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Jal\u0259 \u0130slam, \u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d<\/h1>\n\n\n\n

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S\u0259h\u0259r saat: 08.00<\/strong><\/h2>\n\n\n\n

Beyin:<\/strong> Soru\u015fmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131ram, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131r. Onu bilir\u0259m ki, s\u0259ni yeyib bitir\u0259n h\u0259r n\u0259dirs\u0259, m\u0259ni yoracaq. Dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 olub?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>\u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn xatirin\u0259 hal\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fursansa, he\u00e7 soru\u015fmama\u011f\u0131n daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259ni yorma\u011f\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 olan m\u0259qama g\u0259ls\u0259k, m\u0259nim yaralar\u0131m\u0131n birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 be\u015fini qoyub yenid\u0259n \u0259zab\u0131ma \u0259zab qatan s\u0259ns\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>B\u0259sdi d\u0259, s\u0259ni art\u0131q anlaya bilmir\u0259m. Niy\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc haql\u0131 \u00e7\u0131xarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259lind\u0259n g\u0259l\u0259ni edirs\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>M\u0259n\u0259 dey\u0259n\u0259 bax, s\u0259n sanki he\u00e7 etmirs\u0259n? H\u0259m s\u0259n m\u0259ni qara d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rinl\u0259 doldurmasan, \u00f6z\u00fcm \u00f6z yaralar\u0131m\u0131 sa\u011falda bil\u0259r\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin:<\/strong> Ay yaz\u0131q, s\u0259nin ba\u015fqas\u0131n\u0131n fikirl\u0259rin\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n varsa v\u0259 \u00f6z q\u0259rarlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcn q\u0259bul ed\u0259 bilmirs\u0259ns\u0259, bu olanlarda m\u0259nim g\u00fcnah\u0131m n\u0259dir?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>Ay Allah, s\u0259n m\u0259nim d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcy\u00fcm v\u0259ziyy\u0259ti g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259n?!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Allah s\u0259n\u0259 n\u0259 ed\u0259 bil\u0259r ki? S\u0259n onun s\u0259n\u0259 b\u0259x\u015f etdiyi he\u00e7 n\u0259yi laz\u0131ml\u0131 yerd\u0259 v\u0259 d\u00fczg\u00fcn istifad\u0259 ed\u0259 bilmirs\u0259n. \u018fn sonda da ad\u0131n\u0131 qoyursan ki, s\u0259ns\u0259n g\u00fcnahkar. Saf tapm\u0131san d\u0259!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k:<\/strong> N\u0259? S\u0259ns\u0259n saf olan?! S\u0259n m\u0259nim il\u0259 h\u0259r g\u00fcn min dild\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan. Ke\u00e7\u0259n d\u0259f\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 ki\u00e7ik bir m\u00f6vzu dedim, b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb da\u011f boyda el\u0259din. O q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259kmi\u015f\u0259m ki, yaz\u0131q sahibim\u0259 gec\u0259 yatma\u011fa bel\u0259 icaz\u0259 verm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin:<\/strong> M\u0259n\u0259m min dild\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fan?! \u018fg\u0259r el\u0259y\u0259ms\u0259, onda m\u0259ni niy\u0259 dinl\u0259yirs\u0259n? Ayr\u0131ca m\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt s\u0259nin d\u0259rdl\u0259rin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pis fikirl\u0259r ir\u0259li s\u00fcrm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. H\u0259r problemd\u0259 a\u011f\u0131la g\u0259lm\u0259li olan ba\u015fl\u0131ca m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri s\u0259ninl\u0259 b\u00f6l\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f\u0259m. S\u0259n is\u0259 oturub ham\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb d\u0259li olmusan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>Ba\u015fl\u0131ca m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259l\u0259ri s\u00f6yl\u0259yirmi\u015f, yox bir. Bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 