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ANAR<\/strong><\/em>
Xalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin s\u0259dri<\/em><\/strong>
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…H\u0259rd\u0259n-bird\u0259n “\u015fairlik azar\u0131na tutulanda” \u015feir yaz\u0131ram… El\u0259 bil \u015feir hans\u0131sa s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 misraya, beyt\u0259, b\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u00fcxt\u0259lif hissl\u0259rin, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259ksidir. B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259r misran\u0131 a\u00e7san, h\u0259ll el\u0259s\u0259n, daha \u0259trafl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259n, ba\u015fqa janrlarda n\u0259 is\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131nar. Amma n\u0259dirs\u0259, ilin sonu yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca izahs\u0131z bir \u015feir ovqat\u0131 yaran\u0131r. Yenisi yaranmasa da, n\u0259 zamansa yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u00fcxt\u0259lif misralar beynimi qurcalay\u0131r. H\u0259m \u00f6z yazd\u0131qlar\u0131m, h\u0259m d\u0259 atam\u0131n, anam\u0131n v\u0259 ba\u015fqa sevdiyim \u015fairl\u0259rin…<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Z\u0259ngin ilin ax\u0131r\u0131nda lap \u0259vv\u0259l\u0259, d\u00fcnyan\u0131 t\u0259z\u0259-t\u0259z\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnl\u0259r\u0259, aylara, ill\u0259r\u0259 gedir\u0259m sanki… Balacayam, indid\u0259n baxanda lap balaca; g\u0259nc, g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n\u0131n, anam\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n tutub g\u0259zir\u0259m ba\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259, bird\u0259n sakitc\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131ram onu – m\u0259nim ne\u00e7\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131m var?! – soru\u015furam. \u018fynind\u0259ki z\u00f6vql\u00fc geyimi d\u0259, \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki mehriban ifad\u0259 v\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n da\u015fan i\u015f\u0131q da indiki kimi yad\u0131mdad\u0131. El\u0259 uzun g\u0259zintil\u0259rimizd\u0259 bir yandan suallar\u0131m, o biri t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n d\u0259 anam dediyi kimi – “qart” u\u015faq \u0259dalar\u0131mla, t\u0259l\u0259bl\u0259riml\u0259 yorurdum da onu… Niyal, g\u00f6t\u00fcr d\u0259 m\u0259ni quca\u011f\u0131na, ax\u0131 balaca ayaqlar\u0131m yoruldu?! Bunu da m\u0259n deyir\u0259mmi\u015f… Anam\u0131n m\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259sr el\u0259diyi \u015feird\u0259ki – “K\u00f6rp\u0259 ayaqlar\u0131n yaman yorulmu\u015f” – misras\u0131 bu \u0259rk\u00f6y\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcmd\u0259n g\u0259lir. N\u0259slimizd\u0259 uzun ill\u0259r balaca u\u015faq olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan lap \u00e7ox \u0259zizl\u0259y\u0259rdil\u0259r m\u0259ni. Ba\u011fda cavan q\u0131zlar\u0131n – anam\u0131n, bibil\u0259rimin \u0259lin\u0259 balaca oyuncaq kimi d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcm el\u0259 bil. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 h\u0259tta s\u00f6z\u00fc bir yer\u0259 qoyublarm\u0131\u015f ki, m\u0259n ota\u011fa gir\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin el\u0259 apars\u0131nlar, sanki m\u0259ni tan\u0131m\u0131rlar… M\u0259n d\u0259 h\u0259r zaman bu cavan xan\u0131mlar\u0131n – do\u011fmalar\u0131m\u0131n mehriban, n\u0259vazi\u015fli m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin\u0259 al\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015f balaca, “bu kimdi, kimin u\u015fa\u011f\u0131d\u0131, hardan g\u0259lib bura?!” – kimi suallar\u0131n\u0131 e\u015fid\u0259nd\u0259 doda\u011f\u0131m\u0131 b\u00fczm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. “M\u0259n\u0259m d\u0259, \u00f6z Anar\u0131n\u0131zam da, tan\u0131m\u0131rs\u0131z m\u0259ni?!” – deyib a\u011flams\u0131nm\u0131\u015fam… Cavab\u0131ma nec\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n g\u00fclm\u0259l\u0259ri d\u0259, m\u0259ni