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\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d portal\u0131 \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u015f\u00fcnas S\u0259rvan\u0259 Da\u011ftumas\u0131n \u0259d\u0259bi t\u0259nqid\u0259 aid yaz\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n d\u0259rcini davam etdirir. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 n\u00f6vb\u0259 g\u00f6rk\u0259mli Az\u0259rbaycan Sovet yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131s\u0131 \u0130lyas \u018ff\u0259ndiyevindir.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

M\u00fc\u0259llif oxuculardan xahi\u015f edir ki, r\u0259yl\u0259rini <\/strong><\/strong><\/a>ferecli404@gmail.com<\/a><\/strong> \u00fcnvan\u0131na g\u00f6nd\u0259rsinl\u0259r.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

XX \u0259sr Az\u0259rbaycan \u0259d\u0259biyyat\u0131n\u0131n g\u00f6rk\u0259mli n\u00fcmay\u0259nd\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n biri olan \u0130lyas \u018ff\u0259ndiyevin yarad\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131nda qad\u0131n azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131, qad\u0131nl\u0131q duy\u011fular\u0131 v\u0259 onun daxilind\u0259 ba\u015f qald\u0131ran saf, pak sevgi hisl\u0259rinin t\u0259sviri x\u00fcsusil\u0259 diqq\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n m\u0259qamlardan biridir. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 oxucu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini dilemma qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qoyaraq, \u201c\u0259s\u0259rin ba\u015f qad\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 haql\u0131d\u0131rm\u0131?\u201d sual\u0131na y\u00f6nl\u0259ndirmi\u015f, insan xisl\u0259tind\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015f spesifik c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259r\u0259 \u201cK\u00f6rp\u00fcsalanlar\u201d roman\u0131nda ayd\u0131nl\u0131q g\u0259tirmi\u015fdir. \u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 hadis\u0259l\u0259r \u0259sas\u0259n, k\u0259nd m\u00fchitind\u0259 c\u0259r\u0259yan edir v\u0259 2 t\u0259hkiy\u0259\u00e7inin dilind\u0259n verilir. H\u0259min t\u0259hkiy\u0259\u00e7il\u0259r \u0259s\u0259rin ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259manlar\u0131 olan S\u0259riyy\u0259 v\u0259 Adildir. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u0259s\u0259rin dig\u0259r q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 olan Q\u0259ribi d\u0259 t\u0259hkiy\u0259\u00e7i qismind\u0259 ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi mi? B\u0259li, f\u0259q\u0259t g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr, yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259-Adil x\u0259ttind\u0259ki konflikti daha qabar\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 t\u0259svir etm\u0259k, onlar\u0131n daxili al\u0259mini oxuculara a\u00e7\u0131q, ayd\u0131n \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bel\u0259 bir m\u00f6vqe tutur.           <\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259nin q\u0259libl\u0259\u015fmi\u015f arzular\u0131<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rin ba\u015f qad\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259 zavod \u00e7iling\u0259rinin bir q\u0131z\u0131 idi. O, k\u0259nd m\u00fchitind\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, yol texnikumunu bitirmi\u015f, ali t\u0259hsil\u0259 yiy\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015fdi. 19 ya\u015f\u0131nda tale onu Adill\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131rm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 bu iki g\u0259nc ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qurmu\u015fdu. Baxmayaraq ki S\u0259riyy\u0259 Adili sevib evl\u0259nmi\u015fdi, (b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sevmirdi) bu birillik izdivac  yenic\u0259 \u00e7i\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259ndiyi kimi \u00e7ox erk\u0259n d\u0259 soldu, S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n, Q\u0259rib\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 q\u0259lbind\u0259 saf duy\u011fular b\u0259sl\u0259m\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Onun h\u0259r h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tin\u0259 diqq\u0259t yetirir, h\u0259tta paltar\u0131na da n\u0259vazi\u015f g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin daxili al\u0259mind\u0259 azad hisl\u0259r yaranm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, onun \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 azadl\u0131qsev\u0259r idi. \u201cK\u00f6rp\u00fcsalanlar\u201d roman\u0131nda bu, onun dilind\u0259n a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 verilir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259 Adil\u0259 \u00f6z xo\u015fu il\u0259 \u0259r\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, \u00f6z h\u0259yat\u0131ndan maddi c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n m\u0259mnun idi. K\u00fcbar ail\u0259 m\u00fchitin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f g\u0259nc q\u0131z \u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 sadiq v\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tli olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, \u0259rinin ona verdiyi t\u00f6vsiy\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 \u0259m\u0259l edirdi, \u00e7\u00fcnki \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc bu yeni k\u00fcbar m\u00fchitind\u0259 nec\u0259 aparma\u011f\u0131 d\u0259rk ed\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Adil onun h\u0259r bir ki\u00e7ik s\u0259hvini duyub d\u0259rhal l\u0259\u011fv edirdi. Onun al\u0259mind\u0259 \u201c\u0259r\u201d anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 \u0259rin\u0259 qulluq etm\u0259k onun h\u0259r bir ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lamaq, s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xmamaq ona laz\u0131mi d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259d\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259kdir. H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 ail\u0259 qurdu\u011fu qad\u0131ndan onun m\u00f6vqeyinin t\u0259l\u0259b etdiyi y\u00fcks\u0259klikd\u0259 dayanmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi, lakin S\u0259riyy\u0259 bunu bacara bilmirdi. Adill\u0259 aras\u0131nda \u0259sl e\u015fqd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t yox idi, onun fikri, diqq\u0259ti sad\u0259c\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn deyil\u0259nl\u0259r\u0259 robot kimi \u0259m\u0259l etm\u0259kl\u0259 yekunla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131, \u00e7\u00fcnki bu h\u0259yat\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fc se\u00e7mi\u015fdi. B\u0259z\u0259n se\u00e7diyi bu h\u0259yata layiq olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n ke\u00e7irir, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ondan daha y\u00fcks\u0259k m\u00f6vqed\u0259 durmas\u0131n\u0131 dil\u0259 g\u0259tirirdi. Amma h\u0259r \u015fey S\u0259riyy\u0259nin ist\u0259diyi kimi davam etm\u0259di. \u0130ki\u00fczl\u00fc davranmaq ist\u0259mirdi. Yolda\u015f\u0131ndan bir \u015feyi, h\u0259tta hisl\u0259rini bel\u0259 gizl\u0259tm\u0259k ona a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lirdi. Fikrimizc\u0259, S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u00f6z duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 tez bir zamanda m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n edib h\u0259yat yolunu se\u00e7m\u0259liydi v\u0259 se\u00e7di d\u0259…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

