g\u0259zdir\u0259n qad\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259, u\u015fa\u011fa g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 narahat olurlar. \u018fn ac\u0131s\u0131, o qad\u0131nlar do\u011fanda onlar\u0131n sevincin\u0259 \u015f\u0259rik olursan, daxil\u0259n ana olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn heyfsl\u0259nirs\u0259n \u201c O qad\u0131nlar kimi qad\u0131nam , ana olmad\u0131m\u201d deyirs\u0259n. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn ana olaca\u011f\u0131na \u00fcmid edirs\u0259n, onacan is\u0259, k\u00f6rp\u0259sini quca\u011f\u0131na g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n qad\u0131nlar\u0131n yerind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k \u015fam yem\u0259yin\u0259 haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Pay\u0131z\u0131n son ay\u0131 da q\u0131\u015f havas\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259smi\u015fdi. T\u0259k-t\u00fck par\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259 \u00e7arpmayan ulduzlar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nArif avtobusu qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda saxlad\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, q\u0259fild\u0259n avtobusdan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n Arif\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, salamla\u015fd\u0131lar. Yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131. Arif \u015fad olsada t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdi.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Nec\u0259s\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim?
\nArif: – yax\u015f\u0131, bug\u00fcn plan\u0131 doldurdum.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Lap yax\u015f\u0131, soyuqdur, ke\u00e7\u0259k i\u00e7\u0259ri. Qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z var.
\n–\tQonaq? Kimdi?
\n–\tKe\u00e7\u0259k i\u00e7\u0259ri.
\nArif ev\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259di. S\u00fcfr\u0259nin x\u00fcsusi b\u0259z\u0259dilm\u0259si, \u0259lav\u0259 bo\u015fqab qoyulmas\u0131 mara\u011f\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b oldu.
\n–\tKimdi qona\u011f\u0131m\u0131z?
\n–\tG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, yoldad\u0131r.
\n–\tKimdi ax\u0131?
\n–\tTan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z adamd\u0131. Qar\u0131xma, g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Biz \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yimizi yey\u0259k.
\n–\tB\u0131y, qona\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259k?
\n–\tG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, otur.
\nArifl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya oturdular. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k Arifin bo\u015fqab\u0131mna bi\u015firdiyi dolmadan qoyur.
\nArif bir yan\u0131ndak\u0131 bo\u015fqaba, bir d\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131.
\n–\tVallah, s\u0259nin kefin k\u00f6kd\u00fc, m\u0259niml\u0259 zarafat edirs\u0259n.
\n–\t\u018fzizim, s\u0259nin atalar\u0131n c\u0259rg\u0259sin\u0259 qo\u015fulma\u011f\u0131n zarafatd\u0131rsa, bu m\u0259nim yox, s\u0259nin g\u00fcnah\u0131nd\u0131r.
\nArif diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131, bir anl\u0131q duruxdu. Q\u0131\u015fq\u0131randa \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qorxdu. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi quca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131b, yanaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Arif dayan, m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canlanmaq olmaz.( \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri deyirdi.)
\nArif: – S\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt olasan. \u0130ndi d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt adam\u0131yam. Ax\u0131r ki…
\nArif \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin aln\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Aylar ke\u00e7ir. Fidan hamil\u0259liyin son g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Fatma doqquz ay m\u00fcdd\u0259tind\u0259 dem\u0259k olar q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ev i\u015fl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc, yem\u0259yini bi\u015firirdi. \u0130st\u0259mirdi q\u0131z\u0131 hamil\u0259 vaxt\u0131 \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259ksin. Arif d\u0259 ax\u015famlar ev\u0259 tez g\u0259lirdi. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r ist\u0259mirdi \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi t\u0259k qoysun. Bug\u00fcn Arif \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u0259n sevdiyi g\u00fcl\u00fc \u2013 zanbaq g\u00fcl\u00fc alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Arif zanba\u011f\u0131 burnuna yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131, astaca;
\nZanbaqla sevgimi deyir\u0259m s\u0259n\u0259,
\n\u00c7\u00fcnki onun \u0259tri h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 qal\u0131r.
\n\u00dcr\u0259kl\u0259 cavab\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259r ki, m\u0259n\u0259,
\nSev\u0259n yar sakitc\u0259 x\u0259yala dal\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131.
\n–\tN\u0259di? M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t \u015fairi olmaq e\u015fqin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcs\u0259n?
\n–\tYax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, sev\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim olsun.M\u0259nd\u0259n \u015fair olmaz.
\n–\tEl\u0259 m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259.S\u0259n he\u00e7 olmasa, bir b\u0259nd d\u00fcz\u00fcb-qo\u015fdun. M\u0259n he\u00e7 onu da bacarm\u0131ram.
\nArif g\u00fcl\u00fcr.
\n–\tRamzil\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259liy\u0259m. Bir saata qay\u0131tmal\u0131yam. Dar\u0131xmarsan?
\n–\tYox, niy\u0259 ki? Get, m\u0259nd\u0259n salam dey\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nArif \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcr.
\n–\t\u00dcr\u0259yin n\u0259 ist\u0259yir, g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 al\u0131m
\n–\tT\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259ni ist\u0259yir.
\nArif yen\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcr.
\n–\tBir az da burda qalsam, ged\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. Sa\u011f ol
\n–\tAllaha \u0259man\u0259t.<\/p>\n

