{"id":44225,"date":"2023-01-31T15:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-01-31T11:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=44225"},"modified":"2023-01-31T18:42:15","modified_gmt":"2023-01-31T14:42:15","slug":"44225","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=44225","title":{"rendered":"Leyla N\u018fS\u0130ROVA.”T\u00fcst\u00fcl\u00fc sevgi”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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Leyla N\u018fS\u0130ROVA (N\u0259sirova Leyla H\u0259bib q\u0131z\u0131) 1970-ci il iyul ay\u0131n\u0131n 6-da Salyanda f\u0259hl\u0259 ail\u0259sind\u0259 anadan olub.       \nOrta t\u0259hsilini  Salyan \u015f\u0259h\u0259ri 3 sayl\u0131 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259n ba\u015flayib. 1987-ci ild\u0259 orta m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirib. 1989-cu ild\u0259 Bak\u0131 D\u00f6vl\u0259t Universitetinin  Jurnalistika fak\u00fclt\u0259sinin qiyabi \u015f\u00f6b\u0259sin\u0259 daxil olub. M\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259n ili yerli radio verili\u015fl\u0259ri redaksiyas\u0131nda \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259 texniki i\u015f\u00e7i, sonra m\u00fcxbir kimi \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma\u011fa ba\u015flay\u0131b. 1998-ci ild\u0259n Salyan\u0131n yerli \u00abQ\u0259l\u0259b\u0259\u00bb q\u0259zetind\u0259 m\u00fcxbir i\u015fl\u0259yir\u0259m. Az\u0259rbaycan Jurnalistl\u0259r Birliyinin \u00fczv\u00fcd\u00fcr. \u0130lk hekay\u0259si \u00abTorpa\u011f\u0131n ba\u011fr\u0131, lal s\u00fckut, bir d\u0259 ikinici d\u0259f\u0259 \u00abcan alanlar\u00bb\u0131n bayram\u0131\u00bb Azadl\u0131q radiosunun ke\u00e7irdiyi m\u00fcsabiq\u0259d\u0259 top onluqda yer al\u0131b. Hekay\u0259l\u0259ri yerli m\u0259tbu orqanlar\u0131nda \u00e7ap olunur.\n\n<\/code><\/pre>\n\n\n\n
Qazlar\u0131n q\u0259fil  qaqq\u0131lda\u015fmas\u0131 onu yuxudan ay\u0131ltd\u0131. Qon\u015fusu N\u0259riman neftd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259diyind\u0259n h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r oba\u015fdan durub \u015fap-\u015fuplar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 ayaqyoluna ged\u0259nd\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u0259n Musan\u0131n ay\u0131q-say\u0131q qazlar\u0131  qaqq\u0131lda\u015f\u0131r, N\u0259riman\u0131n oyanmas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259trafdak\u0131 qon\u015fulara bildirirdil\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0259nim \u00abz\u0259ngli saat\u0131ma bax ha\u2026\u00bb,-deyib g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Ehmalca qalxd\u0131. Divanda yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan paltarl\u0131 idi. Xalid\u0259 kresloda oturaq v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 adyal salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.  Yun, cibli g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259sini  \u00e7iynin\u0259 sal\u0131b sakitc\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 endi.  T\u0259mz pay\u0131z havas\u0131 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 doldu. Ba\u011fa ke\u00e7ib tut a\u011fac\u0131n\u0131n dibind\u0259 qoydu\u011fu da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259 oturdu. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ax\u015famdan \u0259s\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259k yarpaqlar\u0131 yer\u0259 t\u00f6km\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc.  Nec\u0259 sovurmu\u015fdusa, yarpaqlar bir yer\u0259 c\u0259ml\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Arvad\u0131n\u0131n onlar\u0131 bir yer\u0259 y\u0131\u011f\u0131b yand\u0131rmaq sar\u0131dan i\u015fi asanla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Sapla\u011f\u0131ndan \u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f bir yarpaq da sakitc\u0259 onun qoluna d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. Yarpa\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc. Bir t\u0259r\u0259fi quruyub r\u0259ngini d\u0259yi\u015fs\u0259 d\u0259, yar\u0131 hiss\u0259si h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l idi. \u00abS\u0259n d\u0259 x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndin, s\u0259n d\u0259 duru\u015f g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259din?!