{"id":16680,"date":"2015-12-23T07:30:19","date_gmt":"2015-12-23T03:30:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16680"},"modified":"2015-12-23T08:22:21","modified_gmt":"2015-12-23T04:22:21","slug":"s%c9%99rv%c9%99r-kamranli-yeni-seirl%c9%99r-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16680","title":{"rendered":"S\u0259rv\u0259r KAMRANLI.Yeni \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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S\u018fNS\u0130ZL\u0130K<\/p>\n

X\u0259yallar\u0131n qoluna girib,
\nuzaqlarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc axtarmaqd\u0131r
\nS\u0259nsizlik.
\nZaman\u0131ndan, m\u0259kan\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq,
\nb\u0259z\u0259n qollar\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131na yast\u0131q edib
\ng\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k e\u015fqil\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxuya m\u0259hkum etm\u0259k,
\nB\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259ri yuxusuz a\u00e7maqd\u0131r
\nS\u0259nsizlik\u2026
\nG\u00fcnd\u0259 geyilm\u0259kd\u0259n yamaq-yamaq olan yollarda
\nyolunu azmaqd\u0131r
\nS\u0259nsizlik\u2026
\n\u2026Telefonun bir z\u0259ngin\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalmaq,
\nSaat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131b
\n\u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salmaq,
\ns\u0259b\u0259bsiz yer\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb,
\ns\u0259b\u0259bsiz yer\u0259 a\u011flamaqd\u0131r
\nS\u0259nsizlik.
\nS\u0259nsizlik h\u0259m d\u0259
\n\u0259l\u0259 q\u0259l\u0259m al\u0131b
\na\u011f v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259r\u0259 l\u0259k\u0259 salaraq
\ng\u00fcnaha batmaqd\u0131r.
\n\u2026H\u0259, bir d\u0259
\nS\u0259nsizlik s\u0259nin yoxlu\u011funda s\u0259nli olmaqd\u0131r,
\ns\u0259nl\u0259 olmaqd\u0131r.
\nBax, budur s\u0259nsizlik\u2026<\/p>\n

K\u00d6HN\u018fLM\u018fK QORXUSU<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc yenic\u0259 d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki,
\ng\u0259ldin h\u0259yat\u0131ma\u2026
\nG\u0259l\u015finl\u0259 \u00e7ox \u015feyi \u00f6yr\u0259tdin m\u0259n\u0259,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 \u201cg\u0259zm\u0259yi\u201d s\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259tdin,
\nEl\u0259 yol \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi d\u0259\u2026
\nH\u0259yat\u0131ma g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n
\nHe\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259 s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u0259 etm\u0259zdim,
\nG\u00f6r\u0259nl\u0259r d\u0259li deyib m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00fclm\u0259zdil\u0259r d\u0259\u2026
\nHe\u00e7 onda d\u0259rdl\u0259rin yaxas\u0131ndan as\u0131lmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim \u201cq\u0259hr\u0259man ana\u201d da olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026
\nOnda h\u0259r \u015fey bamba\u015fqayd\u0131\u2026
\n\u00d6mr\u00fcmd\u0259 t\u0259k q\u0131\u015f f\u0259sli deyildi\u2026
\n\u2026H\u0259, g\u0259l, bir az da u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan dan\u0131\u015f\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259\u2026
\nH\u0259l\u0259 onda u\u015faq idim,
\nQay\u011f\u0131lardan k\u0259nar,
\nsakit,
\ng\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz,
\nbir az da \u201ctoppu\u015f\u201d u\u015faq\u2026
\nH\u0259r k\u0259s m\u0259ni \u00e7ox sev\u0259rmi\u015f-
\nr\u0259hm\u0259tlik n\u0259n\u0259m dey\u0259nd\u0259 yad\u0131mda saxlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u2026
\nD\u00fcnya boyda oyunca\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259
\nm\u0259nim d\u0259 oyuncaqlar\u0131m olub
\nba\u015fqa u\u015faqlar kimi\u2026
\nAmma onlardan f\u0259rqli olaraq,
\nhe\u00e7 sevm\u0259zdim oyuncaqlar\u0131m\u0131.
\nAtam m\u0259n\u0259 oyuncaq alan kimi
\n\u201ci\u00e7ind\u0259, g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, n\u0259 var?\u201d-
\nb\u0259han\u0259sil\u0259
\ntez s\u0131nd\u0131rard\u0131m onlar\u0131\u2026
\nM\u0259n o vaxtdan t\u0259z\u0259likl\u0259ri sevm\u0259mi\u015fdim\u2026
\n\u0130ndi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259, \u00e7ox \u015feyi anlay\u0131ram.
\nBizi bir-birimiz\u0259 ba\u011flayan
\nox\u015far c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rin n\u0259l\u0259r oldu\u011funu\u2026
\nM\u0259n d\u0259 s\u0259nin kimi t\u0259z\u0259likl\u0259ri tez k\u00f6hn\u0259ltmi\u015f\u0259m,
\ntez atm\u0131\u015fam.
\nAmma s\u0259nd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq,
\ncans\u0131zlar\u0131\u2026oyuncaqlar\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

