{"id":15863,"date":"2015-11-07T08:00:56","date_gmt":"2015-11-07T04:00:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15863"},"modified":"2015-11-07T09:41:19","modified_gmt":"2015-11-07T05:41:19","slug":"s%c9%99faq%c9%99t-cavansirli-satilmislar-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=15863","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259faq\u0259t CAVAN\u015e\u0130RL\u0130.”Sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015flar” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u015e\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 yenic\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259m qoymu\u015f q\u0131\u015f\u0131n soyu\u011fundan qorxmurdu. i\u00e7ind\u0259 odun dolu balaca k\u00f6hn\u0259 soba olan bir otaql\u0131 m\u0259nzild\u0259 iki azya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015fa\u011f\u0131yla; q\u0131z\u0131 v\u0259 o\u011fluyla bir il \u0259vv\u0259l tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar. Qonaq kimi, \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu sakin kimi ya\u015fayacaqlar\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259lum deyil… \u00d6vladlar\u0131 yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015fam\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131, sobaya yax\u0131n masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki d\u0259ft\u0259r q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 yax\u0131n qoydu. Soba yaln\u0131z ota\u011f\u0131 isidirdi, \u015fam is\u0259 rahat yazma\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015f\u0131q salacaqd\u0131. Masan\u0131 lap qaba\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kib \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi. Hardan, nec\u0259 ba\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilmir, qaranl\u0131qda yatm\u0131\u015f balalar\u0131na k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 baxma\u011f\u0131ndan m\u0259lum olurdu ki, yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 onlara aid olacaqd\u0131. D\u0259ft\u0259ri a\u00e7d\u0131, d\u0259rind\u0259n ah \u00e7\u0259kdi. Q\u0259l\u0259m \u0259lind\u0259 \u0259sirdi, h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131yd\u0131. \u00c7ox fikirl\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259n sonra yazma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n

\u201c \u00d6vladlar\u0131m, siz\u0259 bax\u0131ram \u00fcr\u0259yim qan a\u011fl\u0131y\u0131r. Bilmir\u0259m n\u0259yin d\u0259rdini \u00e7\u0259kim. Atan\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259ni at\u0131b getm\u0259yind\u0259nmi,yoxsa sizi atas\u0131z qoyma\u011f\u0131nanm\u0131 yaz\u0131m? B\u0259li, atan\u0131z m\u0259ni aldad\u0131b. M\u0259\u015fuq\u0259si olan varl\u0131 bir qad\u0131nla ya\u015fay\u0131r. Onu ham\u0131m\u0131zdan \u00fcst\u00fcn tutub. Bug\u00fcn gedib onu tapm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z kimi g\u0259r\u0259k bug\u00fcn yan\u0131m\u0131zda olayd\u0131. Amma o qad\u0131n baxa-baxa m\u0259ni qap\u0131dan qovdu. A\u011flaya \u2013 a\u011flaya qovdu. Bilmir\u0259m bunlar\u0131 siz\u0259 niy\u0259 yaz\u0131ram. Eh, h\u0259yat \u00e7ox \u00e7\u0259tindir, balalar\u0131m. \u00c7oxlu insanlar\u0131 olan bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k ham\u0131 bir-birin\u0259 h\u0259yan olsun. Bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r atan\u0131zla bizi ay\u0131rd\u0131. Atan\u0131z indi geyimi kimi \u00e7ox d\u0259yi\u015fib. \u018fslind\u0259 atan\u0131z\u0131n g\u00fcnah\u0131 yoxdur. \u0130mkans\u0131zl\u0131q atan\u0131z\u0131 itirm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259ni m\u0259cbur etdi. Eh, fikirl\u0259rim da\u011f\u0131n\u0131qd\u0131r balalar\u0131m. Son g\u00fcnl\u0259r yaman tez-tez atan\u0131z yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. <\/p>\n

