{"id":15627,"date":"2015-10-27T14:00:35","date_gmt":"2015-10-27T10:00:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15627"},"modified":"2015-10-27T22:15:02","modified_gmt":"2015-10-27T18:15:02","slug":"s%c9%99faq%c9%99t-cavansirli-sevginin-gozl%c9%99ri-romaninin-xx-hiss%c9%99si-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15627","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259faq\u0259t CAVAN\u015e\u0130RL\u0130.\u201dSevginin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri\u201d roman\u0131n\u0131n XXI hiss\u0259si"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"sefaqetxanimsekil\"<\/a><\/p>\n

R\u0259sad Fidanla T\u0259hmin\u0259ni ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Fidan qap\u0131dan ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yata\u011fa atd\u0131, d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259fild\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yast\u0131\u011fa s\u0131x\u0131b h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131. T\u0259hmin\u0259 ota\u011fa girdi, \u0259liyl\u0259 Fidan\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 toxundu: – Fidan, n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n

Fidan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 T\u0259hmin\u0259nin sa\u011f \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyub u\u015faq kimi a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ota\u011fa R\u0259\u015fad girdi.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidan\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 – S\u0259ni ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m. B\u0259sdi, a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdu.
\nFidan – Ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n qalmad\u0131. Yoruluram, arada el\u0259 ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, \u00f6l\u0259m, can\u0131m qurtars\u0131n.
\nR\u0259\u015fad sakitc\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n bir t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 oturdu: – Siz h\u0259l\u0259 n\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcz? Otuz ya\u015f\u0131m var. Ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131n say\u0131nacan \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m. Sizin h\u0259l\u0259 b\u0259xtiniz g\u0259tirib. S\u0259nd\u0259n ya\u015fca ki\u00e7ik q\u0131zlar olub, intihar h\u0259ddin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131blar. Eldar \u0259mi ikiniz\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259k.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n tutdu,g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 bax\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di: – E\u015fitdin? Daha bundan sonra biz\u0259 n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r? Evimiz d\u0259 olacaq, i\u015fimiz d\u0259.
\nFidan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc R\u0259\u015fada t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirdi: – Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, Camal al\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n biridir, amma vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m. N\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 insan \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 bais oluram.
\nR\u0259\u015fad – S\u0259n\u0259 des\u0259m ki, Camal\u0131n ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 qurban\u0131 on iki ya\u015f\u0131nda q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 olub, nec\u0259 olarsan?
\nFidan diqq\u0259tl\u0259 R\u0259\u015fada baxd\u0131, sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131.
\nR\u0259\u015fad davam edirdi: – U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fck adama satm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131z qanaxmadan \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, meyidini d\u0259 polisl\u0259r zibil qutusundan tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. N\u0259yi qoyub n\u0259yi dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? T\u0259hmin\u0259 haqq\u0131nda m\u0259n\u0259 azdan-\u00e7oxdan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f ni\u015fanl\u0131n s\u0259nd\u0259n istifad\u0259 etm\u0259yib. S\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259sizs\u0259n, ya\u015f\u0131n artd\u0131qca bug\u00fcnk\u00fcg\u00fcnl\u0259r s\u0259n\u0259 adi g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k. Camal\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259. \u015eans\u0131n\u0131za, b\u0259xtiniz\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edin.<\/p>\n

T\u0259hmin\u0259 aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, \u0259ll\u0259rini bir-birin\u0259 s\u00fcrtd\u00fc: – Daha b\u0259sdir, q\u0259mli notlar\u0131 qoyuruq bir k\u0259nara. \u015eans\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 \u00e7ay d\u0259ml\u0259yim, i\u00e7\u0259k. N\u0259 deyirsiniz? R\u0259\u015fad: – T\u0259hmi\u015f, yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 budur, ya\u011f-pendir haz\u0131rla, qay\u011fanaq el\u0259, m\u0259nd\u0259 isti \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k al\u0131m. Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, h\u0259y\u0259candan m\u0259d\u0259m birt\u0259h\u0259rdir.
\nFidan – M\u0259n sizd\u0259n bet\u0259r\u0259m.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 – Onda qalx aya\u011fa, vaxt itirm\u0259y\u0259k.<\/p>\n