Arifin getm\u0259yind\u0259n 15 d\u0259qiq\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 ba\u015flad\u0131. Sanc\u0131dan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 Arifi s\u0259sl\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, hay ver\u0259n olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 d\u0259 olsa qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u00fcc tap\u0131b yenid\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131.
\n–\tK\u00f6m\u0259k edin, k\u00f6m\u0259k edin.
\nQon\u015funun qap\u0131s\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, qap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259;
\n–\tYalvar\u0131ram, k\u00f6m\u0259k edin.
\nFatmayla ya\u015f\u0131d olan Tavat qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Tavat xala, u\u015faq g\u0259lir. K\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259
\nTavat \u0259rini s\u0259sl\u0259di: – Kaz\u0131m, ay Kaz\u0131m
\nKaz\u0131m qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259ldi.
\nTavat: – Tez ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259tir, vaxt\u0131d\u0131r.
\nKaz\u0131m he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259d\u0259 qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f s\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 Tavat arxa oturaca\u011fa ke\u00e7dil\u0259r.\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k sanc\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131ndan ancaq q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

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\n Arifl\u0259 Fatma \u00f6zl\u0259rini h\u00f6vlank x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k h\u0259l\u0259 sanc\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirdi. Gah \u201cana\u201d\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, gah da yan\u0131na g\u0259lib-ged\u0259n tibb bac\u0131lar\u0131na yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259sinl\u0259r.
\nArif d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259xana qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda gah o t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259, gah bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 gedirdi.
\nK\u00f6k, q\u0131vr\u0131msa\u00e7, qarayan\u0131z a\u011f xalatl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259ldi:
\n–\t\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin yolda\u015f\u0131 kimdi?
\nArif qad\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n–\tM\u0259n\u0259m. N\u0259ys\u0259 olub?
\n–\tT\u0259brik edir\u0259m o\u011flum, \u015firin bir q\u0131z\u0131n oldu. \u015eirinliyimi ver\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nArifl\u0259 Fatma sevincd\u0259n bir-biril\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131lar. Sonra Arif cibind\u0259n pul \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131, tibb bac\u0131s\u0131na verdi.
\nArif: – Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?
\nTavat: – N\u0259 tez?
\nH\u0259r k\u0259s g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.
\nKaz\u0131m Arif\u0259 : – H\u0259y\u0259candan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirmis\u0259n qon\u015fu. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indi g\u00f6st\u0259rmirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Arif utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan q\u0131zard\u0131.
\nTibb bac\u0131s\u0131: – Bir azdan qad\u0131nlardan kim ist\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 bil\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Arif Fatman\u0131 evin\u0259 aparandan sonra Kaz\u0131mgiln\u0259n ev\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Qap\u0131dan i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu, Divardan as\u0131lm\u0131\u015f g\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. H\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcyl\u0259 a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 qald\u0131rd\u0131.
\n–\t\u00c7ox sa\u011f ol. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00e7ox sa\u011f ol<\/p>\n

