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Fidan he\u00e7 c\u00fcr Eldar\u0131n onu bo\u015famaq ist\u0259yini q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Kag\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 olsa \u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona inans\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Fidan – H\u0259yatda inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m yegan\u0259 insansan. S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259m yoxdur. Qan verdim d\u00fczd\u00fcr, amma anam\u0131n q\u0259brin\u0259 and olsun ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\nS\u0259nin ad\u0131na l\u0259k\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Kim deyibs\u0259 aram\u0131z\u0131 vurmaq ist\u0259yib. <\/p>\n

Eldar\u0131n da g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu, Fidana inanmaq ist\u0259yirdi, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259ri hissl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fcc g\u0259lirdi.
\n– M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 n\u0259 etm\u0259mis\u0259n. \u0130kimiz d\u0259 \u00f6z yolumuza gets\u0259k yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Eldar \u0259lini Fidan\u0131n bo\u011faz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259kdi. Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 sevdiyi qad\u0131na diqq\u0259tl\u0259 bax\u0131b evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Fidan qap\u0131ya t\u0259r\u0259f qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\n– Getm\u0259 xahi\u015f edir\u0259m. S\u0259ni itirm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m.
\nEldar yenid\u0259n Fidana t\u0259r\u0259f baxd\u0131.
\n– Vallah Fidan itirm\u0259m\u0259kd\u0259n \u00e7ox itirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131n. S\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015fey el\u0259dim. M\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259 bilm\u0259zdin? Qan verm\u0259y\u0259 icaz\u0259 ver\u0259rdim. Bizi yaradana and olsun, icaz\u0259 ver\u0259rdim. S\u0259f\u0259ri sevdiyini bil\u0259-bil\u0259 evl\u0259nmi\u015fdim.
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bigan\u0259 deyil\u0259m.
\n – Ayr\u0131lsaq yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. Bu o dem\u0259k deyil bir-birimizi g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yik.
\nYen\u0259 dost qalaca\u011f\u0131q. Unutma, Ya\u015fara soyad\u0131m\u0131 vermi\u015f\u0259m. M\u0259nim d\u0259 o\u011flumdu. Gec\u0259n xeyr\u0259. N\u0259 laz\u0131m olsa R\u0259\u015fada dey\u0259rs\u0259n. <\/p>\n

Fidan a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131, Eldarla ayr\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131na he\u00e7 c\u00fcr inana bilmirdi.<\/p>\n

T\u0259hmin\u0259 R\u0259\u015fadla evl\u0259n\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259ri g\u00fcn\u00fcn , ona \u00f6vlad ver\u0259c\u0259yi g\u00fcn\u00fcn x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 qururdu. \u0130nan\u0131rd\u0131 ki, R\u0259\u015fad onun kimi sevir. Lakin a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259zdi ki, bug\u00fcn x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yata ke\u00e7m\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ilk add\u0131md\u0131r…
\nR\u0259\u015fad yem\u0259kl\u0259ri v\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 \u015f\u0259rab sifari\u015f verdi. R\u0259\u015fad T\u0259hmin\u0259ni sahild\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015f\u0259n restoranlar\u0131n birin\u0259 g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259b\u0259ndd\u0259n X\u0259z\u0259ri seyr edirdi. R\u0259\u015fad q\u0259fild\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc barma\u011f\u0131na taxd\u0131. \u00dcz\u00fck sevgilisinin barma\u011f\u0131na bo\u015f oldu\u011fundan, \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. T\u0259hmin\u0259nin sevinciyl\u0259, t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb\u00fc qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 bir-birin\u0259. Dili s\u00f6z tutmurdu ki, bir k\u0259lm\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131n.
\nR\u0259\u015fad g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n– Dey\u0259s\u0259n , dan\u0131\u015fa bilmirs\u0259n?! \u018fslind\u0259, m\u0259n d\u0259 bilir\u0259m, \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc taxma\u011fa gecikmi\u015f\u0259m. G\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7oxdan olayd\u0131. M\u0259n s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda rahatam T\u0259hmin\u0259. S\u0259ninl\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131na ehtiyyac\u0131m olmay\u0131b. Dey\u0259rdim ki, xasiyy\u0259tin superdi. \u00d6m\u00fcr boyu s\u0259ninl\u0259 ya\u015fasam, doymaram.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259 – B\u0259s, anagil evl\u0259nm\u0259yimiz\u0259 raz\u0131 olacaq?
