{"id":16743,"date":"2015-12-24T12:00:41","date_gmt":"2015-12-24T08:00:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16743"},"modified":"2015-12-24T12:30:06","modified_gmt":"2015-12-24T08:30:06","slug":"qalib-r%c9%99himli-sozd%c9%99n-sevgiy%c9%99-ged%c9%99n-yol","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=16743","title":{"rendered":"Qalib R\u018fH\u0130ML\u0130.”S\u00f6zd\u0259n sevgiy\u0259 ged\u0259n yol”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Zaman-zaman Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar\u0131n d\u00f6vr\u00fc m\u0259tbuatda, feyzbuk s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 yeni \u015ferl\u0259ri il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131ram. H\u0259r \u015ferini d\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 oxuyuram. A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyim ki, onun \u015ferl\u0259rind\u0259ki c\u0259sar\u0259t m\u0259ni ovsunlay\u0131b. Ham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u0259lik h\u0259yatda qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259qamlar\u0131 Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fcn sehri il\u0259 el\u0259 cilalay\u0131r ki, ovsunlanmaya bilmirs\u0259n. Balaca bir \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcn v\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u0259n do\u011fan sevginin nec\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdiyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcr adam\u0131. Onun h\u0259yata v\u0259 h\u0259yata x\u00fcsusi r\u0259ng ver\u0259n sevgiy\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti tam f\u0259rqlidir. \u0130st\u0259r ilahi e\u015fq yolunda, ist\u0259r v\u0259t\u0259n, t\u0259bi\u0259t sevgisind\u0259 \u00e7ox s\u0259mimidir. Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 bo\u011fazdan yuxar\u0131 deyil, \u0259n ba\u015fl\u0131cas\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fc zorlam\u0131r. \u00c7ox ayd\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr k\u00fc, s\u00f6z bu xan\u0131m\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259n qaynay\u0131b dilin\u0259 g\u0259lir. Bel\u0259 olan halda da q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 fikir v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r sevil\u0259-sevil\u0259 oxunur. \u018fslind\u0259 \u015fairlik \u00f6z\u00fc bir ilahilikdir, haqqdan g\u0259l\u0259n vergidir. Poeziya is\u0259 bu ilahilikd\u0259n su i\u00e7ib z\u0259nginl\u0259\u015f\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259vi bir qidad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m\u0131n \u015ferl\u0259ri m\u0259ni el\u0259 c\u0259lb etmi\u015fdi ki, bir g\u00fcn d\u0259 ondan m\u0259n\u0259 kitab g\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259sini xahi\u015f etdim. Sa\u011f olsun, q\u0131rmad\u0131 m\u0259ni v\u0259 sonuncu- \u201cQ\u00fcrubda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi. Fikrim Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m\u0131n \u015ferl\u0259ri bar\u0259d\u0259 sad\u0259 bir oxucu fikirl\u0259rini b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k idi. Aradan bir xeyli ke\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n fikirl\u0259rimi indi q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 ald\u0131m. Amma ist\u0259dim s\u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131n fatehi olan bu xan\u0131m\u0131n sonuncu kitab\u0131na onu hans\u0131 \u015ferl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259yimd\u0259n q\u0131saca deyim.<\/p>\n

H\u0259r \u015fair yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda \u00f6z \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fc ya\u015fay\u0131r. Sevinci, k\u0259d\u0259ri, v\u00fcsal\u0131, sevdal\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rini, zaman\u0131n\u0131, tarixini, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yini yaz\u0131r. Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m da bel\u0259dir. \u015eerl\u0259ri onun \u00f6mr\u00fcd\u00fcr, d\u0259y\u0259ridir. H\u0259m d\u0259 bu xan\u0131mda Yaradan\u0131n \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259tirdikl\u0259rin\u0259 bir \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr dem\u0259k c\u0259sar\u0259tid\u0259 var. Aln\u0131na yaz\u0131lanlarla bar\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Vallah, q\u0259mdi h\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fim,
\n \u00d6mr\u00fc q\u0259m ed\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.
\n Q\u0259ml\u0259ri q\u0259lbd\u0259 yo\u011furub,
\n G\u00f6zd\u0259 n\u0259m ed\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