son a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259l\u0259ni s\u00f6yl\u0259, qorxma \u00f6lm\u0259zs\u0259n. Arada bir qay\u011f\u0131ma qal, \u00e7\u00fcnki m\u0259n\u0259 bir \u015fey olsa, s\u0259nin d\u0259 sonunu g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Deyirl\u0259r ki, d\u0259rd sahibl\u0259ri uzun ya\u015fay\u0131r. D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc yorma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015fma, el\u0259 \u0259lav\u0259 bir s\u0259b\u0259bi yoxdur. D\u0259rd d\u00fc\u00e7ar oldu\u011fu qulunu b\u00fct\u00fcn varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 il\u0259 sevib, onun od-oca\u011f\u0131na hakim k\u0259sil\u0259n v\u0259 onu \u0259b\u0259di t\u0259k qoymayan yegan\u0259 m\u0259fhumdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>Bunu  kim deyir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>M\u0259n!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k:<\/strong> S\u0259feh, bo\u015fbo\u011faz!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>\u00d6z\u00fcns\u0259n!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>\u018fsla…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin:<\/strong> Bundan sonra s\u0259nin i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fan nam\u0259rddir. \u00d6z\u00fcn \u00f6z hal\u0131na \u00e7ar\u0259 tap. Bel\u0259 d\u0259 ki, m\u0259nim kims\u0259y\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m yoxdur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k:<\/strong> M\u0259nim d\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131m yoxdur. Xo\u015f getdin!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>S\u0259n d\u0259 xo\u015f getdin!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ax\u015fam saat: 23.59<\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>M\u0259n\u0259 bax, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bis\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>Dey\u0259s\u0259n, mil\u00e7\u0259k s\u0259si e\u015fidir\u0259m. Yox, m\u0259nc\u0259, mil\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 haqs\u0131zl\u0131q edir\u0259m, \u00e7\u00fcnki bu s\u0259s tonu onu ifad\u0259 edir ki, onun \u015f\u00fcuru h\u0259min h\u0259\u015f\u0259rat\u0131n bel\u0259 \u015f\u00fcurundan k\u00f6lg\u0259d\u0259 qal\u0131r. S\u0259ni da\u015f\u0131yan\u0131n m\u0259hz bu s\u0259fehliyinin s\u0259b\u0259bind\u0259n hal\u0131m hal deyil.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Ey! M\u0259nim fikrimc\u0259 bu q\u0259d\u0259r uzatma\u011f\u0131n he\u00e7 bir m\u0259nas\u0131 yoxdur. Ax\u0131 bel\u0259 n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r davam ed\u0259 bil\u0259r ki?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>Ayd\u0131n oldu, s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 rahat yatma\u011fa imkan verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. N\u0259 ist\u0259yirs\u0259n, onu de!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>M\u0259n s\u0259nd\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan ba\u015fqa n\u0259 ist\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m ki? \u00d6z i\u00e7imd\u0259 hiss etdim ki, s\u0259nin m\u0259nim k\u00f6m\u0259yim\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131n var. S\u0259n yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n ki, m\u0259n laqeyd bir dost deyil\u0259m. Taleyimiz o q\u0259d\u0259r q\u0259rib\u0259dir ki, girdiyimiz qap\u0131dan birlikd\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xaca\u011f\u0131q.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>H\u0259r n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r m\u0259nas\u0131ndak\u0131 d\u0259rinlik its\u0259 d\u0259, dost d\u0259y\u0259rli bir k\u0259lim\u0259dir. Az \u0259vv\u0259l \u00f6l\u00fcm m\u0259s\u0259l\u0259sin\u0259 toxundun. \u0130nsanlar\u0131 bir u\u00e7urum, yaxud bir q\u0259za d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259nl\u0259ri il\u0259 birg\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259min qap\u0131dan \u00e7\u0131xara bil\u0259r. Biz\u0259 d\u0259 bel\u0259 olacaq, ona g\u00f6r\u0259 ki, d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 v\u0259 hissl\u0259rini bir -birin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259n ed\u0259n insan \u00f6z-\u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259ndir.