{"id":18968,"date":"2016-03-29T11:00:59","date_gmt":"2016-03-29T07:00:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18968"},"modified":"2016-03-29T15:56:57","modified_gmt":"2016-03-29T11:56:57","slug":"atam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=18968","title":{"rendered":"Atam\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"

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O, m\u0259nim q\u00fcrur m\u0259nb\u0259yimdir, ona h\u0259m zahir\u0259n, h\u0259m xarakterc\u0259 ox\u015fama\u011f\u0131mla da f\u0259xr edir\u0259m\u2026<\/p>\n

O, m\u0259nim atamd\u0131r, ail\u0259d\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyim insan\u2026 Danlasa da, t\u0259nqid ets\u0259 d\u0259, dala\u015f\u0131b, k\u00fcs\u00fcb, bar\u0131\u015fsa da, atamd\u0131r m\u0259nim\u2026 O, azsayl\u0131 insand\u0131r ki, ona \u201cq\u0131z\u0131l adamd\u0131r\u201d onu tan\u0131yan h\u0259r k\u0259s\u2026<\/p>\n

Onunla bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fam m\u0259n, 30 ya\u015f\u0131 olanda, h\u0259diyy\u0259 olmu\u015fam ona\u2026<\/p>\n

\u00d6vladlar h\u0259r zaman n\u00fcmun\u0259 olaraq valideynl\u0259rini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259rl\u0259r \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, ya anaya ox\u015famaq ist\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r, ya da ataya\u2026 N\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259, m\u0259n atam\u0131 se\u00e7dim, atam\u0131n q\u0131z\u0131yam\u2026<\/p>\n

Ondan \u00e7ox \u015feyi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim, elm\u0259 maraq, kitablara maraq, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 g\u00fcv\u0259nm\u0259k, m\u00fcbariz olmaq, m\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t, s\u0259br\u2026<\/p>\n

Ondan \u00f6z g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u0259, tap\u015f\u0131r\u0131qs\u0131z, pulun olmadan savad v\u0259 biliyinl\u0259 ir\u0259li getm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim, t\u0259hsil ald\u0131m\u2026 O, karyeras\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z bilik, savad\u0131, xarakteri, insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131 say\u0259sind\u0259 etmi\u015fdir. H\u0259r yerd\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259ti vard\u0131r\u2026<\/p>\n

O, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259yi, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 yazma\u011f\u0131, xarici dill\u0259r\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259l\u0259r etm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259tdi\u2026 Birlikd\u0259 kitabxanaya gedib, elmi m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259rim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259rslik, kitablar\u0131 oxumaq, qeydl\u0259r aparma\u011f\u0131, n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn yerd\u0259 axtararaq, axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 tapma\u011f\u0131, t\u0259rc\u00fcm\u0259 etm\u0259yi, elmi m\u0259qal\u0259l\u0259r yazma\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 elmi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri anlama\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259tdi m\u0259n\u0259\u2026<\/p>\n

