{"id":18148,"date":"2016-02-21T19:00:49","date_gmt":"2016-02-21T15:00:49","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18148"},"modified":"2016-02-21T19:25:26","modified_gmt":"2016-02-21T15:25:26","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-ilkd%c9%99n-sona-ged%c9%99n-yolda","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18148","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”\u0130LKD\u018fN SONA GED\u018fN YOLDA”"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"1915291_748109358667106_2463672035380493579_n\"<\/a><\/p>\n

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259k… adic\u0259 bir k\u0259lm\u0259di, soyuqda \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259rl\u0259r. \u0130sti g\u0259l\u0259r, ke\u00e7\u0259r ged\u0259r bu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259k… Qalar xatir\u0259si…<\/p>\n

\u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259yin xatir\u0259si d\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini. Beynini o \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n qan\u0131n da “s\u0259rinliyini” hiss edirs\u0259n el\u0259 bil… \u0130ndi g\u00fcl\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259 tap\u0131lacaq bu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259yin f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 azma\u011f\u0131ma. Eynim\u0259 alm\u0131ram, \u0259min\u0259m ki, doda\u011f\u0131 qa\u00e7anlar D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131n\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rini oxumay\u0131blar.<\/p>\n

P\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259md\u0259n qarl\u0131 bir gec\u0259 ke\u00e7ir,
\n\u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fcn fotosu
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 bax\u0131r divardan.
\nYad\u0131ndam\u0131,
\nNec\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259sizdim
\nS\u0259n titr\u0259rk\u0259n soyuqdan.<\/p>\n

\u018fn \u0259zizinin, bir \u00fcr\u0259k daha do\u011fmas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb d\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259siz qalan adam\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259ki yan\u011f\u0131ya da ac\u0131\u011f\u0131 tutur, o yan\u011f\u0131dan bir ovuc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb sevdiyinin can\u0131ndak\u0131 soyu\u011fun ba\u015f\u0131na \u0259nd\u0259r\u0259 bilmir dey\u0259… D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131n\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rinin h\u0259r biri f\u0259rqli tablo…<\/p>\n

“\u0130lk v\u0259 son” kitab\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259dikc\u0259 r\u0259sm s\u0259rgisind\u0259ymi\u015f\u0259m kimi b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015feirl\u0259rin do\u011fuldu\u011fu an\u0131, “inq\u0259” s\u0259sl\u0259rini, bu s\u0259sin a\u011fr\u0131larla \u00e7arp\u0131\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 “g\u00f6rd\u00fcm”… D\u00fcnyan\u0131n t\u00fcm r\u0259ngl\u0259rind\u0259, h\u0259tta, r\u0259ng\u0259rin t\u00fcm \u00e7alarlar\u0131nda…<\/p>\n

Qar ya\u011f\u0131r soyuq q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259sin\u0259.
\n\u00c7ay evind\u0259 qoca r\u0259ssam
\n\u018fn \u00e7ox sevdiyi
\nBozarm\u0131\u015f-saralm\u0131\u015f tablosuyla
\n\u00d6d\u0259di b\u00fct\u00fcn borclar\u0131n\u0131.<\/p>\n

lll<\/p>\n

Ax\u015fam tramvay\u0131nda
\nXidm\u0259ti hiss\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcrd\u00fc
\nBir in\u015faat \u0259sg\u0259ri.
\n…\u00d6t\u0259n g\u00fcn yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131
\nSevgi m\u0259ktubunu xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131…<\/p>\n

Bu “bax\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm” tablolar\u0131n \u00e7oxu m\u0259nim tan\u0131\u015flar\u0131md\u0131… Bir-birimizin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7in\u0259 dik baxa bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yimiz q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259skilib tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n tarixi… \u00c7arda\u011f\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 donlu g\u0259linciyin p\u0131rtla\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131n aras\u0131ndan g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n ad g\u00fcnl\u0259rini qeyd etdiyimiz k\u00f6hn\u0259 t\u0259qvim… V\u0259… D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131 adl\u0131 \u015fairin yazd\u0131qlar\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc boyland\u0131r\u0131r gah q\u0131z\u0131l\u0131, gah da t\u00fcnd-q\u0259hv\u0259yi \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259li tablolardan… T\u0259qviml\u0259r d\u0259 g\u00fcnd\u0259n-g\u00fcn\u0259 qorxudur adamlar\u0131, etiraf etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindi, amma dolay\u0131s\u0131yla bunu ham\u0131m\u0131z dilimiz\u0259 g\u0259tiririk… Ya da bel\u0259 deyim, dilimizd\u0259n, c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259rimizd\u0259n qova bilmirik t\u0259qvimd\u0259n qorxdu\u011fumuzu… Tablolar\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn fon r\u0259ngl\u0259rind\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259t hayq\u0131ran \u015fair ruhu da t\u0259qvimd\u0259n qorxurmu\u015f… Bu qorxular f\u0259sil-f\u0259sil r\u0259ngl\u0259nib \u015feirl\u0259rd\u0259…<\/p>\n

Qar bas\u0131r dekabr\u0131,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn umudlar\u0131
\nApar\u0131r divan\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259k
\nQiyam\u0259tin xarabal\u0131\u011f\u0131na…<\/p>\n

Dekabrda “s\u0131sqala\u015fm\u0131\u015f” a\u011faclar\u0131n, b\u00fck\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f damlar\u0131n, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n \u00fcz d\u00f6nd\u0259rmi\u015f p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rin qorxutdu\u011fu \u015fair…<\/p>\n

Fevral,
\nQar,
\n\u00c7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259…
\nK\u00fcl\u0259k q\u0131\u015f\u0131 qovur, \u0259zizim.<\/p>\n

