{"id":22240,"date":"2016-09-14T07:00:52","date_gmt":"2016-09-14T03:00:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=22240"},"modified":"2016-09-14T10:11:27","modified_gmt":"2016-09-14T06:11:27","slug":"durdan%c9%99-humb%c9%99tli","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=22240","title":{"rendered":"D\u00fcrdan\u0259 H\u00fcmb\u0259tli"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/s017.radikal.ru\/i419\/1609\/1d\/6f9196e6ae65.jpg\" alt=\"\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u0259h\u0259rin s\u0259s \u2013 k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n, t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259sliyind\u0259n, ritmind\u0259n can g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u0259ndin s\u0259ssizliyin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaq q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259nil\u0259n m\u0259qam az \u2013az olur h\u0259yatda&#8230; \u015e\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n do\u011furdu\u011fu g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n, ba\u011f\u0131ran &#8211;  \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran reklamlar\u0131n r\u0259ngl\u0259riyl\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nmi\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r divarlar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z yoran g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rind\u0259n k\u0259ndin g\u00f6zox\u015fayan ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngini acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 seyr edib d\u0259 daxilind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u2013 g\u00f6z\u0259l arzular\u0131n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259sini, ruhunun bu t\u0259sird\u0259n oyanaraq s\u0259ni g\u00fccl\u00fc, c\u0259sar\u0259tli, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259\u0259min etm\u0259sind\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l n\u0259 ola bil\u0259r&#8230; Lakin k\u0259nd d\u0259 \u015f\u0259h\u0259r kimi, insan o\u011flunun ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259kanlar kimi h\u0259yat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00e7alar v\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259fl\u0259rini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 \u0259ks etdirir. K\u0259nd\u0259 getm\u0259k ba\u015fqa bir m\u0259kana getm\u0259k dem\u0259k deyil ki. Guya na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131 Xeyir v\u0259 \u015e\u0259r m\u00fcbariz\u0259si, huzur axtar\u0131\u015f\u0131 el\u0259 k\u0259nd fonunda ba\u015f vermir ki? Na\u011f\u0131l q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 huzuru, haqq\u0131, \u0259dal\u0259ti tapmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n k\u0259nd\u0259, k\u0259ndd\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u0259 \u00fcz tutmur? V\u0259 haqq\u0131n h\u0259r yerd\u0259 haqs\u0131zl\u0131qla yana\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011funu, huzurun is\u0259 yaln\u0131z huzursuzlu\u011fa qatla\u015faraq \u0259ld\u0259 edilm\u0259sinin m\u00fcmk\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc anlatm\u0131rm\u0131 na\u011f\u0131llar?!<br \/>\n       &#8230;Ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131qlarla g\u00f6zox\u015fayan k\u0259ndl\u0259rin birind\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 bir g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fc m\u0259ni c\u0259lb etdi. K\u0259ndin \u0259ks\u0259r evl\u0259ri sad\u0259 tikiliydi, y\u0259ni \u0259halisi orta s\u0259viyy\u0259d\u0259 dolanan insanlar oldu\u011fu a\u00e7\u0131q \u2013 a\u015fkar g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Evl\u0259rin h\u00fcnd\u00fcrl\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259, tikili\u015fi d\u0259 t\u0259xmini eyni orta s\u0259viyy\u0259d\u0259ydi. Bu vl\u0259rin s\u0131ras\u0131nda  \u015fah saray\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r olmasa da \u00f6z m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259mliyi il\u0259 saraya b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n ev diqq\u0259timi c\u0259lb etdi. Bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259, lakin m\u0259n bu evin sahibinin