{"id":19000,"date":"2016-04-01T06:00:56","date_gmt":"2016-04-01T02:00:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=19000"},"modified":"2016-04-01T09:20:53","modified_gmt":"2016-04-01T05:20:53","slug":"ulku-tasliova-camdaki-kan","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=19000","title":{"rendered":"\u00dclk\u00fc TA\u015eLIOVA.&#8221;CAMDAK\u0130 KAN&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o.jpg\" rel=\"attachment wp-att-19006\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o-300x188.jpg\" alt=\"12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o\" width=\"300\" height=\"188\" class=\"alignnone size-medium wp-image-19006\" srcset=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o-300x188.jpg 300w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o-768x480.jpg 768w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o-1024x640.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/04\/12473554_877411552367521_867514035548854074_o.jpg 1920w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Bagaj\u0131 yerle\u015ftiren g\u00f6revliye bavulunu teslim etti. \u00d6n kap\u0131n\u0131n basama\u011f\u0131ndan yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Elindeki bilete bakt\u0131, otob\u00fcs\u00fcn sa\u011f taraf\u0131na g\u00f6z gezdirdi. Cam kenar\u0131ndaki yerini g\u00fcnler \u00f6ncesinden ay\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yolu epeyce uzundu, sabah ba\u015flayacak yolculu\u011funu \u00e7evreyi seyrederek bitirecekti. Bereketli ovadan ge\u00e7erken doyas\u0131ya turun\u00e7, portakal, mandalina, limon bah\u00e7elerini g\u00f6recekti. Toroslar\u0131n ete\u011finden ge\u00e7erken yol kenar\u0131ndaki k\u00f6ylere g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyecekti.<br \/>\nYiyecek dolu torbas\u0131n\u0131 da tavan bagaj\u0131na yerle\u015ftirdi. Ceketini \u00e7\u0131kar\u0131p torbas\u0131yla tavan\u0131n aras\u0131na s\u0131k\u0131\u015ft\u0131rd\u0131. Arkas\u0131nda ge\u00e7mek i\u00e7in s\u0131ra bekleyen delikanl\u0131ya g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyerek ba\u015f\u0131yla selam verdikten sonra ge\u00e7ip yerine oturdu.<br \/>\n\u015eof\u00f6r, koltu\u011funa oturup anahtar\u0131 \u00e7evirdi\u011finde, motorun g\u00fcr\u00fclt\u00fcs\u00fc d\u0131\u015far\u0131dan gelen a\u011flama seslerinin \u00fczerine perde gibi indi. Anas\u0131n\u0131n babas\u0131n\u0131n tek erkek evlad\u0131yd\u0131. G\u00fcnlerdir s\u00fcren h\u00fcz\u00fcnl\u00fc heyecan\u0131 sona ermi\u015f, ayr\u0131l\u0131k vakti gelmi\u015fti. Hareket etmeden \u00f6nce otob\u00fcs\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcndeki al bayrak indirildi. Davul zurna otob\u00fcs\u00fcn sesine nispet eder gibi daha bir co\u015fkuyla \u00e7almaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Kirpikleri aras\u0131nda saklad\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131 d\u00f6k\u00fclmesin diye g\u00f6zlerini k\u0131rpm\u0131yordu. Ba\u015f\u0131ndaki yazman\u0131n ucuyla g\u00f6zlerini silen anas\u0131na bakt\u0131. Ya babas\u0131! Gururdan kabaran g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcndeki kalbi cay\u0131r cay\u0131r yan\u0131yordu. \u0130\u00e7inden, \u201cO\u011ful, can parem o\u011ful, g\u00f6z nurum, g\u00fcc\u00fcm kuvvetim, var\u0131m devletim o\u011ful.\u201d diyerek sessizce g\u00f6zleriyle evlad\u0131n\u0131 seviyordu.<br \/>\nAyr\u0131l\u0131k, d\u00f6nen kara tekerlerle ba\u015flamak \u00fczereydi. \u0130lk gurbetleri, ilk ayr\u0131l\u0131\u015flar\u0131, ilk vedalar\u0131 olacakt\u0131 bu gidi\u015f. Davul zurnan\u0131n sesi kesilince anas\u0131n\u0131n a\u011f\u0131t\u0131n\u0131 duydu. Can\u0131 ac\u0131d\u0131. Babas\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131ndan \u015fapkas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015f da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k beyaz sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla ayakta direk gibi durarak kendisine bak\u0131yordu. G\u00f6zlerinden ka\u00e7ak s\u0131zan damlalar\u0131 acele elinin tersiyle sildi. Y\u00fcre\u011fi yansa da a\u011flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 i\u00e7in utand\u0131.