\u00bb- sual\u0131 ke\u00e7di beynind\u0259n. Ovcuna qoyub diqq\u0259tl\u0259 baxd\u0131, sonra \u00fcf\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yarpaq bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 havada d\u00f6vr\u0259 vurub yerd\u0259ki qurumu\u015f x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259r\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131.  Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ll\u0259ri aras\u0131na ald\u0131. Barmaqlar\u0131 a\u011f sa\u00e7lar\u0131nda daraqland\u0131. Bir xeyli bel\u0259c\u0259 dayand\u0131. Ax\u015famk\u0131 \u0259hvalat\u0131 xat\u0131rlama\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u015eam yem\u0259yind\u0259n sonra divanda oturub televizora bax\u0131rd\u0131. Bird\u0259n onu q\u0259fil \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutdu.  Fasil\u0259siz \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259k a\u011fz\u0131ndan k\u00f6p\u00fck g\u0259tirdi. R\u0259ngi qapqara qarald\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flu il\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131  yax\u0131nl\u0131qda olduqlar\u0131ndan arvad\u0131 Xalid\u0259d\u0259n tez yeti\u015fdil\u0259r. Stolun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259ki qrafind\u0259n su s\u00fcz\u00fcb atalar\u0131na verdil\u0259r. Suyu da i\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259di. Sanki bo\u011fulurdu, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri h\u0259d\u0259q\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f, yanaqlar\u0131 boyunca ya\u015f ax\u0131rd\u0131. Xalid\u0259 \u0259rinin k\u00fcr\u0259yini s\u00fcrt\u00fcr, q\u0131z\u0131  \u018fsm\u0259r atas\u0131n\u0131n bir \u0259lini tutub s\u0131\u011fallay\u0131r:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-Ata, s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 oldu, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc \u0259l\u0259 al, n\u0259 olar,-deyib hey yalvar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Xalid\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259mkinli apar\u0131r, o\u011flu T\u0259rlan is\u0259 \u00e7a\u015f-ba\u015f halda d\u00f6\u015f\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 sar\u0131  \u0259yilib \u00f6sk\u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n az qala ikiqat olub qaralan atas\u0131na bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bird\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey dondu. Musa he\u00e7 n\u0259 e\u015fitm\u0259di.  G\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259  qaranl\u0131q \u00e7\u00f6kd\u00fc.  Sanki \u00e7\u0259kisizliy\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u2026G\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. B\u0259d\u0259ni key kimiydi. Ba\u015f\u0131nda, sin\u0259sind\u0259 k\u00fct a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131 vard\u0131. \u0130st\u0259di Xalid\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rs\u0131n. Dodaqlar\u0131 bir-birind\u0259n aralanmad\u0131. Qolu keyimi\u015fdi, qald\u0131rmaq ist\u0259di. Dirs\u0259yind\u0259n b\u00fck\u00fcy\u00fc yaman a\u011fr\u0131td\u0131.  Bax\u0131b g\u00f6rd\u00fc ki, damar\u0131na iyn\u0259 vurublar, yerind\u0259n qan g\u0259lm\u0259sin dey\u0259 yap\u0131\u015fqan yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131blar. Balaca jurnal stolunun \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259  \u00fcr\u0259k damc\u0131s\u0131, pamb\u0131q, spirt, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 flakon  d\u0259rman, iyn\u0259 vard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Fikirl\u0259r beynind\u0259n ild\u0131r\u0131m s\u00fcr\u0259til\u0259 g\u0259lib ke\u00e7di. Dem\u0259li t\u0259cili yard\u0131m g\u0259libmi\u015f.  G\u00f6zl\u0259ri  onun ayaq t\u0259r\u0259find\u0259 yer\u0259 oturub ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 divan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoyaraq m\u00fcrg\u00fcl\u0259mi\u015f o\u011flu T\u0259rlana sata\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n  n\u0259 vaxtdan bu v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 oturub. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc t\u0259rp\u0259nm\u0259di. T\u0259rp\u0259ns\u0259ydi T\u0259rlan\u0131 oyadacaqd\u0131. Ona n\u0259 olmu\u015fdu, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 k\u0259sdir\u0259 bilmirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0259tb\u0259xd\u0259n h\u0131\u00e7q\u0131r\u0131q s\u0259sl\u0259ri  g\u0259ldi.  Diqq\u0259tini c\u0259ml\u0259\u015fdirib qulaq asma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Xalid\u0259 burnunu \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 s\u00f6yl\u0259nirdi:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