\n– O m\u0259nim problemimdir. Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrs\u0259n, m\u0259ni s\u0259nd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 bir qad\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xt etm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. S\u0259n d\u0259 ananla bar\u0131\u015farsan, laz\u0131m olsa, ananla m\u0259n d\u0259 dan\u0131\u015faram.
\nT\u0259hmin\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu. – Bilmir\u0259m, n\u0259 deyim. B\u0259s, ke\u00e7mi\u015fim s\u0259ni…
\nR\u0259\u015fad T\u0259hmin\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259n tutdu. – Ona qalsa m\u0259nim d\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fim parlaq deyil. Ke\u00e7mi\u015fl\u0259 ya\u015fasaq g\u0259r\u0259k ikimiz d\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131za g\u00fcll\u0259 vuraqda, ya\u015famayaq. N\u0259 is\u0259…Ke\u00e7mi\u015f c\u0259h\u0259nn\u0259m olsun. Bug\u00fcn\u0259 bax s\u0259n. Sual\u0131ma cavab ver. \u00d6m\u00fcr boyu xo\u015fag\u0259lm\u0259z xasiyy\u0259tim\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, ya yox?
\n– Fidanla Eldar evl\u0259n\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259n ikimizi x\u0259yal edir\u0259m. S\u0259nd\u0259n bir \u00f6vlad\u0131m\u0131n olmas\u0131 \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck arzumdur.
\n– Nigah insanlar\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n soyudur deyirl\u0259r. S\u0259ni and verir\u0259m s\u0259ni-m\u0259ni yaradana indiy\u0259c\u0259n nec\u0259 olmu\u015fuqsa, bundan sonra da el\u0259 olaq. S\u0259n\u0259 ki\u015fi kimi s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259m, he\u00e7 vaxt ke\u00e7mi\u015fini \u00fcz\u0259 vurmayacam.<\/p>\n

T\u0259hmin\u0259 a\u011flamaqdan dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z tapm\u0131rd\u0131. R\u0259\u015fad T\u0259hmin\u0259nin iki \u0259lini birl\u0259\u015fdirib \u00f6pd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt onun olmayan \u0259rini qaytara bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini yax\u015f\u0131 bilirdi. Art\u0131q bir m\u0259qs\u0259di vard\u0131: ail\u0259si da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131n. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259yl\u0259 K\u0259rimd\u0259n \u0259vv\u0259l x\u0259st\u0259xanaya g\u0259ldi ki, S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131n, b\u0259zi h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259ri ona dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Yaln\u0131z bu yolla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc C\u0259mil\u0259d\u0259n v\u0259 bo\u015fanmaqdan qoruya bil\u0259rdi.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r yatmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0259zet oxuyurdu. Lamiy\u0259 ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 quru-quru salam verdi. Lamiy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib stolu \u0259rin\u0259 yax\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdi, \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n – Burda q\u0259zet d\u0259 verirl\u0259r?
\n– Otaq yolda\u015f\u0131m\u0131n idi. Bug\u00fcn getdi, q\u0259zeti verdi m\u0259n\u0259. Bizimkil\u0259r hardad\u0131?
\n– M\u0259nim g\u0259lm\u0259yimd\u0259n onlar\u0131n x\u0259b\u0259ri yoxdur. \u00c7\u0131xandan sonra hara ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\n– Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.
\n– Y\u0259ni evimiz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n, ya atangil\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n?
\n– N\u0259yi bilm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\n– N\u0259 bilim…
\nS\u0259f\u0259r Lamiy\u0259nin s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259sdi.
\n – T\u0259k qalma\u011f\u0131m\u0131z yax\u015f\u0131 oldu. Lamiy\u0259, biz bo\u015fansaq yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xt ed\u0259n ki\u015fi deyil\u0259m. Bacarm\u0131ram.
\n – Niy\u0259 ax\u0131? Fidana g\u00f6r\u0259?