<br \/>\nB\u00fcy\u00fckleri otob\u00fcs\u00fcn yan\u0131na dizilmi\u015f ona bak\u0131yordu. Onun g\u00f6zleriyse utanga\u00e7 bak\u0131\u015flarla ni\u015fanl\u0131s\u0131na ili\u015fince daha bir ba\u015fka kederlendi. Ancak uzaktan g\u00f6zleriyle veda edebildi Meryem\u2019e, t\u00f6re \u00f6yleydi. Doyas\u0131ya sar\u0131lmak, koklamak, y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakmak istese de yapamad\u0131, yapamazd\u0131. B\u00f6yle \u015feyler ay\u0131p say\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131 oralarda.<br \/>\nR\u00fczg\u00e2r her esti\u011finde savuracak bir \u015fey bulur elbet. Bu defa da iki sevda savruluyordu. G\u00f6zlerini onun g\u00f6zlerine teslim etti\u011fi anda, \u201cA\u011flama. Ne olur a\u011flama.\u201d dedi sessizce. D\u00f6nen tekerlek arkas\u0131nda g\u00f6zleri ya\u015fl\u0131, g\u00f6n\u00fclleri ate\u015fli insanlar b\u0131rakarak korna e\u015fli\u011finde yola koyuldu. Geride kalanlar\u0131n sallad\u0131klar\u0131 elleri g\u00f6zden kayboldu. Dakikalar ge\u00e7tik\u00e7e sokaklar, evler, elektrik ve telefon direkleri bir bir yan\u0131ndan ge\u00e7ip gitti. O ise g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131n\u0131 saklamak i\u00e7in ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 camdan yana \u00e7evirerek bo\u015f g\u00f6zlerle bo\u015flu\u011fa bakt\u0131 bakt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cAllah kavu\u015ftursun tertip.\u201d dedi yan\u0131nda oturan. Cama dayad\u0131\u011f\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00f6nmeden, \u201c\u00c2min, seni de.\u201ddedi. Ne s\u00f6yleyecek tek kelimesi, ne de s\u00f6yleneni dinleyecek hali vard\u0131. Y\u00fcre\u011fi ayr\u0131l\u0131k ate\u015fiyle yanarken, nas\u0131l konu\u015fabilirdi ki? G\u00f6zlerinde sevdice\u011finin y\u00fcz\u00fc kalm\u0131\u015fken, kimi g\u00f6rebilirdi ki? Ya anas\u0131, babas\u0131\u2026<br \/>\n\u00c7ukurova\u2019y\u0131 ge\u00e7erken meyve y\u00fckl\u00fc dallar\u0131, sere serpe yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f pamuk tarlalar\u0131n\u0131 seyretti. Meryem b\u00fcy\u00fck emmisinin k\u0131z\u0131yd\u0131. Aralar\u0131nda iki ya\u015f vard\u0131. Ne zaman bir araya gelseler didi\u015fir dururlard\u0131. Bir keresinde nehrin kenar\u0131nda kavga etmi\u015fler, sonrada Meryem h\u0131rs\u0131n\u0131 alamam\u0131\u015f kendisini Ceyhan\u2019\u0131n sakin sular\u0131na b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Arkas\u0131ndan nehre atlayarak onu \u00f6l\u00fcmden son anda kurtarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. O olaydan sonra bir daha Meryem ne dese cevap vermemi\u015fti. \u00c7ektirdi\u011fi b\u00fct\u00fcn cefay\u0131 sinesine \u00e7ekmi\u015fti.<br \/>\n\u201cHangi k\u00f6ydensin tertip.\u201d sorusuyla d\u00fc\u015flerinden uyand\u0131. \u201cTarsus\u2019un merkezindenim.\u201d diyerek yan\u0131nda oturan delikanl\u0131y\u0131 ge\u00e7i\u015ftirdi. Sa\u011f \u015faka\u011f\u0131n\u0131 cama yaslayarak g\u00f6zlerini kapad\u0131. Meryem\u2019le ba\u015f ba\u015fa kald\u0131 yine.<br \/>\nVe bir g\u00fcn ailelerinin verdi\u011fi kararla kendilerinin bile fark\u0131nda olmad\u0131klar\u0131 a\u015fklar\u0131 vuslata vard\u0131. Askerden \u00f6nce ni\u015fan, teskere d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnde hemen d\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn yapmaya karar verdiler. Sanki ate\u015fe su serpilmi\u015f gibi ni\u015fandan sonra ne bir kez kavga ettiler, ne de bir birlerini sinirlendirecek bir kelime.<br \/>\n\u201cTarsus\u2019ta kimlerdensin tertip?\u201d sorusuna, \u201cTatl\u0131c\u0131gillerden.\u201d dedikten sonra y\u00fcz\u00fcndeki g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyle d\u00fc\u015flerine kald\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden devam etti.