{"id":15764,"date":"2015-11-02T20:00:21","date_gmt":"2015-11-02T16:00:21","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15764"},"modified":"2015-11-02T21:05:29","modified_gmt":"2015-11-02T17:05:29","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-sonsuz-ehtiramla","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15764","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”Sonsuz ehtiramla…”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 d\u0259 “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u0259m… El\u0259 bilirsiniz ki, bu “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u00fcn izah\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m? Yox! Bel\u0259 asanm\u0131 olur h\u0259r \u015fey? Asan? H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sonsuzluq i\u015far\u0259sini m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m bilmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun da bir s\u00f6z\u0259 s\u0131\u011far izah\u0131, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, boyu-buxunu yoxdur. G\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259n, \u0259ll\u0259 tutulmayand\u0131r m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mlik… Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda idrak\u0131n\u0131n bel\u0259 aciz qalmas\u0131d\u0131r. Sonsuzluq – sonu g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u0259y\u0259n, bilinm\u0259y\u0259n, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259n… Sonsuzluq – b\u0259z\u0259n hissl\u0259rimizin d\u0259runiliyini, h\u0259qiqiliyini, bitm\u0259zliyini \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn dilimiz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n t\u0259k k\u0259lm\u0259… V\u0259 o g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015fey el\u0259 “bu c\u00fcr” idi. \u0130ndi is\u0259 “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”. H\u0259min g\u00fcn V\u0259fa M\u00fcrs\u0259lq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n “Sonsuz son” adl\u0131 \u015feirini oxumu\u015fdum.
\nO g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn “son”lar\u0131 sevdim. Filml\u0259r\u0259 ancaq “the end” yaz\u0131ls\u0131n dey\u0259 baxd\u0131m. “Ard\u0131 var…” k\u0259lm\u0259sini \u00fcmidl\u0259 eyni tutmad\u0131m. Na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131n sonunu da ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi eyni h\u0259y\u0259canla g\u00f6zl\u0259dim. T\u0259ki, o son g\u0259lsin. T\u0259ki, g\u00f6yd\u0259n \u00fc\u00e7 alma d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn insanlar\u0131n b\u0259xtin\u0259. M\u0259n dadmasam da. Seyr\u00e7isi olub sevinm\u0259k d\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259ldi. V\u0259fa M\u00fcrs\u0259lq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n “Sonsuz son”u bir qad\u0131n c\u0259sar\u0259tiyl\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259md\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131b. B\u0259li, ayr\u0131l\u0131b! Siz el\u0259 bilirsiniz, t\u0259kc\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259r ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7ir? T\u0259kc\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259r t\u0259rk edir? T\u0259kc\u0259 ki\u015fil\u0259r arada nazilmi\u015f ba\u011f\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kib qopar\u0131r? Nahaq bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u00fcn\u00fcz… Qad\u0131nlar qap\u0131lar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b getdikl\u0259ri kimi h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 bir ki\u015fi yumru\u011funu stola \u00e7\u0131rpmay\u0131b. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259l\u0259 he\u00e7 bir ki\u015fi “sonsuzlu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259” t\u0259rk edilm\u0259yib…<\/p>\n

Bir qad\u0131n a\u011flay\u0131b s\u0131z\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131,
\nBir gizli k\u0259d\u0259ri da\u015f\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131 o.
\nVitrinin \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 durub sakitc\u0259,
\nAna s\u0259ad\u0259ti ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131 o.
\nYa\u015fad\u0131 q\u0259lbind\u0259 d\u0259rd \u0259k\u0259-\u0259k\u0259,
\nBir sonu yoxmu ki, sonsuzlu\u011funun?
\nBir u\u015faq papa\u011f\u0131, bir c\u00fct d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259,
\nD\u00fcnyada \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzusu onun…<\/p>\n