\u015e\u00fck\u00fcr dedim milyon k\u0259r\u0259,
\n \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr etsin bir c\u00fcr h\u0259r\u0259.
\n \u00dcr\u0259yimi bu q\u0259ml\u0259r\u0259,
\n Verib yem ed\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

G\u00f6zl\u0259rim g\u00f6z qaydas\u0131nda,
\n S\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u00f6z qaydas\u0131nda.
\n H\u0259r \u015feyi \u00f6z qaydas\u0131nda,
\n E\u015fqi k\u0259m ed\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Yap\u0131b intizar da\u011f\u0131m\u0131,
\n Bitirib g\u0259nclik \u00e7a\u011f\u0131m\u0131,
\n H\u0259yatda axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131,
\n S\u0259nd\u0259 c\u0259m ed\u0259n\u0259 \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q miqyas\u0131 t\u0259kc\u0259 e\u015fqin aliliyi, bu yolda ya\u015fanan iztirablar, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 m\u0259hdudla\u015fm\u0131r. \u00c7ox\u015fax\u0259li yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda yer tutan h\u0259r \u015feri oxunaql\u0131d\u0131r, sevil\u0259n v\u0259 yadda\u015flarda ya\u015fayand\u0131r. Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda t\u0259bi\u0259tl\u0259 sevginin bir arada t\u0259sviri \u00e7ox inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131d\u0131r.
\n\u201cQ\u00fcrubda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259dim. El\u0259 \u015ferl\u0259ri oldu ki, onu d\u00f6n\u0259-d\u00f6n\u0259 oxudum. H\u0259r oxuduqca yeni bir m\u0259na, yeni bir n\u0259f\u0259s g\u00f6rd\u00fcm. Onun b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fcy\u00fc bir d\u0259 ondad\u0131r ki, t\u0259k \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yazmay\u0131r. Onu oxuyanlar\u0131n h\u0259r biri bu \u015ferl\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u0259 bilir. Bu is\u0259 \u015ferin d\u00fcny\u0259viliyi, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n s\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131mamas\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m s\u00f6zd\u0259n sevgiy\u0259, sevgid\u0259n is\u0259 Q\u00fcrubda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7ata bilib. Gec\u0259ni yat\u0131b s\u0259h\u0259r yenid\u0259n do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin h\u0259rar\u0259tini, sevgil\u0259ri isitm\u0259yini, bumbuz q\u0259lbl\u0259ri oyatma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7ox d\u0259qiq v\u0259 d\u00fcr\u00fcst q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131b. Bu yol asan deyil v\u0259 olduqca \u00e7\u0259tin, iztirabl\u0131, s\u0259sli k\u00fcyl\u00fcd\u00fcr. B\u00fct\u00fcn bunlar\u0131 Tanr\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi istedadla el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l adlay\u0131b ki, adam ona heyran qalmaya bilmir. Xan\u0131m\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bir d\u0259 bu hikm\u0259ti v\u0259 ard\u0131c\u0131ll\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm.
\n Ger\u00e7\u0259klik t\u0259bii ki, ictimail\u0259\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 t\u0259sirli olur. \u0130ctimai fikri is\u0259 yaln\u0131z c\u0259sar\u0259ti olan, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 v\u0259 m\u0259ntiqi real h\u0259yatla s\u0259sl\u0259\u015f\u0259n insanlar t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259n formala\u015f\u0131r. Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar kimi. \u201cYen\u0259 bax\u201d \u015ferind\u0259 reall\u0131q daha qabar\u0131q g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bu \u015fer d\u0259y\u0259ri il\u0259 ilk diqq\u0259timi \u00e7\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

