{"id":16359,"date":"2015-12-08T20:00:50","date_gmt":"2015-12-08T16:00:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16359"},"modified":"2015-12-08T20:22:21","modified_gmt":"2015-12-08T16:22:21","slug":"gunel-%c9%99liyeva-m%c9%99ktubdaki-xosb%c9%99xtlik","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16359","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fcnel \u018fL\u0130YEVA.”M\u0259ktubdak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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D\u0259niz ,g\u0259l bu g\u00fcn ged\u0259k, doyunca g\u0259z\u0259k. Ya\u011fmur ,s\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n ki, bu g\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rim \u00e7oxdur .
\nBilir\u0259m, m\u0259nim d\u0259 i\u015fim var. Amma i\u015fl\u0259rimizi bir g\u00fcn t\u0259xir\u0259 salaq .H\u0259yat\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimizin dad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xaraq. Yox, olmaz ,ba\u015fqa vaxt ged\u0259rik. Eyy D\u0259niz ,ba\u015fqa vaxt, ba\u015fqa vaxt. S\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259s\u0259n ,s\u0259nin i\u015fl\u0259rin bit\u0259nd\u0259 biz iki qoca insan olacay\u0131q .Onda da n\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131z tutacaq, n\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rimiz aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n alt\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259c\u0259k .H\u0259l\u0259 \u0259s\u0259n, titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rimizi demir\u0259m .
\nEhh ,onda m\u0259ni sevdiyini des\u0259n d\u0259 qula\u011f\u0131m e\u015fitm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k ki .
\nYax\u015f\u0131, yax\u015f\u0131 az deyin ,haz\u0131rla\u015f gedirik ,ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131n b\u0259las\u0131.
\nBilirdim, bilirdim m\u0259n.
\nN\u0259yi bilirdin?
\nM\u0259n\u0259\u2019\u2019 yox \u2018\u2019dey\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini.
\nC\u0259sar\u0259t \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc oda atmaq deyil ki, c\u0259sar\u0259t odda yanan \u00e7ar\u0259sizi \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259sind\u0259n xilas etm\u0259kdir .
\nYa\u011fmurun c\u0259sar\u0259tliliyi d\u0259 el\u0259 bunda idi ,o \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n yand\u0131\u011f\u0131 oda atark\u0259n yanard\u0131 .
\nV\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yand\u0131ran q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar ba\u015fqalar\u0131n\u0131n i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131, \u00e7\u0131ra\u011f\u0131 olard\u0131 .
\n\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fard\u0131, bir m\u0259ktubda ,sad\u0259c\u0259 bir m\u0259ktubda olsa bel\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt olma\u011f\u0131 bacarard\u0131.
\n\u0130lahi ,\u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m .Bu g\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131m\u0131n \u0259n unudulmaz g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr . N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki yan\u0131mdasan .Art\u0131q bahar\u0131n f\u00fcsunkar m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rini s\u0259ninl\u0259 birlikd\u0259 duyub, seyr ed\u0259c\u0259yik .Xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n damlalar\u0131 alt\u0131nda s\u0259ninl\u0259 birg\u0259 islanmaq n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l hissdir ,sevdiyim !Uzun ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan sonra s\u0259n\u0259 qovu\u015fmaq ,h\u0259sr\u0259tin sonundak\u0131 v\u00fcsala\u2019\u2019 xo\u015f g\u0259ldin\u2019\u2019 dem\u0259k Tanr\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259diyy\u0259sidir des\u0259m ?
\nB\u0259z\u0259ns\u0259 sussam ,q\u0259lbiml\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fsam? Amma b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00fcnyaya b\u0259yan etm\u0259k ke\u00e7ir k\u00f6nl\u00fcmd\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 olan sonsuz, t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259z e\u015fqimin sevinc s\u0259sl\u0259rini .
\nYa\u011fmur, vaxtd\u0131r gecikirs\u0259n i\u015f\u0259. N\u0259 yaz\u0131rsan bel\u0259 ?
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m, n\u0259hay\u0259t ki ,\u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fcl\u00fcr .G\u00fcnl\u0259rdir a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131n .N\u0259 oldu bird\u0259n bel\u0259 ?N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r c\u0259hd ets\u0259m d\u0259 s\u0259nin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcld\u00fcr\u0259 bilmirdim .N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki ,yenid\u0259n t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcs\u00fcm qonub yanaqlar\u0131na. S\u0259b\u0259bi n\u0259dir bunun ,q\u0131z\u0131m ?
\nBilirs\u0259n ,ana ,deyirl\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik insan\u0131n \u00f6z \u0259lind\u0259dir .