<br \/>\n\u0130\u00e7inden, \u201cAh\u2026 Meryem\u2026 Emmimin deli k\u0131z\u0131.\u201d diyerek d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyretti. Toroslar\u0131n lacivert doruklar\u0131 ne kadar ma\u011frursa, ye\u015fil etekleri de o kadar tevazudayd\u0131 sanki. Yama\u00e7lardaki kayal\u0131klar\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce yan\u0131nda oturan delikanl\u0131ya d\u00f6nerek, \u201dG\u00fcnd\u00fcz nas\u0131lda masum g\u00f6z\u00fck\u00fcyorlar, oysa gece oldu mu buralar e\u015fk\u0131ya ve ter\u00f6rist yata\u011f\u0131na d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor.\u201d diyerek tekrar sa\u011f \u015faka\u011f\u0131n\u0131 cama yaslayarak d\u0131\u015far\u0131y\u0131 seyre koyuldu.<br \/>\n\u201cAnkara&#8217;da kar\u015f\u0131layan\u0131n olacak m\u0131 tertip? Yoksa hemen b\u00f6l\u00fc\u011f\u00fcne teslim mi olacaks\u0131n. Benim kimsem yok orada. Hemen gidip teslim olaca\u011f\u0131m. Hay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131yla teskereyi ald\u0131m m\u0131 hemen everecekler beni. \u0130lkokuldan beri sevdi\u011fim bir k\u0131z var. O da beni seviyor be tertip. Kavli karar ettik. Kavu\u015fmam\u0131za az kald\u0131. Hay\u0131rl\u0131s\u0131 bakal\u0131m.\u201d dedi\u011finde duydu\u011fu \u00e7arpma sesini \u015fof\u00f6re sordu. \u015eof\u00f6r \u201cOtob\u00fcs\u00fcn bir yerine iri ta\u015f \u00e7arpt\u0131 galiba.\u201d dedi.<br \/>\n\u201cHep ben konu\u015fuyorum tertip, birka\u00e7 kelam da sen ette yol \u00e7abuk bitsin, hem de kasvetimiz da\u011f\u0131ls\u0131n.\u201d diyerek omuzuna dokundu. Cevap alamay\u0131nca e\u011filip y\u00fcz\u00fcne bakt\u0131.<br \/>\n\u201cAman Allah\u2019\u0131m! Bu ne b\u00f6yle? \u015eof\u00f6r hemen otob\u00fcs\u00fc durdur.\u201d<br \/>\nBirli\u011fine teslim olmaya giden b\u00fct\u00fcn yolcular otob\u00fcsten inerek sa\u011f tarafa y\u00f6neldiler. Herkes mermer heykel gibi oldu\u011fu yerde kala kald\u0131. Ak\u0131llar durmu\u015f, duygular \u00f6lm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc. O ise y\u00fcz\u00fcnde g\u00fcl\u00fcmseme ve g\u00f6zleri kapal\u0131 cama yaslanm\u0131\u015f, merminin sapland\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015faka\u011f\u0131ndan s\u0131zan kanla \u00f6ylece duruyordu. \u00c2lem susmu\u015f \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn kendisi a\u011fl\u0131yordu sanki.<br \/>\n30.03.2015\/ANKARA<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Bagaj\u0131 yerle\u015ftiren g\u00f6revliye bavulunu teslim etti. \u00d6n kap\u0131n\u0131n basama\u011f\u0131ndan yukar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131. Elindeki bilete bakt\u0131, otob\u00fcs\u00fcn sa\u011f taraf\u0131na g\u00f6z gezdirdi. Cam kenar\u0131ndaki yerini g\u00fcnler \u00f6ncesinden ay\u0131rtm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yolu epeyce uzundu, sabah ba\u015flayacak yolculu\u011funu \u00e7evreyi seyrederek bitirecekti. Bereketli ovadan ge\u00e7erken doyas\u0131ya turun\u00e7, portakal, mandalina, limon bah\u00e7elerini g\u00f6recekti. Toroslar\u0131n ete\u011finden ge\u00e7erken yol kenar\u0131ndaki k\u00f6ylere g\u00fcl\u00fcmseyecekti. Yiyecek dolu torbas\u0131n\u0131 da [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19000","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-turkiy-dbiyyati"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19000","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19000"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19000\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19009,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19000\/revisions\/19009"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19000"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19000"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19000"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}