{"id":24074,"date":"2017-01-30T10:00:23","date_gmt":"2017-01-30T06:00:23","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=24074"},"modified":"2017-01-30T11:14:27","modified_gmt":"2017-01-30T07:14:27","slug":"esmira-r%c9%99himli-solmaz-hekay%c9%99","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/?p=24074","title":{"rendered":"Esmira R\u018fH\u0130ML\u0130.”Solmaz” (Hekay\u0259)"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Solmaz R\u0259c\u0259bin \u00e7ay\u0131na \u015f\u0259k\u0259r salib qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Qoy k\u00f6yn\u0259yini ziv\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131m… \u0130ndic\u0259 \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259yib ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. S\u0259n yem\u0259yini yey\u0259n\u0259 kimi haz\u0131r olacaq.
\nO h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259rdi. \u018frind\u0259n tez yuxudan oyan\u0131b s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini haz\u0131rlayar, \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259n\u0259si bir \u015fey varsa \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259r, \u0259yin-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259y\u0259 salard\u0131. Sonra birlikd\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rin \u015fehli havas\u0131nda qol-qola verib i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259rdil\u0259r. K\u0259ndd\u0259 h\u0259r bir k\u0259s onlar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan h\u0259s\u0259dl\u0259 baxard\u0131. Onlar bu k\u0259ndin qo\u015fa b\u00fclb\u00fcll\u0259ri, Leyli v\u0259 M\u0259cnunu idil\u0259r. Bir-birl\u0259rini h\u0259l\u0259 Bak\u0131da Pedoqoji universitetden, t\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131rd\u0131lar. Lakin R\u0259c\u0259b Solmazdan iki kurs yuxar\u0131, h\u0259m d\u0259 riyaziyyat fak\u00fclt\u0259sind\u0259 oxudu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u0131ndan tan\u0131\u015f olmasalar da bir-birl\u0259rinin eyni k\u0259ndd\u0259n olduqlar\u0131n\u0131 bilirdildil\u0259r. Solmaz rus dili m\u00fc\u0259llim\u0259si kimi k\u0259nd orta m\u0259kt\u0259bin\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 d\u00fcz\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 R\u0259c\u0259b art\u0131q h\u0259min m\u0259kt\u0259bd\u0259 riyaziyyat m\u00fc\u0259llimi kimi i\u015fl\u0259yirdi. Bir-birl\u0259rin\u0259 a\u015fiq olsalar da \u00e7\u0259kinir, yaln\u0131z \u00fcz-\u00fcz\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 salamla\u015f\u0131rd\u0131lar. Lakin bir g\u00fcn R\u0259c\u0259b salamla\u015fd\u0131qdan sonra ayaq saxlad\u0131:
\n\u2013 E\u015fitdim ni\u015fanlanm\u0131san?
\nSolmaz bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 yer\u0259 endirib etinas\u0131zl\u0131qla: \u2013 H\u0259… \u2013 dedi.
\n\u2013 Xo\u015fb\u0259xt ol, Solmaz! G\u00f6r\u0259s\u0259n kimdir o b\u0259xt\u0259v\u0259r? H\u0259s\u0259d apar\u0131ram ona! Ka\u015f onun yerind\u0259 m\u0259n olayd\u0131m\u2026
\nSolmaz soyuqqanl\u0131l\u0131qla g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di:
\n\u2013 Do\u011frudan da, ka\u015f el\u0259 onun yerind\u0259 s\u0259n olayd\u0131n…
\nEl\u0259 bil q\u0131z\u0131n dilin\u0259 vurulmu\u015f q\u0131f\u0131l\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fcl\u0259r. R\u0259c\u0259b onun bu s\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n bir az da c\u0259sar\u0259tl\u0259ndi:
\n\u2013 Onun yerind\u0259 m\u0259n nec\u0259 ola bil\u0259rdim? S\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zdin. M\u0259n atas\u0131z, yetim\u00e7ilikl\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fcy\u0259n o\u011flan, s\u0259n is\u0259 bu k\u0259ndin \u0259n varl\u0131 ail\u0259sinin q\u0131z\u0131! Yox, s\u0259n m\u0259n\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259zdin!
