{"id":25157,"date":"2017-04-20T07:00:01","date_gmt":"2017-04-20T03:00:01","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=25157"},"modified":"2017-04-20T08:59:59","modified_gmt":"2017-04-20T04:59:59","slug":"ilah%c9%99-imanova-aylin-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=25157","title":{"rendered":"\u0130lah\u0259 \u0130MANOVA.\u201dAylin\u201d (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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\u0130nc\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131 gitaran\u0131n siml\u0259rin\u0259 toxunduqca s\u0259sl\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259lir, \u0259trafa yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Amma bu rabit\u0259siz, ah\u0259ngsiz s\u0259sl\u0259r musiqiy\u0259 he\u00e7 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi. Bunu \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilir, anlay\u0131r, lakin yen\u0259 d\u0259 inadkarcas\u0131na onun kimi ifa etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u2500G\u00f6z\u0259lim, inc\u0259 barmaqlarla siml\u0259r\u0259 bel\u0259 kobud toxunmaq olmaz,\u2013deyib gitaran\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131,barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 sim\u0259 toxundurub t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi,\u2013Musiqini duymaq, hiss etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini yum v\u0259 hiss et!
\nEl\u0259 ilk toxunu\u015fla siml\u0259r dil\u0259 g\u0259ldi sanki. S\u0259sind\u0259ki f\u0259rqli ah\u0259ng g\u00f6z\u0259l ifas\u0131 il\u0259 birl\u0259\u015fib axar sular t\u0259k inc\u0259 ruhuna s\u00fcz\u00fclm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\nBu b\u0259st\u0259ni \u00e7ox sevirdi Aylin. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, sehrli barmaqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n heyranl\u0131qla g\u0259nci izl\u0259yirdi. B\u0259z\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumur, musiqinin s\u0259dalar\u0131 alt\u0131nda x\u0259yallara q\u0259rq olurdu. Ulduzlu s\u0259ma, gec\u0259nin s\u0259ssizliyini pozan m\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m ifa, arada bir g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b ona g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n g\u0259ncin mehriban bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131- ham\u0131s\u0131 indi ona m\u0259xsus idi.
\n\u2500Bax, bel\u0259, Aylin. Xo\u015funa g\u0259ldi?\u2013\u0130fas\u0131n\u0131 bitir\u0259n g\u0259nc g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.
\n\u2500H\u0259. Sevir\u0259m bu b\u0259st\u0259ni. Amma he\u00e7 vaxt ayr\u0131l\u0131q olmas\u0131n, Nihat! \u2013deyib g\u0259ncin \u00e7iynin\u0259 qoydu ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131.
\nG\u0259nc gitaran\u0131 k\u0259nara qoyub q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fad\u0131:
\n\u2500D\u00fcnyada \u0259b\u0259di he\u00e7 n\u0259 yoxdur, can\u0131m. H\u0259r \u015feyin ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 v\u0259 sonu var.
\nAylin dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 b\u00fczd\u00fc, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. N\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcs\u0259 daha b\u0259rk g\u0259ncin k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nd\u0131. Onun q\u0259lbinin d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc hiss edirdi indi.
\n\u2500Yox, ayr\u0131l\u0131qdan, sondan dan\u0131\u015fma.
\nNihat he\u00e7 bir s\u00f6z dem\u0259d\u0259n g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Sevgisin\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan q\u0131z\u0131 qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131b qoxusunu i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Araya \u00e7\u00f6km\u00fc\u015f s\u00fckutu yen\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc pozdu:
\n\u2500S\u0259ni \u00f6p\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?
\n\u2500Yox! \u2013q\u0131z s\u0259rt cavab verdi.
\n\u2500Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 da ox\u015faya bilm\u0259r\u0259m? \u2013Nihat m\u0259nal\u0131\u2013m\u0259nal\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib soru\u015fdu.
\nAylin ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259:
\n\u2500Yox! -dedi.
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131, nec\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n… \u2013deyib Nihat susdu yen\u0259.
\nBir \u2013birin\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131lan g\u0259ncl\u0259r s\u00f6z tapa bilmirdi dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa. \u018fslind\u0259 bir \u2013birin\u0259 deyil\u0259c\u0259k bu q\u0259d\u0259r s\u00f6z vark\u0259n, h\u0259r ikisi susurdu. S\u00fckutun lal dilind\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 h\u0259r ikisi.
