{"id":18191,"date":"2016-02-23T06:00:01","date_gmt":"2016-02-23T02:00:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18191"},"modified":"2016-02-23T10:24:34","modified_gmt":"2016-02-23T06:24:34","slug":"yalcin-yucel-olum","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18191","title":{"rendered":"Yal\u00e7\u0131n Y\u00dcCEL.”\u00d6L\u00dcM”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcm, en korktu\u011fumuz \u015fey mi? Ki\u015fiye g\u00f6re de\u011fi\u015fiyor bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f. Kimimiz \u00f6l\u00fcmden daha \u00e7ok korkarken, kimimiz sevgi yoklu\u011fundan, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceden, buzla\u015fm\u0131\u015f duygulardan korkuyor. Bir de \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kucaklamak isteyenler var. Ac\u0131lar i\u00e7erisinde k\u0131vranan, \u00e7aresiz derde d\u00fc\u015fenler \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kurtulu\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcyor. Hasta yak\u0131nlar\u0131 da \u00f6yle. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc bir g\u00fcl bah\u00e7esi olarak g\u00f6renlerde var. Korkmuyor gibi g\u00f6r\u00fcnse de, bu ki\u015filerin i\u00e7leriyle \u00e7eli\u015fki ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 fark edebilirsiniz. G\u00f6m\u00fctler hangimizi \u00fcrk\u00fctmez, keyfimizi ka\u00e7\u0131rmaz ki? Oysa t\u00fcm canl\u0131lar, do\u011fada ki her \u015fey, bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7indedirler. Ne g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc derseniz, iki yan\u0131 var bunun: Bir yan\u0131 ya\u015fam g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fc, \u00f6b\u00fcr yan\u0131 ise \u00f6l\u00fcm\u2026
\n Zaman\u0131 durdurman\u0131n bir yolu yok. Ge\u00e7ip gidecek hep, durmayacak bir yerde. \u00c7ocukluktan ya\u015fl\u0131l\u0131\u011fa, de\u011fi\u015ftirecek s\u00fcrekli bizi. \u00c7o\u011fu kez kendimizi tan\u0131makta bile g\u00fc\u00e7l\u00fck \u00e7eker olaca\u011f\u0131z. Bu s\u00fcre\u00e7te biri bizi bir yerlerde bekleyecek. Nerede derseniz, belli de\u011fil. Bunun i\u00e7in ya\u015fl\u0131 olmakta gerekmiyor. Beklenen olmak yetiyor \u00f6l\u00fcme. Zenginlik, yoksulluk herkes i\u00e7in de\u011fil. Ama \u00f6l\u00fcm hepimiz i\u00e7in var. Kimsenin kimseye ayr\u0131cal\u0131\u011f\u0131 da yok. Bu y\u00fczden midir ki yaln\u0131zl\u0131k korkutur hep. Belki de \u00f6l\u00fcmden ka\u00e7mak, korkumuzu azaltmak i\u00e7in sokulmu\u015fuz birbirimize.
