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S\u0259f\u0259rin ona baxmaqdan dan\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n Fidan s\u0259ssizliyi \u00f6z\u00fc pozdu:
\n–\tNec\u0259s\u0259n S\u0259f\u0259r?
\n–\tS\u0259ni tapd\u0131m yax\u015f\u0131. Burda i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\n–\tDem\u0259k olar. Daha do\u011frusu, anam\u0131n yerin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 sa\u011fl\u0131q, bir az x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nibdir.
\n\u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 girdi.
\n–\tDey\u0259s\u0259n bir-birinizi tan\u0131y\u0131rs\u0131z?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r Fidandan \u0259vv\u0259l cavab Verdi:
\n–\tBiz bir yerd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan?
\nFidan – Ax\u015fam \u00e7\u0131xacam. <\/p>\n

\u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t S\u0259f\u0259rin Fidana olan bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan ona qar\u015f\u0131 bigan\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etdi:
\n–\tBug\u00fcn \u00e7ox i\u015f yoxdur Fidan. G\u00fcnorta ged\u0259rs\u0259n. \u0130ndi biz\u0259 iki fincan kofe haz\u0131rlayarsan.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259tl\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xdi, fikri Fidan\u0131n yan\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Tez-tez geri boylan\u0131rd\u0131, Fidan da qap\u0131 arxas\u0131ndan ona bax\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b h\u0259r \u015feyi – Fidan\u0131n ill\u0259rc\u0259 sevdiyi q\u0131z oldu\u011funu, evl\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini s\u00f6yl\u0259di. \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015fdi;
\n–\tAnan raz\u0131 deyil deyirs\u0259n. B\u0259s atan? \u0130cra ba\u015f\u00e7\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n o\u011flu adi bir xadim\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131yla evl\u0259ndi dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\n–\tM\u0259nim xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim adi bir xadim\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259dirs\u0259, deyil\u0259nl\u0259r bo\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131zd\u0131r. Pul qar\u0131n doyuzdurur, sevgi yaratm\u0131r.
\n<\/p>\n

Fidan iki fincan kofe g\u0259tirdi. S\u0259f\u0259r Fidana;
\n–\tFidan, ged\u0259nd\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259r et bir \u00e7\u0131xaq. <\/p>\n

Fidan \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259tin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131.
\n–\tBir saatdan sonra \u00e7\u0131xacaq. <\/p>\n

Fidan hec n\u0259 dem\u0259di, kabinetd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Fidan\u0131 bu d\u0259f\u0259 itirm\u0259k fikrim yoxdu. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ba\u015fqa i\u015f\u00e7i axtarmal\u0131 olacaqsan.
\n\u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t g\u00fcld\u00fc : – \u018flac\u0131m n\u0259di?
\nBir saatdan sonra S\u0259f\u0259r dostuyla sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131, Fidanla ofisd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Fidan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259rin ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. S\u0259f\u0259r qabaq qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131:
\n–\tBuyur
\nFidan minm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd edirdi. S\u0259f\u0259r pis oldu:
\n–\tY\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 etibar etmirs\u0259n Fidan?
\n–\t\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 edir\u0259m.<\/p>\n

Fidan ma\u015f\u0131nda oturdu. S\u0259f\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 parkda saxlad\u0131. \u0130kisi d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nG\u0259zirdil\u0259r. S\u0259f\u0259r Fidan\u0131 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 s\u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n– Harada ya\u015fay\u0131rs\u0131z?
\nFidan yer\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131: – Ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131qda bir yerd\u0259. \u2013
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. \u0130nan s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tim\u0259, anamla bac\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131n\u0131zda x\u0259cal\u0259tliy\u0259m.
\n– S\u0259n niy\u0259? Burada \u015fi\u015firdil\u0259si he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdu. C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m i\u015fimizd\u0259n raz\u0131 qalmad\u0131, qovdu. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r sad\u0259.
