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Rafiq K\u0259rimin tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 etibar etdiyi iki o\u011flanla Mahmudun evin\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Rafiq qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259nd\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 cavan bir q\u0131z a\u00e7d\u0131.
\nRafiq – Salam xan\u0131m. Mahmud evd\u0259dir?
\n– Yoox. Kim idi soru\u015fan?
\nRafiq q\u0131zdan icaz\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u0130ki o\u011flan da i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 o\u011flan qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Dig\u0259r otaqdan sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, dolu qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\n– Siz kimsiz? N\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131 siz\u0259?
\nRafiq – S\u0259sini k\u0259s, otur bir yerd\u0259.
\nQad\u0131n Rafiqin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 dig\u0259r o\u011flan onun qolundan tutub qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na g\u0259tirdi, divana it\u0259l\u0259di v\u0259 dedi.
\n– Mane olsan Mahmud g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259c\u0259n pis g\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n
\nQap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7an q\u0131z qorxusundan s\u0259sini \u00e7\u0131xatmad\u0131, sakitc\u0259 sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda oturdu. Rafiqn\u0259n birlikd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n dig\u0259r o\u011flan otaqlar\u0131 g\u0259zirdi. Otaqlar\u0131n birind\u0259 \u015fkaflar\u0131n siyirm\u0259l\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b, yoxlay\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 siyirm\u0259ni a\u00e7anda bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 qad\u0131n v\u0259siq\u0259l\u0259ri tapd\u0131. V\u0259siq\u0259l\u0259ri otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b Rafiq\u0259 verdi. Rafiq v\u0259siq\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 bir-bir baxanda Fidana m\u0259xsus olan v\u0259siq\u0259ni g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n– Bel\u0259 d\u0259 bilirdim.
\nRafiq \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc qad\u0131nlara tutdu.
\n– Hara gedib Mahmud.
\nSar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini s\u00fczd\u00fc.
\n– M\u0259n n\u0259 bilim hara gedib?<\/p>\n

Rafiq o\u011flana i\u015far\u0259 verdi, o\u011flan penc\u0259yinin alt\u0131ndan tapan\u00e7a \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. Qad\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0131z q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131. Rafiq q\u0131za ac\u0131qland\u0131.
\n– Bir azda q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rsan s\u0259sini bird\u0259f\u0259lik k\u0259s\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nQ\u0131z susur, sakitc\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r. Sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n qorxusundan Mahmudun harda oldu\u011funu deyir.
\n– Mah…Mahmud q\u0131zlar\u0131n ikisini m\u00fc\u015ft\u0259riy\u0259 apard\u0131. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131blar, y\u0259qin bu vaxtlar g\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259r.
\nRafiq – Q\u0131zlar\u0131n ad\u0131 n\u0259dir?
\nBu zaman evin qap\u0131s\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcr. Qad\u0131n Rafiqin sual\u0131na cavab ver\u0259 bilmir. Rafiq qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131r. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Fidanla T\u0259hmin\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir. Q\u0131zlar da Rafiqi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nir.
\n***
\nEvd\u0259 xadim\u0259d\u0259n, S\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n, Lamiy\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kim yox idi. Lamiy\u0259 q\u0259sd\u0259n ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, anas\u0131yla C\u0259mil\u0259 qonaql\u0131\u011fa ged\u0259nd\u0259 onu aparmas\u0131nlar. Ayb\u0259niz d\u0259 anas\u0131gil \u00e7\u0131xan kimi El\u00e7inl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r ota\u011f\u0131nda gah araq i\u00e7irdi, gah da pendird\u0259n, xiyardan yeyirdi. Fidanla ba\u011fl\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn qaba\u011f\u0131na g\u0259lirdi. Ma\u015f\u0131nda ilk d\u0259f\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131qlar\u0131 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckc\u0259 i\u00e7irdi. \u0130\u00e7dikc\u0259 piyan olurdu. Ota\u011f\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259\u015fyalar g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dumanl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nS\u0259f\u0259rin qap\u0131s\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. S\u0259f\u0259r yata\u011f\u0131na uzan\u0131b ” g\u0259l ” dedi. Qap\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, i\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n Fidand\u0131r.