\nGec\u0259nin d\u0259 s\u00fckutunu arada bir s\u0259s salan oca\u011f\u0131n \u00e7\u0131rt\u0131lt\u0131s\u0131, \u0259s\u0259n x\u0259fif mehin s\u0259si pozurdu. S\u0259madak\u0131 ulduzlar sanki bu gec\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n idi yer\u0259. \u018flini atsa tuta bil\u0259rdi b\u0259lk\u0259. K\u00fcl\u0259k \u0259sdikc\u0259 a\u011faclar\u0131n m\u00fcdhi\u015f k\u00f6lg\u0259si hasar\u0131n divarlar\u0131na d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nNihatla Aylinin tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131 yeni idi. G\u0259nc musiqi\u00e7il\u0259rin d\u0259 i\u015ftirak etdiyi festival\u0131n m\u00fckafatland\u0131rma m\u0259rasimind\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olmu\u015fdular. H\u0259l\u0259 m\u00fckafat\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259qdim etdiyi zaman Aylin onun ala g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, g\u00f6z\u0259l t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 heyran olmu\u015fdu. M\u00fckafat\u0131n\u0131 al\u0131b q\u0131za t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcr ed\u0259n Nihat is\u0259 q\u0131za \u00f6t\u0259ri n\u0259z\u0259r salaraq \u00e7ox da diqq\u0259t etm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ev\u0259 qay\u0131dark\u0259n dayanacaqda da Nihat\u0131 g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 Aylin \u00f6z\u00fc ona yax\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131\u015f, ifas\u0131n\u0131 b\u0259y\u0259ndiyini s\u00f6yl\u0259yib gec\u0259nin qalibi oldu\u011funa g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259brik etmi\u015fdi. H\u0259min gec\u0259d\u0259n ba\u015flanan tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q davam edirdi.
\n\u0130lk g\u00fcnl\u0259r Nihat\u0131n soyuq davran\u0131\u015f\u0131ndan q\u0131z \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f, h\u0259tta bir daha qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 zaman ona salam bel\u0259 verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 q\u0259ti q\u0259rar vermi\u015fdi. H\u0259r zaman diqq\u0259t m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259 olma\u011f\u0131na ad\u0259t ed\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259nc musiqi\u00e7inin soyuq v\u0259 bir q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259 kobud r\u0259ftar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyi bir anda is\u0259 bitmi\u015f sand\u0131\u011f\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r Nihat\u0131n bir z\u0259ngi il\u0259 yenid\u0259n davam etmi\u015fdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 is\u0259 f\u0259rqli idi h\u0259r \u015fey. Aylinin g\u00f6zl\u0259dikl\u0259rinin \u0259ksin\u0259 olaraq indi Nihat ona daha yax\u0131n olmaq, onunla s\u0259mimi olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00fcn boyu ba\u015f\u0131 i\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan g\u0259ncl\u0259r ilk f\u00fcrs\u0259td\u0259 \u0259laq\u0259 saxlay\u0131r,vaxt tapan kimi bir \u2013birinin g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 can at\u0131rd\u0131lar. Soyuq davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bini Nihat bir g\u00fcn t\u0259rk edil\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n ehtiyat etdiyi, bir daha ayr\u0131l\u0131q ac\u0131s\u0131 ya\u015famaq ist\u0259m\u0259diyi il\u0259 izah etmi\u015fdi. Onun ifas\u0131nda Aylinin sevdiyi \u201cBu ayr\u0131l\u0131q n\u0259d\u0259n oldu\u201d mahn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n Nihat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox k\u0259d\u0259rli xatir\u0259l\u0259ri var idi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bir g\u00fcn Aylini d\u0259 itir\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n ehtiyat etdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn,ona r\u0259\u011fb\u0259tini gizl\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131zdan uzaq qalma\u011fa, h\u0259tta qa\u00e7ma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r ikisi dost qala bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini, bir \u2013birin\u0259 get-ged\u0259 daha \u00e7ox ba\u011fland\u0131qlar\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdil\u0259r.
\nNihat buz kimi soyuq \u0259ll\u0259rind\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss edib soru\u015fdu:
\n\u2500Noldu? \u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcn?
\nYara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 sevgilisinin ovcundan \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259n q\u0131z g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k daha \u00e7ox k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131ld\u0131. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc etiraf etm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259di.
\nNihat q\u0131z\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fay\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6pd\u00fc, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2500B\u0259s m\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim, m\u0259nim yan\u0131mda he\u00e7 bir qaranl\u0131q, soyuq s\u0259n\u0259 t\u0259sir etmir.
