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NORMALLER\u0130N DI\u015eINDA B\u0130R \u015eA\u0130R<\/p>\n
Hayat k\u0131sa
\nU\u00e7mak i\u00e7in de\u2026
\nYazar:Ye\u015fim \u0130NALKA\u00c7<\/p>\n
G\u00f6\u00e7ebe olmu\u015f bir hayatta \u00e7ok yer de\u011fi\u015ftirdi belki ama ne \u015fiirini ne de karakterini de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Oldu\u011fu gibi, kendi olmay\u0131 en iyi bilenlerdendi. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 yazd\u0131 \u015fiirlerine, \u015fiirler hayat\u0131 oldu bir bak\u0131ma. Hi\u00e7bir zaman k\u0131s\u0131tlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r kendini \u015fiirlerinde. Cesurca, s\u00fczmeden, sans\u00fcrlemeden yazd\u0131 hep. Meydan okumalar da vard\u0131 kad\u0131nlar da. \u00c7ok sevdi, \u00e7ok \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu ama me\u015frula\u015f\u0131nca s\u00f6n\u00fcverdi hisleri. Onun yazmas\u0131 i\u00e7in gerekliydi kad\u0131nlar, Bir kad\u0131n bulur, \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olur, \u015fiir yazard\u0131 yazabildi\u011fi yere kadar. Ama onda \u015fairlik duygusunu ilk uyand\u0131ran etken, \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu bir kad\u0131n de\u011fil annesi olur. \u015eiirlerinde bir d\u00fcrtme tad\u0131 vard\u0131r. Okuyucuyu sarsmak ister. Bu nedenle baz\u0131 konu \u015foklar\u0131 yapar \u015fiirlerinde Seber. Konusu a\u015fk olan bir \u015fiiri enflasyon ile bitirebilir nitelikte bir \u015fairdir. \u015eoklar \u015fiirinin tek ustas\u0131d\u0131r Cemal S\u00fcreya.<\/p>\n
S\u00dcRG\u00dcNDE B\u00dcY\u00dcYEN \u00c7OCUK
\n1931 y\u0131l\u0131nda Erzincan\u2019\u0131n P\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fcr il\u00e7esinde do\u011fmu\u015f olan \u015fairin as\u0131l ad\u0131 Cemalettin Seber\u2019dir. Do\u011fum tarihi net olarak bilinmeyen \u015fairin do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fc s\u00fcrekli de\u011fi\u015fir. O istedi\u011fi g\u00fcn do\u011far bir nevi.
\n\u201c1931 y\u0131l\u0131nda Erzincan\u2019da do\u011fdum. Bir do\u011fum g\u00fcn\u00fcm yoktur benim.\u201d
\nBabas\u0131, Kamer Bey ve Hatice Han\u0131m\u2019\u0131n 4 \u00e7ocu\u011fundan biri olan H\u00fcseyin Seber\u2019dir. Nakliyecilik i\u015fiyle u\u011fra\u015fan H\u00fcseyin Bey G\u00fclbeyaz ad\u0131nda bir alevi k\u0131z\u0131yla evlenir ve ilk \u00e7ocuklar\u0131 olan Cemalettin do\u011far.(1931) Ard\u0131ndan Kemal, Perihan ve Ayten do\u011far. Ama Cemalettin daha 4 ya\u015f\u0131ndayken Kemal \u00f6l\u00fcr. (1 ya\u015f\u0131nda) Bu ac\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 \u201cBir K\u0131\u015f\u201d \u015fiirinde dile getirir;
\nBir k\u0131\u015f g\u00f6\u011f\u00fc gibi o saat al\u00e7al\u0131r \u00f6l\u00fcm
\nYaln\u0131z i\u015fitme duygusu kal\u0131r ortada. <\/p>\n
S\u00dcRG\u00dcN VE ANNES\u0130N\u0130N \u00d6L\u00dcM\u00dc
\n6 ya\u015f\u0131na kadar mutlu bir aile ortam\u0131nda b\u00fcy\u00fcyen Cemalettin Seber\u2019in hayat\u0131 bu ya\u015ftan itibaren ac\u0131larla dolu bir yola girer. S\u00fcrg\u00fcn edilirler; amcas\u0131ndan dolay\u0131, Erzincan\u2019dan ad\u0131n\u0131 bile ilk kez geldiklerinde tabeladan okuyacaklar\u0131 Bilecik\u2019e. Asl\u0131nda s\u00fcrg\u00fcn edilen \u00e7ok sevdi\u011fi amcas\u0131 Memo\u2019dur. Ama H\u00fcseyin Bey de toplar ailesini, gider karde\u015fiyle sonu bilinmez bir s\u00fcrg\u00fcne.