Bilirsiz, orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 oxuyanda m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259nin biz\u0259 verdiyi ev tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 indi-indi qan\u0131ram ki, n\u0259 dem\u0259kdir? U\u015faq a\u011fl\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259 cavab yazmal\u0131yd\u0131q. H\u0259yat n\u0259dir? M\u0259n m\u0259kt\u0259bi be\u015finci sinif\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r oxumu\u015fam, q\u0131z\u0131m. Do\u011fuldu\u011fum k\u0259ndd\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n \u00e7oxunu atalar\u0131 ya m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 qoymaz, ya da ki, m\u0259nim kimi alayar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q oxudard\u0131lar. Bir az b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fck, o\u011flanlar\u0131n da fikri-zikri bizd\u0259 oldu, i\u015fimiz tamamd\u0131. M\u00fctl\u0259q \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259liydik, toyumuz olmal\u0131yd\u0131. Atan\u0131z is\u0259 k\u0259ndin \u0259n yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131yd\u0131. Q\u0131zlar\u0131n \u00e7oxu atan\u0131za vurulmu\u015fdu. B\u0259zi g\u0259linl\u0259r d\u0259 \u0259rl\u0259rini aldatma\u011fa d\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n raz\u0131 idil\u0259r. Amma atan\u0131z Allahdan qorxan ki\u015fi idi, ya da m\u0259n el\u0259 bilmi\u015f\u0259m…
\nD\u0259rd bu deyil, d\u0259rd g\u00f6zl\u0259rimizi a\u00e7anda h\u0259r \u015feyi gerid\u0259 qoyma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259k idi.<\/p>\n

M\u0259cbur k\u0259ndimizd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u0259limizi \u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck. \u00d6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qa\u00e7a-qa\u00e7a \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc arzulay\u0131rd\u0131q. Yad\u0131mnan he\u00e7 \u00e7\u0131xmaz ,o\u011flum, qatarda g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u00e7ox qorxmu\u015fdun. Atan\u0131-\u0259rimi \u0259limd\u0259n alan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131m d\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi qorxmu\u015fdum, g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi s\u0259nin kimi b\u0259r\u0259ltmi\u015fdim. He\u00e7 birimizin ya\u015fama\u011fa h\u0259v\u0259simiz qalmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259d\u0259n ,he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmam\u0131\u015f kimi ba\u015flamaq, zamanla yaddan \u00e7\u0131xartmaq, n\u0259t\u0259r deyim bilmir\u0259m, adama toxunur…\u201d
\nQad\u0131n yenid\u0259n u\u015faqlar\u0131na n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. Bac\u0131-qarda\u015f yor\u011fanlar\u0131ndan b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, sanki \u00f6zl\u0259rini yor\u011fanlar\u0131n\u0131n alt\u0131nda gizl\u0259tm\u0259k ist\u0259yirl\u0259rmi\u015f kimi…
\nQad\u0131n t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndi; -\u201c n\u0259t\u0259r y\u0259ni? Soba onlar\u0131 isidmir?\u201d \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 deyinm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, \u015f\u0259h\u0259rin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qonaq d\u0259v\u0259t etdiyi q\u0131\u015f\u0131n soyu\u011fu sobaya da \u00f6z t\u0259sirini g\u00f6st\u0259rib – ondan ba\u015fqa.
\nZaman\u0131n hans\u0131sa bir m\u0259qam\u0131nda vicdan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda bizi m\u0259hkum kimi \u00e7\u0131xardan s\u0259hvimiz v\u0259 ya s\u0259hvl\u0259rimiz olanda i\u00e7imizd\u0259n el\u0259 al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131q ki, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 \u015faxta, boran \u00f6z a\u011fu\u015funa alsa, biz\u0259 t\u0259sir ed\u0259n deyil. Yanan \u00fcr\u0259yimizin istisi b\u00fct\u00fcn istilik cihazlar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z edir. Qad\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259hvini, yoxsa \u0259rinin s\u0259hvini deyim bilmir\u0259m, \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259nd\u0259 ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131cda \u00e7ox q\u0131nad\u0131m. Zamanla is\u0259 q\u0131namad\u0131m. N\u0259 bilim, y\u0259qin, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259yatda \u0259n pis hadis\u0259nin m\u00fcdafi\u0259 edil\u0259si t\u0259r\u0259fi var. N\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 kim m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s deyil!…B\u0259lk\u0259, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 \u00f6z al\u0259mimd\u0259 qad\u0131na v\u0259killik d\u0259 etdim. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m\u0131 siz\u0259 tan\u0131td\u0131rmaq ist\u0259yir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