\n\u00d6z hissl\u0259rini etiraf etm\u0259yi sevm\u0259zdi Aylin. Ondan o q\u0259d\u0259r f\u0259rql\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259n Nihat da qapal\u0131 v\u0259 susqun idi; \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n, \u00f6z i\u015fl\u0259rind\u0259n dan\u0131\u015fma\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 sevm\u0259zdi. Aylin s\u0259yl\u0259 onu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r tan\u0131ma\u011fa c\u0259hd ets\u0259 d\u0259, Nihat daha \u00e7ox sirli,m\u00fc\u0259mmal\u0131 qalma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Aylin onu \u00f6z q\u0259lbinin, hissl\u0259rinin s\u0259si il\u0259 hiss edirdi. Nihat \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 Aylin a\u00e7\u0131q kitab kimi idi. Q\u0131z\u0131n s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tin\u0259, d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz yana\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015e\u0259n v\u0259 \u015f\u0131ltaq q\u0131z\u0131n inadkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131 onu b\u0259z\u0259n bezdirs\u0259 d\u0259, dar\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 anda n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 ilk onu xat\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. Sevm\u0259y\u0259, sevilm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcd ed\u0259n g\u0259nc \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 hiss etm\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n cazib\u0259sinin t\u0259siri alt\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259kd\u0259 idi.
\nK\u00fcl\u0259yin x\u0259fif mehi, oca\u011f\u0131n alovundan k\u0259nara s\u0131\u00e7rayan q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131mlar yaln\u0131z g\u0259ncl\u0259rin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 \u0259ks olunmad\u0131, t\u0259dric\u0259n onlar\u0131n cismin\u0259, ruhuna yay\u0131lmaqda idi.
\nUlduzlu s\u0259ma alt\u0131nda gec\u0259nin s\u0259ssizliyi, q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 toxunan isti n\u0259f\u0259si Nihat\u0131n q\u0259lbinin d\u0259rinlikl\u0259rind\u0259 gizl\u0259nmi\u015f hissl\u0259ri, ist\u0259yi a\u015fkara \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 icaz\u0259siz ox\u015fama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. R\u0259dd edilm\u0259diyini hiss edinc\u0259 daha da \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndi. Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131n inc\u0259 toxunu\u015fu il\u0259 Aylinin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131. Aylinin daha da artan q\u0259lb d\u00f6y\u00fcnt\u00fcl\u0259ri, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yand\u0131ran n\u0259f\u0259si q\u0259fild\u0259n onu qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6pm\u0259k ist\u0259yi yaratd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259d\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259ll\u0259ri aras\u0131na al\u0131b dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131na s\u0131xd\u0131.
\nNihat\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259nilm\u0259z r\u0259ftar\u0131 Aylini diksindirdi. Nihat\u0131n qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ciddi, a\u011f\u0131r t\u0259bi\u0259ti il\u0259 se\u00e7il\u0259n g\u0259ncin \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7a\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nNihat bir q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259vv\u0259l qollar\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u0259zizl\u0259diyi q\u0131z\u0131n s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259b\u0259bini \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 r\u0259dd edilm\u0259k kimi anlasa da, q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcrk\u0259k bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131ndan, aram \u2013aram qalx\u0131b en\u0259n sin\u0259sind\u0259n onun h\u00fcrkd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc,ona bigan\u0259 olmamas\u0131na baxmayaraq b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 haz\u0131r olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\n\u2500Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, icaz\u0259siz s\u0259ni \u00f6pm\u0259m\u0259liydim. Bilmir\u0259m m\u0259n\u0259 noldu…q\u0259fil i\u00e7imd\u0259n… ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla, g\u00fcnahkaram.
\nNihat daha h\u0259ssas v\u0259 anlay\u0131\u015fl\u0131 olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n n\u00f6vb\u0259ti reaksiyas\u0131ndan ehtiyat ed\u0259r\u0259k sakitc\u0259 \u0259lini Aylinin soyuq \u0259lin\u0259 toxundurdu.
\n\u2500S\u0259n\u0259 ziyan verm\u0259k, pislik etm\u0259k kimi niyy\u0259tim yoxdur.
\nAylin susurdu. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 Nihat\u0131n k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131b, i\u00e7\u0259ri batan yanaqlar\u0131ndan, qara g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n, uzun sa\u00e7lar\u0131ndan \u00f6p\u00fclm\u0259sin\u0259 etiraz etm\u0259y\u0259n Aylin \u00e7ox h\u0259y\u0259canl\u0131 idi. X\u0259yal\u0131nda d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 Nihat\u0131n onu \u00f6pm\u0259sini arzulasa da, dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n b\u0259kar\u0259tini pozaraq ondan bus\u0259 o\u011furlayan g\u0259ncin hissl\u0259rin\u0259 hakim ola bilm\u0259m\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259m onu, h\u0259m \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc q\u0131nad\u0131. N\u0259 ist\u0259yirdi? N\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc? H\u0259r zaman Nihatla b\u0259rab\u0259r olmaq ist\u0259y\u0259n, onun yan\u0131nda olmas\u0131n\u0131, onu \u0259zizl\u0259m\u0259sini ist\u0259y\u0259n, k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nan Aylin \u00f6z\u00fc deyildimi? \u015e\u0259h\u0259r k\u0259nar\u0131nda ke\u00e7iril\u0259n konsert\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t edildiyi zaman t\u0259l\u0259sik raz\u0131l\u0131q ver\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc idi.
