{"id":17533,"date":"2016-01-25T07:30:42","date_gmt":"2016-01-25T03:30:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=17533"},"modified":"2016-01-25T10:27:51","modified_gmt":"2016-01-25T06:27:51","slug":"aysel-abdullazad%c9%99-seir-essel%c9%99r","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=17533","title":{"rendered":"Aysel ABDULLAZAD\u018f.\u015eeir-Essel\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/12607218_940774069370199_1120366057_n.jpg\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-17541\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/12607218_940774069370199_1120366057_n-231x300.jpg\" alt=\"12607218_940774069370199_1120366057_n\" width=\"231\" height=\"300\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-17541\" srcset=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/12607218_940774069370199_1120366057_n-231x300.jpg 231w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/01\/12607218_940774069370199_1120366057_n.jpg 588w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 231px) 100vw, 231px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Filoloq-yazar, YeniBaxis.Az sayt\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktoru Aysel Abdullazad\u0259nin \u015feir-essel\u0259ri.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam&#8230;&#8221;<br \/>\nM\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\n15 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u0259r\u0259 verib<br \/>\nkitablar\u0131mdan ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\narzular\u0131m\u0131 bo\u011fdu\u011funuz<br \/>\nyum\u015faq oyunca\u011f\u0131mla yatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn<br \/>\nm\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\n16 ya\u015f\u0131nda ana olan<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcm u\u015faq ik\u0259n<br \/>\n\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n bir u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n zaman \u00f6ld\u00fcm.<br \/>\nYa\u015f\u0131dlar\u0131m m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 ged\u0259rk\u0259n<br \/>\nm\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcm,<br \/>\nOnlar k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 gizl\u0259nqa\u00e7 oynayark\u0259n<br \/>\nm\u0259ni \u0259rim zorlad\u0131\u011f\u0131nda oldum&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\nD\u0259ft\u0259r yerin\u0259 \u0259limd\u0259 bir k\u00fclf\u0259tin qazan qa\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131<br \/>\nM\u0259zun geyimi \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 a\u011f g\u0259linlik libas\u0131 geydirdiyiniz<br \/>\nk\u0259f\u0259n misal\u0131&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\ndiri-diri torpa\u011fa basd\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\noca\u011fa at\u0131b yand\u0131rd\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\nda\u015flad\u0131n\u0131z, d\u0131\u015flad\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\nyetm\u0259di, k\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 sovurdunuz&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\nQ\u0131z oldu\u011fu ucun abort olunmu\u015f k\u00f6rp\u0259nin \u00e7\u0131\u011fl\u0131\u011f\u0131yam<br \/>\n\u018fr qorxusu il\u0259 o masada<br \/>\ncan\u0131ndan balas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xaran anan\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki f\u0259ryad\u0131yam.<br \/>\nB\u00fct\u00f6v deyil,<br \/>\nhiss\u0259-hiss\u0259 do\u011frayan c\u0259rrah b\u0131\u00e7a\u011f\u0131n\u0131n iti bax\u0131\u015f\u0131yam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam<br \/>\n\u018fsir bildiyiniz, cariy\u0259 etdiyiniz<br \/>\nBir gec\u0259d\u0259 30 d\u0259f\u0259 t\u0259cav\u00fcz etdiyiniz<br \/>\nSa\u00e7\u0131ndan asd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z, ruhunu q\u0131rbaclad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z<br \/>\nm\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>O qad\u0131nam,<br \/>\ngec\u0259 k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xsam, poz\u011fun dediyiniz<br \/>\nev\u0259 gec qay\u0131tsam, &#8220;adam\u0131&#8221; var dediyiniz<br \/>\nbo\u015fanarsam, potensial fahi\u015f\u0259 kimi g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz<br \/>\nDilinizl\u0259, dininizl\u0259, belinizl\u0259<br \/>\n\u00d6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam.<br \/>\nAmma bu g\u00fcn ayaqda duran<br \/>\n\u00c7al\u0131\u015fan, qazanan, \u00f6vlad yeti\u015fdir\u0259n<br \/>\nTopluma a\u00e7\u0131lan, s\u00f6z sahibi olan,<br \/>\noxumu\u015f, bilgili, k\u00fclt\u00fcrl\u00fc<br \/>\nCan\u0131na oxuya bilm\u0259diyiniz,<br \/>\nda\u015flayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z,<br \/>\nd\u0131\u015flayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z,<br \/>\nyand\u0131ramad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z,<br \/>\nBitir\u0259m\u0259diyiniz bu qad\u0131nam m\u0259n!<br \/>\nM\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m\u0259diyiniz qad\u0131nam!