“Yaza n\u0259 qald\u0131?”-dey\u0259 g\u00fcn sayan, q\u0131\u015f\u0131n qovulmas\u0131ndan t\u0259s\u0259lli tapan \u015fair…<\/p>\n

He\u00e7 n\u0259 yad\u0131mda yox,
\nH\u0259r \u015feyin nurani \u00fcz\u00fc
\nSoyu\u011fa,
\nQaranl\u0131\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259r.
\nViran\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6n\u00fcb
\nSentyabr \u015f\u0259nb\u0259si.<\/p>\n

\u00c7\u0259kil\u0259n p\u0259rd\u0259l\u0259rin arxas\u0131ndan boy g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n bozumtul hava, yarpaqlar\u0131n yoxlu\u011funu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259rd edib qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f a\u011faclar v\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259rinin \u0259n “soyu\u011funu” \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 geyinmi\u015f \u015fair…<\/p>\n

E\u015fikd\u0259 aprel gec\u0259si,
\nA\u011faclar yalq\u0131z,
\nBudaqlar s\u0259s sal\u0131r qorxusundan.
\nK\u00fcl\u0259ks\u0259 oxuyur:
\n-ke\u00e7\u0259r, a\u011fac\u0131m, ke\u00e7\u0259r…<\/p>\n

T\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u00fcrp\u0259n\u0259n, k\u00fcl\u0259yin a\u011fac budaqlar\u0131ndak\u0131 r\u0259qsind\u0259n ilhamlanaraq “h\u0259yatda h\u0259r \u015fey m\u00fcv\u0259qq\u0259tidir” teoremini ya\u015fam\u0131yla aksioma olaraq t\u0259sdiql\u0259y\u0259n \u015fair…<\/p>\n

D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131n\u0131n etiraf\u0131 misra-misra olsa da bir-birini ba\u011fr\u0131na basma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131r bu misralar… V\u0259 qucaq-quca\u011fa, b\u0259z\u0259n \u00e7iyin-\u00e7iyin\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 \u0259l-\u0259l\u0259 verib \u015fair \u00fcr\u0259yinin a\u011f\u0131la, \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcy\u0259g\u0259lm\u0259z hissl\u0259rinin a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131na dayan\u0131rlar… Aradabir bu misralar b\u0259nd-b\u0259nd x\u0259b\u0259r \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u0259r yollar\u0131 uzaq d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259…<\/p>\n

Bildinmi n\u0259l\u0259r oldu,
\nS\u0259nin ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan sonrak\u0131 sevincin,
\nSevginin yas\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f
\nT\u0259nhal\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259nim
\nBir-birini ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131b,
\nBir-birin\u0259 sar\u0131ld\u0131…<\/p>\n

V\u0259 \u015fair \u0259mindi ki, x\u0259b\u0259r yollar\u0131n o ba\u015f\u0131ndak\u0131 m\u0259nzil\u0259 yeti\u015fir… \u015eaird\u0259n k\u00fcs\u0259nl\u0259r \u015feird\u0259n k\u00fcsm\u0259zl\u0259r ax\u0131… \u015eairi t\u0259nhal\u0131qla ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qoymaq yeni \u015feirl\u0259rin c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259sin\u0259 c\u0259hddi b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259… \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l \u015feirl\u0259r \u015fairin sevgisind\u0259n v\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n ibar\u0259t “\u00e7oxlu\u011fundan” do\u011fulur…<\/p>\n

Sevildiyim q\u0259d\u0259r
\nYaln\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131m var,
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7ox.
\nAmma t\u0259kliyimi
\n\u0130tirdiyim q\u0259d\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xt\u0259m.
\nBax, bel\u0259…
\nS\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259ktub yaz\u0131ram
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q qorxusundan,-deyir…<\/p>\n

lll
\nS\u0259n k\u00f6n\u00fcl ba\u011f\u0131ma gir\u0259li
\n\u0130\u00e7im \u0259l\u0259k-v\u0259l\u0259kdi,
\nN\u0259 apar\u0131b getmis\u0259n,-deyir…<\/p>\n

lll<\/p>\n

\u00d6z\u00fcn bil\u0259rs\u0259n
\nH\u0259r \u015fey yuxut\u0259k bit\u0259nd\u0259,
\nM\u0259ni bir qurd kimi sev\u0259ydin
\ng\u0259r\u0259k,-deyir…<\/p>\n

Dey\u0259-dey\u0259 d\u0259 \u0130lkd\u0259n Sona do\u011fru ged\u0259n yolda \u015feir boyda \u00f6z \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc vahidini yarad\u0131r D\u0259yan\u0259t Osmanl\u0131… O \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fc vahidinin ad\u0131 \u00e7ox sad\u0259dir: “V\u0259…” “V\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u015fairl\u0259r \u015feir-\u015feir do\u011fulur, \u015feir-\u015feir \u00f6l\u00fcr, \u015feir-\u015feir \u0259b\u0259diyy\u0259t olur… V\u0259… \u015e\u00fck\u00fcr \u015fairin\u0259, Tanr\u0131m!”<\/p>\n

525-ci q\u0259zet
\n16 fevral 2016<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc \u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259k… adic\u0259 bir k\u0259lm\u0259di, soyuqda \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259rl\u0259r. \u0130sti g\u0259l\u0259r, ke\u00e7\u0259r ged\u0259r bu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259k… Qalar xatir\u0259si… \u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259yin xatir\u0259si d\u0259 \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcr adam\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yini. Beynini o \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u0259 k\u00f6kl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n qan\u0131n da “s\u0259rinliyini” hiss edirs\u0259n el\u0259 bil… \u0130ndi g\u00fcl\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259 tap\u0131lacaq bu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259yin f\u0259ls\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18148","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18148","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18148"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18148\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18149,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18148\/revisions\/18149"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18148"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18148"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18148"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}