\n Her \u00f6l\u00fcm, tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z birinin yitip gitmesi, bizi \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesi ile kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya b\u0131rak\u0131r. \u00d6nce kendimiz i\u00e7in korku ya\u015far\u0131z. Sonra sevdiklerimiz, de\u011fer verdiklerimiz i\u00e7in gelir duygular. O an ya\u015fam t\u00fcm a\u011f\u0131rl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 duyurur bize. Ya\u015fam\u0131n sevin\u00e7leri, ya\u015fam sava\u015f\u0131mlar\u0131m\u0131z bir bir gelip ge\u00e7er yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131zdan. En son geldi\u011fimiz noktada tek bir ger\u00e7ek kal\u0131r ortada: \u00d6l\u00fcm tedirginli\u011fi\u2026 Bir g\u00fcn nas\u0131l olsa herkes \u00f6lecek. Geride derin izler b\u0131rakanlar hari\u00e7, hepsi unutulacak zamanla. Zaman bunun i\u00e7in ak\u0131p gider diyorum hep. Bir nehir gibi s\u00fcr\u00fckleyip g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, an\u0131larla birlikte. Bir g\u00fcn hi\u00e7 olmak, b\u00f6yle \u00e7\u0131kar ortaya. \u00c7ok daha \u00f6telerde, bir iki nesil sonra kim bilebilir ki, buralarda ya\u015fam s\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fcz\u00fc? G\u00f6m\u00fct diye sesleneceksiniz belki de. Y\u0131llar hangi g\u00f6m\u00fctleri b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015f ki bize, seninki kalacak. Belki bir al\u0131\u015fveri\u015f merkezi, belki de bir park olacak \u00fcst\u00fcnde. \u00dcst\u00fcnde diyorum yine, bir yan\u0131lg\u0131ya d\u00fc\u015ferek. Acaba sen o g\u00f6m\u00fctte olacak m\u0131s\u0131n? Bir uyku gibi i\u015fte, uyuyup uyanmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn; \u00f6l\u00fcme benziyor sanki? Toprak olaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z s\u00f6yleniyor. \u0130\u00e7imize k\u00f6klerini yayarak, \u00fcst\u00fcm\u00fczden uzanan a\u011fa\u00e7lar\u0131n olmas\u0131 usumuza bu kez bir ba\u015fka soru b\u0131rak\u0131yor: A\u011fa\u00e7 sizinle mi ya\u015fayacak, bakacak \u00e7evreye, yoksa siz mi a\u011fa\u00e7 olacaks\u0131n\u0131z?
\n Sevgiyi t\u00fcm y\u00fcreklere yayan Yunus Emre \u00f6l\u00fcm konusunu \u015fiirlerine yans\u0131t\u0131rken insano\u011fluna da bir a\u00e7\u0131da sesleni\u015fte bulunur : \u201cBir g\u00fcn ol Hazrete kar\u015f\u0131\/Varam a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\/Azraile hem can\u0131m\u0131\/Verem a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\/\u00c7\u00fcn Azrail ala can\u0131m\/Ge\u00e7e benim \u00f6mr\u00fcm g\u00fcn\u00fcm\/Kefen ola c\u00fcmle donum\/Geyem a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\/Ben y\u00fcr\u00fcyem yana yana\/G\u00f6z\u00fcm ya\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6ne kana\/Bir g\u00fcn \u015fol karanl\u0131k sine\/Girem a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\/M\u00fch\u00fcr uralar dilime\/Zincir uralar koluma\/Amel defterim elime\/Alam a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\/A\u015f\u0131k Yunus budur i\u015fi\/Yoluna fedad\u0131r ba\u015f\u0131\/\u0130man et bize yolda\u015f\u0131\/Deyem a\u011flayu a\u011flayu\u201d \u015eiire ilk bak\u0131\u015fta Yunus\u2019un \u00f6l\u00fcmden korktu\u011fu, ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131n son bulmas\u0131ndan \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fc duydu\u011fu usunuza tak\u0131labilir. Oysa Yunus\u2019ta ki derinsel d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce ve duygu g\u00fczelli\u011fi bunun tersini ortaya koyar. A\u011flay\u0131\u015f\u0131, yaratana ula\u015faca\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in sevincidir asl\u0131nda. Bir ba\u015fka \u015fiirinde \u00f6b\u00fcr d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00fczelli\u011finden s\u00f6z ederken her g\u00fczelli\u011fin olu\u015fumundaki ger\u00e7ek gizeminse Allah\u2019tan kaynakland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 belirtir. Yine bir \u015fiirinin son b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcnde de as\u0131l sevginin, sevgilinin Hak yolunda \u00e7izilen bir \u00f6mr\u00fcn sonunda kar\u015f\u0131m\u0131za \u00e7\u0131kaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir Yunus Emre anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131yla sat\u0131rlar\u0131na aktar\u0131r. \u201cYunus ver can\u0131n\u0131 Hak yoluna\/Can vermeyince canan bulunmaz\u201d Elbet ki, bu yalan d\u00fcnya, ortaya koydu\u011fumuz g\u00fczellikler ve \u00e7irkinliklerle bizleri as\u0131l ya\u015fama, her \u015feyin yarat\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 Allah\u2019 a ula\u015ft\u0131racakt\u0131r. Yarat\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z gibi g\u00fczel kalabilmi\u015fsek ne mutlu o zaman.