\n– Fidan\u0131n n\u0259 aidiyyat\u0131 var s\u00f6hb\u0259timiz\u0259?
\n– X\u0259b\u0259rin yoxdur?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r qa\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7atd\u0131. Lamiy\u0259 davam el\u0259di.
\n– El\u0259 bildim anan deyib.
\n– S\u00f6z\u00fc uzatma, a\u00e7\u0131q dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 olub?
\n– S\u0259n\u0259 qan ver\u0259n Fidand\u0131r. ke\u00e7mi\u015f ni\u015fanl\u0131n. El\u0259 bildim bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

S\u0259f\u0259r Lamiy\u0259nin dedikl\u0259rin\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259yl\u0259 yana\u015fd\u0131. Lamiy\u0259 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259li bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 hiss etdi, and i\u00e7di.
\n– Atam\u0131n ruhuna and olsun, d\u00fcz deyir\u0259m. Ke\u00e7mi\u015f ni\u015fanl\u0131n s\u0259n\u0259 qan verib.
\n– Burda oldu\u011fumu hardan bilirdi? Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, g\u0259ldin. Bilm\u0259dikl\u0259rimi dan\u0131\u015f, xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, yalans\u0131z dan\u0131\u015f.<\/p>\n

Fidan divanda oturub a\u011flay\u0131rd\u0131. R\u0259\u015fad da S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 qan verdiyini bil\u0259nd\u0259n sonra bir az \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015fdi.
\n– Nahaq bel\u0259 bir i\u015fi \u00f6zba\u015f\u0131na g\u00f6rm\u00fcs\u0259n. \u00c7ox nahaq. H\u0259min g\u00fcn bils\u0259ydim, \u015f\u0259xs\u0259n imkan verm\u0259zdim ged\u0259s\u0259n. S\u0259n bilirdin T\u0259hmin\u0259?
\nK\u00f6rp\u0259ni quca\u011f\u0131nda saxlayan T\u0259hmin\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi sualdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc itirdi. T\u0259hmin\u0259nin yerin\u0259 Fidan t\u0259mkinl\u0259 cavab verdi.
\n– T\u0259hmin\u0259nin x\u0259b\u0259ri yox idi. Ona da yalan dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m. Eldara kim deyib bilmir\u0259m. Vallah, ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir S\u0259f\u0259ri g\u00f6rm\u00fcr\u0259m. Eldara he\u00e7 vaxt x\u0259yan\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.
\n– Ay Fidan, s\u0259n x\u0259yan\u0259t n\u0259y\u0259 deyirs\u0259n? Eldardan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz ke\u00e7mi\u015f ni\u015fanl\u0131na qan vermis\u0259n. Eldar\u0131 ki\u015fi kimi s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131san.
\n– \u0130nsanl\u0131q ad\u0131na el\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Eldara da z\u0259ng \u00e7atm\u0131r, nigaranam.
\n– N\u00f6mr\u0259sini d\u0259yi\u015fib. B\u0259yaq m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259n o idi.
\n– Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, n\u00f6mr\u0259sini ver, s\u00f6z\u00fcm var.
\n– \u0130ncim\u0259, ver\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259m. \u00d6z\u00fc s\u0259ni y\u0131\u011facaq.
\nFidan stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n R\u0259\u015fad\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi c\u0259ldlikl\u0259 telefonunu g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb ota\u011f\u0131na qa\u00e7d\u0131, qap\u0131n\u0131n arxadan ba\u011flad\u0131.
\nR\u0259\u015fad bir- ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7ma\u011fa c\u0259hd etdi, n\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259, xeyri olmad\u0131.
\n – Fidan, a\u00e7 qap\u0131n\u0131. Eldar sonra inciy\u0259c\u0259k m\u0259nd\u0259n. <\/p>\n

Fidan ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 d\u0259f\u0259 R\u0259\u015fada g\u0259l\u0259n n\u00f6mr\u0259ni y\u0131\u011fd\u0131. Eldar telefona cavab verdi.
\n– H\u0259 R\u0259\u015fad. – M\u0259n\u0259m Fidan. Tap\u015f\u0131rm\u0131san ki, n\u00f6mr\u0259ni m\u0259n\u0259 verm\u0259sin.Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, ev\u0259 qay\u0131t. Vallah, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 deyibl\u0259rs\u0259, yaland\u0131r.
