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Bax\u0131\u015flar f\u0259rqlidir duy\u011fular eyni. F\u0259rqli bax\u0131\u015flarla ya\u015farlar
\nduy\u011fular\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259sin f\u0259rqli bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011fu kimi,f\u0259rqli d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var.
\n\u00d6z balaca d\u00fcnyas\u0131… Amma, bu balaca d\u00fcnyaya n\u0259\tq\u0259d\u0259r hisl\u0259r,
\nduy\u011fular s\u0131\u011fd\u0131rarsan. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259\tf\u0259rqli. M\u0259nim d\u0259\t\u00f6z d\u00fcnyam
\nvar. D\u00fcnya i\u00e7ind\u0259\t balaca bir d\u00fcnyam,\t \u015eE\u0130R D\u00dcNYAM, S\u00d6Z
\nD\u00dcNYAM…
\n\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l anlar\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259\tba\u011flayan,
\nS\u0259nsiz \u00fcr\u0259yini de\u015fib\u2010da\u011flayan,
\nS\u0259nin sevgin il\u0259\tco\u015fub \u00e7a\u011flayan,
\n\u015eairin q\u0259lbind\u0259\ts\u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

SEVG\u0130 PAYIM<\/p>\n

S\u0259n m\u0259nim t\u0259rt\u0259miz pak m\u0259l\u0259yims\u0259n,
\nG\u00fcn\u0259\u015fim, ay\u0131msan, h\u0259m \u00fcr\u0259yims\u0259n,
\nSonsuz kainatda t\u0259k dil\u0259yims\u0259n,
\nG\u00fcn\u00fcm bir g\u00fcn deyil s\u0259nsiz, ey insan!
\nS\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 Allahdan sevgi pay\u0131msan.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsiz bu \u00fcr\u0259yim yaman haldad\u0131r,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rim h\u0259r zaman s\u0259nsiz yoldad\u0131r,
\nNiy\u0259, bu x\u0259yallar m\u0259ni aldad\u0131r?
\nH\u0259r \u00f6t\u0259n g\u00fcn\u00fcms\u0259n, h\u0259ft\u0259m ay\u0131msan
\nS\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 Allahdan sevgi pay\u0131msan!<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni yaman \u00fcz\u00fcr h\u0259sr\u0259t, intizar
\nQara sa\u00e7lar\u0131ma sanki ya\u011f\u0131b qar,
\n\u00dcr\u0259k h\u0259sr\u0259tind\u0259n buz kimi olar,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259nim h\u0259m q\u0131\u015f\u0131m h\u0259m d\u0259 yay\u0131msan,
\nS\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 Allahdan sevgi pay\u0131msan!<\/p>\n

OLMASIN<\/p>\n

G\u0259l d\u0259ym\u0259 kamana, toxunma tara,
\n\u00c7ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u0259st\u0259si q\u0259lbimd\u0259 yara,
\nA\u011flamaq olmad\u0131 bu q\u0259lb\u0259 \u00e7ara,
\nAxan g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 sil\u0259n olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

Bu e\u015fq d\u0259yi\u015fdirdi m\u0259nim hal\u0131m\u0131,
\n\u018fzdi qanad\u0131m\u0131, ald\u0131 can\u0131m\u0131,
\nSald\u0131 s\u0259hralara m\u0259nim ah\u0131m\u0131
\nQa\u00e7d\u0131m uzaqlara bil\u0259n olmas\u0131n.<\/p>\n

E\u015fqinin Leylit\u0259k yanma oduna,
\n\u00c7a\u011f\u0131rsan bir kims\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259z dad\u0131na,
\nSalma \u00f6t\u0259nl\u0259ri, daha yad\u0131na,
\nBir d\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259n olmas\u0131n! <\/p>\n

YAMAN DOLMU\u015eAM<\/p>\n

S\u0259n q\u0131rd\u0131n q\u0259lbimi ac\u0131 s\u00f6z\u00fcnl\u0259,
\n\u0130ll\u0259rdi d\u00f6zm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m s\u0259br, d\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259,
\nArt\u0131q bacarm\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259,
\nPay\u0131z buludut\u0259k yaman dolmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n sev\u0259 bilm\u0259din m\u0259ni m\u0259n kimi,
\nHeyf, bacarmad\u0131m olam s\u0259n kimi,
\n\u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00f6st\u0259rdim xo\u015fb\u0259xt-\u015f\u0259n kimi,
\nYaln\u0131z x\u0259yallarda xo\u015fb\u0259xt olmu\u015fam.<\/p>\n