R\u0259\u015fad isti t\u0259ndir \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259yi almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131…<\/p>\n

K\u0259rim q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn alt\u0131na, yana\u011f\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131, susurdu,san\u0131\u015fma\u011fa s\u00f6z tapa bilmirdi. C\u0259mil\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131rd\u0131, q\u0131z\u0131 Ayb\u0259niz a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131.
\nK\u0259rim – Naki\u015fi k\u00f6p\u0259ko\u011flu.
\nAyb\u0259niz – Bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6n\u00fcb m\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131. Adam adam\u0131 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259hqir el\u0259y\u0259r? K\u0259rim – Qay\u0131tmayacaqsan o ev\u0259. Sabah da ged\u0259rik m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u0259riz\u0259 ver\u0259rs\u0259n. <\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 K\u0259rimin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na ke\u00e7di. – N\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? Bo\u015fanmaq n\u0259di?
\nK\u0259rim – Neyniyim? Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu d\u00f6ys\u00fcn, men de bax\u0131m?
\n– Onda dost-tan\u0131\u015fa n\u0259 cavab ver\u0259k?
\nAyb\u0259niz t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 anas\u0131na baxd\u0131: – Dost-tan\u0131\u015f\u0131n bizden vacibdi,ana?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131na g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u011fartdi. – S\u0259n bu bar\u0259d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015facaq he\u00e7 ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 adam da deyils\u0259n. O adama getm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l fikirl\u0259\u015fm\u0259k laz\u0131m idi.
\nK\u0259rim C\u0259mil\u0259nin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 ac\u0131qland\u0131. – Niy\u0259? S\u0259hv edib dey\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu s\u00f6y\u00fcl\u00fcb, d\u00f6y\u00fclm\u0259lidir? C\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olsun dost-tan\u0131\u015f, qohum-\u0259qraba. Q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131 ham\u0131s\u0131ndan vacibdi
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Qarn\u0131 burnundad\u0131, El\u00e7in bir q\u0259l\u0259tdir edib. G\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015fa salarsan, bird\u0259 t\u0259krarlansa, onda bo\u015fatd\u0131rarsan.
\nK\u0259rimin h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259si darald\u0131. – Eee, lap m\u0259ni bezdirdin C\u0259mil\u0259. El\u00e7ini d\u0259, Lamiy\u0259ni d\u0259 t\u0259rifl\u0259din, da\u011f\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131na qoydun. Onda niye \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcn? Qohumlar yada d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259di? H\u00f6k\u00fcmranl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qoy bir k\u0259nara. Bir az ana ol.
\nK\u0259rim penc\u0259yini stulun ba\u015f\u0131ndan g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc, evd\u0259n c\u0131xd\u0131.<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 a\u011flayan q\u0131z\u0131na baxd\u0131. – El\u00e7inl\u0259 o q\u0259l\u0259ti el\u0259m\u0259s\u0259ydin, bug\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259zdin. Evin qap\u0131 z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nd\u0131. Xadim\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7di, El\u00e7in qonaq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di, qaynanas\u0131yla arvad\u0131na salam verdi. He\u00e7 kim salam\u0131n\u0131 almad\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 \u0259liyl\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tutdu, otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Ayb\u0259niz is\u0259, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131rdi.<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 paltarlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259li, t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7amadan\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda Tahiri g\u00f6rd\u00fc, \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 dedim ax\u0131 buralara g\u0259lm\u0259.
\n– Narahat olma, he\u00e7 kim g\u00f6rm\u0259di.
\n– P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0131\u011fortalad\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc? E\u015fitmirs\u0259n onsuzda, n\u0259 is\u0259 dem\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur.
\nTahir Lamiy\u0259ni arxadan qucaqlad\u0131: – S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam. S\u0259nsiz d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir\u0259m. – Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t do\u011frudan dar\u0131xmal\u0131 olacaqsan. Qaynanam hamil\u0259 oldu\u011fumu \u00f6yr\u0259nib. B\u0259yaq z\u0259ng etmi\u015fdi.
\n– \u0130frit\u0259 s\u0259nd\u0259n n\u0259 ist\u0259yir?
\n– N\u0259v\u0259sinin sa\u011flam do\u011fulmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir. \u00c7amadanlar\u0131m\u0131 haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131m g\u0259ldin. Ax\u015fam s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259k.
\n– O u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n kimd\u0259n oldu\u011fu h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259lum deyil. Birc\u0259 bu u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259ls\u0259ydi… Lamiy\u0259 Tahirin dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc – Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, get, \u00f6z\u00fcm s\u0259ninl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlayacam.
\nTahir kefsiz halda cavab verdi: – Yax\u015f\u0131, \u00e7al\u0131\u015facam sebrli olum.
\nTahirl\u0259 Lamiy\u0259 \u00f6p\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. Lamiy\u0259 Tahiri g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fczl\u0259 yola sal\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rtd\u00fc, d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259tlik d\u0259 olsa Tahiri aldada bilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n

