{"id":21756,"date":"2016-08-17T08:30:59","date_gmt":"2016-08-17T04:30:59","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=21756"},"modified":"2016-08-17T08:31:05","modified_gmt":"2016-08-17T04:31:05","slug":"nuran%c9%99-%c9%99liyeva-s%c9%99hidin-xanimindan-yoldasina-anim-m%c9%99ktubu","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=21756","title":{"rendered":"Nuran\u0259 \u018fL\u0130YEVA.&#8221;\u015e\u0259hidin xan\u0131m\u0131ndan yolda\u015f\u0131na an\u0131m m\u0259ktubu!!!&#8221;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/qo.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/qo-300x200.jpg\" alt=\"qo\" width=\"300\" height=\"200\" class=\"aligncenter size-medium wp-image-21757\" srcset=\"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/qo-300x200.jpg 300w, https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2016\/08\/qo.jpg 600w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>H\u0259r g\u00fcn daha \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131ram s\u0259nsiz. G\u00fcnl\u0259r, aylar ke\u00e7ir, amma s\u0259nsizlik a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnk\u00fc kimidir. \u00c7\u0259tindir s\u0259nsiz h\u0259yata tutunmaq. H\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131nla ya\u015famaqd\u0131r n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259r g\u00fcn. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc unutdum s\u0259n yoxsan dey\u0259, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm saxtala\u015fd\u0131, h\u0259yata bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m d\u0259yi\u015fdi, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcmidim itdi&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Arzular, ah arzular&#8230;. sizd\u0259mi O getdiyi g\u00fcn bitdiniz?! Sizd\u0259mi O getdi dey\u0259 getdiniz?! N\u0259 \u00e7\u0259tinmi\u015f, n\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fclm\u0259zmi\u015f s\u0259nsiz n\u0259f\u0259s almaq. S\u0259sini e\u015fitm\u0259m\u0259k, \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6rm\u0259m\u0259k , s\u0259n\u0259 toxunmamaq&#8230; T\u0259k t\u0259skinliyim s\u0259nin yadigarlar\u0131nla ovunmaqd\u0131r. S\u0259n\u0259 ox\u015famaq ist\u0259y\u0259n, s\u0259nin yolunu g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n, \u201catam olsa bel\u0259 olard\u0131\u201d dey\u0259n iki \u0259man\u0259tin var m\u0259nd\u0259. Amma s\u0259nsiz onlar da qanad\u0131 q\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f qu\u015f kimidil\u0259r. S\u0259nsiz onlar da t\u0259kdirl\u0259r. Kim ola bil\u0259r s\u0259nin q\u0259d\u0259r \u0259ziz, s\u0259nin q\u0259d\u0259r yax\u0131n onlara? Kim tuta bil\u0259r onlar\u0131n \u0259lind\u0259n s\u0259n tutdu\u011fun kimi, b\u0259rk-b\u0259rk? Kim sa\u00e7lar\u0131na s\u0131\u011fal \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r s\u0259nin kimi?..<\/p>\n<p>\u00d6z\u00fcml\u0259 sava\u015f\u0131ram. \u201cO yoxdur, b\u0259s m\u0259n niy\u0259 varam\u201d dey\u0259. \u201cNiy\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcr\u0259m, niy\u0259 bo\u011faz\u0131mdan loxma ke\u00e7ir\u201d dey\u0259. \u201cNiy\u0259 g\u0259zir\u0259m, niy\u0259 s\u0259nsiz d\u00f6z\u00fcb ya\u015fay\u0131ram, niy\u0259 s\u0259nsizliy\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr\u0259m\u201d dey\u0259 \u00e7ox q\u0131nay\u0131ram \u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc. Bu niy\u0259l\u0259r yorur m\u0259ni&#8230; s\u0259nsizlik al\u0131r g\u00fcc\u00fcm\u00fc&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Yorulmu\u015f ruhum qorxudur m\u0259ni, \u0259man\u0259tl\u0259rini s\u0259n ist\u0259y\u0259n kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m dey\u0259. S\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z verir\u0259m, ey m\u0259nim q\u00fcrur yerim, ey m\u0259nim ba\u015f tac\u0131m, f\u0259xrim, f\u0259xar\u0259tim, \u0259n d\u0259y\u0259rlim, s\u0259n\u0259 layiq b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m \u0259man\u0259tl\u0259rini. S\u0259ni onlarda g\u00f6rm\u0259k arzusuyla, h\u0259yata tutunub \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259nin kimi, qorxmaz, igid, m\u0259rd, \u0259sl ki\u015fi kimi b\u00f6y\u00fcd\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m . Yar\u0131m\u00e7\u0131q qalan arzular\u0131n\u0131 onlarla birg\u0259 h\u0259yata ke\u00e7ird\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m.<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259n rahat uyu, \u015e\u018fH\u0130D\u0130M!<\/p>\n<p>S\u0259nin u\u011frunda can\u0131ndan ke\u00e7diyin V\u0259t\u0259nd\u0259 \u0259n \u00e7ox s\u0259nin \u00f6vladlar\u0131n\u0131n ya\u015famaq haqq\u0131 var! G\u00f6z\u00fcn arxada qalmas\u0131n, Yerin behi\u015ft, q\u0259brin nurla dolsun.<\/p>\n<p>40 ya\u015f\u0131n m\u00fcbar\u0259k, igidim, \u015e\u018fH\u0130D\u0130M<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>H\u0259r g\u00fcn daha \u00e7ox dar\u0131x\u0131ram s\u0259nsiz. G\u00fcnl\u0259r, aylar ke\u00e7ir, amma s\u0259nsizlik a\u011fr\u0131s\u0131 h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 ilk g\u00fcnk\u00fc kimidir. \u00c7\u0259tindir s\u0259nsiz h\u0259yata tutunmaq. H\u0259r d\u0259qiq\u0259 x\u0259yal\u0131nla ya\u015famaqd\u0131r n\u0259f\u0259s ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m h\u0259r g\u00fcn. \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc unutdum s\u0259n yoxsan dey\u0259, g\u00fcl\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm saxtala\u015fd\u0131, h\u0259yata bax\u0131\u015f\u0131m d\u0259yi\u015fdi, g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 \u00fcmidim itdi&#8230; Arzular, ah arzular&#8230;. sizd\u0259mi O getdiyi g\u00fcn bitdiniz?! Sizd\u0259mi O getdi dey\u0259 getdiniz?! 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