\n– Fidan.
\nLamiy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Yata\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 oturdu.
\n– Nec\u0259s\u0259n?
\n– S\u0259n burda neynirs\u0259n \u0259zizim?
\n– S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r Lamiy\u0259ni Fidan bilib dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc. Lamiy\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259di, bu onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z \u015fans idi. Aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b, qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flad\u0131, S\u0259f\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda koftas\u0131n\u0131 soyundu…
\n***
\nQonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda Fidan Rafiq\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n– M\u0259ni aldad\u0131b bura g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. H\u0259min g\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n atmasayd\u0131m, bunlar\u0131n ist\u0259diyi kimi olacaqd\u0131m. \u00c7antam\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 imkan\u0131m olmad\u0131. \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc itirmi\u015fdim. Bu qad\u0131nla, bu q\u0131z \u015fahiddir. M\u0259\u0131ni aldad\u0131b g\u0259tiribl\u0259r.
\nRafiq sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131na t\u0259rs-t\u0259rs baxd\u0131.
\n– D\u00fcz deyir?
\nSar\u0131\u015f\u0131n qad\u0131n – H\u0259, kims\u0259 Mahmuda tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Balam\u0131n can\u0131 bilm\u0259dim o kimdi. Mahmud n\u0259 dedis\u0259, Naza da onu el\u0259di.
\nRafiq – Ayd\u0131nd\u0131r. \u0130kisini d\u0259 apar\u0131n ota\u011fa, qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flay\u0131n.
\nO\u011flanlar qad\u0131nlar\u0131 Rafiqin dediyi kimi ota\u011fa apard\u0131lar,qap\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6rtd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nRafiq Lamiy\u0259y\u0259 – Siz bir-birinizi \u00e7oxdan tan\u0131y\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131z?
\nLamiy\u0259 – \u018fclaf m\u0259ni qa\u00e7\u0131randan sonra tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fuq. Fidan yolda \u00e7antam\u0131 tap\u0131b m\u0259n\u0259 qaytaran g\u00fcnd\u0259n m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rimiz var. Fidan h\u0259r \u015feyi bilir.
\n– H\u0259r \u015feyi?
\n– K\u0259riml\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feyi.
\n– S\u0259ni \u00e7ox axtard\u0131q, tapa bilm\u0259dik. K\u0259rim b\u0259y \u00e7ox pisdir.
\n– Bel\u0259 laz\u0131m\u0131yd\u0131. \u00c7ox \u015feyi bilmirs\u0259n.
\n– K\u0259rim b\u0259y h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Qa\u00e7\u0131r\u0131lma\u011f\u0131n\u0131zdan x\u0259b\u0259rim var. Sad\u0259c\u0259 ikinizi d\u0259 eyni adam\u0131n o\u011furlamas\u0131n\u0131 indi bildim. \u0130kinizin d\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 yoxdur. \u00c7ox g\u00fcman sifari\u015fi eyni adam veribdir.
\nQap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Rafiq dedi.
\n– Q\u0259hr\u0259manda g\u0259ldi. A\u00e7\u0131n qap\u0131n\u0131.
\nO\u011flanlar qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Mahmud o\u011flanlar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni o d\u0259qiq\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, q\u0131zlar\u0131 o\u011flanlar\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 at\u0131b s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 pill\u0259kanlar\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nO\u011flanlardan biri Mahmudun arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7d\u0131. Dig\u0259r o\u011flan Rafiq\u0259.
\n– \u018fclaf qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\nRafiq \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc T\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 Fidana tutdu.
\n– Tez burdan \u00e7\u0131xmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\nFidangil Rafiql\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar. Rafiq t\u0259cili q\u0131zlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn taksi tutdu, pulunu \u00f6d\u0259yib q\u0131zlara dedi.
\n– M\u0259n h\u0259r \u015feyi S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facam. M\u00fctl\u0259q \u0259laq\u0259 saxlayacam.
\nFidan – M\u0259hl\u0259mizl\u0259 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz binada ya\u015fay\u0131r\u0131q.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 \u00e7antas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u0259ft\u0259rin v\u0259r\u0259qin\u0259 ev n\u00f6mr\u0259sini yazd\u0131, Rafiq\u0259 verdi.