– D\u00fcz 23 ildir ail\u0259 qurmu\u015fuq. Z\u0259hrimar siqareti m\u0259nd\u0259n, ail\u0259sind\u0259n \u00e7ox ist\u0259yir. Min d\u0259f\u0259 yalvarm\u0131\u015fam, Musa, qadan al\u0131m, n\u0259 olar,  at  da\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bu z\u0259h\u0259rin.  Can\u0131na yaz\u0131\u011f\u0131n g\u0259lsin. H\u0259m cibin\u0259 ziyan vurursan, h\u0259m d\u0259 can\u0131na. Y\u0259ni bu ac\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fc bizd\u0259n \u0259zizdir s\u0259n\u0259?!  S\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fey olsa, bizim hal\u0131m\u0131z nec\u0259 olacaq? U\u015faqlar\u0131n institutda oxuyurlar. Bir \u0259t\u0259k x\u0259rcl\u0259ri var, m\u0259n savads\u0131z, he\u00e7 yeri tan\u0131m\u0131ram. Nec\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r\u0259m bu firon balalar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6hd\u0259sind\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ara verib, burnunu sildi. Sonra yen\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-B\u0259z\u0259n onsuz nec\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011f\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 t\u0259s\u0259vv\u00fcr\u00fcm\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc qat\u0131q satanlar c\u0259rg\u0259sind\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u0259m. Ax\u0131 \u0259limd\u0259n n\u0259 g\u0259lir. M\u0259n d\u0259 g\u0259r\u0259k Bak\u0131ya qat\u0131q da\u015f\u0131y\u0131b satam ki, sizi bir  yana \u00e7\u0131xara bil\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-El\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fma, n\u0259 qarda\u015flar\u0131m, n\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n raz\u0131 olmar\u0131q ki, s\u0259n \u0259ziyy\u0259t \u00e7\u0259k\u0259s\u0259n.  Bir d\u0259 atama n\u0259 olub ax\u0131, s\u0259h\u0259r durar, birlikd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015far\u0131q.  H\u0259kimin s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rini ona \u00e7atd\u0131rar\u0131q. T\u0259rgini q\u0131lar, inan\u0131ram ki, ata bizi e\u015fid\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-Yox, he\u00e7 inanm\u0131ram, bu m\u00f6vzuda s\u00f6hb\u0259t d\u00fc\u015f\u0259nd\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 deyir ki, bacarm\u0131ram, g\u00fcc\u00fcm \u00e7atm\u0131r.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dey\u0259s\u0259n \u018fsm\u0259r anas\u0131n\u0131n boynunu qucaqlad\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnki h\u0259r ikisi bird\u0259n h\u00f6nk\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ki\u00e7ik o\u011flu T\u0259rlan  d\u0259rinliy\u0259 varmasa da, q\u0131z\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259r \u00e7ox h\u0259ssas idi. H\u0259r \u015feyi \u00fcr\u0259yin\u0259 sal\u0131b, d\u0259rd eliy\u0259ndi. \u00abEh, Xal\u0131\u015f, ax\u0131 niy\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259kil\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b balaca q\u0131zc\u0131\u011faza deyirs\u0259n? Niy\u0259 onun da k\u00f6rp\u0259 q\u0259lbini param-par\u00e7a edirs\u0259n?\u00bb,-fikri ke\u00e7di beynind\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Yen\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumdu.  Hiss etdi ki, anas\u0131 T\u0259rlan\u0131 oyad\u0131b yerin\u0259 g\u00f6nd\u0259rir: \u00abGet yerind\u0259 yat, \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr Allaha, atan da yat\u0131b\u00bb. T\u0259rlan  s\u0259ssiz o biri ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. Musa \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yuxulu\u011fa vurdu. \u018fsm\u0259r  kresloda oturub atas\u0131na  qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131-qay\u011f\u0131l\u0131  baxan anas\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u0259 adyal g\u0259tirdi. Bilirdi ki,  anas\u0131  \u0259rinin ke\u015fiyini \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259k…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Musa rayonda ad-san qazanm\u0131\u015f fizika m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259rind\u0259n