{"id":47482,"date":"2023-11-03T01:00:00","date_gmt":"2023-11-02T21:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=47482"},"modified":"2023-11-03T08:26:02","modified_gmt":"2023-11-03T04:26:02","slug":"zulfiyy%c9%99-imanova-ahlar-agacindan-saat-qull%c9%99sin%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=47482","title":{"rendered":"Z\u00fclfiyy\u0259 \u0130manova – Ah\u201dlar a\u011fac\u0131ndan \u201cSaat\u201d q\u00fcll\u0259sin\u0259"},"content":{"rendered":"\n
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 41 il \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259n, h\u0259yat\u0131 \u201cF\u00fcsunlar\u201d aras\u0131nda ke\u00e7\u0259n, inc\u0259 ruhlu, \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259rt\u0259miz ana qoxusu hiss edil\u0259n t\u00fcrk \u015fair\u0259si-Didem Madak. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ne\u00e7\u0259 bahar\u0131n\u0131, ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma<\/a> \u201csevinm\u0259k n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yeddi ya\u015f\u0131nda\u201d kimi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259rin qatlar\u0131nda. H\u0259yat hekay\u0259sind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli anlar, sevincli g\u00fcnl\u0259rini \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259mi\u015f, al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131 kitab\u0131n aras\u0131nda oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 Tanr\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n, h\u0259r \u015feyd\u0259n uzaqla\u015fan Didem bir t\u0259k Allahdan uzaqla\u015fmam\u0131\u015f, onu q\u0259lbin\u0259 \u0259n yax\u0131n dost, anas\u0131z g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fcn\u0259 m\u0259lh\u0259m hesab etmi\u015fdi. H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n \u015f\u0131ltaq \u00e7a\u011flar\u0131nda, daha 13 ya\u015f\u0131nda olark\u0259n \u201c\u00e7ox sevinm\u0259l\u0259rin qad\u0131n\u0131\u201d olan F\u00fcsun xan\u0131m\u0131 38 ya\u015f\u0131nda x\u0259r\u00e7\u0259ng x\u0259st\u0259liyind\u0259n itirmi\u015fdi. Anas\u0131ndan xatir\u0259 qalan \u015feir d\u0259ft\u0259ri D.Madak\u0131n bundan sonrak\u0131 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 \u015fair\u0259 kimi davam etm\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259b olmu\u015fdu. \u015eair\u0259ni \u0259d\u0259biyyatla tan\u0131\u015f ed\u0259n d\u0259, onu bu d\u00fcnyan\u0131n adam\u0131 kimi yaradan da anas\u0131d\u0131r. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt anlar\u0131n\u0131 u\u015faq romanlar\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259tmi\u015f, anas\u0131n\u0131n is\u0259 \u201cu\u015faq roman\u0131\u201d olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mi\u015fdi. F\u0131rt\u0131nalarla ke\u00e7\u0259n \u00f6m\u00fcr yolunda \u015feirl\u0259ri onun \u0259lind\u0259n tutmu\u015f, \u201cpal\u00e7\u0131ql\u0131 paltar geyinmi\u015f \u015f\u0259h\u0259r\u201din i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u0259r k\u0259sd\u0259n uzaq d\u00fcnya qurmu\u015fdu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259. Qa\u00e7d\u0131\u011f\u0131  anlarda kims\u0259 onu tapmas\u0131n dey\u0259 Tanr\u0131n\u0131n arxas\u0131na gizl\u0259n\u0259rdi \u00e7ox zaman, \u00e7\u00fcnki o, bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n x\u0259yallar\u0131 q\u0259d\u0259r b\u00f6y\u00fck idi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

               \u0130nsanlar \u00f6ld\u00fcl\u0259r, h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00f6ld\u00fcl\u0259r, bir g\u00fcn \u00f6ld\u00fcl\u0259r<\/p>\n\n\n\n

               bilinm\u0259z!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

               Gec\u0259nin \u00e7\u0259km\u0259c\u0259sind\u0259 unuduldular sonra<\/p>\n\n\n\n

               Bir inci boyunba\u011f\u0131 kimi da\u011f\u0131lm\u0131\u015f muncuqlar\u0131 \u2013 dey\u0259n D.Madak insanlar\u0131n n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r unutqan varl\u0131q olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bir daha s\u00fcbut etmi\u015fdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

