{"id":16656,"date":"2015-12-22T13:00:43","date_gmt":"2015-12-22T09:00:43","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16656"},"modified":"2015-12-22T14:46:38","modified_gmt":"2015-12-22T10:46:38","slug":"t%c9%99ran%c9%99-s%c9%99ms-s%c9%99n-ana-olacaqsan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16656","title":{"rendered":"T\u0259ran\u0259 \u015e\u018fMS.”S\u0259n… Ana olacaqsan…!!!!”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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H\u0259sr\u0259t dey\u0259nd\u0259 q\u00fcrb\u0259t yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, sevm\u0259k-sevilm\u0259k , \u00e7\u0259kdiyin ac\u0131lar, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 iztirab yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Lakin el\u0259 bir h\u0259sr\u0259t ac\u0131s\u0131 var ki, ya\u015famayan, da\u015f\u0131mayan bu ac\u0131n\u0131n, yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259z. B\u0259li, m\u0259nim b\u0259hs ed\u0259c\u0259yim h\u0259sr\u0259t is\u0259 ill\u0259rdi qurulan ail\u0259nin oca\u011f\u0131nda, d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6z a\u00e7acaq Allah\u0131n ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi t\u00f6hf\u0259, y\u0259ni c\u00fcc\u0259r\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k fidan\u0131 yada sal\u0131r. Yuva qurdu\u011fu ail\u0259d\u0259 ill\u0259ri aylar\u0131 \u0259v\u0259z ed\u0259 -ed\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn, h\u0259r saat g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131na q\u0259rq olan, ana olmaq ist\u0259yini q\u0259lbind\u0259 ya\u015fadan ay\u00fczl\u00fc bir g\u0259lin yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Asi deyil yaradana. N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcmidsizliy\u0259 d\u00fc\u00e7ar olsa bel\u0259, \u0259lini Allahdan \u00fczm\u0259mi\u015fdi o g\u0259lin. Aylar g\u00fcnl\u0259r is\u0259 bir-birini \u0259v\u0259z edirdi.Sanki onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 zaman, g\u00fcn anba -an qocal\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri yolda qal\u0131b \u00f6z pay\u0131n\u0131 Tanr\u0131dan g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n g\u0259lin is\u0259, dilini q\u0131s\u0131b sussa da, lakin onun o pak, m\u0259sum q\u0259lbi susa bilmirdi. O daxil\u0259n ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 zamandan, m\u0259kandan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn daxilin\u0259 d\u0259rdli d\u00fcnyas\u0131na p\u0259nah aparm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Daha o k\u0259nardan g\u00fcc ala bilm\u0131rd\u0131. Ona g\u00fcc ver\u0259n daxilind\u0259ki s\u0259s idi ki, q\u0259lbin\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 h\u0259zin s\u0259sl\u0259 daima p\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131rd\u0131. Dar\u0131xma ey m\u0259sum g\u00f6z\u0259l, ist\u0259yin\u0259 \u00e7atacaqsan t\u0259l\u0259sm\u0259! S\u0259n ANA olacaqsan..! \u0130ll\u0259r uzun \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 d\u0259, daima q\u0259lbini \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u0259n h\u0259min s\u0259sin sora\u011f\u0131 uzun s\u00fcrm\u0259di. G\u00fcn\u00fc \u2013g\u00fcnd\u0259n qar alt\u0131nda boynunu b\u00fck\u0259n b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 t\u0259k o utancaq, g\u0259ncliyini ill\u0259rin\u0259 qurban ver\u0259n g\u0259lin he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n h\u0259sr\u0259tin v\u00fcsal\u0131na add\u0131m-add\u0131n yol g\u0259lirdi. N\u0259hay\u0259t ill\u0259rin ayr\u0131c\u0131nda bir m\u0259l\u0259k \u00fczl\u00fc o g\u0259linin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaraq ona m\u00fcjd\u0259 verdi v\u0259 dedi: G\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6km\u0259 daha. S\u0259n m\u0259nim anam olacaqsan! G\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z duy\u011fular\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qalan g\u0259lin s\u0259s\u0259 diksinib ay\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sual etdi. G\u00f6r\u0259n g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 x\u0259yalm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc dey\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb ets\u0259 d\u0259, sanki q\u0259lbin\u0259 bir sakitlik \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Dem\u0259k m\u0259n, ANA olacam. Dili qurudu, nitqi k\u0259sildi, sanki sevincd\u0259n tir-tir \u0259sirdi. \u0130lahi bu x\u0259b\u0259r sevincdimi, n\u0259 ad verim, g\u00f6r\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcmm\u00fc, a\u011flay\u0131mm\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259n gumana \u00fcmid ba\u011flay\u0131m? Yox art\u0131q bu g\u00fcmman deyidi. M\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259sini e\u015fitdim. Bu s\u0259s onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131na inand\u0131rd\u0131 m\u0259ni. Yox etdi q\u0259lbimd\u0259n k\u0259d\u0259ri, q\u0259mi.