O, i\u015f\u011fal olunmu\u015f rayonlar\u0131n birinin tan\u0131nmayan k\u0259ndind\u0259, he\u00e7 x\u0259rit\u0259d\u0259 ad\u0131 da yoxdur( x\u0259rit\u0259d\u0259 olub vaxt\u0131ndan tez silin\u0259n o q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259ndl\u0259r var ki…) \u2013 ail\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc q\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131 kimi d\u00fcnyay g\u00f6z a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q oxumu\u015fdu. On yeddi ya\u015f\u0131nda onlar\u0131n diliyl\u0259 des\u0259k d\u0259d\u0259 evind\u0259n \u0259r evin\u0259 g\u0259lin k\u00f6\u00e7m\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. K\u0259ndd\u0259 q\u0131zlar\u0131n tez \u0259r\u0259 getm\u0259si atalar\u0131n f\u0259xridir. \u00d6z s\u00f6z\u00fcd\u00fcr ki, qat-qat \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l birisin\u0259 qism\u0259t olmu\u015fdu. Dediyin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 qon\u015fu k\u0259ndl\u0259rin q\u0131zlar\u0131ndan g\u0259linin\u0259c\u0259n \u0259rin\u0259 e\u015fq m\u0259ktublar\u0131 g\u0259lirmi\u015f. \u018fri he\u00e7 birin\u0259 fikir vermirmi\u015f. Onu se\u00e7ib, onu sevirmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b ke\u00e7\u0259n bir-ne\u00e7\u0259 il\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salanda art\u0131q iki \u00f6vladlar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda o\u011flu, iki ya\u015f\u0131nda q\u0131zlar\u0131. Bir m\u00fcdd\u0259t xo\u015fb\u0259xt ya\u015fad\u0131lar. D\u00fcz deyirmi\u015fl\u0259r,xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik daima olmur. O da insan kimi vaxt\u0131 \u00e7atanda insandan bezir. Ged\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259,u\u011fursuz g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 yerind\u0259ki bo\u015flu\u011fu doldurur. Guya t\u0259rk edil\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verir…
\nBir m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259n sonra g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7anda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn,ail\u0259sinin ,valideynl\u0259rinin ,n\u0259sil-n\u0259cab\u0259tinin ,b\u00fct\u00f6v bir k\u0259ndin v\u0259 daha sonra bizim rayon da i\u00e7ind\u0259 olmaqla kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r rayonlar\u0131n v\u0259 n…q\u0259d\u0259r k\u0259ndl\u0259rin sakinl\u0259ri \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259ydil\u0259r. \u018fyinl\u0259rind\u0259 paltar olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq \u00f6z dill\u0259rind\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rini l\u00fct-\u00fcryan adland\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. H\u0259m onlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n, h\u0259m d\u0259 onlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131layanlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n…<\/p>\n

Sonra yen\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259r yand\u0131, g\u00f6zl\u0259r h\u0259lq\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xacaq q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flad\u0131. Canlar\u0131n\u0131 oralarda tap\u015f\u0131ran n… q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259ri, n…q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259sirl\u0259ri demir\u0259m!…
\n\u201c \u0130lk aylarda h\u0259r birimiz\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lirdi m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti qonaqlar\u0131q v\u0259 h\u0259r birimiz bir yer\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdiril\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r , o yer\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259\u015fib do\u011fmala\u015fana q\u0259d\u0259r el\u0259 bildikl\u0259rimiz biz\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli oldu. V\u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7ox a\u011f\u0131r idi – s\u00fcbh a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f insanlar\u0131n ala-qaranl\u0131qda \u00e7\u00f6r\u0259k n\u00f6vb\u0259sin\u0259 duracaq q\u0259d\u0259r…
\nB\u0259zil\u0259ri ba\u015flar\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259ri qiyam\u0259tin \u0259lam\u0259ti, c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m z\u0259nn edib \u00fcsyan, b\u0259zil\u0259ri d\u0259 sa\u011f-salamat qald\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edirdil\u0259r.