ba\u011f\u0131rlar\u0131na bas\u0131b k\u00f6nl\u00fcm\u00fc almalar\u0131 da yad\u0131mdad\u0131. \u018fslind\u0259 bu yadda\u015f m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sini h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn tam h\u0259ll etm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m; beyin izahs\u0131z m\u0259ntiql\u0259 n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 silib at\u0131r, n\u0259l\u0259ris\u0259 lap d\u00fcn\u0259n olmu\u015f kimi kino fraqmentin\u0259 \u00e7evirir xatirimizd\u0259; b\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259n g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcm bir adam\u0131n, \u0259n adi m\u0259i\u015f\u0259t \u0259\u015fyas\u0131n\u0131n ad\u0131n\u0131 yada salmaqda \u00e7\u0259tinlik \u00e7\u0259kir\u0259m, amma \u0259lli il \u0259vv\u0259l oxudu\u011fum \u0259s\u0259rin c\u00fcml\u0259l\u0259ri kitab\u0131n s\u0259hif\u0259sind\u0259 oldu\u011fu kimi g\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcn\u0259 g\u0259lir… U\u015faql\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rim d\u0259 bel\u0259dir. \u0130lin son ay\u0131nda gec\u0259 yar\u0131s\u0131nda uzaq ill\u0259rin o tay\u0131na x\u0259yal\u0259n s\u0259f\u0259r\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xanda qapqara buz soyuq da k\u0259sir \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131m\u0131… Xalq\u0131n soyuq haqq\u0131nda “qara buz” ifad\u0259sini niy\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259tdiyini d\u0259 d\u0259qiq anlay\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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M\u00fcharib\u0259 yad\u0131ma d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr, 1418 g\u00fcn, d\u00f6rd il davam ed\u0259n d\u00fcnya sava\u015f\u0131. \u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131mdan \u00fc\u00e7 ay ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi. M\u00fcharib\u0259 iyunun 22-d\u0259, ilin \u0259n uzun g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma m\u0259nim yad\u0131mda m\u00fcharib\u0259nin ilk d\u00f6vr\u00fc n\u0259 is\u0259 qaranl\u0131q v\u0259 \u00e7ox soyuq bir d\u00f6vr kimi qal\u0131b. Y\u0259qin ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, m\u00fcharib\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn qorxusu ail\u0259miz\u0259 pay\u0131z aylar\u0131nda atam\u0131n c\u0259bh\u0259y\u0259 getdiyi vaxtdan daha k\u0259skin duyulma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Q\u0131\u015f aylar\u0131n\u0131n soyu\u011funda qo\u015funlar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n \u015f\u0259h\u0259r-\u015f\u0259h\u0259r geri \u00e7\u0259kilm\u0259l\u0259ri, atam\u0131n yoxlu\u011funun saza\u011f\u0131 qar\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar, qaranl\u0131q hissi d\u0259 tezlikl\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259l\u0259rimizin qara il\u0259 \u00f6rt\u00fclm\u0259si, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 hardansa bir azac\u0131q i\u015f\u0131q s\u0131zard\u0131sa, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 c\u0259zaland\u0131r\u0131lmaq xofu \u0259lav\u0259 olunurdu. K\u00fc\u00e7\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 z\u00fclm\u0259t qaranl\u0131q idi. Anam\u0131n uzunsov cib f\u0259n\u0259ri yad\u0131mda qal\u0131b. H\u0259rd\u0259n m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131n gec saatlar\u0131nda radio komit\u0259sin\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131. Amma m\u0259ni verili\u015fl\u0259ri canl\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259ndirdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, studiyaya girm\u0259y\u0259 t\u0259bii ki, qoymurdurlar. Ora girm\u0259k inad\u0131m\u0131, \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131 yenm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anam m\u0259ni inand\u0131rard\u0131 ki, studiyan\u0131n i\u00e7i i\u015f\u0131qs\u0131zd\u0131r, ora qapqaranl\u0131q bir otaqd\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qapqara otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xan s\u0259sl\u0259r qara bo\u015fqab reproduktorlara \u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc, ordan ham\u0131ya \u00e7at\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259m rus, h\u0259m d\u0259 Az\u0259rbaycan dilind\u0259 x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r verilirdi. Bunu b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rin k\u00f6ks \u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n anlay\u0131rd\u0131q – filan yer, filan \u015f\u0259h\u0259r d\u0259 fa\u015fistl\u0259rin \u0259lin\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Qara bo\u015fqabdan g\u0259l\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rl\u0259r sanki d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tli, qorxunc bir z\u00fclm\u0259t d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan g\u0259lirdi, n\u0259n\u0259min dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 na\u011f\u0131llardak\u0131 z\u00fclm\u0259t d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan, M\u0259lik M\u0259mm\u0259din d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259rin quyunun dibind\u0259n. Kinoxronikalarda x\u0259rit\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rilirdi v\u0259 bu x\u0259rit\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259 qara bir sel ka\u011f\u0131za yay\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259b l\u0259k\u0259si kimi a\u011f \u0259razil\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc qar\u0131\u015f-qar\u0131\u015f tuturdu. Odur ki, qaranl\u0131q, z\u00fclm\u0259t – m\u00fcharib\u0259 d\u00f6vr\u00fcnd\u0259n indiy\u0259c\u0259n \u015f\u00fcuralt\u0131 varl\u0131\u011f\u0131mda qal\u0131qlar\u0131 ya\u015fayan bir vahim\u0259dir. H\u0259rd\u0259n anam m\u0259ni d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcyl\u0259 evimizin dam\u0131na qald\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z evin sakinl\u0259ri damda s\u0131rayla n\u00f6vb\u0259 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259li idil\u0259r. N\u0259yin n\u00f6vb\u0259sini \u00e7\u0259kirdil\u0259r, h\u0259l\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 tam ayd\u0131n deyil. \u018fg\u0259r t\u0259xribatdan qorxurdularsa, bel\u0259 bir t\u0259xribat\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 z\u0259rif qad\u0131n v\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7 ya\u015f\u0131nda u\u015faq nec\u0259 ala bil\u0259rdi, d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n t\u0259yyar\u0259l\u0259rinin h\u00fccumu n\u0259z\u0259rd\u0259 tutulurdusa, yen\u0259 bu n\u00f6vb\u0259l\u0259rin n\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti vard\u0131?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bu soyu\u011fun v\u0259 qaranl\u0131q xatir\u0259l\u0259rin i\u00e7ind\u0259 atam\u0131n m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n qay\u0131tma\u011f\u0131, k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 durub onun g\u0259li\u015fini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259yimiz v\u0259 m\u0259hz m\u0259nim onu birinci g\u00f6rm\u0259yimin f\u0259r\u0259hi gur i\u015f\u0131q kimi g\u00f6zl\u0259rimi qama\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, ipisti m\u0259lh\u0259m kimi can\u0131ma yay\u0131l\u0131r. \u0130ndi atam\u0131n m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u015feirl\u0259ri d\u0259 ayr\u0131 c\u00fcr oxuyuram…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131mda b\u00f6y\u00fck bac\u0131m Fidan, on ya\u015f\u0131m olanda T\u0259ran\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259libl\u0259r. Y\u0259qin m\u0259nim u\u015faql\u0131q “monopoliyam” da el\u0259 bununla bitib. Bac\u0131lar\u0131mla Buzovna ba\u011f\u0131m\u0131zdak\u0131 qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131z u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n min bir oyunlar\u0131, zarafatlar\u0131, \u015f\u0131ltaql\u0131qlar\u0131 yax\u015f\u0131 yad\u0131mdad\u0131… Y\u0259qin o xatir\u0259l\u0259rin b\u0259zil\u0259ri yaz\u0131lar\u0131ma da hopub, onlara da t\u0259sir edib. Ya\u015fca Fidandan b\u00f6y\u00fck oldu\u011fumdan sui-istifad\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259k: bel\u0259 geyinm\u0259, el\u0259 