{"id":7636,"date":"2014-02-10T08:16:51","date_gmt":"2014-02-10T08:16:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=7636"},"modified":"2014-02-10T08:16:51","modified_gmt":"2014-02-10T08:16:51","slug":"gulnar%c9%99-israfilqizi-onun-n%c9%99-gunahi-var-axi-m%c9%99qal%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=7636","title":{"rendered":"G\u00fclnar\u0259 \u0130SRAF\u0130LQIZI.&#8221;Onun n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 var ax\u0131&#8230;&#8221; (M\u0259qal\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/1558877_1434551783429120_209165756_n.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/01\/1558877_1434551783429120_209165756_n.jpg\" alt=\"1558877_1434551783429120_209165756_n\" width=\"242\" height=\"272\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-7163\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Hava \u00e7ox soyuq idi. \u018flimd\u0259 bilgisayar  2 n\u00f6mr\u0259li ma\u015fruta mindik qabaq yerl\u0259rd\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik yerd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdik \u00f6z dayanacaqlar\u0131nda qrup yolda\u015f\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 bir yer bo\u015fald\u0131 bu zaman da dayanacaqdan iki qad\u0131n  ma\u015fruta mindi qucaqlar\u0131nda t\u0259xmin\u0259n bir ya\u015fyar\u0131m yaxud da iki ya\u015fl\u0131 bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 var idi. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr bunlar ana bala idil\u0259r. Anas\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi oturacaqda u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 da, quca\u011f\u0131na ald\u0131. M\u0259nim \u0259limd\u0259 bilgisayar oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yer ver\u0259 bilm\u0259dim, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fczr ist\u0259dim. G\u0259lin dill\u0259ndi narahat olmay\u0131n xan\u0131m. U\u015faq anas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259yir, m\u00fc\u0259yy\u0259n s\u00f6z dem\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. Bu zaman yan\u0131mda \u0259yl\u0259\u015f\u0259n n\u0259n\u0259 qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcb. S\u0259sini azac\u0131q y\u00fcks\u0259ltdi. Bax bu xalan\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcrs\u0259nmi k\u0259s s\u0259sini, indi bu saat s\u0259n\u0259 iyn\u0259 vuracaq. U\u015faq qa\u015fqaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131 t\u00f6k\u00fcb a\u011flama\u011fa haz\u0131rla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131 ki, dedim: yox n\u0259n\u0259si xala ona iyn\u0259 vurmaz bu \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l balad\u0131r. Cann\u2026 azac\u0131q t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm edib sevgi dolu g\u00f6zl\u0259riml\u0259 balacan\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131m. U\u015faq qa\u015f-qaba\u011f\u0131n\u0131n d\u00fcy\u00fcnl\u0259rini a\u00e7\u0131b, \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 heyran-heyran baxma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131. He\u00e7 anas\u0131 da yad\u0131na d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fcrd\u00fc. Yol boyu dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131q n\u0259n\u0259 il\u0259, rayon adamlar\u0131 idil\u0259r. M\u0259n ma\u015frutdan d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r u\u015faq g\u00f6zl\u0259rini bir an olsun \u00fcz\u00fcmd\u0259n \u00e7\u0259km\u0259di. Sanki bu k\u00f6rp\u0259nin bir xo\u015f s\u00f6z\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 var idi. Biz\u0259 b\u0259z\u0259n el\u0259 g\u0259lir ki, k\u00f6rp\u0259 u\u015faqlar he\u00e7n\u0259 anlam\u0131rlar, \u0259ksin\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 onlar d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lm\u0259mi\u015fd\u0259n ana b\u0259tnind\u0259 e\u015fidirl\u0259r. Biz onlar\u0131 qorxutmaqla onlar\u0131n  g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kl\u0259rini sual alt\u0131na alm\u0131\u015f oluruq. Buna n\u00fcmun\u0259 olaraq az ya\u015fl\u0131 u\u015faqlar\u0131n k\u0259k\u0259l\u0259m\u0259sini dem\u0259k olar. Bu  onlar\u0131n qorxu \u00e7\u0259r\u00e7iv\u0259sin\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fckl\u0259ri zaman\u0131 yaran\u0131r, qocal\u0131b d\u00fcnyalar\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r h\u0259min u\u015faqlarla yolda\u015fl\u0131q edir bu x\u0259st\u0259lik. H\u0259l\u0259 bununlada bitmir. Qorxu bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n daxilind\u0259ki istedadlar\u0131n\u0131 \u00fcz\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xmas\u0131na manee olur. C\u0259miyy\u0259td\u0259 qapal\u0131 formada olduqundan patensiyal\u0131n\u0131 ortaya qoya bilmir. Yaxud u\u015faq s\u0259hf\u0259n bir i\u015f ed\u0259nd\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131raraq\u2026oyyyy s\u0259n neyl\u0259din?! Bu i\u015fin\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 vurmaq da eyni qorxu h\u0259lq\u0259sini yarad\u0131r. U\u015faq s\u0259hf etdikd\u0259 sakitc\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm ed\u0259r\u0259k ona yax\u0131nla\u015f\u0131b m\u0259nim g\u00f6z\u0259l balam deyib \u00f6nc\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm etm\u0259k, sonra is\u0259 onu s\u0259hfini ba\u015fa salmaq laz\u0131md\u0131r. Danlamaq olmaz. Adlar\u0131n\u0131 sadalamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m nevroloji x\u0259st\u0259lik d\u0259 ana b\u0259tnind\u0259n, v\u0259 do\u011fulduqdan sonra bu kimi hallardan yaran\u0131r. \u0259g\u0259r bir u\u015fa\u011fa h\u0259yat verm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259yiks\u0259 onu h\u0259yata g\u0259tirm\u0259yin anlam\u0131 n\u0259dir? Onun n\u0259 g\u00fcnah\u0131 var ax\u0131? el\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259lib insan kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259 d\u00fcnyaya n\u0259d\u0259n g\u0259lm\u0259lidir ki\u2026 Arzu olunmaz u\u015faqlar\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259ki k\u0259d\u0259r, sevgisizlik sonradan narkamanyaya, cinay\u0259tkarl\u0131\u011fa, cibgirliy\u0259, yalana, yol a\u00e7an amill\u0259rd\u0259n deyilmi.  Yaxud onu m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l yeti\u015fdirm\u0259yi bacarmayanda da eyni halla qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmaq qa\u00e7\u0131lmaz fakt deyilmi?! U\u015faqlar\u0131 sevgi v\u0259 t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcml\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u00fcb, c\u0259miyy\u0259tin \u00e7irkab\u0131ndan qorumaq b\u00fct\u00fcn valideynl\u0259rin boynuna d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n \u0259n \u00f6n\u0259mli v\u0259zif\u0259l\u0259rd\u0259n biri hesab olunur. Bir u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259yi il\u0259 oynamaq da, ona g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259k verm\u0259k d\u0259 bizim \u00f6z \u0259limizd\u0259dir\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Hava \u00e7ox soyuq idi. \u018flimd\u0259 bilgisayar 2 n\u00f6mr\u0259li ma\u015fruta mindik qabaq yerl\u0259rd\u0259 iki n\u0259f\u0259rlik yerd\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdik \u00f6z dayanacaqlar\u0131nda qrup yolda\u015f\u0131m d\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc v\u0259 bir yer bo\u015fald\u0131 bu zaman da dayanacaqdan iki qad\u0131n ma\u015fruta mindi qucaqlar\u0131nda t\u0259xmin\u0259n bir ya\u015fyar\u0131m yaxud da iki ya\u015fl\u0131 bir q\u0131z u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 var idi. G\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcr bunlar ana bala idil\u0259r. Anas\u0131 \u0259yl\u0259\u015fdi oturacaqda u\u015fa\u011f\u0131 [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-7636","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-pub"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7636","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7636"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7636\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":7638,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7636\/revisions\/7638"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7636"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7636"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7636"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}