{"id":18835,"date":"2016-03-17T11:00:02","date_gmt":"2016-03-17T07:00:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18835"},"modified":"2016-03-17T14:40:57","modified_gmt":"2016-03-17T10:40:57","slug":"qizima-yazdigim-m%c9%99ktub","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18835","title":{"rendered":"“Q\u0131z\u0131ma yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m m\u0259ktub”"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Salam, q\u0131z\u0131m,<\/p>\n

\u0130lk s\u00f6z\u00fcm s\u0259n\u0259, \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla, m\u0259ni\u201ddir. Niy\u0259sini zamanla anlayacaqsan\u2026 K\u00fcsg\u00fcns\u0259n, m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131qda, uzaqda \u00e7\u0259kdirdiyin \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131ram, g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259n audios\u0259sl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq as\u0131ram, videog\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni\u2026 M\u0259nim kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fclm\u00fcr, qapanm\u0131san, k\u0259d\u0259rlis\u0259n\u2026 M\u0259nim kimi insanlardan uzaqla\u015f\u0131rsan, k\u00f6vr\u0259ks\u0259n, k\u00fcsg\u00fcns\u0259n, fikir i\u00e7ind\u0259s\u0259n, k\u0259d\u0259rli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndasan, x\u0259yallardasan, yoxsa m\u0259nli xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259, bil\u0259 bilmir\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130tirmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259ni, inam\u0131m\u0131, sevincimi, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimi, \u00fcmidimi, s\u0259ninl\u0259 qovu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00fcmidimi itirmi\u015f\u0259m art\u0131q, g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc itirmi\u015f\u0259m, m\u00fcbariz\u0259m dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla ki, m\u0259nd\u0259n \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259c\u0259yin, n\u00fcmun\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259yin az \u015feyl\u0259r olacaq, ana kimi n\u00fcmun\u0259 olmad\u0131m, ideal, m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l olmad\u0131m\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n ana olma\u011f\u0131, \u00f6vlad sevgisini v\u0259 ail\u0259nin d\u0259y\u0259rini bilm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259din\u2026 Qad\u0131n olma\u011f\u0131, sevm\u0259yi, sevilm\u0259yi, ki\u015fil\u0259rl\u0259 anla\u015fma\u011f\u0131, insanlarla dil tapma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259din\u2026 \u0130nsanlardan, s\u0259ni sevm\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259rd\u0259n qorunma\u011f\u0131, dostu, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nini tan\u0131ma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259din m\u0259nd\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00c7ox \u015fey \u00f6yr\u0259d\u0259c\u0259kdim, \u00e7ox \u015feyi \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259li idin, yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qald\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

N\u0259 u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131n oldu, n\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kd\u0259 g\u0259ncliyin olacaq xo\u015fb\u0259xt insan kimi\u2026 Yar\u0131m qalacaqsan h\u0259r zaman, at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hiss ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 Nifr\u0259t ed\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259\u2026 Unudacaqsan m\u0259ni\u2026 Sevm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n\u2026<\/p>\n

Yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m qalacaq s\u0259hif\u0259md\u0259, yaz\u0131lar\u0131mda, kitab\u0131mda, s\u0259ns\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259n, tapsan, dilimizi unutmasan, oxuyarsan\u2026<\/p>\n

Anlayarsan, ana i\u00e7ind\u0259 nec\u0259 \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kir, a\u011flay\u0131r\u2026 Niy\u0259 yeni h\u0259yat qura bilmir\u2026 Anan da s\u0259nin kimi yar\u0131m qal\u0131b, yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131qd\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

Bilir\u0259m, h\u0259r bir q\u0131z anas\u0131na ox\u015famaq ist\u0259y\u0259r, s\u0259ns\u0259 u\u015faq vaxt\u0131ndan m\u0259ni itirmis\u0259n, n\u0259 simam qal\u0131b yadda\u015f\u0131nda, n\u0259 s\u0259sim\u2026 G\u00f6rs\u0259n, b\u0259lk\u0259 he\u00e7 tan\u0131mazsan\u2026<\/p>\n

Bilir\u0259m, ana daha \u00f6n\u0259mlidir q\u0131z \u00f6vlad\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, bilir\u0259m, amma neyl\u0259yim bel\u0259 al\u0131nd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sdim, s\u0259ni do\u011fma\u011fa, s\u0259ni arzulama\u011fa, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 do\u011fulmal\u0131 deyildin bel\u0259 tez\u2026 \u015eans verm\u0259liydik ail\u0259miz\u0259, bir-birimizi tan\u0131ma\u011fa atanla \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Amma pe\u015fiman deyil\u0259m, s\u0259ni m\u0259n sevdim, s\u0259ni m\u0259n ist\u0259dim, s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn do\u011fuldun, do\u011fuldu\u011fun andan s\u0259rb\u0259st idin\u2026 Sevgid\u0259n do\u011fuldun, sevil\u0259r\u0259k do\u011fuldun, sonra is\u0259 da\u011f\u0131ld\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey, m\u0259hv oldu\u2026 M\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00fcnahkaram\u2026<\/p>\n