geyin, ora getm\u0259, bura get – dey\u0259 bac\u0131m\u0131 yersiz incitdiyim m\u0259qamlar da yad\u0131ma g\u0259lir. H\u0259l\u0259 ba\u011fda bir ax\u015fam i\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131 yand\u0131rark\u0259n elektrikin Fidan\u0131 y\u00fcng\u00fclvar\u0131 gizild\u0259tm\u0259yi v\u0259 d\u0259rhal: Anar di sa\u011f ol, m\u0259n \u00f6ld\u00fcm – dey\u0259 tam ciddilikl\u0259 m\u0259niml\u0259 “vidala\u015fma\u011f\u0131…”<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u015f f\u0259rqimiz el\u0259 \u00e7ox olmasa da, bac\u0131lar\u0131ma \u00f6vlad\u0131m kimi bax\u0131rd\u0131m sanki…  M\u0259n orta m\u0259kt\u0259bin son sinfind\u0259 oxuyanda T\u0259ran\u0259 birinci sinf\u0259 daxil olmu\u015fdu. \u00c7ox vaxt onu m\u0259kt\u0259b\u0259 m\u0259n apar\u0131rd\u0131m. B\u0259z\u0259n m\u0259nim yeyin add\u0131mlar\u0131mla ayaqla\u015fa bilm\u0259yib geri qal\u0131rd\u0131. Olurdu ki, h\u00f6vs\u0259l\u0259sizlik ed\u0259r\u0259k onu quca\u011f\u0131ma al\u0131b apar\u0131rd\u0131m. T\u0259xmin\u0259n on ild\u0259n bir az art\u0131q zaman ke\u00e7\u0259c\u0259kdi v\u0259 m\u0259n el\u0259 m\u0259kt\u0259b ill\u0259rimd\u0259n, daha do\u011frusu, 7 ya\u015f\u0131mda sevib se\u00e7diyim \u00f6m\u00fcr-g\u00fcn yolda\u015f\u0131m Zemfira il\u0259 birg\u0259 ilk balam\u0131z\u0131 – Tural\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flayacaqd\u0131q. V\u0259 m\u0259n leysan ya\u011f\u0131\u015fl\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 balaca Tural quca\u011f\u0131mda sel suyun i\u00e7iyl\u0259 \u018fnv\u0259r M\u0259m\u0259dxanl\u0131n\u0131n evin\u0259 t\u0259l\u0259s\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259, \u00fcst-ba\u015f\u0131m\u0131z da, ayaqlar\u0131m\u0131z da islana-islana getdiyimiz m\u0259qamda o\u011flum g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259diyim bir s\u00f6z deyir: Yuka (u\u015faqlar \u018fnv\u0259ri bel\u0259 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar) da el\u0259 bilir biz kefd\u0259yik… \u0130ndi \u0259n m\u00fcxt\u0259lif v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rd\u0259 bu replika el\u0259 yerin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr ki… H\u0259, bir d\u0259 Tural\u0131n y\u0259qin be\u015f ya\u015f\u0131 olard\u0131, ona s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdim ki, s\u0259h\u0259r Bir may n\u00fcmayi\u015fin\u0259 aparacam. Amma gec\u0259 gec yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan s\u0259h\u0259r yuxuya qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131m, he\u00e7 c\u00fcr yerimd\u0259n durmaq ist\u0259mirdim. Tura\u015fa el\u0259 hey g\u0259lib m\u0259ni d\u00fcms\u00fckl\u0259yirdi. – Dur, dur – bir may qurtar\u0131r ax\u0131…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Tural R\u0259sul babas\u0131n\u0131n, Nigar n\u0259n\u0259sinin ilk n\u0259v\u0259siydi. Atam ensiklopediyada i\u015fl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259r fasil\u0259d\u0259 n\u0259v\u0259sin yan\u0131na g\u0259tizdirir, ya da Bulvara gedib orda g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc onunla. S\u0259kkiz il sonra G\u00fcnel d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 Nigar R\u0259fib\u0259ylinin yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 kimi “M\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259tl\u0259ri b\u00f6l\u00fcnm\u0259di”…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, xarakter el\u0259 lap erk\u0259n u\u015faql\u0131qdan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00fcruz\u0259 verir. \u0130ki ya\u015f, ya iki ya\u015f yar\u0131m\u0131ndayd\u0131 G\u00fcnel, t\u0259z\u0259c\u0259 dil a\u00e7m\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Turalla Zemfira m\u0259nd\u0259n dan\u0131\u015f\u0131b gileyl\u0259nirmi\u015fl\u0259r: yaman \u00e7ox i\u015fl\u0259yir, dinc\u0259lm\u0259k n\u0259dir bilmir, s\u0259hh\u0259tin\u0259, yeyib-i\u00e7m\u0259yin\u0259, geyinib-ke\u00e7inm\u0259sin\u0259 he\u00e7 fikir vermir… Bu s\u00f6hb\u0259t\u0259 fikir verm\u0259mi\u015f kimi dinib-dan\u0131\u015fmayan G\u00fcnel bird\u0259n d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmir: – Ata\u015fka bir az yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r – deyir. Bu, q\u0131z\u0131m\u0131n h\u0259yatda m\u0259ni ilk m\u00fcdafi\u0259si idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