El\u00e7in Ayb\u0259nizin k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u00fc almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015firin s\u00f6zl\u0259r dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoydu, arvad\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu:
\n – D\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 \u00fczr ist\u0259yir\u0259m. \u018fs\u0259bl\u0259rimi cilovlaya bilm\u0259dim. Ki\u015fi kimi s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, bird\u0259 olmayacaq. And i\u00e7ir\u0259m.
\n – Bilmir\u0259m, q\u0131z oldu\u011funu bil\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fc qara el\u0259mis\u0259n. Atam bo\u015fanma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 ist\u0259yir.
\nEl\u00e7in \u00e7oxbilmi\u015f-\u00e7oxbilmi\u015f arvad\u0131na baxd\u0131: – B\u0259s anan n\u0259 deyir?
\nAyb\u0259niz susdu. El\u00e7in: – Atan\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m, hirsind\u0259n deyib. Qurban olum, ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla m\u0259ni.
\nEl\u00e7in Ayb\u0259nizin \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n \u00f6p\u00fcrd\u00fc ki,insafa g\u0259lsin, bilirdi xasiyy\u0259tini.Dey\u0259s\u0259n yava\u015f-yava\u015f m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. Ayb\u0259nizin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yenid\u0259n dolmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n

Yeddi ay ke\u00e7di<\/p>\n

Fidanla T\u0259hmin\u0259y\u0259 Eldar verdiyi s\u00f6z\u00fc tutmu\u015fdu. Camal\u0131n evini satd\u0131r\u0131b q\u0131zlar\u0131n ad\u0131na geni\u015f h\u0259y\u0259ti olan, d\u00f6rd otaql\u0131 ev alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Restoran\u0131 da q\u0131zlar\u0131n ikisinin ad\u0131na ke\u00e7irtmi\u015fdi. R\u0259\u015fad da restoran\u0131 \u00e7ox vaxt \u00f6z\u00fc i\u015fl\u0259dirdi. Q\u0131zlar heft\u0259d\u0259 bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 restorana ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259 r\u0259qs kurslar\u0131 a\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn kiray\u0259 yer g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Pe\u015f\u0259kar m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r axtar\u0131b tapd\u0131. Fidan is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn x\u00fcsusi xobbi tapa bilmirdi. G\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc kitab oxumaqla ke\u00e7irirdi, tez-tez anas\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259zar\u0131n\u0131 ziyar\u0259t ed\u0259rdi, usaq evl\u0259rin\u0259, qocalar evl\u0259rin\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdi
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 kredit\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. R\u0259\u015fad ikisin\u0259 d\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcrm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259dirdi, Fidan ba\u015f\u0131soyuq yana\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131n s\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259si yox idi. Yax\u0131n g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259 T\u0259hmin\u0259 s\u00fcr\u00fcc\u00fcl\u00fck v\u0259siq\u0259si almaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn imtahan verm\u0259liydi. Arada Eldar da ax\u015famlar q\u0131zlar\u0131n hal-ehval\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r tutmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn onlara qonaq g\u0259l\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n