DO\u011eULANDAN SONRA\u2026<\/p>\n

\u2026\u018fvv\u0259l d\u00f6rd \u0259ll\u0259 yap\u0131\u015farsan yerd\u0259n,
\nSonra yava\u015f-yava\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nTamahkar olarsan-
\nT\u0259kc\u0259 yerl\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fcn doymaz.
\n\u2026ayaq a\u00e7arsan,
\nqalxarsan aya\u011fa,
\nboylanarsan g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259\u2026
\nAyaqlar\u0131nla yerd\u0259n tutub, \u0259ll\u0259rinl\u0259 g\u00f6yd\u0259n tutmaq ist\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n\u2026
\nE\u015fq\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259rs\u0259n.
\nGah yerd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259 sevdiyini dey\u0259rs\u0259n,
\ngah da ki, g\u00f6yd\u0259kil\u0259r\u0259\u2026
\nTapdalad\u0131\u011f\u0131n torpa\u011f\u0131 sev\u0259rs\u0259n,
\n\u2026d\u00fcnyan\u0131n belind\u0259 f\u0131rlanarsan bir oxun \u0259traf\u0131nda.
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 \u00e7atmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259nm\u0259sini ist\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n,
\nArzular\u0131n qanad a\u00e7maz.
\nH\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin b\u0259rab\u0259rliyind\u0259n d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259z aradak\u0131 m\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259r,
\nYorularsan.
\nD\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n belind\u0259n,
\nF\u0131rland\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n.
\nSonra b\u00fct\u00fcn canl\u0131 v\u0259 cans\u0131zlar\u0131n da d\u00fcnyan\u0131n belind\u0259 oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk edib,
\nt\u0259skinlik ver\u0259rs\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259.
\nH\u0259tta la\u011f ed\u0259rs\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya:
\n\u201cD\u00fcnya, sanma f\u0131rlad\u0131rsan hey m\u0259ni,
\nH\u00fcn\u0259rin var d\u00f6vr eyl\u0259m\u0259, f\u0131rlan\u0131m!
\n\u2026N\u0259hay\u0259t bir g\u00fcn g\u0259l\u0259r-
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyin anda, hans\u0131sa bir varl\u0131q alar s\u0259ni d\u00fcnyan\u0131n belind\u0259n.
\nBir vaxtk\u0131 arzular\u0131n ger\u00e7\u0259k olar,
\nO zaman sevindiyind\u0259n b\u00f6l\u00fcn\u0259rs\u0259n iki yer\u0259.
\nyerl\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn olar, g\u00f6yl\u0259r ruhunun.<\/p>\n

DAHA VARLI\u011eIN DA M\u018fN\u0130 \u00dc\u015e\u00dcD\u00dcR<\/p>\n

Daha varl\u0131\u011f\u0131n da m\u0259ni \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr,
\nDaha buz ba\u011flay\u0131b \u0259lind\u0259 \u0259lim.
\nBir vaxt dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131 bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z,
\n\u0130ndi o bax\u0131\u015flar lald\u0131, g\u00f6z\u0259lim.<\/p>\n

Alma yanaqlar\u0131n niy\u0259 q\u0131zarm\u0131r,
\nHan\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 gizli bax\u0131\u015flar?
\nDey\u0259s\u0259n, yamanca pe\u015fman olmusan,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n boylan\u0131r s\u00f6zl\u00fc bax\u0131\u015flar.<\/p>\n

Yaman d\u0259yi\u015fmis\u0259n yaman, a zal\u0131m,
\nBel\u0259c\u0259 tan\u0131ya bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni.
\nN\u0259 ola, bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f sonuncu olsun
\n\u00d6z\u00fcmd\u0259 q\u0131naya bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

N\u018f OLA BU D\u00dcNYA B\u0130R YUXU OLA\u2026
\nYaman u\u015faqla\u015f\u0131b, t\u0259mb\u0259ll\u0259\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m,
\nTa he\u00e7 kim tan\u0131m\u0131r bu g\u0259nc qo\u00e7a\u011f\u0131.
\nYuxuma bir g\u00f6z\u0259l gir\u0259nd\u0259n b\u0259ri,
\nYuxudan qalx\u0131ram g\u00fcnorta \u00e7a\u011f\u0131.<\/p>\n

Yuxuda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m bizd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131r,
\nDaha gizli \u2013 gizli g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f d\u0259, ay da.
\nBir d\u0259li adam\u0131n k\u0259nd \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259,
\nSevgi ya\u015fay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f bir \u00f6lk\u0259 boyda.<\/p>\n

Yerl\u0259r d\u0259 as\u0131la g\u00f6y\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n,
\nG\u00f6yl\u0259rin qoynunda yuxusu g\u0259l\u0259.
\nN\u0259ola bu d\u00fcnya bir yuxu ola,
\nBizim sevgimiz d\u0259 yuxuda \u00f6l\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

S\u018fNS\u0130ZL\u0130K X\u0259yallar\u0131n qoluna girib, uzaqlarda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc axtarmaqd\u0131r S\u0259nsizlik. Zaman\u0131ndan, m\u0259kan\u0131ndan as\u0131l\u0131 olmayaraq, b\u0259z\u0259n qollar\u0131n\u0131 aln\u0131na yast\u0131q edib g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k e\u015fqil\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxuya m\u0259hkum etm\u0259k, B\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 gec\u0259l\u0259ri yuxusuz a\u00e7maqd\u0131r S\u0259nsizlik\u2026 G\u00fcnd\u0259 geyilm\u0259kd\u0259n yamaq-yamaq olan yollarda yolunu azmaqd\u0131r S\u0259nsizlik\u2026 \u2026Telefonun bir z\u0259ngin\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qalmaq, Saat\u0131n \u0259qr\u0259bind\u0259n as\u0131l\u0131b \u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salmaq, s\u0259b\u0259bsiz yer\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcb, s\u0259b\u0259bsiz yer\u0259 a\u011flamaqd\u0131r S\u0259nsizlik. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16680","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16680","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16680"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16680\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16683,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16680\/revisions\/16683"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16680"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16680"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16680"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}