Ondan m\u0259n v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f olma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndim, layiqli v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f\u2026 Vicdan\u0131 t\u0259miz, ad\u0131 l\u0259k\u0259siz, ba\u015f\u0131uca v\u0259 xeyirxah v\u0259t\u0259nda\u015f olma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259ndim\u2026 D\u00f6vl\u0259t i\u015fin\u0259 mara\u011f\u0131m\u0131 formala\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131, d\u00f6vl\u0259timi sevm\u0259yi v\u0259 d\u00f6vl\u0259tim\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 olub, ona xidm\u0259t etm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259tdi m\u0259n\u0259\u2026 U\u015faq vaxt\u0131 d\u00f6vl\u0259timd\u0259n inciy\u0259rdim, atam v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yirdi o zamanlar, onu evd\u0259 az g\u00f6r\u0259rdik, i\u015fd\u0259n ev\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259, biz art\u0131q \u015firin yuxuda olard\u0131q\u2026 Onun i\u015fi \u00e7ox oldu\u011fundan atam\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z g\u00fcnl\u0259r d\u0259 az olmay\u0131b, amma sonra anlad\u0131m ki, bu yanl\u0131\u015f deyilmi\u015f, ondan incim\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259z\u2026 O, bizim v\u0259 d\u00f6vl\u0259ti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f\u2026 Bo\u015f vaxt\u0131 v\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n tez \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcn bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bayram olard\u0131\u2026 G\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 ged\u0259rdik, maa\u015f\u0131n\u0131 alan g\u00fcn olanda is\u0259 bayram\u0131m\u0131z olurdu, g\u0259zm\u0259k, al\u0131\u015f-veri\u015f, karusell\u0259r, \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259, h\u0259diyy\u0259l\u0259r\u2026 Balaca u\u015fa\u011fa ba\u015fqa n\u0259 laz\u0131md\u0131r ax\u0131\u2026 N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259di, d\u00f6vl\u0259t m\u0259muru oldu, t\u0259miz i\u015fl\u0259di, r\u00fc\u015fv\u0259t almad\u0131, r\u00fc\u015fv\u0259t verm\u0259di\u2026 Bu q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259miz, bu q\u0259d\u0259r halal. Qohum-qon\u015fular b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259rlik ver\u0259rdi biz\u0259, \u201cy\u0131\u011f\u0131b pulunu, indi qaz vurub qazan doldurur dey\u0259, bala-bala yeyir, g\u00f6z\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259sin dey\u0259\u201d\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imiz \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcz\u00fc yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcz \u00f6zg\u0259ni\u2026 Yalan niy\u0259 deyim ax\u0131, biz varl\u0131 olmam\u0131\u015f\u0131q, qazand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z da halal maa\u015f\u0131m\u0131z olub, q\u0259pik-q\u0259pik y\u0131\u011f\u0131b n\u0259s\u0259 etmi\u015fik, biz\u0259 g\u00fcn a\u011flay\u0131b atamla anam, bo\u011fazlar\u0131ndan k\u0259sib, biz\u0259 x\u0259rcl\u0259yib pullar\u0131 onlar\u2026 Bizi biz edibl\u0259r, onlar\u2026 Atam h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 dey\u0259rdi, \u201cpul \u00f6n\u0259mli deyil, \u0259sas ad\u0131n t\u0259miz olsun, \u00f6l\u0259nd\u0259 a\u011flayan\u0131n olsun, gorumuza aparmayaca\u011f\u0131q ki, y\u0131\u011facaqlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131\u201d. Hans\u0131 evd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fdumsa, Ke\u015fl\u0259 q\u0259s\u0259b\u0259sind\u0259ki gec\u0259qonduda, el\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259 orada ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131lar\u2026 N\u0259 ev ald\u0131lar, n\u0259 d\u0259 k\u00f6\u00e7d\u00fcl\u0259r\u2026 D\u00f6vl\u0259tin verdiyi halal ev n\u00f6vb\u0259sini d\u0259, atam g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft\u0259 getdi qa\u00e7q\u0131nlara\u2026 \u201cOnlar\u0131n evi yoxdu, m\u0259nim olacaq?!\u201d-demi\u015fdi atam o zaman\u2026 U\u015faq idim, atam\u0131 ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131rd\u0131m ki, halal evimizi verdi qa\u00e7q\u0131nlara, indi qa\u00e7q\u0131nlar\u0131n \u00e7oxusu nec\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131r, biz is\u0259 nec\u0259?! \u00c7ox sa\u011f ol bel\u0259 dem\u0259dil\u0259r\u2026 Laz\u0131m da deyil\u2026 \u0130ndi N\u0259rimanov Metrosunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 evimiz olard\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

Onun simas\u0131nda dostluq etm\u0259yi \u00f6yr\u0259ndim\u2026 O, m\u0259nim \u0259n yax\u0131n dostumdur\u2026<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 yaz\u0131ram bu yaz\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n