\n– K\u0259rim\u0259 dey\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng el\u0259y\u0259r. \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol.
\n– Siz gedin, Allah aman\u0131nda.
\nS\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fc ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcrd\u00fc. Rafiq onunla birlikd\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n o\u011flanla ma\u015f\u0131na oturdu, Mahmudun arxas\u0131nca qa\u00e7an dostunu g\u00f6zl\u0259dil\u0259r. Mahmud harada gets\u0259 gec-tez qay\u0131dacaqd\u0131.
\n– O \u0259claf\u0131 tutmaq boynumun borcu olsun.
\n***
\nLamiy\u0259 a\u011f \u00f6rp\u0259y\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcb qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b bir az aral\u0131 qoydu. S\u0259f\u0259r yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, g\u00fcnah\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259ri yox idi. Lamiy\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin yan\u0131na yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b onu qucaqlad\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu.
\n***
\nAyb\u0259niz El\u00e7inin evind\u0259ydi. Divanda oturmu\u015fdular, Ayb\u0259nizi qucaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\n– G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimin ulduzu.
\nAyb\u0259niz kinay\u0259 il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n– G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimin qarantisi des\u0259ydin , daha d\u00fczg\u00fcn olard\u0131.
\n– Ufff. Ba\u015flamada. Guya m\u0259ni s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa sev\u0259n yoxdur? \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr el\u0259, m\u0259n s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m.
\n– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, inan\u0131ram. El\u00e7ilk\u0259rini n\u0259 vaxt g\u00f6nd\u0259rirs\u0259n?
\n– S\u0259nc\u0259, universitet\u0259 q\u0259bul olacaqsan?
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm, evd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 dem\u0259mis\u0259n.
\n– Yox vallah, demi\u015f\u0259m. Bu h\u0259ft\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131 siz\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r. Atan ver\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259?
\n– Atam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyirdi ki, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 lap d\u00fcnyan\u0131n \u0259n kas\u0131b o\u011flan\u0131 ist\u0259sin, bir \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259 savadl\u0131 olsun, ali t\u0259hsili olsun.
\n– Dem\u0259li problem yoxdur. Anan bilir?
\n– N\u0259yi?
\n– U\u015fa\u011fa qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131
\n– Anam bils\u0259ydi indi torpaqdayd\u0131m
\n– Qarn\u0131n burnuna d\u0259ym\u0259mi\u015f toy m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin h\u0259ll el\u0259m\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\n– M\u00fctl\u0259q. \u0130ndi getm\u0259liy\u0259m, anam ev\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015f evd\u0259 olum.
\n– G\u00f6zl\u0259, s\u0259ni \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm.
\n***
\nC\u0259mil\u0259yl\u0259 Aynur \u015f\u0259n v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 i\u00e7\u0259ri girdil\u0259r. \u018fll\u0259rin\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 qutular\u0131 vard\u0131.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – \u00c7ox yax\u015f\u0131 qad\u0131nd\u0131r.
\nAynur – Yolda\u015f\u0131 da.
\n– Yolda\u015f\u0131 K\u0259rimin \u0259sg\u0259r yolda\u015f\u0131 olub
\nC\u0259mil\u0259yl\u0259 Aynur pill\u0259kanlar\u0131 qalxd\u0131lar.
\nAynur – Allah bilir, Lamiy\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 yat\u0131r. Oyansayd\u0131, ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m donu geyin\u0259rdi baxard\u0131q.
\nBirlikd\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259 dayand\u0131lar. G\u00f6rd\u00fckl\u0259rinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda ikisi d\u0259 susmu\u015fdular. S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 lamiy\u0259 qucaqla\u015f\u0131b yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Aynurun g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc C\u0259mil\u0259y\u0259 tutdu.
\n– Bu n\u0259 dem\u0259kdi?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259sin\u0259 cavab ver\u0259 bilmirdi. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 \u00e7a\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Aynur q\u0259fild\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– Lamiy\u0259
\nLamiy\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fid\u0259n kimi dik at\u0131ld\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 m\u0131z\u0131ldana-m\u0131z\u0131ldana g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131, qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Lamiy\u0259ni \u00e7\u0131lpaq g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 c\u0259ld ondan uzaqla\u015fd\u0131.