T\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcf ki S\u0259riyy\u0259 labirintl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u015f\u0131b-da\u015fan ail\u0259 m\u00fchitin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. O, arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259di,\u00f6z se\u00e7imind\u0259 yan\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 bunu anlayaraq, \u00f6z sevgisinin arxas\u0131nca getdi. Q\u0259ribl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaq onun  yaln\u0131z daxili al\u0259min\u0259 ruhuna q\u0259lbin\u0259 deyil, xarici g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 siray\u0259t etmi\u015fdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin q\u0259lbinin ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6d\u0259y\u0259n onu ehtirasla, pak hisl\u0259rl\u0259 sev\u0259n, qad\u0131nl\u0131\u011f\u0131na d\u0259y\u0259r ver\u0259n, qay\u011f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259n bir adam\u0131 se\u00e7m\u0259kl\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131, eyni zamanda ruhunu d\u0259yi\u015fdi. Bunu onun cismi deyil, ruhu, q\u0259lbi arzulay\u0131r, t\u0259l\u0259b edirdi. Ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 des\u0259k, azad olmaq ist\u0259yi…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Azadl\u0131q anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n 3 tipi m\u0259lumdur: cismani, hissi v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 azadl\u0131q. S\u0259riyy\u0259 hissi azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131na qovu\u015fdu, onun q\u0259lbi sanki buxovlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131, he\u00e7 k\u0259sin gir\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yi qalaya \u00e7evrilmi\u015fdi. Onun bu solmu\u015f, t\u00fck\u0259nmi\u015f hisl\u0259ri Q\u0259ribi g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259n sonra canland\u0131 v\u0259 o bu arzuolunmaz sevginin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 ala bilm\u0259di. S\u0259riyy\u0259 axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 sevgini Adild\u0259 deyil,adi bir buldozer\u00e7id\u0259 tapd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona \u201cs\u0259n\u201d dem\u0259y\u0259 \u0259rk el\u0259mirdi? Bu utancaql\u0131\u011f\u0131n, \u00e7\u0259king\u0259nliyin \u0259lam\u0259ti idi mi? Yoxsa S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 yaranan bu do\u011fmal\u0131q, bu istilik, ya da Q\u0259ribin \u201cyad qad\u0131na\u201d qar\u015f\u0131 soyuq davran\u0131\u015f\u0131 m\u0131 onlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda s\u0259rh\u0259d yarad\u0131rd\u0131 ? Yoxsa daha da yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131 ? <\/em>S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bu sual\u0131n \u00e7\u0259tinliyi qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 gizli do\u011fmal\u0131q buna s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. O, \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 yaranan c\u0259sar\u0259tli, \u00fclvi hisl\u0259ri d\u0259f ed\u0259 bilmirdi, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 b\u0259ra\u0259t qazand\u0131r\u0131r, haql\u0131 hesab edirdi. \u0130nsan\u0131n b\u0259z\u0259n sevdikl\u0259ri il\u0259 aras\u0131nda m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n s\u0259rh\u0259d olur v\u0259 h\u0259min s\u0259rh\u0259di qar\u015f\u0131 t\u0259r\u0259f d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259yir. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 hisl\u0259rinin aras\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u00fcni s\u0259rh\u0259ddir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n bel\u0259 bir sual yaran\u0131r. S\u0259riyy\u0259 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnl\u00fck ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131, x\u00fcsusil\u0259 d\u0259 Q\u0259ribli d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259n \u00e7ox gec\u0259l\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc? <\/em>Gec\u0259l\u0259r insan q\u0259lbil\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qal\u0131r, q\u0259lb n\u0259 ist\u0259yir, a\u011f\u0131l hans\u0131 yolu g\u00f6st\u0259rir, q\u0259lbin ist\u0259diyi \u015feyi a\u011f\u0131l idar\u0259 edir. \u0130nsan  gec\u0259l\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qal\u0131r v\u0259 \u00fcnsiyy\u0259t qurur. S\u0259riyy\u0259 q\u0259lbin\u0259 do\u011fru ir\u0259lil\u0259yir, onunla bacarm\u0131rd\u0131.  H\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ac\u0131 taleyi S\u0259riyy\u0259ni \u00e7ox qorxudurdu . O \u0259rinin \u201c\u0259sar\u0259ti\u201d alt\u0131nda s\u0131x\u0131l\u0131rd\u0131, zincirl\u0259rd\u0259n yaxa qurtarmaq ist\u0259yirdi. Adilin ona izah etdiyi \u201cxo\u015fb\u0259xtlik m\u0259fhumu\u201dnu anlaya bilmirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259yat ,ist\u0259kl\u0259ri, x\u0259yallar\u0131 tamamil\u0259 Adild\u0259n yad v\u0259 k\u0259nar al\u0259m\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 S\u0259riyy\u0259ni yelbeyin, a\u011f\u0131ls\u0131z hesab etm\u0259k olar m\u0131? O, vicdan\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda hesab verirdi m\u0131? <\/em> Fikrimizc\u0259, S\u0259riyy\u0259 ail\u0259 oca\u011f\u0131na at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f bir \u201ck\u00f6rp\u0259\u201ddir. Onun d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 Adil anlam\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131ql\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 bu ya\u015f f\u0259rqi rol oynam\u0131rd\u0131 deyil. Bu f\u0259rq d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzin\u0259, d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259 ,s\u00f6zs\u00fcz, t\u0259sir g\u00f6st\u0259rirdi. (S\u0259riyy\u0259 19 ,Adil 31 ya\u015f\u0131nda idi) Amma insan\u0131n a\u011f\u0131l ya\u015f\u0131 b\u00f6y\u00fck olarsa, bioloji ya\u015f evlilikd\u0259 rol oynamaz. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin d\u0259 a\u011f\u0131l ya\u015f\u0131 Adill\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 \u00e7ox az idi, \u0259rinin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259ri ,arzular\u0131, ist\u0259kl\u0259ri il\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259nin x\u0259yallar\u0131 tam t\u0259zadl\u0131q t\u0259\u015fkil edirdi.  S\u0259riyy\u0259 Adil\u0259 sad\u0259c\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259t edirdi, \u0259ri onun \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 hesabla\u015fmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yirdi, \u0259g\u0259r yolda\u015f\u0131 s\u0259ssizc\u0259 naraz\u0131l\u0131q edirdis\u0259, xan\u0131m\u0131 bunu anlamal\u0131, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 hesabla\u015fmal\u0131 idi. Burada \u0259sl sevgid\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 q\u0259lbind\u0259ki m\u0259n\u0259vi bo\u015flu\u011funu, m\u0259n\u0259vi ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 Q\u0259ribl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa can atd\u0131. Q\u0259rib sanki onun g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc a\u00e7d\u0131, onun yatm\u0131\u015f q\u0259lbini co\u015fa, ehtirasa g\u0259tirdi. Xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin, \u0259sl sevginin 3 a\u00e7ar\u0131- qay\u011f\u0131 diqq\u0259t v\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tdir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adilin ziddiyy\u0259tli m\u00f6vqeyi<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adil \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 ziddiyy\u0259tli m\u00f6vqe tutan ba\u015f q\u0259hr\u0259manlardan biridir. Ali t\u0259hsilli, ziyal\u0131 bir ail\u0259d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f, savadl\u0131 g\u0259ncdir. S\u0259riyy\u0259ni sevib evl\u0259nmi\u015fdi. H\u0259yat\u0131 boyu ideal bir ail\u0259, m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131. Adil ist\u0259s\u0259ydi, xan\u0131m\u0131ndan daha yax\u015f\u0131s\u0131 il\u0259 evl\u0259n\u0259rdi, amma onun n\u0259z\u0259rind\u0259 \u201cyax\u015f\u0131\u201d anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259nin b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r.  