R\u0259\u015fad T\u0259hmin\u0259nin sevgilisi oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox zaman gec\u0259l\u0259r q\u0131zlar\u0131n evind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 onu t\u0259kc\u0259 nigah ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131 ba\u011flam\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc, bir yerd\u0259 kinoya baxan T\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 R\u0259\u015fad aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131lar.
\nR\u0259\u015fad qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131 – Xo\u015f g\u0259ldin.
\nG\u0259l\u0259n qonaq Eldar idi – Neynirsiz?
\n– Kinoya bax\u0131rd\u0131q.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 Eldarla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc – Eldar \u0259mi, xo\u015f g\u0259lmis\u0259n. N\u0259 vaxtdand\u0131r g\u0259lmirs\u0259n. G\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi yolda qoymusan.
\nEldar- Fidan yoxdu?
\nR\u0259\u015fad – Ota\u011f\u0131ndad\u0131.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 – Ya kitab oxuyur, ya da yaz\u0131r.
\nEldar t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi – Yaz\u0131r?
\nR\u0259\u015fad – X\u0259b\u0259rim yoxdur. M\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi indi e\u015fidir\u0259m.
\n T\u0259hmin\u0259 – M\u0259nc\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 yaz\u0131r.
\nEldar – Ota\u011f\u0131na gedir\u0259m, son vaxtlar g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr. T\u0259hmin\u0259, yaman acm\u0131\u015fam.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 – Bu d\u0259qiq\u0259 Eldar \u0259mi, qaba\u011f\u0131na bir yem\u0259k qoyum, g\u0259l g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n.
\nR\u0259\u015fad – A\u015fpaz\u0131m\u0131z h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi Fidand\u0131r.
\nEldar – Fidan bi\u015firibs\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259m yoxdur.
\nFidan ota\u011f\u0131nda i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcr\u00fcb, \u015fam yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eam i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u0259lind\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259 yaz\u0131rd\u0131. Qap\u0131n\u0131n d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 – g\u0259l – dedi
\nEldar ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 Fidan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u0259n ox\u015fatd\u0131, aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f g\u0259ldi, i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131, Eldar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 sevindi.
\nYanaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fcb qucaqlad\u0131 – \u00c7oxdand\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcrd\u00fcn.
\nEldar – \u0130\u015fl\u0259rimin \u00e7oxlu\u011fundan. N\u0259dir? T\u0259rkid\u00fcnya olmaq q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259lmis\u0259n?
\nFidan yaz\u0131 stolunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yanan \u015fam\u0131 \u00fcf\u00fcr\u0259r\u0259k s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fc. Q\u0259l\u0259mi d\u0259ft\u0259rin aras\u0131na qoyub \u00f6rtd\u00fc.
\nEldar stola yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. – Bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, kitab oxuya-oxuya yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olacaqsan. – M\u0259n hara, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q hara!… Ham\u0131s\u0131 bekar\u00e7\u0131l\u0131qdand\u0131.
\n– Yox vallah, ax\u0131rda s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 kitab \u00e7\u0131xardacaqsan. M\u0259\u015fhur yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olacaqsan.
\n Fidan diqq\u0259tl\u0259 Eldar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Eldar ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, Fidan\u0131n vacib s\u00f6z\u00fc var.
\n– Dey\u0259s\u0259n \u00fcr\u0259yin doludur.
\n– Eldar \u0259mi, Camala do\u011frudan n\u0259 oldu?
\n– Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n?
\n– Adam m\u0259cburiyy\u0259td\u0259n q\u0259ddar da olur,d\u00fczd\u00fcr?
\nEldar ba\u015f\u0131yla t\u0259sdiql\u0259di. – El\u0259 bildim, d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm Fidansan. M\u0259nas\u0131z adamlara g\u00f6r\u0259 fikir \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z.
\n– Qorxum vicdan \u0259zab\u0131d\u0131r.
\nEldar Fidan\u0131 qucaqlad\u0131 – Caan, sen vicdan\u0131n\u0131 incid\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 etm\u0259mis\u0259n. M\u0259n neynim onda? Bura bax, acam, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259n sual at\u0259\u015fin\u0259 tutma.
\n– S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259n d\u0259 acam.
\n – Getdik, tez-tez, d\u00fc\u015f qaba\u011fa.Burda m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131b, d\u00fc\u015f qaba\u011fa.<\/p>\n

