{"id":17551,"date":"2016-01-25T10:00:13","date_gmt":"2016-01-25T06:00:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=17551"},"modified":"2016-01-25T12:18:28","modified_gmt":"2016-01-25T08:18:28","slug":"rafiq-oday-s%c9%99nd%c9%99n-ozg%c9%99-kimim-var-ki","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=17551","title":{"rendered":"Rafiq ODAY.”S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259 kimim var ki…”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"rafiqoday\"<\/a><\/p>\n

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 \u015fair\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n
\neyniadl\u0131 kitab\u0131na yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00f6n s\u00f6z<\/p>\n

Poeziya s\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131m\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 poeziyada he\u00e7 m\u00f6vzu q\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yoxdur. Bununla bel\u0259 poeziyan\u0131n el\u0259 \u0259z\u0259li v\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di m\u00f6vzular\u0131 vard\u0131r ki, bu m\u00f6vzulara min ill\u0259rdi ki, butun q\u0259l\u0259m sahibl\u0259ri m\u00fcrac\u0259t edir v\u0259 bug\u00fcn d\u0259 bu bel\u0259dir. V\u0259t\u0259n sevgisi, yurd-yuva h\u0259sr\u0259ti, e\u015fq v\u0259 bu e\u015fqd\u0259n do\u011fan v\u00fcsalla b\u0259rab\u0259r iztirab, h\u0259sr\u0259t, hicran, ayr\u0131l\u0131q, h\u0259yat v\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm, kan v\u0259 m\u0259kan, tale-qism\u0259t bu q\u0259bild\u0259n olan m\u00f6vzulardand\u0131r. Oxucular\u0131n g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 “S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259 kimim var ki…” kitab\u0131 il\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n \u015fair\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n mayas\u0131nda, qay\u0259sind\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259sas\u0259n bu m\u00f6vzular dayan\u0131r. Soz adam\u0131na qiym\u0259t onun yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259na v\u0259 m\u0259zmun y\u00fck\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 verildiyind\u0259n m\u0259n d\u0259 bu yaz\u0131m\u0131:
\nH\u0259l\u0259 yol \u00fcst\u0259y\u0259m, s\u0259f\u0259rim uzaq,<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni \u00f6z yolumdan saxlamaq olmaz.
\n\u00c7\u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259 at\u0259\u015f var, i\u00e7imd\u0259 sazaq,<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni bu s\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259 haqlamaq olmaz. – dey\u0259n \u015fair\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259n\u0259r\u0259k yazmaq q\u0259rar\u0131na g\u0259ldim v\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 bunun ba\u015fqa yolu da yoxdur.<\/p>\n

***
\nHam\u0131 and i\u00e7\u0259r ad\u0131na,
\nAd\u0131n m\u0259nim and\u0131m, V\u0259t\u0259n.
\nS\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259z\u0259l, s\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259fz\u0259l,
\nN\u0259 vard\u0131sa dand\u0131m, V\u0259t\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Ana m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259slik, safl\u0131q, pakl\u0131q r\u0259mzidir – v\u0259t\u0259n kimi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259dir ki, v\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 ana v\u0259t\u0259n deyirik. \u201cC\u0259nn\u0259t analar\u0131n ayaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131ndad\u0131r\u201d deyib pey\u011f\u0259mb\u0259rimiz. Y\u0259ni, kim anas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ziz, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s tutsa, ona say\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 qay\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rs\u0259, xidm\u0259tind\u0259 dursa, naz\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259ks\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259 yer behl\u0259mi\u015f olur. V\u0259t\u0259n d\u0259 el\u0259. Kim v\u0259t\u0259ni can\u0131, qan\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r sevirs\u0259, \u0259min-amaql\u0131q \u015f\u0259raitind\u0259 \u0259kib-bec\u0259rir, yadellil\u0259rin h\u00fccumna m\u0259ruz qald\u0131qlda onun m\u00fcdafi\u0259sin\u0259 qalx\u0131rsa, son anda can\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 qurban ver\u0259r\u0259k \u015f\u0259hidlik zirv\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00fcks\u0259lirs\u0259, yen\u0259 d\u0259 c\u0259nn\u0259td\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 yer ay\u0131rm\u0131\u015f olur. Budur ANA il\u0259 V\u018fT\u018fNin qo\u015fal\u0131 xisl\u0259ti:<\/p>\n