\nAradan iki il ke\u00e7di. H\u0259r k\u0259s yerl\u0259rin\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra yava\u015f-yava\u015f bir-biril\u0259rinin evl\u0259rin\u0259 gedi\u015f-g\u0259li\u015f etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131lar. O da xeyir-\u015f\u0259r g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 qohum-\u0259qraban\u0131 bir yer\u0259 toplamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, yadla\u015f\u0131b itm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… Halbuki h\u0259r k\u0259sin psixologiyas\u0131 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r pozulmu\u015fdu. H\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 s\u0131f\u0131rdan ba\u015flaya bilm\u0259yib daxil\u0259n par\u00e7alanm\u0131\u015f ail\u0259l\u0259r d\u0259 yava\u015f-yava\u015f \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Bunlardan biri d\u0259 otaqda u\u015faqlar\u0131yla t\u0259k qalan q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131m idi. Yen\u0259 n\u0259 is\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, n\u0259 is\u0259 yazmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn…
\nBird\u0259n \u0259lini saxlad\u0131, qeyri-ixtiyar\u0131 h\u0259y\u0259can ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Sobaya \u00f6vladlar\u0131ndan da yax\u0131nd\u0131r,lakin \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss etdi. \u00c7\u00f6ld\u0259 ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131n saxlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n baxmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn aya\u011fa qalxmaq ist\u0259di dayand\u0131. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, h\u0259r \u015fey onun ist\u0259dikl\u0259rinin \u0259ksi ola bil\u0259r; yenid\u0259n m\u0259yus, p\u0259rt olmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131ndan ayaq s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259ninin titr\u0259diyini hiss etdi. Qap\u0131 a\u00e7arla iki d\u0259f\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131landa is\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri doldu, \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u011flad\u0131, el\u0259 bil g\u0259l\u0259n qonaqdan utan\u0131rd\u0131. Bir ki\u015fi ota\u011fa daxil oldu v\u0259 i\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yand\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin q\u0131zarma\u011f\u0131ndan \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ayd\u0131n idi. Yerd\u0259 yatan u\u015faqlara baxa-baxa onlara el\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, t\u0259ki balacalar soyunma\u011f\u0131 unutdu\u011fu ayaqqablar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259sin\u0259 oyanmas\u0131nlar. Dizl\u0259rini yer\u0259 qoydu, h\u0259r\u0259sinin ba\u015f\u0131na ehmalca s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kdi. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi halda qad\u0131n \u0259rinin sakit h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcyl\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. O da a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. Aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131,\u0259riyl\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259rini xat\u0131rlaya-xat\u0131rlaya ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, s\u0259rt qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259sind\u0259n qorxsa da yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Ki\u015fi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b h\u0259r \u015feyini itirmi\u015f adamlar kimi yaz\u0131q bax\u0131\u015flarla baxd\u0131. Sonra a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. A\u011flama\u011fa,qucaqla\u015fma\u011fa h\u0259sr\u0259t adamlar kimi bir-biril\u0259rini qucaqlay\u0131b a\u011fla\u015fd\u0131lar.
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\nM\u0259sk\u0259nin tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ba\u015fqa bir m\u0259sk\u0259nl\u0259 \u0259v\u0259z olunanda \u00f6yr\u0259\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259fill\u0259r kimi hiss edirs\u0259n. Avaralar kimi g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc bir-birinin ard\u0131nca bo\u015f-bekar yola verdiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n. T\u0259dric\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 inam\u0131n it\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259nd\u0259n soyuma\u011f\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nirs\u0259n. Baxmayaraq ki, s\u0259n onlar\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 ist\u0259mis\u0259n. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fini,g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini dan\u0131\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259n yax\u0131n insan\u0131 axtar\u0131rsan. G\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 nec\u0259 olmaq ist\u0259diyini, ke\u00e7mi\u015fd\u0259 kiml\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 kiml\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda n\u0259l\u0259r,n\u0259l\u0259r etdiyini , nec\u0259 pis v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 izah etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn…Qar\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131n\u0131 yorana q\u0259d\u0259r… s\u0259ni s\u0259brl\u0259 dinl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 is\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131n ona z\u00f6vq verdiyini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. Onlara unuda bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259ri, \u00f6m\u00fcr boyu xat\u0131rladacaq \u201cs\u0259nin\u201d