\nSad\u0259c\u0259 ovcundak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi m\u00f6hk\u0259m saxlamal\u0131san ki yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin, ayaqlar alt\u0131nda \u0259zilm\u0259sin .M\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ya\u015fatmaq ist\u0259dim. M\u0259n bu an xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m. D\u0259nizin gedi\u015find\u0259n sonra b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc a\u011flad\u0131m ,s\u0131zlad\u0131m .D\u00fcnyalar q\u0259d\u0259r sevdiyim birini itirdim ,gec d\u0259 olsa f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131m .G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m onu geri qaytarmayacaq. Amma m\u0259n onu unutmaq ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Qoy ya\u015fas\u0131n xatir\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259.
\nH\u0259yata nec\u0259 baxarsansa bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u0259rs\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131. M\u0259n d\u0259 bundan sonra qaranl\u0131qdak\u0131 i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015facam. Onu geri qaytarmaq m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil art\u0131q .M\u0259n onunla son m\u0259ktubumda vidala\u015facam. Yox ,yox ona qovu\u015facam .
\nAnacan, bax budur xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimin s\u0259b\u0259bi .Sad\u0259c\u0259 bir m\u0259ktub .Bu m\u0259ktubda olsa bel\u0259 ona olan sevgimi izhar ed\u0259c\u0259m .\u00dcr\u0259yimd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l ,\u0259n saf s\u00f6zl\u0259rimi ,s\u0259ad\u0259t dolu arzular\u0131m\u0131 yazacam bu m\u0259ktuba. Sad\u0259c\u0259 m\u0259ktubdak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nacam ,onunla t\u0259s\u0259lli tapaca\u011fam.
\nYa\u011fmurun bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri anas\u0131 Sevil xan\u0131m\u0131 k\u00f6vr\u0259ltm\u0259y\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi .
\nQ\u0131z\u0131m, haql\u0131san, olmad\u0131 dey\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259nm\u0259 ,o zaman \u00fcsyan etmi\u015f olarsan Allah\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131na .
\nYalan\u00e7\u0131 \u00fcmidl\u0259rd\u0259ns\u0259 ki\u00e7ik t\u0259s\u0259lli yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.
\nEl\u0259ys\u0259 s\u0259ni m\u0259ktubdak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyinl\u0259 ba\u015f- ba\u015fa burax\u0131ram .
\nBilirs\u0259nmi ,\u0259zizim, s\u0259ni itir\u0259nd\u0259 yoxlu\u011funla bar\u0131\u015fma\u011fa al\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131n qorxusu v\u0259 \u0259zab\u0131 vard\u0131 i\u00e7imd\u0259 .N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck d\u0259rd imi\u015f insan\u0131n sevdiyi birini itirm\u0259si. S\u0259ni itir\u0259nd\u0259 anlad\u0131m .
\nBax, indi \u00e7ox xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m. Daha g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, pu\u00e7 olan \u00fcmidl\u0259rimi gerid\u0259 qoydum .Z\u00fclm\u0259ti ist\u0259mir\u0259m. Dar\u0131x\u0131ram s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn .
\nYox, daha a\u011flamayaca\u011fam .Ax\u0131 s\u0259n yan\u0131mdasan. X\u0259yal\u0259n olsa bel\u0259 varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u015f\u00fckr edir\u0259m .Varl\u0131\u011f\u0131nla ya\u015fay\u0131ram, n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131ram .M\u0259n s\u0259ni sevmir\u0259m, m\u0259nim e\u015fqim daha b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr ,\u0259zizim !M\u0259n s\u0259nin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131- n\u0259f\u0259sini ,bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131, m\u0259n s\u0259ni h\u0259sr\u0259tini bel\u0259 sevir\u0259m .S\u0259n\u0259 aid oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn .
\nBilir\u0259m, m\u0259nim deyils\u0259n, amma bu m\u0259ktubdak\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyim h\u0259r zaman t\u0259s\u0259llim olacaq.
\nD\u0259nizin oldu\u011fu xatir\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 dalmaq g\u00f6z\u0259l idi .
\nBa\u015fqa \u00f6lk\u0259d\u0259, ba\u015fqa \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259, amma yen\u0259 birlikd\u0259, x\u0259yal\u0259n olsa bel\u0259 onunla birlikd\u0259 olmaq \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l hissidir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n .<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

D\u0259niz ,g\u0259l bu g\u00fcn ged\u0259k, doyunca g\u0259z\u0259k. Ya\u011fmur ,s\u0259n bilmirs\u0259n ki, bu g\u00fcn i\u015fl\u0259rim \u00e7oxdur . Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259nim d\u0259 i\u015fim var. Amma i\u015fl\u0259rimizi bir g\u00fcn t\u0259xir\u0259 salaq .H\u0259yat\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimizin dad\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xaraq. Yox, olmaz ,ba\u015fqa vaxt ged\u0259rik. Eyy D\u0259niz ,ba\u015fqa vaxt, ba\u015fqa vaxt. S\u0259n h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259s\u0259n ,s\u0259nin i\u015fl\u0259rin bit\u0259nd\u0259 biz iki qoca insan olacay\u0131q .Onda da […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16359","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16359","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16359"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16359\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16362,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16359\/revisions\/16362"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16359"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16359"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16359"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}