biri, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 birincisiydi. M\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 d\u0259rsi qurtarandan sonra evd\u0259 ali m\u0259kt\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 u\u015faq haz\u0131rlay\u0131rd\u0131. Repetitorluq f\u0259aliyy\u0259tind\u0259  h\u0259l\u0259 bir q\u00fcsuru olmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Haz\u0131rla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131\u011f\u0131 u\u015faqlardan onun f\u0259nnind\u0259n he\u00e7 bir n\u0259tic\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 valideyni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131r\u0131b ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ayl\u0131q pullar\u0131 geri qaytar\u0131rd\u0131. Haqq, \u0259dal\u0259t t\u0259r\u0259fdar\u0131, d\u00fcz\u00fcn, do\u011frunun dostu idi. Xalid\u0259ni d\u0259 sevib evl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. Amma onu oxuma\u011fa qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131.  \u018fslind\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc yox, atas\u0131 qoymam\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, g\u0259lini oxusun.  \u0130ki o\u011flu, bir q\u0131z\u0131 vard\u0131. B\u00f6y\u00fck o\u011flu Tural ali m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra \u0259sg\u0259r getmi\u015fdi. Ortanc\u0131l o\u011flu T\u0259rlan Texniki Universitetd\u0259 d\u00f6rd\u00fcnc\u00fc kursda, q\u0131z\u0131 \u018fsm\u0259r is\u0259 Tibb Universitetinin birinci kursunda oxuyurdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Balalar\u0131 t\u0259til\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 Xalid\u0259 \u0259ld\u0259n-ayaqdan gedirdi.  Onlar \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0259tin ba\u015fa g\u0259l\u0259n x\u00f6r\u0259kl\u0259ri\u2013d\u00fc\u015fb\u0259r\u0259, qutab, plov, bal\u0131q l\u0259v\u0259ngisi bel\u0259 haz\u0131rlayard\u0131. \u015eirniyyatlara da ki, s\u00f6z ola bilm\u0259z. B\u00f6y\u00fck h\u0259v\u0259sl\u0259 haz\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131 naz-nem\u0259ti h\u0259r d\u0259f\u0259 s\u00fcfr\u0259y\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259nd\u0259n sonra m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7ib: \u00abG\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n, indi Tural balam n\u0259 yeyir?\u00bb-deyib k\u00f6vr\u0259l\u0259rdi. Musa da onun bu xasiyy\u0259tini bilib arxas\u0131nca m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259r, \u00abBurnunun suyunu ax\u0131tma, ay Xal\u0131\u015f, u\u015faqlar\u0131n haram\u0131 olar. N\u0259 qal\u0131b, Allaha \u015f\u00fck\u00fcr. \u0130li ba\u015fa vurma\u011fa n\u0259 var ki, bir az da s\u0259br el\u0259\u00bb,-deyib arvad\u0131n\u0131 ovundurard\u0131.      <\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130ndi d\u0259 u\u015faqlar Qurban bayram\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259til\u0259 veril\u0259n t\u0259til\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdil\u0259r. Musa ax\u015famk\u0131 \u0259hvalatdan sonra  onlar\u0131n da hal\u0131n\u0131n f\u0259na oldu\u011funu bilirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu and\u0131ra qalm\u0131\u015f x\u0259st\u0259liyi (a\u011f ciy\u0259rl\u0259rind\u0259 plevrit) d\u00fcz d\u00f6rd il idi ki, onu narahat edirdi. Dava-d\u0259rman q\u0259bul el\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259,  h\u0259kim d\u0259f\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ona siqareti t\u0259rgitm\u0259yi m\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u018fslind\u0259 \u00abm\u0259sl\u0259h\u0259t g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc\u00bb bir az yum\u015faq s\u0259sl\u0259nir. Lap qorxutmu\u015fdu da. Di g\u0259l Musa bu \u00abu\u015faql\u0131q dostundan\u00bb he\u00e7 c\u00fcr ayr\u0131la bilmir, biri qurtarmam\u0131\u015f o birini yand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6r ne\u00e7\u0259 vaxtd\u0131 onunla yol-yolda\u015fl\u0131q edirdi. N\u0259l\u0259r g\u0259lmi\u015fdi ba\u015f\u0131na onun ucbat\u0131ndan. Siqaretl\u0259 ilk tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, dad\u0131na baxma\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u015firin xatir\u0259sini yad\u0131na salanda h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Qon\u015fular\u0131 M\u0259mm\u0259da\u011fa m\u00fcharib\u0259d\u0259 sa\u011f qolunu