\n\u201cErzincan Valisi, Cemal\u2019in amcas\u0131 Memo\u2019yu bir g\u00fcn makam\u0131na ister. Memo amcan\u0131n bir ad\u0131 da Demir yumruk. Aralar\u0131nda her ne ge\u00e7tiyse valinin kafas\u0131na yumruk indiriyor! Ard\u0131ndan \u00fc\u00e7 g\u00fcn i\u00e7inde Erzincan\u2019\u0131 terk etme emri geliyor\u2026\u201d
\nS\u00fcrg\u00fcn y\u0131llar\u0131 b\u00fcy\u00fck ac\u0131lar ya\u015fat\u0131r hen\u00fcz 7 ya\u015f\u0131nda olan \u015faire. Alt\u0131nc\u0131 ay\u0131nda annesi G\u00fclbeyaz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fck yapar ve 23 ya\u015f\u0131nda ya\u015fam\u0131n\u0131 yitirir.
\n\u201c\u2026Annem s\u00fcrg\u00fcnde \u00f6ld\u00fc, babam s\u00fcrg\u00fcnde \u00f6ld\u00fc.\u201d Babas\u0131 H\u00fcseyin Seber, Cemal\u2019in e\u011fitimine devam etmesi gerekti\u011fi d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncesiyle Cemaletin\u2019i gizli yollarla \u0130stanbul\u2019a, halas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na g\u00f6nderir. Sonra H\u00fcseyin Bey k\u0131zlar\u0131n\u0131 ve annesini de yollar \u0130stanbul\u2019a.Son olarak da kendisi gider. Ama birka\u00e7 ay sonra s\u00fcrg\u00fcn yerinin d\u0131\u015f\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kmalar\u0131 dolay\u0131s\u0131yla polisler evi basar ve aile tekrar Bilecik\u2019e d\u00f6ner.
\nBurada Memo amcan\u0131n evinde toplan\u0131r yine t\u00fcm aile. Cemalettin amcas\u0131na b\u00fcy\u00fck hayranl\u0131k duyuyordu. Bir\u00e7ok \u015feyi de ondan \u00f6\u011frenmi\u015ftir. Resim yapmay\u0131, matemati\u011fi\u2026
\nAyn\u0131 \u015fekilde Memo amca da Cemalettin\u2019e \u00e7ok de\u011fer veriyordu. Kendi \u00e7ocuklar\u0131ndan \u00e7ok ilgilenirdi onunla. Cemalettin s\u00fcrg\u00fcnde olman\u0131n verdi\u011fi bir rahats\u0131zl\u0131k hissediyordu. Bilecik Birinci \u0130lkokulu\u2019nda ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131 baz\u0131 olaylardan dolay\u0131. Bu bir aray\u0131\u015f i\u00e7erisine de girmesine neden olur. Bir g\u00fcn babaannesine \u201cBabaanne neyiz biz?\u201d (753.g\u00fcn) diye sorar. Ald\u0131\u011f\u0131 cevap \u201cg\u00f6\u00e7men\u201d olunca hayat\u0131 boyunca kal\u0131r bu etiket olarak. Onun s\u00fcrg\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc; \u015fehirden \u015fehire, kad\u0131ndan kad\u0131na ve evden eve hep devam eder.
\n\u201cCemal\u2019i kaybetti\u011fimiz Kad\u0131k\u00f6y\u2019de Cihanseraskeri soka\u011f\u0131ndaki ev, yirmi dokuzuncu eviydi Cemal\u2019in.\u201d
\nAnnesi\u2019nin \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc \u00fczerinden 6 y\u0131l ge\u00e7er ve H\u00fcseyin Seber, o\u011flu Cemal\u2019in iste\u011fi \u00fczerine de evlenmeye karar verir. Ablas\u0131na haber g\u00f6nderir. Ablas\u0131n\u0131n \u00f6nerdi\u011fi Refika Han\u0131m\u0131 be\u011fenmeyip Esma\u2019y\u0131 isteyen H\u00fcseyin Bey \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131n k\u00e2busu olacak olan Esma uykusuna dalar. Esma eve gelir. Cemal\u2019in k\u0131z karde\u015fleri olan Perihan ve Ayten\u2019e a\u011f\u0131r i\u015fkenceler yapar. Cemal ba\u015flarda t\u0131pk\u0131 karde\u015fleri gibi baz\u0131 k\u00f6t\u00fc muamelelere maruz kal\u0131r. Ve Cemal\u2019in evden gitmesine neden olan hamleyi yapar Esma. Cemal\u2019in k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ya\u015flardan itibaren biriktirdi\u011fi t\u00fcm kitaplar\u0131 yakar. Cemal buna dayanamay\u0131p evden ka\u00e7ar.