\nH\u0259mi\u015f\u0259ki utancaq Solmaz\u0131n indi daha d\u00fcnya vecin\u0259 deyildi. \u00d6tk\u0259m xasiyy\u0259tli atas\u0131 Qulam ki\u015fi art\u0131q onu sevm\u0259diyi bir o\u011flana ni\u015fanlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Onun k\u00f6hn\u0259 dostunun o\u011flu olan bu g\u0259nc Moskvada t\u0259hsil alm\u0131\u015f, h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 orada ya\u015fayan u\u011furlu i\u015f adam\u0131 idi. Odur ki Qulam ki\u015fi q\u0131z\u0131n fikrini \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259yi laz\u0131m bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bir d\u0259 ax\u0131 Solmaz he\u00e7 vaxt atas\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 a\u011f olmam\u0131\u015f, s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z dan\u0131\u015fmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130ndi n\u0259 deyib raz\u0131 olmayacaqd\u0131? O\u011flan da ki yarl\u0131-yara\u015f\u0131ql\u0131! Q\u0131z onu g\u00f6r\u0259n kimi k\u00f6n\u00fcl ver\u0259c\u0259kdi! Solmaz\u0131n is\u0259 k\u00f6nl\u00fc kimd\u0259 olsa yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r? R\u0259c\u0259bd\u0259! T\u0259l\u0259b\u0259lik ill\u0259rind\u0259n b\u0259ri onu uzaqdan-uza\u011fa h\u0259r g\u00f6rd\u00fcy\u00fcnd\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi titr\u0259yirdi. Lakin atas\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259rar\u0131ndan sonra bu \u00fcr\u0259k b\u00fct\u00fcn \u00fcmidl\u0259rini \u00fczm\u00fc\u015fd\u00fc. \u0130ndi s\u00f6hb\u0259tin bel\u0259 y\u00f6n almas\u0131 n\u0259tic\u0259sind\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259k s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc R\u0259c\u0259bin d\u00fcz \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 dem\u0259kl\u0259 sanki taleyind\u0259n qisas al\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u2013 Nahaqq el\u0259 fikirl\u0259\u015firs\u0259n. El\u0259 g\u0259l\u0259rdim ki…! M\u0259ni ni\u015fanlad\u0131qlar\u0131 o o\u011flan\u0131 he\u00e7 tan\u0131m\u0131ram. He\u00e7 \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015f\u0259m. Adama el\u0259 a\u011f\u0131r g\u0259lir ki! \u00d6z\u00fcm\u00fc \u0259\u015fya kimi hiss edir\u0259m. Atam bu haqda m\u0259n\u0259 dem\u0259yi he\u00e7 laz\u0131m da bilm\u0259di. H\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 m\u0259n\u0259 aid h\u0259r \u015fey\u0259 m\u0259nsiz q\u0259rar verib, el\u0259 indi d\u0259…
\nR\u0259c\u0259b \u00fcr\u0259kl\u0259ndi:
\n\u2013 El\u0259 is\u0259 sevm\u0259diyin adamla ail\u0259 qurub \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc niy\u0259 b\u0259db\u0259xt el\u0259yirs\u0259n?
\n\u2013 B\u0259s neyl\u0259yim, \u00e7ar\u0259m n\u0259dir?
\n\u2013 Anana de, atanla dan\u0131\u015fs\u0131n. Etiraz el\u0259! De ki, ist\u0259mir\u0259m! S\u0259n \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc qaytaran kimi anam\u0131 siz\u0259 el\u00e7i g\u00f6nd\u0259r\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!