1981-ci il ail\u0259mizin \u0259n a\u011f\u0131r iliydi. Y\u00fcz g\u00fcn\u00fcn i\u00e7ind\u0259 atam\u0131 v\u0259 anam\u0131 itirmi\u015fdik. T\u0259xir\u0259 sal\u0131nmas\u0131 m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmayan bir m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tl\u0259 \u015eu\u015fada “\u00dczeyir \u00f6mr\u00fc” filmini \u00e7\u0259kirdim. H\u0259r c\u00fcm\u0259 ax\u015fam\u0131 Bak\u0131ya u\u00e7ur, ehsan\u0131 verir, yen\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kili\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131d\u0131rd\u0131q. M\u0259n filml\u0259 m\u0259\u015f\u011ful oldu\u011fum saatlarda Zemfira G\u00fcneli \u015f\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259 g\u0259zdirir, C\u0131d\u0131r d\u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259, \u00dczeyir b\u0259yin, Nat\u0259van\u0131n evl\u0259rin\u0259 apar\u0131rd\u0131, Zemfira o vaxt Mir M\u00f6hs\u00fcn N\u0259vvab\u0131n t\u0259dqiqat\u0131yla m\u0259\u015f\u011ful idi. H\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 yollar\u0131n\u0131 N\u0259vvab\u0131n evinin yan\u0131ndan salanda G\u00fcnel: Yen\u0259 N\u0259vvabdan dan\u0131\u015facaqsan? – dey\u0259 soru\u015furmu\u015f. Balaca G\u00fcnel “\u00dczeyir \u00f6mr\u00fc” filmind\u0259 b\u0259st\u0259kar\u0131n ail\u0259 \u00fczvl\u0259ri s\u0131ras\u0131nda \u00e7\u0259kilib. B\u0259z\u0259n ax\u015fam g\u0259zintil\u0259rin\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 qo\u015fulurdum. M\u0259ni fikirli g\u00f6r\u0259n G\u00fcnel b\u00f6yr\u00fcm\u0259 q\u0131s\u0131l\u0131b: – “N\u0259di ata, babayla n\u0259n\u0259 yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc?” – deyirdi. Doqquz ya\u015fl\u0131 q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n bu h\u0259ssasl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt unutmuram. Yeni il \u0259r\u0259f\u0259sind\u0259 bu adda-budda i\u015f\u0131ql\u0131 xatir\u0259l\u0259r h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6m\u00fcr yolunda d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f f\u0259n\u0259rl\u0259r t\u0259siri ba\u011f\u0131\u015flay\u0131r. Tural\u0131n v\u0259 G\u00fcnelin u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fcn\u0259nki kimi xat\u0131rlay\u0131ram. V\u0259 yadda\u015f\u0131mda onlar\u0131n da balalar\u0131n\u0131n R\u0259sulun, Anar\u0131n, D\u0259nizin, Sezenin balacal\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 valideynl\u0259rinin u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m sanki. M\u0259nim d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259md\u0259 onlar ya\u015f\u0131dd\u0131lar el\u0259 bil, u\u015faql\u0131qlar\u0131 da yana\u015f\u0131, birg\u0259 ke\u00e7ib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yad\u0131mdad\u0131 g\u00fcnl\u0259rin birind\u0259 balaca Anar\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck marketl\u0259rd\u0259n birin\u0259 apar\u0131b, n\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n se\u00e7 alaq – demi\u015fdim. G\u00f6z\u00fctox ada\u015f\u0131m, b\u0259lk\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 q\u0131ymad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259lk\u0259 utand\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan n\u0259s\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259, onu \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndirm\u0259kd\u0259n \u00f6tr\u00fc – m\u0259n Tural\u0131n atas\u0131yam ax\u0131, ona ald\u0131r\u0131rsan n\u0259 ist\u0259s\u0259n, m\u0259nd\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kinm\u0259 – demi\u015fdim. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259ki t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb yad\u0131mdan \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131r. Sonralar valideynl\u0259rin\u0259 irad tuturdu – b\u0259s m\u0259n\u0259 niy\u0259 dem\u0259misiz Anar baba Tural\u0131n atas\u0131d\u0131?! – dey\u0259. \u0130ndi Anar ingilisc\u0259 roman yaz\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fc b\u0259st\u0259l\u0259diyi musiqil\u0259r\u0259 rep qo\u015fur, m\u0259niml\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r imza g\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259 oxucularla g\u00f6r\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. Bax\u0131b d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m bu u\u015faqlar n\u0259 tez b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcl\u0259r bel\u0259?! <\/p>\n\n\n\n