\n\u201cBen evden ka\u00e7mak i\u00e7in gizlice paras\u0131z yat\u0131l\u0131 s\u0131nav\u0131na girdim. Oradan, o evden ka\u00e7t\u0131m ama karde\u015flerimin derdi hep i\u00e7imdeydi.\u201d
\nBilecik Ortaokuluna paras\u0131z yat\u0131l\u0131 olarak giren Cemalettin b\u00fcy\u00fck bir gurur ve sevin\u00e7 duyar. Babas\u0131 pek ho\u015fnut kalmasa da. Burada ilk e\u015fi olacak olan Seniha Nemli\u2019ye \u00e2\u015f\u0131k olur.<\/p>\n
KIZIL \u00c2\u015eIK OLAN \u015eA\u0130R
\nK\u0131z\u0131l sa\u00e7l\u0131 bir k\u0131z olan Seniha okulun en g\u00fczel k\u0131z\u0131d\u0131r. Cemalettin kapt\u0131r\u0131r tabi kendini ona. Okulda \u00fcn ya\u011far a\u015fk\u0131. \u00c2\u015f\u0131k, \u015eiar, Tun\u00e7, Cemo diye hitap ederler art\u0131k. Cemalettin \u015fiirler yazar ona s\u0131rf sa\u00e7lar\u0131 k\u0131z\u0131l diye gider k\u0131z\u0131l renkli bir kalem al\u0131p \u00f6yle yazmaya ba\u015flar \u015fiirlerini.<\/p>\n
\u2018\u2019Seni sevdi\u011fim anda her \u015feyim k\u0131z\u0131l oldu.
\nMasmavi defterime k\u0131z\u0131l sat\u0131rlar doldu.\u2019\u2019 <\/p>\n
Daha sonra Cemalettin Haydarpa\u015fa lisesine girer ve buradan mezun olup Ankara \u00dcniversitesi Siyasal Bilgiler Fak\u00fcltesi Maliye ve \u0130ktisat b\u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc bitirir. M\u00fclkiyenin \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcnc\u00fc y\u0131l\u0131nda ilk \u00e2\u015f\u0131k oldu\u011fu kad\u0131n olan Seniha ile evlenir. Ve bir k\u0131zlar\u0131 olur Ay\u00e7e ad\u0131nda. Seniha ile \u00e7ok \u00e7eli\u015fkili bir ili\u015fkiden sonra bo\u015fan\u0131r. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc Seniha da Esma\u2019n\u0131n Cemal\u2019e yapt\u0131\u011f\u0131 hamlenin ayn\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 yapar. \u0130lk \u015fiir kitaplar\u0131n\u0131 yakar. Seniha\u2019ya bir\u00e7ok \u015fiir yazm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r Cemal S\u00fcreya. Hatta birlikte bile \u015fiirleri yazm\u0131\u015flard\u0131r. <\/p>\n
\u00dcVERC\u0130NKA
\nSeniha Nemli ile evliyken \u015fairin g\u00f6nl\u00fc ofisinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015fan bir sar\u0131\u015f\u0131n bayana kayar. \u0130smi hen\u00fcz bilinmeyen bu kad\u0131na ihtafen en \u00f6nemli \u015fiiri olan \u201c\u00dcvercinka\u201dy\u0131 yazar.
\n\u0130sminde olan bir \u201cY\u201d harfini de bu kad\u0131nla girdi\u011fi bir iddiada bilerek kaybeder. Amac\u0131 \u00dcvercinka ile olan an\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 artt\u0131rmak ve kal\u0131c\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 sa\u011flamak.<\/p>\n
B\u00f6ylece bir kere daha boynunlay\u0131z say\u0131l\u0131 yerlerinden
\nEn uzun boynun bu senin dayanmaya ya da umudu
\nKesmemeye
\nLaleli’den d\u00fcnyaya do\u011fru giden bir tramvayday\u0131z
\nBirden nas\u0131l oluyor sen y\u00fcre\u011fimi elliyorsun
\nAma nas\u0131l oluyor sen y\u00fcre\u011fimi eller ellemez
\nSevi\u015fmek bir kere daha y\u00fcr\u00fcrl\u00fc\u011fe giriyor
\nB\u00fct\u00fcn kara par\u00e7alar\u0131nda
\nAfrika d\u00e2hil\u2026 <\/p>\n
TOMR\u0130S UYAR\u2019LA KISA B\u0130R D\u00d6NEM<\/p>\n
Tomris Uyar\u2019la bir s\u00fcre birlikte ya\u015far Cemal S\u00fcreya. Bundan \u00f6nce Suna Lokman\u2019la ni\u015fanlanm\u0131\u015f olan S\u00fcreya, Tomris Uyar\u2019la olan a\u015fk\u0131n\u0131 me\u015frula\u015ft\u0131rmaz. Uyar onu evine ba\u011f\u0131ml\u0131 hale getirir neredeyse. Cemal \u00f6yle \u00e2\u015f\u0131kt\u0131r ki hi\u00e7 b\u0131rakmak, ayr\u0131lmak istemez evden. A\u015fklar\u0131 bitse de dostluklar\u0131 \u00f6lene kadar devam etmi\u015ftir.<\/p>\n