<\/p>\n<p>*****<\/p>\n<p>Yelken ol, k\u00fcrek ol<br \/>\nD\u00fcmen ol<br \/>\nBal\u0131k ol, su ol<br \/>\nGit, gide bildiyin yere&#8230; (Naz\u0131m Hikmetd\u0259n etkil\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k)<\/p>\n<p>Bir adam<br \/>\ndal\u011falar\u0131n qayaya vuran yerind\u0259<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7i \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259rl\u0259 qaplanm\u0131\u015f<br \/>\nDil\u0259kl\u0259rini \u00fcr\u0259yinin \u0259n d\u0259rinin\u0259 g\u00f6mm\u00fc\u015f<br \/>\nCan\u0131 ac\u0131yan bir adam d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr:<br \/>\n &#8230; &#8211; Buludlara uzatsam \u0259limi,<br \/>\n\u00e7atarm\u0131 b\u0259yazl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259y\u0259<br \/>\nSuya toxunsam,<br \/>\nqula\u011f\u0131mda \u00e7\u0131nlayarm\u0131 \u015f\u0131r\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131<br \/>\nYa da g\u0259miy\u0259 mins\u0259m,<br \/>\nged\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259mmi arzular\u0131n liman\u0131na<\/p>\n<p>Yosun olsam,<br \/>\nyap\u0131\u015fsam he\u00e7 qopmadan dil\u0259k qayas\u0131na<br \/>\nG\u0259mi olsam,<br \/>\nd\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259 bils\u0259m, \u0259n uzaq d\u0259nizl\u0259rin sular\u0131 il\u0259<br \/>\nYa da bal\u0131qm\u0131 olsam,<br \/>\ngets\u0259m, ta uzaqlara ged\u0259 bildiyim q\u0259d\u0259r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bal\u0131q oldum, ey d\u0259niz, al m\u0259ni d\u0259 qoynuna<br \/>\nS\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259ldim,<br \/>\nya\u015fat m\u0259ni \u0131ss\u0131z sular\u0131nda&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>*****<br \/>\nBilirs\u0259nmi, ged\u0259nl\u0259r he\u00e7 d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 unudanlar olmur<br \/>\nBilirs\u0259nmi, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259r h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n deyil<br \/>\narzular h\u0259r dey\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7in \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r<br \/>\nx\u0259yal h\u0259r zaman ger\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcr<br \/>\nyax\u015f\u0131l\u0131q h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yadda qalm\u0131r,<br \/>\npislik is\u0259 tez yadda\u015fa hopur&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bilirs\u0259nmi, x\u0259st\u0259xanalar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 can qaytarm\u0131r,<br \/>\ncan sat\u0131l\u0131r b\u0259z\u0259n bu &#8220;bazarda&#8221;.<br \/>\nm\u0259scidl\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn dualar\u0131 g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fcr<br \/>\nO&#8217;na evind\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259nm\u0259k bel\u0259, avantaj olmur insanlara<br \/>\nva\u011fzallar ayr\u0131l\u0131qlar\u0131 daha \u00e7ox ya\u015fay\u0131b<br \/>\nvidalar\u0131n \u0259l sallayan g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcnd\u0259n bezib b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259.<br \/>\ng\u0259mil\u0259r h\u0259r zaman geri qay\u0131tm\u0131r&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Bilirs\u0259n, yand\u0131r\u0131lan h\u0259r siqaret \u0259fkar\u0131 da\u011f\u0131tm\u0131r<br \/>\nsiqaret yand\u0131ran b\u00fct\u00fcn adamlar da dar\u0131xm\u0131r<br \/>\nal\u0131\u015fqan\u0131n ucundak\u0131 alovla siqar yand\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259rs\u0259n,<br \/>\n\u0259slind\u0259 yanan ciy\u0259rin olar<br \/>\ni\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyin o t\u00fcst\u00fc ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 can ver\u0259r<br \/>\nbir qad\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6zl\u0259mi qalxar g\u00f6y\u0259 ki\u015fi dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>bilirs\u0259nmi, yanaqlardan s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u0259n g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131nda<br \/>\nq\u0259lbin qanaxmas\u0131 ba\u015flayar<br \/>\nkliniki \u00f6l\u00fcm ke\u00e7ir\u0259r b\u00fct\u00fcn hissiyyata m\u0259hkum orqanlar&#8230;<br \/>\nbilmirs\u0259n ki, bir \u00fcr\u0259yin a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 insandan ke\u00e7\u0259r<br \/>\nya varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan<br \/>\nya da yoxlu\u011fundan \u0259zab ver\u0259r.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Filoloq-yazar, YeniBaxis.Az sayt\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015f redaktoru Aysel Abdullazad\u0259nin \u015feir-essel\u0259ri. &#8220;M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam&#8230;&#8221; M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam 15 ya\u015f\u0131nda \u0259r\u0259 verib kitablar\u0131mdan ay\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131z arzular\u0131m\u0131 bo\u011fdu\u011funuz yum\u015faq oyunca\u011f\u0131mla yatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn m\u0259ni \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcn\u00fcz&#8230; M\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcz qad\u0131nam 16 ya\u015f\u0131nda ana olan \u00f6z\u00fcm u\u015faq ik\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259n bir u\u015faq d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259n zaman \u00f6ld\u00fcm. 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