{"id":15442,"date":"2015-10-19T09:36:26","date_gmt":"2015-10-19T04:36:26","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15442"},"modified":"2015-10-19T09:36:26","modified_gmt":"2015-10-19T04:36:26","slug":"s%c9%99hriyy%c9%99-q%c9%99z%c9%99nf%c9%99rqizi-s%c9%99hra-cic%c9%99yi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15442","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259hriyy\u0259 Q\u018fZ\u018fNF\u018fRQIZI.” \u015e\u0259hra \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi.”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Yen\u0259 yarpaqlar\u0131m \u0259zildi. He\u00e7 olmasa yoldan k\u0259nara atsayd\u0131 m\u0259ni o zal\u0131m. D\u00f6nd\u00fcm \u0259vv\u0259lki vaxt\u0131ma. Dem\u0259k, bu m\u0259nim sonumdu. Bura q\u0259d\u0259rmi\u015f. \u0130kinci el\u0259 biri bir d\u0259 olmayacaq. M\u0259n bel\u0259 ayaq alt\u0131ndaca tapdan\u0131b m\u0259hv olacam. Burdan m\u0259ni hara aparacaqlar? Y\u0259qin, b\u00f6y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131nlarda gec\u0259 g\u0259zintisin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacam. Ax\u0131 o ma\u015f\u0131nlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 gec\u0259 g\u0259lirl\u0259r. D\u0259niz o ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n yaman qorxard\u0131. He\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259zdim ki, m\u0259n d\u0259 o vahim\u0259li ma\u015f\u0131nla g\u0259z\u0259c\u0259m. Sonra b\u00f6y\u00fck bir da\u011fa ged\u0259c\u0259m, orda c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m istisind\u0259 yan\u0131b k\u00fcl olacam.
\nNoolar, k\u00f6hn\u0259 dost, bir az oyna, yell\u0259n ,m\u0259ni apar kollar\u0131n aras\u0131na sal. B\u0259lk\u0259, onda qurtulam. S\u0259n m\u0259nim h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi t\u0259nha vaxtlar\u0131mda ayan\u0131msan. Yad\u0131nda onunla tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m? Buna s\u0259n v\u0259sil\u0259 olmu\u015fdun. K\u00f6hn\u0259, u\u00e7ulmu\u015f bir eyvanda solub gedirdim. N\u0259 g\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fcm, n\u0259 d\u0259 su. S\u0259n bird\u0259n b\u0259rk \u0259sdin. Yen\u0259, dey\u0259s\u0259n, yell\u0259nc\u0259yind\u0259 lap yuxar\u0131ya q\u0259d\u0259r yell\u0259nirdin. M\u0259n eyvandan d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm yer\u0259, dib\u00e7\u0259yim s\u0131nd\u0131. Tan\u0131d\u0131n indi m\u0259ni? Yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm? H\u0259\u0259\u0259. O zamanlar ad\u0131m s\u0131r\u011fag\u00fcl\u00fc idi. M\u0259ni s\u0131r\u011faya b\u0259nz\u0259dirdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi ad\u0131m \u015e\u0259hra \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yidir. Daha do\u011frusu, bura g\u0259l\u0259n\u0259 kimi el\u0259 idi. \u0130ndi hans\u0131 ad\u0131 ist\u0259s\u0259n ver\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259. N\u0259 m\u0259nas\u0131 var ki? Onsuz da birazdan yan\u0131b k\u00fcl olacam.