\nEldar telefonda R\u0259\u015fad\u0131n ” telefonu ver ” c\u00fcml\u0259sini e\u015fidirdi, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n– U\u015faqsan ki, u\u015faq.
\n– Onda s\u00f6z ver ki, m\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.
\n– Bilmir\u0259m.
\n– M\u0259n d\u0259 vermir\u0259m.
\n– Gec\u0259 z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– Bax Eldar, gec\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlamasan, anam\u0131n ruhuna and olsun, taksi tutub evimiz\u0259 ged\u0259c\u0259m. – Birc\u0259 bu \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131.
\n– M\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc dedim. Z\u0259ng el\u0259. D\u00fcz s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u00fcr. Vallah, m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259zizs\u0259n, do\u011fmasan, daya\u011f\u0131msan.
\n– Sev\u0259 bilm\u0259diyin daya\u011f\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Eldar telefonu adboy verdi. Fidan qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b telefonu R\u0259\u015fada uzatd\u0131. R\u0259\u015fad telefona baxd\u0131, g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k dedi:
\n– Yaz\u0131q Eldar, indi bildim n\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirmi\u015f.
\n– Z\u0259ng ed\u0259c\u0259k -Fidan z\u0259f\u0259r qazanm\u0131\u015f insanlar kimi o\u011flunu quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131, qoxlay\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fc…
\n Lamiy\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 yerli-yataql\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fandan sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sald\u0131. G\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 saxlaya bilmirdi.
\n– Qurban olum S\u0259f\u0259r, \u0259g\u0259r dedikl\u0259rim\u0259 inanm\u0131rsansa, anan g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k, h\u0259r \u015feyi soru\u015farsan. Vallah, s\u0259n\u0259 yalan dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131ram. Fidan do\u011frudan ail\u0259 qurubdu. Bir o\u011flu da var.
\n– Yolda\u015f\u0131yla g\u0259lmi\u015fdi?
\n– \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Anan\u0131n s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm ki, yolda\u015f\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr. \u018fg\u0259r Fidan subay olsayd\u0131, s\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259mi\u015f gedib m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 \u0259riz\u0259 ver\u0259rdim. Bilir\u0259m, m\u0259ni sevmirs\u0259n. M\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m ancaq i\u00e7kili v\u0259ziyy\u0259tind\u0259n istifad\u0259 el\u0259m\u0259k olub. Sizi ki, m\u0259n ay\u0131rmam\u0131\u015fam. Xahi\u015f edir\u0259m, m\u0259ni bo\u015fama. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fcnah\u0131m olsa da, buna layiq deyil\u0259m. Yax\u015f\u0131-yax\u015f\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015f. Gedir\u0259m, sabah yen\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m. Zaman\u0131n h\u0259ll etm\u0259diyi he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur.<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 d\u0259hlizd\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259 v\u0259 K\u0259riml\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r. C\u0259mil\u0259 salams\u0131z-k\u0259lams\u0131z,\u0259s\u0259bi halda dedi. – S\u0259nin n\u0259 i\u015fin var burda?
\n– X\u0259st\u0259 h\u0259r halda \u0259rimdir. G\u00f6rm\u0259yim?
\n K\u0259rim Lamiy\u0259nin dedikl\u0259rini t\u0259sdiql\u0259di.
\n– C\u0259mil\u0259, ba\u015flama. S\u0259nin o\u011flundur, onun da yolda\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. B\u0259sdirin, adam\u0131 biab\u0131r edirsiz.
\nK\u0259rim qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b ota\u011fa girdi.
\nLamiy\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxd\u0131. – O\u011flun s\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. Soru\u015facaqlar\u0131 var.
\n – Ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259dim.
\n– S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fam, h\u0259r \u015feyi.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 \u0259trafa n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131, he\u00e7 kim olmasayd\u0131 g\u0259linini yax\u015f\u0131ca k\u00f6t\u0259kl\u0259m\u0259k ke\u00e7irdi k\u00f6nl\u00fcnd\u0259n.