\nArt\u0131q inanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 o m\u0259sum g\u0259lin ana olaca\u011f\u0131na. Ax\u0131 h\u0259qiq\u0259tin \u00fcz\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131q idi. Balas\u0131n\u0131n p\u0259rv\u0259ri\u015fi art\u0131q o m\u0259sum \u00fczl\u00fcn\u00fcn h\u0259yata bax\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015fdi. Ana-bala sevdas\u0131 \u0259ks-s\u0259da ver\u0259r\u0259k \u0259trafa da s\u0259s salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hamm\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yidi 10 ild\u0259n balam\u0131z\u0131n balas\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k dey\u0259. Q\u0259d\u0259ml\u0259ri m\u00fcbar\u0259k qona\u011f\u0131n pi\u015fvaz\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan s\u0259n\u0259mi il\u0259 bird\u0259 \u015eahzad\u0259sinin yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n Atas\u0131 olacad\u0131. Ata sevgisi sonsuzlu\u011fa v\u00fcs\u0259t alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sevinc i\u00e7ind\u0259 ham\u0131 aylar\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259yidi ki, gec g\u0259l\u0259n \u015eahzad\u0259ni qar\u015f\u0131las\u0131n. EH…! Deyirl\u0259rmi\u015f sevinc i\u00e7ind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r var b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 inanmazd\u0131q.Lakin \u0259b\u0259s deyilmi\u015f. Bu ac\u0131n\u0131n k\u00fcl\u0259yi ill\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6vlad yolu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n anan\u0131 tutdu v\u0259 qaba\u011f\u0131na qataraq d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6z a\u00e7mam\u0131\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259sini \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131. Ana m\u00fccadil\u0259 ets\u0259 d\u0259 bacarmad\u0131. H\u0259kiml\u0259r anan\u0131 itir\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rind\u0259n qorxaraq k\u00f6rp\u0259ni h\u0259d\u0259f\u0259 ald\u0131. Bel\u0259 etm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbu idil\u0259r. Ax\u0131 ana yoxlu\u011fa qovu\u015fsayd\u0131 ill\u0259rdir bu d\u00fcnyaya, o anaya sar\u0131 yol g\u0259l\u0259n k\u00f6rp\u0259 sonda kim\u0259 ana dey\u0259c\u0259kdi? \u0130lahi amans\u0131z tale,q\u0259bul edilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k ac\u0131, yan\u011f\u0131, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131. \u0130tirdik o m\u0259l\u0259yi. H\u0259yat daima g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259sr\u0259t ya\u015f\u0131 t\u00f6k\u0259n o m\u0259sum g\u0259linin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259di. \u00dcmidl\u0259ri arzular\u0131 y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131 pu\u00e7 oldu. D\u0259rdli q\u0259lbin\u0259 qara buludlar doldu. Lakin olanlara r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n AY\u00dcZL\u00dc g\u0259lin ay\u0131lmal\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259yata yenid\u0259n sar\u0131lmal\u0131d\u0131r. H\u0259yat bitm\u0259di daha, davam edir. Arzulari he\u00e7liy\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan anan\u0131 ac\u0131dan, a\u011fr\u0131dan odur ki, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259diyi o m\u0259sum m\u0259l\u0259k \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259- h\u0259yat aras\u0131nda anan\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015fam\u0131 namin\u0259 Allah\u0131n rizas\u0131 il\u0259 varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qaba\u011fa verdi. \u0130ll\u0259rdir \u00f6vlad h\u0259sr\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n