{"id":28620,"date":"2018-10-18T07:00:13","date_gmt":"2018-10-18T03:00:13","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28620"},"modified":"2018-10-18T09:36:10","modified_gmt":"2018-10-18T05:36:10","slug":"s%c9%99fa-v%c9%99liyeva-v%c9%99-anam","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28620","title":{"rendered":"\u015e\u0259fa V\u018fL\u0130YEVA.&#8221;V\u0259 anam&#8230;&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/sxv.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/sxv-300x225.jpg\" alt=\"sxv\" width=\"300\" height=\"225\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-22163\" srcset=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/sxv-300x225.jpg 300w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/09\/sxv.jpg 620w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><strong>\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, AYB v\u0259 AJB \u00fczv\u00fc,<br \/>\nPrezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, G\u0259ncl\u0259r m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131<\/strong> <\/p>\n<p>(&#8220;525-ci q\u0259zet&#8221;d\u0259 \u00e7ap olunan yaz\u0131m&#8230;.<br \/>\nG\u00fcl D\u0259r\u0259nin G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ni\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Anadan oldu\u011fum k\u0259nd G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 mahal\u0131n\u0131n D\u0259r\u0259 k\u0259ndidir. G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259lil\u0259r o k\u0259nd\u0259 \u201cS\u0259m\u0259d a\u011fan\u0131n d\u0259r\u0259si\u201d deyir. \u015e\u0259kill\u0259ri var k\u0259ndimizin anam\u0131n albomlar\u0131nda\u2026H\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fi g\u00fcl-\u00e7i\u00e7\u0259k, ya\u015f\u0131ll\u0131q, yollar\u0131 dolay-dolay, bir s\u0259mti G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 g\u00f6l\u00fc-dal\u011falar\u0131 sahil\u0259 a\u015fiq\u2026 \u0130ndi k\u0259ndimiz xatir\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 qal\u0131b; r\u0259ngi sar\u0131, olaylar\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q\u2026 Bir d\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259n \u0259srin 70-ci ill\u0259rinin sonunu, 80-ci ill\u0259rin \u0259vv\u0259lini xat\u0131rlayanda o k\u0259ndin \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l q\u0131z\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fanlar var h\u0259mk\u0259ndlil\u0259rimizin i\u00e7ind\u0259\u2026 \u00c7oxlar\u0131ndan e\u015fitmi\u015f\u0259m \u201cG\u00fcl D\u0259r\u0259nin G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ni\u201d s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc\u2026 Q\u00fcrurla ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131 dik\u0259ldib: \u201cG\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131yam!\u201d-demi\u015f\u0259m\u2026 \u0130nanmay\u0131blar\u2026 \u0130nananlar da t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259 ba\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 bulay\u0131b: \u201cHe\u00e7 ona ox\u015famam\u0131san\u201d-deyib\u2026<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259\u2026 B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 he\u00e7 ox\u015famad\u0131\u011f\u0131ma \u0259min olard\u0131m ikimiz d\u0259 misralarla ovunmasayd\u0131q\u2026 H\u0259, o da \u015fairdi. G\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc, bildiyini misra-misra dem\u0259k ist\u0259r&#8230; O, g\u00f6z\u0259l hekay\u0259l\u0259r yaz\u0131r. &#8220;\u0130\u015f\u0131q pulu&#8221; adl\u0131 hekay\u0259si il\u0259 nasir kimi \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259qdim ed\u0259 bilib. O, d\u00fcnyan\u0131n g\u00f6z\u0259l olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259y\u0259n bir insand\u0131. V\u0259 bu g\u00f6z\u0259llik namin\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki t\u00fcm imkanlardan yararlanma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r&#8230;<br \/>\nM\u0259tb\u0259xinin giri\u015find\u0259n bir d\u0259mir\u00e7i \u015f\u0259kli as\u0131b. \u015e\u0259kild\u0259 