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S\u0259f\u0259r yan\u0131nda olmayanda Fidana el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, \u0259li he\u00e7 bir i\u015f\u0259 yatm\u0131r. Dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… \u0130\u015f telefonundan T\u0259hmin\u0259ni y\u0131\u011fd\u0131, K\u0259rim d\u0259 o\u011fluyla getmi\u015fdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 qad\u0131n olmu\u015fdu. N\u0259 etmi\u015fdi ki, K\u0259rim kimi ki\u015fi o\u011flu ya\u015f\u0131nda qad\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, sevmi\u015fdi. Halbu ki, C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 olan sevgisini e\u015fid\u0259-e\u015fid\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Fidan T\u0259hmin\u0259nin ev n\u00f6mr\u0259sini y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. D\u0259st\u0259yin o biri t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n s\u0259s g\u0259ldi.
\n– Allo
\n– Salam. Nec\u0259siz T\u0259hmin\u0259 xan\u0131m?
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di – Salam. Yen\u0259 siz?
\n– V\u0259rdi\u015fkaram.
\n– M\u0259n\u0259 olma. S\u0259n de, r\u0259smiyy\u0259ti sevmir\u0259m.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, s\u0259n dey\u0259n olsun? Nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131yam. K\u00f6\u00e7m\u0259k i\u015fin\u0259 bax\u0131ram.
\nFidan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi – K\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrs\u0259n?
\n– H\u0259, ba\u015fqa yer\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr\u0259m. Bug\u00fcn ev tapm\u0131\u015fam. \u018f\u015fyalar\u0131m\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131ram.
\n– Hara k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrs\u00fcz?
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 \u00fcnvan\u0131 dey\u0259nd\u0259 Fidan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi.
\n– S\u0259n biz t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 yax\u0131n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrs\u0259n.
\n– Bina evind\u0259 qal\u0131rsan?
\n– Yox, bizd\u0259 \u00fcmumi m\u0259hl\u0259dir. M\u0259hl\u0259mizl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz doqquz m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcrs\u0259n.
\n– Ay sa\u011f ol. Tez-tez qonaq g\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259n. Sevin\u0259r\u0259m.
\n– \u0130st\u0259s\u0259n bug\u00fcn i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra g\u0259lib s\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m.
\n– S\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u00fc… yox dem\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. \u018fziyy\u0259t verm\u0259y\u0259d\u0259 utan\u0131ram.
\n– N\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259ti, xo\u015fdur. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n saat be\u015fd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131ram. \u00c7\u0131xan kimi g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q.
\nFidan d\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

– K\u0259rim day\u0131 T\u0259hmin\u0259y\u0259 ev al\u0131b? Allah el\u0259m\u0259sin,ata-o\u011ful \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lsinl\u0259r.
\n***<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 yuxudan oyanm\u0131\u015f, evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. He\u00e7 xadim\u0259 d\u0259 getdiyini hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. C\u0259mil\u0259gild\u0259 el\u0259 bilirl\u0259r ki, gec\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n Ayb\u0259nizl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t etdikl\u0259ri \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yuxudan oyana bilmir. He\u00e7 kimd\u0259 oyand\u0131rm\u0131rd\u0131. Lamiy\u0259 parkda o\u011flanla g\u0259zirdi. O\u011flan Lamiy\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n tutmaq ist\u0259dikc\u0259 Lamiy\u0259 \u0259lini \u00e7\u0259kirdi.
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f m\u0259ni, \u0259vv\u0259l m\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259 bilirdim sevir\u0259m s\u0259ni. \u0130ndi m\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131r.
\n– Bura bax qanc\u0131q, nec\u0259 y\u0259ni al\u0131nm\u0131r. \u00dc\u00e7 ildir s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131rsa el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. \u0130ki qram qan\u0131 saxlamaqla el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n bakir\u0259s\u0259n?Bo\u011faz\u0131ndak\u0131 sep\u0259c\u0259n m\u0259n alm\u0131\u015fam.
\nLamiy\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131ndan sepi a\u00e7\u0131r o\u011flana uzad\u0131r.