\nAynur ota\u011fa girdi – Bu n\u0259 biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qd\u0131r siz el\u0259diniz? Q\u0131z\u0131m bu evd\u0259 \u0259man\u0259t idi S\u0259f\u0259r. N\u0259 i\u015f g\u00f6rd\u00fcn?
\nAynuru a\u011flamaq tutdu. Lamiy\u0259 d\u0259 rola girdi. A\u011flama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nAynur q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u015fill\u0259 vurdu. S\u0259f\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b bir \u0259liyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu.
\n– Bu nec\u0259 oldu ax\u0131? M\u0259n s\u0259rxo\u015f idim. \u0130ndid\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 xat\u0131rlam\u0131ram.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Dan\u0131\u015fma S\u0259f\u0259r. Bu biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259ll etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\nAynur – Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n namusu l\u0259k\u0259l\u0259nib C\u0259mil\u0259. N\u0259yi h\u0259ll ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – S\u0259s-k\u00fcy salmaq laz\u0131m deyil. Tez bir zamanda evl\u0259ndir\u0259rik. M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 k\u00f6k\u00fcnd\u0259n h\u0259ll olunar. Birc\u0259 K\u0259rimin bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259d\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri olmas\u0131n.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Ax\u0131 m\u0259n?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 o\u011fluna t\u0259pindi – Ax\u0131 m\u0259n n\u0259di? Evl\u0259nm\u0259lis\u0259n S\u0259f\u0259r. Otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r\u0131q, paltarlar\u0131n\u0131z\u0131 geyinin. A\u015fa\u011f\u0131da s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259k.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 Aynuru sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259-sakitl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259 otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar, qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Lamiy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131, S\u0259f\u0259r diqq\u0259tl\u0259 ona baxd\u0131.
\n– Bu nec\u0259 oldu?
\nLamiy\u0259 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n– Qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6yd\u00fcm. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri gir\u0259n kimi m\u0259ni \u00f6pd\u00fcn. Onsuzda s\u0259nd\u0259n xo\u015fum g\u0259lirdi. Hissl\u0259rimin \u0259siri oldum. \u0130st\u0259m\u0259s\u0259n m\u0259niml\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259rs\u0259n. Anam\u0131 birt\u0259h\u0259r raz\u0131 salaram.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r ofuldad\u0131 – Yax\u015f\u0131, paltar\u0131n\u0131 geyin.
\nLamiy\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxanda S\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7ar\u015fab\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qan l\u0259k\u0259sini g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u018fliyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc tutdu.
\n– Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni Lamiy\u0259. M\u0259n i\u00e7kili idim. Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r \u015falvar\u0131n\u0131 geyinib, koftas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Lamiy\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Art\u0131q m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Yax\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin arvad\u0131 olacaqd\u0131.
\n***
\nFidan sevincind\u0259n yer\u0259-g\u00f6y\u0259 s\u0131\u011fm\u0131rd\u0131. Art\u0131q g\u00fcnahs\u0131z oldu\u011fu s\u00fcbut olunmu\u015fdu. T\u0259hmin\u0259 d\u0259 sevinirdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidana dedi.
\n– S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 s\u0259n evl\u0259ns\u0259n, K\u0259rim d\u0259 o ifrit\u0259d\u0259n bo\u015fan\u0131b m\u0259niml\u0259 evl\u0259ns\u0259, biz n\u0259 say\u0131laca\u011f\u0131q?
\nFidan t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi – K\u0259rim day\u0131 C\u0259mil\u0259d\u0259n bo\u015fanmaq ist\u0259yirdi?
\n– H\u0259, son g\u00fcnl\u0259r onunla ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131n d\u00f6z\u00fcms\u00fcz oldu\u011funu deyirdi.