…Yayda Zu\u011fulbada ba\u011fda \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259y A\u011fao\u011flunun “M\u0259n kim\u0259m” adl\u0131 essesini oxuyurdum. F\u00fczulinin v\u0259 \u018fhm\u0259d b\u0259yin “M\u0259n kim\u0259m” sual\u0131yla rastla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m g\u00fcnd\u0259 bu sual\u0131 el\u0259 tez-tez e\u015fidirdim ki… Bap-balaca, t\u0259z\u0259-t\u0259z\u0259 dil a\u00e7an bir q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faz\u0131n, D\u0259nizin dilind\u0259n. \u0130ki ya\u015f d\u00f6rd ayl\u0131q q\u0131z n\u0259v\u0259m D\u0259niz m\u0259n\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 bird\u0259n soru\u015furdu:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– M\u0259n kim\u0259m?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– S\u0259n m\u0259nim ceyran\u0131msan – deyirdim, – maral\u0131msan, q\u0259\u015f\u0259ngims\u0259n, g\u00f6z\u0259l-g\u00f6y\u00e7\u0259k n\u0259v\u0259ms\u0259n – deyirdim.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dedikl\u0259rimin m\u0259nas\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rk ed\u0259r\u0259k m\u0259mnun-m\u0259mnun dinl\u0259yir v\u0259 m\u0259n onu s\u0131namaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259simi d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259d\u0259n, eyni tonda, eyni intonasiyayla:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Meymunumsan – dey\u0259n kimi d\u0259rhal:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

– Omaz – deyir. “Omaz” – olmaz onun dilind\u0259 \u0259n q\u0259ti, \u0259n \u00f6tk\u0259m, t\u0259kzibolunmaz  “yox” idi. Yamanca hikk\u0259li q\u0131z idi. Anas\u0131 ona laylay \u00e7al\u0131r, yat\u0131zd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 – “laylay dedim yatasan, q\u0131z\u0131l g\u00fcl\u0259 batasan”. He\u00e7 d\u0259 yatmaq fikrind\u0259 olmayan D\u0259niz ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131r\u0131b qeyzl\u0259: – yatm\u0131ram, q\u0131z\u0131l g\u00fcl\u0259 d\u0259 batm\u0131ram – deyirdi. \u0130ndi D\u0259nizin o\u011flu, m\u0259nim ilk n\u0259tic\u0259m Murad da eyni c\u00fcr  xarakter g\u00f6st\u0259rir… G\u00fcnel n\u0259n\u0259siyl\u0259 birg\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kildiyi reklam \u00e7arx\u0131n\u0131n rejissoruna irad tutur: bir, iki, \u00fc\u00e7 dem\u0259, motor de – bil\u0259c\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kili\u015f\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. \u0130\u015fd\u0259n ba\u011fa g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m ki, he\u00e7 k\u0259s yoxdu, harasa gedibl\u0259r… Bir azdan g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 Murada onun ya\u015f\u0131na uy\u011fun k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 – b\u0259s m\u0259ni qoyub hara getmis\u0259n? – deyir\u0259m. Ay Anar baba, guya m\u0259n evd\u0259 olanda neynirs\u0259n ki, el\u0259 ota\u011f\u0131nda oturub i\u015fl\u0259yirs\u0259n d\u0259 – dey\u0259 cavab verir. Bir azdan ota\u011f\u0131ma g\u0259lib a\u011f v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259rd\u0259n g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcr, \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259 \u0259s\u0259r yaz\u0131r. Bak\u0131 Kitab M\u0259rk\u0259zinin \u00e7ap etdiyi “Murad\u0131n na\u011f\u0131llar\u0131”ndan par\u00e7alar\u0131 oxuyanda da yaman t\u0259l\u0259bkarl\u0131qla qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131r… Yer \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 yegan\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kindiyi adam R\u0259sulun q\u0131z\u0131 Sevincdir. Sevinc