\u0130st\u0259yirdim, o\u011flum deyil, q\u0131z\u0131m olsun\u2026<\/p>\n

Uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131mla oynayacaq, barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131racaq, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fc \u00e7evirib yana\u011f\u0131mdan \u00f6p\u0259c\u0259k, oynayacaq m\u0259nl\u0259 bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, \u00f6z\u00fcm b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcm sev\u0259r\u0259k onu, ana s\u00fcd\u00fc verim, sa\u011flam olsun dey\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, \u00f6yr\u0259dim ona h\u0259yat\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, \u00e7antam\u0131 da\u011f\u0131ts\u0131n, kosmetikam\u0131 yaxs\u0131n \u00fcz-ba\u015f\u0131na, \u0259ll\u0259rin\u0259, sonra ke\u00e7sin ayna \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259, desin \u201cAna, bax, nec\u0259y\u0259m? B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m?!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, geyinsin balaca ayaqlar\u0131na b\u00f6y\u00fck olan ayyaqqab\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131, i\u015fd\u0259n ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 baxs\u0131n \u0259lim\u0259 ki, anam m\u0259n\u0259 bu g\u00fcn n\u0259 al\u0131b, qucaqlay\u0131b, \u00f6ps\u00fcn, buraxmas\u0131n m\u0259ni\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, payla\u015f\u0131m onunla ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, \u0259n yax\u0131n r\u0259fiq\u0259m olsun, a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman t\u0259s\u0259llim, sevincim, f\u0259r\u0259him olsun\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, biliyimi, yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131, istedad\u0131m\u0131 \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcm ona, bax\u0131m, u\u011furlar\u0131na, sevinim, f\u0259xr edim onunla\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, pis an\u0131mda a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131mda, qalmas\u0131n k\u0259narda, qucaqlas\u0131n m\u0259ni, silsin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131m\u0131, \u201cAna, a\u011flama, s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u201d desin m\u0259n\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, nazl\u0131, a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131, sevimli, g\u00f6z\u0259l, lap s\u0259nin kimi\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, sa\u00e7lar\u0131 uzun olsun, zahir\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015fas\u0131n, atan da desin ki, \u201cAnana ox\u015fam\u0131san q\u0131z\u0131m, anan kimi \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, yatanda qucaqlay\u0131b yats\u0131n, yuxuya getsin, buraxmas\u0131n m\u0259ni daha\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, s\u0259h\u0259r i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259nd\u0259, g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda, aynaya bax\u0131b, makiyaj ed\u0259nd\u0259, n\u0259m salfetkaya silsin makiyaj\u0131m\u0131, g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k desin \u201c\u00c7\u0259km\u0259 onu, s\u0259n ham\u0131dan onsuz da g\u00f6z\u0259ls\u0259n, ana!\u201d<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, qad\u0131nl\u0131q m\u0259kt\u0259bini ke\u00e7sin, qad\u0131n olma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nsin, q\u0131z olma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nsin, insan olma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nsin\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 sevin\u0259r\u0259k \u00e7\u0131xs\u0131n m\u0259niml\u0259, tutsun \u0259limi, buraxmas\u0131n, yorulanda g\u0259lsin quca\u011f\u0131ma, bir d\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259sin quca\u011f\u0131mdan\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, kitablar\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u00fcn ma\u011fazada, ald\u0131rts\u0131n, sonra desin, \u201cBu kitab\u0131 oxu m\u0259n\u0259\u201d\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, sirda\u015f\u0131m olsun, payla\u015fs\u0131n sevincini d\u0259, k\u0259d\u0259rini d\u0259\u2026 A\u011flayanda a\u011flas\u0131n, g\u00fcl\u0259nd\u0259 m\u0259nl\u0259 g\u00fcls\u00fcn\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, a\u011flats\u0131n m\u0259ni u\u011furlar\u0131yla, q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259l\u0259riyl\u0259, sevinciyl\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, sevm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259nsin, sevilsin, ail\u0259 qursun, \u0259r\u0259 verim onu sevdiyi k\u0259s\u0259\u2026 Bir n\u0259v\u0259 versin m\u0259n\u0259, bir q\u0131z n\u0259v\u0259si\u2026<\/p>\n

Bir q\u0131z\u0131m olsun, ba\u015fqa qad\u0131na deyil, m\u0259n\u0259 \u201cAna, s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u201d desin\u2026<\/p>\n

Arzular\u0131m ger\u00e7\u0259k oldu, ist\u0259diyimi verdi Allah\u0131m, s\u0259ni verdi m\u0259n\u0259\u2026 Q\u0259drini bilm\u0259dim n\u0259 s\u0259nin, n\u0259 d\u0259 ki, arzular\u0131m\u0131n\u2026<\/p>\n

M\u0259n\u0259 qalan s\u0259nd\u0259n qalan xo\u015f xatir\u0259l\u0259rdir. Q\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259nin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131ram\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Salam, q\u0131z\u0131m, \u0130lk s\u00f6z\u00fcm s\u0259n\u0259, \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla, m\u0259ni\u201ddir. Niy\u0259sini zamanla anlayacaqsan\u2026 K\u00fcsg\u00fcns\u0259n, m\u0259nd\u0259n ayr\u0131l\u0131qda, uzaqda \u00e7\u0259kdirdiyin \u015f\u0259kill\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131ram, g\u00f6nd\u0259ril\u0259n audios\u0259sl\u0259r\u0259 qulaq as\u0131ram, videog\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m s\u0259ni\u2026 M\u0259nim kimi \u00fcz\u00fcn g\u00fclm\u00fcr, qapanm\u0131san, k\u0259d\u0259rlis\u0259n\u2026 M\u0259nim kimi insanlardan uzaqla\u015f\u0131rsan, k\u00f6vr\u0259ks\u0259n, k\u00fcsg\u00fcns\u0259n, fikir i\u00e7ind\u0259s\u0259n, k\u0259d\u0259rli d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndasan, x\u0259yallardasan, yoxsa m\u0259nli xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259, bil\u0259 bilmir\u0259m\u2026 \u0130tirmi\u015f\u0259m s\u0259ni, inam\u0131m\u0131, sevincimi, xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimi, \u00fcmidimi, s\u0259ninl\u0259 qovu\u015faca\u011f\u0131m […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18835","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18835","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18835"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18835\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18836,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18835\/revisions\/18836"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18835"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18835"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18835"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}