\n– C\u0259mil\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131mda ikinci nifr\u0259t el\u0259diyim insan yoxdur. Amma S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 bar\u0131\u015f\u0131b bar\u0131\u015fmamaqda q\u0259rars\u0131zam. Anam\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 soyumay\u0131b. Yaz\u0131q anam, yax\u015f\u0131 ki, S\u0259f\u0259rin m\u0259ni d\u00f6ym\u0259sini bilm\u0259di. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fcn g\u00f6yl\u0259ri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259yib. \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m, taleyim anam\u0131n taleyin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259sin.
\n– \u0130n\u015fallah ox\u015famaz.
\n– M\u0259n anam kimi olmayacam. Laz\u0131m olsa, qar\u015f\u0131mdak\u0131ndan istiad\u0259 etm\u0259yi d\u0259 bacaracam. Anam\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259 bais oldu. Sevdiyim adam\u0131n anas\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 evl\u0259ns\u0259m ilk i\u015fim C\u0259mil\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcm\u0259k olar. K\u0259rim day\u0131 he\u00e7 olmasa m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 s\u0259sli g\u00fcld\u00fc.
\n– H\u0259l\u0259 bel\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259mi\u015fdim. Baxarsan, S\u0259f\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k ayaqlar\u0131na.
\n– Niy\u0259 yalan deyim, \u00fcr\u0259yimin bir yerind\u0259 sevgisi var. Amma anam \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259n sonra S\u0259f\u0259r d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcbd\u00fc.
\n– S\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. Unutma ki, burda S\u0259f\u0259rin he\u00e7 bir g\u00fcnah\u0131 yoxdur. \u0130kinizd\u0259 qurbans\u0131z.
\n***
\nQonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda Lamiy\u0259, S\u0259f\u0259r v\u0259 analar\u0131 \u00fczb\u0259\u00fcz oturmu\u015fdular. Aynurun \u0259s\u0259bd\u0259n ba\u015f\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131.
\nAynur – D\u00fcz deyirl\u0259r, o\u011flan olan ev\u0259 yad q\u0131z g\u0259tirm\u0259zl\u0259r.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 r\u0259fiq\u0259sini t\u0259nbeh etdi:
\n– M\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k laz\u0131m deyil. O\u011flum bir q\u0259l\u0259t el\u0259di, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, yan\u0131nda da x\u0259cal\u0259tliy\u0259m. Ax\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131m, Lamiy\u0259 s\u0259nin d\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131n az deyil. Ham\u0131m\u0131z bilirik ki, n\u0259 olubsa xo\u015fluqla olub.
\nAynur S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 – Q\u0131z\u0131mla evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259k\u0259n, bu l\u0259k\u0259ni \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, cavab verm\u0259y\u0259 hal\u0131 yox idi. C\u0259mil\u0259 o\u011flunun yerin\u0259 cavab verdi.
\n– \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 t\u0259mizl\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. K\u0259rim d\u0259 g\u0259lsin, ax\u015fam dan\u0131\u015facam. Sentyabr\u0131n ortas\u0131 toy haz\u0131rl\u0131qlar\u0131na ba\u015flayar\u0131q.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r diqq\u0259tl\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, sonra da a\u011flamaqdan g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131zarm\u0131\u015f Lamiy\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131.
\n– Sentyabrda evl\u0259n\u0259rik. Toya aid n\u0259 varsa, ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcz ed\u0259rsiniz.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xanda bac\u0131s\u0131 Ayb\u0259niz i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. C\u0259mil\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131qland\u0131.
\n– Hardasan bu vaxta q\u0259d\u0259r? S\u0259ni evd\u0259 t\u0259k qoymal\u0131 deyil?
\nAyb\u0259niz \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259-\u00e7\u0259kin\u0259 dedi:
\n– \u0130mtahanlar\u0131n cavablar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 getmi\u015fdim. K\u0259silmi\u015f\u0259m.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Guya n\u0259 vaxt oxumusan ki?
\nAyb\u0259niz Lamiy\u0259nin a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 indi hiss etdi.
\n– N\u0259 olub? Lamiy\u0259 niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – S\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 var niy\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131r. D\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de g\u00f6r\u00fcm hardayd\u0131n? Guya imtahan s\u00f6hb\u0259tin\u0259 inand\u0131m?