\n– S\u0259nin xadim\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259yin m\u0259nim pisim\u0259 g\u0259lir.
\n– \u00c7ox nahaq. T\u0259hsilim ortad\u0131r, bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 edir\u0259m. <\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r dayand\u0131, Fidan hiss etdi ki, g\u0259lmir, geri \u00e7evrildi. S\u0259f\u0259r Fidan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131nda dayand\u0131: – Bu il imtahan verdin?
\n–\tYox, haz\u0131rla\u015fma\u011fa imkan\u0131m olmad\u0131.
\n–\tK\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.
\n–\tH\u0259v\u0259sim yoxdur.
\n–\tYax\u015f\u0131, onda ged\u0259k, s\u0259ni apar\u0131m ev\u0259.
\n–\t\u018fziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259km\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcm.. <\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r Fidan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi : – Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, etiraz el\u0259m\u0259.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 Fidan\u0131n ist\u0259yi il\u0259 m\u0259hl\u0259d\u0259n bir az aral\u0131 saxlad\u0131. \u0130kisi d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nFidan – M\u0259niml\u0259 m\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 gir\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Deyirs\u0259n, yem\u0259yini yey\u0259-yey\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcm \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xalan\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259yim?<\/p>\n

Fidan dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapmad\u0131. Birlikd\u0259 M\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 girdil\u0259r. Fidan h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259kind\u0259n f\u0259rqli qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc, birba\u015fa a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7m\u0259di. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda S\u0259f\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. S\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n–\tSalam \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala, nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n–\tT\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndim, g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdim. Xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n, ke\u00e7 i\u00e7\u0259ri, \u00e7\u00f6ld\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259. <\/p>\n

Fidan \u00e7ay s\u00fcfr\u0259si a\u00e7d\u0131. Yem\u0259k d\u0259 haz\u0131rlamaq ist\u0259yirdi, S\u0259f\u0259r etiraz el\u0259di, \u00e7ox oturmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259di. U\u015faql\u0131qdan, ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. S\u0259f\u0259r \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu;
\n–\t\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala, atam da, m\u0259n d\u0259 evd\u0259n getm\u0259yiniz\u0259 \u00e7ox pis olduq. Atam da g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k bura, bils\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, \u0259min\u0259m. \u00dcz\u00fcm d\u0259 g\u0259lmir dey\u0259m ki, qay\u0131d\u0131n.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k – Qay\u0131tsaqda ham\u0131 bir-biriyl\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi olmayacaq. Bug\u00fcn pis dolanm\u0131r\u0131q. Uzaqda h\u00f6rm\u0259tli olmaq daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, bir xahi\u015fim var onda. M\u0259n\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tiniz varsa yox dem\u0259yin. T\u0259z\u0259 mebel sexi a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fam. K\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7i laz\u0131md\u0131. Y\u0259ni s\u0259n\u0259d i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259. Fidan m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda i\u015fl\u0259sin. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, etiraz etm\u0259yin.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131yla bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k- Bilmir\u0259m n\u0259 deyim.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r- Komputeri d\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k- Onda q\u0131z\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t o\u011flum. S\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131ram.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r \u015fad oldu – \u018fman\u0259tin g\u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala. <\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r bir fincan da \u00e7ay i\u00e7ib sa\u011folla\u015fd\u0131. Sevincd\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. Fidan \u0259slind\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin yan\u0131nda i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi:
\n– Nahaq raz\u0131 oldun ana. C\u0259mil\u0259 bils\u0259, al\u0259mi qatacaq bir-birin\u0259.
\n– C\u0259mil\u0259 K\u0259rim olmayanda \u0259li-qolu a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r. Narahat olma. El\u0259 bil ail\u0259 ikiy\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u00fcb – yax\u015f\u0131lara v\u0259 pisl\u0259r\u0259.