yerin\u0259 utand\u0131m. Utand\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnki qeyri &#8211; ixtiyari Qurandan ay\u0259l\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc, oxudu\u011fum kitablardak\u0131 fikir v\u0259 ifad\u0259l\u0259r yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259tta k\u00f6hn\u0259 hind filml\u0259rind\u0259ki m\u0259hk\u0259m\u0259 s\u0259hn\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259 canland\u0131 yadda\u015f\u0131mda, b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rimin n\u0259sih\u0259tl\u0259ri v\u0259 s. Lakin utanc hissinin \u00e7alar\u0131 bu ev\u0259 tam biti\u015fik, el\u0259 na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131 kas\u0131b komas\u0131n\u0131 xat\u0131rladan bir tikilini g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi&#8230;y\u0259ni t\u00fcndl\u0259\u015fdi&#8230; Bu koman\u0131n dam\u0131 o q\u0259d\u0259r k\u00f6hn\u0259ydi ki, sanki indic\u0259 ovulub t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259c\u0259kdi. Art\u0131q bu kontrast m\u0259nim beynimd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat kontrastlar\u0131 haqqda d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 v\u0259 fikirl\u0259ri oyatd\u0131. Bu fikir burul\u011fan\u0131nda sanki bo\u011fulaca\u011f\u0131m an bird\u0259n 10 \u2013 15 ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259si m\u0259ni xilas etdi. Xilas etdi ki, daha a\u011f\u0131r fikir c\u0259zas\u0131 versin. Dedi bu u\u015faq ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131d\u0131r, \u00fcst\u00fc bel\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131na baxmay\u0131n, el\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n 6 d\u0259n\u0259 kompyuter g\u0259tirdil\u0259r bura&#8230; Bir h\u00fcn\u0259rim ona yetdi ki, soru\u015fdum b\u0259s bu ev kimindir. Dedi filan idar\u0259d\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259yir, v\u0259zif\u0259lidir&#8230; o dedi getdi&#8230;m\u0259n suallar\u0131n burul\u011fan\u0131ndan yerimd\u0259n t\u0259rp\u0259n\u0259 bilm\u0259dim. Ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131 torpa\u011fa b\u0259rk s\u0131x\u0131b dayanmaq ist\u0259dim ki, he\u00e7 olmasa torpaq aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131n alt\u0131ndan qa\u00e7mas\u0131n&#8230;<br \/>\n     &#8230;deyib ged\u0259n q\u0131za n\u0259 var ki, gedib ev i\u015fiyl\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu&#8230; y\u0259qin in\u0259k sa\u011fd\u0131&#8230;n\u0259 bilim qat\u0131q \u00e7ald\u0131&#8230; \u0130ndi g\u0259l s\u0259n ziyal\u0131, bo\u011ful bu suallar burul\u011fan\u0131nda. Suallar da ki, ma\u015fallah&#8230; ziyal\u0131n\u0131n el\u0259 ruzisi bu suallara g\u0259lib el\u0259 bil, yem\u0259 &#8211; i\u00e7m\u0259 cavab axtar, D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn ki, bu kontrast fonunda d\u0259rs\u0259 gedib g\u0259l\u0259n k\u0259nd u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat haqda n\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr. Bu sarayab\u0259nz\u0259r evin sahibi d\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n g\u00fcnd\u0259 be\u015f d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259cd\u0259 edir? Oruc tutub iftar s\u00fcfr\u0259si a\u00e7\u0131r, sonra da bu s\u00fcfr\u0259nin nem\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n sovqat haz\u0131rlay\u0131b ba\u011f\u00e7aya g\u0259l\u0259n u\u015faqlara ikram edirmi? G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n \u201cHac\u0131\u201d titulu varm\u0131? B\u0259s g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n ged\u0259n q\u0131z bu q\u0259d\u0259rmi sad\u0259dir? Bu q\u0259d\u0259rmi rahatd\u0131r? G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu sarayab\u0259nz\u0259r evin  o\u011flu bu q\u0131z\u0131 bu saray\u0131n xan\u0131m\u0131 etm\u0259k ist\u0259rmi? Bu m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olsa bu q\u0131z bu q\u0259d\u0259r rahat olmaz! B\u0259lk\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 o q\u0131z el\u0259 d\u0259qiq bilir ki, bu il v\u0259 ya g\u0259l\u0259n il bir sad\u0259 i\u015fsiz k\u0259nd o\u011flan\u0131na \u0259r\u0259 veril\u0259c\u0259k v\u0259 onunla balaca kas\u0131b bir evd\u0259 bir qarn\u0131 tox, bir qarn\u0131 ac&#8230;ara \u2013 s\u0131ra d\u00f6y\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k ya\u015fayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7oxdan t\u0259sdiq edib. B\u0259li! Se\u00e7im yoxdursa, niy\u0259 fikirl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorsun ki?..