\nAyb\u0259niz t\u0259slim oldu – Yax\u015f\u0131, d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc dey\u0259c\u0259m. El\u00e7inl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u0259n g\u0259lir\u0259m. Bu h\u0259ft\u0259nin ax\u0131r\u0131 el\u00e7i g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 bir az rahatlad\u0131 – Lap yax\u015f\u0131, qarda\u015f\u0131nla Lamiy\u0259nin toyundan sonra s\u0259nin toyunu ed\u0259rik.
\nAyb\u0259niz e\u015fitdikl\u0259rind\u0259n \u015foka d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc – Nec\u0259? S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 Lamiy\u0259nin toyu?
\nAyb\u0259niz diqq\u0259tl\u0259 Lamiy\u0259y\u0259 baxd\u0131.
\n***
\nRafiq \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 birg\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi iki adama tap\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, Mahmudun evinin qaba\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6zl\u0259sinl\u0259r. Qad\u0131nlarda kim evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xsa biri m\u00fctl\u0259q izl\u0259sin. \u00d6z\u00fc is\u0259, birba\u015fa K\u0259rimin i\u015f yerin\u0259 g\u0259ldi. K\u0259rim\u0259 Fidanla T\u0259hmin\u0259nin tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan, \u0259slind\u0259 onlar\u0131 o\u011furlayanlar\u0131n eyni adam oldu\u011funu, Fidan\u0131n g\u00fcnahs\u0131z oldu\u011funu – h\u0259r \u015feyi bir-bir dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nK\u0259rim t\u0259mkinl\u0259 dinl\u0259dikd\u0259n sonra dedi.
\n– Lap biab\u0131r\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qd\u0131r. Fidan T\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259timi bilirdis\u0259, dem\u0259li o\u011flum da bilirdi. \u0130kisinin d\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmaq var. H\u0259l\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rin \u00c7i\u00e7\u0259yin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnd\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdur.
\nK\u0259rim saata baxd\u0131.
\nHaz\u0131rla\u015f, birinci ev\u0259 ged\u0259k, S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 ged\u0259rik T\u0259hmin\u0259gil\u0259.
\n– Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259. K\u0259rim b\u0259y, bu m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259ll olunsun, sonra sizinl\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259tim olacaq. \u015e\u0259xsidir.
\n– \u0130ndi d\u0259 dey\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n– M\u00fcnasib vaxtda dey\u0259r\u0259m.
\nK\u0259rim g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yir – Yax\u015f\u0131, nec\u0259 m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259tdi.
\n Rafiq otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. K\u0259rim T\u0259hmin\u0259nin Rafiq\u0259 verdiyi n\u00f6mr\u0259y\u0259 z\u0259ng edir. Telefona T\u0259hmin\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc cavab verir.
\n– Allo
\n– Nec\u0259s\u0259n T\u0259hmin\u0259? M\u0259n\u0259m K\u0259rim.
\n– Tan\u0131d\u0131m. Yax\u015f\u0131yam.
\n– Ax\u015fam haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131n, S\u0259f\u0259ri d\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m siz\u0259.
\n– Olar.
\n– T\u0259ks\u0259n?
\n– H\u0259, Fidan o biri otaqdad\u0131.
\n– Niy\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259din? Sakitc\u0259 getm\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131 n\u0259 idi?
\n– Olar bunlar\u0131 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faq?
\n– Yax\u015f\u0131.
\n– H\u0259l\u0259lik.
\n– H\u0259l\u0259lik.
\nK\u0259rim telefonun d\u0259st\u0259yini yerin\u0259 qoydu.<\/p>\n

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\nRafiqin adamlar\u0131 Mahmudun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 binadan bug\u00fcn evl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n , dolu qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcl\u0259r. O\u011flanlar ayr\u0131-ayr\u0131l\u0131qda qad\u0131n\u0131 izl\u0259dil\u0259r. Qad\u0131n dayabacaqda avtobusa min\u0259nd\u0259 o\u011flanlar da taksil\u0259rin birin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131lar. Taksi avtobusu izl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nQad\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7 dayanacaqdan sonra avtobusdan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Ara m\u0259hl\u0259y\u0259 girdi. U\u00e7uq-s\u00f6k\u00fck bir evin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259nd\u0259 o\u011flanlar g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Qap\u0131n\u0131 bir ki\u015fi a\u00e7d\u0131. O\u011flanlar t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi. Bu ki\u015fi Mahmud deyildi, tamam ya\u015fl\u0131 adam idi. Qad\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7di. O\u011flan\u0131n biri sakitc\u0259 qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, qula\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qap\u0131ya s\u00f6yk\u0259di. Bir az ke\u00e7\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yolda\u015f\u0131na ba\u015f\u0131yla i\u015far\u0259 verdi.