\nSolmaz g\u00f6zl\u0259rini q\u0131y\u0131b \u00fcmidsizlikl\u0259 uzaqlara baxd\u0131:
\n\u2013 R\u0259c\u0259b, s\u0259n m\u0259nim atam\u0131 tan\u0131m\u0131rsan. Onun s\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u00f6z dem\u0259k m\u00fcmk\u00fcn deyil. Bu \u00f6l\u00fcm\u0259 getm\u0259k kimi bir \u015feydir. H\u0259l\u0259 indiy\u0259 kimi evd\u0259 onun bir s\u00f6z\u00fc iki olmay\u0131b.
\n\u2013 Solmaz, indi h\u0259r \u015fey s\u0259nin \u0259lind\u0259dir. \u018fg\u0259r xo\u015fb\u0259xtliyimizi ist\u0259yirs\u0259ns\u0259 bunu el\u0259m\u0259lis\u0259n.<\/p>\n

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\nSolmaz el\u0259 h\u0259min g\u00fcn bu bar\u0259d\u0259 s\u00f6z d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259yini g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259d\u0259n anas\u0131na etiraz\u0131n\u0131 bildirdi. \u00c7\u00fcnki onunla bu bar\u0259d\u0259 he\u00e7 dan\u0131\u015fmaya bil\u0259rdil\u0259r. El\u0259 bir ba\u015fa toy g\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fc t\u0259yin el\u0259y\u0259rdil\u0259r, v\u0259ss\u0259lam. Solmaz i\u00e7\u0259ri girib \u0259yin-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259n kimi ona yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Ana, atamla dan\u0131\u015f, \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc qaytars\u0131n. M\u0259n o o\u011flana \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259n deyil\u0259m.
\n\u2013 Ay q\u0131z s\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan? D\u0259lis\u0259n n\u0259s\u0259n? M\u0259n ona el\u0259 s\u00f6z dey\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m?!
\n\u2013 Onda \u00f6z\u00fcm dey\u0259r\u0259m!
\n\u2013 S\u0259n Allah, onu t\u0259rsl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259, ikimizi d\u0259 qana salarsan! Bu g\u00fcn yen\u0259 ev\u0259 \u0259s\u0259bi g\u0259lib.
\nSolmaz anas\u0131na m\u0259h\u0259l verm\u0259y\u0259r\u0259k ota\u011f\u0131n qap\u0131s\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131b i\u00e7\u0259ri girdi. Qulam ki\u015fi siqaret \u00e7\u0259k\u0259-\u00e7\u0259k\u0259 q\u0259zetl\u0259r\u0259 bax\u0131rd\u0131. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n i\u00e7\u0259ri girdiyini g\u00f6r\u00fcb bax\u0131\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 q\u0259zetden ay\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u2013 Salam, ata, s\u0259n\u0259 vacib s\u00f6z\u00fcm var.
\nQulam ki\u015fi s\u0259rt xasiyy\u0259tli, t\u0259rs, inadkar adam idi. \u00d6mr\u00fcnd\u0259 bir d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 olsun ail\u0259sil\u0259 oturub \u00fcr\u0259kd\u0259n s\u00f6hb\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259mi\u015fdi. Ad\u0259t\u0259n o \u00f6z\u00fc dindirm\u0259y\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r arvad\u0131 v\u0259 q\u0131z\u0131 onunla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259sar\u0259t el\u0259m\u0259zdil\u0259r. El\u0259 ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259 soru\u015fdu:
\n\u2013 N\u0259 olub ki?!
\n\u2013 Ata, m\u0259n dem\u0259k ist\u0259yir\u0259m ki, tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131m bir adama \u0259r\u0259 ged\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m.
\n\u2013 M\u0259n tan\u0131y\u0131ram yet\u0259r. S\u0259n tan\u0131masan da olar. Biz onun atas\u0131 il\u0259 g\u0259nclik ill\u0259rind\u0259n dostuq. Bu ki\u015fi dostlu\u011fudur. S\u0259nin a\u011fl\u0131n arvadlar\u0131n dostlu\u011funa getm\u0259sin.