\n– Buyur, indiy\u0259c\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n q\u0131r-q\u0131z\u0131llar\u0131 qaytararam.Daha m\u0259n\u0259 laz\u0131m deyil. Bildin?
\n– El\u0259 oldu? Olmaya b\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 tik\u0259 tapm\u0131san? unutma ki, \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rin var m\u0259nd\u0259.
\n– N\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ri?
\nLamiy\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri b\u0259r\u0259ldi.
\n-\u015e\u0259kill\u0259rimizi \u00e7\u0259kmis\u0259n? M\u0259niml\u0259 sevgi davas\u0131 edirs\u0259n, halbu ki, m\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 inan\u0131rd\u0131m.
\n– \u00dczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m, vicdan\u0131ma and olsun, he\u00e7 bir \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259km\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. hirsimd\u0259n dedim. S\u0259ni do\u011frudan sevir\u0259m Lamiy\u0259. Yaradana and olsun.
\n– M\u0259n\u0259 vaxt ver. \u00d6z\u00fcm s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlayacam. Yeri g\u0259lmi\u015fk\u0259n, G\u0259nc\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nO\u011flan Lamiy\u0259nin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n tutur, \u00f6p\u00fcr.
\n– S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00fcnyan\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131nada g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m. El\u00e7il\u0259rimi n\u0259 vaxt g\u00f6nd\u0259rim?
\nLamiy\u0259 o\u011flan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcr.
\n– \u0130mkan ver, ev-e\u015fiyimizi quraq, sonra. Tahir, m\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z ver ki, he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n\u0259 pislik etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\n– Kim\u0259? s\u0259n\u0259? X\u0259yan\u0259t etm\u0259diyin m\u00fcdd\u0259t s\u0259ninl\u0259 i\u015fim yoxdur.
\nTahir Lamiy\u0259ni qucaqlay\u0131r. Lamiy\u0259 hiss olunurdu ki, m\u0259cbur onunla m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri davam etdirirdi.
\n***
\nFidan i\u015fd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xandan sonra T\u0259hmin\u0259nin evin\u0259 g\u0259lir. T\u0259hmin\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u0259 Fidan\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r.
\n– Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin, buyur.
\n– Xo\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fck.
\nFidan qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda y\u0131\u011f\u0131lan \u0259\u015fyalara bax\u0131r.
\n– Ma\u015fallah, m\u0259n\u0259 i\u015f saxlamam\u0131san ki!…Ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n.
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 \u0259ziyy\u0259t verm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim. Madam g\u0259ldin, bir \u00e7\u0131xaq onda.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, ordanda ged\u0259rik biz\u0259. Qon\u015fuyuq, gedi\u015f-g\u0259li\u015fimiz olar.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259, g\u00f6z\u0259t\u00e7ini \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131m g\u0259lir\u0259m.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131.
\n***<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 g\u00fcnorta ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. Anas\u0131 Aynur q\u0131z\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– S\u0259n evd\u0259 yoxuydun?
\n– Yox, s\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m evd\u0259n. \u015e\u0259h\u0259rin g\u0259zm\u0259li yerl\u0259rin\u0259 getdim.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li-\u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li;
\n– Ayb\u0259nizi \u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259 niy\u0259 aparmad\u0131n?
\n– S\u0259h\u0259r\u0259c\u0259n yuxusuz qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259niml\u0259. Qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcm, e\u015fitm\u0259di.
\nAyb\u0259niz – El\u0259 b\u0259rk yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki, bomba atsan da ay\u0131lmazd\u0131m.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Yax\u015f\u0131 vaxtda g\u0259lmis\u0259n. Nahara haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131q.
\n– Paltar\u0131m\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fim, \u0259l-\u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc yuyum g\u0259lir\u0259m.
\nLamiy\u0259 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, Aynur q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131nca \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li baxd\u0131, sonra s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdi.