itirmi\u015fdi. Arvadlar deyirdil\u0259r Hitl\u0259rn\u0259n sava\u015fanda olub. Ancaq t\u0259kqol M\u0259mm\u0259da\u011fa siqareti bir \u0259lli el\u0259 yand\u0131rard\u0131 ki, b\u00fct\u00fcn m\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 ona sirkd\u0259 n\u00f6mr\u0259 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n janqlyora baxan t\u0259ki baxard\u0131. M\u0259mm\u0259da\u011fa sol qolunun b\u00fck\u00fcy\u00fcn\u0259 kibrit qutusunu s\u0131xar, a\u011fz\u0131nda tutdu\u011fu kibrit \u00e7\u00f6p\u00fcn\u00fc qutunun qara yerin\u0259 s\u00fcrt\u0259rd\u00fc. Kibrit al\u0131\u015fan kimi sol \u0259linin barmaqlar\u0131 aras\u0131nda \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n haz\u0131r tutdu\u011fu siqaretini yand\u0131rard\u0131. \u00d6z\u00fc d\u0259 el\u0259 m\u0259har\u0259tl\u0259, tez  yand\u0131rard\u0131 ki, b\u0131\u011f\u0131 he\u00e7 vaxt al\u0131\u015fmazd\u0131.  Sonra da l\u0259zz\u0259tn\u0259n i\u00e7in\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kib, t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 buraxar, h\u00f6km\u0259n d\u0259 yer\u0259 t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u0259rdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
M\u0259h\u0259ll\u0259 u\u015faqlar\u0131 \u00f6zl\u0259rini bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259f\u0259 M\u0259mm\u0259da\u011fa kimi aparma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fsalar da, onlarda al\u0131nmazd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ancaq bir g\u00fcn ki\u015fi kimi siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yin l\u0259zz\u0259tini dadmaq ist\u0259dil\u0259r. \u018fv\u0259z atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u00ab\u018ffsan\u0259\u00bbni, Fazil n\u0259n\u0259sinin \u00e7\u0259kdiyi \u00abAstra\u00bbn\u0131, Musa da \u0259misinin \u00abKosmos\u00bbunu ortaya qoydular. H\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc o\u011furluq el\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u00dcst\u0259lik Musa xaricd\u0259n g\u0259tirilmi\u015f b\u0259z\u0259kli al\u0131\u015fqan\u0131 da g\u0259tirmi\u015fdi. Qal\u0131rd\u0131 birc\u0259 bunlar\u0131n dad\u0131na harada baxmaq m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259si. Xeyli g\u00f6t\u00fcr-qoydan sonra Musagilin ayaqyolunda siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yi q\u0259rarla\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00c7\u00fcnki onlar\u0131n ayaqyolusu evin arxas\u0131nda, qoyunlar\u0131n p\u0259y\u0259sin\u0259 ged\u0259n yolda idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Taxtadan d\u00fcz\u0259ldilmi\u015f ayaqyoluna balaca k\u0259til d\u0259 g\u0259tirdil\u0259r. \u018fvv\u0259lc\u0259 h\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fc \u00ab\u018ffsan\u0259\u00bbnin dad\u0131na baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Ac\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc ayaqyolunun qoxusuna qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b \u00fcf\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r. H\u0259r\u0259si \u00f6z evind\u0259 papiros \u00e7\u0259k\u0259ni yams\u0131lama\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ir\u0259li uzad\u0131b a\u011f\u0131zlar\u0131ndak\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc tualetin \u015fiferin\u0259 do\u011fru f\u0131sq\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131lar. Fazil t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc burnundan \u00e7\u0131xarmaq ist\u0259di. G\u00f6zl\u0259ri ya\u015fard\u0131. \u00d6sk\u00fcr\u0259k tutdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-Heyf, k\u00fclqab\u0131 yad\u0131m\u0131zdan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b, olmasa g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdim, atam nec\u0259 barma\u011f\u0131yla k\u00fcl\u00fc qopar\u0131r,-dey\u0259 \u018fv\u0259z yek\u0259-yek\u0259 \u00f6y\u00fcnd\u00fc.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Musa da onda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn uydurdu\u011fu tapmacan\u0131 s\u00f6yl\u0259di: Ald\u0131m bir d\u0259n\u0259, a\u00e7d\u0131m iyirmi d\u0259n\u0259. Xeyli g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u00abAstra\u00bb yaman ac\u0131 oldu. Dil-dodaqlar\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fan t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fc tez-tez t\u00fcp\u00fcr\u00fcrd\u00fcl\u0259r.  