Adilin fikrinc\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131n o\u011flandan bir pill\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131da olmas\u0131 u\u011furlu evlilik h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 \u015f\u0259rtl\u0259ndir\u0259n \u0259sas amildir. Onun ail\u0259si bu izdivaca qar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xsa da o \u00f6z sevgisinin arxas\u0131nca getmi\u015f v\u0259 m\u0259qs\u0259din\u0259 nail olmu\u015fdu. Lakin Adilin daxili al\u0259mind\u0259 yaranm\u0131\u015f ziddiyy\u0259tli xarakter g\u0259nc m\u00fch\u0259ndisi ail\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tind\u0259n tezlikl\u0259 m\u0259hrum etdi. Adilin xarakterind\u0259 m\u00fcsb\u0259t keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259r d\u0259 vard\u0131, amma onun xudp\u0259s\u0259nd, \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tp\u0259r\u0259st x\u00fcsusiyy\u0259tl\u0259ri yax\u015f\u0131 c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259rini k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259 qoyurdu.  Onun bu xarakterini formala\u015fd\u0131ran, \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259siz, g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fc ail\u0259 m\u00fchiti olub. Adild\u0259 olan neqativ keyfiyy\u0259tl\u0259r onu S\u0259riyy\u0259d\u0259n daha da uzaqla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. Riyakar davran\u0131\u015flar, s\u00fcni m\u00fcnasib\u0259t , m\u0259qs\u0259dli h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259r S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259z oldu. Adilin al\u0259mind\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik m\u0259fhumu tamamil\u0259 f\u0259rqli m\u0259na k\u0259sb edirdi. O, S\u0259riyy\u0259nin x\u0131rda \u201ck\u00f6rp\u0259\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini c\u0131l\u0131zla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r, \u00f6n\u0259ms\u0259mirdi v\u0259 a\u011f\u0131lla, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fsa da xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcr\u0259yind\u0259ki ehtiras q\u0131\u011f\u0131lc\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 alovland\u0131rma\u011f\u0131 bacarm\u0131rd\u0131. \u018fksin\u0259 bu onda soyuq, anla\u015f\u0131lmaz bir hiss\u0259 \u00e7evrilir v\u0259 tezlikl\u0259 hafiz\u0259sind\u0259n silinirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adilin ona qar\u015f\u0131 qoydu\u011fu qada\u011falar, q\u0131sqancl\u0131q duy\u011fular\u0131, g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi diqq\u0259t v\u0259 n\u0259vazi\u015f niy\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259ni \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xartd\u0131? Onun axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 bu deyildi mi? Adilin  S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu m\u00f6vqe d\u00fczg\u00fcn deyildi. Onun iki\u00fczl\u00fc, saxtakar davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 bu m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti u\u00e7uruma do\u011fru g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259d\u0259 kin, nifr\u0259t yaranma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131 . O ,Q\u0259ribin sa\u011flaml\u0131\u011f\u0131 namin\u0259 Adili ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 (onu m\u00fcq\u0259ssir hesab edirdi) g\u00fcman edirdi, lakin taleyin ona n\u0259l\u0259r v\u0259d etdiyind\u0259n x\u0259b\u0259rsiz idi.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adil qorxaq idimi?<\/em> Adil qorxurdu, S\u0259riyy\u0259ni itirm\u0259kd\u0259n, \u00f6z sevgisinin, ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n faci\u0259 il\u0259 bitm\u0259sind\u0259n daha \u00e7ox \u015f\u00f6hr\u0259tini, karyera h\u0259yat\u0131nda tutdu\u011fu m\u00f6vqeyini itirm\u0259kd\u0259n qorxurdu. Bu qorxu onun ruhuna da hakim k\u0259silmi\u015fdi v\u0259 o manqurt, absurd d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n xilas ola bilm\u0259di, \u00f6z\u00fc sanki \u00f6z taleyini yazd\u0131. O s\u0131rf S\u0259riyy\u0259ni \u0259ld\u0259n buraxmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn saxta v\u0259 yalan\u00e7\u0131 m\u00f6vqed\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. G\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 ba\u015f ver\u0259n hadis\u0259l\u0259r\u0259 n\u0259z\u0259r salaraq, sanki ay\u0131ld\u0131 v\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 itirm\u0259k qorxusu ya\u015fad\u0131. Onun sevgisi d\u0259, q\u0131sqancl\u0131\u011f\u0131 da \u00f6z\u00fc kimi eqoist idi, yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 buldozer\u00e7ini \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u0259k d\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131n ucundan ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi, onun h\u0259r davran\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n, atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r add\u0131m\u0131n, a\u011fl\u0131ndan ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259r d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259nin alt\u0131nda bir \u201cm\u0259n\u201d – eqo yat\u0131rd\u0131.  S\u0259riyy\u0259 d\u0259 bu eqoistik sevginin f\u0259rqind\u0259 idi. Burada m\u00f6hk\u0259m v\u0259 sevgi dolu ideal bir ail\u0259d\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Adilin bu h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti S\u0259riyy\u0259ni daha da q\u0259z\u0259bl\u0259ndirdi v\u0259 o, \u00f6z kartlar\u0131n\u0131 ortaya qoydu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adilin S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tind\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259diyi hisl\u0259rin ad\u0131 n\u0259 idi? <\/em>Adil sevirdi, lakin q\u00fcrursuz sevirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259ni he\u00e7 vaxt onu itirm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yini a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131n ucundan bel\u0259 ke\u00e7irm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k, sevirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259ni sanki canl\u0131 bir \u0259\u015fya, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 sahibkar hesab ed\u0259r\u0259k, sevirdi. Adil ona cism\u0259n yax\u0131n, q\u0259lb\u0259n uzaq idi. Adil S\u0259riyy\u0259nin \u00f6z\u00fc kimi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259sini ist\u0259yirdi, Adil \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 uy\u011fun biriyl\u0259 evl\u0259nm\u0259mi\u015fdi, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131 zavod \u00e7iling\u0259rinin q\u0131z\u0131 idi. Xan\u0131m\u0131ndan \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn ist\u0259diyi kimi davranmas\u0131n\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Buna haqq\u0131 yox idi. Fikrimizc\u0259, Adil ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 azadl\u0131q, s\u0259rb\u0259stlik verm\u0259li idi. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n, \u0259g\u0259r \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 uy\u011fun birini ist\u0259yirdis\u0259, ziyal\u0131 ail\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 ail\u0259 qura bil\u0259rdi. \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 Q\u0259ribd\u0259 g\u00fcnah axtar\u0131r, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolu kimi onu i\u015fd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259ribin yerin\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259nin qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 vaxt\u0131nda almal\u0131, s\u00f6zl\u0259 deyil d\u0259, hans\u0131sa h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259ti, atd\u0131\u011f\u0131 add\u0131m\u0131 il\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259hvini ba\u015fa salmal\u0131 idi. Adilin buldozer\u00e7inin yerini d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259si hadis\u0259l\u0259rin daha da m\u00fcr\u0259kk\u0259bl\u0259\u015fm\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131. Adil n\u0259 n\u0259cib, n\u0259 d\u0259 alic\u0259nabd\u0131r. Qad\u0131n\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 sevgi v\u0259 sahibl\u0259nm\u0259k hissini \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n d\u0259f ed\u0259 bilmir, \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 bacarm\u0131rd\u0131. Onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan el\u0259 bil indi x\u0259b\u0259r tutmu\u015fdu. G\u00fccs\u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc acizliyini ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcrd\u00fc. K\u0259nardan g\u00fcl\u00fcnc  v\u0259 istehzal\u0131 g\u00f6rs\u0259nirdi, \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolunun ayr\u0131l\u0131qda axtarsa da, q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 bu fikrind\u0259n vaz ke\u00e7di. H\u0259m karyera h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 fikirl\u0259\u015fir, h\u0259m yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fqas\u0131 il\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259mirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin buldozer\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259 olan meylini d\u0259rk edirdi. H\u0259m d\u0259 \u0259n \u0259sas\u0131 z\u0259if irad\u0259si bu sevgid\u0259n imtina etm\u0259y\u0259 imkan vermirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

G\u0259nc Adil i\u015f h\u0259yat\u0131 il\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q sal\u0131r, b\u00fct\u00fcn sevgisini i\u015fin\u0259 verir. Onu \u0259n \u00e7ox ac\u0131dan Q\u0259rib kimi \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n \u201ca\u015fa\u011f\u0131\u201d olan birin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 sevgi hisl\u0259rinin b\u0259sl\u0259nm\u0259sidir. O, insanl\u0131qla v\u0259zif\u0259ni s\u0259hv sal\u0131rd\u0131. V\u0259zif\u0259 c\u0259h\u0259td\u0259n Adil y\u00fcks\u0259kd\u0259 dura bil\u0259r, yol r\u0259isi ola bil\u0259rdi, amma \u0259fsuslar olsun ki ail\u0259sinin, evinin r\u0259isi ola bilm\u0259di, bacarmad\u0131. Q\u0259ribl\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 o a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 pill\u0259d\u0259 dururdu. Q\u0259ribin varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 bel\u0259 Adild\u0259 nifr\u0259t yaratm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 v\u0259 o yaln\u0131z Q\u0259rib\u0259 deyil, \u00f6z xan\u0131m\u0131na da \u00f6l\u00fcm arzulay\u0131rd\u0131, ba\u015fqas\u0131na , \u0259sas da Q\u0259rib kimi \u201ca\u015fa\u011f\u0131 pill\u0259li\u201d birin\u0259 sahib olmas\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirdi. Adilin etdiyi bir s\u0259hv b\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 m\u0259hv edir. Onda olmayan saf, \u00fclvi hisl\u0259r, adic\u0259 bir t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm bel\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 \u0259zab verirdi, onun \u0259s\u0259bl\u0259rin\u0259 toxunurdu. S\u0259riyy\u0259,yolda\u015f\u0131 tennis oynama\u011fa, ova ged\u0259nd\u0259 v\u0259  h\u0259tta onun \u015f\u0259rab i\u00e7m\u0259sini bil\u0259nd\u0259 he\u00e7 bir irad bildirm\u0259di. Adil S\u0259riyy\u0259nin yanl\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn d\u0259rk etm\u0259sinin ist\u0259yirdi. \u018fld\u0259 etdiyi qazanc, g\u0259lir S\u0259riyy\u0259nin yaln\u0131z qarn\u0131n\u0131 doyuzdurma\u011fa, \u0259ynini geyindirm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. B\u0259s q\u0259lbd\u0259 yaranan ehtiyac? Adilin ev\u0259 g\u0259tirdiyi qazanc m\u0259n\u0259vi ehtiyaclar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa b\u0259s etdi mi? Etm\u0259di! S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 n\u0259 \u0259r, n\u0259 pul, n\u0259 geyim, n\u0259 yem\u0259k laz\u0131m idi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259nin Q\u0259rib\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r Adil\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti nec\u0259 idi?<\/em> S\u0259riyy\u0259 Adill\u0259 birillik evlilik h\u0259yat\u0131nda ancaq \u0259rin\u0259 xidm\u0259t edib onun ya\u015fam v\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzin\u0259 uy\u011funla\u015fma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Onun h\u0259yat\u0131 yolda\u015f\u0131na h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259k, qay\u011f\u0131s\u0131na qalmaq, ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lamaqla ke\u00e7ib. O, Adill\u0259 sevgi dolu m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259t mac\u0259ralar\u0131 ya\u015faya bilm\u0259yib. H\u0259yat\u0131ndan m\u0259mnun qald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259n g\u0259nc texnik yeni bir al\u0259m\u0259 daxil olur v\u0259 \u0259sl xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyin, \u0259sl ail\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259tinin n\u0259 oldu\u011funu indi anlay\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0259ribin onunla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmas\u0131,  h\u0259yat\u0131na daxil olmas\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259ni \u0259rind\u0259n soyutmad\u0131, \u0259ksin\u0259 ba\u011fl\u0131 g\u00f6zl\u0259rinin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131nda bir vasit\u0259 rolunu oynad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adilin h\u0259yat\u0131ndak\u0131 \u0259sas planlar\u0131 n\u0259d\u0259n ibar\u0259t idi? <\/em>Adil \u00f6z taleyind\u0259n raz\u0131 idi, onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131dan g\u0259l\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k f\u0259aliyy\u0259tin t\u0259nt\u0259n\u0259si canlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Eyni zamanda Adil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6n planda ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 u\u011furlu karyera h\u0259yat\u0131 dururdu. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n i\u015f v\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131na d\u00fczg\u00fcn vaxt ay\u0131ra bilmir, bu iki m\u0259fhumu qar\u0131\u015f\u0131q san\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Adilin se\u00e7imind\u0259 etdiyi s\u0259hv n\u0259 idi ? Yoxsa \u00f6z\u00fc bu s\u0259hvin meydana g\u0259lm\u0259sind\u0259 vasit\u0259\u00e7i olmu\u015fdu? <\/em>Adil zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 se\u00e7iminin yanl\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu q\u0259na\u0259tin\u0259 g\u0259lirdi, anas\u0131n\u0131n \u201cyax\u015f\u0131 ail\u0259d\u0259n olan yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259hsil g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f q\u0131z \u201d fikirl\u0259ri onun xatir\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259z\u0259l\u0259nir, ona rahatl\u0131q vermirdi. Adil d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 \u00f6z tipin\u0259 uy\u011fun biri il\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131 qursayd\u0131, h\u0259yat\u0131n bu c\u00fcr \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259ri il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmazd\u0131. Onun S\u0259riyy\u0259 il\u0259 eyni pill\u0259d\u0259, m\u00f6vqed\u0259 olmamas\u0131 sanki Adil \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir avantaj ? oldu. Adil xan\u0131m\u0131na zor t\u0259tbiq ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi , ist\u0259yirdi ki, h\u0259r \u015feyi onun \u00f6z\u00fc anlas\u0131n, d\u0259rk etsin, ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015fs\u00fcn. Xan\u0131m\u0131 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onunla q\u00fcrur duysun. Lakin g\u0259nc r\u0259is ,k\u00fcbar, t\u0259hsilli bir ail\u0259d\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcs\u0259 d\u0259 \u0259slind\u0259 \u00f6z qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 ist\u0259diyini anlam\u0131r v\u0259 \u00f6z sevgisind\u0259 uduzur, \u0259sl m\u0259n\u0259vi itkini bu zaman ya\u015fay\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Buldozer\u00e7i sevgisi<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 \u00f6n planda ikili m\u00f6vqe tutaraq oxucu k\u00fctl\u0259sini \u00f6z gizli d\u00fcnyas\u0131 il\u0259 t\u0259sir alt\u0131na salan n\u00f6vb\u0259ti obraz Q\u0259ribdir. (Q\u0259ribcan da des\u0259k s\u0259hv etm\u0259rik) O, h\u0259rbi xidm\u0259ti yenic\u0259 ba\u015fa vurmu\u015fdu, istefaya \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f ki\u00e7ik leytenant idi.  