\n***
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidangilin ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259hl\u0259yl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz binalar\u0131n birind\u0259 ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Fidan \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131n\u0131 ev\u0259 y\u0131\u011fma\u011fa k\u00f6m\u0259k etdi. Sonra birlikd\u0259 Fidangil\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131 s\u00fcfr\u0259 a\u00e7d\u0131. T\u0259hmin\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni Fidangil\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. T\u0259hmin\u0259nin atas\u0131 u\u015faq olanda Rusiyaya getmi\u015fdi, qay\u0131trmayanda anas\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131na \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259li olmu\u015fdu. Anas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131na bigan\u0259liyi T\u0259hmin\u0259nin ortal\u0131qda b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. Bir o\u011flan evl\u0259nm\u0259k m\u0259qs\u0259di il\u0259 bakir\u0259liyini pozub atandan sonra anas\u0131gil\u0259 bildirmi\u015fdi. Anas\u0131 \u00f6gey atas\u0131yla evd\u0259n qovanda restoranlar\u0131n birind\u0259 r\u0259qqas\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yib. Orda K\u0259riml\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fdu. K\u0259riml\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcdd\u0259t i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k hans\u0131 K\u0259rimd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlamam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.T\u0259hmin\u0259 K\u0259rimi biznesl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olan adam kimi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Fidan d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. \u0130st\u0259mirdi n\u0259 T\u0259hmin\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 ni\u015fanl\u0131 oldu\u011funu bilsin, n\u0259 d\u0259 anas\u0131 K\u0259rimi…
\n***
\nK\u0259rim t\u00fcrkiy\u0259d\u0259n bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 T\u0259hmin\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng vursada, telefona cavab ver\u0259n olmurdu. K\u0259rim s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc Rafiqi y\u0131\u011f\u0131r. Rafiqin \u0259l telefonunun z\u0259ngini e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 cavab verir.
\n– Allo
\n– Salam. Nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131yam Rafiq m\u00fc\u0259llim. Siz nec\u0259siz?
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131yam. T\u0259hmin\u0259y\u0259 iki g\u00fcnd\u00fcr z\u0259ng edir\u0259m, cavab vermir.
\n– K\u0259rim m\u00fc\u0259llim, T\u0259hmin\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcbd\u00fcr. \u00dcnvan\u0131n\u0131 bil\u0259n yoxdur.
\nK\u0259rim qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7at\u0131r – Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb?
\n– Ev yiy\u0259siyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Q\u0259fild\u0259n k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcb.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, sabah g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m. G\u0259ldiyimi he\u00e7 kim bilm\u0259sin. Yax\u015f\u0131?
\n– Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259.
\n– B\u0259s C\u0259mil\u0259?
\n– C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m hara gedibs\u0259, ancaq qonaqlar\u0131yla gedib.
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131, sabah s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– K\u0259rim m\u00fc\u0259llim, g\u0259ls\u0259z yax\u015f\u0131 olar. Siz\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259yim ba\u015fqa s\u00f6hb\u0259tl\u0259r d\u0259 var. telefonda dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m.
\n– G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m dan\u0131\u015farsan.
\nK\u0259rim d\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoyur. Rafiq ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda C\u0259mil\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr. C\u0259mil\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r Rafiq\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131r.
\n– K\u0259rim\u0259 n\u0259 dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, Rafiq? Dey\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlam\u0131\u015fam, anas\u0131 tutub?
\n– Bilmir\u0259m sizin n\u0259 sirriniz var. Ancaq sizin ist\u0259diyiniz kimi olmayacaq. Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131mla evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. M\u0259n Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131ma a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn t\u0259s\u0259lli vermi\u015f\u0259m, siz g\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259ni onda qovas\u0131n\u0131z. Lakin t\u0259cili evl\u0259nm\u0259yimi ist\u0259yirsiniz. Niy\u0259?
\n– \u00c7\u00fcnki q\u0131z\u0131m s\u0259nd\u0259n hamil\u0259dir.
\nRafiqin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbd\u0259n v\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131lan \u015f\u0259rd\u0259n az qala bo\u011fulurdu.