\n– E\u015fitm\u0259mis\u0259n ki, xeyirl\u0259 \u015f\u0259r bac\u0131-qarda\u015fd\u0131?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k cavab verm\u0259di, divanda uzand\u0131 ki, dincini als\u0131n.
\nFidan da b\u0259dii \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rd\u0259n birini g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, oxumaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn stulda oturdu.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox \u0259s\u0259bi idi. C\u0259mil\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 yuxudan durmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss el\u0259mirdi, X\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m deyirdi, kondisioneri yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259rim qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rpanda C\u0259mil\u0259 qorxudan i\u00e7ini \u00e7\u0259kdi.
\nK\u0259rim C\u0259mil\u0259nin qolundan tutdu, C\u0259mil\u0259 s\u0259sinin tonunu qald\u0131rd\u0131:
\n–\tNeynirs\u0259n? N\u0259 olub?
\n–\tM\u0259n\u0259 artistlik el\u0259m\u0259. O adamlar\u0131 T\u0259hmin\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259n g\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015fdin.
\n–\tDem\u0259li fahi\u015f\u0259nin ad\u0131 T\u0259hmin\u0259dir.
\n–\tO adamlarla s\u0259nin n\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259n var C\u0259mil\u0259? Hardan tan\u0131y\u0131rsan o adamlar\u0131?
\n–\tM\u0259n he\u00e7 kimi tan\u0131m\u0131ram, kimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan bilmir\u0259m.
\n–\tS\u0259ni, m\u0259ni yaradana and olsun, \u0259g\u0259r o adamlar\u0131 tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcbut el\u0259s\u0259m, s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcrl\u00fck qurtaracam. E\u015fidirs\u0259n? Qurtaracam.
\nK\u0259rim otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 yerind\u0259 uzan\u0131b g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu, d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259sinin evind\u0259 g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilmirdi. R\u0259fiq\u0259si ona t\u0259skinlik verirdi.
\n– Qarda\u015f\u0131ma dey\u0259r\u0259m yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r. O qad\u0131n\u0131n da kimliyini \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259rik. Q\u0259hb\u0259l\u0259r qorxaq olur, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qorxutsalar i\u015f tamamd\u0131r. \u00d6z\u00fc qa\u00e7acaq yolda\u015f\u0131ndan.
\n– \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m qorxutsunlar. Zorlas\u0131nlar, ba\u015f\u0131na itin oyununu a\u00e7s\u0131nlar.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259nin r\u0259fiq\u0259si bir az \u0259zilib b\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fckd\u0259n sonra x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n dedi:
\n– T\u0259k olmayacaqda… Dostlar\u0131na dey\u0259c\u0259k, onlarda pulsuz i\u015f g\u00f6rm\u00fcrl\u0259r. Pulun olacaq verm\u0259y\u0259?
\n– Olacaq. Nec\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r bilmir\u0259m, o qanc\u0131\u011f\u0131 r\u0259dd el\u0259sinl\u0259r buralardan.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 yerind\u0259n durdu, ev telefonunun d\u0259st\u0259yini g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc,
\n– Allo. E\u015fidirs\u0259n m\u0259ni? O ifrit\u0259 K\u0259rim\u0259 n\u0259 deyibs\u0259, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 cumdu. K\u0259rim m\u0259nd\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nib. Qarda\u015f\u0131na de ortal\u0131qda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259sinl\u0259r. N\u0259 is\u0259, \u00e7ox dan\u0131\u015fa bilmir\u0259m. M\u0259n z\u0259ng etm\u0259mi\u015f z\u0259ng etm\u0259.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoydu. <\/p>\n

K\u0259rim i\u015fd\u0259 telefonla z\u0259ng edir.
\n– Nec\u0259s\u0259n indi?
\nD\u0259st\u0259yin o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n T\u0259hmin\u0259nin s\u0259si g\u0259lir.
\n– Qorxuram, bird\u0259n o adamlar qay\u0131dar.