\n\u2013 Ata, xahi\u015f el\u0259yir\u0259m, \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc geri qaytar.
\n\u2013 N\u0259?! S\u0259n n\u0259 dan\u0131\u015f\u0131rsan?! M\u0259n he\u00e7 vaxt t\u00fcp\u00fcrd\u00fcy\u00fcm\u00fc yalamaram! S\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fc geri g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fcb \u015f\u0259r\u0259fimi iki paral\u0131q el\u0259m\u0259r\u0259m!
\nQulam ki\u015fi aya\u011fa qalxaraq \u0259lind\u0259ki q\u0259zeti ortadan qatlay\u0131b hirsl\u0259 masan\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 \u00e7\u0131rpd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Ay arvad, ay Min\u0259vv\u0259r! G\u0259l bu q\u0131z\u0131 burdan apar! Yoxsa \u00f6z\u00fcm\u0259 cavabdeh deyil\u0259m! \u0130ndi bunun ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 urus qibl\u0259sin\u0259 k\u0259s\u0259r\u0259m!
\nMin\u0259vv\u0259r c\u0259ld i\u00e7\u0259ri girib Solmaz\u0131n qolundan tutub dartma\u011fa ba\u015flad\u0131:
\n\u2013 G\u0259l, g\u0259l! \u00c7\u0131x \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259! \u018fs\u0259bil\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259, atan\u0131!
\nAnas\u0131n\u0131n onu otaqdan \u00e7\u0131xartmas\u0131na baxmayaraq Solmaz ota\u011fa geri qay\u0131tma\u011fa c\u0259hd g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k bir daha yalvard\u0131:
\n\u2013 N\u0259 olar, ata, s\u0259n\u0259 yalvar\u0131ram… Ax\u0131 m\u0259n s\u0259nin yegan\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131nam. Bir d\u0259 he\u00e7 vaxt s\u0259nd\u0259n he\u00e7 n\u0259 ist\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m, he\u00e7 n\u0259 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn xahi\u015f el\u0259m\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m!
\n\u2013 M\u0259n s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m!
\n\u2013 Ata, ax\u0131 m\u0259n d\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm\u00fcn \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n ke\u00e7\u0259 bilm\u0259r\u0259m! S\u0259n \u00f6z dostuna s\u00f6z vermis\u0259n, m\u0259n d\u0259 bir ba\u015fqas\u0131na! Nolar, qaytar o \u00fcz\u00fcy\u00fc!
\nQulam ki\u015fiy\u0259 sanki sill\u0259 vurdular. Nec\u0259 y\u0259ni \u201cbir ba\u015fqas\u0131na?\u201d O stulu \u00e7\u0259kib oturdu. Dirs\u0259yini masaya qoyub \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc yana \u00e7evirdi. \u00c7ox hirsli olmas\u0131na baxmayaraq a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 s\u0259sl\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2013 M\u0259n daha s\u0259nin i\u015fin\u0259 qar\u0131\u015fmayaca\u011fam. Kim\u0259 gedirs\u0259n get! \u00dcz\u00fcy\u00fc d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u00fc bu g\u00fcn qaytaraca\u011fam. Amma onu da bil ki, m\u0259nim daha s\u0259n adda q\u0131z\u0131m yoxdur! S\u0259n m\u0259ni adamlar\u0131n i\u00e7ind\u0259 h\u00f6rm\u0259tsiz el\u0259din! Daha o ki\u015finin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 baxa bilm\u0259r\u0259m. \u00d6ls\u0259n meyidini d\u0259 yerd\u0259n qald\u0131rmayaca\u011fam. He\u00e7 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 g\u0259lm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m! Q\u0259brin torpaqla bir olub its\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcrm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m! Qoy s\u0259n dey\u0259n olsun! Di get…!