\n– Yaland\u0131r. N\u0259 deyirsiniz deyin, m\u0259ni t\u0259l\u0259niz\u0259 sala bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ksiniz C\u0259mil\u0259 xan\u0131m. Lap tutdurun. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131zla evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– Evl\u0259nm\u0259, \u0259n az\u0131ndan u\u015faq olana kimi tutulacaqsan. H\u0259r halda kimin s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcs\u00fc oldu\u011funu unutma. Yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f. Gec\u0259n xeyir\u0259.
\nRafiqin hirsd\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu.
\n***
\nGec\u0259dir. Fidan anas\u0131yla T\u0259hmin\u0259 haqq\u0131nda dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r.
\nFidan – T\u0259hmin\u0259ni q\u0131nam\u0131ram. G\u00fcnah anas\u0131ndad\u0131r.
\n– M\u0259n d\u0259 anas\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Q\u0131z\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 diqq\u0259tli olsayd\u0131, indi ev-e\u015fik sahibi olmu\u015fd\u0131. G\u0259r\u0259k o o\u011flana inanmazd\u0131. Evl\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l ya\u015famaq d\u00fczg\u00fcn deyil. \u018fn b\u00f6y\u00fck \u0259xlaqs\u0131zl\u0131qd\u0131r. Bizim vaxt\u0131m\u0131zda bel\u0259 \u015feyl\u0259r olmazd\u0131.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qca q\u0131z\u0131 utan\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– \u0130ndi inan\u0131bda ana. H\u0259m d\u0259 sev\u0259nd\u0259 adam\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcr.
\n– N\u0259 olsun sevib. Biz sevm\u0259mi\u015fik? S\u0259n lap gicl\u0259din.
\n– M\u0259n n\u0259 dedim indi? N\u0259 is\u0259… S\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 tez getm\u0259liy\u0259m. Sifari\u015fl\u0259r \u00e7oxdur. Gec\u0259n xeyr\u0259 qals\u0131n.
\n– Yat, yat. Xeyir\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131.
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\nC\u0259mil\u0259 gec\u0259 ham\u0131 yatanda ev telefonunu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, n\u00f6mr\u0259l\u0259ri y\u0131\u011f\u0131r.
\n– Allo… Sevil e\u015fidirs\u0259n m\u0259ni?
\n– H\u0259
\n– Qarda\u015f\u0131ngil n\u0259 vaxt h\u0259ll edir i\u015fi?
\n– Sabah tezd\u0259n. Bug\u00fcn izl\u0259yibl\u0259r. Q\u0259rib\u0259 bir \u015fey olub.
\n– N\u0259?
\n– O\u011flunun ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 T\u0259hmin\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259dil\u0259r.
\n– Nec\u0259?
\n– Mahmud dedi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259lib.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu.
\n– E\u015fidirs\u0259n? Qarda\u015f\u0131n \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fc onu zorlas\u0131n. El\u0259 zorlas\u0131n ki, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7ats\u0131n. \u00d6ld\u00fcrs\u00fcnd\u0259… Qorxmas\u0131n, arxas\u0131nda m\u0259n varam.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259yi yerin\u0259 qoydu. Qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6n\u0259nd\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Lamiy\u0259ni g\u00f6rd\u00fc, udqundu.
\n– \u00c7oxdan burdasan?
\nLamiy\u0259 \u00e7oxbilmi\u015f adamlar kimi yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– Dem\u0259k olar. Narahat olmay\u0131n, sirriniz q\u0259br\u0259c\u0259n m\u0259niml\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 bir az rahatlad\u0131.
\n– S\u0259nin adam\u0131n var?
\n– N\u0259 m\u0259nada?
\n– Y\u0259ni ist\u0259diyin o\u011flan var?
\n– Yoxdu, anam kim\u0259 vers\u0259 ona ged\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– Fidan\u0131 S\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n ay\u0131racam, m\u00fctl\u0259q ay\u0131racam. Haz\u0131rla\u015farsan.
\nLamiy\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri g\u00fcld\u00fc.
\n– N\u0259 m\u0259nada?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 Lamiy\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n– G\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259 yatm\u0131san. G\u0259linim olma\u011fa indid\u0259n haz\u0131rla\u015f.
