{"id":14890,"date":"2015-09-13T08:45:50","date_gmt":"2015-09-13T03:45:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14890"},"modified":"2015-09-13T09:07:06","modified_gmt":"2015-09-13T04:07:06","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-m%c9%99n%c9%99-toxunmayin","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14890","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”M\u0259n\u0259 toxunmay\u0131n”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

Sar\u0131 yarpaqlar kimi \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yinin inc\u0259 tell\u0259rin\u0259 toxunan kim idi, n\u0259 idi, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bilmirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bilm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Hardasa bu tell\u0259rin titr\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259 raz\u0131 idi. N\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, o, bu taleyin at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n\u0131 hesab edirdi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026
\n ***
\n \u2026S\u0259h\u0259r oyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yataqda t\u0259k idi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bay\u0131rda havan\u0131n buludlu olmas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc, yataqdan qalxma\u011fa \u0259rindi, el\u0259-bel\u0259c\u0259, o t\u0259r\u0259f-bu t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 \u00e7evrildi. Bir anl\u0131q t\u0259k olma\u011f\u0131ndan, yan\u0131nda kims\u0259nin olmamas\u0131ndan istifad\u0259 edib \u00f6z\u00fc haqq\u0131nda fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259di. V\u0259\u2026 V\u0259 bunu bacard\u0131\u2026 Sanki \u00f6z\u00fc haqda ba\u015fqa birisi kimi fikir s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi\u2026
\n \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn 25 ilind\u0259n 20 ilini xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. O 20 ili ki, ata-anas\u0131 orda yox idi. 5 ya\u015f\u0131nda u\u015faq evin\u0259 verilmi\u015fdi. Xahi\u015f olunmu\u015fdu ki, ad\u0131, soyad\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015filsin. Sonradan m\u00fcdir\u0259 \u201cxala\u201dn\u0131n dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259, anas\u0131 qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xanda sad\u0259c\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib v\u0259 \u201cSevgimin s\u0259hvi siz\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t\u201d-deyib. M\u00fcdir\u0259 xala is\u0259 ona yeni bir ad fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259yib, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 salmay\u0131b, el\u0259 onu bel\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b: X\u0259tay\u0259\u2026
\n Kimins\u0259 bir anl\u0131q \u015f\u0259hv\u0259tinin n\u0259tic\u0259si kimi h\u0259yatda yeri oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 taleyini d\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 q\u0131nay\u0131rd\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259, bu g\u00fcns\u0259 yox, q\u0131naq yeri o deyildi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 q\u0131nama\u011fa kimis\u0259 axtar\u0131rd\u0131. 13 n\u0259hsdir deyirl\u0259r, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 u\u015faq evind\u0259 ke\u00e7\u0259n 13 ilinin onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin, \u0259n pis oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Burda n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259hqir edilmi\u015fdi. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bir-iki ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flanlar\u0131n \u0259lini b\u0259d\u0259ninin m\u00fcxt\u0259lif yerl\u0259rind\u0259 hiss etdikc\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259r ya\u015famam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 onun balaca \u00fcr\u0259yi. Onlar\u0131n \u0259hat\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b qa\u00e7\u0131nca arxas\u0131nca g\u0259l\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rt\u0131lar da qula\u011f\u0131nda idi: \u201cM\u00fcdir\u0259 xalaya dey\u0259c\u0259yik X\u0259tay\u0259 paltar\u0131n\u0131n yaxas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259sd\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131r ki, serialdak\u0131 q\u0131zlara ox\u015fas\u0131n. H\u0259l\u0259 bir ordak\u0131 q\u0131zlar kimi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi d\u0259 bilir. G\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n, dey\u0259c\u0259yik.\u201d
\n \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, o\u011flanlar bunu demirdil\u0259r. \u00c7\u00fcnki, X\u0259tay\u0259ni g\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z otaqlar\u0131na \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 ona toxunmaq imkan\u0131ndan m\u0259hrum olard\u0131rlar. \u018fslind\u0259, X\u0259tay\u0259 d\u0259 dinc duran deyildi. Qaranl\u0131q d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z ota\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilinc\u0259 o, gizlic\u0259 m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 qa\u00e7ar, a\u015fpaz qad\u0131nla bir yerd\u0259 xarici seriallara baxar, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ordak\u0131 q\u0131zlara, h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n, ox\u015fadard\u0131. Sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b t\u00f6km\u0259yi, sin\u0259sini daha da qabartmas\u0131, \u0259t\u0259yinin belini qatlamas\u0131, v\u0259 daha n\u0259 oyunlardan \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131 onun diqq\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 olmas\u0131na s\u0259b\u0259b olurdu. X\u0259tay\u0259 d\u0259 bundan m\u0259mnun qalard\u0131. V\u0259 serialdak\u0131 kimi \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da M\u0259nsura s\u00fcbut etdikd\u0259n sonra art\u0131q o\u011flanlar ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmirdi. X\u0259tay\u0259 is\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saatl\u0131\u011fa televizora baxma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259trin\u0259 o\u011flanlar\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131ndan yolunu salma\u011fa m\u0259cbur idi. H\u0259l\u0259 bu o\u011flanlar ona \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131nca kosmetika da g\u0259tirirdil\u0259r. Bel\u0259c\u0259, sanki onlar aras\u0131nda gizli sazi\u015f vard\u0131. 18 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n tamam oldu\u011fu g\u00fcn d\u0259 onu u\u015faq evind\u0259n yola salan t\u0259kc\u0259 o\u011flanlar idi. M\u00fcdir\u0259 xalan\u0131n ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u0259lind\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259dl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0131xanda \u0259sg\u0259rliy\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259n o\u011flanlar onu alq\u0131\u015fla yola sald\u0131lar. O is\u0259 M\u0259nsurdan ba\u015fqa ham\u0131ya eyni g\u00f6zl\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131: bir d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259lini ona toxundurub, kosmetika alan axmaqlar kimi. M\u0259nsur bir il \u00f6nc\u0259 \u0259sg\u0259rliy\u0259 getmi\u015fdi. Onun yerini h\u0259l\u0259 alan yox idi. V\u0259 ona el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, bu bataql\u0131qdan \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131na M\u0259nsur da sevin\u0259rdi.