\nBilirs\u0259n, s\u0259n yell\u0259nib m\u0259ni yer\u0259 salanda s\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox incimi\u015fdim. El\u0259 b\u0259rk d\u0259ymi\u015fdim ki, h\u0259r yerim s\u0131zlay\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130ki g\u00fcn yerd\u0259 el\u0259c\u0259 qald\u0131m. Sonra m\u0259ni z\u0259rif \u0259ll\u0259r qoynuna ald\u0131. Onunla ala-qaranl\u0131q dar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n yor\u011fun-yor\u011fun bir ev\u0259 g\u0259ldik. Ev d\u0259 yor\u011fun idi. Qap\u0131s\u0131 bel\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Divarlardak\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ri e\u015fidirdim. \u00d6z aralar\u0131nda evin b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259\u015fyalar\u0131 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ham\u0131s\u0131 yorulmu\u015fdu. Yeni bir istiliy\u0259 onlar\u0131n da ehtiyac\u0131 var idi. O, m\u0259niml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fa-dan\u0131\u015fa m\u0259ni yeni qabla b\u0259z\u0259di. Yeni evim xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onda s\u0259n\u0259 olan incikliyim d\u0259 aradan qalxm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. M\u0259ni y\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259n\u0259 minn\u0259tdar idim. H\u0259tta m\u0259niml\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tan\u0131\u015f da etdi – \u201d Salam, m\u0259n \u015e\u0259hrayam. S\u0259ni kim bel\u0259 at\u0131b? Bu k\u00f6vr\u0259k yarpaqlar\u0131n, g\u00f6vd\u0259n bu y\u00fck\u00fc nec\u0259 qald\u0131r\u0131r? Bilir\u0259m, \u00e7\u0259tindi. Ancaq Allah g\u00fcc verir. Z\u0259rif \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin el\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckl\u0259r qald\u0131rma\u011fa m\u0259cbur qal\u0131r ki, alt\u0131nda \u0259zilirs\u0259n. Qorxma, art\u0131q m\u0259n varam.\u201d
\nO m\u0259nim tozlan\u0131b \u00e7irkl\u0259nmi\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259rimin \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n bir barmaq idi. X\u0259yallar\u0131mdak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi \u00f6z k\u00f6lg\u0259si il\u0259 isid\u0259n bir m\u0259l\u0259k idi. \u0130kinci n\u0259f\u0259sim idi, ikinci do\u011fulu\u015fum. Uzun, zill\u0259t dolu sanc\u0131lardan sonra, n\u0259hay\u0259t ki, do\u011fulmu\u015fdum. Ancaq bir az bo\u011fulmu\u015fdum. Ana quca\u011f\u0131, h\u0259rar\u0259ti, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131 dinc\u0259ltdi m\u0259ni.
\nBir g\u00fcn o zal\u0131m\u0131n bu d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6z a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn idi. \u015e\u0259hram m\u0259ni n\u0259f\u0259s kimi ona verdi. \u00d6z n\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259s. \u201c S\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m n\u0259f\u0259si verdim. Art\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259sim s\u0259nd\u0259. S\u0259n var olduqca m\u0259n d\u0259 varam. Qoyma m\u0259ni bo\u011fulam. \u201c \u2013bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri bir ka\u011f\u0131za yaz\u0131b yarpaqlar\u0131m aras\u0131na sald\u0131. Ad\u0131m\u0131 da \u201c\u015e\u0259hra \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yi\u201d qoydu.
\nM\u0259n \u00f6z\u0259l birin\u0259 verilmi\u015f bir \u00f6z\u0259l idim. Candan qopmu\u015f bir can. N\u0259f\u0259sd\u0259n ged\u0259n bir n\u0259f\u0259s.
\nOnsuz dar\u0131xsam da yen\u0259 evim\u0259 isinirdim. Ax\u0131 ad\u0131n\u0131 da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131m. Onun kimi c\u0259sur, irad\u0259li g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259liydim. Zamanla anlad\u0131m ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259s o ola bilm\u0259z. O t\u0259biilik, i\u00e7d\u0259nlik yaln\u0131z onda var.
\nIlk ayr\u0131l\u0131qda m\u0259ni d\u0259 evd\u0259n ay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 xatir bel\u0259 qalmad\u0131m. V\u0259 m\u0259n burdayam. Ayaqlar alt\u0131nda , laz\u0131ms\u0131z, at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f. Ax\u0131 m\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s idim. \u0130ndi hardasa m\u0259nim \u015e\u0259hram bo\u011fulur. Ona n\u0259f\u0259s laz\u0131md\u0131. At m\u0259ni kolluqlar\u0131n aras\u0131na. B\u0259lk\u0259, yen\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s oldum.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Yen\u0259 yarpaqlar\u0131m \u0259zildi. He\u00e7 olmasa yoldan k\u0259nara atsayd\u0131 m\u0259ni o zal\u0131m. D\u00f6nd\u00fcm \u0259vv\u0259lki vaxt\u0131ma. Dem\u0259k, bu m\u0259nim sonumdu. Bura q\u0259d\u0259rmi\u015f. \u0130kinci el\u0259 biri bir d\u0259 olmayacaq. M\u0259n bel\u0259 ayaq alt\u0131ndaca tapdan\u0131b m\u0259hv olacam. Burdan m\u0259ni hara aparacaqlar? Y\u0259qin, b\u00f6y\u00fck ma\u015f\u0131nlarda gec\u0259 g\u0259zintisin\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xacam. Ax\u0131 o ma\u015f\u0131nlar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 gec\u0259 g\u0259lirl\u0259r. D\u0259niz o ma\u015f\u0131nlar\u0131n s\u0259sind\u0259n yaman qorxard\u0131. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15442","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15442","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15442"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15442\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15444,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15442\/revisions\/15444"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15442"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15442"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15442"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}