K\u00f6t\u00fckl\u0259ri d\u0259 d\u00fcz tualetin de\u015fiyin\u0259 at\u0131rd\u0131lar. \u00abBalaca ki\u015fil\u0259r\u00bb \u00f6zl\u0259rini nec\u0259 unutmu\u015fdularsa, \u00abKosmos\u00bbun yar\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 bo\u015faldanda  art\u0131q ayaqyolunda g\u00f6z-g\u00f6z\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Qon\u015fu R\u0259him\u0259 xalan\u0131n  tualetin taxtalar\u0131 aras\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6r\u00fcb: \u00abAy Nazil\u0259, zaxodunuz yan\u0131r\u00bb, -deyib hay-h\u0259\u015fir qoparmas\u0131ndan  da x\u0259b\u0259r tutmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Musan\u0131n atas\u0131 Mirza\u011fa qap\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6y\u0259cl\u0259y\u0259nd\u0259 \u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u0259ldil\u0259r ki, onda da art\u0131q gec idi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130ll\u0259r ke\u00e7di. Musa ali m\u0259kt\u0259bi bitirib do\u011fma rayona qay\u0131td\u0131. Orta m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 fizika m\u00fc\u0259llimi kimi i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259tin m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259nin h\u0259lli \u00fcz\u0259rind\u0259 ba\u015f s\u0131nd\u0131randa h\u0259mkar\u0131 Abasa\u011fa il\u0259 otaqlar\u0131n birind\u0259 oturar, fikir m\u00fcbadil\u0259si ed\u0259-ed\u0259 o q\u0259d\u0259r siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259rdil\u0259r ki, katib\u0259 Alim\u0259 ota\u011fa girib onlara baxar, ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 bulayard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-T\u00fcst\u00fcs\u00fcz m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259 h\u0259ll el\u0259m\u0259k olmur?<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Abasa\u011fa da \u0259v\u0259zind\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k:<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-Ay Alim\u0259, t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc \u00fcf\u00fcr\u00fcrs\u0259n, sonra dal\u0131nca bax\u0131b fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n. G\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, paho, s\u0259n dem\u0259 ham\u0131s\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fcn dal\u0131nca g\u0259lirmi\u015f e…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259mkar\u0131n\u0131n bu cavab\u0131 uzun ill\u0259r m\u00fc\u0259lliml\u0259r aras\u0131nda sitata \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Dostu T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl\u00fcn bu z\u0259qqum siqaretin ucbat\u0131ndan ba\u015f\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259nl\u0259rini yad\u0131na salanda is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 t\u0259s\u0259lli verib, b\u0259ra\u0259t qazand\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl yaman siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n idi.  \u0130st\u0259diyi q\u0131zla ni\u015fanlanandan sonra Musaya dedi ki, bilirs\u0259n, t\u0259rgini q\u0131lacam  bu \u015fo\u011f\u0259ribin. \u015e\u0259lal\u0259 deyir, az atmosferi z\u0259h\u0259rl\u0259. (Guya bu boyda atmosferi birc\u0259 T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl korlay\u0131r?!) Ya m\u0259n, ya da siqaret.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Ancaq \u00e7ox s\u00fcrm\u0259di ki, T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl yaman x\u0259st\u0259l\u0259ndi. Lap yata\u011fa d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259kiml\u0259rin dava-d\u0259rman\u0131 da k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259m\u0259di. Bir g\u00fcn d\u0259rsd\u0259n sonra T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl\u0259 d\u0259ym\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259n Musa \u00abB\u0259lk\u0259 bir siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259s\u0259n. Bird\u0259n-bir\u0259 t\u0259rgitmis\u0259n, el\u0259 bilir\u0259m, onun  a\u011fr\u0131lar\u0131d\u0131r \u00e7\u0259kirs\u0259n\u00bb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Evd\u0259kil\u0259r bilm\u0259sin dey\u0259 siqareti \u00f6z\u00fc yand\u0131rd\u0131. Bir-iki qullab vurandan sonra T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl\u0259 verdi. T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl ac\u0131 t\u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fc\u0259sin\u0259 ciy\u0259rl\u0259rin\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
