{"id":19117,"date":"2016-04-04T01:00:30","date_gmt":"2016-04-03T21:00:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=19117"},"modified":"2016-04-04T09:15:28","modified_gmt":"2016-04-04T05:15:28","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-baxislar-da-f%c9%99rqli-olur","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=19117","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.”Bax\u0131\u015flar da f\u0259rqli olur\u2026 “"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"1915291_748109358667106_2463672035380493579_n\"<\/a><\/p>\n

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc<\/p>\n

Bax\u0131\u015flar da f\u0259rqli olur\u2026 Sevincli, k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f, utancaq, \u00fcrk\u0259k\u2026 h\u0259tta, baxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar da var. M\u0259n onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 utancaql\u0131q v\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259k g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. El\u0259 bil bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131na-pisin\u0259 baxma\u011fa, g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259, d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 kims\u0259 onu m\u0259cbur edir. He\u00e7 vaxt bunu onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dem\u0259dim onu tan\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman \u0259rzind\u0259. Qorxdum\u2026 Son vaxtlar \u00e7ox qorxaq olmu\u015fam. \u018fvv\u0259ll\u0259r ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan, h\u00fcznd\u0259n, y\u0131x\u0131lmaqdan qorxurdum, bu qorxunun olmayaca\u011f\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcmid edirdim. Indi \u00fcmidin \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259 qorxuram\u2026 \u00dcmidd\u0259n\u2026
\nOnun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda utanma\u011f\u0131, baxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259yi g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m, amma, qorxunu he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. O, qorxmur. A\u011fl\u0131na, \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 n\u0259 g\u0259lirs\u0259 misralara d\u00fcz\u0259 bilir, yaza bilir G\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiq.
\nG\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131 t\u0259slimdi \u00fcmidsizliy\u0259\u2026- deyir\u2026
\nBax\u0131\u015flar yol al\u0131r sonsuz sevinc\u0259\u2026-deyir\u2026
\n\u00dcmidsizliyini sevincin\u0259 \u201cyenild\u0259\u201d bilir G\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiq. Qa\u00e7\u0131r sevinc\u0259 do\u011fru\u2026Qa\u00e7\u0131r\u2026 Y\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00fcr\u2026 N\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259tri \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 solan arzu varsa ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l saxlanc\u0131 edir, b\u00fck\u00fcb-b\u00fcrm\u0259l\u0259yib \u00fcr\u0259k box\u00e7as\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131r, ovuclar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fc sabaha a\u00e7\u0131r, qa\u00e7\u0131r\u2026 Qa\u00e7\u0131r\u2026
\nSev\u0259n bir c\u00fct g\u00f6z\u0259 yaz\u0131lan yaz\u0131,
\nBuludlara sevgi sarmaq n\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l\u2026
\nH\u0259yat\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259lliyini g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki utanan \u201cyaz\u0131larda\u201d ya\u015fay\u0131r o\u2026 Bel\u0259 alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131r insan\u0131n d\u00fcnyaya mehrini, \u00fclf\u0259tini\u2026 Demir\u0259m ki, a\u011flam\u0131r bu q\u0131z\u2026 A\u011flay\u0131r\u2026 D\u00fcnyan\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131r, \u00fcmidl\u0259rind\u0259n as\u0131r, \u00fcsyankar misralar\u0131na b\u0259l\u0259yir, a\u011flay\u0131r\u2026 A\u011flad\u0131qca \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc inand\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 bacar\u0131r ki, h\u0259yat ya\u015fama\u011fa d\u0259y\u0259r q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6z\u0259ldir\u2026 Bu g\u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcnl\u0259rin he\u00e7 birini k\u0259d\u0259r\u0259 t\u0259slim etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u2026 \u00d6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r:
\nA\u011flama, a\u011flasan k\u0259d\u0259r \u00fcz g\u00f6r\u0259r,
\nGirib \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 qovurar s\u0259ni\u2026
\nG\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiq \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc k\u0259d\u0259rd\u0259n bel\u0259 \u201cqoruyur\u201d\u2026 Bel\u0259 sava\u015f\u0131r d\u0259rdl\u0259rl\u0259\u2026
