{"id":14912,"date":"2015-09-13T16:30:04","date_gmt":"2015-09-13T11:30:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14912"},"modified":"2015-09-13T16:52:31","modified_gmt":"2015-09-13T11:52:31","slug":"tural-sahab-postmodernistin-cinsini-d%c9%99yisdir%c9%99-bilm%c9%99m%c9%99si","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=14912","title":{"rendered":"Tural SAHAB.”Postmodernistin cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdir\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259si”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Onun ad\u0131 il\u0259….<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox \u015feyi d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi- ail\u0259sini, c\u0259miyy\u0259ti, mill\u0259ti \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 da cinsini. B\u0259li s\u0259hv duymad\u0131n\u0131z cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi postmodernist k\u00f6\u015f\u0259 yazar\u0131, \u015fair, nasir \u018fliqulu S\u0259hradaqum. Ancaq h\u0259l\u0259lik buna n\u0259 ail\u0259si, n\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259t haz\u0131r deyildi. Cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259 ail\u0259si \u00f6vladl\u0131qdan r\u0259dd ed\u0259r, \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 insanlar is\u0259 onu da\u015fqalaq edib \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259rdi. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ail\u0259sinin v\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259nin insanlar\u0131n\u0131n, \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 da g\u0259ncl\u0259rinin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259li idi. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 postmodernizm \u0259d\u0259bi c\u0259r\u0259yan\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7di. Daha modernizmi anlamayan insanlara, modernizmd\u0259n sonrak\u0131 m\u0259rh\u0259l\u0259nin xaos, qaydas\u0131zl\u0131q oldu\u011funu anladacaqd\u0131…..<\/p>\n

S\u0259h\u0259r tezd\u0259n utana- utana be\u015finci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n 21 n\u00f6mr\u0259li m\u0259nzilin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Bura o g\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn b\u0259rk ged\u0259n \u0259d\u0259biyyat saytlar\u0131ndan birinin ofisi idi. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r sonra i\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259n ” qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131 g\u0259l dey\u0259 bir s\u0259s duydu. I\u00e7\u0259rid\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 o\u011flan, iki n\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 q\u0131z komputer arxas\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fib n\u0259s\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131lar. Geyiml\u0259rind\u0259n m\u00fcasir d\u00fcnya g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc insanlar oldu\u011funu anlad\u0131. Ba\u015f t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259 oturan s\u0131r\u011fal\u0131, inc\u0259 saqqal\u0131 olan al\u00e7aqboylu k\u00f6k bir o\u011fland\u0131. Onun i\u00e7\u0259ri girdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 \u00e7ox mehribancas\u0131na onunla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu sayt\u0131n \u015fef redaktoru idi. Onun \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki xo\u015f aura i\u00e7in\u0259 rahatl\u0131q g\u0259tirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi daha \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi d\u00f6y\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6b\u0259td\u0259n sonra dig\u0259r i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259lib onunla tan\u0131\u015f oldular. V\u0259 bel\u0259 onun ilk i\u015f g\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015flad\u0131. B\u0259li, indi o \u00e7ox m\u0259\u015fhur sayt\u0131n \u0259m\u0259kda\u015flar\u0131ndan biri idi. Inana bilmirdi sanki bu bir yuxudu v\u0259 o, indi bu yuxudan ay\u0131lacaq- h\u0259r \u015fey bit\u0259c\u0259k ancaq bu yuxu deyildi. Saytda i\u015f\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 m\u0259tbuatda qalmaqala s\u0259b\u0259b olan bir yaz\u0131 idi. Yaz\u0131s\u0131nda b\u00f6y\u00fck sufi Ruminin e\u015fcins\u0259l oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259yib, fikirl\u0259rini d\u0259 \u0259sasland\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u0259ms T\u0259brizi il\u0259 aralar\u0131nda olan m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin t\u0259k a\u00e7\u0131qlamas\u0131 bu ola bil\u0259ridi, onun fikirinc\u0259. Yoxsa bir ki\u015fi ba\u015fqa bir ki\u015fiy\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevgi m\u0259ktublar\u0131, \u015feirl\u0259r yazs\u0131n ki. Bel\u0259 bir yaz\u0131 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259ks s\u0259da do\u011furdu. Bir- iki n\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b etiraz ets\u0259 d\u0259, m\u0259tbuatda \u018fliqulu v\u0259 onu d\u0259st\u0259kl\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rin yaz\u0131lar\u0131 i\u015f\u0131qland\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131. Bir \u00e7ox g\u0259nc bu yaz\u0131lanlar\u0131 oxudu v\u0259 n\u0259 yaz\u0131q ki, iki b\u00f6y\u00fck \u015f\u0259rq alimin\u0259 at\u0131lan bu iftiraya inand\u0131 v\u0259 \u018fliqulu S\u0259hradaqumu dahi bir yazar kimi q\u0259bul etdil\u0259r. Indi ofisind\u0259 oldu\u011fu saytdan da i\u015f t\u0259klifi el\u0259 bu yaz\u0131dan sonra g\u0259ldi. Onlar bel\u0259 bir g\u0259nci itir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdil\u0259r. Onlarla eyni fikird\u0259 olan bu cavan o\u011flan h\u0259m sayta \u00e7oxlu oxucu g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259kdi, h\u0259m d\u0259 onlar\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259s ver\u0259c\u0259kdi..<\/p>\n