K\u0259ndd\u0259 buldozer\u00e7i kimi \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu i\u015fd\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259kba\u015f\u0131na deyildi, onun \u00e7oxlu buldozer\u00e7i dostlar\u0131 vard\u0131.  Q\u0259ribin daxili d\u00fcnyas\u0131n\u0131 m\u00fc\u015fahid\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00e7\u0259tindir,ancaq hadis\u0259l\u0259rin inki\u015faf\u0131nda g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck ki, o, sevginin, s\u0259daq\u0259tin da\u015f\u0131y\u0131c\u0131s\u0131 kimi t\u0259msil olunur. Q\u0259ribin dilind\u0259n t\u0259hkiy\u0259 verilm\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 onun bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131nda bir v\u00fcqar, \u0259zmkarl\u0131q hissi, h\u0259r an \u00f6z sevgisin\u0259 s\u0259daq\u0259t n\u00fcmayi\u015f etdir\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k gizli bir d\u00fcnyan\u0131n m\u00f6vcudlu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcr\u00fck.  S\u0259riyy\u0259nin ona qar\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rdiyi diqq\u0259t, qay\u011f\u0131 sanki Q\u0259ribd\u0259 d\u0259 yeni hisl\u0259r yarad\u0131r. Onun s\u0259mimi olmas\u0131 f\u0259dakarl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259si (x\u0259st\u0259xanaya \u00e7atd\u0131r\u0131lmas\u0131) Q\u0259rib\u0259 t\u0259sir etdi, amma S\u0259riyy\u0259 bu c\u00fcr davranmasa idi bel\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259diyini \u0259ld\u0259 ed\u0259c\u0259kdi, Q\u0259rib\u0259 qovu\u015facaqd\u0131 . Onun yerin\u0259 Adil olsa idi, S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u0259rin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 bu c\u00fcr f\u0259dakar davranmazd\u0131. Adilin n\u0259 varl\u0131\u011f\u0131, n\u0259 d\u0259 yoxlu\u011fu onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir \u00f6n\u0259m k\u0259sb edirdi. Onun yaralanmas\u0131 bir k\u0259nara ona bir \u015fey olsa idi ,bu, h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n umrunda bel\u0259 olmazd\u0131.?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259ribl\u0259 yol r\u0259isi Adil aras\u0131nda tez-tez m\u00fcbahis\u0259l\u0259r olurdu. R\u0259isin Q\u0259ribin yerini d\u0259yi\u015fm\u0259k ist\u0259m\u0259si onda Adil\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 nifr\u0259t hissi oyatd\u0131, \u201cbomba\u201d kimi partlad\u0131. Q\u0259ribin nifr\u0259tinin artmas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259sas Adili bir ki\u015fi olaraq , aciz, qorxaq hesab etm\u0259si idi , y\u0259ni Adil h\u0259yat yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 almaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259, ac\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 Q\u0259ribd\u0259n \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, ba\u015fqa s\u00f6zl\u0259 des\u0259k, \u00f6z evin\u0259 r\u0259islik ed\u0259 bilmir, \u015f\u0259xsi m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259rl\u0259 ictimai m\u00fcnasib\u0259tl\u0259ri qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131rd\u0131. O, ilk t\u0259dbiri S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 g\u00f6rm\u0259li idi. Fikrimizc\u0259, buldozer\u00e7inin komandadan ayr\u0131lmamas\u0131, \u00f6z yerind\u0259 qalmas\u0131, briqada hey\u0259tinin ilk q\u0259l\u0259b\u0259si kimi insanlar\u0131 d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirilir, bundan sonra k\u00f6rp\u00fc s\u00fcr\u0259tl\u0259 tikilm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flad\u0131. Yol r\u0259isinin bu z\u0259hm\u0259tin\u0259 laqeyd m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti , i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r\u0259 \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259t verm\u0259m\u0259si \u0259n \u00e7ox S\u0259riyy\u0259ni \u00fcz\u00fcrd\u00fc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259rib olmasayd\u0131, S\u0259riyy\u0259 bu n\u0259vazi\u015fi, bu istiliyi ba\u015fqas\u0131na g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259rdi mi ? Ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131 se\u00e7\u0259rdi mi? <\/em>Q\u0259rib S\u0259riyy\u0259nin q\u0259lbind\u0259 yatm\u0131\u015f vulkan\u0131 oyatd\u0131, ora n\u00fcfuz etdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 anlad\u0131 ki, onun axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259sl sevgi Q\u0259ribd\u0259di,  onda \u0259sl c\u0259sar\u0259ti g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Q\u0259ribin a\u011f\u0131r da\u015f\u0131 \u015f\u00fcca\u0259tl\u0259 qald\u0131rmas\u0131  S\u0259riyy\u0259nin q\u0259lbini daha da co\u015fa g\u0259tirdi, sanki ona heyranl\u0131qla baxan g\u0259nc q\u0131za Q\u0259rib bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 c\u0259sar\u0259tli oldu\u011funu s\u00fcbut etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, g\u00f6zl\u0259ril\u0259 deyirdi ki, \u201cy\u0259ni m\u0259n s\u0259ni sevm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259 qadir\u0259m, m\u0259nd\u0259 s\u0259ni sevm\u0259k c\u0259sar\u0259ti d\u0259 var\u201d. Ba\u015fqas\u0131 olsa, eyni hisl\u0259ri o da g\u0259nc q\u0131za ya\u015fatsa idi, S\u0259riyy\u0259 yen\u0259 d\u0259 eyni add\u0131m\u0131 atard\u0131 yen\u0259 d\u0259 ged\u0259rdi. Amma \u0259sla Adil\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 f\u0259dakarl\u0131q etm\u0259z, onun c\u0259fas\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7\u0259km\u0259zdi. Q\u0259rib onu b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sevirdi ,lakin bu duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar ifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilmirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 evli bir qad\u0131nla bu c\u00fcr m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fm\u0259si m\u00fcmk\u00fcn olmaz dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, add\u0131m atmaq ist\u0259mirdi. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 sevgisin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q almamaqdan qorxurdu. Q\u0259rib ist\u0259s\u0259, S\u0259riyy\u0259 il\u0259 gizlin e\u015fq ya\u015fayar, xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131n verdiyi d\u0259y\u0259ri qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndir\u0259r, sui-istifad\u0259 ed\u0259rdi, amma Q\u0259rib daim bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 ondan yay\u0131nd\u0131r\u0131r, hisl\u0259rini gizl\u0259dirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259 Q\u0259ribi sevirdi, onun v\u00fcqar\u0131n\u0131, \u0259zmkarl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 saf sevgi hisl\u0259rini, onun h\u0259yat t\u0259rzini, g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki c\u0259sar\u0259t dolu gizli bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sevirdi. Ona b\u0259z\u0259n bu do\u011fmal\u0131q yax\u0131n tan\u0131\u015f\u0131 bel\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 halda g\u0259nc buldozer\u00e7iy\u0259 b\u0259sl\u0259diyi q\u0259rib\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259t t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u00fc g\u0259lirdi. Q\u0259ribin \u00e7\u0259tin v\u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259si , aya\u011f\u0131n\u0131n k\u0259silm\u0259sin\u0259 dair h\u0259kimin qoydu\u011fu diaqnoz onu narahat etdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 art\u0131q s\u0259ad\u0259t m\u0259fhumunu d\u0259rk etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131rd\u0131. Onun \u0259sl s\u0259ad\u0259ti buldozer\u00e7inin aya\u011fa qalxmas\u0131 idi. Q\u0259ribin ona y\u00f6n\u0259lmi\u015f \u00f6tk\u0259m bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259ni yuxudan oyatd\u0131. Ona d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n bu sevgi pay\u0131ndan hiss\u0259-hiss\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 pay g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fc v\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya ba\u015fqa g\u00f6zl\u0259 baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. Sanki g\u0259nc q\u0131z ill\u0259rdir, bu sevginin arzusunda idi. Sanki h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 onun yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi. V\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u00f6z s\u0259ad\u0259tin\u0259 qovu\u015fdu.  \u0130nsan h\u0259yat\u0131nda el\u0259 anlar ya\u015fay\u0131r, g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00f6n\u00fcnd\u0259 el\u0259 xatir\u0259l\u0259r canlan\u0131r ki, \u00f6mr\u00fc boyu o xatir\u0259l\u0259r ona \u0259zab verir, qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r \u015firin, l\u0259zz\u0259tli g\u00fcn\u0259 bir damla z\u0259h\u0259r qat\u0131r. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin el\u0259 bir xatir\u0259si yox idi . Adild\u0259n ona qalan yegan\u0259 xatir\u0259 yaln\u0131z q\u0259lbind\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdiyi iztirablard\u0131r. Onun h\u0259yat\u0131 s\u00fcnilikl\u0259, yekn\u0259s\u0259klikl\u0259 z\u0259ngin idi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 unudulmaz hesab etdiyi he\u00e7 n\u0259 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn Adild\u0259n asanl\u0131qla vaz ke\u00e7\u0259 bil\u0259rdi v\u0259 ke\u00e7di d\u0259.. H\u0259r halda \u0259s\u0259rin g\u0259nc qad\u0131n q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131 bel\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259ribl\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259nin aqib\u0259ti b\u0259lli olmasa da, fikrimizc\u0259 Q\u0259rib ona sahib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. S\u0259riyy\u0259 Q\u0259rib\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 f\u0259dakarl\u0131q g\u00f6st\u0259rmi\u015fdi. Onun S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n \u00f6nc\u0259 can borcu vard\u0131. Q\u0259rib S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 azadl\u0131q ver\u0259 bil\u0259rdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 h\u0259m azadl\u0131q ,h\u0259m d\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik axtar\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259 haql\u0131 idimi? <\/em>\u0130lyas \u018ff\u0259ndiyev S\u0259riyy\u0259 obraz\u0131n\u0131 yaratmaqla, \u0259d\u0259biyyata yenilik g\u0259tirdi. Bu obraz sosialist tipli, k\u00fcbar ail\u0259 m\u00fchitind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xm\u0131\u015f v\u0259zif\u0259li \u0259rind\u0259n imtina etdi. Bununla g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131 ki, \u0259sl ail\u0259 s\u0259ad\u0259ti n\u0259 pulda, n\u0259 d\u0259 v\u0259zif\u0259d\u0259 deyil. H\u0259qiqi sevgini bunlar\u0131n aras\u0131nda deyil, q\u0259lbd\u0259 axtarmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. S\u00f6hb\u0259t mental d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259r\u0259 vurulan z\u0259rb\u0259d\u0259n ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 n\u0259 hisl\u0259rini, n\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rini yolda\u015f\u0131ndan gizl\u0259dirdi. H\u0259tta bunu etm\u0259kd\u0259n utan\u0131r, pe\u015fman\u00e7\u0131l\u0131q \u00e7\u0259kirdi.   \u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, S\u0259riyy\u0259nin se\u00e7imi m\u00fchiti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn q\u0259buledilm\u0259z v\u0259 yolverilm\u0259z idi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131nlar\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcmumil\u0259\u015fdirilmi\u015f simas\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259riyy\u0259 s\u0131rf parazit psixologiyas\u0131 il\u0259 ya\u015fayan biri il\u0259 yollar\u0131n\u0131 \u0259b\u0259di birl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259, bu yolda add\u0131mlama\u011fa davam g\u0259tir\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi. Ona yolda\u015f\u0131 n\u0259 azadl\u0131q ,n\u0259 s\u0259rb\u0259stlik verirdi. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n o he\u00e7 vaxt arzulad\u0131\u011f\u0131 hisl\u0259ri ya\u015faya bilm\u0259di. S\u0259riyy\u0259 yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n da\u015fla\u015fm\u0131\u015f , patriarxal d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259n xilas olaraq, bu add\u0131m\u0131 atmaqda tamamil\u0259 v\u0259 qism\u0259n HAQLI idi. Adilin s\u0259hvl\u0259ri onu qism\u0259n haql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r. T\u0259bii ki, onun bu add\u0131m\u0131 Az\u0259rbaycan qad\u0131nlar\u0131na xas c\u0259h\u0259t deyildi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259k ist\u0259yirdis\u0259, \u0259ri onun k\u00f6rp\u00fcd\u0259 i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 mane ola bil\u0259rdi. Yaz\u0131\u00e7\u0131 \u00f6z q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n\u0131 haql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xardaraq, ona b\u0259ra\u0259t qazand\u0131r\u0131r v\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259nin daxili gizli psixologizmini, ona m\u0259xsus h\u0259r bir xarakterik c\u0259h\u0259ti ustal\u0131qla q\u0259l\u0259m\u0259 al\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 \u201cm\u00fcsb\u0259t q\u0259hr\u0259man\u201daxtar\u0131\u015f\u0131 v\u0259 g\u0259nc q\u0131z\u0131n ikili m\u00f6vqeyi.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259r boyu oxucular\u0131 daha \u00e7ox d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fcr\u0259n m\u00fcsb\u0259t q\u0259hr\u0259man problemidir. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin m\u00fcsb\u0259t q\u0259hr\u0259man olmas\u0131 ziddiyy\u0259tlidir. Dig\u0259r t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n onun sevgi g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259si, m\u0259n\u0259vi azadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n al\u0131nmas\u0131, yolda\u015f\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 etdiyi h\u00f6rm\u0259tsizlik v\u0259 m\u0259cburi olaraq, al\u00e7altmas\u0131d\u0131r. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259  \u0130lyas \u018ff\u0259ndiyevin \u201cK\u00f6rp\u00fcsalanlar\u201d roman\u0131nda S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259td\u0259 ikili v\u0259ziyy\u0259t yaran\u0131r.  Bizim fikrimizc\u0259, \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 \u0259sas m\u00fcsb\u0259t q\u0259hr\u0259man Adilin anas\u0131d\u0131r. Adilin anas\u0131 ali t\u0259hsilli ,d\u00fcnyag\u00f6r\u00fc\u015fl\u00fc, t\u0259cr\u00fcb\u0259li qad\u0131nd\u0131r, \u00f6vlad\u0131na ba\u011fl\u0131d\u0131r v\u0259 d\u00fcnyag\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f, m\u00fcdrik qad\u0131n ilk g\u00fcnl\u0259rd\u0259n Adill\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259 aras\u0131ndak\u0131 uy\u011funsuzlu\u011fu hiss etmi\u015f v\u0259 irad\u0131n\u0131 bildirmi\u015fdi. Onlar\u0131n bu yolda birlikd\u0259 add\u0131mlama\u011f\u0131n m\u00fcmk\u00fcns\u00fczl\u00fcy\u00fcn\u00fc v\u0259 evliliyin u\u011fursuz olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 \u0259vv\u0259lc\u0259d\u0259n duyurdu. M\u0259s\u0259l var ki,  ata-ana \u00f6vlad \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnd\u00fcr, \u00f6vlad da \u00f6z\u00fc \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Adilin anas\u0131 o\u011flunun se\u00e7imin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 yana\u015fmal\u0131 oldu. O, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259hsilli, namuslu ail\u0259nin q\u0131z\u0131 il\u0259 ail\u0259 qurmas\u0131n\u0131 arzulay\u0131rd\u0131.  