\n \u015eark \u2013 \u0130slam tefekk\u00fcr tarihinin en de\u011ferli temsilcisi Mevlana ise \u201cTabutum Y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcnce\u201d \u015fiirinde \u00f6l\u00fcm ger\u00e7e\u011fini ola\u011fan\u00fcst\u00fc bir anlay\u0131\u015fla dile getirir: \u201c\u00d6ld\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm g\u00fcn, tabutum y\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcnce, bende bu d\u00fcnya derdi var sanma\/Bana a\u011flama, yaz\u0131klar olsun, vah vah deme. \u015eeytan\u0131n tuza\u011f\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fersin i\u015fte vah vah\u0131n s\u0131ras\u0131, o zamand\u0131r, o zaman yaz\u0131klar olsun denir. Cenazemi g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn zaman, ayr\u0131l\u0131k deme. Benim bulu\u015fmam, g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fmem o zamand\u0131r\/Beni mezara koyunca elveda elveda demeye kalk\u0131\u015fma. Mezar, cennet toplulu\u011funun perdesidir\/Batmay\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcn ya, do\u011fmay\u0131 da seyret. G\u00fcne\u015fle aya, batmadan ne vakit bir ziyan gelir ki?\/Sana batma g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ama o, do\u011fmad\u0131r, parlamad\u0131r. Mezar, hapishane g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr ama, can\u0131n hapisten kurtulmas\u0131d\u0131r\/Yere hangi tohum ekildi de bitmedi, yeti\u015fmedi? Ni\u00e7in insan tohumuna gelince bitmeyecek, yeti\u015fmeyecek zann\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyorsun?\u201d Mevlana\u2019n\u0131n toprak ve tohum \u00fczerindeki d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesine bir ba\u015fka \u015fairimiz Karacao\u011flan \u015fu dizeleriyle kat\u0131l\u0131r: \u201cY\u00fcr\u00fc bire yalan d\u00fcnya\/Sana konan g\u00f6\u00e7er bir g\u00fcn\/\u0130nsan bir ekin misali\/Seni eken bi\u00e7er bir g\u00fcn\u201d Karacao\u011flan bir ba\u015fka \u015fiirinde ise \u015fu g\u00f6r\u00fcnen ya\u015fam\u0131n bir teraziden ibaret oldu\u011funu anlat\u0131r bizlere; sevaplar ve g\u00fcnahlar kefesi. \u201c\u00dcryan geldim gene \u00fcryan giderim\/\u00d6lmeme\u011fe elde ferman\u0131m m\u0131 var\/Ezrail gelmi\u015fte can talep eyler\/Benim can verme\u011fe derman\u0131m m\u0131 var\/Dirilirler dirilirler gelirler\/Huzur-\u0131 mah\u015ferde divan dururlar\/Haram\u0131 var diye korku verirler\/Benim ipek y\u00fckl\u00fc kervan\u0131m m\u0131 var\u201d
\n Giz dolu bir kelime bu \u00f6l\u00fcm s\u00f6zc\u00fc\u011f\u00fc\u2026 \u0130\u00e7i bir okyanus gibi gittik\u00e7e derinle\u015fen, gittik\u00e7e bulan\u0131kla\u015fan\u2026 Bir tek ortak nokta ise toprak. A\u015f\u0131k Veysel\u2019in dedi\u011fi gibi, \u201c Bizim sad\u0131k dostumuz yaln\u0131zca toprakt\u0131r.\u201d Bizi kuca\u011f\u0131na al\u0131p, tekrar kavu\u015fma sevinci ile kendine d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrecek toprak. \u0130nsan kendini saran \u00e7emberin i\u00e7inde d\u00f6n\u00fcp duruyor gibi sanki. Bizden \u00f6nce ge\u00e7mi\u015f zamanlara gidecek olursak, bizim i\u00e7in onlar hi\u00e7 ya\u015famam\u0131\u015f gibidirler. \u201c\u0130nsanlar ya\u015fatarak ya\u015far birbirini ve hayat me\u015falesini birbirine devreder ko\u015fucular gibi.\u201d Lucretius\u2019un bu s\u00f6z\u00fc insano\u011flunun k\u0131sac\u0131k olan ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 nas\u0131lda \u00f6zetleyivermi\u015f.