\nLamiy\u0259yl\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259 bir-biril\u0259rinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcld\u00fcl\u0259r. C\u0259mil\u0259 Lamiy\u0259ni ancaq bu yolla susdura bil\u0259rdi. Fikir vermi\u015fdi, Lamiy\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini o\u011flundan \u00e7\u0259kmirdi…<\/p>\n

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\nS\u0259h\u0259r-s\u0259h\u0259r \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k yuxudan dik at\u0131ld\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc yax\u015f\u0131 hiss el\u0259mirdi. \u018fl-\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yuma\u011fa ged\u0259nd\u0259 hal\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7mad\u0131.
\nFidan – Yax\u015f\u0131san ana?
\n– Narahat olma.
\n\u00c7i\u00e7\u0259k h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, hamama girib \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 su vuranda bir az \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259ldi.
\nEv\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcfr\u0259ni haz\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nFidan – \u0130st\u0259yirs\u0259n i\u015f\u0259 getm\u0259yim ana. N\u0259 is\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 d\u0259ymirs\u0259n.
\n– Yox vallah. yax\u015f\u0131yam. Yuxu \u00fcr\u0259yimi s\u0131xd\u0131.
\nFidan anas\u0131na \u00e7ay s\u00fczd\u00fc.
\n– N\u0259 yuxusu g\u00f6rd\u00fcn?
\n– Fikir verm\u0259, qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. S\u0259ni and verir\u0259m allaha, yolnan ged\u0259nd\u0259 ehtiyyatl\u0131 ol.
\nFidan ba\u015f\u0131yla anas\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259di. \u00c7antas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc
\n– Gedir\u0259m, bir-iki saata g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– \u0130\u015find\u0259n qalma, S\u0259f\u0259r g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259r qaydas\u0131nda olsun. N\u0259 olsun ni\u015fanl\u0131san, yax\u015f\u0131 deyil.
\nFidan he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Dayanaca\u011fa kimi g\u0259ldi. Fikri anas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndayd\u0131. Fidan\u0131 sa\u00e7\u0131 seyr\u0259k, saqqall\u0131, h\u00fcnd\u00fcr bir ki\u015fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131n bac\u0131, sizi narahat edir\u0259m
\n– Buyurun.
\nKi\u015fi uzaqdan cavan, hamil\u0259 bir qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdi.
\n– Yolda\u015f\u0131m hamil\u0259dir, t\u0259cili x\u0259st\u0259xanaya aparmal\u0131yam. Yalvar\u0131ram m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k edin.
\nFidan ki\u015fiy\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 dem\u0259di, uzaqda \u0259li qarn\u0131nda zar\u0131yan qad\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Fidan qad\u0131n\u0131n qoluna girdi, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ki\u015fiy\u0259 tutdu.
\n– Taksi tutun.
\nKi\u015fi taksi tutdu, s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcy\u0259 pul verib n\u0259 is\u0259 dedi. S\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131yla t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.
\nQad\u0131n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, Fidan qad\u0131na t\u0259s\u0259lli verirdi.
\n– Narahat olmay\u0131n, bir azdan x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7ataca\u011f\u0131q.
\nFidan ki\u015finin k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131 arxa oturacaqda otuzdurdular, \u00f6z\u00fcd\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Ki\u015fi qabaqda s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn yan\u0131nda oturdu.
\nS\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 be\u015fm\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259li binan\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda saxlad\u0131. Fidan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\n– X\u0259st\u0259xanaya niy\u0259 aparmad\u0131n\u0131z?
