{"id":18561,"date":"2016-03-08T10:00:25","date_gmt":"2016-03-08T06:00:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18561"},"modified":"2016-03-08T11:24:04","modified_gmt":"2016-03-08T07:24:04","slug":"hulya-aslan-aslin-da-biz-ana-karnindan-mezara-tutukluyuz-hepimiz","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18561","title":{"rendered":"H\u00fclya ASLAN.”ASLIN DA B\u0130Z; ANA KARNINDAN MEZARA TUTUKLUYUZ HEP\u0130M\u0130Z”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi<\/p>\n

1970 \u2018 li y\u0131llar da G\u00fcneydo\u011fu\u2019nun Vad-i Leman(Ad\u0131yaman) denilen g\u00fczel \u015fehrin de, devlet memuruydum, g\u00fcnd\u00fczlerim b\u00fcroda d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda daktilo \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 ile, gecelerim evde d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda bebe\u011fime ninni \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rmakla ge\u00e7iyordu. \u00d6ylesine bunald\u0131\u011f\u0131m saatler vard\u0131 ki bu \u015fehir de; bir mahk\u00fbm isyan\u0131yla dama \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p ba\u011f\u0131rmak geliyordu i\u00e7imden, e\u011fer \u00f6nceden Aziz Nesin \u2018\u2019Damda Deli Var\u2019\u2019 adl\u0131 kitab\u0131 yazmam\u0131\u015f olsayd\u0131 ben yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m roman\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 \u2018\u2019 Damdaki Kad\u0131n\u2019\u2019 koyard\u0131m, kimsede indiremezdi!
\n Buradaki kad\u0131nlar yapsa- yapsa damda ki \u00e7iviye ip at\u0131p bo\u011fazlar\u0131na ge\u00e7iriveriyorlard\u0131 sessizce.
\n Ka\u00e7 kad\u0131n hat\u0131rlars\u0131n\u0131z ki dama \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p alay\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131rmak istesin! Ayk\u0131r\u0131y\u0131m dedim ya,
\n Ya\u015fam d\u00f6rt duvarla \u015fahit tutsakl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma,
\n Gardiyan\u0131y\u0131m Mahpuslu\u011fumun
\n \u015eu beton y\u00fczl\u00fc duvarlar\u0131 a\u015fmak
\n Tabiat\u0131n avlusunda volta atmak istiyorum.
\n V\u00e2dii boyunca s\u0131ral\u0131 yemye\u015fil has bah\u00e7elerde,
\n Tarlan\u0131n kenar\u0131na uzan\u0131 vermek
\n Denizi d\u00fc\u015flemek g\u00f6ky\u00fcz\u00fcnde
\n Yasaklanm\u0131\u015f duygular\u0131 \u015fiir yapmak
\n Ve \u00e7\u00f6zebilmek t\u00f6reden kelep\u00e7eleri
\n K\u0131rmak \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fcn, kilitlerini.
\n G\u00fcneydo\u011fuda kad\u0131n olmak,
\n Dama \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p ba\u011f\u0131rmak gibi,
\n Delirmek gibi,
\n \u0130\u015fte bu \u015fehir de ya\u015fam; gelenek, g\u00f6renek ve yasaklar b\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc, bir kad\u0131n olarak \u00f6yle elimi kolumu sallayarak \u00e7ar\u015f\u0131 pazar dola\u015fmam m\u00fcmk\u00fcn de\u011fildi, tacizlerden anl\u0131yordum bunu, her ne kadar bir hapisten di\u011ferine ge\u00e7mek gibi olsa da yine de ara s\u0131ra kara \u00e7ar\u015fafa giriyordum \u00f6zg\u00fcrl\u00fck ad\u0131na,
\nBu k\u00fclt\u00fcr fark\u0131, \u015fu ekmek kavgas\u0131, di\u011feri g\u00f6n\u00fcl yaras\u0131 derken kavramlar\u0131m i\u00e7 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmalar ya\u015f\u0131yordu, e\u015fime psikiyatrist\u2019 e gitmek istedi\u011fimi s\u00f6yledim, s\u00f6ylemesine de kendimde inanamad\u0131m bu cesaretime, do\u011fum doktorunun bile ayda bir u\u011frad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu \u015fehirde psikiyatrist biraz l\u00fcks olmad\u0131m\u0131 dedim kendi kendime. E\u015fim var dedi \u2018\u2019burda var g\u00f6t\u00fcreyim seni \u2018\u2019.
\n Doktor, bir taraftan pe\u00e7ete uzat\u0131rken g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131ma di\u011fer yandan, sorular soruyordu bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131ma.
\n\u2014 K\u0131z\u0131m sen K\u00fcrt\u2019m\u00fcs\u00fcn?