\n– Narahat olma, h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 adam var. Tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fam. S\u0259n d\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fla. N\u0259 laz\u0131m olsa, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng et, tez g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m
\n– \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol, evd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey var.
\n– Z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259m. H\u0259l\u0259lik.
\n– H\u0259l\u0259lik.<\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n Fidan\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Qap\u0131n\u0131 Fidan a\u00e7d\u0131, salamla\u015fd\u0131lar.
\nFidan – \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t\u0259 daha i\u015f\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimi dem\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Narahat olma, d\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam da g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, bilir.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k g\u0259ldi.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Sabah\u0131n\u0131z xeyir \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala. Nec\u0259siz?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k – Sabah\u0131n xeyir o\u011flum. S\u0259n nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – \u018flayam, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z bug\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259tdir.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k – S\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131ram o\u011flum. Tez-tez t\u0259krarlama.\u0130\u015finiz avand olsun.
\nFidan anas\u0131yla yanaq-yana\u011fa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr: – H\u0259l\u0259lik ana, h\u0259kimd\u0259n cavablar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcm alacam.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r mas\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda soru\u015fdu: – H\u0259kimd\u0259n n\u0259yin cavab\u0131n\u0131 alacaqsan?
\n– Qan\u0131ndan analiz verib. Ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss el\u0259mir.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Bir ged\u0259 bil\u0259rik?
\nFidan duruxdu, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 baxd\u0131: – Olar.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r sevindi, qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131na mindi.<\/p>\n

Sex 2 m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li idi, ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin kabinetiydi, birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 ustalar i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Bir d\u0259 Fidan olacaqd\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259n usta v\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k\u00e7il\u0259riyl\u0259 Fidan\u0131 tan\u0131\u015f etdi. Fidanla ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. S\u0259f\u0259r komputerd\u0259n nec\u0259 istifad\u0259 etm\u0259yi Fidana izah etdi. Sonra \u00f6z\u00fc ya birinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, ya da kabinetind\u0259 otururdu. Saat 3 d\u0259 Fidanla x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Fidan analizin cavablar\u0131na baxanda pis oldu, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu. Cavabdan m\u0259lum olmu\u015fdu ki, anas\u0131 \u015f\u0259k\u0259rdi. S\u0259f\u0259r Fidana t\u0259skinlik verirdi ki, anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc qorumas\u0131ndan, sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131na diqq\u0259t yetirm\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7ox \u015fey as\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. Fidan ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fclm\u00fcrd\u00fc. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 onlardayd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k q\u0131z\u0131na g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc:
\n– G\u00f6r n\u0259y\u0259 pis olur e. Ona qalsa Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n yar\u0131s\u0131 \u015f\u0259k\u0259rdi.
\nFidan – N\u0259n\u0259m \u015f\u0259k\u0259rd\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259di?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k – N\u0259n\u0259ni d\u0259rd \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc, yoxsa indiy\u0259c\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 qo\u015fulmu\u015fdu, Fidan\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirirdi ki, guya qorxulu hec n\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim o\u011flu ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 hovuza yax\u0131n bir yerd\u0259 oturmu\u015fdu, siqaret \u00e7\u0259kirdi. S\u0259f\u0259r atas\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, sevincliydi.
\n– Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir . Ata, s\u0259n\u0259 \u015fad x\u0259b\u0259rim var. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xalagili tapm\u0131\u015fam.
\nK\u0259rim t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi, S\u0259f\u0259r atas\u0131na h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. <\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259mil\u0259 ev telefonuyla q\u0131z\u0131 Ayb\u0259nizl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r. – Dey\u0259s\u0259n qay\u0131tmaq fikirin yoxdur?
\n– Atam dem\u0259yib? Bir-iki g\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m. S\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rim var ana. \u015ead x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259rim var.
\n– Xeyirdimi?
\n– Ana g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259m. \u0130ndi yox. Atamla aran\u0131z nec\u0259di?