   \u015eeirl\u0259rind\u0259 anas\u0131 il\u0259 yana\u015f\u0131 bac\u0131s\u0131 \u0130\u015f\u0131ldan, onunla qurdu\u011fu x\u0259yallardan, oynad\u0131qlar\u0131 m\u0259sum oyunlardan da s\u00f6hb\u0259t a\u00e7ard\u0131. B\u0259z\u0259n iki bac\u0131 \u201colmayan \u00e7aylar\u0131, olmayan fincanlardan i\u00e7ib\u201d doyunca g\u00fcl\u0259rdil\u0259r. Ara-s\u0131ra q\u0259lbinin k\u00fcsd\u00fcy\u00fc atas\u0131ndan da dan\u0131\u015fard\u0131 \u015feir d\u00fcnyas\u0131nda. \u201cMutsuza kim bakacak\u201d \u015feirind\u0259ki \u201cBir atadan qurtulu\u015fumu bayram edir\u0259m\u201d misras\u0131 sevgi il\u0259 k\u00fcsk\u00fcnl\u00fcy\u00fcn ortas\u0131nda dayanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131,sanki. Onu \u201canas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n m\u0259rk\u0259zini g\u00fcll\u0259rl\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259y\u0259n insan\u201d olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259y\u0259rdi h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259. Amma bu arzusu he\u00e7 vaxt ger\u00e7\u0259kl\u0259\u015fmir. \u018fksin\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131 itirdikd\u0259n sonra atas\u0131 yenid\u0259n evl\u0259nir, \u00f6gey anan\u0131n yadl\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 u\u015faq ik\u0259n dad\u0131r. Yadl\u0131q duy\u011fusundan qurtulmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u0259nc ya\u015fda evl\u0259nir, amma bu evlilik xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik yox, k\u0259d\u0259r g\u0259tirir. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

    Ail\u0259 h\u0259yatlar\u0131nda \u015fans\u0131 g\u0259tirm\u0259y\u0259n D.Madak bu evliliyi sonland\u0131rd\u0131qdan sonra \u00f6z qab\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u0259kilir. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

                             Onlara n\u0259 dem\u0259liy\u0259m<\/p>\n\n\n\n

                            N\u0259l\u0259rs\u0259 dem\u0259yim laz\u0131md\u0131rm\u0131?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

                            \u0130nsanlar axtard\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131zda g\u0259lm\u0259zl\u0259r,<\/p>\n\n\n\n

                           axtarmad\u0131qda ka\u015f ki, m\u0259ni \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rsayd\u0131n dey\u0259rl\u0259r. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

  Bu misralar g\u00f6st\u0259rir ki, Didem Madak t\u0259k olma\u011f\u0131 se\u00e7s\u0259 d\u0259, q\u0259lbind\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 axtar\u0131lmaq, ehtiyac duyulmaq hissini ya\u015fad\u0131b. \u0130nsanlarda g\u00f6rm\u0259k ist\u0259dikl\u0259rini tapmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan t\u0259k qalma\u011fa q\u0259rar verib.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