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>\u018flb\u0259tt\u0259, b\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 bir an  olur ki, d\u00f6z\u0259 bilm\u0259diyin, s\u0259ni yand\u0131ran b\u00fct\u00fcn hissl\u0259rini bir n\u0259f\u0259rd\u0259 s\u00f6nd\u00fcrm\u0259k ist\u0259yirs\u0259n v\u0259 el\u0259 o an a\u011fl\u0131na yegan\u0259 insan g\u0259lir. Ona inan\u0131rsan, g\u00fcv\u0259nirs\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n ki, dilind\u0259ki bir damla su il\u0259 s\u0259ni f\u0259rahladar, lakin b\u0259z\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey ist\u0259diyin kimi olmur. S\u0259nin ruhunu he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n k\u00fcl\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259n, \u0259n sevdikl\u0259rin olur.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>\u018fv\u0259zsiz olan, s\u0259n\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc xo\u015fb\u0259xt hiss etdir\u0259n h\u0259r \u015fey bir g\u00fcn getm\u0259y\u0259 m\u0259cburdur. Pe\u015fman olmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, b\u0259lk\u0259l\u0259rl\u0259 ya\u015famaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn, lap el\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc s\u0259n\u0259 tan\u0131tmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bunlar sad\u0259c\u0259 bir imtahand\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, bu s\u00f6yl\u0259dikl\u0259rin biz\u0259 n\u0259yi is\u0259 \u00f6yr\u0259tm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131r. Art\u0131q bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son parlayan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fdir, ke\u00e7\u0259n h\u0259ft\u0259 bizim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn son d\u0259f\u0259 ya\u011fmur ya\u011fd\u0131, \u0259n son ke\u00e7\u0259n il g\u00f6yqur\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fck v\u0259 bu s\u00f6zl\u0259ri s\u0259n\u0259 son d\u0259f\u0259 deyir\u0259m… M\u0259ni son d\u0259f\u0259 diqq\u0259tl\u0259 dinl\u0259m\u0259yini xahi\u015f edir\u0259m: \u0130kimiz d\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 eyni s\u0259mt\u0259 baxd\u0131q. \u201cF\u0259q\u0259t hans\u0131m\u0131z\u0131n g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 canlanan m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259 daha parlaq oldu?\u201d -bax bu, b\u00f6y\u00fck m\u00fc\u0259mmad\u0131r. Baxd\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z o s\u0259mtd\u0259 n\u0259 ba\u015f verdi? \u00d6z\u00fcn\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun he\u00e7 bu sual\u0131 vermis\u0259n? D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, cavab m\u0259nd\u0259 \u00e7oxdan haz\u0131rd\u0131r. Biz eyni s\u0259mt\u0259 bax\u0131b f\u0259rqli m\u0259nz\u0259r\u0259l\u0259ri g\u00f6r\u0259rk\u0259n eyni suallar\u0131 i\u00e7imizd\u0259 bo\u011facaq q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011f\u0131r ruhlu olduq. Ola bil\u0259r ki, s\u0259n m\u0259n deyildin v\u0259 m\u0259n d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt s\u0259n olma\u011f\u0131 bacara bilm\u0259dim, amma i\u00e7imizd\u0259 olan b\u00fct\u00fcn suallar bizi h\u0259r zaman eyni m\u00f6vqed\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131-qar\u015f\u0131ya g\u0259tirdi. V\u0259 bu, sad\u0259c\u0259 biz\u0259 \u015famil olmayacaq. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259n bel\u0259 z\u0259nn etmis\u0259ns\u0259, \u00e7ox yan\u0131l\u0131rsan.