\n– T\u0259k qalm\u0131\u015fam q\u0131z\u0131m. Atan m\u0259n\u0259 x\u0259yan\u0259t edir.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolur, d\u0259st\u0259yi sa\u011folla\u015fmadan yerin\u0259 qoyur.<\/p>\n

K\u0259riml\u0259 o\u011flu g\u00fcl\u0259-g\u00fcl\u0259 ev\u0259 girirl\u0259r. C\u0259mil\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f s\u0259sl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 silir, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 o\u011fluyla salamla\u015f\u0131r.
\n– Xeyirdimi, n\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrs\u00fcz.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Atam izah ed\u0259r, s\u0259h\u0259r tez durmal\u0131yam. Gec\u0259niz xeyr\u0259.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. C\u0259mil\u0259 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla yolda\u015f\u0131na sual verir. K\u0259rim aya\u011fa qalx\u0131r, C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r.
\n– O\u011flumuz \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yi v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 tap\u0131b.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir. K\u0259rim davam edir: – Bak\u0131 balaca \u015f\u0259h\u0259rdi, ist\u0259nil\u0259n insan\u0131 tapa bil\u0259rs\u0259n. D\u00fczd\u00fcr C\u0259mil\u0259?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131yla \u0259rinin dedikl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259di, g\u00f6zl\u0259rini K\u0259rimin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 dikmi\u015fdi. K\u0259rim C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 bir az da yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– M\u0259ni t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndir\u0259n s\u0259nin o adamlar\u0131 hardan tapma\u011f\u0131nd\u0131.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 yer\u0259 baxd\u0131 – Kimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmir\u0259m. \u00d6vladlar\u0131m\u0131n can\u0131na and olsun, onlar\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131ram.
\nK\u0259rim qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 sevirdi, yalandan and i\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi.
\nBa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di, susdu
\n– T\u0259ki!.. N\u0259 is\u0259… Gec\u0259n xeyr\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259
\n– K\u0259rim, S\u0259f\u0259ri o q\u0131zdan uzaq saxla.
\n– Sev\u0259nl\u0259ri ay\u0131ra bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\n– Utanmayacaqsanm\u0131 el – al\u0259m ” o\u011fluna qulluq\u00e7u q\u0131z\u0131 ald\u0131 ” dey\u0259nd\u0259?
\n– M\u0259n kimin o\u011fluydum C\u0259mil\u0259? M\u0259g\u0259r s\u0259n kas\u0131b o\u011fluna g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 el-el\u0259m g\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc? – S\u0259nin savad\u0131n, f\u0259r\u0259s\u0259tin vard\u0131.
\n– Gec\u0259n xeyir\u0259 qals\u0131n.
\nK\u0259rim ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259ni a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 K\u0259rim\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc:
\n– K\u0259rim, o\u011flumun xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn olsa bel\u0259, o q\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt el\u00e7i getm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. M\u0259nim g\u0259linim olmayacaq.
\nK\u0259rim susdu, pill\u0259kanlar\u0131 C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 baxa-baxa \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda K\u0259rim g\u00f6zl\u0259rini C\u0259mil\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kmirdi
\n– S\u0259f\u0259r, bug\u00fcn i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\n– Ged\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– G\u00fcnorta Fidana z\u0259ng ed\u0259rs\u0259n evl\u0259rind\u0259 olar.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r anas\u0131yla bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r : – dey\u0259r\u0259m. Niy\u0259?
\nK\u0259rim – Onlara ged\u0259c\u0259yik. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n ax\u015fam dedikl\u0259rimi ed\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259: – S\u0259f\u0259r n\u0259yi etm\u0259lidir?
\nK\u0259rim: – Narahat olma, \u0259sas o\u011flumuzun xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyidir, \u0259zizim.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131: – H\u0259l\u0259lik, \u00e7\u0131xmal\u0131yam ata.<\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 K\u0259rim\u0259;
\n– M\u0259qs\u0259din n\u0259dir?
