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Arifin vaxts\u0131z \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi v\u0259 dostlar\u0131n\u0131 sars\u0131tm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 kim onun \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 inana bilmirdi. Onsuz h\u0259yat\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr etm\u0259y\u0259n \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k yem\u0259k yem\u0259k yem\u0259m\u0259kl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259sd edirdi. Yuxular\u0131nda Arifin ad\u0131n\u0131 sayaqlay\u0131rd\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 da unutmu\u015fdu. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n bu hal\u0131na Fatma da d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmirdi. Bir ana kimi \u00e7ox \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirdi, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n taleyi ona b\u0259nz\u0259mi\u015fdi. Atas\u0131z \u00f6vlad b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k onun da taleyind\u0259 varm\u0131\u015f. Q\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259r\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259ydi. Fatma: – Q\u0131z\u0131m, h\u0259yat davam edir. Taleyinin yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q olmas\u0131 onsuzda \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 da\u011f \u00e7\u0259kdi. Bel\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259, s\u0259ni itirs\u0259m d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Fidan\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f. \u0130ki ayd\u0131 ke\u00e7ib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n. G\u00fczg\u00fcd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 bax, g\u00f6r n\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259s\u0259n. Nahid\u0259 xan\u0131mla dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. M\u0259nim yerim\u0259 a\u015fpaz i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n. Daha qocalm\u0131\u015fam, \u015f\u0259k\u0259rim d\u0259 var. Oturaram evd\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259m\u0259 baxaram. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k anas\u0131na diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di.
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Bir-birini \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcr\u0259n ill\u0259r \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Fidan d\u00f6rd ya\u015f\u0131na \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, Fatma is\u0259 qocalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bigan\u0259liyi, bax\u0131ms\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu ya\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7ox g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. Taleyin ac\u0131 yell\u0259ri yen\u0259 d\u0259 bu ail\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131nda h\u0259rl\u0259nirdi. Yaz f\u0259slind\u0259 – t\u0259bi\u0259tin canlanan vaxt\u0131nda Fidan n\u0259n\u0259sini bir s\u0259h\u0259r oyatma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fatmadan s\u0259s \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131rd\u0131. Fidan m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini haz\u0131rlayan anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi: – Ana, n\u0259n\u0259ni oyada bilmir\u0259m. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k Fatman\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131na g\u0259ldi. Bir-iki d\u0259f\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda s\u0259sl\u0259di. Fatma cavab verm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 astaca ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u018flini anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 toxundurdu, q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Fidan is\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na qorxdu, qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dizl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131. A\u011flamaqdan s\u00f6zl\u0259rini Fidan q\u0131r\u0131q-q\u0131r\u0131q e\u015fidirdi; – \u0130lahi, onsuzda q\u0259lbim q\u0131r\u0131q idi, daya\u011f\u0131m birc\u0259 anam idi. Onu da \u0259limd\u0259n ald\u0131n. M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 neyl\u0259mi\u015fdim? Neyl\u0259mi\u015fdim s\u0259n\u0259?<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di Fatman\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc qon\u015fular da bildi. U\u015faq evin\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r g\u00f6nd\u0259rdil\u0259r. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi he\u00e7 c\u00fcr sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k olmurdu. Nahid\u0259 \u00e7ox dill\u0259r t\u00f6k\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, imkan versin, meyidi apars\u0131nlar. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qoymurdu, el\u0259c\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n meyidini qucaqlay\u0131rd\u0131,a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Birt\u0259h\u0259r \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi qad\u0131nlar meyidin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ramiz v\u0259 dig\u0259r ki\u015fil\u0259r Fatman\u0131n meyidini evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131lar. Balaca Fidan is\u0259 qon\u015fuda u\u015faqlarla oynay\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