\u0259lb\u0259td\u0259 ilk yaz\u0131n\u0131n e\u015fcins\u0259llikd\u0259n yaz\u0131lmas\u0131 he\u00e7 t\u0259sad\u00fcf deyildi. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 k\u00fctl\u0259ni bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259y\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131rmaq, ” bax o boyda b\u00f6y\u00fck yazar bel\u0259 mavi olub\u201d fikrini insanlara a\u015f\u0131lamaq idi.<\/p>\n

Indiy\u0259c\u0259n \u015fair d\u00fcz \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 toy el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Maraql\u0131 hald\u0131r el\u0259 deyilmi? \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259k olan biri \u00fc\u00e7 d\u0259f\u0259 niy\u0259 arvad als\u0131n ki?! M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 o idi ki, toydan yax\u015f\u0131 pul y\u0131\u011f\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fvv\u0259l toy edib, dostu tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u0259v\u0259t edir, bir ay ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015f d\u0259 arvad\u0131 bo\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131. Ancaq ikinci arvad\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015fama s\u0259b\u0259bi bir az f\u0259rqli oldu. Bir gec\u0259 sevdiyi o\u011flan\u0131 evin\u0259 g\u0259tirdi v\u0259 arvad\u0131 il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 ona xidm\u0259t etdi. Bax bu gec\u0259nin sabah\u0131nda yaz\u0131q q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz kirmi\u015fc\u0259 \u015f\u0259l\u0259- k\u00fcl\u0259sini toplay\u0131b ata evin\u0259 getdi. V\u0259 he\u00e7 kim\u0259 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ota\u011fa h\u0259bs etdi. O qad\u0131n indi a\u011f\u0131l x\u0259stxanlar\u0131n\u0131n birind\u0259 m\u00fcalic\u0259 al\u0131r. \u00dc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc evliliyi is\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 da davam edirdi. Dey\u0259s\u0259n ya \u00f6z\u00fc a\u011f\u0131lda birini tapd\u0131, ya da bu q\u0259d\u0259r arvad bo\u015fama\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na oyun a\u00e7aca\u011f\u0131ndan qorxub, bo\u015famad\u0131 arvad\u0131… bax bel\u0259 bir o\u011fland\u0131 bizim dahi yazar\u0131m\u0131z \u018fliqulu S\u0259hradaqum.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 yaz\u0131q ki i\u015fl\u0259r h\u0259r zaman bizim ist\u0259diyimiz kimi getmir. B\u0259z\u0259n he\u00e7 xo\u015flamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feyl\u0259r d\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259 bilir ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za… bel\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biri d\u0259 S\u0259hradaqumun ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259ldi. Yorucu i\u015f g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259n sonra dinc\u0259lm\u0259k, istirah\u0259t etm\u0259k- \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 da sevdiyi o\u011flanla vaxt ke\u00e7irm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xarici \u00f6lk\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 \u00fcz tutmal\u0131 oldular. Ax\u0131 bu m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259td\u0259 doyunca- \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259rinc\u0259 dinc\u0259lib, \u0259yl\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdil\u0259r. N\u0259s\u0259 eyni t\u0259yyar\u0259y\u0259 ayr\u0131- ayr\u0131l\u0131qda bilet ald\u0131lar. Vaxt g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131qda is\u0259, yen\u0259 ayr\u0131 insanlar kimi mindil\u0259r v\u0259 u\u00e7dular x\u0259yallar\u0131ndak\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259y\u0259. S\u0259hradaqum \u00e7ox dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 sevgilisind\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc. Arvad\u0131 il\u0259 ona i\u015fg\u0259c\u0259 kimi g\u0259l\u0259n sevi\u015fm\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fccl\u00fc ki\u015fi qollar\u0131nda x\u0259yal etdikc\u0259 d\u0259li olurdu. \u018flac\u0131 olsa el\u0259 burada onun olard\u0131. Ancaq s\u0259br etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131. H\u0259sr\u0259t n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r uzun olsa, v\u00fcsal o q\u0259d\u0259r \u015firin olar deyibl\u0259r. Buludlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi sevgi