\nNihat Aylin\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n \u00e7iyinl\u0259rini, belini qucaqlad\u0131, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. R\u0259dd edilm\u0259diyi onu sevindirdi. Q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259tli n\u0259f\u0259si \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc, boynunu yand\u0131rd\u0131qca daha \u00e7ox onu arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. \u018frk\u00f6y\u00fcn v\u0259 \u015f\u0131ltaq bir q\u0131z\u0131 qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan buraxd\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm\u00fc yoxsa? H\u0259min an Nihata el\u0259 g\u0259ldi ki, bu d\u0259lisov q\u0131z\u0131 bir daha qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan buraxarsa, bir daha he\u00e7 vaxt ona sar\u0131la, onu qucaqlaya bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k. Q\u0131z\u0131n belini qucaqlay\u0131b \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rinin i\u00e7in\u0259 baxark\u0259n d\u0259 onun hissl\u0259rini, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 mara\u011f\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Uzun zaman idi ki, Nihat he\u00e7 k\u0259s\u0259 indi Aylin\u0259 sar\u0131lmaq ist\u0259diyi q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7\u0131l\u011f\u0131n hissl\u0259r ya\u015famam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nAylin sevdiyi g\u0259ncin yanaqlar\u0131na, boynuna toxunan dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259rar\u0259tini duyduqca daha \u0259vv\u0259lki kimi ona m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259 bilmirdi. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 bu hissl\u0259ri ya\u015fayan q\u0131z \u0259slind\u0259 n\u0259 etm\u0259li oldu\u011funu, bir q\u0131z\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q verib, yoxsa ki r\u0259dd etm\u0259li oldu\u011funu bilmirdi. \u00d6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259d\u0259n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 g\u0259ncin onu h\u0259qiq\u0259t\u0259n sevdiyi, yaxud ona \u015f\u0259hv\u0259t hissi il\u0259 yana\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlam\u0131rd\u0131.
\nQar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q g\u00f6rm\u0259y\u0259n Nihat dayand\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259ll\u0259rini buraxd\u0131. Geri \u00e7\u0259kildi.
\n\u2500Ba\u011f\u0131\u015fla…S\u0259ni he\u00e7 n\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cbur etm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m…
\nH\u0259min an Aylin onu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r sevdiyini, ona bigan\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bir daha anlad\u0131. Q\u0259lbind\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259n sevdiyi insan\u0131 itirm\u0259k qorxusu, k\u00f6ks\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nmaq ist\u0259yi il\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 g\u0259ncin \u0259lind\u0259n tutma\u011fa vadar etdi.
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259n Nihat yenid\u0259n Aylinin belini qucaqlad\u0131. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131, boynunu \u00f6p\u0259r\u0259k, yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131. Q\u0259fild\u0259n onu qollar\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 al\u0131b ev\u0259 do\u011fru add\u0131mlad\u0131. K\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 f\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi q\u0131z\u0131 quca\u011f\u0131nda ev boyu f\u0131rlay\u0131r, Aylinin \u201cBa\u015f\u0131m d\u00f6n\u00fcr. Nihat, m\u0259ni yer\u0259 qoy!\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 bel\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t vermirdi.
\nNihat\u0131n soyuq v\u0259 cans\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 evi indi Aylinin \u015f\u0259n s\u0259si, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259ri il\u0259 dolmu\u015fdu. Aylinin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 sanki Nihat\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131na da r\u0259ng qat\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss edirdi bu g\u00fcn. Ehtiras\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 gizl\u0259n\u0259n d\u0259rin sevgisind\u0259n, q\u0131za m\u0259ftunlu\u011fundan \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idi b\u0259lk\u0259.
\nNihat Aylini qollar\u0131 \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn evi doland\u0131rd\u0131qdan sonra yataq ota\u011f\u0131nda \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydu. Aylinin da\u011f\u0131n\u0131q qara sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 barmaqlar\u0131 il\u0259 daray\u0131b \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc ox\u015fad\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131ndan bus\u0259 almaqdan doymurdu.\u00d6p\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q g\u00f6r\u0259n Nihat\u0131 indi he\u00e7 n\u0259 saxlaya bilm\u0259zdi. Aylinin \u00e7\u0259king\u0259nliyi, utancaql\u0131\u011f\u0131 f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi. Q\u0131z\u0131n h\u0259y\u0259candan titr\u0259y\u0259n b\u0259d\u0259nini dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131n toxunu\u015fu il\u0259 \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k iki can bir b\u0259d\u0259nd\u0259 olma\u011fa, g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 qurdu\u011fu x\u0259yallar\u0131n\u0131 ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259sirdi.