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7\u0131b s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l h\u0259yat anlam\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda \u015fair \u00fcr\u0259yi boynunu a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 \u0259yir, m\u0259zlumla\u015f\u0131r\u2026 Fa\u011f\u0131r-fa\u011f\u0131r sava\u015fma\u011fa daha g\u00fcc\u00fc qalmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 etiraf edir\u2026 B\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k ist\u0259yir bu sava\u015fda z\u0259f\u0259r \u00e7als\u0131n dey\u0259\u2026
\n\u00dcmid etm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m
\n\u00dcmid.
\nBir g\u00fcn b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259c\u0259m dey\u0259\u2026
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn bu t\u0259zadl\u0131 hissl\u0259rin \u0259lind\u0259 u\u015faqla\u015fsa da qorxmur\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, qorxma\u011f\u0131 bacarm\u0131r?! N\u0259 bilim\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, yax\u015f\u0131 ki, bacarm\u0131r\u2026 Qoy el\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyi qism\u0259t\u0259 ba\u011flayaraq ya\u015faya bilsin bu \u015fair\u2026 Onsuz da \u015fairl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn qism\u0259t d\u0259 adil\u0259\u015fir get-ged\u0259\u2026 Onlar \u201cal\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131\u201dn\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi q\u0259bul etmirl\u0259r\u2026 Ed\u0259 bilmirl\u0259r\u2026 Amma, G\u00fclnar\u0259nin qism\u0259t\u0259 ba\u011flad\u0131qlar\u0131 adamda bir az t\u0259s\u0259lli yarada bilir:
\n\u00dcmid \u00f6ld\u00fc-h\u0259sr\u0259td\u0259ndi\u2026
\n\u00d6mr\u00fc bitdi- qism\u0259td\u0259ndi\u2026
\nH\u0259rd\u0259n onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131na saatlarla baxmaq ke\u00e7ir \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259n\u2026 H\u0259rd\u0259n d\u0259 he\u00e7 baxa bilmir\u0259m\u2026 G\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atm\u0131r onun utancaq bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rim\u0259 tu\u015flanma\u011f\u0131na\u2026 Gizl\u0259dir\u0259m g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi \u00e7ox zaman\u2026 Qorxuram ki, \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259ki o h\u0259yatla sava\u015fmaq qorxusunu anlayar, m\u0259ni bu z\u0259ifliyim\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 q\u0131nayar, bir b\u00f6y\u00fck kimi danlayar\u2026 Sonra m\u0259n onun \u015feir -\u00fcmidinin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda g\u00fcnahkar olaram\u2026
\nN\u0259 vaxtsa, bir g\u00fcn \u015feirin birind\u0259,
\nHans\u0131sa misrada qovu\u015faca\u011f\u0131q\u2026
\nS\u0259rin k\u0259lm\u0259l\u0259ri d\u00fcz\u00fcb yan-yana,
\nEl\u0259 \u015feird\u0259c\u0259 ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131q\u2026
\nBudur, G\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiqin \u015feir-\u00fcmidi\u2026
\nBax\u0131\u015flar da f\u0259rqlidi demi\u015fdim ax\u0131, f\u0259rqlidi\u2026 V\u0259 m\u0259n bunu oxuyandan sonra G\u00fclnar\u0259 Sadiqin bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yen\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259rdim. Bir onu bilmir\u0259m ki, n\u0259hay\u0259t, o bax\u0131\u015flarla \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 dayanma\u011fa g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atacaqm\u0131?!<\/p>\n

\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259li (G\u0259nc\u0259)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

AYB, DGTYB v\u0259 \u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan Respublikas\u0131 Prezidentinin T\u0259qa\u00fcd Fondunun t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc Bax\u0131\u015flar da f\u0259rqli olur\u2026 Sevincli, k\u00fcsm\u00fc\u015f, utancaq, \u00fcrk\u0259k\u2026 h\u0259tta, baxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259n bax\u0131\u015flar da var. M\u0259n onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 utancaql\u0131q v\u0259 baxmaq ist\u0259m\u0259m\u0259k g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. El\u0259 bil bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131na-pisin\u0259 baxma\u011fa, g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259, d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 kims\u0259 onu m\u0259cbur edir. He\u00e7 vaxt bunu onun \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 dem\u0259dim […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-19117","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19117","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=19117"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19117\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":19124,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/19117\/revisions\/19124"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=19117"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=19117"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=19117"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}