\n Ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6l\u00fcm kayg\u0131s\u0131yla, \u00f6l\u00fcm d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncemizi de ya\u015fama sar\u0131labilmek kayg\u0131s\u0131yla buland\u0131r\u0131p durmu\u015fuz hep. D\u00fcnyaya geldi\u011fimiz g\u00fcnden beri bir yandan ya\u015famaya, bir yandan \u00f6lmeye ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ger\u00e7e\u011fine inanmak istememi\u015fiz bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc. Kolumuzda s\u00fcrekli ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o saatin, ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 kemiren bir a\u011fa\u00e7kakandan fark\u0131 ne sizce? Ya\u015fam\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n bir mum gibi eridi\u011fini g\u00f6rmek baz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 mutlu k\u0131l\u0131yor ki, alt\u0131nla, elmasla s\u00fcsl\u00fcyorlar o zaman g\u00f6stergecini. Belki de varl\u0131kl\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnmekle kurtaracaklar\u0131n\u0131 san\u0131yorlard\u0131r. Bilmezler ki ya\u015fam\u0131n gitti\u011fi yolun, yol \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmas\u0131, levhas\u0131 tak\u0131lmayan \u00e7ukurlar\u0131 da vard\u0131r. Oralarda art\u0131k yokuzdur. K\u0131sa ya da uzun, \u00f6nemli olan ya\u015fam\u0131n de\u011ferini bilebilmektir. Ya\u015fam\u0131 doya, doya ya\u015famak, onu g\u00f6k\u00e7ek k\u0131landa as\u0131l budur. Nas\u0131l olsa bir g\u00fcn herkes \u00f6lecek deriz, g\u00fcn bug\u00fcn, saat bu saat\u2026 Oysa ya\u015fam\u0131n i\u00e7inde yap\u0131lmas\u0131 gerekli g\u00f6revlerimiz de vard\u0131r. D\u00fcnyan\u0131n tad\u0131n\u0131, tuzunu, ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 duymal\u0131y\u0131z. Biz insano\u011fluna sunulmu\u015f bu g\u00fczellikler i\u00e7inde zaman\u0131 bo\u015funa t\u00fcketmeden harcamal\u0131y\u0131z. De\u011fersiz \u00e7eki\u015fmelerle, sa\u00e7ma sapan \u00e7\u0131karc\u0131 hesaplarla, ya\u015fam\u0131 kendimize zehir etmek bizi \u00e7ok daha tez t\u00fcketir. Bir ot kendisinden \u00e7ok daha uzun ve kal\u0131n k\u00f6kler aras\u0131na incecik k\u00f6kleriyle uzan\u0131r. Oralarda bir par\u00e7a toprak, birka\u00e7 damla su yeter ona. Sonras\u0131n\u0131 g\u00fcne\u015fe b\u0131rak\u0131r. Dev bir \u00e7\u0131nar kadar mutludur o k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fcc\u00fck d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda. Sonunda ot da \u00f6lecektir, \u00e7\u0131narda. Bak\u0131n\u0131z bu konuda b\u00fcy\u00fck d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr Lucretius ne diyor: \u201cNas\u0131l do\u011fu\u015fumuz bizim i\u00e7in her \u015feyin do\u011fu\u015fu olduysa, \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcm\u00fcz de her \u015feyin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc olacak. \u00d6yle ise, y\u00fcz sene daha ya\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131z diye a\u011flamak, y\u00fcz sene \u00f6nce ya\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131za a\u011flamak kadar deliliktir.\u201d