\n Bundan sonrak\u0131 7 ili is\u0259 o, xat\u0131rlamaq ist\u0259mirdi, h\u0259yat kitab\u0131ndan silm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Bir il oteld\u0259 xadim\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015fdi, el\u0259 orda da qal\u0131rd\u0131. 19 ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131n tamam oldu\u011fu g\u00fcn is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qeyd el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259mi\u015fdi do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc. Bir az i\u00e7ib varl\u0131 bank i\u015f\u00e7isinin n\u00f6mr\u0259sind\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi. S\u0259h\u0259r is\u0259 art\u0131q bakir\u0259 deyildi\u2026
\n V\u0259 bundan sonra onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hans\u0131 n\u00f6mr\u0259d\u0259, kiminl\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259m\u0259sinin \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bildiyi t\u0259k birc\u0259 \u015fey idi. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 qoynuna girdiyi bank i\u015f\u00e7isinin bankda onun ad\u0131na a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 hesabda s\u0131f\u0131rlar\u0131n say\u0131 h\u0259r il bir az daha art\u0131rd\u0131. Pulunun d\u0259y\u0259rini bilmirdi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bilm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Onu nec\u0259 \u201cqazand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u201d bilirdi\u2026
\n \u2026D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam yen\u0259 h\u0259min bank i\u015f\u00e7isinin qoynuna girmi\u015fdi. X\u0259tay\u0259y\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn ba\u015fqa ki\u015fil\u0259rd\u0259n f\u0259rqli bu insan onun\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259tlidir. N\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, bakir\u0259liyini ona qurban vermi\u015fdi. Ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi, sad\u0259c\u0259 \u201c\u0259zizim\u201d dey\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu insan\u0131n ona tale h\u0259diyy\u0259si oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n daha onu g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki, \u0259zizi ba\u015fqa \u00f6lk\u0259y\u0259 gedirdi. Sonuncu gec\u0259sini onunla birg\u0259 ke\u00e7irmi\u015fdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bu da X\u0259tay\u0259nin ona olan son h\u0259diyy\u0259si idi.
\n \u018fzizi is\u0259 onun yuxudan ay\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b getmi\u015fdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, onu oyatmaq ist\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi. N\u0259 is\u0259\u2026 Art\u0131q \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti yox idi\u2026
\n \u2026Bu g\u00fcn ilk d\u0259f\u0259 olaraq X\u0259tay\u0259 pullar\u0131n\u0131 hesablamaq q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldi. Ard\u0131nca bir q\u0259rara daha g\u0259ldi: burdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131nca ba\u015fqa bir \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcz tutacaq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 ev alacaq, u\u015faq evind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 verdiyi b\u0259z\u0259kd\u0259n qad\u0131nlara ver\u0259c\u0259k, g\u00f6z\u0259llik salonu a\u00e7acaq, i\u015f\u00e7i kimi d\u0259 yaln\u0131z u\u015faq evl\u0259rind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan q\u0131zlar\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259k\u2026 V\u0259 onun b\u0259d\u0259nin\u0259 bir daha kimins\u0259 toxunmas\u0131na icaz\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k\u2026
\n \u2026Yataqdan qalx\u0131b geyindi. Sa\u00e7\u0131na bir az \u0259l g\u0259zdirib otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Liftin yan\u0131nda lakeyin g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 cavab verm\u0259di. H\u0259tta, onun uzanan \u0259lin\u0259 vurdu. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 qad\u0131n s\u0259rtliyinin boz \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fc:
\n -M\u0259n\u0259 toxunmay\u0131n!
\n ***
\n Onun arzular\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. \u0259zil\u0259n, q\u0131r\u0131lan, kimins\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 fahi\u015f\u0259, kimins\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n hesab olunan X\u0259tay\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259rin bir gec\u0259lik istifad\u0259 edib atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259\u015fya deyil, taleyin, s\u00f6z\u00fcn \u0259sl m\u0259nas\u0131nda, at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n\u0131 idi\u2026 Qar\u015f\u0131da onu n\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi, onu da bilmirdi. ..Tale \u00f6z at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n\u0131na ac\u0131yacaqd\u0131m\u0131, yoxsa ona daha bir \u015fans ver\u0259c\u0259kdimi? <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc Sar\u0131 yarpaqlar kimi \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yinin inc\u0259 tell\u0259rin\u0259 toxunan kim idi, n\u0259 idi, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 bilmirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bilm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. Hardasa bu tell\u0259rin titr\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259 raz\u0131 idi. N\u0259 d\u0259 olsa, o, bu taleyin at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qad\u0131n\u0131 hesab edirdi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 *** \u2026S\u0259h\u0259r oyand\u0131\u011f\u0131nda yataqda t\u0259k […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14890","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14890","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14890"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14890\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14891,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14890\/revisions\/14891"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14890"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14890"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14890"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}