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\nB\u0259li, Solmaz R\u0259c\u0259bin \u00e7ay\u0131na \u015f\u0259k\u0259r salib qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2013 Qoy k\u00f6yneyini ziv\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131m… \u0130ndice \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259yib ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. S\u0259n yem\u0259yini yey\u0259n\u0259 kimi haz\u0131r olacaq.
\nO h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259yirdi. Sonra birlikd\u0259 i\u015f\u0259 gedirdil\u0259r. \u0130ndi yeddi ayl\u0131q hamil\u0259 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn i\u015f\u0259 getmirdi. El\u0259c\u0259 R\u0259c\u0259bi i\u015f\u0259 yola salmaqla kifay\u0259tl\u0259nirdi. Xo\u015fb\u0259xt idi. Tezlikl\u0259 \u00f6vladlar\u0131 d\u00fcnyaya g\u0259l\u0259c\u0259kdi. K\u00f6yn\u0259yi ziv\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011fmaq \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131, h\u0259y\u0259t\u0259 enm\u0259li idi. \u00dc\u015f\u00fcm\u0259sin dey\u0259 uzun, isti xalat\u0131n\u0131 \u0259ynin\u0259 geyindi. El\u0259 bir-iki pill\u0259 enmi\u015fdi ki, q\u0259fl\u0259t\u0259n aya\u011f\u0131 xalat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259t\u0259yin\u0259 ili\u015fdi. \u0130kinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259n da\u015f pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259rl\u0259 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 yuvarland\u0131. R\u0259c\u0259b onun q\u0131\u015fq\u0131r\u0131\u011f\u0131na \u00e7\u00f6l\u0259 \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. Solmaz arxas\u0131 \u00fcst\u0259 h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131nda uzanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131.
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\n\u00c7ox \u00e7\u0259km\u0259d\u0259n b\u00fct\u00fcn k\u0259ndin camaat\u0131 R\u0259c\u0259b gilin qap\u0131s\u0131na y\u0131\u011f\u0131ld\u0131. Solmaz \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 n\u0259f\u0259s al\u0131rd\u0131. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini el\u0259 yan\u0131ndaca dizi \u00fcst\u0259 dayanm\u0131\u015f h\u0259kimin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 zill\u0259yib iniltili s\u0259sl\u0259 yalvard\u0131:
\n\u2013 H\u0259kim, m\u0259n \u00f6lm\u0259k ist\u0259mir\u0259m, m\u0259n\u0259 k\u00f6m\u0259k el\u0259\u2026
\nH\u0259kim Solmaz\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcnd\u0259n qalxd\u0131:
\n\u2013 V\u0259ziyy\u0259ti a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131r. T\u0259cili rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zind\u0259n M\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kimi tap\u0131b g\u0259tirm\u0259k laz\u0131md\u0131r.
\nR\u0259c\u0259bin qarda\u015f\u0131 Kamil qon\u015funun ma\u015f\u0131n\u0131 il\u0259 vaxt itirm\u0259d\u0259n M\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kimin dal\u0131nca rayon m\u0259rk\u0259zin\u0259 yolland\u0131.
\nR\u0259c\u0259b he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 deyildi. Bu y\u0131x\u0131lan insan deyil, onun d\u00fcnyas\u0131 idi. Dizl\u0259ri \u0259sir, ba\u015f\u0131 h\u0259rl\u0259nirdi. \u00dcz\u00fcn\u00fcn r\u0259ngi ka\u011f\u0131z kimi olmu\u015f, \u0259l-aya\u011f\u0131 s\u00fcstl\u0259\u015fmi\u015fdi. O Solmaz\u0131n yan\u0131nda dizi \u00fcst\u0259 yerd\u0259 oturub \u0259ll\u0259rini \u00f6p\u00fcr, onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259 cal\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131.
\n\u2013 Bir az d\u00f6z, Solmaz, indi Kamil M\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kimi g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259k.
