{"id":14695,"date":"2015-09-04T21:40:56","date_gmt":"2015-09-04T16:40:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14695"},"modified":"2015-09-04T21:57:33","modified_gmt":"2015-09-04T16:57:33","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-v%c9%99-susarsan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14695","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”V\u0259 susarsan…”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"sv\"<\/a><\/p>\n

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

Unutqanl\u0131q b\u00fct\u00fcn insanlar\u0131n problemidir, deyilmi? M\u0259nc\u0259, h\u0259\u2026 El\u0259, s\u0259nc\u0259 d\u0259, h\u0259! \u00c7\u00fcnki, bilir\u0259m, indi durub s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ets\u0259m ki, \u201cAy \u0130ntiqam, Bak\u0131da \u201c\u018fl oyunlar\u0131 stadionu\u201d hardad\u0131?\u201d-\u0259n az\u0131 10 d\u0259q telefonda susub x\u0259yal\u0259n Bak\u0131n\u0131 g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u2026
\nBilir\u0259m, art\u0131q anlam\u0131san niy\u0259 m\u0259hz o binan\u0131 soru\u015furam\u2026sefaintiqam
\nBilirs\u0259n\u2026 H\u0259rd\u0259n adam \u0259n ac\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 t\u0259krar ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u2026 T\u0259krar sevm\u0259yi arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 da ya\u015famaq, ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir\u2026 Yad\u0131nda, bir d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 demi\u015fdim? H\u018fR \u0130NSAN M\u00d6HT\u018f\u015e\u018fM AYRILI\u011eI \u00d6MR\u00dcND\u018f T\u018fK B\u0130R D\u018fF\u018f YA\u015eAYIR\u2026 Bundan sonra sad\u0259c\u0259 s\u00fckut ba\u015flay\u0131r\u2026 S\u0259nin dediyin kimi\u2026 \u018fzizin oxudu\u011fu kimi\u2026 \u201cV\u0259 susarsan\u2026\u201d<\/p>\n

B\u0259z\u0259n qopub getm\u0259k ist\u0259rs\u0259n bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n,
\nG\u00fcv\u0259ndiyin \u0259ll\u0259ri soyuq g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259\u2026
\nV\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 \u201c\u0259fsus\u201d-dey\u0259rs\u0259n d\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259\u2026
\nBundan ba\u015fqa birc\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7atmaz.
\nQ\u0259h\u0259r bo\u011far, \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131narsan q\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259\u2026
\nBax, bel\u0259c\u0259, bir ad s\u0131nar, \u00e7ilikl\u0259n\u0259r n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259\u2026
\nV\u0259 susarsan\u2026
\nH\u0259r h\u0259rfind\u0259n bir \u0259lam\u0259t boyland\u0131qca d\u00fcn\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259,
\n\u015e\u00fc\u015f\u0259 kimi \u00e7ilikl\u0259ri k\u0259s\u0259r s\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rini,
\nX\u0259b\u0259rin olmaz.
\nSahibl\u0259n\u0259r h\u0259r hiss\u0259ni, birc\u0259-birc\u0259 toplayarsan\u2026
\nQoymazsan ki, yerd\u0259 qala\u2026
\nQ\u0259fild\u0259n lap g\u00f6zl\u0259rin qaralar, az qals\u0131n ki, y\u0131x\u0131lasan\u2026
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rin \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259 sata\u015far,
\nDo\u011fram-do\u011framd\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259rin\u2026
\nS\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k bir divara \u201cah\u201d \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rs\u0259n d\u0259rind\u0259n,
\n\u201cdey\u0259s\u0259n, \u00e7ox qan itirdim, dey\u0259s\u0259n, \u00e7ox yorulmu\u015fam\u201d\u2026
\n-N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, s\u00f6yk\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 bu divar var!
\nV\u0259 susarsan\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131qdan maraql\u0131 g\u0259lirdi ki, \u015feir yazan adamlar harda ya\u015fay\u0131r? H\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n qay\u0131danda diz\u0259c\u0259n batd\u0131\u011f\u0131m qarda ayaqlar\u0131m islanard\u0131. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259rdim\u2026 Titr\u0259y\u0259-titr\u0259y\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n a\u011f\u0131r m\u0259kt\u0259b \u00e7antam\u0131 qar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131ma g\u0259lirdi:<\/p>\n

-M\u0259n niy\u0259 \u015feir yaz\u0131ram ax\u0131? M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz he\u00e7 vaxt bel\u0259 qar g\u00f6rm\u0259yib y\u0259qin\u2026 Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u015fair olub.<\/p>\n