Arif qaranl\u0131q yolnan gedirdi. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda iki i\u015f\u0131q vard\u0131. \u0130\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131yla dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Dig\u0259r i\u015f\u0131qda is\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n vard\u0131, Arifi s\u0259sl\u0259yirdi.
\n–\tG\u0259l bura o\u011flum. M\u0259n s\u0259nin n\u0259n\u0259n\u0259m.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Yox Arif, ora getm\u0259. Bizim yan\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259l.
\nArif ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131na: – Siz m\u0259nim n\u0259n\u0259msiniz? Sizi birinci d\u0259f\u0259dir g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m.
\nYa\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n: – O\u011flum m\u0259n\u0259 su ver. Sussuzdan ciy\u0259rim yan\u0131r. M\u0259n\u0259 su ver.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – getm\u0259 Arif, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131z s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir.
\nArif: – Su verim g\u0259lir\u0259m. Narahat olma.<\/p>\n

Arif ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. \u018fll\u0259rini qad\u0131na uzatd\u0131, ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutdu. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k is\u0259 var g\u00fcc\u00fcyl\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Quca\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nArif yuxudan dik at\u0131ld\u0131. Qan-t\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259ydi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n Arif Fatmayla \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Arifi yen\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u00e7\u0259ri buraxmad\u0131lar. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k is\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259li oldu. Ba\u011fl\u0131 qap\u0131 arxas\u0131ndan bir-biril\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dil\u0259r.
\nFatma \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 arxas\u0131ndan n\u0259v\u0259sin\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Diliyl\u0259 uzaqdan da olsa \u0259zizl\u0259yirdi.
\n–\tN\u0259n\u0259n qurban olsun s\u0259n\u0259, \u00e7\u0131xaq burdan g\u00f6r n\u0259n\u0259n s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn neynir. A\u011frrn d\u0259ysin can\u0131ma. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr s\u0259n\u0259, ay allah. N\u0259n\u0259n \u00f6ls\u00fcn, u\u015f\u015f\u015f, bax\u0131\u015f\u0131na bax bunun.<\/p>\n

\u0130ki g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k x\u0259st\u0259xanadan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Arifl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131n ad qoyumunu Fatmaya h\u0259val\u0259 el\u0259dil\u0259r. Fatman\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu.
\nFatma: – N\u0259 deyim? Sevincd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Ana, bir ad de. S\u0259n q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng adlar tap\u0131rsan. \u0130ndi n\u0259v\u0259n\u0259 bir ad tapa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Fidan
\nArif: Fidan?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng add\u0131r.
\nFatma: – M\u0259nas\u0131 y\u0131x\u0131lmayan dem\u0259kdir. Y\u0259ni h\u0259r zaman ya\u015fay\u0131r. T\u0259ki, b\u0259xti g\u00f6z\u0259l olsun, ad\u0131n\u0131 biz vermi\u015fik, b\u0259xtini q\u0131z\u0131ldan allah versin.
\n\u00dc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 \u201c Amin\u201d dedil\u0259r.
\nArif q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, \u201cFidan\u201d dey\u0259-dey\u0259 astaca \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Fidan ail\u0259nin h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 tamamil\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi, sevincl\u0259rin\u0259 sevinc qatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n Havalar isti ke\u00e7diyind\u0259n u\u015faq tez-tez s\u0259pirdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7ox Arif narahat olurdu. Arifin dostlar\u0131 M\u00fcrv\u0259tl\u0259, Ramiz g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 valideyinl\u0259rin\u0259 verm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Arifin \u0259lind\u0259 olsa he\u00e7 i\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259z, b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131yla oynayard\u0131. Fidan da atas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi.
\n Alt\u0131 ay g\u0259nc ail\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tli bir h\u0259yat ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Onlara el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikl\u0259ri daima olacaq. N\u0259 etm\u0259li ki, ya\u015famaq \u015firin oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn , h\u0259m d\u0259 ac\u0131d\u0131r, eni\u015fli-yoxu\u015fludur. \u00c7\u0259tin s\u0131naqlardan \u00fcz\u00fca\u011f \u00e7\u0131xmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259r\u0259k d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u00fc v\u0259 irad\u0259li olasan.
\nG\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k ill\u0259rd\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 da \u00e7\u0259tin ill\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n