\u201cAy \u0131\u015f\u0131\u011f\u0131nda oturuyorduk
\nBile\u011finden \u00f6pt\u00fcm seni.\u201d <\/p>\n
MEMO\u2019NUN ANNES\u0130 ZUHAL TEKKANAT<\/p>\n
Z\u00fchal Tekkanat\u2019\u0131n \u201cYelken\u201d dergisinde \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u0131ralarda Cemal de ilerde bat\u0131raca\u011f\u0131 Papir\u00fcs\u2019\u00fc \u00e7\u0131karm\u0131\u015ft\u0131r. Bir bahane ile tan\u0131\u015f\u0131r S\u00fchal Han\u0131m\u2019la. Evlenirler \u00e7ok k\u0131sa bir s\u00fcre i\u00e7inde. Ve \u015fairin bu d\u00fcnyada en \u00e7ok de\u011fer verdi\u011fi Memo do\u011far. Cemal S\u00fcreya Memo k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fckken Z\u00fchal\u2019den ayr\u0131l\u0131r. Memo sa\u011flam bir b\u00fcy\u00fcme d\u00f6nemi ge\u00e7iremez bunun sonucu olarak. Memo kendisinin sonunu getirecek olan t\u00fcfeklere merak salmaya ba\u015flar. Ve evde bir av t\u00fcfe\u011finden \u00e7\u0131kan kur\u015funla hayata veda eder babas\u0131ndan 7 ay sonra.
\n\u00d6L\u00dcM
\nHer limana yana\u015fan Cemal S\u00fcreya en son liman olarak \u00f6l\u00fcme att\u0131 demirleri\u2026 Son an\u0131na kadar g\u00fcl\u00fcmsedi hayat\u0131ndaki de\u011ferlilerine kar\u015f\u0131. Ama 9 Ocak 1990\u2019da yatmakta oldu\u011fu hastanede b\u0131rakt\u0131 g\u00fcl\u00fcmsemeyi\u2026<\/p>\n
\u00d6l\u00fcm m\u00fc?
\nBir g\u00f6l\u00fcn dibinde durgun uykudas\u0131n.<\/p>\n
Denizler?
\nTanr\u0131lar kar\u0131\u015ft\u0131r\u0131r durur denizleri\u2026 <\/p>\n
Cemal S\u00fcreya \u015fiirlerinde o kadar fazla de\u011fi\u015fkenlik g\u00f6sterebiliyor ki\u2026
\nMesela; bir ipin ucu maviyse sonlar\u0131na do\u011fru k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olabilir onun anlam b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc y\u00f6n\u00fcnden onun \u015fiirlerinde. \u0130\u015fte \u015fairi bir Cemal S\u00fcreya yapan da bu oluyor. Bir \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtma oyunlar\u0131 vard\u0131r \u015fiirlerinde onu fakl\u0131 k\u0131lan da budur ba\u015fka \u015fairlerden. Bir meydan okuma vard\u0131r. T\u0131pk\u0131 Turgut \u00d6zal\u2019a yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131 intihar \u00f6nerisinde oldu\u011fu gibi bir g\u00f6vde g\u00f6sterisi\u2026<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
NORMALLER\u0130N DI\u015eINDA B\u0130R \u015eA\u0130R Hayat k\u0131sa U\u00e7mak i\u00e7in de\u2026 Yazar:Ye\u015fim \u0130NALKA\u00c7 G\u00f6\u00e7ebe olmu\u015f bir hayatta \u00e7ok yer de\u011fi\u015ftirdi belki ama ne \u015fiirini ne de karakterini de\u011fi\u015ftirdi. Oldu\u011fu gibi, kendi olmay\u0131 en iyi bilenlerdendi. Hayat\u0131n\u0131 yazd\u0131 \u015fiirlerine, \u015fiirler hayat\u0131 oldu bir bak\u0131ma. Hi\u00e7bir zaman k\u0131s\u0131tlamam\u0131\u015ft\u0131r kendini \u015fiirlerinde. Cesurca, s\u00fczmeden, sans\u00fcrlemeden yazd\u0131 hep. Meydan okumalar da vard\u0131 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[33],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-22515","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-kumbet"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22515","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22515"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22515\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22520,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22515\/revisions\/22520"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22515"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22515"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22515"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}