Bu u\u015faq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259siyl\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131m\u2026 Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 gizl\u0259tmirdim d\u0259\u2026 N\u0259n\u0259m\u0259 oxuyurdum\u2026 Anama dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131m\u2026 Bac\u0131m\u0131n d\u0259ft\u0259rinin orta v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rini gizlic\u0259 c\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131m ki, \u015feir yaz\u0131m\u2026 \u00d6z d\u0259ft\u0259rl\u0259rim tez dolmas\u0131n\u2026 Bunlar\u0131 anlay\u0131rsan, bilir\u0259m\u2026 Sonra b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm\u2026 B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k bumuydu?-dey\u0259 x\u0259yallar\u0131m\u0131n q\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131 zamanlar da oldu\u2026 Amma, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259, \u015fairl\u0259rin bu h\u0259yatda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 q\u0259rib oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131m\u2026 S\u0259n dem\u0259, M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz da qarda \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015f\u2026S\u0259n dem\u0259, m\u0259nim anam da \u015fair imi\u015f\u2026 M\u0259nim \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 adyala b\u00fck\u00fcb odun sobas\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131na uzadan anam\u2026 Sa\u00e7\u0131m gur g\u0259lsin dey\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u0259lini ba\u015f\u0131ma qoyub dua ed\u0259n anam\u2026 Bac\u0131m\u0131n h\u00f6r\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn ucuna a\u011f bantlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u00fcz\u0259ldib taxan anam\u2026 Qarda\u015f\u0131m xo\u015flam\u0131r dey\u0259 ona balaca tavada so\u011fans\u0131z yem\u0259k bi\u015fir\u0259n anam\u2026 Balaca bac\u0131m\u0131n di\u015fi tez \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n dey\u0259 h\u0259dik bi\u015fir\u0259n anam\u2026 M\u0259nim anam \u015fair imi\u015f\u2026<\/p>\n

Ay \u0130ntiqam\u2026 S\u0259n d\u0259 \u015fairs\u0259n\u2026 Harda \u0259lin\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 getdim bir q\u0131\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc sizin k\u0259nd\u0259\u2026 D\u00f6rd saat yol getmi\u015fdik. El\u0259 yollardan ke\u00e7mi\u015fdik ki, el\u0259 bil na\u011f\u0131ldayd\u0131q. \u018flimizd\u0259ki d\u0259mir \u0259sa, aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 d\u0259mir \u00e7ar\u0131q idi. Bizi qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa da Araba\u00e7\u0131 k\u0259ndind\u0259n qa\u00e7araq g\u0259lmi\u015fdin. \u201cYeddi qala\u00e7a\u201ddan birini g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdin m\u0259n\u0259. S\u0259n asanca g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n, d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 d\u00f6rd d\u0259f\u0259 demi\u015fdin:<\/p>\n

-Bax, ordad\u0131, bax da!<\/p>\n

Utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m dem\u0259y\u0259 ki, boyum \u00e7atm\u0131r ax\u0131\u2026 H\u0259, bir d\u0259, s\u0259n telefonda \u201cevd\u0259 yoxam\u201d dedikc\u0259 bilirdim ki, harda olsan da s\u0259ni evd\u0259 tapaca\u011f\u0131q. Ax\u0131, bu yalan\u0131 s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7oxdan e\u015fitmi\u015fdim\u2026<\/p>\n

Qap\u0131m\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131q,
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam.
\nQona\u011fam dey\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131q,
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm m\u0259n\u0259 \u00e7oxdumu,
\nXo\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fcm iti oxdumu,
\nD\u00f6ym\u0259y\u0259 qap\u0131 yoxdumu,
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 kim dedi g\u00fcnd\u0259 g\u0259l,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr bit\u0259nd\u0259 sonda g\u0259l,
\nHa\u00e7an \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rsam onda g\u0259l,
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam. <\/p>\n

M\u00fclk\u00fcmd\u0259n qopar\u0131b m\u0259ni,
\nBu qay\u011f\u0131 lap sar\u0131b m\u0259ni.
\nAparan apar\u0131b m\u0259ni.
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam. <\/p>\n

Divardak\u0131 n\u0259m dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
\nDam dolusu q\u0259m dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
\nYerim\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r,
\nEvd\u0259 yoxam, evd\u0259 yoxam.<\/p>\n

Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 s\u0259ni danlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. B\u00f6y\u00fck kimi\u2026\u018frkyana\u2026 Demi\u015fdim:
\n-\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirl\u0259rini \u201cO\u201d-na yaz\u0131rsansa, \u201cO\u201d-nun ucal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anla!
\nN\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l cavab oxumu\u015fdum az sonra\u2026<\/p>\n