…M\u0259n ki s\u0259n\u0259 \u0259z\u0259l g\u00fcnd\u0259n
\nH\u0259m ruh, h\u0259m d\u0259 cand\u0131m, v\u0259t\u0259n…
\n…Dayaq ol s\u0259n bu g\u00fcn ata-anana,
\nTanr\u0131 da yard\u0131m\u00e7\u0131 olacaq s\u0259n\u0259…<\/p>\n

V\u0259t\u0259n\u0259 sevgi azalanda, v\u0259t\u0259nin d\u0259rdl\u0259ri \u00e7oxal\u0131r. Faci\u0259l\u0259r azalan sevgil\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015flay\u0131r. Bu faci\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fcn rolu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox olarsa, m\u00fcsib\u0259tl\u0259rimiz bir o q\u0259d\u0259r d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z, sa\u011falmaz olar:<\/p>\n

Q\u0131yd\u0131lar torpaq-da\u015f\u0131na,
\n\u00c7\u0131xanlar ocaq ba\u015f\u0131na…<\/p>\n

Bir t\u0259s\u0259llimiz onda olur ki, h\u0259l\u0259 bu v\u0259t\u0259n u\u011frunda can qoyma\u011fa, balas\u0131 kimi ba\u015f\u0131na dolanma\u011fa haz\u0131r olanlar v\u0259 m\u0259qam\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 bu yolda m\u00fccadil\u0259 etm\u0259yi \u00f6zl\u0259rinin \u015f\u0259r\u0259f i\u015fi bilirl\u0259r var:<\/p>\n

Doland\u0131r m\u0259ni ba\u015f\u0131na,
\nQoy m\u0259n olum balan, \u015eu\u015fam!<\/p>\n

***
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti, h\u0259yat \u0259b\u0259di,
\n\u00d6l\u00fcmd\u00fcr bizl\u0259r\u0259 baxan q\u0131yqac\u0131.
\nFikrim\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir sual g\u0259ldi,
\nH\u0259yatm\u0131 \u015firindir, \u00f6l\u00fcmm\u00fc ac\u0131?<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcn m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259ti oldu\u011funu bil\u0259n, bunu bilib d\u0259, h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 buna uy\u011fun quran insan\u0131n \u00f6l\u00fcmd\u0259n qorxusu olmaz. \u00d6l\u00fcm n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0131yqac\u0131 bax\u0131rsa-baxs\u0131n bel\u0259. Bu zaman h\u0259yat\u0131n \u015firinliyi il\u0259 \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn ac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 aras\u0131ndak\u0131 f\u0259rqi d\u0259 axtarm\u011fa ehtiyac qalmaz. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259yat – \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn lab\u00fcdl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259rk edib, onu sevgi il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011f\u0131 bacaranlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015firin, \u00f6l\u00fcm – \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra bir iz qoymayanlar, o dunyaya, mizan-t\u0259r\u0259zi m\u0259qam\u0131na, hesab g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u0259 \u0259libo\u015f ged\u0259nl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ac\u0131d\u0131r.<\/p>\n

D\u0259rdl\u0259rim s\u0131\u011f\u0131\u015fm\u0131r daha ka\u011f\u0131za,
\nDurub yazacam m\u0259n g\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259.<\/p>\n