S\u0259h\u0259r onlara g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl\u00fcn evd\u0259 son q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 verm\u0259sini  Musaya \u00e7atd\u0131rd\u0131lar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
-\u00c7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259m. \u018f, bu imi\u015f e, m\u0259ni yor\u011fan d\u00f6\u015f\u0259y\u0259 y\u0131xan. D\u00fcn\u0259n s\u0259n ged\u0259nn\u0259n sonra \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc el\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 hiss el\u0259dim ki. H\u0259l\u0259 bir kasa k\u00fcft\u0259-bozba\u015f da yedim.  Musa, Allah \u00f6l\u0259nl\u0259r\u00fc r\u0259hm\u0259t el\u0259s\u00fcn. N\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 yadua d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u015e\u0259lal\u0259ni d\u0259 yola g\u0259tirmi\u015f\u0259m. Dedim ki, \u00f6lm\u0259yimi ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, ya siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259yimi.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n
O vaxtdan xeyli ke\u00e7m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc demi\u015fk\u0259n \u00abk\u00f6hn\u0259 paravoz kimi t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u00fcy\u00fcr\u00bb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Bu n\u0259dir? Niy\u0259 xat\u0131rlay\u0131r bu olanlar\u0131. Siqaret\u0259mi t\u0259r\u0259fda\u015f \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, ya \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq qazand\u0131r\u0131r. \u00abBu lap fizika m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sind\u0259n d\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tin oldu ki\u00bb,-fikri ke\u00e7di beynind\u0259n \u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
\u0130st\u0259r-ist\u0259m\u0259z \u0259lini g\u00f6d\u0259kc\u0259sinin yan cibin\u0259 apard\u0131. Qara \u00abKent-4\u00bb siqaretini g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc.  \u00dcz\u0259rind\u0259ki x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q ka\u011f\u0131z\u0131na baxd\u0131. \u00abS\u0259hiyy\u0259 nazirliyi x\u0259b\u0259rdarl\u0131q edir: Siqaret \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k sizin sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131za ziyan vurur\u00bb. \u015eriftin\u0259 bax. Adam\u0131n lap g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 soxurlar.  Dolay\u0131s\u0131 yolla deyirl\u0259r ki, kor olasan, g\u00f6rm\u00fcrs\u0259n bura n\u0259 yaz\u0131l\u0131b? T\u0259v\u0259kk\u00fcl demi\u015fk\u0259n, \u00ab\u018f, nec\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0131\u011fortalan\u0131rlar?!  Y\u0259ni bizd\u0259n dem\u0259k. \u00d6z\u00fcn bil\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u00fcm\u00fcr\u0259rs\u0259n \u00f6l\u0259rs\u0259n, s\u00fcm\u00fcrm\u0259zs\u0259n qalarsan\u00bb.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Qapa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 qald\u0131rd\u0131, ist\u0259di birini g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb yand\u0131rs\u0131n.  Xalid\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131na dedikl\u0259ri, q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259ri yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 e\u015fitdiyi s\u00f6zl\u0259r bu gec\u0259 ona ba\u015fqa t\u0259sir ba\u011f\u0131\u015flam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ll\u0259rl\u0259 yol-yolda\u015f\u0131 oldu\u011fu t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u00fc-qoxulu b\u00fcrm\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f t\u00fct\u00fcn\u00fcnd\u0259n nec\u0259 \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259c\u0259kdi? Barmaqlar\u0131, dodaqlar\u0131 dar\u0131xmayacaqd\u0131m\u0131 onun\u00e7\u00fcn. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
Xalid\u0259 demi\u015fk\u0259n sormal\u0131 \u015f\u00fc\u015f\u0259 konfet, iris, ki\u015fmi\u015f, qovrulmu\u015f f\u0131nd\u0131q, ya da ki, tum t\u00f6k\u0259c\u0259kdi  cibin\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Q\u0259ti q\u0259rar verm\u0259k asand\u0131r. G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n irad\u0259si \u00e7atacaqd\u0131m\u0131 bu q\u0259rar\u0131 yerin\u0259 yetirm\u0259y\u0259.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
