{"id":33085,"date":"2019-10-22T06:00:44","date_gmt":"2019-10-22T02:00:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33085"},"modified":"2019-10-22T08:41:55","modified_gmt":"2019-10-22T04:41:55","slug":"ceyhun%c9%99-mehman-yeni-seirl%c9%99r-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=33085","title":{"rendered":"Ceyhun\u0259 MEHMAN.Yeni \u015feirl\u0259r"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc,
\nAz\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n G\u0259nc\u0259basar B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri<\/strong><\/p>\n

KE\u00c7\u018fM K\u00dc\u00c7\u018fN\u0130ZD\u018fN…<\/p>\n

Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si,
\nya adi dost kimi, ya tan\u0131\u015f kimi.
\nO gec\u0259 yuvandan perik d\u00fc\u015f\u0259s\u0259n,
\nyuvas\u0131 da\u011f\u0131lan qaranqu\u015f kimi.<\/p>\n

Bir “ah” \u00e7\u0259k\u0259s\u0259n ki, g\u00f6yl\u0259r al\u0131\u015fa,
\nf\u0259ryad\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ucuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259.
\nKe\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc,
\n\u00fcr\u0259yin s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ovcuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259.<\/p>\n

M\u0259ni g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yi ad\u0259t ed\u0259s\u0259n,
\n\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 sevimli bir “pe\u015f\u0259” kimi.
\nKe\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir yaz s\u0259h\u0259ri,
\nboynunu b\u00fck\u0259s\u0259n b\u0259n\u00f6v\u015f\u0259 kimi.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcnahlar\u0131n yuyula o g\u00fcn,
\ng\u00fcnah\u0131n olmaya, su\u00e7un olmaya.
\nSoru\u015fam nec\u0259s\u0259n? – al\u0131\u015fa q\u0259lbin,
\n“s\u0259nsiz\u0259m..!” dem\u0259y\u0259 g\u00fcc\u00fcn olmaya…<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Yen\u0259 soyuqlu\u011fun c\u0259llada d\u00f6n\u00fcb,
\nH\u0259l\u0259 almad\u0131\u011f\u0131n ne\u00e7\u0259 can durur?!
\nS\u0259nin buz \u00fcr\u0259yin, q\u0131\u015f n\u0259f\u0259sinmi,
\nM\u0259nim \u00fcr\u0259yimi bel\u0259 dondurur?!<\/p>\n

\u00dcr\u0259yim o q\u0259d\u0259r \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr h\u0259tta,
\n\u0130sti g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 hiss ed\u0259 bilmir.
\nG\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 bir soba d\u0259rt qalasam da,
\nSoyuq \u00fcr\u0259yimi isid\u0259 bilmir.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 uzaqla\u015f\u0131r getdiyim qatar,
\nArxamca ha s\u0259sl\u0259n, ha y\u00fcy\u00fcr indi.
\nSoyuyub arzum da, x\u0259yallar\u0131m da,
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn xatir\u0259l\u0259r \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u00fcr indi…<\/p>\n

BU G\u00dcN AD G\u00dcN\u00dcD\u00dcR S\u018fNS\u0130ZL\u0130Y\u0130M\u0130N<\/p>\n

Bu g\u00fcn taleyimde yollar dola\u015f\u0131b,
\nAyr\u0131l\u0131q g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fc, h\u0259sr\u0259t g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fc.
\nB\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, t\u0259qviml\u0259r yan\u0131l\u0131b, \u00e7a\u015f\u0131b,
\nBu g\u00fcn s\u0259nsizliyin il d\u00f6n\u00fcm\u00fcd\u00fc.<\/p>\n

S\u0259nsizlik z\u00fcl\u00fcmd\u0259, zill\u0259td\u0259 olsa,
\nG\u00f6z yuma bilm\u0259dim bir s\u0259hvin\u0259 m\u0259n.
\nS\u00fczd\u00fcm g\u00f6z ya\u015f\u0131m\u0131 bo\u015f bad\u0259l\u0259r\u0259,
\n\u0130\u00e7dim s\u0259nsizliyin \u015f\u0259r\u0259fin\u0259 m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

Silib g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi, g\u00fcl\u00fcm,oynay\u0131m,
\n\u00c7oxda ki, \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fc h\u0259sr\u0259t b\u00fcr\u00fcy\u00fcr.
\nBu g\u00fcn ad g\u00fcn\u00fcd\u00fcr s\u0259nsizliyimin,
\nBu g\u00fcn s\u0259nsizliyim bir ya\u015f b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u00fcr<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Ad\u0131n d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259nir dodaqlar\u0131mda,
\nDilimd\u0259 , s\u00f6z\u00fcmd\u0259 hecalan\u0131rsan.
\nGec\u0259 yuxularda tap\u0131ram s\u0259ni,
\nS\u0259h\u0259r x\u0259yal\u0131mda par\u00e7alan\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n