g\u0259l\u0259n kimi onu el\u0259 ba\u011fr\u0131na bas\u0131r ki, Murad\u0131n t\u0259slim olmaqdan savay\u0131 \u0259lac\u0131 qalm\u0131r. Amma Sevinc d\u0259 indiki u\u015faqlar\u0131n dediyi kimi – yaman \u00f6zg\u00fcv\u0259nlidi, \u0259ll\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131b Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr edir – Ay Allah, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 s\u0259n biz\u0259 Sevu\u015fu verdin! U\u015faqlara aid xatir\u0259l\u0259rimin h\u0259r birinin sonunda – d\u00fcz deyir – ifad\u0259si g\u0259lir dilim\u0259. Min-min ill\u0259rdir insanl\u0131\u011f\u0131n axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259qiq\u0259tl\u0259r el\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131n dilind\u0259n s\u0259sl\u0259nir \u00f6mr\u00fcm\u00fcz boyu…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bir vaxt m\u00fcsahib\u0259l\u0259rimd\u0259n birind\u0259 – uzun \u00f6mr\u00fcn bir k\u0259d\u0259rli t\u0259r\u0259fi var ki, dostlar\u0131n\u0131, do\u011fmalar\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259-itir\u0259 gedirs\u0259n – demi\u015fdim. \u0130ndi \u00f6z u\u015faql\u0131\u011f\u0131mdan ba\u015flay\u0131b ta ki ail\u0259mizin \u0259n balacas\u0131 Sevinc\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r xatir\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ke\u00e7ib getdiyim yol uzun \u00f6mr\u00fcn \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u0259ziyy\u0259tini anlad\u0131r m\u0259n\u0259; bu u\u015faqlar\u0131 tan\u0131maq, onlar\u0131 dinl\u0259m\u0259k, m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etm\u0259k v\u0259 onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ya\u015famaq, yazmaq…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

XX \u0259srin son b\u0259dbin \u015feirini sualla ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131m – Kimdir d\u00f6y\u0259n qapm\u0131?! \u0130ndi is\u0259 “Qobustan”\u0131n U\u015faqlar say\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131m essenin sonunda bu sual\u0131n ard\u0131 kimi arzumu dil\u0259 g\u0259tirir\u0259m, t\u0259ki qap\u0131lar\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259n balalar olsun!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

09 dekabr 2022<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

“Qobustan”\u0131n U\u015faqlar \u00d6z\u0259l say\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn\u00a0<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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ANARXalq yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131, Az\u0259rbaycan Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131lar Birliyinin s\u0259dri …H\u0259rd\u0259n-bird\u0259n “\u015fairlik azar\u0131na tutulanda” \u015feir yaz\u0131ram… El\u0259 bil \u015feir hans\u0131sa s\u0131x\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 misraya, beyt\u0259, b\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0131\u011fd\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f m\u00fcxt\u0259lif hissl\u0259rin, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rin \u0259ksidir. B\u0259lk\u0259 h\u0259r misran\u0131 a\u00e7san, h\u0259ll el\u0259s\u0259n, daha \u0259trafl\u0131 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259s\u0259n, ba\u015fqa janrlarda n\u0259 is\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131nar. Amma n\u0259dirs\u0259, ilin sonu yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131qca izahs\u0131z bir \u015feir ovqat\u0131 yaran\u0131r. Yenisi yaranmasa […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-43882","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/43882","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=43882"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/43882\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":43895,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/43882\/revisions\/43895"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=43882"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=43882"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=43882"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}