Fatman\u0131n q\u0131rx\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra Az\u0259rbaycanda tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f banklar\u0131n birind\u0259n \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259ktub g\u0259ldi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k banka ged\u0259nd\u0259, he\u00e7 vaxt a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri bil\u0259nd\u0259 az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 havalans\u0131n. Bank\u0131n qoydu\u011fu vaxtacan evi banka t\u0259hvil verm\u0259liydi. R\u0259hm\u0259tlik Fatma ne\u00e7\u0259 illik qon\u015fusuna inan\u0131b onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bankdan pul g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, evini is\u0259 banka girov qoymu\u015fdu. Qon\u015fu da \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259liyi ad\u0131yla guya \u00f6z evini d\u0259 banka girov qoymu\u015fdu. Sonradan \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qon\u015funun evini sat\u0131b k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. Nahid\u0259yl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015f a\u00e7m\u0131rd\u0131. – El\u0259 bir Allah da q\u0259sdim\u0259 durub Nahid\u0259 xala. Vallah-billah q\u0131z\u0131m olmasa \u00e7oxdan \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259rdim. D\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. – Gic-gic dan\u0131\u015fma. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k n\u0259dir? Birinci qad\u0131n deyils\u0259n ki. Bac\u0131m 2 \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 bird\u0259n itirdi ma\u015f\u0131n q\u0259zas\u0131nda. He\u00e7 s\u0259nin kimi fikirl\u0259\u015fmirdi. – \u0130ndi m\u0259n neynim? Bank bir h\u0259ft\u0259 vaxt qoydu m\u0259n\u0259. Lap m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 olsa bel\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 uduzan m\u0259n olacam. – Ramizgiln\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. Narahat olma. G\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n u\u015faqla bura. – N\u0259 vaxtacan? – Allah k\u0259rimdir. S\u0259br el\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259k, n\u0259 olur.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin u\u015faq evin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259yin\u0259 ehtiyac qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ramizl\u0259 M\u00fcrv\u0259t \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 i\u015f tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bir tan\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ba\u011fban i\u015fl\u0259diyi villaya xadim\u0259 laz\u0131m idi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131yla villaya g\u0259ldi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Sonradan m\u0259lum oldu ki, Bak\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131sa rayonunun icra ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 ( rayonun ad\u0131 m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259rd\u0259n gizli saxlan\u0131l\u0131r) K\u0259rim K\u0259rimovun villas\u0131d\u0131r. \u0130lk g\u00fcnd\u0259n K\u0259rimin yolda\u015f\u0131 C\u0259mil\u0259nin \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fdi. K\u0259rim \u00c7\u00fc\u00e7\u0259yin taleyini bil\u0259nd\u0259 r\u0259hmi g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, villan\u0131n yan\u0131nda tikdiyi balaca ikiotaql\u0131 evd\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131yla ya\u015fama\u011fa icaz\u0259 d\u0259 vermi\u015fdi. Zamanla \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin qo\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131 C\u0259mil\u0259nin xo\u015funa g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi b\u0259y\u0259nm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yin\u0259 d\u0259 etiraz el\u0259mirdi. Fidan is\u0259 K\u0259rimin q\u0131z\u0131 Ayb\u0259nizl\u0259, O\u011flu S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 oynay\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r q\u0131zlardan ya\u015fca bir az b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. Ayb\u0259niz is\u0259 Fidanla ya\u015f\u0131d idi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin s\u0259liq\u0259li olmas\u0131, qo\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131, ism\u0259ti K\u0259rimin diqq\u0259ti \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015fdi. Bir ki\u015fi kimi Fidandan xo\u015fu da g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Bir g\u00fcn \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k evd\u0259 \u015firniyyat bi\u015firib ba\u011fbana ver\u0259nd\u0259 K\u0259rim g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bi\u015firdiyi \u015firniyyatdan \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k K\u0259rim\u0259 verdi. K\u0259rim \u015firniyyat\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r b\u0259y\u0259nmi\u015fdi ki, \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi evin ikinci a\u015fpaz\u0131 kimi i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. C\u0259mil\u0259 etiraz el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, \u0259rind\u0259n bir az \u00e7\u0259kinirdi. K\u0259rim d\u0259 arvad\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259dsiz \u00e7ox sevirdi. Ona olan m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti qohum-\u0259qrabalar\u0131n\u0131n dilind\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qon\u015fu villada i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n xadim\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn lotereya oynay\u0131rd\u0131. Ona d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n pay\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131la verib at\u0131rd\u0131 ev\u0259.<\/p>\n