Vaxt\u0131nda d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fik biz,
\nSevgi yollar\u0131nda qoymad\u0131q bir iz,
\nSanki yer\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259timiz,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr ba\u011f\u00e7as\u0131nda vaxts\u0131z solmu\u015fam…<\/p>\n

BU G\u00dcN<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m bu g\u00fcn,
\nN\u0259 idi m\u0259qs\u0259din, n\u0259 idi q\u0259sdin!
\nBizi ba\u011fl\u0131 tutan sevgi ba\u011f\u0131n\u0131,
\nT\u0259l\u0259sib \u0259linl\u0259 s\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcn k\u0259sdin.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m bu g\u00fcn,
\nSilib g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131mla sevgimi, m\u0259ni,
\nBir d\u0259rin iz qoyub hara qa\u00e7\u0131rsan?
\nQa\u00e7maqla unudar sev\u0259n-sev\u0259ni? <\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m bu g\u00fcn
\nV\u00fcsal \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259yini nec\u0259 qoxlaram?
\nQayalar qoynunda t\u0259nha \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kt\u0259k
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q selini \u00e7\u0259tin saxlaram.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 anlad\u0131m bu g\u00fcn
\nK\u00fcsd\u00fcr\u00fcb k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc ala bilm\u0259din
\nKims\u0259siz adaya d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n insant\u0259k
\nQ\u0259lbimd\u0259 bir m\u0259sk\u0259n sala bilm\u0259din.<\/p>\n

S\u018fN\u0130<\/p>\n

M\u0259n hara bax\u0131ram s\u0259ni g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m,
\nH\u0259r yerd\u0259 axtar\u0131r g\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u0259ni,
\nM\u0259ni h\u0259sr\u0259tinin odu yand\u0131r\u0131r
\nY\u0259qin ki, isidir k\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

\u018fl\u00e7atmaz arzusan, sonsuz s\u0259masan,
\nQ\u0259lbim\u0259 nur sa\u00e7an bitm\u0259z duasan,
\nYoxlu\u011funla varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ma qidasan
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259yir yollar\u0131m, izl\u0259rim s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Daha bu sevgid\u0259 g\u00f6z\u00fctoxam m\u0259n,
\nH\u0259sr\u0259t\u0259 sanc\u0131lan odlu oxam m\u0259n,
\nS\u0259n ged\u0259nd\u0259n bil ki art\u0131q yoxam m\u0259n,
\n\u015eeirl\u0259 v\u0259sf edir s\u00f6zl\u0259rim s\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

…AMMA…<\/p>\n

Bu \u00fcr\u0259k \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fc da\u015f\u0131y\u0131r,
\nQ\u0259lbim yaral\u0131d\u0131r h\u0259sr\u0259t qa\u015f\u0131y\u0131r,
\nM\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimd\u0259 gizli ya\u015fay\u0131r
\nBu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131nk\u0259n uzaqd\u0131r, amma
\nSevir\u0259m, bu sevgi yasaqd\u0131r, amma.<\/p>\n

Qaranl\u0131q gec\u0259m d\u0259 ay olub m\u0259n\u0259,
\nSonsuz sevgisi d\u0259 pay olub m\u0259n\u0259,
\n\u0130kinci \u00f6z\u00fcmt\u0259k tay olub m\u0259n\u0259,
\nBu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131nk\u0259n uzaqd\u0131r, amma
\nSevir\u0259m,bu sevgi yasaqd\u0131r amma.<\/p>\n

\u00d6mr\u00fcm\u00fc isid\u0259n s\u00f6nm\u0259z ocaqd\u0131r,
\nRuha i\u015f\u0131q sa\u00e7an nurlu \u00e7\u0131raqd\u0131r,
\n\u00d6t\u0259n g\u0259ncliyimd\u0259 \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l \u00e7a\u011fd\u0131r,
\nBu q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131nk\u0259n uzaqd\u0131r, amma
\nSevir\u0259m, bu sevgi yasaqd\u0131r, amma…<\/p>\n