\nSolmaz\u0131n g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259 d\u0259h\u015f\u0259t var idi. O b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f g\u00f6zl\u0259rini R\u0259c\u0259bin g\u00f6zl\u0259rin\u0259 zill\u0259yib yalvard\u0131:
\n\u2013 R\u0259c\u0259b, \u00f6l\u00fcr\u0259m, qoyma…! \u018fll\u0259rimi buraxma…! Yoxsa ged\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m…!
\nR\u0259c\u0259b Solmaz\u0131n iniltisin\u0259 d\u00f6z\u0259 bilmirdi. Onun h\u00f6nk\u00fcrt\u00fcs\u00fcn\u00fcn s\u0259sini anas\u0131n\u0131n s\u0259si bat\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2013 \u0130ndic\u0259 M\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kim g\u0259lib n\u0259 laz\u0131msa ed\u0259c\u0259k!
\nYar\u0131m saat sonra Kamil M\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kiml\u0259 g\u0259lib \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131. R\u0259c\u0259bin anas\u0131 q\u0259h\u0259rd\u0259n bo\u011fula-bo\u011fula ona yalvard\u0131:
\n\u2013 H\u0259kim, qurban olum, n\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131 ki g\u0259ldin! M\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yumuram, o\u011flum qoymur. Deyir \u00f6lm\u0259yib ki! Bay\u0131l\u0131b, h\u0259kim g\u0259lib ay\u0131ldacaq.
\nM\u00fct\u0259llim h\u0259kim h\u0259y\u0259tin ortas\u0131nda s\u0259ssiz uzanm\u0131\u015f Solmaza yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. \u018fyilib barmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 boynundak\u0131 \u015fah damara qoyduqdan sonra he\u00e7 k\u0259sin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxmadan t\u0259\u0259ss\u00fcfl\u0259 dedi:
\n\u2013 Art\u0131q gecdir. T\u0259xmin\u0259n yar\u0131m saat bundan \u0259vv\u0259l ke\u00e7inib. \u0130ndi sizd\u0259n ancaq m\u00f6hk\u0259m olmaq t\u0259l\u0259b olunur. Allah s\u0259br versin!
\nR\u0259c\u0259b yerind\u0259n q\u0259fil s\u0131\u00e7ray\u0131b Solmaz\u0131n y\u0131x\u0131lark\u0259n ayaqlar\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131x\u0131b d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 got\u00fcrd\u00fc. Dodaqlar\u0131n\u0131 ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131n alt\u0131na yap\u0131\u015fd\u0131r\u0131b \u00f6pd\u00fckc\u0259 \u00f6pd\u00fc: \u2013 Solmaz…!!! \u2013 dey\u0259 yeri-g\u00f6y\u00fc titr\u0259d\u0259n bir nal\u0259 \u00e7\u0259kdi. Adamlar\u0131n onu sakitl\u0259\u015fdirm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnc\u0259 \u0259lind\u0259ki ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131b k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259y\u0259 qa\u00e7d\u0131.
\n***
\nR\u0259c\u0259b el\u0259 o qa\u00e7an oldu. Da\u011flarda, \u00e7\u00f6ll\u0259rd\u0259 yorulub \u0259ld\u0259n d\u00fc\u015f\u0259n\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r a\u011flay\u0131b q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131, Solmaz\u0131 \u00e7a\u011f\u0131rd\u0131. \u0130p\u0259-sapa yatmad\u0131\u011f\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn he\u00e7 k\u0259s onu dil\u0259 tutub ev\u0259 g\u0259tir\u0259 bilmirdi. Havalanar dey\u0259 m\u0259cbur el\u0259mirdil\u0259r. Acl\u0131qdan, susuzluqdan z\u0259ifl\u0259m\u0259sin\u0259 baxmayaraq he\u00e7 kiml\u0259 k\u0259lm\u0259 k\u0259smir, he\u00e7 kim\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fm\u0131rd\u0131. Ax\u0131rda Min\u0259vv\u0259r onu ev\u0259 g\u0259tirm\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259n yax\u0131nlar\u0131na dedi:
\n\u2013 Siz dayan\u0131n. M\u0259n \u00f6z\u00fcm gedib onunla dan\u0131\u015faram.