\nBo\u011faz\u0131mdaki d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmleri yutkunarak hay\u0131r dedim, T\u00fcrk\u2019\u00fcm<\/p>\n

\u2014 Bizim K\u00fcrt milleti \u00e7ok duygusal olur da o y\u00fczden sordum, b\u0131rak art\u0131k a\u011flamay\u0131 s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131n ne anlat bakay\u0131m.
\n-Erke\u011fim bana de\u011fer vermiyor,
\n-\u00d6ylemi, o zaman kullan onu,
\n-Adam kullanmak bana g\u00f6re de\u011fil, yine a\u011fl\u0131yorum doktor re\u00e7eteyi yaz\u0131yor bendeki derdi hemen anlam\u0131\u015f tavsiyelerini s\u0131ral\u0131yor,
\n-\u2018\u2019Bu y\u00f6renin erkekleri kad\u0131na de\u011fer vermezler \u015f\u0131martmamak ad\u0131na derler ki;
\n\u2018\u2019 Babo tavu\u011fun kanad\u0131n\u0131 k\u0131racaks\u0131n ki u\u00e7amas\u0131n da bol bol yumurtlas\u0131n!\u2019\u2019
\nBizim memleket iyidir ho\u015ftur fakat biraz kapal\u0131 bir toplumdur,
\nTayin isteyip b\u00fcy\u00fck bir \u015fehre yerle\u015f, k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck yerin stresi b\u00fcy\u00fck olur..
\nDoktordan \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131\u011f\u0131mda ku\u015f gibi hafiftim zaten asla tavuk gibi olmamal\u0131yd\u0131m zira kanad\u0131m\u0131n k\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131 mevzubahisti.
\nBunlar ila\u00e7 gibi tavsiyeler gitmek umudum olsun be, Elbet bir g\u00fcn g\u00f6\u00e7ece\u011fim buralardan. \u0130stanbul\u2019a gidece\u011fim dedim yine kendimce.
\nEy Vadii-Leman duydum ki, ben gideli beri Nissibi\u2019 de toplan\u0131p sudan atlam\u0131\u015f fakat t\u00f6reden, ter\u00f6re yine tutuklu kalm\u0131\u015fs\u0131n.Krallar\u0131n g\u00fczel \u015fehri sana yak\u0131\u015fm\u0131yor ne t\u00f6re,ne de ter\u00f6r rengi,o yemye\u015fil has bah\u00e7elerde \u015fen kal an\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131n yerle\u015fkesi.
\nS\u0131ra \u0130stanbul\u2019a gelince,
\nKorkular sarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 teknoloji denen \u00e7ark\u0131,
\nHer yer beton g\u00f6kdelenlerle kapl\u0131
\nNe deniz izleyebildim ne sahili ne park\u0131,
\nB\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fc \u015fehir b\u00fcy\u00fcd\u00fck\u00e7e,
\n Mahpuslu\u011fumuzda e\u015f zamanl\u0131 i\u00e7inde
\nKim bilir ka\u00e7 y\u00fcz\u00fcnc\u00fc sebeplerden,
\n Yine d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131 bilgisayar h\u00fccre cezas\u0131 yedim,
\nMahpuslu\u011fum s\u00fcresince,
\nA\u015fk denen su\u00e7tan do\u011fmu\u015fuz bu dar d\u00fcnya cezaevimiz,
\n \u00d6m\u00fcr denen zaman\u0131n su\u00e7lusu muyuz neyiz
\nD\u00f6rt duvarl\u0131 bir kabir gidilecek yerimiz.
\nASLINDA B\u0130Z
\nANA KARNINDAN MEZARA TUTUKLUYUZ HEP\u0130M\u0130Z.
\nH\u00fclya ASLAN 1987 G\u00fcneydo\u011fu h\u00e2t\u0131ralar\u0131mdan<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Azerbaycan\u0131n K\u00fclt\u00fcr ve Edebiyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n T\u00fcrkiye temssilcisi 1970 \u2018 li y\u0131llar da G\u00fcneydo\u011fu\u2019nun Vad-i Leman(Ad\u0131yaman) denilen g\u00fczel \u015fehrin de, devlet memuruydum, g\u00fcnd\u00fczlerim b\u00fcroda d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda daktilo \u015f\u0131k\u0131rt\u0131s\u0131 ile, gecelerim evde d\u00f6rt duvar aras\u0131nda bebe\u011fime ninni \u00e7\u0131\u011f\u0131rmakla ge\u00e7iyordu. \u00d6ylesine bunald\u0131\u011f\u0131m saatler vard\u0131 ki bu \u015fehir de; bir mahk\u00fbm isyan\u0131yla dama \u00e7\u0131k\u0131p ba\u011f\u0131rmak geliyordu i\u00e7imden, e\u011fer […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18561","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-turkiy-dbiyyati"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18561","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18561"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18561\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18565,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18561\/revisions\/18565"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18561"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18561"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18561"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}