   H\u0259min g\u00fcnl\u0259rind\u0259 g\u00fccl\u00fc bir \u0259l onu tutub silk\u0259l\u0259yir.H\u0259r silk\u0259l\u0259ndikd\u0259 budaqlar\u0131ndan min bir \u201cah\u201dt\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcr. N\u0259 \u00e7ox demi\u015fdi h\u0259min gec\u0259l\u0259r \u201cah\u201d k\u0259lim\u0259sini. B\u0259z\u0259n Tanr\u0131n\u0131 qucaqlamaq arzusu il\u0259 yan\u0131b-tutu\u015far, b\u0259z\u0259n d\u0259 \u201cinsan unudan v\u0259 unudulmaya m\u0259hkum oland\u0131r\u201d d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259l\u0259rini beynind\u0259 k\u00f6hn\u0259 kasetl\u0259r kimi tez-tez f\u0131rlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. H\u0259rd\u0259n p\u0259nc\u0259r\u0259d\u0259n yetim qalm\u0131\u015f d\u00fcnyaya, Allah baba il\u0259 ba\u015f-ba\u015fa s\u00f6hb\u0259t ed\u0259n insanlara baxard\u0131. Qism\u0259tini, ya\u015fanm\u0131\u015f v\u0259 ya\u015fanacaqlar\u0131 sor\u011fu-sual ed\u0259rdi beynind\u0259. Ya\u011f\u0131\u015f\u0131n s\u0259rtc\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n damlalar\u0131 ruhunu \u00fc\u015f\u00fcd\u0259rdi \u00e7ox gec\u0259. H\u0259min anlarda dilind\u0259n \u00e7\u0131xan k\u0259lim\u0259l\u0259r b\u0259yaz v\u0259r\u0259ql\u0259ri ya\u015f\u0131la, maviy\u0259 boyayard\u0131.  H\u0259yat\u0131ndak\u0131 s\u0259hif\u0259l\u0259r is\u0259 pay\u0131z\u0131n sar\u0131 yarpaqlar\u0131na d\u00f6n\u0259rdi. Orada mavi v\u0259 ya\u015f\u0131l r\u0259ngd\u0259n \u0259s\u0259r-\u0259lam\u0259t olmazd\u0131. Sonralar is\u0259 D.Madak sar\u0131 r\u0259ngin \u00f6l\u00fc olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcr. \u00d6l\u0259c\u0259yini hiss etmi\u015f kimi, bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259ni ip\u0259k d\u0259smal\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 saxlaya bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7\u0131rp\u0131n\u0131r. Bu zaman da onu tutub silk\u0259l\u0259y\u0259n \u0259ll\u0259r var idi, amma silk\u0259l\u0259ndikc\u0259 Didemin \u00e7iynind\u0259n geri d\u00f6nd\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u0259qr\u0259bl\u0259r, zaman\u0131n ana laylas\u0131na b\u0259nz\u0259y\u0259n h\u0259zin nal\u0259si t\u00f6k\u00fcl\u00fcrd\u00fc. Art\u0131q onun da ya\u015famaq, sava\u015fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir m\u0259qs\u0259di vard\u0131. Anas\u0131 F\u00fcsunu itirdikd\u0259n sonra qaranl\u0131\u011fa q\u0259rq olan d\u00fcnyas\u0131, balaca q\u0131z\u0131 F\u00fcsunla i\u015f\u0131qla\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u015eeir yazma\u011fa itirdiyi anan\u0131n il\u0131q n\u0259f\u0259sini tapmaq \u00fcmidi il\u0259 ba\u015flayan Did\u0259m q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n do\u011fulmas\u0131 il\u0259 h\u0259sr\u0259t qald\u0131\u011f\u0131 ail\u0259 sevgisin\u0259 qovu\u015fmu\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

      \u00c7ox zaman deyirl\u0259r ki, q\u0131z u\u015faqlar\u0131 analar\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fay\u0131r.  Anan\u0131n sevinci \u00f6vlad\u0131na xo\u015fb\u0259xtlik, k\u0259d\u0259ri is\u0259 h\u00fczn g\u0259tirir. H\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131ndan sonuna kimi ana k\u0259lim\u0259sini m\u00fcq\u0259dd\u0259s ocaq z\u0259nn ed\u0259n, Didem Madak anas\u0131 kimi 41 ya\u015f\u0131nda x\u0259rc\u0259ng x\u0259st\u0259liyind\u0259n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015fdi. Balaca F\u00fcsun h\u0259l\u0259 3 ya\u015f\u0131nda ik\u0259n anas\u0131ndan yetim qalm\u0131\u015f, onun yoxlu\u011funu doldura bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. \u015eair\u0259 Didem Madak ist\u0259m\u0259s\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259m anas\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015f, h\u0259m d\u0259 \u00f6z taleyini q\u0131z\u0131na ya\u015fatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. B\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259, Tanr\u0131 \u201cb\u0259z\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m, m\u0259ni yenid\u0259n d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259tir\u0259s\u0259n dey\u0259\u201d arzusunu q\u0259bul etmi\u015fdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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 41 il \u00f6m\u00fcr s\u00fcr\u0259n, h\u0259yat\u0131 \u201cF\u00fcsunlar\u201d aras\u0131nda ke\u00e7\u0259n, inc\u0259 ruhlu, \u015feirl\u0259rind\u0259 t\u0259rt\u0259miz ana qoxusu hiss edil\u0259n t\u00fcrk \u015fair\u0259si-Didem Madak. \u00d6mr\u00fcn\u00fcn ne\u00e7\u0259 bahar\u0131n\u0131, ne\u00e7\u0259 q\u0131\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ya\u015fam\u0131\u015fd\u0131, amma \u201csevinm\u0259k n\u0259d\u0259ns\u0259 h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 yeddi ya\u015f\u0131nda\u201d kimi qalm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 a\u011fl\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n d\u0259rin qatlar\u0131nda. H\u0259yat hekay\u0259sind\u0259 k\u0259d\u0259rli anlar, sevincli g\u00fcnl\u0259rini \u00fcst\u0259l\u0259mi\u015f, al\u0131n yaz\u0131s\u0131n\u0131n hans\u0131 kitab\u0131n aras\u0131nda oldu\u011funu bilm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn g\u00fcnl\u0259rl\u0259 Tanr\u0131 il\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-47482","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47482","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=47482"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47482\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":47493,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/47482\/revisions\/47493"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=47482"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=47482"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=47482"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}