<br \/>\n       B\u0259s b\u0259lk\u0259 bu k\u0259ndd\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n balacalar aras\u0131nda d\u0259rin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259y\u0259 malik, \u015fair ruhuna malik olanlar da var? B\u0259s o \u015fair bu kontrast\u0131 i\u00e7ind\u0259 d\u00fcnya boyda d\u0259rd\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kmi? Sonra biz oxucular onun yazd\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u0259d\u0259rli, q\u0259mli san\u0131b da o s\u0259tirl\u0259rd\u0259n qa\u00e7mayaca\u011f\u0131qm\u0131? V\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n bu pislikl\u0259rl\u0259 dolu  \u0130raq, Suriya faci\u0259siyl\u0259, Qaraba\u011f yalan\u0131yla v\u0259 dig\u0259r yalanlarla aldad\u0131lan d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 bu m\u0259kanda o kompyuterl\u0259rl\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nib, elmini art\u0131r\u0131b d\u00fcnyam\u0131z\u0131 elmiyl\u0259, z\u0259kas\u0131yla do\u011frulara apara bil\u0259c\u0259k insan yeti\u015f\u0259c\u0259kmi?<br \/>\n       Bu lap Xeyirl\u0259 \u015e\u0259rin m\u00fcbariz\u0259sin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259di. Ax\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n \u0259sas\u0131 el\u0259 bu kontrastdan do\u011fan m\u00fcbariz\u0259dir. Ka\u015f bu balaca k\u0259ndin balacalar\u0131n\u0131n ruhunda, beynind\u0259 Xeyir q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259 \u00e7als\u0131n. Ka\u015f ki, \u00e7als\u0131n. Ka\u015f ki, bu q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259d\u0259 biz ziyal\u0131lar \u00f6z rolumuzu vaxt\u0131nda, yerind\u0259 duya bil\u0259k. Ka\u015f biz koman\u0131n u\u015faqlar\u0131na i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 d\u00fcnyan\u0131 hiss etdir\u0259 bil\u0259k&#8230;ka\u015f&#8230;ka\u015f h\u0259r \u015fey i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 xidm\u0259t ed\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>D\u00fcrdan\u0259 H\u00fcmb\u0259tli<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u015e\u0259h\u0259rin s\u0259s \u2013 k\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n, t\u0259ngn\u0259f\u0259sliyind\u0259n, ritmind\u0259n can g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u0259ndin s\u0259ssizliyin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaq q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00f6zl\u0259nil\u0259n m\u0259qam az \u2013az olur h\u0259yatda&#8230; \u015e\u0259h\u0259r h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n do\u011furdu\u011fu g\u00fcnd\u0259lik qay\u011f\u0131lar\u0131n, ba\u011f\u0131ran &#8211; \u00e7a\u011f\u0131ran reklamlar\u0131n r\u0259ngl\u0259riyl\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259nmi\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r divarlar\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6z yoran g\u00f6r\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259rind\u0259n k\u0259ndin g\u00f6zox\u015fayan ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngini acg\u00f6zl\u00fckl\u0259 seyr edib d\u0259 daxilind\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l \u2013 g\u00f6z\u0259l arzular\u0131n, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin c\u00fcc\u0259rm\u0259sini, ruhunun bu t\u0259sird\u0259n oyanaraq s\u0259ni g\u00fccl\u00fc, [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22240","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22240","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22240"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22240\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22241,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22240\/revisions\/22241"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22240"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22240"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22240"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}