n\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259ri il\u0259 dolurdu. \u00c7ox m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc h\u0259r \u015fey- buludlar, a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da ki\u00e7icik g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n da\u011flar, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259r. Bel\u0259 bir yerd\u0259 \u015feir d\u0259 yazmay\u0131b, harada yazacaqd\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259ft\u0259r\u00e7\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b, \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n axan duyqular\u0131 yazma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r s\u00f6zd\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 yer \u00f6nd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n uzunboylu sevgilisi vard\u0131. Onu surpiriz etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Ehtirasl\u0131 yataq mac\u0259ralar\u0131nda qulaqlar\u0131na oxuyub, sevgilisini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xarmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Ev\u0259 qay\u0131danda da arvad\u0131na yalandan – s\u0259n\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fam dey\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. Yaz\u0131q qad\u0131n\u0131 xaric\u0259 i\u015f \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gedir\u0259m demi\u015fdi. Bel\u0259likl\u0259 onun da \u00fcr\u0259yini xo\u015f el\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Halbuki, el\u0259 o evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan yar\u0131m saat sonra arvad\u0131 da internetd\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu o\u011flanla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evi t\u0259rk etmi\u015fdi. Ba\u015fqa n\u0259 olmal\u0131yd\u0131 ki, yataqda olsun, h\u0259yatda olsun onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt etm\u0259y\u0259 qadir olmayan bu ki\u015ficiyin yas\u0131n\u0131 saxlayacaq deyildi ki?! Onunla evl\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Bu q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259l s\u00f6zl\u0259ri yazan bir insan\u0131n q\u0259lbi y\u0259qin ki, sevgi il\u0259 dolub da\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, ancaq n\u0259 yaz\u0131q ki, bunun bel\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 toy gec\u0259si \u00f6yr\u0259ndi. H\u0259r bir g\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131n arzusu idi g\u00f6z\u0259l bir g\u0259linlik geyinm\u0259k v\u0259 o g\u0259linliyin sevdiyi ki\u015fi t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131lmas\u0131.. n\u0259s\u0259 bu intim m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 girm\u0259y\u0259k..<\/p>\n

Yava\u015f \u2013 yava\u015f S\u0259hradaqumdan qopma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bunu ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r g\u00fcnd\u0259 daha yax\u015f\u0131 anlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131 o, bir qad\u0131nd\u0131 v\u0259 sevib, sevilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. El\u0259 bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 rast\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131 bu yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 o\u011flan, virtual d\u00fcnyada. Bir iki g\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259 art\u0131q can\u0131ml\u0131- cicimli dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bax indi h\u0259min o yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi \u015fairin h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131. S\u0259hradaqum buludlar\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 sevdiyi ki\u015fiy\u0259 \u015feir yazark\u0259n, arvad\u0131 da sevgilisi il\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. \u00dcr\u0259yi 15 ya\u015f\u0131nda bir q\u0131z\u0131n q\u0259lbi kimi d\u00f6y\u00fcn\u00fcr, yanaqlar\u0131 q\u0131p- q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015fdu. Aman, Allah indi bel\u0259dir, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259- onun \u0259ll\u0259rini tutanda nec\u0259 olacaq. Bir an qorxu b\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc q\u0259lbini, ya o\u011flan onu \u00f6pm\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 nec\u0259 olacaq. Y\u0259qin ki, q\u0259lbi h\u0259yacandan dayanard\u0131. Ancaq b\u00fct\u00fcn qorxular\u0131na baxmayaraq g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi. G\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f yeri binalar\u0131n aras\u0131nda sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f balaca bir parkd\u0131. Burada skamyalar yoxdu. G\u0259l\u0259n sevgilil\u0259r, ancaq betondan sal\u0131nm\u0131\u015f s\u0259ddl\u0259r \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015firdi. Bax bel\u0259 bir g\u00f6zd\u0259n- k\u00f6n\u00fcld\u0259n uzaq yerd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259kdi sevdi o\u011flanla. B\u0259li, n\u0259hay\u0259t ki, o an g\u0259lib \u00e7atd\u0131. Bax, odur- orada dayan\u0131b siqaret \u00e7\u0259kir. Onun g\u0259ldiyini g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi g\u00fcnahkar bir u\u015faq kimi, siqareti yer\u0259 at\u0131b, aya\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 \u0259zir. Cibind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131\u011f\u0131 saqq\u0131z\u0131 tez a\u011fz\u0131na at\u0131r. Qad\u0131n o\u011flan\u0131n bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcb g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir. S\u0259n bir buna bax, y\u0259qin m\u0259ni \u00f6pm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259 siqaretin qoxusunu yox el\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn a\u011fz\u0131na saqq\u0131z at\u0131r. N\u0259hay\u0259t sevgilil\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u018flini uzad\u0131r qad\u0131n. \u00c7ox mehribanl\u0131qla \u0259lini avuclar\u0131na al\u0131r. H\u0259r ikisinin yanaqlar\u0131 q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r indi. O\u011flan utana- utana qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lini dodaqlar\u0131na apar\u0131r. Bu an iki \u00fcr\u0259k \u0259l uzad\u0131r bir- birin\u0259. Bundan sonra daha he\u00e7 biri utanm\u0131r. Sevdiyi qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutub, beton s\u0259ddin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir, \u0259yl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r. Bir q\u0259d\u0259r oradan- buradan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u0259r. Sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259r d\u0259 susur v\u0259 at\u0259\u015f kimi olan iki c\u00fct dodaq bir- birini islatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r…<\/p>\n

B\u0259li budur, t\u0259yyar\u0259 hava liman\u0131na enir. Daha buras\u0131 onlar\u0131n x\u0259yallar\u0131ndak\u0131 yerdi. Burada he\u00e7 kim narahat ed\u0259 bilm\u0259z, he\u00e7 kim bu sevgi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnahkar hesab etmz onlar\u0131. Bir az sonra s\u0259rni\u015finl\u0259r yava\u015f- yava\u015f enir. \u00d6nd\u0259 sevdiyi o\u011flan, arxada is\u0259 o, sevinc dolu add\u0131mlarla taksil\u0259rin oldu\u011fu yer\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r. Sanki bir t\u0259sad\u00fcfmi\u015f kimi eyni taksiy\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015firl\u0259r. Taksi bir xeyli oradan uzaqla\u015fandan sonra is\u0259 sevgiy\u0259, ehtirasa susam\u0131\u015f iki \u0259l qovu\u015fur. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sevgilisinin \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyur. Bax bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevir buralar\u0131. \u00d6z \u00f6lk\u0259sind\u0259 ets\u0259ydi bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti taksi s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 qovar, h\u0259l\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131nda pis g\u00fcn \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 odun par\u00e7as\u0131 il\u0259 onlar\u0131 qanlar\u0131na qaltan ed\u0259rdi. Ancaq burada he\u00e7 kimi yarq\u0131lam\u0131r onlar\u0131. V\u0259 budur taksi hotell\u0259rin birinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fir. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 qiym\u0259t dan\u0131\u015fmadan- say\u011fac\u0131n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259bl\u0259\u011fi \u00f6d\u0259yib, enirl\u0259r taksid\u0259n. \u015eairin \u00fcr\u0259yi az qal\u0131r yerind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n. I\u015f\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n biri \u00e7antalar\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b, onu izl\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rini s\u00f6yl\u0259yir. Bax budur indi otaqlar\u0131na daxil olurlar. D\u00fcma\u011f pastell\u0259r, yata\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 g\u00fcl l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri, masada haz\u0131r i\u00e7gil\u0259r. Qap\u0131 \u00f6rt\u00fcl\u0259n kimi sevgilisinin boynuna sar\u0131l\u0131r S\u0259hradaqum v\u0259 onu \u00f6z ehtirasl\u0131 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 q\u0259rd edir. Doyunca sevi\u015firl\u0259r, doyunca verir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sevdiyi ki\u015fiy\u0259 \u015fair. Bu an d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n xo\u015fb\u0259xt qad\u0131n\u0131 kimi hiss edir \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc. El\u0259 o an da k\u0259d\u0259r b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr onu. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox ist\u0259rdi indi, burada sevdiyi ki\u015fi il\u0259 bir qad\u0131n olaraq sevi\u015fm\u0259yi…. cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k arzusu onu q\u0259ml\u0259ndirdi. Ancaq \u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259k olmazd\u0131 bu an\u0131n, bu g\u00fcnl\u0259rin dad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarmal\u0131yd\u0131. Bir d\u0259 kim bilir ha\u00e7an sevdiyi ki\u015fi il\u0259 bu c\u00fcr ehtirasl\u0131 sevi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259kdi. K\u0259d\u0259rini da\u011f\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yolda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feiri ki\u015fisinin qulaqlar\u0131na p\u0131\u00e7\u0131ldad\u0131…<\/p>\n

Bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn \u00e7ox tez g\u0259lib ke\u00e7di. Indi yenid\u0259n \u00f6z m\u0259ml\u0259k\u0259tind\u0259, \u00f6z i\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131nda indi tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u018fliqulu S\u0259hradaqum. Ancaq xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Aradan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcn ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi ki, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 alt \u00fcst ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k bir hadis\u0259 ba\u015f verdi. Nec\u0259 olmu\u015fdu, kim etmi\u015fdi bilm\u0259di, ancaq sevdiyi ki\u015fi il\u0259 olan yataq mac\u0259ras\u0131n\u0131 internet\u0259 qoymu\u015fdular v\u0259 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r insan izl\u0259mi\u015fdi. B\u0259li, g\u00f6rk\u0259mli yazar\u0131n mavi oldu\u011funu h\u0259r k\u0259s bilirdi. Bu hadis\u0259d\u0259n sonra ilk z\u0259rb\u0259ni arvad\u0131 vurdu. Onsuzda onunla bo\u015fanma\u011fa b\u0259han\u0259 g\u0259z\u0259n qad\u0131na g\u00fcn do\u011fmu\u015fdu. Bu hadis\u0259ni b\u0259han\u0259 edib \u00e7ox asanl\u0131qla S\u0259hradaqumdan can\u0131n\u0131 qurtara bildi. Ail\u0259si, qohumlar\u0131 haqq\u0131nda is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdu. Indi o i\u015fl\u0259diyi sayt\u0131n ofisind\u0259n k\u0259nara \u00e7\u0131xa bilmirdi. Bu he\u00e7 yax\u015f\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, ancaq bu g\u00fcnl\u0259r ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi. Bilirdi ki, onun v\u0259t\u0259nin insanlar\u0131 unutqand\u0131. Aradan q\u0131sa bir zaman ke\u00e7sin h\u0259r \u015fey unudulacaq v\u0259 o, yenid\u0259n sevimli yazar kimi oxucular\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n oxunacaqd\u0131. Ancaq bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r yox olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Bunun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 xarici \u00f6lk\u0259 s\u0259firlikl\u0259rind\u0259n birin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri oradak\u0131lar da az- \u00e7ox bildiyind\u0259n ona qucaqlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131lar. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra \u00f6lk\u0259ni t\u0259rk etdi, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 aid oldu\u011fu insanlar, c\u0259miyy\u0259t haqq\u0131nda \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r s\u00f6zl\u0259r s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k. ..<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015f\u0259rd\u0259 bir xeyir var deyibl\u0259r. Bu hadis\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259 idi, indi ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6lk\u0259 ona s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacaq verm\u0259zdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 olanlardan sonra tan\u0131mayanlar da onu tan\u0131d\u0131. Bir az da vaxt ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yaz\u0131lar\u0131 yenid\u0259n oxunma\u011fa, fikirl\u0259ri payla\u015f\u0131lma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. B\u0259li, indi mavi oldu\u011funu gizl\u0259tmirdi d\u0259, \u0259sas yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 deyilmi, kimin n\u0259yin\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k onun cinsi h\u0259yat\u0131\u0131…anca bir arzusu h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7m\u0259mi\u015fdi- cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k arzusu…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Onun ad\u0131 il\u0259…. \u00c7ox \u015feyi d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi- ail\u0259sini, c\u0259miyy\u0259ti, mill\u0259ti \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 da cinsini. B\u0259li s\u0259hv duymad\u0131n\u0131z cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi postmodernist k\u00f6\u015f\u0259 yazar\u0131, \u015fair, nasir \u018fliqulu S\u0259hradaqum. Ancaq h\u0259l\u0259lik buna n\u0259 ail\u0259si, n\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 c\u0259miyy\u0259t haz\u0131r deyildi. Cinsini d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259k ist\u0259diyini s\u00f6yl\u0259s\u0259 ail\u0259si \u00f6vladl\u0131qdan r\u0259dd ed\u0259r, \u0259traf\u0131ndak\u0131 insanlar is\u0259 onu da\u015fqalaq edib \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259rdi. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14912","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14912","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14912"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14912\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":14914,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14912\/revisions\/14914"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14912"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14912"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14912"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}