A\u011flayan qad\u0131n\u0131 sevmir ki\u015fil\u0259r,
\n \u00c7\u0259tin bu \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259m xo\u015funa.
\n Yen\u0259 bax, g\u0259lmi\u015f\u0259m, bir q\u0259d\u0259h g\u0259tir,
\n S\u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131, al \u00e7\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131na.
\n Bir d\u0259 bax,
\n s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 baxanda, can\u0131m,
\n \u0130lk e\u015fqin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc yad\u0131na s\u0259nin?
\n S\u00fcz\u00fcm g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131, al \u00e7\u0259k ba\u015f\u0131na,
\n Qoy s\u0259rxo\u015f desinl\u0259r ad\u0131na s\u0259nin.
\n \u00dcmid a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fckd\u00fcr, s\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fcs\u0259n,
\n N\u0259bad\u0259 dar\u0131xma, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259m yen\u0259.
\n H\u0259l\u0259 ax\u015fama var, g\u00f6zl\u0259 a\u011flay\u0131m,
\n Yar\u0131m dem\u0259sinl\u0259r q\u0259d\u0259hl\u0259rin\u0259.
\n X\u0259yal\u0131n dola\u015f\u0131r yar\u0131yuxulu,
\n M\u0259nim taleyimin k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259.
\n Ka\u015f bir d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259ydim nec\u0259 olursan,
\n O s\u0259rxo\u015f oldu\u011fun gec\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259.
\n Fikrimc\u0259 bu \u015fer yaln\u0131z sev\u0259n v\u0259 duyan k\u00f6n\u00fcll\u0259rin haray\u0131d\u0131r. Haray\u0131 is\u0259 Ab\u0259niz \u018fliyar qald\u0131r\u0131b. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn saf q\u0259lbinin, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzinin m\u0259hsulu kimi. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 formada s\u00f6zd\u0259n s\u0259rxo\u015f bir sevgi d\u00fcnyas\u0131 yarad\u0131b. Meyd\u0259n yox, g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131nda \u015f\u0259rxo\u015f bir d\u00fcnya.<\/p>\n

A\u00e7d\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini, bildim, anlad\u0131m,
\n Bu \u00fcr\u0259k \u00f6z\u011f\u0259nin, bu b\u0259d\u0259n yad\u0131n,
\n Ax\u0131 m\u0259n deyil\u0259m dediyin qad\u0131n,
\n N\u0259yimi sevirs\u0259n, n\u0259yimi m\u0259nim?
\n Bax\u0131n, n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l deyib Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m. A\u00e7\u0131lan \u00fcr\u0259yin sevgi y\u00fck\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259mimi v\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rli bir cavab. Bu cavab \u00fcr\u0259yini a\u00e7an\u0131 s\u0131nd\u0131rm\u0131r m\u0259nc\u0259. \u00dcr\u0259yin v\u0259 b\u0259d\u0259nin \u00f6zg\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259xsuslu\u011fu sad\u0259 v\u0259 s\u0259mimi formada deyilib. \u018fslind\u0259 h\u0259qiqi sevginin axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00fcmid verilib, \u00fcnvan\u0131n o olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 el\u0259 sevgi notlar\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131l\u0131b.<\/p>\n

Bir siqaret yand\u0131r,
\n ikimiz \u00e7\u0259k\u0259k…
\n Qoyma ki, s\u00f6ns\u00fcn…
\n He\u00e7 olmasa, dodaqlar\u0131m,
\n dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n yerin\u0259 toxunsun…<\/p>\n

Yanad\u0131r\u0131lan v\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259rin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi siqaretin s\u00f6nm\u0259sini ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n m\u00fc\u0259llif \u0259l \u00e7atmayan sevgisinin \u0259trin\u0259, dodaqlar\u0131n bir-birinm\u0259 toxunma yoluna nec\u0259 s\u0259mimi yana\u015f\u0131b. Sanki bu siqaret s\u00f6ns\u0259 q\u00f6n\u00e7\u0259 sevgi pu\u00e7 olacaq v\u0259 dodaqlar bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 zaman birl\u0259\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k.
\n Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar \u015ferl\u0259rind\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n a\u011fr\u0131l\u0131 qad\u0131n, sevgid\u0259n \u0259zaba ged\u0259n yolun yol\u00e7usu kimi d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr v\u0259 h\u0259tta \u0259l a\u00e7\u0131b Allahdan can\u0131n\u0131n el\u0259 bel\u0259 al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 yox, iztirab v\u0259 ac\u0131 il\u0259 al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131, \u00e7\u0259kdiyi a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131n he\u00e7 kimin bilm\u0259m\u0259sini ist\u0259yir. Bu \u015fairin a\u011fr\u0131larla ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qala bil\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, h\u0259tta onu \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259 malik olmas\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259r vers\u0259 d\u0259 misralar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259n\u0259n nikbinliyi d\u0259 sezm\u0259m\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. \u201cM\u0259ni\u201d \u015ferinin ilk b\u0259ndi dediyim a\u011fr\u0131 y\u00fck\u00fc il\u0259, Allahdan daha k\u0259skin a\u011fr\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259si il\u0259 t\u0259qdim olunur.<\/p>\n