\u018fslind\u0259 d\u0259rd faci\u0259 deyil, onu faci\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evirm\u0259k faci\u0259dir. Yer al\u0259mind\u0259 d\u0259rdi b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 bir kims\u0259 tap\u0131l\u0131rsa h\u0259l\u0259, narahat olma\u011fa d\u0259ym\u0259z. D\u0259h\u015f\u0259t d\u0259rdi b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259 kims\u0259nin tap\u0131lmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u0259qamadan p\u0259rv\u0259ri\u015f tap\u0131r. \u0130nsan yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259md\u0259m, h\u0259md\u0259rd tapmayanda \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y al\u0259min\u0259 tutur, \u00fcmid, g\u00fcv\u0259nc, p\u0259nah yeri kimi.
\nG\u00f6y \u00fcz\u00fc t\u0259mizlik, safl\u0131q, pakl\u0131q m\u0259kan\u0131d\u0131. Nurlar al\u0259midi. Sevgi, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259t, haqq-\u0259dal\u0259t, insaniyy\u0259t nuru buradan \u0259l\u0259nir insanlar\u0131n q\u0259lbin\u0259. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 el\u0259, bir ya\u011f\u0131\u015f donunda:<\/p>\n

Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011far, dayanmadan, hey ya\u011far,
\nG\u00f6y\u00fcn yer\u0259 sevgisini bildir\u0259r.
\nYa\u011f\u0131\u015f ya\u011far \u00fcr\u0259yim\u0259, hey ya\u011far,
\nD\u0259rd-s\u0259rimi damla-damla \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u0259r.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259min, k\u0259d\u0259rin, d\u0259rdin, \u0259l\u0259min \u00f6l\u00fcm an\u0131ndan sevincin, sevginin i\u015fart\u0131lar\u0131 boy g\u00f6st\u0259rir. Bu zaman ill\u0259rl\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t girdab\u0131nda \u00e7abalayan insan, \u00f6z g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 bel\u0259, inanmaq ist\u0259mir. Bunun bir qism\u0259tmi, al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131m\u0131, Tanr\u0131 \u0259rm\u0259\u011fan\u0131m\u0131 oldu\u011funu o d\u0259qiq\u0259 k\u0259sdir\u0259 bilmir. Q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n sualqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q bir nida ba\u015f qald\u0131r\u0131r:<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131m\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi ya\u011f\u0131\u015f donunda,
\nYoxsa g\u00fcnah\u0131nda yuyunub g\u0259ldin?<\/p>\n

Sevgi \u0130lahid\u0259n b\u0259x\u015f olunmu\u015f ruhi qidad\u0131r. T\u0259bii ki, e\u015fq, m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t h\u0259yat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn d\u00f6n\u0259ml\u0259rind\u0259 ruhun qidas\u0131 rolunu oynaya bilmir. \u00c7\u00fcnki sevgid\u0259, eyni zamanda, bir qo\u015fal\u0131q xilq\u0259ti d\u0259 var. S\u0259nin ist\u0259yin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n m\u00fcsb\u0259t impulslar g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 ya\u015famaq da, bu ya\u015fam i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 sevm\u0259k d\u0259 h\u0259m ruhani, h\u0259m d\u0259 cismani t\u0259l\u0259bata \u00e7evrilir, sanki insan m\u0259l\u0259kl\u0259rin qanad\u0131ndaym\u0131\u015f kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y\u00fcn yeddinci qatinda \u00e7ox rahat v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss edir:<\/p>\n

Yolda\u015fl\u0131q ed\u0259c\u0259m b\u0259yaz buluda,
\nN\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259r dey\u0259c\u0259m gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u0259.<\/p>\n

H\u0259tta bu e\u015fq:<\/p>\n

Bu d\u0259rd q\u00f6vr eyl\u0259yir ba\u011fr\u0131mda m\u0259nim,
\nE\u015fqindir \u0259zab\u0131m, a\u011fr\u0131m da m\u0259nim. – m\u0259qam\u0131na y\u00fcks\u0259ls\u0259 bel\u0259.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