\n– N\u0259yi dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131san?
\n– H\u0259r \u015feyi. T\u0259hmin\u0259ni, Fidan\u0131, onlar\u0131 nec\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 sald\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131…
\n– M\u0259qs\u0259din n\u0259di?
\n– \u0130tir\u0259c\u0259yim he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdu. Madam o\u011flun m\u0259ni bo\u015famaq ist\u0259yir, madam fikrind\u0259n d\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259n deyils\u0259n, \u00fcr\u0259yinc\u0259dir, s\u0259nin ail\u0259n niy\u0259 da\u011f\u0131lmas\u0131n?
\n – Allah s\u0259nin ba\u015f\u0131na da\u015f sals\u0131n.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canla, h\u00f6vlank qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Lamiy\u0259 C\u0259mil\u0259ni yalan\u0131na inand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015fad olmu\u015fdu. Onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259sl zarafat idi. X\u0259st\u0259xanadan \u00e7\u0131xanda Zamana z\u0259ng etdi.
\n– Zaman, u\u015faqla ba\u011fl\u0131 planlan\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259xir\u0259 sal. Dey\u0259c\u0259m niy\u0259?<\/p>\n

C\u0259mil\u0259 ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 K\u0259rim t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 ona t\u0259r\u0259f yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. C\u0259mil\u0259 qorxusundan geri add\u0131m atd\u0131.
\n– S\u0259n niy\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259lirs\u0259n?
\n– Fidan S\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 qan verib? M\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 dem\u0259mis\u0259n?
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 – \u00d6z\u00fc xahi\u015f el\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ail\u0259si var, o\u011flu var, \u0259rinin bilm\u0259yind\u0259n qorxurdu.
\n– Ail\u0259 qurub?
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – S\u0259n Fidan\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131san?
\n– H\u0259. Ail\u0259lidir.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Lamiy\u0259 deyir ki, yolda\u015f\u0131 ya\u015fca \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fckd\u00fcr.
\n– Bilmir\u0259m, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131ram.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Fidanla harda dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131san?
\n– Evl\u0259rin\u0259 getmi\u015fdim.
\n– Harda ya\u015fay\u0131r?
\nK\u0259rim – Laz\u0131m deyil.
\nS\u0259f\u0259r – Fidanla m\u00fctl\u0259q dan\u0131\u015fmal\u0131yam, m\u00fctl\u0259q.Mane olmay\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Ayb\u0259niz k\u00f6rp\u0259sini day\u0259sin\u0259 tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131b evd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xanda \u0259ri El\u00e7in d\u0259 evd\u0259 idi. Yolda yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc ki, telefonu evd\u0259 qal\u0131b. Ev\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6ym\u0259mi\u015f a\u00e7arla a\u00e7d\u0131. Yataq ota\u011f\u0131ndan day\u0259 il\u0259 \u0259rinin iniltil\u0259rini e\u015fitdi. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7anda day\u0259 paltarl\u0131 \u0259rinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 idi. Ayb\u0259niz \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rini cilovlaya bilm\u0259yib day\u0259nin sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan tutub yataqdan yer\u0259 sald\u0131. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc onun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, var g\u00fcc\u00fc il\u0259 d\u00f6yd\u00fc. El\u00e7inin d\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fc \u00e7atm\u0131rd\u0131, arvad\u0131n\u0131 arala\u015fd\u0131rs\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Lamiy\u0259 \u0259ynin\u0259 x\u0259l\u0259tini geyinib, \u00e7imm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn hamam girm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, evin qap\u0131s\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc. Deyin\u0259-deyin\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini b\u0259r\u0259ltdi, qap\u0131n\u0131 ba\u011flama\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ke\u00e7mi\u015f m\u0259\u015fuqu Tahir g\u00fcc g\u0259ldi, qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Ev\u0259 girib qap\u0131n\u0131 arxadan ba\u011flad\u0131. Lamiy\u0259 ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131, Tahir d\u0259 onun arxas\u0131nca. Lamiy\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131na girm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qolundan tutdu, t\u0259mkinini pozmadan dedi.
\n– Ay q\u0131z, sakitl\u0259\u015f, s\u0259n\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259 ed\u0259si deyil\u0259m.
