{"id":28805,"date":"2018-11-03T08:30:39","date_gmt":"2018-11-03T04:30:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28805"},"modified":"2018-11-03T10:11:44","modified_gmt":"2018-11-03T06:11:44","slug":"al%c9%99mz%c9%99r-%c9%99lizad%c9%99-m%c9%99ni-axtaran-varmi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=28805","title":{"rendered":"Al\u0259mz\u0259r \u018fL\u0130ZAD\u018f.&#8221;M\u0259ni axtaran varm\u0131?&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/pm-ed.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/pm-ed-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-26108\" srcset=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/pm-ed-300x200.jpg 300w, http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/11\/pm-ed.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>(\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259linin \u201cPo\u00e7talyona m\u0259ktub\u201d kitab\u0131 haqq\u0131nda)<\/p>\n<p>Tanr\u0131, insaf\u0131n olsun,<br \/>\nAdam unudularm\u0131?<br \/>\nEh&#8230;<br \/>\nHan\u0131 telefonum?<br \/>\nM\u0259ni axtaran varm\u0131?<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u0259fa, bu misralar \u201cPo\u00e7talyona m\u0259ktub\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu \u015feirinin sonuncu misralar\u0131d\u0131. Soru\u015fursan ki, \u201cm\u0259ni axtaran varm\u0131?\u201d \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 var, ay q\u0131z\u0131m. El\u0259 biri m\u0259n. Kitab\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m, oxudum, (\u015feirl\u0259rinin \u00e7oxunu \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n oxumu\u015fdum), haqq\u0131nda dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rim oldu\u011funu d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirdim.<br \/>\nBu yaz\u0131m kitab\u0131na t\u0259brikdir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rinin ancaq m\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rind\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7aca\u011fam. \u00c7\u00fcnki, \u0259s\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7at\u0131\u015fmazl\u0131qlar\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n. M\u0259n\u0259 el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, onlar\u0131 da el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn d\u00fcz\u0259ld\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;S\u0259n uzaq, \u00e7ox uzaq co\u011frafi bir k\u0259\u015ff,<br \/>\nAdasan, k\u00f6rf\u0259zs\u0259n, d\u0259nizs\u0259n, n\u0259s\u0259n?<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 savannalar, tropik me\u015f\u0259?<br \/>\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259n z\u0259rif, inc\u0259 b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\nYa b\u0259lk\u0259 quruca bir s\u0259hrasan s\u0259n?!<\/p>\n<p>\u015eeirin p\u0131\u00e7\u0131lday\u0131r ki, \u201csevginin co\u011frafiya d\u0259rsi\u201d \u00e7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259n co\u011frafi bir k\u0259\u015ff el\u0259mis\u0259n. Lakin bu k\u0259\u015ffin \u00e7ox uzaqdad\u0131r. O q\u0259d\u0259r uzaqdad\u0131r, h\u0259tta \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259lin \u00e7atm\u0131r. Bu k\u0259\u015ffin adam\u0131, d\u0259nizmi, k\u00f6rf\u0259zmi, savannam\u0131, me\u015f\u0259mi, ya s\u0259hram\u0131 olmas\u0131 bilinmir. \u015eeirinin g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi ondad\u0131r. K\u0259\u015ff var, bu, m\u00fctl\u0259qdi. M\u00fctl\u0259qin \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn nam\u0259lum olmas\u0131 m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259rib\u0259 g\u0259ldi. Bu, \u0259l\u00e7atmayan, \u00fcnyetm\u0259y\u0259n m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s bir e\u015fqdir. Bu e\u015fq insan\u0131n sonuna kimi ondan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259kmir. E\u015fqi sonsuz olanlar duy\u011fusald\u0131, k\u00f6vr\u0259kdi, m\u0259rh\u0259m\u0259tlidi; s\u0259nin \u201cS\u0259m\u0259ni\u201d \u015feirind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u00c7\u0259r\u015f\u0259nb\u0259 tonqal\u0131n\u0131<br \/>\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rimd\u0259 qalad\u0131m&#8230;<br \/>\nGetdim Bak\u0131 yolunu,<br \/>\nH\u0259sr\u0259tim\u0259 dolad\u0131m&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>K\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fcm \u015f\u0259h\u0259riml\u0259,<br \/>\nBar\u0131\u015fd\u0131m&#8230;Bayram idi&#8230;<br \/>\nBir mesajl\u0131q t\u0259brikl\u0259<br \/>\n\u201cDan\u0131\u015fd\u0131m\u201d&#8230;Bayram idi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yeni arzular kimi<br \/>\nG\u00f6y\u0259rtm\u0259dim m\u0259n s\u0259ni&#8230;<br \/>\nBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla \u00fcr\u0259yimi,<br \/>\nS\u0259m\u0259ni, ay s\u0259m\u0259ni&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u0259fa, s\u0259nin bu \u015feirin indiy\u0259d\u0259k oxudu\u011fum s\u0259m\u0259ni \u015feirl\u0259rin\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259mir. Bu \u015feirin ruhu, m\u0259\u011fzi, m\u0259nas\u0131 tamamil\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259dir, yenidir, g\u00f6z\u0259ldir. El\u0259 burdaca arzulay\u0131ram ki, s\u0259nin arzular\u0131n xo\u015fb\u0259xt-xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00f6y\u0259rsin. S\u0259n d\u0259 \u201cBa\u011f\u0131\u015fla \u00fcr\u0259yimi&#8230;\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259s\u0259n.<br \/>\nQ\u0131z\u0131m, s\u0259nin hekay\u0259l\u0259rini d\u0259 oxumu\u015fam. S\u0259n n\u0259srd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc daha rahat hiss edirs\u0259n. Ancaq, bu, o dem\u0259k deyil ki, \u015feirin n\u0259srind\u0259n z\u0259ifdir. \u018fsla! Son ill\u0259r yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n poeziya n\u00fcmun\u0259l\u0259ri \u0259sas verir ki, bu sah\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiql\u0259yirs\u0259n. Yazar\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259sdiql\u0259m\u0259yi \u00e7\u0259tindi. \u0130st\u0259r cavanlar, ist\u0259r ya\u015fl\u0131lar \u00e7ox vaxt kiml\u0259ri is\u0259 t\u0259qlid edir, yeni s\u00f6z, yeni fikir tapmaqda aciz qal\u0131rlar.<br \/>\nS\u0259n aciz deyils\u0259n, \u015e\u0259fa! S\u0259nin \u015feirl\u0259rini oxuduqca \u00fcr\u0259yin, q\u0259lbin, sirrin a\u015fikarlan\u0131r, g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr. S\u0259nd\u0259 o c\u0259h\u0259tin xo\u015fuma g\u0259lir ki, yaln\u0131z \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yaz\u0131rsan. Bu, ist\u0259r z\u0259if, ist\u0259rs\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 bilinir.<br \/>\nS\u0259nin bir \u015feirin var, ads\u0131zd\u0131. Onun ax\u0131r\u0131nc\u0131 b\u0259ndind\u0259 inamla deyirs\u0259n:<\/p>\n<p>Qad\u0131nlar sevgid\u0259n \u00f6l\u00fcr,<br \/>\nQad\u0131nlar a\u011flay\u0131r, g\u00fcl\u00fcm&#8230;<br \/>\nH\u0259r k\u0259ndin yegan\u0259 yolun<br \/>\nKi\u015fil\u0259r ba\u011flay\u0131r, g\u00fcl\u00fcm&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Burada h\u0259r k\u0259ndin yegan\u0259 yolunu ki\u015fil\u0259rin ba\u011flamas\u0131na inanmasam da, \u201cbu da \u015e\u0259fa V\u0259linin q\u0259na\u0259tidir\u201d-deyib ke\u00e7ir\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\n\u015eeiri qura\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131rlar. Bunu \u015fairl\u0259r bilir. \u015eeir g\u00fcl kimi a\u00e7\u0131l\u0131r, ot kimi g\u00f6y\u0259rir, yel kimi \u0259silir, g\u00f6y kimi gurlay\u0131r, ya\u011f\u0131\u015f kimi, qar kimi ya\u011f\u0131r, tufan kimi qopur. Bunlar\u0131 daha \u00e7ox sadalama\u011fa ehtiyac yoxdur. N\u0259 dem\u0259k ist\u0259diyim anla\u015f\u0131ld\u0131.<br \/>\nS\u0259nin d\u0259 \u015feirl\u0259rin qura\u015fd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131r, \u015e\u0259fa, can\u0131ndan, qan\u0131ndan qopub g\u0259lir. \u201cBirc\u0259 damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fcy\u0259m&#8230;\u201d \u015feirind\u0259ki kimi.<br \/>\n\u018fvv\u0259la, h\u00fczn damc\u0131yla, kiloqramla, metrl\u0259, saatla \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fclm\u00fcr. S\u0259n bunu yax\u015f\u0131 bil\u0259-bil\u0259 h\u00fczn\u00fcn\u00fc damc\u0131yla \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcrs\u0259n. \u00c7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l el\u0259yirs\u0259n! Damc\u0131yla \u00f6l\u00e7d\u00fcy\u00fcn h\u00fczn\u00fc isbatlad\u0131\u011f\u0131n \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 bir irad\u0131m yoxdur. \u018fksin\u0259, xo\u015fuma g\u0259ldi. \u015eeir \u00fcmumilikd\u0259 q\u0259\u015f\u0259ngdi.<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fcy\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\nTale q\u0259lbim\u0259 toxunub&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Taleyin q\u0259lb\u0259 toxunu\u015fu \u015fairan\u0259di&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fcy\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\nBura G\u0259nc\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\nBak\u0131 yolu<br \/>\nQ\u0259za dolu, qorxulu&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yollar insan\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliy\u0259, s\u0259ad\u0259t\u0259, sevincl\u0259r\u0259 aparsa da, q\u0259zalara da s\u00fcr\u00fckl\u0259yir. Onda \u015fair bir damc\u0131 yox, d\u0259ryalarca h\u00fcznl\u00fc olur. Ancaq bu \u015feird\u0259 q\u0259za yoxdur, ehtimal var. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 bel\u0259 dem\u0259k olar.<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fcy\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\nN\u0259\u011fm\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r hopub&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>N\u0259\u011fm\u0259sin\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259r hopan \u015fair h\u00fcznl\u00fc olacaq, \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 birc\u0259 damc\u0131&#8230; G\u00fcman var ki, sabah onun n\u0259\u011fm\u0259sin\u0259 sevinc hopacaq.<\/p>\n<p>Birc\u0259 damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fcy\u0259m&#8230;<br \/>\nH\u0259sr\u0259tini bu ax\u015fam<br \/>\nB\u0259rk-b\u0259rk qucaqlam\u0131\u015fam&#8230;<br \/>\nS\u0259nsiz ruhum \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcb<br \/>\nBir az soyuqlam\u0131\u015fam&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259li, s\u0259n burada istedadl\u0131 bir \u015fairs\u0259n. Burada duy\u011fular\u0131n, hissl\u0259rin bayram edir. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, ist\u0259diyini yaza bilmis\u0259n. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, ruhun \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcb, bir az soyuqlam\u0131san. Soyuqlayan \u015fair bir damc\u0131 h\u00fcznl\u00fc olar d\u0259&#8230;<br \/>\n\u201cAnd\u201d \u015feirind\u0259: \u201cT\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcm\u0259 yara\u015fma, S\u0259ni and verir\u0259m Allaha&#8230;\u201d-deyirs\u0259n. Bu da g\u00f6z\u0259ldi. Bunu da \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n, q\u0259lbinin lap d\u0259rinliyind\u0259n s\u00f6yl\u0259yirs\u0259n. T\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 yara\u015fan s\u0259nin yan\u0131nda deyil, uzaqdad\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 Allaha and verirs\u0259n. Allah adildi, qadirdi, t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fcn\u0259 yara\u015fan\u0131, eyni zamanda yan\u0131nda olan\u0131 saxlay\u0131r. Qalanlar\u0131 laz\u0131m olanlar\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259rir.<br \/>\n\u201cQumarbaz\u201d \u015feirin d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 maraql\u0131 g\u0259ldi. X\u00fcsus\u0259n d\u0259, axr\u0131nc\u0131 b\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n<p>&#8230;Bir az sevgiy\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259 s\u0259n,<br \/>\nBir damc\u0131 ehtiras&#8230;<br \/>\nOlur&#8230;<br \/>\nH\u0259yatla qumar ist\u0259s\u0259n<br \/>\nOyunda basabas olur.<\/p>\n<p>H\u0259yatla qumar oynamaq ist\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 basabas olur. Basabasda adam ist\u0259diyin\u0259 \u00e7atm\u0131r. B\u0259z\u0259n aral\u0131qda itib-bat\u0131r&#8230;<br \/>\nS\u0259n, \u015e\u0259fa, h\u0259yatla qumar oynayanlardan deyils\u0259n. S\u0259n a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131san, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259lis\u0259n, n\u0259 ist\u0259diyini \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoy ed\u0259ns\u0259n. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 s\u0259ni axtaran, tapan, sev\u0259n \u00e7oxdur.<br \/>\nYaz\u0131m\u0131n \u0259vv\u0259lin\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131ram, m\u0259n s\u0259ni axtarm\u0131ram. S\u0259ni \u00e7oxdan tapm\u0131\u015fam. Tapd\u0131\u011f\u0131ma g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nla birg\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 u\u011furlar arzulay\u0131ram. Arzulay\u0131ram ki, ay kimi do\u011fub, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f kimi parlayasan!<\/p>\n<p>Al\u0259mz\u0259r \u018flizad\u0259<br \/>\n(AYB G\u0259nc\u0259 b\u00f6lm\u0259sinin katibi, Prezident t\u0259qa\u00fcd\u00e7\u00fcs\u00fc)<br \/>\n(G\u0259nc\u0259-2018)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(\u015e\u0259fa V\u0259linin \u201cPo\u00e7talyona m\u0259ktub\u201d kitab\u0131 haqq\u0131nda) Tanr\u0131, insaf\u0131n olsun, Adam unudularm\u0131? Eh&#8230; Han\u0131 telefonum? M\u0259ni axtaran varm\u0131? \u015e\u0259fa, bu misralar \u201cPo\u00e7talyona m\u0259ktub\u201d kitab\u0131n\u0131n sonuncu \u015feirinin sonuncu misralar\u0131d\u0131. Soru\u015fursan ki, \u201cm\u0259ni axtaran varm\u0131?\u201d \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259 var, ay q\u0131z\u0131m. El\u0259 biri m\u0259n. Kitab\u0131n\u0131 ald\u0131m, oxudum, (\u015feirl\u0259rinin \u00e7oxunu \u0259vv\u0259ld\u0259n oxumu\u015fdum), haqq\u0131nda dey\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rim oldu\u011funu d\u0259qiql\u0259\u015fdirdim. Bu yaz\u0131m kitab\u0131na t\u0259brikdir. 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