\n***
\nK\u0259rim ev\u0259 gir\u0259nd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 \u015fam yem\u0259yi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u00fcfr\u0259nin haz\u0131r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc.S\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015fqa ham\u0131 qonaq ota\u011f\u0131nda qa\u015fqabaql\u0131 oturmu\u015fdu.
\nK\u0259rim – Ax\u015fam\u0131n\u0131z xeyir.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Ax\u015fam\u0131n xeyir.
\nAynur – Ax\u015fam\u0131n\u0131z xeyir.
\nK\u0259rim – N\u0259 \u0259c\u0259b s\u00fcfr\u0259 haz\u0131r deyil?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Sa\u011f olsun u\u015faqlar\u0131n, ikisi d\u0259 nec\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131rd\u0131sa bug\u00fcn bizi sevincd\u0259n yem\u0259k yada d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di.
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.
\n– Q\u0131z\u0131n imtahandan k\u0259silib. \u018fv\u0259zind\u0259 bu h\u0259ft\u0259 el\u00e7i g\u0259lm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259r.
\nK\u0259rim diqq\u0259tl\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na bax\u0131r.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 davam edirdi – O\u011flun da Lamiy\u0259yl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131r.
\nK\u0259rim – N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? N\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259k? Bu ola bilm\u0259z.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 K\u0259rim\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131 – Yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur t\u0259klikd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faq. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr S\u0259f\u0259rin \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 yat\u0131b.
\n– C\u0259mil\u0259 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Fidan\u0131n g\u00fcnahs\u0131z oldu\u011fu ortaya \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. O Mahmuddur, n\u0259 zibildir bilmir\u0259m, tapd\u0131q.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b udqundu, bir anl\u0131q \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdi. Bu K\u0259rimin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n qa\u00e7mad\u0131.
\n– \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc niy\u0259 itirdin?
\n– \u0130tirm\u0259dim. Bu x\u0259b\u0259ri S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 dem\u0259.
\n– S\u0259f\u0259r Fidan\u0131 sevir. Q\u0131z\u0131m Lamiy\u0259, incim\u0259 balamsan, S\u0259f\u0259r s\u0259ni xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259c\u0259k adam deyil.
\nLamiy\u0259 a\u011flaya-a\u011flaya otaqdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r. Aynurun da g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – M\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259mirdim, m\u0259cbur el\u0259din.
\n– N\u0259yi?
\n– S\u0259f\u0259r Lamiy\u0259yl\u0259 evl\u0259ns\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Lamiy\u0259 il\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cburdu.
\nK\u0259rim Aynura baxd\u0131. Aynur da a\u011flya-a\u011flaya dedi.
\n– Sizin kimi m\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259cal\u0259timd\u0259n yerin dibin\u0259 girir\u0259m.
\nK\u0259rim ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b d\u0259rind\u0259n k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Ard\u0131 var…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Rafiq K\u0259rimin tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 etibar etdiyi iki o\u011flanla Mahmudun evin\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. Rafiq qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259nd\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 cavan bir q\u0131z a\u00e7d\u0131. Rafiq – Salam xan\u0131m. Mahmud evd\u0259dir? – Yoox. Kim idi soru\u015fan? Rafiq q\u0131zdan icaz\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. \u0130ki o\u011flan da i\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7dil\u0259r. \u0130\u00e7\u0259ri ke\u00e7\u0259n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 o\u011flan qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc. Dig\u0259r otaqdan sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n, dolu qad\u0131n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. – Siz […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15094","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15094","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15094"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15094\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15104,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15094\/revisions\/15104"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15094"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15094"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15094"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}