Fidan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fc. Eldar \u0259misiyl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 hamil\u0259liyin s\u0259kkizinci ay\u0131na ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. Anas\u0131yla dala\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Lamiy\u0259 Bak\u0131ya qay\u0131tmaq ist\u0259yirdi, anas\u0131 imkan vermirdi \u00e7amadanlar\u0131n\u0131 haz\u0131rlas\u0131n.
\n– Tahirdi, n\u0259 zibildi, inanma. O s\u0259ni pis v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qoyacaq.
\n – Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrs\u0259n? Getm\u0259s\u0259m d\u0259 pis v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qalacam. Sabah ax\u015famacan Bak\u0131da olmasam C\u0259mil\u0259gil\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259k, h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015facaq. B\u0259tnimd\u0259ki u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n bel\u0259 S\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259n olub olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmir\u0259m.
\n– Ax\u0131, hardan bildi ki, burdasan?
\n– Ay ana, s\u0259n onu tan\u0131m\u0131rsan. \u00c7oxbilmi\u015fin yek\u0259sidir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f, getm\u0259liy\u0259m.
\n – Hara ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n? Onunla ya\u015fayacaqsan?
\n– Ola da bil\u0259r, olmaya da… Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, imkan ver gedim.
\nAynur sonunda t\u0259slim olurdu. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n dedikl\u0259ri il\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fma\u011fa m\u0259cbur qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdi.
\nS\u0259h\u0259risi g\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 yola salmam\u0131\u015fdan \u0259vv\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131na v\u0259r\u0259q uzatd\u0131:
\n– Burda Zaman adl\u0131 bir adam\u0131n \u00fcnvan\u0131 var. D\u00fcn\u0259n ax\u015fam onunla dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam. Anas\u0131yla \u00e7ox yax\u0131n olmu\u015fam. Tahird\u0259n he\u00e7 g\u00f6z\u00fcm su i\u00e7mir. \u018fg\u0259r n\u0259ys\u0259 olsa z\u0259ng el\u0259. S\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259c\u0259k.
\n – Yax\u015f\u0131.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259yl\u0259 anas\u0131 qucaqla\u015fd\u0131lar. Aynur astaca q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n qulaqlar\u0131na dedi. – \u018flimd\u0259 olsayd\u0131, o Tahiri \u00f6z\u00fcm bo\u011fard\u0131m…<\/p>\n