S\u0259riyy\u0259 \u0259n az\u0131ndan yax\u015f\u0131 t\u0259hsil g\u00f6rs\u0259 idi, he\u00e7 me\u015f\u0259y\u0259 getm\u0259y\u0259- yolda\u015f\u0131 il\u0259 \u00e7ad\u0131rda ya\u015fama\u011fa bel\u0259 raz\u0131l\u0131q verm\u0259zdi. Anas\u0131 olacaqlar\u0131 qabaqcadan duyurdu,  buna r\u0259\u011fm\u0259n o\u011flu sevgisini se\u00e7di v\u0259 n\u0259tic\u0259 art\u0131q b\u0259lli idi.  Nec\u0259 dey\u0259rl\u0259r, \u201canas\u0131z g\u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f i\u015f danlaqs\u0131z bitm\u0259z\u201d.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Burada iki manik\u00fcr\u00e7\u00fc qad\u0131nlar\u0131 da m\u00fcsb\u0259t q\u0259hr\u0259man hesab etm\u0259k olar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259nin inqilabi \u201cx\u0259yan\u0259ti\u201d<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259nin bu add\u0131m\u0131  \u201cx\u0259yan\u0259t\u201d say\u0131l\u0131r, lakin \u201cinqilabi x\u0259yan\u0259t\u201d…\u201ca\u00e7\u0131q-a\u015fkar x\u0259yan\u0259t\u201d. Bu x\u0259yan\u0259tin \u00f6z\u0259lliyi bundan ibar\u0259tdir ki, \u015f\u0259raiti \u00f6z \u0259ri yarad\u0131r v\u0259 h\u0259tta bu \u201cx\u0259yan\u0259t\u201din\u0259 \u0259rini d\u0259 ortaq edir, motosikletin t\u0259rkin\u0259 minib Q\u0259ribi i\u015f\u0259 qaytarma\u011fa can atmas\u0131 onun \u0259rin\u0259 bir ki\u015fi kimi z\u0259rr\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u00f6rm\u0259t etm\u0259m\u0259sinin d\u0259lilidir, \u0259ri d\u0259 bu \u201cx\u0259yan\u0259t\u201d\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k olur, \u015f\u0259rik \u00e7\u0131x\u0131r, \u00d6z acizliyin\u0259 boyun \u0259yir, S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 deyil d\u0259, Q\u0259rib\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 y\u00f6n\u0259lir, yaln\u0131\u015f t\u0259dbirl\u0259r g\u00f6r\u00fcr. Buldozer\u00e7ini \u00f6z i\u015finin ba\u015f\u0131na qaytararaq, S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 rahat \u015f\u0259rait yarad\u0131r .Adil h\u0259r \u015feyin f\u0259rqind\u0259 idi v\u0259 art\u0131q o indi \u201ch\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015fdi\u201d, S\u0259riyy\u0259ni indi itir\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259yind\u0259n, onu \u0259slind\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r \u00e7ox sevdiyini anlamas\u0131 v\u0259 ondan vaz ge\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259sind\u0259n qorxurdu , onun do\u011fru add\u0131mlar atmamas\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259ni ondan daha da uzaqla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131 ,o \u00f6z xan\u0131m\u0131na mane olmaq \u0259v\u0259zin\u0259 Q\u0259ribi k\u0259narla\u015fd\u0131rmaq ist\u0259di v\u0259 bu da ona baha-ba\u015fa g\u0259ldi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259-Adil kontrast\u0131<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 \u201cAil\u0259\u201dd\u0259 yaranan soyuq m\u00fcnasib\u0259t Adilin sanki b\u00fct\u00fcn damarlar\u0131na kimi i\u015fl\u0259mi\u015f, qan\u0131n\u0131 dondurmu\u015fdu. Q\u0259lbind\u0259 k\u00fcl\u0259kl\u0259r \u0259sir ,boranlar qopurdu, o indi \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirdi v\u0259 bunu indi anlay\u0131rd\u0131, ancaq h\u0259r \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox gec idi.  Bu q\u0259hr\u0259man\u0131n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 t\u0259rzi, daxili t\u0259lat\u00fcml\u0259ri, ke\u00e7irdiyi b\u00f6hranl\u0131 v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti onu Kareni (Tolstoy \u201cAnna Karenina\u201d)obraz\u0131 il\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131r\u0131r: h\u0259r ikisi qad\u0131n x\u0259yan\u0259tinin g\u00fcnahkarlar\u0131d\u0131r; iztirab i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 q\u0131vr\u0131l\u0131r, \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kirl\u0259r; \u00f6z sevdikl\u0259ri qad\u0131na \u00f6l\u00fcm arzulay\u0131r; \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t h\u0259v\u0259skar\u0131 olur, karyera qurban\u0131na \u00e7evrilir, n\u0259tic\u0259d\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131ndan m\u0259hrum olurlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259s\u0259, yaxud Q\u0259ribcana rast g\u0259lm\u0259s\u0259, o zaman nec\u0259 davranard\u0131? Adili yen\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259rk ed\u0259rdi<\/em>? G\u0259nc q\u0131z \u0259g\u0259r eyni duy\u011fular\u0131 ya\u015fasayd\u0131 ,axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131 xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyi ona b\u0259x\u015f ed\u0259 bil\u0259c\u0259k biri il\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fsayd\u0131, o yen\u0259 d\u0259 bu add\u0131m\u0131 at\u0131rd\u0131 . O bunun \u00e7\u0131x\u0131\u015f yolunu tapar v\u0259 bu yalan\u00e7\u0131 m\u00fchitd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fard\u0131 . Onun \u00f6vlad\u0131 bel\u0259 olsa idi, o i\u015fl\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 idi, yen\u0259 d\u0259 ged\u0259rdi. Ona n\u0259 ail\u0259 ,n\u0259 \u0259r, n\u0259 \u00f6vlad ,n\u0259 u\u011furlu karyera h\u0259yat\u0131 laz\u0131m idi. O Adilin maddi z\u0259nginliyin\u0259 aldan\u0131b g\u0259lmi\u015fdi , sonradan d\u0259rk etdi ki, h\u0259r \u015fey pulda deyilmi\u015f, Adilin m\u0259n\u0259viyyat\u0131 kas\u0131b idi v\u0259 zaman ke\u00e7dikc\u0259 pula, var-d\u00f6vl\u0259t\u0259 olan sevgisi bitir, \u0259sl z\u0259nginliyi anlay\u0131r. O ,sevgi q\u0131tl\u0131\u011f\u0131,  bolluq i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 acl\u0131q ya\u015fay\u0131rd\u0131, m\u0259n\u0259vi ehtiyaclar\u0131n\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lama\u011fa can atan birini axtar\u0131rd\u0131.  Adil is\u0259 i\u015f h\u0259yat\u0131 il\u0259 ail\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259hv sald\u0131, sevgisin\u0259 n\u0259 vaxt ay\u0131ra bildi ,n\u0259 d\u0259 bunu qad\u0131n\u0131na hiss el\u0259tdir\u0259 bildi.  B\u00fct\u00fcn fikrini, enerjisini v\u0259zif\u0259sin\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259ltdi v\u0259 bu da onun ail\u0259 faci\u0259sin\u0259 g\u0259tirib \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