K\u00f6vr\u0259lm\u0259 ancaq\u2026<\/p>\n

Ata, niy\u0259 sa\u00e7lar\u0131n tez a\u011fard\u0131, t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131b, h\u00fcnd\u00fcr boylu idin s\u0259rv a\u011fac\u0131 kimi, niy\u0259 qam\u0259tin \u0259yilib, belin b\u00fck\u00fcl\u00fcb?!<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 h\u0259r zaman t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm olan \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 indi k\u0259d\u0259r var? Niy\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin dolur, k\u00f6vr\u0259lirs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 daha \u00fcz\u00fcm g\u0259lmir, s\u0259nin qoluna girm\u0259y\u0259, niy\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 oturark\u0259n boynuna daha qoya bilmir\u0259m ax\u0131?<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 nigaransan m\u0259nd\u0259n?! B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m ax\u0131?! Yoxsa, h\u0259l\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 u\u015fa\u011fam?!<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 t\u0259nqid etmirs\u0259n m\u0259ni \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k? Niy\u0259 daha q\u00fcrur duymursan m\u0259niml\u0259? \u0130ndi \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k demirs\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 \u201cpul \u00f6n\u0259mli deyil, \u0259sas t\u0259miz add\u0131r\u201d, sanki xeyirxah olan, h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259 \u0259l tutan, k\u00f6m\u0259k ed\u0259n, pula \u00f6n\u0259m verm\u0259y\u0259n, halal insan deyils\u0259n?! \u0130ndi deyirs\u0259n, \u201cvaxt\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015f yer\u0259 s\u0259rf etm\u0259, n\u0259 xeyri var o i\u015fin s\u0259n\u0259?Pul g\u0259lir oradan s\u0259n\u0259?\u201d Yoxsa, cavanl\u0131q s\u0259hvl\u0259rind\u0259n n\u0259tic\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131san, ist\u0259mirs\u0259n o s\u0259hvl\u0259ri m\u0259n d\u0259 edim?!<\/p>\n

Yaz\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131 oxu, t\u0259nqid et m\u0259ni\u2026 Niy\u0259 h\u0259r t\u0259nqidi yaz\u0131mda, c\u0259miyy\u0259tl\u0259 m\u00fcbariz\u0259 apard\u0131\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 qorxursan m\u0259n\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259?!Niy\u0259, ehtiyat edirs\u0259n, nigaransan m\u0259nd\u0259n? Qorxma, nigaran qalma\u2026 Risk meneceriy\u0259m, riskl\u0259rimi bilir\u0259m, g\u00f6z\u0259 al\u0131ram\u2026<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 daha \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k saatlarla \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r\u0131q g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259, dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131r\u0131q, niy\u0259 d\u0259lilik ed\u0259 bilmir\u0259m s\u0259ninl\u0259, \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k zarafatla\u015fm\u0131r\u0131q?<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fckc\u0259, s\u0259ni anlamaqdansa, s\u0259nin haql\u0131 oldu\u011funu q\u0259bul etm\u0259kd\u0259ns\u0259, inad edir\u0259m, yan\u0131lsam bel\u0259, \u00f6z bildiyimi vermir\u0259m ba\u015fqas\u0131na?!<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259lkit\u0259k mehriban deyilik, sanki k\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sir aram\u0131zdan, \u00e7ay axma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131b, ke\u00e7ib sel\u0259?<\/p>\n

Deyil\u0259si \u00e7ox s\u00f6z\u00fcm var s\u0259n\u0259, dey\u0259 bilmir\u0259m\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 g\u00fcnahkaram \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcm g\u0259lmir dey\u0259?!<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, ata, amma s\u0259ni sevir\u0259m\u2026 Allah can\u0131na d\u0259ym\u0259sin\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

O, m\u0259nim q\u00fcrur m\u0259nb\u0259yimdir, ona h\u0259m zahir\u0259n, h\u0259m xarakterc\u0259 ox\u015fama\u011f\u0131mla da f\u0259xr edir\u0259m\u2026 O, m\u0259nim atamd\u0131r, ail\u0259d\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox sevdiyim insan\u2026 Danlasa da, t\u0259nqid ets\u0259 d\u0259, dala\u015f\u0131b, k\u00fcs\u00fcb, bar\u0131\u015fsa da, atamd\u0131r m\u0259nim\u2026 O, azsayl\u0131 insand\u0131r ki, ona \u201cq\u0131z\u0131l adamd\u0131r\u201d onu tan\u0131yan h\u0259r k\u0259s\u2026 Onunla bir g\u00fcnd\u0259 do\u011fulmu\u015fam m\u0259n, 30 ya\u015f\u0131 olanda, h\u0259diyy\u0259 olmu\u015fam ona\u2026 \u00d6vladlar […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18968","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18968","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=18968"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18968\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":18969,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18968\/revisions\/18969"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=18968"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=18968"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=18968"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}