Allah, el\u0259-bel\u0259 alma bu can\u0131,<\/p>\n

Bir soyuq bax\u0131\u015fa tu\u015f eyl\u0259 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Qara gec\u0259l\u0259ri sev\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259lin,<\/p>\n

G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 bir damla ya\u015f eyl\u0259 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 a\u011fr\u0131 ver ki, bilm\u0259sin he\u00e7 kim,<\/p>\n

\u018fqlimi m\u0259hkum et, ruhumu k\u00fcsk\u00fcn.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259l g\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc qur; buludlu, \u00e7iskin,<\/p>\n

Sonra bir haval\u0131 qu\u015f eyl\u0259 m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131n, misra-misran\u0131n t\u0259sdiqi v\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131d\u0131r el\u0259 bil. Allahdan can\u0131n\u0131n el\u0259-bel\u0259 al\u0131nmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n \u015fair soyuq bax\u0131\u015fa tu\u015f g\u0259lm\u0259yini, qara gec\u0259l\u0259ri sev\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259lin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 ya\u015f olma\u011f\u0131, s\u0259rh\u0259dsiz g\u00f6yl\u0259rd\u0259 haval\u0131 qu\u015f olma\u011f\u0131 da ist\u0259yir. Dem\u0259li, Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m yen\u0259 sevgiy\u0259 do\u011fru qa\u00e7\u0131r, ona s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131 y\u00fck\u00fcn\u00fcn m\u0259hz g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 bir haval\u0131 qu\u015fa d\u00f6n\u00fcb yox etm\u0259k, sevdalanan g\u00fcnl\u0259rini ya\u015famaq ist\u0259yir. Bu is\u0259 olduqca g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. Ziddiyy\u0259tl\u0259r i\u00e7ind\u0259 \u015firin bir \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u00fcr v\u0259 Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar deyil\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fc h\u0259qiqi m\u0259nada ya\u015faya bilib. Onun \u201cM\u0259n burda a\u011flayanda\u201d \u015feri d\u0259 bu m\u0259nada diqq\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n

M\u0259n burda a\u011flayanda kim duyar ki, s\u0259simi?<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131ram p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n, a\u011faclar sapsar\u0131d\u0131r,<\/p>\n

M\u0259nim h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar\u0131m m\u0259nim s\u0259sim deyil ki,<\/p>\n

K\u00fcs\u00fcb a\u011facdan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n pay\u0131z yarpaqlar\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

B\u0259li, h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131qlar Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m\u0131n s\u0259si deyil. Saralan bir pay\u0131z yarpa\u011f\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 buda\u011f\u0131ndan qopub d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb. Amma bu faci\u0259 d\u0259 deyil. Bu a\u011fac h\u0259l\u0259 \u00e7ox yarpaqlar g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k. Dem\u0259k ki, g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 da onu \u00f6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna kimi yolda\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 sirda\u015f\u0131 olmayacaq. Bir yaz g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 a\u011faclar yenid\u0259n yarpaqlayanda onun da sevgi d\u00fcnyas\u0131 nurlanacaq. Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bunu g\u00f6r\u00fcr.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n orda bax\u0131\u015f\u0131nla sa\u00e7lar\u0131m\u0131 ox\u015fama,
\n Ke\u00e7m\u0259z ki, bu h\u0259sr\u0259tim, bitm\u0259z ki, bu g\u00f6yn\u0259yim.
\n M\u0259n burda a\u011flayanda gec\u0259l\u0259r x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n,
\n Orda yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131n yerd\u0259 islan\u0131rm\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259yin?<\/p>\n

Burda qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f\u0259 etiraz var. Amma k\u0259skin deyil. Yum\u015faqd\u0131r. Sanki qaydacaq secgiy\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yinin qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q qoyub. Bu iradlar\u0131n, x\u0131s\u0131n-x\u0131s\u0131n a\u011flama\u011f\u0131n, yaranan suallar\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 d\u0259 v\u00fcsala \u00fcmid ya\u015fay\u0131r. \u015eerl\u0259rd\u0259ki k\u0259d\u0259r, a\u011fr\u0131 v\u0259 iztirab h\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyin sonu oldu\u011fu anlam\u0131na g\u0259lmir. H\u0259l\u0259 ya\u015fanmal\u0131 ill\u0259r var, h\u0259l\u0259 qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n saf m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t v\u0259 insan\u0131 ilahil\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n e\u015fq var. \u201cS\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan \u201d \u015feri il\u0259 Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m el\u0259 bil m\u0259n duyanlara m\u00f6hr\u00fcn\u00fc vurur.<\/p>\n