El\u0259 vuru\u015furam \u00f6z\u00fcm-\u00f6z\u00fcml\u0259,
\nSin\u0259m\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kil\u0259n da\u011f oluram m\u0259n.
\nH\u0259r gec\u0259 \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 durub \u00f6l\u00fcml\u0259,
\nH\u0259r g\u00fcn h\u0259sr\u0259tinl\u0259 do\u011fuluram m\u0259n.<\/p>\n

B\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259zablar\u0131n y\u00fck\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259km\u0259y\u0259,
\nDem\u0259, \u00fcr\u0259k adl\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259zi varm\u0131\u015f.
\nBu d\u00fcnya q\u0259sdim\u0259 dayan\u0131b sanki,
\nHam\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259niml\u0259 q\u0259r\u0259zi varmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Deyirs\u0259n, s\u0259nin d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r y\u00fck\u00fcn,
\nBu ki, s\u0259nsizliyi da\u015f\u0131maq deyil.
\nS\u0259n el\u0259 bilirs\u0259n ya\u015fay\u0131ram m\u0259n?!
\nN\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131b -verm\u0259k ya\u015famaq deyil..<\/p>\n

DEY\u0130RL\u018fR K\u0130…<\/p>\n

M\u0259saf\u0259l\u0259r y\u00fck olubmu\u015f \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259,
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, gec\u0259-g\u00fcnd\u00fcz i\u00e7irs\u0259nmi\u015f.
\nDoda\u011f\u0131na d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259yib siqareti,
\nm\u0259nsizliyi ciy\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259nmi\u015f.<\/p>\n

Da\u015f q\u0259lbind\u0259n bir pa\u00e7a \u0259t as\u0131l\u0131bm\u0131\u015f,
\nDa\u011f q\u00fcrurun \u0259riyirmi\u015f q\u0131ram-q\u0131ram.
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n bir k\u00fcnc\u00fcnd\u0259,
\nM\u0259n s\u0259ninl\u0259 eyni evd\u0259 ya\u015fay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n

Deyirl\u0259r ki, yadda\u015f\u0131na q\u0131r\u0131\u015f d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb,
\nXatir\u0259l\u0259r \u00fcst\u00fc-ba\u015f\u0131 toz i\u00e7ind\u0259.
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, uzaqla\u015f\u0131b dost-tan\u0131\u015fdan,
\nSaatlarca dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan \u00f6z i\u00e7ind\u0259.<\/p>\n

Deyirl\u0259r ki, \u00fc\u015f\u00fcy\u0259nd\u0259 q\u0259m qalay\u0131b,
\n\u00dcr\u0259yini “od yeri” t\u0259k \u00e7at\u0131rm\u0131\u015fsan.
\nDeyirl\u0259r, tavana \u015f\u0259klimi d\u00f6y\u00fcb,
\nGec\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6z\u00fc a\u00e7\u0131q yat\u0131rm\u0131\u015fsan.<\/p>\n

Deyirl\u0259r ki, do\u011fulmayan k\u00f6rp\u0259mizi,
\nG\u00f6zl\u0259rinin be\u015fiyind\u0259 uyudursan.
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, itirirs\u0259n yadda\u015f\u0131n\u0131,
\nDeyirl\u0259r ki, m\u0259ni bel\u0259 unudursan.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

El\u0259 q\u0259ribs\u0259yib s\u0259nsiz bu \u015f\u0259h\u0259r,
\nEl\u0259 dar\u0131x\u0131b ki, bu k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259 s\u0259nsiz.
\nEl\u0259 \u00e7ar\u0259sizdir s\u0259nsiz bu s\u0259h\u0259r,
\nEl\u0259 p\u0259ri\u015fand\u0131r bu gec\u0259 s\u0259nsiz<\/p>\n

\u00d6l\u00fcb s\u0259ni ged\u0259li ne\u00e7\u0259 \u00fcmidim,
\nYen\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m b\u0259lk\u0259 \u00fcmid var.
\nEl\u0259 k\u00f6vr\u0259lib ki, el\u0259 dolub ki,
\nG\u00f6rs\u0259, h\u00f6nk\u00fcr\u0259c\u0259k s\u0259ni buludlar.<\/p>\n