El\u0259 bu vaxt Xalid\u0259 h\u00f6vlanak h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 endi. Musa oturdu\u011fu da\u015f\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qalxd\u0131. Xalid\u0259 onu ba\u011fda g\u00f6r\u00fcb dayand\u0131. H\u0259r ikisi dinm\u0259z bir-birin\u0259 baxd\u0131lar. Musa \u0259lind\u0259ki siqaret qutusunu \u0259zib qalaqlanm\u0131\u015f x\u0259z\u0259lin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 tolazlad\u0131. Sanki arvad\u0131na bir mesaj verdi bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tiyl\u0259.  \u00abBax, g\u00f6rd\u00fcn tullad\u0131m, bir d\u0259 \u0259lim\u0259 alm\u0131yacam bu z\u0259hrimar\u0131\u00bb. Daxilin\u0259 verdiyi komandan\u0131 sanki qulaqlar\u0131 e\u015fitdi. Y\u0259ni bu q\u0259d\u0259r sad\u0259 imi\u015f h\u0259r \u015fey. Sevindi. Sevindi ki, lap azac\u0131q da olsa, irad\u0259si varm\u0131\u015f. G\u00f6zucu ill\u0259rl\u0259 yolda\u015fl\u0131q etdiyi, indis\u0259 atd\u0131\u011fi \u201csevgili\u201dsin\u0259 baxd\u0131. El\u0259 bildi siqaret qutusu onu l\u0259n\u0259tl\u0259yir, \u201cv\u0259fas\u0131z\u201d deyib nal\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kir. \u00dcr\u0259yind\u0259: \u201cYoox, s\u0259n x\u0259yan\u0259t edirdin dostlu\u011fumuza. Az qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131n can\u0131m\u0131 da alasan\u201d-deyib \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7evirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259y\u0259tin o ba\u015f\u0131nda Xalid\u0259nin tum g\u00f6zl\u0259ri q\u0131y\u0131ld\u0131. G\u00f6yd\u0259 tutdu \u0259rinin mesaj\u0131n\u0131. Ev\u0259 girm\u0259yi il\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xma\u011f\u0131  bir oldu. T\u0259l\u0259sik Musan\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u0259ldi. \u018fyilib onun yan\u0131ndak\u0131 x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259r\u0259 kibritl\u0259 od vurdu. Bir anda q\u0131vr\u0131lan t\u00fcst\u00fc g\u00f6y\u0259 qalxma\u011fa can atd\u0131. Siqaret qutusu da i\u00e7ind\u0259kil\u0259rl\u0259 al\u0131\u015fd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Musa  g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di.  Fikirl\u0259\u015fdi ki, Xalid\u0259 qorxdu. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 tez yand\u0131rd\u0131 x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259ri.  Qorxdu ki, bird\u0259n \u0259ri \u0259yilib yen\u0259 g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259r x\u0259z\u0259ll\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Leyla N\u0259sirova<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n
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Qazlar\u0131n q\u0259fil  qaqq\u0131lda\u015fmas\u0131 onu yuxudan ay\u0131ltd\u0131. Qon\u015fusu N\u0259riman neftd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259diyind\u0259n h\u0259r s\u0259h\u0259r oba\u015fdan durub \u015fap-\u015fuplar\u0131n\u0131 s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259-s\u00fcr\u00fcy\u0259 ayaqyoluna ged\u0259nd\u0259 onu g\u00f6r\u0259n Musan\u0131n ay\u0131q-say\u0131q qazlar\u0131  qaqq\u0131lda\u015f\u0131r, N\u0259riman\u0131n oyanmas\u0131n\u0131 \u0259trafdak\u0131 qon\u015fulara bildirirdil\u0259r. M\u0259nim \u00abz\u0259ngli saat\u0131ma bax ha\u2026\u00bb,-deyib g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di. Ehmalca qalxd\u0131. Divanda yatd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan paltarl\u0131 idi. Xalid\u0259 kresloda oturaq v\u0259ziyy\u0259td\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00dcst\u00fcn\u0259 adyal salm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar.  Yun, cibli g\u00f6d\u0259k\u00e7\u0259sini  \u00e7iynin\u0259 sal\u0131b sakitc\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-44225","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44225","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=44225"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44225\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":44237,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/44225\/revisions\/44237"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=44225"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=44225"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=44225"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}