Bu sevginin \u00fcr\u0259k yeri,<\/p>\n

Qaz\u0131l\u0131r, s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

Yuxlay\u0131ram, kiprikl\u0259rim<\/p>\n

As\u0131l\u0131r, s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m ki, bu sirr n\u0259dir,<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni h\u0259r gec\u0259 lal edir.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fifr\u0259l\u0259r bir\u0259bir,<\/p>\n

A\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

Bu \u00fcr\u0259k quyudur, quyu,<\/p>\n

Suyu dumduru, dumduru.<\/p>\n

O t\u0259miz, o \u015f\u0259ffaf suyu<\/p>\n

\u0130\u00e7ilir, s\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

Yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q bir t\u0259r\u0259fli olsayd\u0131 t\u0259bii sevilm\u0259zdi. H\u0259r \u015fer seginin, ya\u015fam\u0131n t\u0259sdiqi v\u0259 t\u0259sviri kimi t\u0259qdim edils\u0259ydi inand\u0131r\u0131c\u0131 olmazd\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fckl\u00fck ondad\u0131r ki, m\u00fcxt\u0259lif ac\u0131lar\u0131 duya bilirs\u0259n, onu ictimail\u0259\u015fdirirs\u0259n v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t d\u0259rd y\u00fckl\u00fc anlara \u00fcsyan da ed\u0259 bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Qan\u0131m\u0131n faizi \u00e7ox a\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131r,
\n S\u0259nin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n yer\u0259 qan s\u0131zar.
\n \u0130\u00e7\u0259r\u0259m qan\u0131n\u0131, dodaqlar\u0131ndan,
\n A\u011fz\u0131m dada g\u0259l\u0259r, ota\u011f\u0131m q\u0131zar.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00fcsyan. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 olub. B\u00fcr\u00fcn m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rin darmada\u011f\u0131n oldu\u011fu m\u0259qamda dodaqlar bir-birin\u0259 yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b qan\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xana, i\u00e7il\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t yaran\u0131rsa, bar\u0131\u015f\u0131\u011fa yol bel\u0259c\u0259 gedirs\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn gileyl\u0259r unudulur, h\u0259yat yenid\u0259n ba\u015flan\u0131r. \u015eair bir onda yadda\u015flara k\u00f6\u00e7\u00fcr ki o m\u00f6vzunu real h\u0259yatdan g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr. Ya \u00f6z\u00fc ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, ya da h\u0259ssas bir insan kimi onu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259nl\u0259ri q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Sevgid\u0259n k\u0259m nec\u0259 olur,
\n Baxt\u0131 qad\u0131n\u0131n, bilir\u0259m.
\n H\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatma\u011fa,
\n \u00c7oxdu qad\u0131n\u0131n, bilir\u0259m…<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259lin iki misras\u0131 il\u0259 sonun iki misras\u0131n\u0131n ziddiyy\u0259tli formada bir-birini g\u00fccl\u0259ndirdiyini g\u00f6rd\u00fcn\u00fczm\u00fc? Sevgid\u0259n k\u0259m qad\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259xti v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qatma\u011fa qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7oxlu\u011fu. H\u0259yat budur. Bunu t\u0259bii ya\u015fayanlar v\u0259 duyanlar bilir.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 m\u0259n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131ram,
\n N\u0259 s\u0259n dizl\u0259rimd\u0259 yata bilirs\u0259n.
\n Bu da bir x\u0259yald\u0131r, sevin ki, h\u0259l\u0259,
\n M\u0259nim i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u00e7ata bilirs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Art\u0131q burda q\u00fcrurlu bir xan\u0131m obraz\u0131 var. Sa\u00e7\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallaya, dizinin \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 yat\u0131rda bilmir, amma bunu x\u0259yal ed\u0259r\u0259k i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131ma indi \u00e7ata bilirs\u0259n dem\u0259si q\u00fcrurun, m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131n t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259sidir.<\/p>\n