\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirl\u0259rimi,
\ndeyirl\u0259r, s\u0259n\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam.
\n\u0130nanma h\u0259r deyil\u0259n\u0259,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam?!<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 \u015feir yazmaq olmur,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259kc\u0259 vurulmaq olar.
\n\u00d6m\u00fcrl\u00fck \u0259mr\u0259 m\u00fcnt\u0259zir,
\nM\u00fcti bir qul olmaq var.<\/p>\n

Birc\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259rin b\u0259s edir,
\n\u0130\u00e7\u0259rimd\u0259n bo\u011fulma\u011fa.
\nBu gedi\u015fl\u0259 \u00e7ox az qal\u0131b,
\nS\u0259nd\u0259 itib, yox olma\u011fa.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259nim \u00fcmidl\u0259rimin,
\nYegan\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131naca\u011f\u0131.
\nN\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzaq gets\u0259m d\u0259,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m uza\u011f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Bu \u015feir s\u0259nin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l etiraf\u0131n idi\u2026<\/p>\n

Anan\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6pm\u0259y\u0259 zaman tapmad\u0131m\u2026 Ona dem\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 c\u00fcr\u0259tim \u00e7atmad\u0131 deyim ki, \u201cniy\u0259 \u0130ntiqam\u0131n bac\u0131s\u0131 yoxdur?\u201d \u2026 Sonra d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcm ki, bu sual\u0131 verm\u0259k, Allah\u0131n i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmaqd\u0131r. Na\u015f\u00fck\u00fcr b\u0259nd\u0259 deyil\u0259m dey\u0259 oturub yen\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. El\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, yoxdur. T\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259n olaram onun bac\u0131s\u0131. Bu eqomu g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi? B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 hiss etm\u0259mis\u0259n, amma \u00e7ox \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcsev\u0259n\u0259m. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bac\u0131n t\u0259kc\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259m. D\u00fcnyaya naz ed\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 bir bac\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259k\u2026 \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 s\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya naz etmirs\u0259n, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu art\u0131q anlam\u0131san.<\/p>\n

Bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n n\u0259 bahar\u0131,
\nN\u0259 d\u0259 yaz\u0131 sevil\u0259si.
\nN\u0259 \u00e7oxu \u0259zizl\u0259n\u0259si,
\nN\u0259 d\u0259 az\u0131 sevil\u0259si.<\/p>\n

Yaxamda \u0259li d\u00fcnyan\u0131n,
\nQuluyam d\u0259li d\u00fcnyan\u0131n.
\nBu \u201csevilm\u0259li\u201d d\u00fcnyan\u0131n,
\nB\u0259s, haras\u0131 sevil\u0259si?<\/p>\n

Fikri da\u011f\u0131tmaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc,
\nG\u00fcnaha batmaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc.
\nSevib a\u011flatmaqdan \u00f6tr\u00fc,
\nT\u0259k bir q\u0131z\u0131 sevil\u0259si.<\/p>\n

Uzun-uzun dan\u0131\u015fanda da hans\u0131sa s\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz \u0259ksik qal\u0131r\u2026 Bu d\u00fcnyadan qopuruq h\u0259r \u015feird\u0259\u2026 \u018fl \u00e7\u0259kirik h\u0259yat\u0131n var olan\u0131ndan\u2026 Yanl\u0131\u015f edirik, \u0130ntiqam\u2026 \u00c7ox yanl\u0131\u015f\u2026 G\u0259l, qay\u0131daq bu d\u00fcnyayla ya\u015fama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faq. M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz demi\u015fk\u0259n,
\nH\u0259yatda \u201c\u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259\u015f\u201d, \u201csevl\u0259\u015f\u201d demirl\u0259r,
\n\u201cAyaqla\u015f\u201d deyirl\u0259r bu h\u0259yat il\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

G\u0259l, ayaqla\u015faq bu h\u0259yat il\u0259\u2026 Ay\u0131n sonunda qap\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259c\u0259k qaz istismar idar\u0259sininn i\u015f\u00e7isini yada salaq\u2026 \u0130\u015f\u0131q say\u011fac\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n balans\u0131ndak\u0131 pulu nec\u0259 art\u0131raca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259k\u2026 G\u0259l, arada \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n-\u015feirimizd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131b da bu d\u00fcnyayla \u201cayaqla\u015faq\u201d\u2026
\nP.S: \u018fg\u0259r bacarsaq\u2026<\/p>\n

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