\nMin\u0259vv\u0259r R\u0259c\u0259bin sonuncu d\u0259f\u0259 g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc yer\u0259 getdi. Haralarda oldu\u011funu bilmirdi. Dayan\u0131b el\u0259c\u0259 q\u0131\u015fq\u0131rd\u0131:
\n\u2013 R\u0259c\u0259b…! Bura g\u0259l, s\u0259n\u0259 s\u00f6z\u00fcm var…!
\nR\u0259c\u0259b hardansa peyda olub Min\u0259vv\u0259rin d\u00fcz qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda dayand\u0131. H\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 Solmaz\u0131n ba\u015fmaqlar\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u0131xm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u00c7ox ar\u0131qlam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Hals\u0131z idi. Bir d\u0259qiq\u0259 Min\u0259vv\u0259rin \u00fcz\u00fcn\u0259 baxd\u0131qdan sonra ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b susdu.
\n\u2013 R\u0259c\u0259b, bu d\u0259rd t\u0259kc\u0259 s\u0259nin d\u0259rdin deyil. G\u00f6zl\u0259rini qald\u0131r \u00fcz\u00fcm\u0259 bax. M\u0259n yegan\u0259 \u00f6vlad\u0131n\u0131 itirmi\u015f anayam! B\u0259s m\u0259n nec\u0259 d\u00f6z\u00fcr\u0259m, nec\u0259 dayan\u0131ram? S\u0259n d\u0259 m\u0259nim kimi m\u00f6hk\u0259m ol! B\u0259sdir daha, ev\u0259 g\u0259l!
\n***
\nKamil h\u0259y\u0259td\u0259 xarab olmu\u015f su kran\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015firdi. Ona g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 yan\u0131ndan sakitc\u0259 \u00f6t\u00fcb ke\u00e7\u0259r\u0259k ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259y\u0259 qalxan adama \u00e7ox da fikir verm\u0259di. Yeni qurulmu\u015f ail\u0259nin faci\u0259sind\u0259n sonra onlar\u0131n ikinci m\u0259rt\u0259b\u0259d\u0259ki m\u0259nzilin\u0259 he\u00e7 kim getmirdi. O i\u015fini qurtard\u0131qdan sonra aya\u011fa qalxd\u0131. Diqq\u0259tini c\u0259ml\u0259\u015fdirdi: \u201cEl\u0259 bil R\u0259c\u0259b idi ax\u0131!\u201d
\nKamil s\u0259ssiz olma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015faraq pill\u0259k\u0259nl\u0259ri qalxd\u0131. Astaca qap\u0131n\u0131 aralay\u0131b ota\u011fa ke\u00e7di. \u015eefonerin qap\u0131s\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131q idi. R\u0259c\u0259b dizi \u00fcst\u0259 h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tsiz dayanaraq \u00fcz\u00fcn\u00fc \u00e7arpay\u0131n\u0131n \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 s\u0259rdiyi Solmaz\u0131n \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259yin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259mi\u015fdi. Kamil onu \u00e7arpay\u0131dan aralad\u0131. R\u0259c\u0259bin g\u00f6z ya\u015flar\u0131 \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259yin yaxas\u0131n\u0131 islatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Kamil qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131 ehtiyatla \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 do\u011fru \u00e7\u0259kib ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 sin\u0259sin\u0259 s\u00f6yk\u0259di. R\u0259c\u0259bin nitqi \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 se\u00e7ilirdi:
\n\u2013 Solmaz\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcm… Da\u011flarda… Soru\u015fdum, niy\u0259 a\u011f geyinmis\u0259n? \u201cC\u0259hray\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259yim evd\u0259 qal\u0131b, g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 onu da g\u0259tir\u201d \u2013 dedi.