Bir sevda d\u00fc\u015f\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131na,
\n Qan\u0131nda qaynaya ke\u00e7\u0259.
\n Bir qad\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z x\u0259yal\u0131,
\n G\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 oynaya ke\u00e7\u0259.<\/p>\n

Burda art\u0131q yeni bir tap\u0131nt\u0131 var. E\u015fqin aliliyini ya\u015fayan insan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6mr\u00fcn yar\u0131 ya\u015f\u0131nda qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n q\u0131z x\u0259yal\u0131 ke\u00e7ir. \u00c7ox t\u0259biidir. Amma he\u00e7 kimi dem\u0259diyi m\u0259qamd\u0131r. Safl\u0131qd\u0131r, d\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131\u015f, h\u0259yata ba\u011fl\u0131l\u0131qd\u0131r bu misralar.<\/p>\n

\u201cQ\u00fcrubda g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u201d kitab\u0131 kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259hat\u0259li, \u0259ks\u0259r m\u00f6vzularda \u015fair q\u0259l\u0259minin u\u011furu il\u0259 dolu \u015ferl\u0259rl\u0259 y\u00fckl\u0259nib. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn dediyi kimi \u015ferl\u0259ri h\u0259yat e\u015fqli, sevgi y\u00fckl\u00fcd\u00fcr. Yax\u015f\u0131 ki, y\u00fck\u00fcm\u00fcz d\u0259 ancaq sevgi y\u00fck\u00fcd\u00fcr. Bu y\u00fck\u00fc da\u015f\u0131ya bil\u0259nl\u0259rin sevda d\u00fcnyas\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

H\u0259l\u0259 \u00f6mr\u00fcn g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rinin a\u011fu\u015fundad\u0131r, Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u00fcdrikliy\u0259 ged\u0259n yolun ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131ndad\u0131r. Onun \u015eabran sevgisi, b\u00fct\u00f6v V\u0259t\u0259n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti, Bayra\u011fa h\u00f6rm\u0259ti, Xocal\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n faci\u0259sin\u0259 h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fc q\u0259l\u0259minin g\u00fcc\u00fcnd\u0259, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn sehrind\u0259 ham\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn do\u011fmad\u0131r. \u0130lki bel\u0259 ba\u015flayan yolun sonu t\u0259bii s\u0259n\u0259t zirv\u0259sind\u0259 yer tutmaqd\u0131r. Sizi g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n zirv\u0259 yeriniz m\u00fcbar\u0259k Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m. \u018fg\u0259r sizi duyub n\u0259s\u0259 dey\u0259 bildims\u0259 n\u0259 xo\u015f m\u0259n\u0259. Dey\u0259 bilm\u0259dims\u0259 bu art\u0131q sizin h\u0259yat e\u015fqinizin, ilahi t\u0259f\u0259kk\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fcn m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00e7ox-\u00e7ox qaba\u011fa getm\u0259sidir. Amma sad\u0259 bir oxucu olaraq bunlar\u0131 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yi vacib bildim.<\/p>\n

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Zaman-zaman Ayb\u0259niz \u018fliyar\u0131n d\u00f6vr\u00fc m\u0259tbuatda, feyzbuk s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 yeni \u015ferl\u0259ri il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015f\u0131ram. H\u0259r \u015ferini d\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 oxuyuram. A\u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 deyim ki, onun \u015ferl\u0259rind\u0259ki c\u0259sar\u0259t m\u0259ni ovsunlay\u0131b. Ham\u0131n\u0131n g\u00fcnd\u0259lik h\u0259yatda qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259qamlar\u0131 Ayb\u0259niz xan\u0131m s\u00f6z\u00fcn sehri il\u0259 el\u0259 cilalay\u0131r ki, ovsunlanmaya bilmirs\u0259n. Balaca bir \u00fcr\u0259y\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z\u00fcn v\u0259 s\u00f6zd\u0259n do\u011fan sevginin nec\u0259 yerl\u0259\u015fdiyi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcr adam\u0131. Onun h\u0259yata […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-16743","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16743","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=16743"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16743\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":16747,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/16743\/revisions\/16747"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=16743"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=16743"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=16743"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}