D\u018fRD\u0130 B\u0130L\u0130NM\u018fZ<\/p>\n

H\u0259yat b\u0259z\u0259n olur zal\u0131m-amans\u0131z,
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcn \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 qa\u015f qoya-qoya.
\nSev\u0259nl\u0259ri ayr\u0131 sal\u0131r zamans\u0131z,
\nH\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rd\u0259 ya\u015f qoya-qoya.
\nH\u0259yat\u0131n oyunu, n\u0259rdi bilinm\u0259z,
\nQurdu\u011fu oyunda \u015f\u0259rti bilinm\u0259z,
\nF\u0259l\u0259yin biziml\u0259 d\u0259rdi bil\u0259nm\u0259z,
\nG\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r g\u0259ncliyi \u00e7a\u015f qoya-qoya.
\n\u018fzaba yor\u011fant\u0259k bizl\u0259r b\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fck,
\nSaxta g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fl\u0259rl\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fck,
\nYeridik, y\u0131x\u0131ld\u0131q, gah da s\u00fcr\u00fcnd\u00fck,
\nSeyr etdi, yollara da\u015f qoya-qoya.
\nU\u015faqk\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259k edirs\u0259n niyy\u0259t,
\nB\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcn ba\u015flay\u0131r \u0259zab-\u0259ziyy\u0259t,
\nEl\u0259 ki ya\u015flan\u0131b oldun \u015f\u0259xsiyy\u0259t,
\nApar\u0131r yerl\u0259ri bo\u015f qoya-qoya.<\/p>\n

M\u018fN\u0130M D\u018fN\u0130Z ARZULARIM<\/p>\n

Dedi: “d\u0259rdl\u0259-q\u0259ml\u0259 ya\u015fa”
\nSevincimi vurdu ba\u015fa,
\nYelk\u0259nimi \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131 da\u015fa
\nM\u0259nim d\u0259niz arzular\u0131m.<\/p>\n

H\u0259rd\u0259n oldu co\u015fdu-da\u015fd\u0131,
\nN\u0259 dedims\u0259 raz\u0131la\u015fd\u0131,
\nSonda m\u0259nd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131
\nM\u0259nim d\u0259niz arzular\u0131m.<\/p>\n

\u018fvv\u0259l m\u0259ni m\u0259nd\u0259n ald\u0131,
\n\u00dcmidimi da\u015fa \u00e7ald\u0131,
\nHeyf, x\u0259yal kimi qald\u0131
\nM\u0259nim d\u0259niz arzular\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Q\u0259m-k\u0259d\u0259rl\u0259 \u00e7ox qaland\u0131,
\nGer\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 d\u00f6nm\u0259z yaland\u0131,
\nL\u0259p\u0259 kimi x\u0131rdaland\u0131
\nM\u0259im d\u0259niz arzular\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Dedim Aynur, bu n\u0259 h\u0259yat ?
\nDedi: “s\u0259br et m\u0259qs\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7at”
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc rahat
\nM\u0259nim d\u0259niz arzular\u0131m…<\/p>\n

\u015eE\u0130RL\u018fR\u0130M<\/p>\n

\u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259l anlar\u0131 s\u0259n\u0259 ba\u011flayan,
\nS\u0259nsiz \u00fcr\u0259yini de\u015fib-da\u011flayan,
\nS\u0259nin sevgin il\u0259 co\u015fub \u00e7a\u011flayan
\n\u015eairin q\u0259lbind\u0259 s\u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var.
\nM\u0259n\u0259 fani d\u00fcnya yaman g\u0259lir dar,
\nM\u0259n “ayr\u0131 d\u00fcnyada” tapm\u0131\u015fam q\u0259rar,
\nK\u00f6n\u00fcl g\u00f6z\u0259lliyi sevgid\u0259 axtar
\nS\u0259nd\u0259 ki duy\u011fu var, g\u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var.
\nE\u015fq el\u0259 d\u00fcnyad\u0131 d\u0259y\u0259rli, baha,
\nT\u0259m\u0259li ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r uca Allaha,
\n\u0130nci, bu d\u00fcnyadan uzaqla\u015f daha
\nSev\u0259n insanlar\u0131n \u00f6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131 var.<\/p>\n

BU SEVDA<\/p>\n

T\u0259rt\u0259miz s\u0259mat\u0259k ayd\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131 var,
\nB\u0259z\u0259n gec\u0259 kimi qaranl\u0131q olar,
\nDeyirdim, q\u0259lbim\u0259 nur kimi dolar
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 ya\u015f olub doldu bu sevda.<\/p>\n