Fidan\u0131n m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 getm\u0259si v\u0259 yeni sevgi.<\/p>\n

Fidan K\u0259rimin m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259ti il\u0259 Ayb\u0259nizl\u0259 eyni m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259, \u00fcst\u0259lik eyni sinifd\u0259 oxudular. H\u0259tta, eyni partada otururdular. Sonradan Ayb\u0259nizl\u0259 Fidan tez-tez dala\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Fidan\u0131 \u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 partaya ke\u00e7irdil\u0259r. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 alt\u0131nc\u0131 sinifd\u0259 oxuyurdu. Bac\u0131s\u0131ndan f\u0259rqli olaraq S\u0259f\u0259rin oxuma\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259si var idi. Bir g\u00fcn Fidan b\u0259rk x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015fdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n g\u00f6st\u0259ri\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n vaxt tap\u0131b q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259kim\u0259 apara bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi ki, h\u0259kimd\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259siyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 aray\u0131\u015f als\u0131n m\u0259kt\u0259bin direktoruna t\u0259qdim el\u0259sin. T\u0259rslikd\u0259n h\u0259min g\u00fcn d\u0259 K\u0259riml\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259nin evlilikl\u0259rinin 14 illiyi idi. Buna g\u00f6r\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s haz\u0131rl\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Fidan soyuq pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 g\u0259ldi. M\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259si \u0130rad\u0259 v\u0259ziyy\u0259tinin yax\u015f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb direktordan u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n ev\u0259 getm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fc icaz\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fc ist\u0259mi\u015fdi.. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 Fidan\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcb icaz\u0259 ald\u0131, Fidan\u0131 ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. C\u0259mil\u0259 o\u011flunun d\u0259rsini yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qoyub Fidan\u0131 g\u0259tirdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir az danlad\u0131.Sonra n\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015fdis\u0259 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k evin birinci a\u015fpaz\u0131 olan Adil\u0259yl\u0259 ax\u015famacan b\u00fct\u00fcn haz\u0131rl\u0131qlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. S\u00fcfr\u0259 haz\u0131rlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey yerind\u0259 idi. Birc\u0259 qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 qonaqlar\u0131n g\u0259lm\u0259si. Adil\u0259 ya\u015fl\u0131 qad\u0131n idi. \u0130yirmi il\u0259 yax\u0131n idi K\u0259rimovlar\u0131n evind\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. K\u0259rimin lap subay vaxt\u0131ndan. Dindar qad\u0131n idi, ba\u015f\u0131da h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 olard\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k Adil\u0259y\u0259: – Adil\u0259 xala, fikrim q\u0131zda qal\u0131bd\u0131. B\u0259rk x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib, he\u00e7 olmasa k\u00fcr\u0259yini yodlayard\u0131m. – Narahat olma get. B\u00fct\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck, daha g\u00f6r\u00fcl\u0259si i\u015f qalmay\u0131b. Q\u0131zlarla h\u0259r \u015feyi h\u0259ll ed\u0259rik. – \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol Adil\u0259 xala.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi. Fidan tir-tir titr\u0259yirdi. C\u0259ld q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc yor\u011fanla lori dild\u0259 des\u0259k \u201cbasd\u0131rd\u0131\u201d Fidan t\u0259rl\u0259di. Sonra is\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na zo\u011fall\u0131 \u00e7ay verdi. Fidan art\u0131q t\u0259rl\u0259mirdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi, k\u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 maykalar\u0131ndan birini qoyub yat\u0131zd\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k villaya g\u0259ldi. C\u0259mil\u0259yl\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda rastla\u015fd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259: – \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xan\u0131m, (kinay\u0259 il\u0259) hardas\u0131z? G\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m bug\u00fcn sizi \u00e7ox yormu\u015fuq. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – Xan\u0131m, getm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur oldum, q\u0131z\u0131m x\u0259st\u0259dir. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, getmi\u015fdim. Qan-t\u0259r apar\u0131rd\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131. – N\u0259 is\u0259, qay\u0131da bil\u0259rs\u0259n. Onsuzda h\u0259r \u015fey haz\u0131rd\u0131. Qonaqlar da bir azdan g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Ortal\u0131qda \u00e7ox g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259s\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259clis qurtaranda g\u0259lib qablar\u0131 yuyarsan. – Aha. G\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m. \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na qay\u0131td\u0131. Balas\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 dayand\u0131, ixtiyars\u0131z a\u011flad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q b\u00fct\u00fcn qonaqlar g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 Ayb\u0259niz g\u0259l\u0259n qonaqlar\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131yla oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. K\u0259rim \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi ortal\u0131qda g\u00f6rm\u0259di. M\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 g\u0259ldi, \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi Adil\u0259d\u0259n soru\u015fdu: – Yorulmayas\u0131z xan\u0131mlar. Adil\u0259: – \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun K\u0259rim b\u0259y. – \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. Hardad\u0131? – Q\u0131z\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib, xan\u0131m sa\u011f olsun, icaz\u0259 verdi.<\/p>\n

Bu zaman S\u0259f\u0259r atas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi: – Ata, sabah h\u0259kim \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rar\u0131q? Fidan x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib, m\u00fc\u0259llimd\u0259n icaz\u0259 ald\u0131m, ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdim. K\u0259rim: – y\u0259ni o d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 pisdir v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti? Adil\u0259: – Q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131 vard\u0131. B\u0259yaq da maraqland\u0131m. H\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yib.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim \u2013 Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r \u2013 deyib ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 qalxd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, astaca dedi: – \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin q\u0131z\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259kim \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131z?<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 \u0259rinin sual\u0131na t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi.Qad\u0131nl\u0131q q\u0131sqancl\u0131\u011f\u0131 insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131na g\u00fcc g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. – Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim, m\u0259n niy\u0259 h\u0259kim \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rmal\u0131yam? – Biz n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131q? M\u0259n evd\u0259 olmayanda h\u0259r \u015feyin m\u0259suliyy\u0259ti s\u0259nin boynundad\u0131r. – N\u0259di? \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n da m\u0259suliyy\u0259ti m\u0259nim boynumad\u0131r? Q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131 varda, b\u00f6y\u00fck bir \u015fey olmay\u0131b. – Daha s\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur, q\u0131zd\u0131rmadan \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259 var. S\u00f6z\u00fcm yoxdur.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, C\u0259mil\u0259 d\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n \u0259rin\u0259 deyir: – Hara gedirs\u0259n? M\u0259ni qonaqlarla niy\u0259 t\u0259k qoyursan? – Qay\u0131dacam. Qay\u0131t qonaqlar\u0131n yan\u0131na. – O qad\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131za gir\u0259nd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 soyuq olmusan. El\u0259 bilirs\u0259n hiss etmir\u0259m? – Dey\u0259s\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131n yerind\u0259 deyil?! H\u0259ddini bil, qay\u0131t qonaqlar\u0131n yan\u0131na. K\u0259rim qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. C\u0259mil\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolsa da a\u011flamad\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc saxlad\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259rc\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131lan sevgil\u0259rind\u0259n ist\u0259mirdi qonaqlar n\u0259ys\u0259 q\u00fcsur g\u00f6rs\u00fcn, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evir\u0259n kimi dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131nlar. K\u0259rim \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kgilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda K\u0259rimi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. – K\u0259rim b\u0259y! – Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k. E\u015fitdim Fidan x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nib. – H\u0259 ,q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 var. Bilmir\u0259m neynim?