h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 arzusunda olmusan. Bel\u0259likl\u0259,\u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n qurban rolunu oynay\u0131rsan. H\u0259qiq\u0259td\u0259 is\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259s \u00f6z i\u015fini g\u00f6r\u00fcr. K\u00f6hn\u0259 \u00e7arpay\u0131da yan-yana uzanm\u0131\u015f, \u0259slind\u0259 bir-biril\u0259rin\u0259 yadla\u015fan \u0259r-arvad kimi… \u0130kisi d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qar\u015f\u0131lar\u0131ndak\u0131 l\u00fct divara zill\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Qad\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. \u0259ri ona baxmasa da g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f kimiydi. Ikisi d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi, insan kimi isti s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 ikisinin d\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 vard\u0131. Lakin \u00e7\u0131x\u0131lmaz v\u0259ziyy\u0259t onlarda n\u0259 h\u0259v\u0259s qoymu\u015fdu, n\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcc… Qad\u0131n yerind\u0259n qalx\u0131b oturdu. Yolda\u015f\u0131 e\u015fitsin dey\u0259 \u201coff\u201d etdi. Susmaqdan yorulan \u0259r d\u0259 onun kimi \u00e7arpay\u0131da oturdu. Susmaqla he\u00e7 n\u0259yin h\u0259ll olunmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 o da d\u0259rk edirdi. S\u00fckutu \u00f6z\u00fc pozmal\u0131 oldu:
\n– H\u0259r \u015fey balalar\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259dir.
\nQad\u0131n yerl\u0259rini sobaya yax\u0131n sald\u0131\u011f\u0131 d\u00f6\u015f\u0259kc\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 yor\u011fana b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk b\u00fcr\u00fcn\u0259n onlardan f\u0259rqli olaraq rahat yatan \u00f6vladlar\u0131na baxd\u0131. M\u0259yus g\u00f6rk\u0259mind\u0259n \u0259rinin dedikl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259diyi m\u0259lum idi;
\n– H\u0259r \u015fey balalar\u0131m\u0131za g\u00f6r\u0259dir.
\n– S\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn birinci ist\u0259din.
\n– Bird\u0259n qay\u0131tmad\u0131n?
\n– M\u0259n u\u015faqlara g\u00f6r\u0259 edir\u0259m h\u0259r \u015feyi. Vaxt\u0131 \u00e7atanda qay\u0131dacam.
\nQad\u0131n bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259rini bird\u0259f\u0259lik itirm\u0259k qorxusunun h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 ke\u00e7irdi. \u00dcz\u00fc d\u0259 qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, qaranl\u0131q olsa da \u0259ri onun simas\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fqa g\u00f6zl\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qad\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n s\u0259sini ba\u015f\u0131na atmaq ,\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rmaq, qon\u015fular\u0131n\u0131 da yuxudan d\u0259li kimi oyatmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rmaq ke\u00e7di. Susdu, burda da \u00f6vladlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn susdu. Onlar\u0131 \u015firin yuxudan oyatmaq olmazd\u0131. Yor\u011fan\u0131 bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n di\u015fl\u0259riyl\u0259, bir t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 \u0259ll\u0259riyl\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b sakit h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131rt\u0131larla a\u011flamaqla guya \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc sakitl\u0259\u015fdirirdi. Ki\u015finin d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. Arvad\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259di, p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lt\u0131yla qula\u011f\u0131na;
\n– Daha gecdir. \u00d6z\u00fcn o qad\u0131nla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131n. \u00d6z\u00fcn m\u0259ni bu i\u015f\u0259 vadar etdin. U\u015faqlar\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f..<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n iki di\u015fi aras\u0131nda s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yor\u011fandan da \u0259lini \u00fczd\u00fc, sakit \u00fcsyan\u0131na son qoydu. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b \u0259rinin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 baxanda ona el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, u\u011fursuz g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini g\u00f6r\u00fcr, \u0259rinin ged\u0259c\u0259yi yollar\u0131 qay\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ba\u011fland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr:
\n– Qay\u0131dan deyils\u0259n. O qad\u0131n s\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 qaytaran deyil. Bilir\u0259m qay\u0131dan deyils\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Qad\u0131n bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri t\u0259krarlad\u0131qca \u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131,s\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mirdi. Ki\u015fi is\u0259 birc\u0259 \u015feyi d\u0259rk etmi\u015fdi; – qad\u0131nlar onun \u0259traf\u0131nda p\u0259rvan\u0259 olsalar da o onlar\u0131n he\u00e7 birini tan\u0131ya bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi v\u0259 yaln\u0131z hadis\u0259l\u0259rin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda aciz qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara arvad\u0131yla birg\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00f6z\u00fcrd\u00fc. Onlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b vard\u0131- \u00f6vladlar. \u00d6vladlar is\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 ola bilm\u0259zdi.