\nKamil: \u2013 R\u0259c\u0259b, g\u00f6zl\u0259 s\u0259n\u0259 su g\u0259tirim, i\u00e7 bir az sakitl\u0259\u015f \u2013 deyib m\u0259tb\u0259x\u0259 ke\u00e7di. Qay\u0131d\u0131b g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 R\u0259c\u0259b art\u0131q ke\u00e7inmi\u015fdi. R\u0259c\u0259bi torpa\u011fa tap\u015f\u0131randa Solmaz\u0131n \u00e7\u0259hray\u0131 k\u00f6yn\u0259ini qatlay\u0131b onun sin\u0259sinin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u0259 qoydular. \u00c7\u00fcnki Solmaza g\u0259l\u0259nd\u0259 k\u00f6yn\u0259yini g\u0259tir\u0259c\u0259yini s\u00f6z vermi\u015fdi.
\n***
\nR\u0259c\u0259bin n\u0259 qarda\u015f\u0131n\u0131n, n\u0259 d\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n pulu olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan q\u0259birl\u0259rin \u00fcst\u00fcn\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u0259 bilm\u0259mi\u015fdil\u0259r. Solmaz\u0131n atas\u0131 is\u0259 pulu oldu\u011fu halda i\u00e7diyi and\u0131 tutmu\u015f, hikk\u0259sind\u0259n q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n q\u0259brin\u0259 he\u00e7 yax\u0131n da getm\u0259mi\u015fdi.
\n\u00dcst\u00fc g\u00f6t\u00fcr\u00fclm\u0259diyind\u0259n t\u0259p\u0259l\u0259nmi\u015f q\u0259bir\u00fcst\u00fc torpaq sovrularaq yerl\u0259 bir oldu. \u00dcst\u0259lik ot da basd\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan q\u0259birl\u0259r vaxt\u0131ndan tez itib-batd\u0131lar. \u0130ndi k\u0259nd q\u0259bristanl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda bo\u015f qalm\u0131\u015f sah\u0259 var. K\u0259nd camaat\u0131 orada iki q\u0259bir oldu\u011funu bilirl\u0259r. Bu R\u0259c\u0259bl\u0259 Solmaz\u0131n itib batm\u0131\u015f qo\u015fa q\u0259birl\u0259ridir.<\/p>\n

18-XII-2016<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Solmaz R\u0259c\u0259bin \u00e7ay\u0131na \u015f\u0259k\u0259r salib qar\u0131\u015fd\u0131rd\u0131: \u2013 Qoy k\u00f6yn\u0259yini ziv\u0259d\u0259n y\u0131\u011f\u0131m… \u0130ndic\u0259 \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259yib ver\u0259c\u0259y\u0259m. S\u0259n yem\u0259yini yey\u0259n\u0259 kimi haz\u0131r olacaq. O h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 bel\u0259 el\u0259y\u0259rdi. \u018frind\u0259n tez yuxudan oyan\u0131b s\u0259h\u0259r yem\u0259yini haz\u0131rlayar, \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259n\u0259si bir \u015fey varsa \u00fct\u00fcl\u0259y\u0259r, \u0259yin-ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 s\u0259liq\u0259y\u0259 salard\u0131. Sonra birlikd\u0259 s\u0259h\u0259rin \u015fehli havas\u0131nda qol-qola verib i\u015f\u0259 ged\u0259rdil\u0259r. K\u0259ndd\u0259 h\u0259r bir k\u0259s onlar\u0131n ard\u0131ndan h\u0259s\u0259dl\u0259 […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-24074","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-edeb"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24074","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=24074"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24074\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":24076,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/24074\/revisions\/24076"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=24074"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=24074"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/edebiyyat-az.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=24074"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}