\n Oysa \u00e7evrede kar\u015f\u0131la\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z onca konular vard\u0131r ki, yine \u00e7o\u011fumuz g\u00f6rmezlikten geliriz. \u0130nsanc\u0131l duygular\u0131m\u0131z sanki birdenbire bir ser\u00e7e gibi kanatlan\u0131verir. Daha da yetmez gibi ard\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fer kovalar\u0131z onu. Y\u00fcre\u011fimiz ta\u015fla\u015f\u0131r bir anda. Bir k\u0131sm\u0131m\u0131z yak\u0131\u015ft\u0131rmay\u0131z bu durumu. Hatta b\u00f6ylesi insanl\u0131ktan \u0131rak ki\u015filere ya\u015fam\u0131 da \u00e7ok g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fcz. B\u00f6yle ge\u00e7er i\u00e7imizden. E\u011fer, k\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckleri k\u00f6t\u00fcleri silerek g\u00f6k\u00e7ek bir d\u00fcnya yaratmak istiyorsak, bu da bir noktada \u00e7\u0131k\u0131\u015f noktas\u0131 say\u0131labilir. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcm m\u00fcd\u00fcr? Elbet ki b\u00f6yle bir \u015fey d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fclemez derim. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc insan yok etmek i\u00e7in de\u011fil, var olan\u0131 g\u00fczel k\u0131lmayla y\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u0130nsan olmak yard\u0131m etmek, ac\u0131lar\u0131 mutluluklara d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcrmek i\u00e7in bir \u00e7aba de\u011fil midir? Do\u011fan\u0131n g\u00f6rkemli yap\u0131s\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hangimiz bir hayranl\u0131k duymay\u0131z ki? Duyar\u0131z da, neden bu g\u00fczellikleri koruma yerine ortadan kald\u0131rmaya, k\u00f6reltmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r\u0131z? Nedir bu ki\u015fide ki karma\u015fa? Bence her \u015feyin y\u00fcz\u00fcnde kalan bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131m\u0131z kadar, derinlere inemeyen d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnce yap\u0131m\u0131z da su\u00e7luluk ta\u015f\u0131r. Bencilli\u011fimiz, korkakl\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z ve doyumsuzlu\u011fumuz ya\u015fam\u0131 \u00e7o\u011fu yerde d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u00fcr. Hepimiz yaratan\u0131 sonsuz bir sevgiyle sever, ona ba\u011fl\u0131 ya\u015far\u0131z. Yaratan\u0131 severken yaratt\u0131klar\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda nedense ayn\u0131 \u00f6zeni g\u00f6stermekten uzak d\u00fc\u015feriz. G\u00fcne\u015f, penceremizi \u0131\u015f\u0131t\u0131p \u0131s\u0131t\u0131rken, kimin i\u00e7indir, bir k\u0131sm\u0131m\u0131z d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmeyiz bile. Do\u011fada olan her \u015fey bizimle konu\u015fmak isterken, ka\u00e7\u0131m\u0131z o sese kulak veririz acaba? Beynimizde ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131klar\u0131m\u0131zla, ortaya koyduklar\u0131m\u0131z aras\u0131ndaki bu farklar, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrsek ne kadar kar\u015f\u0131tl\u0131k olu\u015ftururlar b\u00f6yle? Sorular sorular\u0131 olu\u015fturur hep. Bu durumsa, insan yan\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcde ortaya koyuverir.