U\u015faq papaqlar\u0131 da c\u00fcrb\u0259c\u00fcr olur: qaytanl\u0131, f\u0259s, l\u0259\u00e7\u0259k, bo\u011fmal\u0131… \u00d6l\u00e7\u00fcl\u0259ri d\u0259 f\u0259rqlidi: ovuc boyda, fincan boyda, top boyda, bo\u015fqab boyda… \u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun u\u015faq papa\u011f\u0131 almayan qad\u0131n indi arzu “box\u00e7a”s\u0131na hans\u0131 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcd\u0259 papa\u011f\u0131 qoysun? U\u015faq var, ayda bir d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259 ayaqqab\u0131 al\u0131n\u0131r. Ax\u0131, g\u00fcnb\u0259g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr. Sonsuz qad\u0131n\u0131n arzular\u0131nda is\u0259 c\u0259mi bir c\u00fct \u00e7\u0259km\u0259 var. V\u0259 \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilmir… R\u0259ngi is\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn vitrind\u0259kil\u0259rl\u0259 birg\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fir, ya mavi olur, ya da \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131… Bu g\u00fcn “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u0259m… G\u00f6zl\u0259rimi g\u00fczg\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259n gizl\u0259dir\u0259m. Adamlar uzaqla\u015f\u0131b. \u00dcr\u0259yim u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131b ey, u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131b… “Sonsuz son”un titrl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7ox var, dey\u0259s\u0259n… H\u0259l\u0259 var…<\/p>\n

Utan\u0131r arada b\u0259db\u0259xtliyind\u0259n,
\nTaleyin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu ac\u0131 sondan.
\nQorxur ki, sonsuzum g\u00f6z\u00fc var dey\u0259,
\nAnalar u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n gizl\u0259d\u0259 ondan.
\nN\u0259 olsun, qay\u0131tm\u0131r \u0259ri \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 cavand\u0131r, ba\u011flan\u0131b ona.
\nAmma hiss edir ki, h\u0259s\u0259dl\u0259 bax\u0131r,
\nArada qon\u015funun u\u015faqlar\u0131na.<\/p>\n

Qon\u015funun var\u0131na pax\u0131ll\u0131q olar, in\u0259yin\u0259, buzovuna, yanmayan ot tayas\u0131na h\u0259s\u0259d apara bil\u0259rs\u0259n. B\u0259s, u\u015faq? Yenic\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f bir h\u0259yata, Allah\u0131n m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rib yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 “ad\u0259m”\u0259 pax\u0131ll\u0131q, h\u0259s\u0259d olarm\u0131 ki?! B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 olar. Amma bu pax\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131n, bu h\u0259s\u0259din arxas\u0131nda he\u00e7 vaxt “Niy\u0259 onun var, m\u0259nim yoxdur?”- \u00fcsyan\u0131 gizl\u0259nm\u0259z. “Ka\u015f, el\u0259 bundanca m\u0259nim d\u0259 olayd\u0131…”-dey\u0259rl\u0259r. Bel\u0259 dil\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r, bel\u0259. Bu c\u00fcr. Bilirs\u0259n, V\u0259fa, s\u0259nin yalan\u00e7\u0131 olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 el\u0259 ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki… Amma deyils\u0259n. El\u0259 ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, “Sonsuz son” yalan olsun. Hardasa, o “sonsuzluq” deyil\u0259n n\u0259dirs\u0259, onun sonu g\u0259lsin. O da g\u00f6rs\u00fcn ki, insan o\u011flunun sevgisi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda nec\u0259 acizdir. H\u0259l\u0259 ki, insan o\u011flu “sonsuzluq” i\u015far\u0259sinin m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mliyi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda boynunu b\u00fck\u00fcr. Bir d\u0259 bunu deyim, V\u0259fa!<\/p>\n

Sevdiyin ham\u0131dan bet\u0259r \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcr,
\nQatilin ham\u0131dan g\u00f6z\u0259l a\u011flay\u0131r<\/p>\n

– demis\u0259n ha! Ha\u015fa, bir d\u0259 bunu dem\u0259! Bu boyda h\u0259qiq\u0259ti dil\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259! Qorxuram ax\u0131… Sevm\u0259kd\u0259n d\u0259, m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131ndan da qorxuram. Bu g\u00fcn “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u0259m. \u0130ndi bu “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259c\u0259 \u0259sir-yesir olub bunlar\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. <\/p>\n

G\u0259nc\u0259<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc Yen\u0259 d\u0259 “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u0259m… El\u0259 bilirsiniz ki, bu “bir ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr”\u00fcn izah\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m? Yox! Bel\u0259 asanm\u0131 olur h\u0259r \u015fey? Asan? H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sonsuzluq i\u015far\u0259sini m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m bilmi\u015f\u0259m. \u00c7\u00fcnki onun da bir s\u00f6z\u0259 s\u0131\u011far izah\u0131, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, boyu-buxunu yoxdur. G\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259n, \u0259ll\u0259 tutulmayand\u0131r m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mlik… […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-15764","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15764","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=15764"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15764\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":15767,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/15764\/revisions\/15767"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=15764"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=15764"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=15764"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}