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k:<\/strong> B\u0259s b\u00fct\u00fcn bu olanlarda \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fcnahkar hesab etm\u0259liy\u0259m? Ax\u0131 bir n\u0259f\u0259r g\u00fcnahkar olmal\u0131d\u0131r. M\u0259n\u0259 \u0259n son n\u0259 vaxt birlikd\u0259 q\u0259rar verdiyimizi s\u00f6yl\u0259y\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>B\u00fct\u00fcn bu suallara cavab axtarmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn s\u0259nc\u0259 d\u0259 art\u0131q gec deyilmi? \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn bu \u00e7a\u011f\u0131nda, zahirin q\u0131r\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fk\u0259n, ruhunu d\u0259rin bir qorxu \u0259sir alm\u0131\u015fk\u0259n v\u0259 \u0259n \u00f6n\u0259mlisi, s\u0259n\u0259 ged\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar\u0131n ba\u011flanmas\u0131na \u00e7ox az bir vaxt qalm\u0131\u015fk\u0259n gecikmi\u015f cavablar\u0131n\u0131 dinl\u0259m\u0259yi \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 r\u0259va bilmir\u0259m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>\u00d6z\u00fcm d\u0259 uduzdu\u011fumun, art\u0131q m\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r \u015feyin gec oldu\u011funun, yolun tamamil\u0259 sonunda oldu\u011fumun f\u0259rqind\u0259y\u0259m. Onu \u00e7ox incitdil\u0259r, el\u0259 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n d\u0259 o da m\u0259ni yaralama\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7di. Az sonra ona i\u00e7imd\u0259 olan b\u00fct\u00fcn suallarla, m\u0259ni vahim\u0259y\u0259 salan qorxular\u0131mla, susdu\u011fum b\u00fct\u00fcn haqs\u0131zl\u0131qlar\u0131n yara izl\u0259ri il\u0259 vida ed\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. Yanl\u0131\u015f se\u00e7iml\u0259ri m\u0259hz indi onu bir ip kimi \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n as\u0131r. Bu \u00f6l\u00fcm bir intihardan daha a\u011f\u0131r olacaq, bunu hiss edir\u0259m. El\u0259 m\u0259hz bu an s\u0259nin d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 g\u0259zin\u0259n ilk sual n\u0259dir?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Bu sual\u0131 e\u015fitm\u0259k ist\u0259diyin\u0259 \u0259mins\u0259n?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>D\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcr\u0259m ki, art\u0131q \u0259min olub, ya da olmama\u011f\u0131m\u0131n he\u00e7 bir \u0259h\u0259miyy\u0259ti yoxdur. Buna haz\u0131ram.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Deyir ki, h\u0259yatda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z b\u00fct\u00fcn pis v\u0259 ya yax\u015f\u0131 hadis\u0259l\u0259r Tanr\u0131n\u0131n se\u00e7iml\u0259ri oldu\u011fu t\u0259qdird\u0259, bir qulun al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131na yaz\u0131lan intihar\u0131 ya\u015famas\u0131 ax\u0131 nec\u0259 g\u00fcnah ola bil\u0259r? H\u0259r \u015feyi yerl\u0259 yeksan etm\u0259y\u0259 qadir olan UCA YARADAN\u2019IN m\u0259hz bir qulunun ayaqlar\u0131 alt\u0131ndak\u0131 ki\u00e7ik bir k\u0259tili saxlama\u011fam\u0131, yoxsa onun bo\u011faz\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6z \u0259lin\u0259 alan m\u0259nfur ipi qoparma\u011fam\u0131 g\u00fcc\u00fc yetmir? \u018fg\u0259r bu bir h\u0259yat oyunu deyils\u0259, niy\u0259 ya\u015fama\u011fa m\u0259cburuq? \u00c7ox maraql\u0131d\u0131r,  b\u00fct\u00fcn bunlara ver\u0259c\u0259k hans\u0131sa bir cavab\u0131n varm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>M\u0259n cavab verm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn deyil, i\u00e7imd\u0259 ya\u015fad\u0131b b\u00f6y\u00fctm\u0259k v\u0259 daha da \u00e7ox \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc m\u0259hv etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yaranm\u0131\u015fam… Dey\u0259s\u0259n, art\u0131q yava\u015f-yava\u015f t\u0259slim oluram. \u018fg\u0259r s\u0259nin g\u00fcc\u00fcn \u00e7at\u0131rsa, \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259nim onu he\u00e7 vaxt ba\u011f\u0131\u015flamayaca\u011f\u0131m d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini \u0259k.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>Bel\u0259 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr\u0259m ki, bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 s\u0259n intihar etm\u0259k fikrind\u0259s\u0259n. B\u0259lk\u0259, s\u0259ninl\u0259 payla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131m b\u00fct\u00fcn sirl\u0259r \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259ni d\u0259 yox etm\u0259yi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrs\u0259n? El\u0259di, ay q\u0131sqanc?