\n \u201cSon uyku mu? Hay\u0131r, \u00f6l\u00fcm son uyan\u0131\u015ft\u0131r.\u201d Diyor Scott. Acaba Scott\u2019un dedi\u011fi gibi \u00f6l\u00fcm son uyan\u0131\u015f m\u0131d\u0131r? \u00d6l\u00fcmle birlikte sanki \u00e7aresizli\u011fimizde geliyor, insan olarak. Bu ger\u00e7e\u011fi ya\u015fam\u0131 s\u00fcresince anlayamayan insanlar \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn f\u0131s\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131yla kendi ger\u00e7eklerine d\u00f6nseler de, zaman art\u0131k yanlar\u0131nda de\u011fildir. B\u00fcy\u00fck g\u00f6rd\u00fckleri yap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7inde, \u00f6ylece d\u00fc\u015ferler yere. T\u00fcm varl\u0131klar\u0131n\u0131 da geride b\u0131rakarak. Ya dost sand\u0131klar\u0131 insanlara ne demeli? Hepsi bir g\u00f6m\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ard\u0131ndan \u00e7ekip gitmezler mi? Ya birde, iyilikten yana hi\u00e7bir iz b\u0131rakmam\u0131\u015flarsa.. .Orhan Veli bu konuya, \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcme Yak\u0131n\u201d adl\u0131 \u015fiiriyle nas\u0131lda yakla\u015f\u0131vermi\u015f: \u201c\u00d6l\u00fcr\u00fcz diye mi \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcyoruz\/Ne ettik, ne g\u00f6rd\u00fck \u015fu fani d\u00fcnyada\/K\u00f6t\u00fcl\u00fckten gayri?\/\u00d6l\u00fcnce kirlerimizden temizlenir,\/\u00d6l\u00fcnce biz de iyi adam oluruz;\/\u015e\u00f6hretmi\u015f, kad\u0131nm\u0131\u015f, para h\u0131rs\u0131ym\u0131\u015f,\/Hepsini unuturuz.\u201d
\nYa\u015fam s\u00fcrecini k\u0131sa bulanlar da, san\u0131r\u0131m epeyce var aram\u0131zda. \u0130nsana sonsuz bir ya\u015fam verilmi\u015f olsayd\u0131, durmadan ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in, yap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n de\u011fi\u015fmezli\u011fi ve zekas\u0131n\u0131n darl\u0131\u011f\u0131yla, bir yerlerde t\u0131kan\u0131p kalacakt\u0131. Bu t\u0131kan\u0131kl\u0131kta, \u00f6yle bir tiksinti ile bakacakt\u0131 ki \u00e7evresine, kendini bile tan\u0131yamaz duruma gelecekti nerdeyse. Umut edilenler bir s\u00fcre sonra mutsuzluk sofras\u0131n\u0131 da a\u00e7acakt\u0131 ortaya. Yoksulluk ve ac\u0131n\u0131n olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir yerde zenginlikten, sevin\u00e7ten ne tat alacak ki insan? Ne olursa olsun ya\u015fam ac\u0131 ve tatl\u0131 y\u00f6nleriyle anlaml\u0131d\u0131r. Sonunda \u00f6l\u00fcm de olsa. Bir gidi\u015ftir yaln\u0131zca \u00f6l\u00fcm. Geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fc olmayan bir gidi\u015f.
\n Ger\u00e7ekten \u00f6lmeden \u00f6nce, belki de binlerce kez \u00f6l\u00fcr\u00fcz ya\u015fam\u0131n derin \u00e7izgisinde. Ama her umut, her sevin\u00e7 bir ba\u015fka ya\u015fam\u0131 koyar \u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcze. \u00d6lmeyi g\u00f6ze almak, kendi ger\u00e7eklerimizle kar\u015f\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ya getirir bizi. A\u00e7an her g\u00fcl gibi, sen de solars\u0131n, geriden gelen tomurcuklara yer a\u00e7mak i\u00e7in.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi \u00d6l\u00fcm, en korktu\u011fumuz \u015fey mi? Ki\u015fiye g\u00f6re de\u011fi\u015fiyor bu g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f. Kimimiz \u00f6l\u00fcmden daha \u00e7ok korkarken, kimimiz sevgi yoklu\u011fundan, \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnceden, buzla\u015fm\u0131\u015f duygulardan korkuyor. Bir de \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kucaklamak isteyenler var. Ac\u0131lar i\u00e7erisinde k\u0131vranan, \u00e7aresiz derde d\u00fc\u015fenler \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc kurtulu\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcyor. Hasta yak\u0131nlar\u0131 da \u00f6yle. \u00d6l\u00fcm\u00fc bir g\u00fcl bah\u00e7esi olarak g\u00f6renlerde […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18191","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-turkiy-dbiyyati"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18191","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18191"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18191\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18195,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18191\/revisions\/18195"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18191"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18191"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18191"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}