\u201cSevgim k\u00f6vr\u0259k bir a\u011facda qurulan qu\u015f yuvas\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259yir. X\u0259fif r\u00fczgara b\u0259nddir, u\u00e7ula bil\u0259r, da\u011f\u0131la bil\u0259r.
\nSevdam qaranl\u0131qda yol ged\u0259n yol\u00e7uya b\u0259nz\u0259yir. N\u0259hay\u0259tsiz yolda uzaqdan k\u00f6z\u0259r\u0259n bir i\u015f\u0131\u011fa h\u0259sr\u0259t qalan, h\u0259rd\u0259n \u0259trafa boylan\u0131b a\u011f\u0131r-a\u011f\u0131r n\u0259f\u0259s alan yol\u00e7uya.
\nArzular\u0131m, m\u0259sum k\u00f6rp\u0259l\u0259rin g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f\u0259 sar\u0131 y\u00fcy\u00fcrm\u0259si, r\u00f6yalar\u0131nda, ayparada yell\u0259nm\u0259si, \u00f6z ki\u00e7icik \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 qucaqlamaq arzusu.
\n\u00dcmidl\u0259rim, \u00e7ar\u0259siz bir x\u0259st\u0259nin sabaha inam\u0131, quruyan a\u011fac\u0131n n\u0259 vaxtsa canlanma g\u00fcman\u0131\u2026
\nSevgimi unut, sevdam\u0131 apar, \u00fcmidl\u0259rimi is\u0259 qaytar…
\n…Qaytar \u00fcmidl\u0259rimi\u2026\u201d
\nBu h\u0259zin, k\u00f6vr\u0259k misralar F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n \u201cQaytar \u00fcmidl\u0259rimi\u201d adl\u0131 m\u0259nsur \u015feirind\u0259ndir. \u00dcmumiyy\u0259tl\u0259, F\u0259rqan\u0259 xan\u0131m\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259nsur \u015feirl\u0259rinin dili ayd\u0131n, r\u0259van v\u0259 oxunaql\u0131d\u0131r. Bir m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259ni x\u00fcsusil\u0259 qeyd etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131 m\u0259nsur \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 bir \u015fair\u0259 kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc daha yax\u015f\u0131 ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilir. G\u00fcman edir\u0259m ki, kitab\u0131 oxuyandan sonra oxucular da m\u0259nim fikrimi t\u0259sdiq ed\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259r.
\nSonda \u015fair\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259 xan\u0131m Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131 “S\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6zg\u0259 kimim var ki…” adl\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259r kitab\u0131n\u0131n i\u015f\u0131q \u00fcz\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259si m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 t\u0259brik edir, ona yeni-yeni yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131q u\u011furlar\u0131 arzulay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Rafiq ODAY,
\n\u015fair-publisist, respublikan\u0131n \u018fm\u0259kdar jurnalisti<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il bundan \u00f6nc\u0259 \u015fair\u0259 F\u0259rqan\u0259 Yusifq\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n eyniadl\u0131 kitab\u0131na yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u00f6n s\u00f6z Poeziya s\u0259rh\u0259d tan\u0131m\u0131r v\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 poeziyada he\u00e7 m\u00f6vzu q\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yoxdur. Bununla bel\u0259 poeziyan\u0131n el\u0259 \u0259z\u0259li v\u0259 \u0259b\u0259di m\u00f6vzular\u0131 vard\u0131r ki, bu m\u00f6vzulara min ill\u0259rdi ki, butun q\u0259l\u0259m sahibl\u0259ri m\u00fcrac\u0259t edir v\u0259 bug\u00fcn d\u0259 bu bel\u0259dir. V\u0259t\u0259n sevgisi, yurd-yuva h\u0259sr\u0259ti, e\u015fq v\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-17551","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17551","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=17551"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17551\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":17553,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/17551\/revisions\/17553"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=17551"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=17551"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=17551"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}