d\u0259mir\u00e7i baba \u0259lind\u0259ki d\u0259miri d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259yir. O, daim bu \u015f\u0259kl\u0259 bax\u0131b dey\u0259r: \u201cH\u0259yat d\u0259mir\u00e7i, insan bir d\u0259mir sanki&#8230; H\u0259yat insan\u0131 k\u00fcr\u0259d\u0259 isid\u0259r, zindanda \u00e7\u0259kicl\u0259 d\u00f6y\u0259r v\u0259 h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 ayr\u0131 bir xarakter b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259r&#8230;\u201d<br \/>\nM\u0259n bilir\u0259m b\u00fct\u00fcn analar g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. B\u00fct\u00fcn analar h\u0259yat\u0131n g\u00fcl d\u0259r\u0259nidir; h\u0259r bir bala g\u00fcld\u00fcr, \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kdir ya\u015fam adl\u0131 \u0259fsan\u0259vi ba\u011fda&#8230; Amma, o, m\u0259nim anamd\u0131r! \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn 60-c\u0131 ilin\u0259 birc\u0259 add\u0131m qal\u0131r bu pay\u0131z&#8230; Anam qocal\u0131r&#8230;<br \/>\nAnam\u0131n \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259n bir az yazm\u0131\u015fam komputerimin yadda\u015f\u0131na. H\u0259rd\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131ram, oxuyuram&#8230; M\u0259n nam\u0259lumlu\u011fun zaman\u0131nda bu d\u00fcnyaya yol g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 anam \u015fair \u00fcr\u0259yinin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu d\u0259rk edibmi\u015f&#8230; Yaz\u0131b ki:<br \/>\nK\u00f6kl\u0259nmi\u015f bir tard\u0131 \u015fair \u00fcr\u0259yi,<br \/>\nZili d\u0259 a\u011flad\u0131r, b\u0259mi d\u0259 onun&#8230;<br \/>\nAnam \u00f6z h\u0259sr\u0259tinin dilini bilirmi\u015f, m\u0259nd\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq. Bu dild\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131\u015f&#8230; S\u00f6zl\u0259rini gec\u0259l\u0259r aya s\u00f6yl\u0259yirmi\u015f ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 ay \u0259b\u0259di sevdal\u0131s\u0131na \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri&#8230; G\u00f6yl\u0259rin sar\u0131 q\u0131z\u0131 da \u00f6z z\u0259rrin \u015f\u00fcalar\u0131na toplay\u0131b bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri Xan Arazdan o yana ke\u00e7ir\u0259&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259rh\u0259d m\u0259ftill\u0259ri g\u00f6z damar\u0131md\u0131r,<br \/>\nNarahat gec\u0259md\u0259 q\u0131zarar, sancar.<br \/>\nAraz \u00fcr\u0259yimin q\u0131z\u0131l qan\u0131d\u0131r,<br \/>\nBir d\u0259li h\u0259sr\u0259tdir, k\u00fckr\u0259y\u0259r, co\u015far.<\/p>\n<p>V\u0259t\u0259n m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti payd\u0131, butad\u0131,<br \/>\nArazm\u0131 o taya b\u00f6ld\u00fc bu dad\u0131?<br \/>\nS\u0259rh\u0259d m\u0259ftill\u0259ri el\u0259 budad\u0131,<br \/>\nBaxd\u0131qca bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m \u00e7\u0259kin\u0259r, qorxar.<\/p>\n<p>Anam\u0131n xo\u015fuma g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259n bir misras\u0131 var\u2026 Bir ne\u00e7\u0259 il \u00f6nc\u0259y\u0259d\u0259k o misrayla da f\u0259xr edirdim. H\u0259r deyili\u015find\u0259 u\u00e7urdum g\u00f6yl\u0259r\u0259, arzular\u0131m p\u00f6hr\u0259l\u0259nirdi; m\u0259n d\u00fcnya \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olurdum, anam kitab\u0131m\u0131 yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda qoyub yat\u0131rd\u0131 o arzularda. Ax\u0131, anam\u0131n yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 M\u0259mm\u0259d Araz\u0131n \u201cOxucuya m\u0259ktub\u201d kitab\u0131 olurdu\u2026 S\u00f6z yox, el\u0259 indi d\u0259 anam\u0131n yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u201cPo\u00e7talyona m\u0259ktub\u201d var, amma, m\u0259n d\u00fcnya \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tli yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 olammad\u0131m. U\u015faqk\u0259n yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt gizl\u0259mirdim. Bu g\u00fcn gizl\u0259dir\u0259m amma\u2026 \u018fd\u0259biyyat\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131 xilas ed\u0259c\u0259yin\u0259 inanm\u0131ram art\u0131q\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki bu inam\u0131 kimin, n\u0259yin, nec\u0259 oyadaca\u011f\u0131 haqq\u0131nda da he\u00e7 bir fikrim yoxdur. Amma, anam 1988-ci ilin 22 iyulunda yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feiri il\u0259 inanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 m\u0259nim g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yimin q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 buta oldu\u011funa. \u0130lk q\u0131\u011f\u0131lt\u0131m\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259n kimi \u201cMasam\u0131n ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131, q\u0259l\u0259mi \u015e\u0259fam!\u201d-dey\u0259 yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nBir d\u0259 \u201cG\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259rdim, boyat d\u0259rdim\u201d-deyir anam\u2026 \u201cPu\u00e7urlanan, boy atan\u201d bir d\u0259rdin nec\u0259 boyat oldu\u011funu da anlamam\u0131\u015fam h\u0259l\u0259\u2026 M\u0259n do\u011fuldu\u011fum o k\u0259ndi, noyabr\u0131n 28-d\u0259 ba\u015flayan qa\u00e7aqa\u00e7\u0131, \u00fc\u00e7 ayl\u0131q k\u00f6rp\u0259yk\u0259n b\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259 donma\u011f\u0131m\u0131, m\u00f6c\u00fcz\u0259vari \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 donmu\u015f b\u0259l\u0259kd\u0259n sa\u011f \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131m\u0131 anam\u0131n g\u00f6y\u00fczl\u00fc d\u0259ft\u0259rind\u0259n oxumu\u015fam. Qarmaqar\u0131\u015f\u0131q x\u0259tl\u0259 anam qa\u00e7q\u0131nl\u0131q h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n bir h\u0259ft\u0259lik m\u00fcq\u0259ddim\u0259sini yaz\u0131b o d\u0259ft\u0259r\u0259\u2026 Amma, G\u00fcl D\u0259r\u0259li \u00fcmidl\u0259rin\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 sadiq qal\u0131b\u2026 G\u00fcmanlar\u0131n, b\u0259lk\u0259l\u0259rin yaxas\u0131ndan b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk yap\u0131\u015f\u0131b\u2026<\/p>\n<p>G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259nin da\u011flar\u0131 c\u0259rg\u0259-c\u0259rg\u0259dir,<br \/>\nDa\u011flar\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259yim g\u00fcman-b\u0259lk\u0259dir.<br \/>\n\u018flac n\u0259y\u0259 qal\u0131b, \u00fcmid kim\u0259dir?<br \/>\n\u201c\u018flvida\u201d dem\u0259dim, \u201cH\u0259l\u0259lik\u201d dedim,<br \/>\nO Ulu G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259m\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259rik dedim.<\/p>\n<p>Bir g\u00fcn anama z\u0259ng etmi\u015fdim. Q\u0259zet alma\u011f\u0131 tap\u015f\u0131racaqd\u0131m. Telefonda m\u0259n\u0259 bir b\u0259nd \u015feir dedi:<\/p>\n<p>Sa\u00e7\u0131mda a\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n boz k\u00f6lg\u0259si,<br \/>\nD\u0259rdim bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n toran d\u00f6ng\u0259si&#8230;<br \/>\n\u00d6mr\u0259 e\u015fqim \u00f6m\u00fcrd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00f6t\u0259si,<br \/>\nDizl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259 bils\u0259n, \u00e7\u00f6k g\u00f6r\u00fcm.<\/p>\n<p>Utand\u0131m\u2026 M\u0259n nec\u0259 \u00f6vlad idim ki, anam\u0131n sa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n a\u011farmas\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259rqin\u0259 varmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m?! Susmu\u015fdum\u2026 O s\u00fckutu d\u00fcz iki il \u00fcr\u0259yimin ba\u015f\u0131nda g\u00f6yn\u0259rti kimi g\u0259zdirmi\u015fdim\u2026 V\u0259 bu il q\u0259fild\u0259n s\u00fckutum orucunu pozdu\u2026 Dilimd\u0259n ax\u0131b t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n misralar g\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259ki ya\u015flar\u0131 qabaqlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131&#8230; Yazm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m ki:<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259n el\u0259 bilirdim,<br \/>\nqocala bilm\u0259z<br \/>\nm\u0259n boyda &#8220;k\u00f6rp\u0259si&#8221; olan bir qad\u0131n&#8230;<br \/>\n&#8230;&#8221;sa\u00e7\u0131mda a\u011f ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131n boz k\u00f6lg\u0259si&#8230;&#8221;<br \/>\n-demi\u015fdin&#8230;<br \/>\no k\u00f6lg\u0259 he\u00e7 canlanmas\u0131n&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u015eeirl\u0259ri \u00e7oxdu anam\u0131n\u2026 Oxumad\u0131qlar\u0131m da var, \u0259min\u0259m\u2026 \u00d6t\u0259n \u0259srin 80-ci ill\u0259rind\u0259 G\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259 yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 Q\u0259rib Mehdinin r\u0259hb\u0259rliyi il\u0259 f\u0259aliyy\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n \u201c\u0130lham\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc olub anam\u2026 \u201cA\u015f\u0131q P\u0259ri\u201d m\u0259clisinin G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259d\u0259n olan iki \u00fczv\u00fcnd\u0259n biri olub anam\u2026 Amma, b\u00fct\u00fcn misralar\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6rd balas\u0131n\u0131n telin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259yi bacar\u0131b\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130ndi h\u0259rd\u0259n Q\u0259rib Mehdi d\u0259, \u201c\u0130lham\u201d \u0259d\u0259bi birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc olan \u015fairl\u0259r d\u0259 anamdan \u015feir umur. \u201cYaz, h\u00f6r\u00fckl\u00fc q\u0131z, yaz!\u201d-deyirl\u0259r\u2026 Bu yax\u0131nlarda anam dedi ki, ondan \u015feir ist\u0259y\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 bir cavab\u0131 var\u2026 H\u0259min cavab m\u0259nim\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 min sual\u0131n ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 oldu, \u0259slind\u0259\u2026 O suallarla ba\u015f-ba\u015fa h\u0259rd\u0259n bu cavaba n\u0259z\u0259r sal\u0131ram bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m\u0131n ucuyla\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Ay m\u0259nd\u0259n \u015fairlik uman qarda\u015f\u0131m,<br \/>\nYar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q misralar k\u00f6n\u00fcl ovutmaz\u2026<br \/>\n\u0130lhaml\u0131 k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc duyan qarda\u015f\u0131m,<br \/>\n\u201cQ\u0259riblik\u201d b\u0259d s\u00f6zd\u00fc, r\u0259dif tap\u0131lmaz\u2026<\/p>\n<p>M\u0259nd\u0259n na\u011f\u0131l ist\u0259, n\u0259n\u0259m dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b,<br \/>\nYadda\u015f\u0131mda qal\u0131b Simurq qu\u015flar\u0131\u2026<br \/>\nM\u0259nd\u0259n \u015feir umma\u2026O misralar\u0131<br \/>\nYaz\u0131r yana\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n<p>\u201cOla\u201d-deyib arzulama \u015fair\u0259<br \/>\n\u201cM\u00f6ht\u0259\u015f\u0259m\u201d misralar, a\u011fladan b\u0259ndl\u0259r\u2026<br \/>\nQorxuram dem\u0259y\u0259-m\u0259n d\u0259 \u015fair\u0259m!<br \/>\n\u015eairi var edir sonsuz k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259r\u2026<\/p>\n<p>Daha susmu\u015fam bu \u015feird\u0259n sonra\u2026 \u0130\u00e7imd\u0259ki suallara hans\u0131 cavab\u0131 n\u0259 vaxt tapaca\u011fam, bilmir\u0259m\u2026 T\u0259k bildiyim, h\u0259l\u0259lik budur: \u201cAnam m\u0259nd\u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l olub m\u0259n ya\u015fda!\u201d<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259li (G\u0259nc\u0259-2018)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>\u201cG\u0259nc \u018fdibl\u0259r M\u0259kt\u0259bi\u201dnin m\u00fcdavimi, AYB v\u0259 AJB \u00fczv\u00fc, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc, G\u0259ncl\u0259r m\u00fcfakat\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 (&#8220;525-ci q\u0259zet&#8221;d\u0259 \u00e7ap olunan yaz\u0131m&#8230;. G\u00fcl D\u0259r\u0259nin G\u00fcld\u0259r\u0259ni\u2026 Anadan oldu\u011fum k\u0259nd G\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259 mahal\u0131n\u0131n D\u0259r\u0259 k\u0259ndidir. 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