S\u00fcfr\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131qdan sonra Fidangil domino oynay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Fidan iki oyun udduqdan sonra Eldar etiraz\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k bildirdi:
\n – Bu n\u0259dir bel\u0259? Ancaq bu q\u0131z udur.
\nFidan – Eldar \u0259mi, s\u0259n d\u0259 pax\u0131lsan?
\nEldar – \u0130st\u0259s\u0259m udaram, \u00f6z\u00fcm uduzuram ki, cavans\u0131n\u0131z, h\u0259v\u0259sd\u0259n d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259siniz. Q\u0131zlar birlikd\u0259 “Sa\u011f ol Eldar \u0259mi” dedil\u0259r, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.
\nEldar- Gec\u0259niz xeyr\u0259, ev\u0259 getm\u0259k vaxt\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259h\u0259r \u00e7ox i\u015fim var.
\nR\u0259\u015fadgil Eldar\u0131 qap\u0131yacan izl\u0259dil\u0259r. Eldar Fidana t\u0259r\u0259f d\u00f6nd\u00fc.
\n– Vaxt\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 oxuyarsan.
\nFidan g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di – Ba\u015f \u00fcst\u0259.
\nEldar h\u0259r k\u0259sl\u0259 sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259yl\u0259 K\u0259rim s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda oturmu\u015fdular. \u0130\u015ftahs\u0131z yem\u0259k yeyirdil\u0259r.\u0130kisinin d\u0259 kefi yox idi. S\u00fckutu birinci C\u0259mil\u0259 pozdu – \u0130\u015fd\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey yolundad\u0131?
\n– N\u0259ys\u0259 olmal\u0131yd\u0131 ki?
\n– El\u0259-bel\u0259 soru\u015fdum.
\n– S\u0259f\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dar\u0131xm\u0131\u015fam.
\n– M\u0259n d\u0259. Burnumun ucu g\u00f6yn\u0259yir o\u011flum \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.
\nQap\u0131n\u0131n z\u0259ngi \u00e7al\u0131nanda K\u0259rim h\u00f6vlank aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qeyri-ixtiyari “S\u0259f\u0259r ” dedi. C\u0259mil\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canland\u0131. K\u0259rim qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda sevincd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu:
\n – O\u011flum, o\u011flum. Offf, bu n\u0259 d\u0259rddir, ay allah?
\n S\u0259f\u0259r atas\u0131ni qucaqlad\u0131. Susurdu, dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapm\u0131rd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131. S\u0259f\u0259r anas\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011fr\u0131na basd\u0131.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – Qurban olum q\u0259d\u0259ml\u0259rin\u0259, o\u011flum. \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 yetir\u0259n\u0259, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. K\u0259rimin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. O\u011flunu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259f \u00e7evirdi. – El\u0259 bil ar\u0131qlam\u0131san. S\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yirdi. Atas\u0131n\u0131n haql\u0131 oldu\u011funu bilirdi. <\/p>\n

Fidan\u0131n he\u00e7 c\u00fcr yata bilmirdi. P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Bir anl\u0131q ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131nda S\u0259f\u0259r dayan\u0131b. G\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni a\u00e7d\u0131. He\u00e7 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259di. M\u0259yus olmu\u015fdu, p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259ni ba\u011flad\u0131. Yaz\u0131 stolunun arxas\u0131na ke\u00e7ib d\u0259ft\u0259rin birinci s\u0259hif\u0259sini a\u00e7d\u0131, ba\u015fl\u0131qda \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 abzasa ” Sevginin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri ” yazd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Ard\u0131 var…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

R\u0259sad Fidanla T\u0259hmin\u0259ni ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdi. Fidan qap\u0131dan ev\u0259 gir\u0259n kimi yataq ota\u011f\u0131na ke\u00e7di, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yata\u011fa atd\u0131, d\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259fild\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yast\u0131\u011fa s\u0131x\u0131b h\u00f6nk\u00fcr-h\u00f6nk\u00fcr a\u011flad\u0131. T\u0259hmin\u0259 ota\u011fa girdi, \u0259liyl\u0259 Fidan\u0131n \u00e7iynin\u0259 toxundu: – Fidan, n\u0259 olub? Fidan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 T\u0259hmin\u0259nin sa\u011f \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoyub u\u015faq kimi a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Ota\u011fa R\u0259\u015fad girdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259 Fidan\u0131 sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 – […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15627","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15627","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15627"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15627\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15633,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15627\/revisions\/15633"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15627"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15627"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15627"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}