\nKi\u015fi yaz\u0131q bax\u0131\u015flarla; – \u0130mkans\u0131z\u0131 x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rl\u0259r, ay bac\u0131? Anas\u0131, bac\u0131s\u0131 evd\u0259dir. Bizi g\u00f6zl\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nKi\u015fi ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131, hamil\u0259 arvad\u0131n\u0131 Fidan\u0131n k\u00f6m\u0259yi il\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc, binaya girdil\u0259r. Qad\u0131n zar\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. Birlikd\u0259 ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. ki\u015fi ortada qara r\u0259ngd\u0259 olan d\u0259mir qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. Qap\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ynind\u0259 nazik x\u0259l\u0259t olan, ya\u015f\u0131 hardasa 30-35 ya\u015f\u0131 olar, sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n a\u00e7d\u0131. Ki\u015fi qad\u0131n\u0131 Fidanla b\u0259rab\u0259r i\u00e7\u0259ri apard\u0131. Evd\u0259 iki qad\u0131n da vard\u0131. Ancaq bunlar cavan idi. Geyindikl\u0259ri paltardan evdar qad\u0131nlara ox\u015fam\u0131rd\u0131. Ki\u015fi sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131nla birlikd\u0259 hamil\u0259 qad\u0131n\u0131 ota\u011fa apar\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131lar. Fidan qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda ev\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. Ev \u00fc\u00e7 otaql\u0131 idi. Q\u0131zlardan biri Fidan\u0131 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na d\u0259v\u0259t etdi.
\n– Qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda dayanmay\u0131n. Ke\u00e7in i\u00e7\u0259ri.
\nFidan qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di, divanda oturdu. Ota\u011f\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fc d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259 olmad\u0131. ” \u0130mkans\u0131z adama ox\u015fam\u0131r, x\u0259st\u0259xanaya niy\u0259 aparmad\u0131? ” dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Otaqdan k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faq s\u0259si g\u0259ldi. X\u0259l\u0259tli qad\u0131n ki\u015fiyl\u0259 otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ki\u015fi sevinc\u0259k Fidana yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– O\u011flum oldu. \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol bac\u0131, s\u0259n olmasayd\u0131n bilmir\u0259m neyl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdim. \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol.
\nFidan aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. sevincl\u0259 dedi:
\n– T\u0259brik edir\u0259m. atal\u0131-anal\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u00fcn. Yax\u015f\u0131, m\u0259n gedim.
\nSar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n – Niy\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l? \u0130caz\u0259 ver, s\u0259ninl\u0259 yadigar \u015f\u0259kil \u00e7\u0259kdir\u0259k.
\nKi\u015fi – \u0130caz\u0259 n\u0259dir? O\u011flum b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 ona k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131mal\u0131d\u0131r.
\nFidan yox dem\u0259k ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 a\u011fz\u0131ndan ” h\u0259 ” \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nMahmud Fidan\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdu, arxadan \u0259lini Fidan\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydu. Fidan\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc g\u0259nc q\u0131zlardan biri Fidan\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdu, \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu. dig\u0259r q\u0131z is\u0259 qabaqlar\u0131nda yerd\u0259 uzand\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti Fidan\u0131 \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131, bir s\u00f6z dey\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259zdir\u0259-\u0259zdir\u0259 ki\u015fiy\u0259 dedi.
\n– Mahmud,\u0259zizim g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yin.
\nD\u00f6rd\u00fcd\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259dil\u0259r, qad\u0131n \u015f\u0259kill\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259kdi. Qad\u0131n \u015f\u0259kili \u00e7\u0259kdikd\u0259n sonra Mahmud aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, fotoaparat\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131.
\n– M\u0259n gedir\u0259m, g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 kimi bu g\u00f6z\u0259l\u00e7\u0259ni yan\u0131n\u0131zda saxlay\u0131n.
\nFidan Mahmudun dedikl\u0259rind\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 anlam\u0131rd\u0131, can\u0131na \u00fc\u015f\u00fctm\u0259 g\u0259ldi.
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim. Bu n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir? Burax\u0131n m\u0259ni.
\nFidan qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 Mahmud onu divana it\u0259l\u0259di. otaqdan bir q\u0131z \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Yolda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc hamil\u0259 qad\u0131n kimi g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n qad\u0131n idi. \u018fynind\u0259 \u015fortik, g\u00f6b\u0259yi a\u00e7\u0131q koftada, siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 ota\u011fa girdi. O, Fidan\u0131 yams\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– K\u00f6m\u0259k edin, yalvar\u0131ram burax\u0131n m\u0259ni.