S\u0259riyy\u0259nin Adili sevm\u0259sin\u0259 Adilin \u00f6z\u00fc izn verm\u0259di, o buna \u015f\u0259rait yaratmad\u0131,  xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 saymad\u0131, onun varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan x\u0259b\u0259rsiz oldu. qoymad\u0131 S\u0259riyy\u0259 onu sev\u0259, ona q\u0259lbi isin\u0259 ,xan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 pulun, v\u0259zif\u0259nin \u0259sirin\u0259, oyunca\u011f\u0131na \u00e7evirdi, onun robot, cans\u0131z bir \u0259\u015fya kimi davranmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259di, daim bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259ril\u0259 onu t\u0259qib etdi, ona s\u0259rb\u0259stlik verm\u0259di. S\u0259riyy\u0259nin q\u0259lbi \u0259sar\u0259t alt\u0131nda idi. O, bu buxovdan azad olmaq ist\u0259yirdi. S\u0259riyy\u0259 x\u0259yallar al\u0259min\u0259 qap\u0131lm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik h\u0259yat\u0131ndan dan\u0131\u015fan zaman yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n ona adi g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fc absurd g\u0259lmi\u015fdi, b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 bunu q\u0259lbind\u0259 q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi, Adilin s\u0259hvi ilk n\u00f6vb\u0259d\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 uy\u011fun birini tapmamas\u0131 , \u00f6z d\u0259ngind\u0259 olmamas\u0131 sevgisin\u0259 aldan\u0131b onun arxas\u0131nca getm\u0259si idi. Dig\u0259r \u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259hvi S\u0259riyy\u0259 kimi cavan, h\u0259l\u0259 p\u00fcxt\u0259l\u0259\u015fm\u0259mi\u015f bir qad\u0131n\u0131 me\u015f\u0259d\u0259 3 ki\u015finin aras\u0131nda buraxma\u011f\u0131 idi.  Qa\u00e7aq N\u0259bi-H\u0259c\u0259r m\u0259h\u0259bb\u0259ti dill\u0259r dastan\u0131d\u0131r , baxmayaraq ki H\u0259c\u0259r o q\u0259d\u0259r ki\u015finin i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 ba\u015f \u00e7\u0131xard\u0131r, daim \u0259rin\u0259 d\u0259st\u0259k olurdu, ancaq N\u0259bi Adill\u0259 m\u00fcqayis\u0259d\u0259 h\u0259r zaman yolda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131nda olub. Adil is\u0259 \u00f6z namusunu deyil, i\u015fini d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc v\u0259 bunun qurban\u0131 oldu, q\u0131sqansa da bunu a\u00e7\u0131q \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 bildirmirdi, \u00e7\u00fcnki o q\u0259tiyy\u0259tsiz idi, qad\u0131n\u0131n\u0131 itir\u0259nd\u0259n sonra onun d\u0259y\u0259rini anlay\u0131r ,\u00e7ox pe\u015fman olurdu.  O h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z al\u0259mind\u0259 sa\u011flam v\u0259 m\u00f6hk\u0259m ail\u0259 yaratma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 haqq da qazand\u0131r\u0131r, g\u00fcnah\u0131n\u0131n n\u0259 oldu\u011funu anlaya bilmir v\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u201cniy\u0259\u201d suallar\u0131 il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa qal\u0131rd\u0131. \u00d6z d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda ail\u0259sinin maddi v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Dig\u0259 t\u0259r\u0259fd\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259vi v\u0259ziyy\u0259tini k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259 saxlay\u0131rd\u0131. Sevgi v\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259ti biz saxs\u0131 qabdak\u0131 dib\u00e7\u0259k g\u00fcll\u0259r\u0259 b\u0259nz\u0259dirik, g\u00fcl solmu\u015fsa ,diqq\u0259t etm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r ki, b\u0259lk\u0259 saxs\u0131 qab s\u0131n\u0131b, suyu saxlaya bilmir .Eyni zamanda arada h\u00f6rm\u0259t, p\u0259rd\u0259 qalmayandan sonra sevgid\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t ged\u0259 bilm\u0259zdi.  \u018fg\u0259r sevgi t\u00fck\u0259nmi\u015fs\u0259, qad\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6rd divar aras\u0131nda saxlasan da o ged\u0259c\u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Epizodik q\u0259hr\u0259manlar.<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Q\u0259ribd\u0259n ba\u015fqa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan dig\u0259r buldozer\u00e7il\u0259r- Soltan v\u0259 K\u0259r\u0259mxan da birlikd\u0259 \u00e7iyin-\u00e7iyin\u0259 ver\u0259r\u0259k, isti havada t\u0259r t\u00f6k\u00fcr, \u0259ziyy\u0259t\u0259 qatla\u015f\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fck bir k\u00f6rp\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc tikintisini yekunla\u015fd\u0131rma\u011fa s\u0259y g\u00f6st\u0259rirdil\u0259r. Aralar\u0131nda ara-s\u0131ra x\u0131rda konfliktl\u0259r d\u0259 yaran\u0131rd\u0131.  Buna baxmayaraq, bu \u00fc\u00e7 yolda\u015f\u0131 birl\u0259\u015fdir\u0259n ortaq c\u0259h\u0259tl\u0259ri d\u0259 vard\u0131: z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015f, \u00e7al\u0131\u015fqan, pul, \u015fan-\u015f\u00f6hr\u0259t h\u0259v\u0259skar\u0131 olmamaq, \u0259zmkarl\u0131q.  \u00d6z halal z\u0259hm\u0259tl\u0259ril\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan z\u0259hm\u0259tke\u015f i\u015f\u00e7il\u0259r \u0259s\u0259r boyu diqq\u0259ti \u00e7\u0259kir. Bu m\u00fchitd\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc rahat v\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss ed\u0259n S\u0259riyy\u0259 d\u0259 kollektivin bir hiss\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7evrilir v\u0259 \u00e7iyin-\u00e7iyin\u0259 \u201ck\u00f6rp\u00fcsalanlar\u201d- Soltan ,K\u0259r\u0259mxan, Q\u0259ribcan v\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259 Zo\u011fall\u0131 k\u00f6rp\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc salma\u011fa m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259q olurlar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rd\u0259 dig\u0259r qad\u0131n obrazlar\u0131 i\u00e7\u0259risind\u0259 iki manik\u00fcr\u00e7\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 qeyd ed\u0259 bil\u0259rik. Ana-bala olan bu xan\u0131mlar \u0259s\u0259rd\u0259 pozitiv davran\u0131\u015flar\u0131 il\u0259 yadda qal\u0131r. Onlar humanist, m\u00fcsb\u0259t m\u00f6vqed\u0259 dayan\u0131rlar.  S\u0259riyy\u0259 onlar\u0131n yan\u0131nda \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc rahat hiss edir ,onun d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fc bu yeni m\u00fchitd\u0259ki safl\u0131q, d\u00fcr\u00fcstl\u00fck h\u0259yat\u0131nda yenilik yarad\u0131r. Onlarla yenic\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f olma\u011f\u0131na baxmayaraq, S\u0259riyy\u0259 q\u0131sa m\u00fcdd\u0259td\u0259 tan\u0131\u015f oldu\u011fu xan\u0131mlara , al\u0131\u015f\u0131r v\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259r verir. S\u0259riyy\u0259d\u0259n f\u0259rqli olaraq, bu qad\u0131nlar onu xo\u015fb\u0259xt hesab edir, \u0259rini t\u0259rifl\u0259yirl\u0259r, lakin S\u0259riyy\u0259nin daxili i\u00e7 d\u00fcnyas\u0131ndan agah deyill\u0259r. Adilin bel\u0259 \u201cucuz\u201d insanlardan t\u0259rif e\u015fitdiyini dem\u0259si S\u0259riyy\u0259y\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lir, ona getdikc\u0259 nifr\u0259t etm\u0259y\u0259 ba\u015flay\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rin ideya x\u0259tti<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Qad\u0131nla inc\u0259 r\u0259ftar etm\u0259k ,onun duy\u011fular\u0131n\u0131 anlamaq ,onu saymaq, hisl\u0259rin\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 yana\u015fmaq v\u0259 bunu d\u00fczg\u00fcn qiym\u0259tl\u0259ndirm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r, eyni zamanda kobud olmamaq v\u0259 sevdiyin qad\u0131na xan\u0131m\u0131n, \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131n anas\u0131 kimi d\u0259y\u0259r verm\u0259k g\u0259r\u0259kdir. Qad\u0131n h\u0259r \u015feyi yolda\u015f\u0131na ba\u011f\u0131\u015flayar, h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 g\u00fcz\u0259\u015ft ed\u0259r, ancaq yad ,soyuq m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti, diqq\u0259tsizliyi, sevgisizliyi \u0259sla ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamaz.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u018fs\u0259rin simvolikas\u0131<\/strong>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Bizim fikrimizc\u0259 S\u0259riyy\u0259 il\u0259 buldozer\u00e7il\u0259rin, x\u00fcsusil\u0259 d\u0259 Q\u0259ribin tikdiyi bu k\u00f6rp\u00fc, sanki onlar\u0131n m\u00fcnasib\u0259ti aras\u0131nda bir \u201ck\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201d rolunu oynad\u0131.  Onlar bu k\u00f6rp\u00fcn\u00fc tikm\u0259kl\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r h\u0259m d\u0259 aralar\u0131nda m\u00f6hk\u0259m bir \u201ck\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201d yaratd\u0131lar v\u0259 he\u00e7 bir q\u00fcvv\u0259 bu \u201ck\u00f6rp\u00fc\u201dn\u00fc da\u011f\u0131tma\u011fa m\u00fcv\u0259ff\u0259q ola bilm\u0259di.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

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