Sev\u0259ni “h\u0259sr\u0259tl\u0259” s\u0131na\u011fa \u00e7\u0259kdi,
\nSevgisiz ya\u015famaq n\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259kdi?
\n\u00c7oxunun q\u0259lbin\u0259 toxumun \u0259kdi
\nH\u0259l\u0259 a\u00e7\u0131lmam\u0131\u015f soldu bu sevda.<\/p>\n

X\u0259yan\u0259t \u015fim\u015f\u0259kt\u0259k vuranda onu,
\nGeyindi ayr\u0131l\u0131q,intizar donu,
\nArt\u0131q,bununla da yeti\u015fdi sonu
\nYalan\u0131n qurban\u0131 oldu bu sevda!<\/p>\n

\u0130NSANI \u0130NSAN ALDADIR<\/p>\n

Salam, u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m, bir az d\u0259rdl\u0259\u015f\u0259k,
\nQar\u0131\u015f\u0131q h\u0259yatda axtard\u0131m s\u0259ni,
\nXeyli uzaq d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fck, uzun zamand\u0131
\n\u00c7oxmu d\u0259yi\u015fmi\u015f\u0259m?! Unutdun m\u0259ni.<\/p>\n

Bu t\u0259r\u0259f qaranl\u0131q \u00e7ox qar\u0131\u015f\u0131qd\u0131,
\nHam\u0131 soyuqla\u015f\u0131r \u00f6l\u00fcr insanl\u0131q,
\nM\u0259zarl\u0131q sal\u0131n\u0131r “insanl\u0131q” adda,
\nBilirs\u0259n, ba\u015fda\u015f\u0131 olub “nadanl\u0131q”.<\/p>\n

\u00d6nd\u0259 ged\u0259nl\u0259rin \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 ke\u00e7ib,
\nGetdiyi yollara quyu qaz\u0131rlar,
\nBurda insanlar\u0131 edib oyuncaq,
\nHarama \u0259l at\u0131b yolu az\u0131rlar.<\/p>\n

N\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t qal\u0131bd\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t,
\nZ\u0259man\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015fdi g\u00f6r n\u0259 haldad\u0131r,
\nYalan\u0131 yalanla alq\u0131\u015flay\u0131rlar,
\n\u015eeytan yox insan\u0131 insan aldad\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bel\u0259 bir zamanda g\u0259nclik ya\u015fad\u0131m,
\nRuhumu d\u0259rdi-q\u0259m narahat edir,
\nAynur\u0259,bilmir\u0259m nec\u0259 qaytar\u0131m
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr qatar\u0131yla g\u0259nclik d\u0259 gedir!<\/p>\n

\u00d6M\u00dcR QATARI<\/p>\n

Hara t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n bel\u0259 s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259,
\nEy \u00f6m\u00fcr qatar\u0131, kimi g\u0259zirs\u0259n?!
\n\u00d6m\u00fcr saray\u0131ndan da\u015f sala-sala
\nH\u0259r do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcmd\u0259 m\u0259ni \u00fcz\u00fcrs\u0259n.<\/p>\n

M\u0259nd\u0259n al\u0131b getdin saf u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131,
\n\u0130ndi d\u0259 g\u0259ncliyi \u00e7ox g\u00f6rd\u00fcn m\u0259n\u0259,
\nQar\u0131\u015f\u0131q h\u0259yatda \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259rk\u0259n,
\n\u0130ll\u0259ri alma\u011fa qay\u0131td\u0131n yen\u0259.<\/p>\n

S\u0259n\u0259 s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m s\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259ncliyim,
\nM\u0259nd\u0259n \u0259laq\u0259ni niy\u0259 k\u0259sirs\u0259n?
\nU\u015faql\u0131q ill\u0259ri min\u0259n qatara
\nS\u0259n d\u0259 minm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox t\u0259l\u0259sirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n

Aylar\u0131 ill\u0259r\u0259 calaq ed\u0259r\u0259k,
\n\u00d6m\u00fcrd\u0259n f\u0259sill\u0259r bir-bir \u00f6t\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc,
\nAl\u0131b bir ilimi yen\u0259 bu qatar,
\nGed\u0259n ill\u0259rimin yoluna d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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