\n– Murdar \u0259lini \u00e7\u0259k, o\u011fra\u015f. H\u0259l\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fc d\u0259 var g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259.
\nTahir \u0259lini Lamiy\u0259d\u0259n \u00e7\u0259kir.
\n– \u00c7\u0259kdim \u0259limi, sakitl\u0259\u015f. T\u0259kc\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m.
\n– N\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131? N\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n m\u0259nd\u0259n? Niy\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmirs\u0259n yaxamdan?
\n– \u0130ki k\u0259lm\u0259 s\u00f6z soru\u015fub ged\u0259c\u0259m.
\n– Tez ol,n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn varsa, soru\u015f, g\u00f6z\u00fcm s\u0259ni g\u00f6rm\u0259sin.
\n– U\u015faq o\u011fland\u0131r, ya q\u0131z?
\n– \u018fclaf\u0131n verdiyi suala bax.
\n– Bilir\u0259m e, \u0259clafam. Lap yek\u0259sind\u0259n\u0259m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 sual\u0131ma cavab ver.
\n– O\u011flan idi.
\n– \u0130di?
\n– B\u0259xtim g\u0259tirdi ki, s\u0259nin kimi \u0259claf\u0131n qan\u0131ndan olan k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck sa\u011f qalmad\u0131.<\/p>\n

Tahir Lamiy\u0259y\u0259 \u015fill\u0259 vurdu, Lamiy\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131.
\nTahir – Heyf! Sa\u011f qalsayd\u0131, s\u0259nin kimi fahi\u015f\u0259nin yan\u0131nda u\u015faq saxlamazd\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Tahir pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri astaca d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7maq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 qap\u0131 d\u00f6y\u00fcld\u00fc, qap\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131ndan C\u0259mil\u0259nin s\u0259si e\u015fidildi.
\n– A\u00e7 qap\u0131n\u0131, bilir\u0259m evd\u0259s\u0259n.
\nTahirl\u0259 Lamiy\u0259 bir-birinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131lar. Tahir g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib qap\u0131n\u0131n c\u0259ft\u0259sind\u0259n tutdu. Lamiy\u0259 yalvar\u0131\u015f dolu bax\u0131\u015flarla ona yalvar\u0131rd\u0131, yanaqlar\u0131ndan g\u00f6z ya\u015flar s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Tahir astaca Lamiy\u0259d\u0259n soru\u015fdu:
\n– M\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de. O\u011flum do\u011frudan \u00f6l\u00fcb? Ya d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc de, ya da qap\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7acam.
\nLamiy\u0259 pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri tez-tez d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, qap\u0131ya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131.
\n– Yalvar\u0131ram, qalx ota\u011fa. H\u0259r \u015feyi dan\u0131\u015facam.
\n– \u0130ndi dan\u0131\u015f.
\nC\u0259mil\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 dayanmadan d\u00f6y\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\n– Add\u0131m s\u0259sl\u0259rini e\u015fitdim,a\u00e7 qap\u0131n\u0131.
\nTahir – Dan\u0131\u015f, vaxt\u0131n azd\u0131.
\nLamiy\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ovuclar\u0131nda gizl\u0259dib a\u011flad\u0131….<\/p>\n

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Fidan he\u00e7 c\u00fcr Eldar\u0131n onu bo\u015famaq ist\u0259yini q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Kag\u0131z \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 olsa \u0259rin\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259riyl\u0259 yalvar\u0131rd\u0131 ki, ona inans\u0131n. Fidan – H\u0259yatda inand\u0131\u011f\u0131m yegan\u0259 insansan. S\u0259f\u0259rl\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259m yoxdur. Qan verdim d\u00fczd\u00fcr, amma anam\u0131n q\u0259brin\u0259 and olsun ne\u00e7\u0259 ildir \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259nin ad\u0131na l\u0259k\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Kim deyibs\u0259 aram\u0131z\u0131 vurmaq ist\u0259yib. Eldar\u0131n da g\u00f6zl\u0259ri dolmu\u015fdu, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16445","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16445","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16445"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16445\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16447,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16445\/revisions\/16447"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16445"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16445"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16445"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}