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>S\u0259n nec\u0259 qa\u00e7maq laz\u0131md\u0131r \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131 bilirs\u0259n. M\u0259nim \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn is\u0259 narahat olma\u011f\u0131n \u0259sass\u0131zd\u0131r, k\u0259d\u0259r orta\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>B\u0259sdi g\u00f6r\u0259k, ay s\u0259feh.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>…………..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Beyin: <\/strong>N\u0259 tez getdin? Bir d\u0259… bir d\u0259 ki…. onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn m\u0259nd\u0259ki son d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259si s\u0259nin ad\u0131na h\u0259kk olunan b\u00f6y\u00fck bir pe\u015fmanl\u0131qd\u0131r. O, s\u0259n\u0259 ya\u015fatd\u0131\u011f\u0131 h\u0259r \u015fey \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox……..<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u00dcr\u0259k: <\/strong>…………!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Yeni g\u00fcn\u0259 salam olsun, bit\u0259n g\u00fcn is\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 b\u0259rab\u0259r bir \u00e7ox \u0259zab\u0131, sevinci, k\u0259d\u0259rin yan\u0131ql\u0131 toxumlar\u0131n\u0131 k\u00fcl\u0259 \u00e7evirdi. Art\u0131q \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259r daha h\u0259zin h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259t edir, saniy\u0259l\u0259r \u0259zab\u0131n h\u00f6km\u00fc alt\u0131nda s\u00fcr\u00fcn\u00fcr, d\u0259qiq\u0259l\u0259r ax\u0131na qar\u015f\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259n g\u0259mi t\u0259k g\u00fcc\u00fcn\u00fcn t\u0259k\u0259bb\u00fcr\u00fc \u0259lind\u0259 oyunca\u011fa \u00e7evrilir, saatlar is\u0259 \u00f6z h\u00f6km\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7oxdan verirdi. Kiml\u0259rs\u0259 yeni g\u00fcn\u00fcn do\u011fan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7ark\u0259n, b\u0259zil\u0259rini d\u0259 d\u00fcn\u0259nin batan g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fi \u00f6z\u00fc il\u0259 birlikd\u0259 \u00e7oxdan tarix etmi\u015fdi. G\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259rin bir s\u00fckutla \u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259n asiman g\u00fcn\u00fc b\u00f6y\u00fck s\u0259s-k\u00fcyl\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131lay\u0131rd\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259s bir-birinin r\u00fczgar\u0131 il\u0259 f\u0259rqli diyarlara s\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nirdi v\u0259 daha sonra al\u0131\u015fd\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u0259sk\u0259ni unudub yenid\u0259n q\u0259d\u0259m qoyduqlar\u0131 h\u0259yata al\u0131\u015fmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qal\u0131rd\u0131lar. D\u00fcn\u0259nd\u0259n qalan cavabs\u0131z suallar he\u00e7 kimin maraq dair\u0259sin\u0259 daxil bel\u0259 deyildi. S\u0259man\u0131 a\u011fu\u015funa alan qara buludlar g\u00fcnd\u00fcz\u00fc gec\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7evir\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r g\u00fccl\u00fc idil\u0259r. Yolun m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259n uzun bir karvan ke\u00e7irdi. Onlar \u00e7iyinl\u0259rind\u0259 \u00e7oxdand\u0131r axtard\u0131qlar\u0131 vicdanlar\u0131n\u0131 son m\u0259nzilin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131rma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. B\u0259zil\u0259ri qara geyimd\u0259, b\u0259zil\u0259rinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 qara eyn\u0259k, b\u0259zil\u0259rinin \u0259lind\u0259 yalandan bir \u0259sa v\u0259 yaln\u0131z bir ne\u00e7\u0259sinin g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259ri bariz g\u00f6r\u0259 bilirdim. Bu kas\u0131b insan karvan\u0131 h\u0259r birinin vicdan\u0131ndan bir par\u00e7a da\u015f\u0131yan tabutu g\u00f6m\u0259c\u0259k bo\u015f torpa\u011f\u0131 tapa bilmirdi. \u018fll\u0259ri havaya a\u00e7\u0131lm\u0131\u015f, g\u00f6zl\u0259ri il\u0259 bizi bir \u00f6l\u00e7\u00fcb min bi\u00e7\u0259n \u015f\u0259xs is\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7is\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n