\nAylin b\u0259z\u0259n onun \u0259lind\u0259n s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b qa\u00e7maq ist\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259, Nihat onu qollar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan he\u00e7 yer\u0259 buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi. Aylinin x\u0259cal\u0259td\u0259n al\u0131\u015f\u0131b yanan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fcn alland\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 Aylin\u0259 sahib olma\u011f\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. T\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259li v\u0259 qad\u0131n psixologiyas\u0131na yax\u015f\u0131 b\u0259l\u0259d olan Nihat Aylinin dilind\u0259ki \u201cYox\u201d ifad\u0259si il\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 onu n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss edirdi. Suya t\u0259\u015fn\u0259 insanlar kimi Nihat da q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131na t\u0259\u015fn\u0259 idi. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fayan q\u0131z is\u0259 ehtirasdan ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259n, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 hakim ola bilm\u0259y\u0259n g\u0259nc\u0259 m\u00fcqavim\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259k iqtidar\u0131nda deyildi bu an.
\nAl\u0131nmayan qalan\u0131n ilk fatehi olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlayan Nihat yaln\u0131z indi q\u0131z\u0131n q\u0259lbinin nec\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259canla d\u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fcn f\u0259rqin\u0259 vard\u0131. Qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n titr\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259rini, h\u0259rar\u0259td\u0259n v\u0259 utancdan al\u0131\u015f\u0131b yanan \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131. Nihat\u0131n ehtiras alovu \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 su t\u00f6k\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f ocaq kimi s\u00f6nd\u00fc bir anda. Q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259lini tutub \u00f6pd\u00fc. Dem\u0259y\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fc yox idi. Vicdan \u0259zab\u0131 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi, pe\u015fman oldu\u011fu, yaxud q\u0131z\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda x\u0259cal\u0259t \u00e7\u0259kdiyini ay\u0131rd etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyildi.
\n\u2500Aylin…
\nAylin g\u0259ncin sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 ox\u015fay\u0131b, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0131\u011fallad\u0131. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131 yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 sevgilisini qucaqlad\u0131.
\n\u2500S\u0259ni sevir\u0259m, Nihat. H\u0259r zaman yan\u0131mda olma\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir\u0259m.
\n\u2500Yox. M\u0259n bunu bacarmayacam. \u2013deyib Nihat q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259lini geri it\u0259l\u0259di.
\nAylin son anda r\u0259dd edildiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sanki p\u0259rt olmu\u015fdu. Sevildiyi q\u0259d\u0259r sevilm\u0259k arzusu r\u0259dd edilmi\u015fdimi yoxsa? \u018fslind\u0259 g\u00fcnah etdiyini v\u0259 b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259ri buna pe\u015fman olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bils\u0259 d\u0259, sevdiyi insana b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 sahib olmaq, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 ona m\u0259xsus olmaq ist\u0259yirdi.
\nAylin yanaqlar\u0131n\u0131, sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 tumarlayan g\u0259ncin \u0259lini tutdu:
\n\u2500Yan\u0131mda ol. He\u00e7 vaxt \u0259limi buraxma, Nihat!
\nNihat sevgisin\u0259 bu g\u00fcn\u0259d\u0259k kifay\u0259t q\u0259d\u0259r d\u0259y\u0259r verm\u0259diyi q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxaraq, ona qar\u015f\u0131 davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131, soyuq m\u00fcnasib\u0259tini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. Q\u0131z\u0131n ba\u015f gic\u0259ll\u0259ndir\u0259n cazib\u0259si qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, o, dayanmaq iqtidar\u0131nda deyildi. Al\u0131nmaz qalan\u0131n ilk fatehi kimi hiss edirdi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bu an Nihat. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss ed\u0259n g\u0259nc q\u0131z is\u0259 \u0259lini buraxmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259d ed\u0259n insan\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 sevm\u0259y\u0259 davam edirdi.<\/p>\n

Aylin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131 zaman ba\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 dayanan Nihat\u0131n \u0259yilib dodaqlar\u0131ndan \u00f6pd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc hiss etdi:
\n\u2500Sabah\u0131n xeyir, yatm\u0131\u015f g\u00f6z\u0259lim! H\u0259yat\u0131ma, evim\u0259 xo\u015f g\u0259ldin!
\nAylin g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Gec\u0259nin n\u0259 zaman bitdiyini, s\u0259h\u0259rin n\u0259 zaman a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 hiss etm\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\nNihat q\u0131z\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, dodaqlar\u0131ndan ehtirasla \u00f6p\u00fcb aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131:
\n\u2500\u0130ndi \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259riml\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259lim\u0259 el\u0259 g\u00f6z\u0259l bir s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yi haz\u0131rlayacam ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 bel\u0259 l\u0259zz\u0259tli he\u00e7 n\u0259 yem\u0259mi\u015f\u0259n.