\nK\u0259rim: – M\u0259qs\u0259dim \u00f6vladlar\u0131m\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini g\u00f6rm\u0259kdir. Q\u00fcruru, h\u0259r \u015feyi k\u0259nara qoyacam C\u0259mil\u0259. \u00d6vlad\u0131m\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn can\u0131m\u0131 verm\u0259lid\u0259 olsa, ver\u0259c\u0259m.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. K\u0259rimin vurdu\u011fu eyhamlar\u0131 anlaya bilmirdi.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 Fidan art\u0131q i\u015f ba\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131.
\n– Sabah\u0131n xeyir. Bug\u00fcn bir az t\u0259nb\u0259llik el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n– Hiss olunur. D\u00fcn\u0259n tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n yaz\u0131lar\u0131 yazm\u0131\u015fam.
\nFidan printerd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259ri S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 uzatd\u0131.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Bug\u00fcn g\u00fcnorta siz\u0259 getm\u0259liyik. Atam g\u00fcnorta bura g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Bir \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131q.
\n– N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131, sevindim.
\n– M\u0259n d\u0259.
\n– S\u0259n niy\u0259?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir: – El\u0259-bel\u0259 – deyir, ota\u011f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f gedir. Fidan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin arxas\u0131nca baxd\u0131.
\nSaat iki olmam\u0131\u015f K\u0259rim o\u011flunun i\u015f yerin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Fidanla qucaqla\u015f\u0131b g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Sonra \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc d\u0259 birlikd\u0259 Fidangilin qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. D\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k K\u0259rimi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. – Xo\u015f g\u0259ldiniz K\u0259rim b\u0259y. Buyurun!
\nK\u0259rim – Nec\u0259siz \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k bac\u0131.
\nK\u0259rim i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di, g\u0259ncl\u0259r d\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca g\u0259ncl\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259ri girdil\u0259r, S\u0259f\u0259r qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Fidan \u00e7ay haz\u0131rlad\u0131. K\u0259rim hal-\u0259hval tutandan sonra S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 Fidana baxd\u0131.
\n– \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k bac\u0131, m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni \u00e7ox uzatmayacam. Verdiyim q\u0259rar\u0131 he\u00e7 o\u011flum da bilmir.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim cibind\u0259n qutu \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r, h\u0259r k\u0259s t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir. S\u0259f\u0259r t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259:
\n– Ata!..
\nK\u0259rim Fidana : – Q\u0131z\u0131m, o\u011flum ne\u00e7\u0259 ildi s\u0259ni \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259 g\u0259zdirir. M\u0259n d\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259likc\u0259 bilmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259 ba\u015fqas\u0131 yoxdursa, yax\u0131n g\u0259l.
\nFidan anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bilmirdi n\u0259 desin, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. K\u0259rim t\u0259krarlad\u0131: – Yax\u0131n g\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131m.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131yla q\u0131z\u0131na K\u0259rimin dedikl\u0259rini etm\u0259sini i\u015far\u0259 etdi. Fidan K\u0259rim\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. K\u0259rim aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131 – G\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n q\u0131zsan. O\u011flumun xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nimin d\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259 olsa diz \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb yalvararam. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k bac\u0131, s\u0259nin d\u0259 ana kimi etiraz\u0131n yoxdursa, bu \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n barma\u011f\u0131na taxacam.<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim qutunun i\u00e7ind\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r, \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 bax\u0131r. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131d\u0131r. qorxurdu ki, anas\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k yox dey\u0259r.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k: – C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m raz\u0131 deyil ax\u0131?
\nK\u0259rim: – Analar atalardan m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tlidir. Sizin cavab\u0131n\u0131z n\u0259dir?