anan\u0131n axir\u0259ti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir m\u0259l\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evrildi. Bu d\u00fcnyada \u00f6vlad ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n anan\u0131 c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259 yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n, onu pi\u015fvaz\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xan m\u0259l\u0259k\u00fczl\u00fc k\u00f6rp\u0259si olacaq. Olanlara \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr et, a\u011flama quzum a\u011flama! S\u0259n yenid\u0259n h\u0259yata d\u00f6nd\u00fcns\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ac\u0131d\u0131rsa bel\u0259, Allah\u0131n bir l\u00fctf\u00fc var. S\u0259nin \u015fahzad\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya s\u0259nsiz g\u00f6z a\u00e7sayd\u0131, s\u0259nsiz boya-ba\u015fa \u00e7atsayd\u0131, he\u00e7 ist\u0259rdinmi bunlar olsun. Yox \u0259lb\u0259tt\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259zdin ki, s\u0259nin k\u00f6rp\u0259n ba\u015fqas\u0131na ANA desin. O m\u0259sum g\u0259li\u015fi il\u0259 \u0259traf\u0131na s\u00fcbut etdi ki, s\u0259n daha anasan, v\u0259 bundan sonra sa\u011fl\u0131qla bir daha yenid\u0259n ANA olacaqsan. Unutma quzum ax\u0131 s\u0259n d\u0259, bir anan\u0131n balas\u0131san. Ax\u0131 s\u0259n d\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259zdin ki, s\u0259ni d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n ana s\u0259nsiz g\u00f6z\u00fcya\u015fl\u0131 qals\u0131n. \u00d6z\u00fcnd\u0259 t\u0259p\u0259r tap, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259l, h\u0259yat davam edir, yenid\u0259n h\u0259yata ba\u011flan YA\u015eA!!! Unutma s\u0259n bir daha yenid\u0259n ANA olacaqsan! Ana olacaqsan! S\u0259n sonsuz deyils\u0259n! Allaha s\u0131\u011f\u0131n v\u0259 \u0259min ol. H\u0259yat \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 yenid\u0259n g\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 o ba\u011f\u00e7an\u0131n meyv\u0259sind\u0259n s\u0259n\u0259 bir daha pay d\u00fc\u015f\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

H\u0259sr\u0259t dey\u0259nd\u0259 q\u00fcrb\u0259t yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, sevm\u0259k-sevilm\u0259k , \u00e7\u0259kdiyin ac\u0131lar, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 iztirab yada d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Lakin el\u0259 bir h\u0259sr\u0259t ac\u0131s\u0131 var ki, ya\u015famayan, da\u015f\u0131mayan bu ac\u0131n\u0131n, yan\u011f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259z. B\u0259li, m\u0259nim b\u0259hs ed\u0259c\u0259yim h\u0259sr\u0259t is\u0259 ill\u0259rdi qurulan ail\u0259nin oca\u011f\u0131nda, d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6z a\u00e7acaq Allah\u0131n ver\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yi t\u00f6hf\u0259, y\u0259ni c\u00fcc\u0259r\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k fidan\u0131 yada sal\u0131r. Yuva qurdu\u011fu ail\u0259d\u0259 ill\u0259ri aylar\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16656","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16656","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16656"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16656\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16658,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16656\/revisions\/16658"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16656"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16656"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16656"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}