\nNihat az sonra geri qay\u0131td\u0131. \u018flind\u0259ki podnosu yax\u0131nl\u0131qdak\u0131 masan\u0131n \u00fcz\u0259rin\u0259 qoyaraq q\u0131za, \u0259ynind\u0259ki geyim\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131b g\u00fcld\u00fc:
\n\u2500El\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnd\u0259n qarderobuma sahib \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131san…
\nAylin Nihat\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259, daha sonra \u0259ynind\u0259ki k\u00f6yn\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131b g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2500H\u0259…S\u0259nin k\u00f6yn\u0259yind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc daha rahat hiss edir\u0259m.
\nNihat ba\u011f\u00e7adan q\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl\u00fc q\u0131z\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131na, burnuna toxundurdu:
\n\u2500M\u0259n d\u0259… s\u0259n yan\u0131mda olanda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc rahat hiss edir\u0259m.
\nAylin \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131ndak\u0131 gitaran\u0131 \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131. Sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xd\u0131. Siml\u0259r\u0259 toxunaraq:
\n\u2500Nihat, m\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259 \u00e7alma\u011f\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259t! \u2013dedi.
\nD\u00fcn\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r gitaras\u0131na kiml\u0259rins\u0259 toxunmas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0131sqanan Nihat bu g\u00fcn \u0259ksin\u0259 Aylinin barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 siml\u0259r\u0259 q\u0131sqand\u0131. Q\u0259lbind\u0259n q\u0259rib\u0259 bir q\u0131sqancl\u0131q v\u0259 m\u00fclkiyy\u0259t\u00e7ilik hissi y\u00fcks\u0259ldi. Aylini h\u0259r k\u0259s\u0259, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 q\u0131sqanma\u011fa ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
\nGitaran\u0131 al\u0131b bir k\u0259nara qoydu:
\n\u2500N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki varsan h\u0259yat\u0131mda!
\nBu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri e\u015fitm\u0259yi arzulayan Aylin \u00e7ox m\u0259mnun g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc. Nihat \u00f6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 ilk d\u0259f\u0259 kimis\u0259 \u00f6z \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 yedirirdi. Aylin d\u0259c\u0259l v\u0259 \u015f\u0131ltaq q\u0131za b\u0259nz\u0259yirdi yan\u0131nda. He\u00e7 vaxt onu incitm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259diyini, bu g\u00fcnd\u0259n sonra is\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n qorumal\u0131 oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc.
\nAylin q\u0259fil xat\u0131rlayaraq dolab\u00e7an\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki telefonu \u0259lin\u0259 ald\u0131:
\n\u2500Nihat! Saat ne\u00e7\u0259dir? Ax\u0131 bu g\u00fcn t\u0259dbirimiz var. Gecik\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m!
\n\u2500Getm\u0259! \u2013Nihat\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 q\u0131sqancl\u0131q ifad\u0259si g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc.
\n\u2500Niy\u0259, can\u0131m? \u2013Aylin g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k soru\u015fdu.
\n\u2500\u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m!
\n\u2500Niy\u0259?-Aylin m\u00fclayim s\u0259sl\u0259 soru\u015fdu.
\n\u2500Sus v\u0259 sual verm\u0259! \u0130st\u0259mir\u0259m, v\u0259ssalam! \u2013Nihat s\u0259rt dedi.
\n\u2500Bu da t\u0259z\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131?-Aylin t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ona h\u00f6km ed\u0259n g\u0259nc\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r sald\u0131.
\n\u2500H\u0259, bundan sonra t\u0259dbir filan olmayacaq! \u018friz\u0259ni yaz v\u0259 i\u015fd\u0259n uzaqla\u015f bu g\u00fcn. S\u0259ni he\u00e7 k\u0259sl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m!
\nAylin Nihat\u0131n sa\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2500D\u0259lis\u0259n s\u0259n! Getm\u0259liy\u0259m, Nihat. \u00d6z\u00fcn bilirs\u0259n ki, son m\u0259qamda apar\u0131c\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fikliyi m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil.
\nNihat onu raz\u0131 salmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00f6p\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259lini tutub \u00f6pd\u00fc:
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131. Yaln\u0131z bu g\u00fcn. Sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259. G\u0259l\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 olmayacaq!
\nAylin g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131:
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131, can\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Nihat avtomobild\u0259n enm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259n Aylinin \u0259lini tutdu:
\n\u2500S\u0259ni he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m. B\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 m\u0259xsus ol: \u00d6z\u00fcn d\u0259! S\u0259sin d\u0259! Ruhun, cismin d\u0259!