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\nS\u0259h\u0259r a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131. Balacalar is\u0259 yuxudan doymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. He\u00e7 onlar\u0131n oyanma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 valideyinl\u0259ri d\u0259 ist\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Ana evd\u0259 yoxuydu. Ata birinci o\u011fluna baxandan sonra onun ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fc. Sonra q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n iki h\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f sa\u00e7\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259kib \u0259lind\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc. Ev adland\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 idar\u0259nin ota\u011f\u0131na da son d\u0259f\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salandan sonra qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r add\u0131mlarla h\u0259v\u0259ssiz d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Sevm\u0259dikl\u0259ri qona\u011f\u0131n- yad qad\u0131n\u0131n arvad\u0131n\u0131n ovcuna pul s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131,arvad\u0131n\u0131n is\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc onlar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f kimi apard\u0131. Ma\u015f\u0131na minm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ikisinin d\u0259 yan\u0131ndan saymazyana ke\u00e7di. Bunu g\u00f6r\u0259n yad qad\u0131n arvad\u0131yla yanaq-yana\u011fa g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ,\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fckafat\u0131n qalibi kimi ba\u015f\u0131dik o da ma\u015f\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f add\u0131mlad\u0131, ki\u015finin yan\u0131nda – arxa oturacaqda oyunu udan qalibl\u0259r kimi \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi…
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\n\u0259r-arvad\u0131n qucaqla\u015fma\u011f\u0131 uzun \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Ikisi d\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda kimins\u0259 oldu\u011funu hiss edib arala\u015fd\u0131lar. Aralar\u0131nda m\u0259saf\u0259 yaratd\u0131lar. Qad\u0131n qap\u0131dan ota\u011fa ke\u00e7m\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 r\u0259va bilm\u0259y\u0259n, bahal\u0131 k\u00fcrkl\u0259 q\u0131\u015f\u0131n soyu\u011fundan isin\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131- \u0259rini ondan, \u00f6vladlar\u0131ndan qoparan o yad qad\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Ki\u015fi d\u0259 qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f baxd\u0131. Yad qad\u0131n q\u0259z\u0259bli g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 ona getm\u0259k vaxt\u0131 oldu\u011funu s\u00f6yl\u0259yirdi. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc s\u0259hn\u0259 onu sonradan ki\u015fini sor\u011fu-suala \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0131sqand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Ki\u015fi cibind\u0259n pullar \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131. \u00d6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 bax\u0131rm\u0131\u015f kimi baxd\u0131 v\u0259 ovcuna s\u0131xd\u0131. Sonra sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 \u0259yilib yenid\u0259n \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 qoxlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 qad\u0131na baxmadan qap\u0131n\u0131n a\u011fz\u0131nda onu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n qad\u0131na t\u0259r\u0259f getdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6rt\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259ri yenid\u0259n ya\u015fard\u0131. \u00d6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131nda qalan qad\u0131n is\u0259 h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra-h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131ra masaya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131, hirsini u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259qd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. V\u0259r\u0259qi \u0259zib hikk\u0259yl\u0259 soban\u0131n i\u00e7in\u0259 tullad\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n\u0131n vaxts\u0131z oyanma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 vecin\u0259 d\u0259 almad\u0131. Bacard\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcyl\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n satd\u0131\u011f\u0131,itirdiyi ki\u015fi onu \u00e7ox yand\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. ikisi d\u0259 sat\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bir s\u0259b\u0259b vard\u0131- \u00f6vladlar\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 torpa\u011f\u0131n alt\u0131nacan susma\u011fa m\u0259hkumdular… \u00d6vladlar is\u0259 b\u0259han\u0259 ola bilm\u0259zdi!…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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