ya\u011fmur d\u0259n\u0259cikl\u0259rini silm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259 b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn r\u0259qs etdirirdi. \u018fll\u0259ri \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6rts\u0259 bel\u0259, ruhundak\u0131 etinas\u0131zl\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00f6rtm\u0259y\u0259 onlar da \u00e7ar\u0259siz idi. V\u0259… \u0259n sonda h\u0259r k\u0259s nizama d\u00fcz\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f \u0259sg\u0259rl\u0259r kimi eyni anda \u0259ks istiqam\u0259t\u0259 y\u00f6n\u0259lirdil\u0259r. \u00c7\u0131x\u0131\u015f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131 onlar\u0131 qar\u015f\u0131lamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259r iki qolunu b\u00fcsb\u00fct\u00fcn a\u00e7araq iki ayaql\u0131 heyvan s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6zl\u0259yirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

 S\u0259ssiz v\u0259 yaramaz bax\u0131\u015flardan uzaq bir h\u0259yat s\u0259ni a\u011fu\u015funa \u00e7oxdan alm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Art\u0131q s\u0259ni onlara xat\u0131rladan bir t\u0259k yeni qaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f isti torpa\u011f\u0131na sanc\u0131lan taxta par\u00e7as\u0131 idi. \u00dcz\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fin do\u011fu\u015fu v\u0259 bat\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131n dumanl\u0131 tarixl\u0259ri h\u0259kk olunmu\u015fdu v\u0259 \u0259n sevm\u0259diyim s\u0259kkiz r\u0259q\u0259mini d\u0259 el\u0259 bu taxta yata\u011fa uzatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131lar. Bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131m el\u0259 hey birotaql\u0131, r\u00fctub\u0259tli evimin a\u00e7\u0131q p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259si il\u0259 aras\u0131na uzun bir yol in\u015fa edirdi. Bir zamanlar da\u015fdan m\u00f6hr\u00fc qoyulan bu s\u0259ssiz insan s\u00fcr\u00fcs\u00fcn\u0259 o h\u0259min p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n bax\u0131rd\u0131m. \u0130ndi is\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r pay\u0131z k\u00fcl\u0259yinin t\u0259siri il\u0259 r\u0259qs ed\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259min qiyaf\u0259si onun tam arxas\u0131na iz salan stulun \u00e7iyinl\u0259rin\u0259 g\u00fccs\u00fcz \u0259ll\u0259ri il\u0259 toxunaraq, -\u201cS\u0259ssiz ol\u201d- deyirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

El\u0259 bir kimliy\u0259 b\u00fcr\u00fcn ki, s\u0259nin s\u0259ssizliyin bit\u0259n \u0259zablar\u0131n\u0131n imzas\u0131 olsun!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

(11.09.2023)<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Jal\u0259 \u0130slam, \u201c\u018fd\u0259biyyat v\u0259 inc\u0259s\u0259n\u0259t\u201d   S\u0259h\u0259r saat: 08.00 Beyin: Soru\u015fmamaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc g\u00fccl\u0259 saxlay\u0131ram, amma yen\u0259 d\u0259 al\u0131nm\u0131r. Onu bilir\u0259m ki, s\u0259ni yeyib bitir\u0259n h\u0259r n\u0259dirs\u0259, m\u0259ni yoracaq. Dan\u0131\u015f g\u00f6r\u00fcm n\u0259 olub? \u00dcr\u0259k: \u00d6z\u00fcn\u00fcn xatirin\u0259 hal\u0131m\u0131 soru\u015fursansa, he\u00e7 soru\u015fmama\u011f\u0131n daha yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r. S\u0259ni yorma\u011f\u0131mla ba\u011fl\u0131 olan m\u0259qama g\u0259ls\u0259k, m\u0259nim yaralar\u0131m\u0131n birinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 be\u015fini qoyub yenid\u0259n \u0259zab\u0131ma \u0259zab […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-46995","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46995","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=46995"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46995\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47007,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/46995\/revisions\/47007"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=46995"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=46995"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=46995"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}