\nFidan – Kimsiz ax\u0131 siz? M\u0259ni buraya niy\u0259 g\u0259tirdiniz? Siz\u0259 n\u0259 pisliyim ke\u00e7ib?
\nMahmud – H\u0259l\u0259 bu \u00e7ox z\u0259vz\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Apar\u0131n bunun \u0259ynind\u0259ki paltarlar\u0131 soyundurun. Ax\u015fama ya\u011fl\u0131 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259rimiz var.
\nFidan q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 – N\u0259 paltar\u0131, n\u0259 m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259ri? N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rs\u0131z?
\nFidan \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutub h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131.
\nSar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n Fidana yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n. \u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r ham\u0131m\u0131z a\u011flam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, sonra ke\u00e7ib gedib. \u00d6zd\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lim, bizim i\u015f savabd\u0131r.
\nFidan – Q\u0259hb\u0259lik n\u0259 vaxtdan savab olub? M\u0259n sizin kimi olmayacam. He\u00e7 vaxt sizin kimi olmayacam. Bilmirsiz kim\u0259m. Ni\u015fanl\u0131m bils\u0259…
\nMahmud Fidan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011fz\u0131nda qoydu – \u00c7ox ni\u015fanl\u0131m dem\u0259, t\u0259piyi birinci el\u0259 ni\u015fanl\u0131n vuracaq.
\nFidan aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131.
\nMahmud – Burdan qa\u00e7a bilm\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nFidan \u0259traf\u0131na baxd\u0131. Qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda a\u015f\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 vard\u0131. Mahmud qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fanda Fidan yan\u0131ndak\u0131 sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n\u0131n qarn\u0131na diziyl\u0259 vurdu.
\n– O s\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir, o\u011fra\u015f
\nFidan c\u0259ld a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n yerd\u0259 qarn\u0131n\u0131 tutub zar\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 h\u00fcnd\u00fcr olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan Fidan rahatl\u0131qla \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Yer\u0259 baxanda asfalt idi, hiss edirdi ki, sonudur, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 olsa, \u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 halda \u015fik\u0259st qala bil\u0259rdi. bunlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259 Fidan\u0131 a\u011flamaq tutdu.
\n– S\u0259ni kim tutub bilmir\u0259m, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcmd\u0259n sonra o \u015f\u0259kill\u0259 d\u0259 olsa he\u00e7 kimi inand\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\nFidan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n atd\u0131, Mahmud key adamlar kimi yerind\u0259 donub qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bel\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mirdi.
\n– Q\u0131z \u00f6ld\u00fc.
\nDedikl\u0259rini he\u00e7 kim e\u015fitm\u0259di. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa otaqdak\u0131 dig\u0259r q\u0131zlar q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n q\u0131z \u0259sirdi, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259y\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131… G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yummu\u015fdu. Fidan\u0131n c\u0259s\u0259din\u0259 baxma\u011fa qorxurdu…<\/p>\n

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S\u0259f\u0259r yan\u0131nda olmayanda Fidana el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi ki, \u0259li he\u00e7 bir i\u015f\u0259 yatm\u0131r. Dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… \u0130\u015f telefonundan T\u0259hmin\u0259ni y\u0131\u011fd\u0131, K\u0259rim d\u0259 o\u011fluyla getmi\u015fdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidan \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox maraql\u0131 qad\u0131n olmu\u015fdu. N\u0259 etmi\u015fdi ki, K\u0259rim kimi ki\u015fi o\u011flu ya\u015f\u0131nda qad\u0131na ba\u011flanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, sevmi\u015fdi. Halbu ki, C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 olan sevgisini e\u015fid\u0259-e\u015fid\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Fidan T\u0259hmin\u0259nin ev n\u00f6mr\u0259sini y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. D\u0259st\u0259yin o […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-14997","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14997","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=14997"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14997\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15006,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/14997\/revisions\/15006"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=14997"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=14997"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=14997"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}