Bilmir\u0259m, bilmir\u0259m, n\u0259dir bu q\u0259h\u0259r
\nHava “s\u0259n” qoxuyur, gec\u0259 “s\u0259n” deyir.
\nYuxusu g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u0259n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r,
\nBu gec\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131b, g\u0259lmis\u0259n deyir.<\/p>\n

Hardansa da ayaq s\u0259sini duyub,
\n\u00c7inarlar \u00e7\u0259kilib yen\u0259 bir k\u00fcnc\u0259.
\n\u018flini g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyub,
\nS\u0259nin yollar\u0131na boylan\u0131r G\u0259nc\u0259.<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Bu ayr\u0131l\u0131q y\u00fck olurmu s\u0259n\u0259 d\u0259,
\n\u018fzablar\u0131m sol \u00e7iynini \u0259yirmi?
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n m\u0259ni bitir\u0259n bu suallar,
\nS\u0259nin birc\u0259 cavab\u0131na d\u0259yirmi?!<\/p>\n

N\u0259 dem\u0259dim, s\u0259n\u0259, “unut”, “ayr\u0131laq”,
\nN\u0259 dem\u0259dim, “d\u0259li kimi sev m\u0259ni”.
\nG\u00f6r\u0259n yen\u0259 t\u00f6vb\u0259 edib gec\u0259l\u0259r,
\nG\u00fcnd\u00fczl\u0259ri pozursanmi t\u00f6vb\u0259ni?!<\/p>\n

Fikirl\u0259rin qar\u0131\u015f\u0131rm\u0131 ara bir,
\nX\u0259yallar\u0131n yen\u0259 duyuq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrm\u00fc?!
\nM\u0259nim burda itirdiyim yuxular,
\nS\u0259nin orda yast\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 de\u015firmi?!<\/p>\n

Qa\u00e7maq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn gec\u0259l\u0259ri kabusdan,
\nVerirs\u0259nmi yuxularda n\u0259zir s\u0259n?!
\nBax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n soyunurmu \u0259ksimi
\nYoxsa yen\u0259 ham\u0131da m\u0259n g\u0259zirs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n

***<\/p>\n

Niy\u0259 qay\u0131tm\u0131san, bilmir\u0259m niy\u0259,
\nYeni ist\u0259yin n\u0259, yeni arzun n\u0259?
\nNiy\u0259 qar\u011f\u0131y\u0131rsan bu yer\u0259, g\u00f6y\u0259,
\nS\u00f6yl\u0259, bu d\u00fcnyaya etiraz\u0131n n\u0259?<\/p>\n

Xaraba qoydu\u011fun k\u00f6n\u00fcl evim\u0259,
\nBilmir\u0259m, \u00e7\u0131xma\u011fa yiy\u0259mi g\u0259ldin?!
\nM\u0259n\u0259 etdikl\u0259rin ba\u015fqa sur\u0259td\u0259,
\nQar\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 dey\u0259mi g\u0259ldin?!<\/p>\n

Daha bir add\u0131m da yax\u0131na g\u0259lm\u0259,
\nS\u0259n\u0259 milyon illik uza\u011fam, yadam,
\nM\u0259n Tanr\u0131 deyil\u0259m, Allah deyil\u0259m,
\nS\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131\u015flaya bilmir\u0259m, adam!..<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fc, Az\u0259rbaycan\u0131n M\u0259d\u0259niyy\u0259t v\u0259 \u018fd\u0259biyyat Portal\u0131n\u0131n G\u0259nc\u0259basar B\u00fcrosunun R\u0259hb\u0259ri KE\u00c7\u018fM K\u00dc\u00c7\u018fN\u0130ZD\u018fN… Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir q\u0131\u015f gec\u0259si, ya adi dost kimi, ya tan\u0131\u015f kimi. O gec\u0259 yuvandan perik d\u00fc\u015f\u0259s\u0259n, yuvas\u0131 da\u011f\u0131lan qaranqu\u015f kimi. Bir “ah” \u00e7\u0259k\u0259s\u0259n ki, g\u00f6yl\u0259r al\u0131\u015fa, f\u0259ryad\u0131n d\u00fcnyan\u0131n ucuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259. Ke\u00e7\u0259m k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259nizd\u0259n bir pay\u0131z g\u00fcn\u00fc, \u00fcr\u0259yin s\u00fcr\u00fc\u015f\u00fcb, ovcuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259. M\u0259ni […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-33085","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33085","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=33085"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33085\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":33087,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/33085\/revisions\/33087"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=33085"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=33085"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=33085"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}