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k S\u0259f\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131.: – \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131ma g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dedin ki, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131z m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259tdir \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala. Q\u0131z\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259man\u0259tdir, \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu arxas\u0131nda dayanacaqsan? S\u0259f\u0259r: – S\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verir\u0259m \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k xala, q\u0131z\u0131n \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n tac\u0131 olacaq.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k K\u0259rim\u0259 baxd\u0131: – Xo\u015fb\u0259xt olsunlar.
\nK\u0259rim Fidan\u0131n barma\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7qa\u015fl\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc taxd\u0131. Fidan\u0131n yanaqlar\u0131 pomidor r\u0259ngi alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sonra t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rin ist\u0259yi il\u0259 \u00e7aylar\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdi…<\/p>\n

S\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131, \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k dadl\u0131 yem\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n bi\u015firmi\u015fdi. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 yax\u0131n restoranlar\u0131n birind\u0259 kabab sifari\u015f verdi. Ax\u015famacan iki ail\u0259 iki g\u0259ncin – \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n xo\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc qeyd etdil\u0259r, dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, g\u00fcld\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer tapa bilmirdi. Evin o ba\u015f\u0131na, bu ba\u015f\u0131na gedib-g\u0259lirdi. K\u0259riml\u0259 o\u011flu i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259nd\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nacan getdi.
\n-Harada qald\u0131z? \u0130\u015f yerind\u0259 yoxuydun K\u0259rim. Z\u0259ng etmi\u015fdim.
\n– Ke\u00e7\u0259k qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na \u015fad x\u0259b\u0259ri s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 deyim.
\nQonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. C\u0259mil\u0259 kreslonun yan\u0131nda dayand\u0131:
\n– G\u00f6rd\u00fcn evinin qulluq\u00e7usunu?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r hirsl\u0259ndi, K\u0259rim g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib divanda oturdu : – Qudan\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck \u0259zizim. Bug\u00fcn Fidan\u0131n barma\u011f\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fck taxd\u0131m. G\u0259lin g\u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 baxma\u011fa \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fdir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 tok vurmu\u015f adamlar kimi oldu. Sakitc\u0259 kresloda oturdu. K\u0259rim onu s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n ya\u015f g\u0259ldi,a\u011flad\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r anas\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:
\n– Ana yax\u015f\u0131san? C\u0259mil\u0259 \u0259liyl\u0259 o\u011flunu uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n– Anan olsayd\u0131m, m\u0259ni sayard\u0131n.
\nK\u0259rim: – O\u011flunun da ni\u015fandan x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxuydu. Gec\u0259 dediyin c\u00fcml\u0259ni xat\u0131rla. O\u011flun olsayd\u0131, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyini t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259 alt\u0131na atmazd\u0131n. O q\u0131z\u0131 q\u0259bul el\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259. Yersiz q\u00fcrurunu qoy bir k\u0259nara.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, ba\u015f\u0131yla t\u0259sdiql\u0259di, aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ota\u011f\u0131na girib g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ke\u00e7di. Yanaqlar\u0131ndan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. C\u0259mil\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 sonsuz nifr\u0259ti g\u00f6rm\u0259k olard\u0131.<\/p>\n

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S\u0259f\u0259rin ona baxmaqdan dan\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n Fidan s\u0259ssizliyi \u00f6z\u00fc pozdu: – Nec\u0259s\u0259n S\u0259f\u0259r? – S\u0259ni tapd\u0131m yax\u015f\u0131. Burda i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n? – Dem\u0259k olar. Daha do\u011frusu, anam\u0131n yerin\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 sa\u011fl\u0131q, bir az x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259nibdir. \u018fl\u00f6vs\u0259t m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 girdi. – Dey\u0259s\u0259n bir-birinizi tan\u0131y\u0131rs\u0131z? S\u0259f\u0259r Fidandan \u0259vv\u0259l cavab Verdi: – Biz bir yerd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u00fck. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n n\u0259 vaxt \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan? Fidan – Ax\u015fam […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14666","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14666","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14666"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14666\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14672,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14666\/revisions\/14672"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14666"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14666"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14666"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}