\n\u2500S\u0259nin\u0259m d\u0259! \u2013dey\u0259r\u0259k Aylin dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 Nihat\u0131n dodaqlar\u0131na s\u0131xd\u0131.
\n\u2500Aylin! \u2013Nihat avtomobilin i\u00e7ind\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259di.
\nAylin geri qay\u0131td\u0131:
\n\u2500Ay can! Fikrini d\u0259yi\u015fdin? Gedirs\u0259n bizl\u0259?
\nNihat ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 yell\u0259di:
\n\u2500Yox! Daha vacib i\u015fl\u0259rim var bu g\u00fcn.
\n\u2500N\u0259? \u2013Aylin maraqla soru\u015fdu.
\nNihat m\u0259nal\u0131 \u2013m\u0259nal\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259yib q\u0131za g\u00f6z vurdu:
\n\u2500M\u0259nd\u0259 qals\u0131n. Ax\u015fam bil\u0259rs\u0259n.
\n\u2500Yax\u015f\u0131, can\u0131m. Nec\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n. \u2013deyib Aylin avtomobild\u0259n en\u0259rk\u0259n geri \u00e7evrildi. \u2013Dar\u0131x m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn! Yaln\u0131z m\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn! Ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 k\u0259si v\u0259 he\u00e7 n\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259!
\nNihat h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki kimi susub g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Aylin susmaq ist\u0259mirdi:
\n\u2500S\u00f6z? S\u0259n\u0259 mesaj yazacam. Telefonun m\u0259\u015f\u011ful olmas\u0131n ha!
\nNihat g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b yumdu. Aylinin arxas\u0131yca boylanaraq g\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna olan planlar\u0131n\u0131 x\u0259yal etdi. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7ox i\u015fi vard\u0131. G\u00fcn\u00fcn sonuna q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259r \u015feyi haz\u0131rlay\u0131b \u00e7atd\u0131rmal\u0131 idi.<\/p>\n

Nihat qonaq ota\u011f\u0131n\u0131, masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00fcl \u2013\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259rl\u0259, \u015famlarla b\u0259z\u0259mi\u015f, yataq ota\u011f\u0131na q\u0131z\u0131lg\u00fcl l\u0259\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ri s\u0259pmi\u015fdi. H\u0259diyy\u0259 ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6z\u0259l libas v\u0259 tez \u2013tez bax\u0131b qutusuna qoydu\u011fu ni\u015fan \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc il\u0259 bu g\u00fcn ona \u00f6z sevgisini bildirm\u0259k, evl\u0259nm\u0259 t\u0259klifi etm\u0259k ist\u0259yirdi. Aylin\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feyi unutmaq, Aylinl\u0259 yeni h\u0259yata ba\u015flamaq ist\u0259yirdi. Qapal\u0131 v\u0259 susqun bir insan\u0131 q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259yi bacaran q\u0131z h\u0259yat\u0131na b\u00f6y\u00fck bir sevinc g\u0259tirdiyinin f\u0259rqind\u0259 deyildi \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259.
\nAylinin g\u0259li\u015fin\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey haz\u0131r idi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 onu g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k qal\u0131rd\u0131. Xo\u015f s\u00fcrpriz q\u0131z\u0131 \u00e7ox sevindir\u0259c\u0259kdi. Nihat telefonu \u0259lin\u0259 al\u0131b saat\u0131na baxd\u0131. Aylini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc. S\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n b\u0259ri xat\u0131rlamad\u0131\u011f\u0131na, mesaj yazaca\u011f\u0131na s\u00f6z verib unutdu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0131z\u0131 \u00f6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 q\u0131nad\u0131. Amma bu g\u00fcn\u00fcn onun v\u0259 Aylin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn f\u0259rqli v\u0259 \u00f6z\u0259l g\u00fcn oldu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fc q\u0131za mesaj yazma\u011fa q\u0259rar verdi. \u00c7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 mesaj\u0131 g\u00f6nd\u0259rdi. Q\u0259rib\u0259dir, telefonunda dal\u011fa tutmurdu n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259. Eyvana, daha sonra is\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Yen\u0259 d\u0259 dal\u011fa yox idi. Dilxor oldu. Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 telefonu yand\u0131r\u0131b s\u00f6nd\u00fcrs\u0259 d\u0259, xeyri yox idi. Yeni ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 telefonu ustaya g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259yi sabaha q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259xir\u0259 sald\u0131. Aylinin ev\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259c\u0259yi bir zamanda ustaya getm\u0259yin m\u0259nas\u0131 yox idi. \u00d6zl\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 Aylinin d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ona z\u0259ng etdiyini, q\u0259sd\u0259n telefonu s\u00f6nd\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259xmin ed\u0259c\u0259yini v\u0259 nec\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259\u015f\u0259c\u0259yini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckc\u0259 dilxor\u00e7ulu\u011fu daha da art\u0131rd\u0131. Aylinin dal\u0131yca getm\u0259y\u0259, yaxud evd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar ver\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Son anda evd\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 q\u0259rar verib televizorun xodunu art\u0131rd\u0131. X\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r idi.