Q\u0131\u015f ay\u0131 idi. Arif avtobusla gec\u0259 ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n avtobusun qabaq i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131ndan biri s\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\nArif; – Bu n\u0259dir bel\u0259, xeyir olsun \u2013 deyib, s\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 davam el\u0259di. Q\u0259fild\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ya\u015fl\u0131 bir qad\u0131n g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Qad\u0131n\u0131 vurmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n \u0259yl\u0259ci bas\u0131r, s\u00fcr\u0259ti bir az \u00e7ox oldu\u011fundan ma\u015f\u0131n istiqam\u0259tini d\u0259yi\u015fdi, a\u015fanda Arif q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 anas\u0131 s\u00f6hb\u0259t edirdil\u0259r, be\u015fiyind\u0259 yatan Fidan a\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Fidan c\u0259ld u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, sakitl\u0259\u015fdirirdi ki, yats\u0131n. Fatma k\u00f6rp\u0259nin yem\u0259yini haz\u0131rlay\u0131b butulkan\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131na uzatd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131sa q\u0131z\u0131 he\u00e7 n\u0259 yem\u0259di, dayanmadan a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Uff, ba\u015f\u0131m \u015fi\u015fdi. Ayr\u0131 vaxt\u0131 bel\u0259 olmurdu, indi n\u0259 oldu bu u\u015fa\u011fa?
\nFatma: – U\u015faqd\u0131, k\u00fcrl\u00fcy\u00fc tutub. Ver m\u0259n\u0259 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirim. G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259n \u00e7atm\u0131r.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 anas\u0131na verdi: – Arif n\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b g\u0259lm\u0259di? He\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 gecikm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Lap narahat qald\u0131m.
\nFatma: – B\u0259lk\u0259 plan\u0131 doldura bilm\u0259yib bug\u00fcn? Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 gecikir. Nigaran qalma
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 demi\u015f\u0259m ki, ev\u0259 telefon \u00e7\u0259kdir. \u00c7\u0259kdir\u0259c\u0259m deyib ay\u0131-aya sat\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Fatma n\u0259v\u0259sini sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdi.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr, sakitl\u0259\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k Arifi g\u00f6zl\u0259di. Narahat idi. Fatma da q\u0131z\u0131yla b\u0259rab\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259di,t\u0259bii ya\u015f \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Sonunacan g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259di, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin dincini bir az ald\u0131.
\nS\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n qap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259sind\u0259n Fatma dik at\u0131ld\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda Ramizi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Ramizin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k h\u0259r \u015feyi hiss el\u0259mi\u015fdi. He\u00e7 n\u0259 soru\u015fmad\u0131.\u201d Arif\u201d deyib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, \u00fcr\u0259yi getdi. Ramiz \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi tutdu, Fatma qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\nFatma: – N\u0259 oldu? Q\u0131z\u0131m,q\u0131z\u0131m, n\u0259 oldu? N\u0259 dedin bel\u0259 oldu Ramiz?<\/p>\n

Ramizin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 yanaqlar\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc.
\nFatma \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 y\u00fcng\u00fclc\u0259 bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 \u015fill\u0259 vurdu, ay\u0131ltma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\n–\t\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k, ay \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k, ay\u0131l q\u0131z\u0131m. Qurban olum oyan. K\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259 Ramiz, aparaq divana.
\nRamiz \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Fatma q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131lpaq ayaqlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259dyalla \u00f6rtd\u00fc.
\nFatma: – Arif han\u0131? Susma, n\u0259 olub?
\nRamiz: – Fatma ana, Arif … Arif gec\u0259 q\u0259za ke\u00e7irib. \u00c7ox pis q\u0259za ke\u00e7irib.
\nRamiz h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131, dan\u0131\u015fa bilm\u0259di.
\nFatma h\u0259r \u015feyi ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu, dizl\u0259ri s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 baxmad\u0131, b\u00fck\u00fcld\u00fc, yer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6mb\u0259ldi.
\nDizl\u0259rin\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259-d\u00f6y\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131…<\/p>\n

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Sevinin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri (roman) III hiss\u0259 Fidan\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259si Arifl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin toyundan iki il ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 olmurdu. G\u0259nc ail\u0259 narahat olma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u00fcalic\u0259 olmaq m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 h\u0259kim\u0259 getdi\u0259r. H\u0259kimin verdiyi cavabdan sonra ikisinin d\u0259 sevincl\u0259rinin h\u0259ddi-h\u00fcdudu olmad\u0131. \u0130kisi d\u0259 sa\u011flam idi, \u00f6vladlar\u0131 ola bil\u0259rdi. Y\u0259ni \u00fcmidsiz olmaq, bir-biril\u0259rinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, dal-dal\u0131qda d\u0259rdd\u0259n siqaret siqaret ard\u0131nca \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14049","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14049","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14049"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14049\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14051,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14049\/revisions\/14051"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14049"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14049"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14049"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}