<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7ir. Fidan\u0131n yata\u011f\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. \u018flini Fidan\u0131n aln\u0131na, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 vurur. – \u018fm\u0259lli-ba\u015fl\u0131 yan\u0131r ki, bu u\u015faq. \u0130ndi g\u0259lir\u0259m. K\u0259rim evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00c7ox ke\u00e7m\u0259di bir ki\u015fiyl\u0259 qay\u0131td\u0131. – G\u0259l \u0130lham. \u0130lham dostumdur, h\u0259kimdir.<\/p>\n

\u0130lham Fidan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259lini toxundurdu. \u0130lham: – Temperaturu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259rdi? \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – B\u0259yaq \u00f6l\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 otuz s\u0259kkiz idi. – M\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m ka\u011f\u0131z verin. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k \u0130lham\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini verdi. \u0130lham n\u0259 yazd\u0131sa, v\u0259r\u0259qi K\u0259rim\u0259 uzatd\u0131. – Tap\u015f\u0131r, bunlar\u0131 als\u0131nlar. U\u015fa\u011fa iyn\u0259 vursam, q\u0131zd\u0131rmas\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259r, sabaha yax\u015f\u0131 olar.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 ald\u0131rtd\u0131. \u0130lham Fidana iyn\u0259 vuranda Fidan a\u011flad\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirdi. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u00fc yor\u011fanla yenid\u0259n \u00f6rtd\u00fc ki, t\u0259rl\u0259sin, yax\u015f\u0131 olsun. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – \u00c7ox sa\u011f olun.Allah raz\u0131 olsun sizl\u0259rd\u0259n. \u0130lham: – D\u0259ym\u0259z xan\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u0130lhamla K\u0259rim evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. K\u0259rim siqaret yand\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130lahm k\u0259rimin kefsiz oldu\u011funu hiss etdi: – N\u0259 olub K\u0259rim? K\u0259rim: – N\u0259 ola bil\u0259r? Ke\u00e7\u0259k i\u00e7\u0259ri, bo\u011faz\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 bir az isladaq. K\u0259rim siqaretini yer\u0259 atd\u0131, aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda \u0259zdi.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r C\u0259mil\u0259nin \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kd\u0259n xo\u015fu g\u0259lmirdis\u0259, o gec\u0259 nifr\u0259ti sonsuz olmu\u015fdu…O g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra axtar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, onda tutarl\u0131 bir s\u0259hv taps\u0131n, K\u0259rim\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rsin, onun \u0259liyl\u0259 d\u0259 ana-balan\u0131 evd\u0259n qovsun…<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn C\u0259mil\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131yla anas\u0131gil\u0259 qonaq getmi\u015fdi. K\u0259rim d\u0259 ev\u0259 tez g\u0259lm\u0259li olmu\u015fdu. O\u011flu evd\u0259 d\u0259rsl\u0259rini haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259rim: – D\u0259rsl\u0259rini qurtarsan x\u0259b\u0259r el\u0259. – Dem\u0259k olar qurtard\u0131m. – Onda haz\u0131rla\u015f, ata-bala ged\u0259k \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri f\u0131rlanaq.<\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r sevindiyind\u0259n \u201curra\u201d deyib q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259rim evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kgilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. – \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k, q\u0131z\u0131 haz\u0131rla, aparacam g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259, g\u00f6zl\u0259yir\u0259m. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc evd\u0259dir.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k sevindi, he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di. Fidan\u0131n \u0259ynin\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ng paltar geyindirdi. K\u0259rim qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dill\u0259ndi. – El\u0259 s\u0259n d\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi, utand\u0131da. Q\u0131z\u0131yla qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na g\u0259ldi. – Olar m\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259yim? C\u0259mil\u0259 can\u0131m\u0131n tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259r var. – S\u0259n evin xadim\u0259si deyils\u0259n, a\u015fpazlardan biris\u0259n. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, haz\u0131rla\u015f.<\/p>\n

\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapmad\u0131. Reall\u0131qla dan\u0131\u015fsaq, etiraz etm\u0259y\u0259 haqq\u0131 da yoxuydu. Raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131, paltarlar\u0131ndan birini geyindi.<\/p>\n

Ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 K\u0259rim s\u00fcrd\u00fc. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 arxa oturacaqda oturmu\u015fdular. K\u0259rim ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 restoranlar\u0131n birinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda saxlad\u0131. \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n sifari\u015f verdiyi yerl\u0259rd\u0259 oturdular. Oturduqlar\u0131 yerd\u0259n d\u0259nizi g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. Hava soyuq oldu\u011fundan t\u0259k-t\u00fck adam g\u00f6rm\u0259k olard\u0131. Restoran\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259tind\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n ail\u0259l\u0259rin u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yell\u0259nc\u0259k d\u0259 vard\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r atas\u0131ndan icaz\u0259 ist\u0259di: – Ata, olar Fidanla yell\u0259nc\u0259kd\u0259 yell\u0259n\u0259k? \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k K\u0259rimd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l cavab verdi: -Hava soyuqdu, x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259n\u0259rsiz K\u0259rim: – narahat olma, he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmaz. Tez qay\u0131tmaq \u015f\u0259rti il\u0259 ged\u0259 bil\u0259rsiz. U\u015faqlar ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n bir-biriyl\u0259 yar\u0131\u015fa gir\u0259r\u0259k birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k is\u0259 utan\u0131rd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259rim diqq\u0259tl\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. – N\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b ikinci d\u0259f\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmursan? Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, bir ba\u015fa suala ke\u00e7dim. Konkret dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 sev\u0259n adamam. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi yan\u0131mdasan, ist\u0259r ist\u0259m\u0259z maraql\u0131d\u0131. – Q\u0131z\u0131m var, \u00f6gey ata ist\u0259mir\u0259m. – S\u0259ninl\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015facam \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k. \u0259g\u0259r icaz\u0259 vers\u0259n, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6vlad\u0131m kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259rdim. – Siz onsuzda q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131zdan se\u00e7mirsiz. – S\u0259n m\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrs\u0259n. Ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131ndasan. T\u0259rbiy\u0259n\u0259, l\u0259yaq\u0259tin\u0259, namusuna s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z. Qo\u00e7aql\u0131\u011f\u0131n da \u00f6z yerind\u0259. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fcr ancaq s\u0259nin haqq\u0131nda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, icaz\u0259 ver h\u0259yat\u0131ndak\u0131 ikinci ki\u015fi olum. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k e\u015fitdikl\u0259ind\u0259n d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. Utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmad\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. Bi-ne\u00e7\u0259 damla g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 bo\u015fqab\u0131na t\u00f6k\u00fcld\u00fc. K\u0259rim bunu g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 pis oldu. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc birt\u0259h\u0259r \u0259l\u0259 ald\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rmadan dedi: – Yolda\u015f\u0131mla bir-birimizi sevib evl\u0259nmi\u015fik. Ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131z q\u0131sa oldu, birc\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 olsun q\u0259lbim\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k n\u0259 s\u00f6z dedi, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t etdi. B\u0259yaq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz dediniz ki, l\u0259yaq\u0259tim\u0259 s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259n nec\u0259 ki siz\u0259 qarda\u015f g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 bax\u0131ram, siz d\u0259 imkan verm\u0259yin yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ruhuna x\u0259yan\u0259t edim. H\u0259r g\u00fcn xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131zla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lir\u0259m. C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m bunlara layiq qad\u0131n deyil.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim s\u0259hvini anlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Astaca bu k\u0259lim\u0259l\u0259ri dedi: – \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m. K\u0259rim d\u0259 pis olmu\u015fdu. Dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kirdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k hiss etmi\u015fdi, n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi, u\u015faqlar da qay\u0131tmas\u0131 onu susma\u011fa m\u0259cbur etdi. Diqq\u0259tl\u0259 K\u0259rimin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 \u201c Daha o evd\u0259 qala bilm\u0259r\u0259m. Onda bir u\u015faqla t\u0259k qad\u0131n hara ged\u0259c\u0259m? \u2013 dedi.<\/p>\n

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