\n\u2500M\u0259rd\u0259kan \u2013\u015e\u00fcv\u0259lan yolunda d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli avtomobil q\u0259zas\u0131 ba\u015f vermi\u015fdir. \u00d6l\u0259n v\u0259 yaralanlar var. X\u0259st\u0259xanaya qald\u0131r\u0131lan tan\u0131nm\u0131\u015f apar\u0131c\u0131 Aylin A\u011fayevan\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 is\u0259 xilas etm\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131r.
\nNihat geri \u00e7evrildi. Qulaqlar\u0131na inana bilm\u0259di. B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc Aylini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259n s\u0259hv\u0259n ad\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fitmi\u015fdimi yoxsa? Ekranda g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n \u015f\u0259kil is\u0259 Nihat\u0131n b\u00fct\u00fcn arzular\u0131na, x\u0259yallar\u0131na bir an i\u00e7ind\u0259 son qoydu.
\n\u2500Aylin! \u2013dey\u0259 ba\u011f\u0131raraq masan\u0131 devirdi. \u018ftrafdak\u0131 h\u0259r \u015feyi devirir,qab \u2013qa\u015f\u0131qlar\u0131 yer\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131b s\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.
\nYer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb dizl\u0259rini qucaqlad\u0131. M\u0259hv olmu\u015f arzular\u0131na, x\u0259yallar\u0131na a\u011flamaqdan ba\u015fqa \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 yox idi.
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn\u00fc susan telefonu cingild\u0259di. Tez \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc telefonun \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131. \u018flin\u0259 al\u0131b t\u0259l\u0259sik ekran\u0131 a\u00e7d\u0131. Itmi\u015f dal\u011fa b\u0259rpa olunmu\u015f, Aylin gecikmi\u015f says\u0131z -hesabs\u0131z mesajlar\u0131 \u00fcnvan\u0131na yeti\u015fmi\u015fdi.
\n\u2500Niy\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 z\u0259ng \u00e7atm\u0131r?
\n\u2500Niy\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u00fcs\u0259n telefonu?
\n\u2500Hava qaralmadan evd\u0259 olacam…
\n\u2500Can\u0131m….
\n\u2500Nihat, S\u018fN\u0130 \u00c7OX SEV\u0130R\u018fM!
\nNihat son mesaj\u0131 d\u00f6n\u0259 -d\u00f6n\u0259 oxuyur, Aylind\u0259n doymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi mesajlardan da g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7\u0259k\u0259 bilmirdi.
\nSaatlar ke\u00e7irdi. Hava da qaralm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Qaranl\u0131qdan qorxan Aylin is\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Nihat onu qap\u0131 a\u011fz\u0131nda qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Bir g\u00fcn \u0259vv\u0259l oturduqlar\u0131 a\u011fac\u0131n alt\u0131nda yer\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u00fcb q\u0131z\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Dar\u0131x\u0131rd\u0131. Qeyri \u2013ixtiyari \u0259lini gitaras\u0131na uzatd\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 siml\u0259r\u0259 toxundurub Aylinin sevdiyi b\u0259st\u0259ni ifa etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131.
\n\u2500Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q n\u0259d\u0259n oldu…
\n\u0130ki damla ya\u015f Nihat\u0131n dolmu\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n yanaqlar\u0131na s\u00fcz\u00fcld\u00fc. Aylin daha g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259kdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki gec idi. Aylin qaranl\u0131qdan qorxurdu.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u0130nc\u0259 barmaqlar\u0131 gitaran\u0131n siml\u0259rin\u0259 toxunduqca s\u0259sl\u0259r y\u00fcks\u0259lir, \u0259trafa yay\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131. Amma bu rabit\u0259siz, ah\u0259ngsiz s\u0259sl\u0259r musiqiy\u0259 he\u00e7 b\u0259nz\u0259mirdi. Bunu \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilir, anlay\u0131r, lakin yen\u0259 d\u0259 inadkarcas\u0131na onun kimi ifa etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Al\u0131nm\u0131rd\u0131. \u2500G\u00f6z\u0259lim, inc\u0259 barmaqlarla siml\u0259r\u0259 bel\u0259 kobud toxunmaq olmaz,\u2013deyib gitaran\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n ald\u0131,barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 sim\u0259 toxundurub t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 davam etdi,\u2013Musiqini duymaq, hiss etm\u0259k […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-25157","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25157","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=25157"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25157\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":25159,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/25157\/revisions\/25159"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=25157"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=25157"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=25157"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}